#i mean . idk OKAY lets move on

[baellielurk]

#for my ravenloft besties #fucking hysterical the both of these #weird and powerful guy enters barovia and strahd's like... yo what if you moved in #okay okay okay do NOT point out that he decidedly did not let azalin ''sleep over'' for this im considering his room to be barovia shush #enemies to unwilling friends to finally back to enemies thank fucking god it was close okay no i hate you bestie i mean worstie fuck you #recent mentions of azalin made me think of this #azalin #jander sunstar #ravenloft #idk i dont care about tagging this further bye

[ichorblossoms]

having ttw Thoughts while reading house of leaves but it's nothing that's lead to a breakthrough yet so i'm just like soaking in the vibes

#ttw's been in limbo for the past few months. as it is wont to do really #there's a lot of nebulous connective tissue that's currently the middle of the story and it needs more direction but nothing has really bee #particularly exciting for my brain to gnaw on #also honeybee's been my brain's Focus for the past few months so it's not like i'm twiddling my thumbs with nothing to write #but yeah house of leaves and ttw it's like. okay the House super parallels what i want of the undertow as this like. nebulous structure #that's kind of alive on its own and doesn't adhere to any actual expectations of space #(the undertow is like. the semi-literal bowels of the city of sanguine) #and i knew that going in to the story that it was going to be similar so that's somethign that's sparking some things #but also the main character. one of the mains idk how to even articulate that. main narrator i think. #anyways he reminds me of leon as someone who doesn't have much going for him being super fucking susceptible prey of sorts for this...nebul #ous entitiy #not to mention my thoughts on the city of sanguine as like how a city is given life by its denizens. and that interpretation of the city- #affects how the undertow manifests for different people #and how it (sanguine) wants people to stay but will happily let you go if it knows you'll come right back to it #but if you want to Leave it'll happily trap you in endless corridors for ever and ever #and serena being the only one of the main cast who was born and raised in the city and therefore has such a deep connection to it before #yknow. realizing it's Alive in a way #vs the rest of the cast who have all moved to the city and don't see sanguine the same #vs leon too who has absolutely adopted this city as their home and what that means #oh that is a Tag Ramble hello #rambles #thicker than water

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by

#bc like. i'm getting by just fine. i don't have anything to be reasonably worried about #but also when i was a kid my father would break down my mother's paycheck and basically explain how broke we were #and that May Have Affected Me Somewhat #as well as just. the way you consistently see the advice to just save! don't get takeout! necessities! and i'm not intent on living like #a monk nor am i intent on being on that grindset for financial gain #it's like i don't intrinsically care but i have so many messages given to me about how i need to care a lot and it puts me in a weird spot #i am simultaneously standing still and moving at mach speeds #i mean right now i just need a safety net while in between jobs; after that i need to save up to move out of state bc the uh #political situation and upcoming presidential election don't seem very sustainable for someone like me anymore #they weren't to begin with but i don't wanna stick around to see how bad it's gonna get #but it's like. okay and then what? save for what? going back to school i guess? idk #i feel like i keep asking myself what i'm trying to accomplish and keep trying to force myself to have answers #here and now when i have to be okay with taking things one step at a time instead of having everything here and now #it's simultaneously fine and terrible and i am holding two conflicting yet equal truths #i feel i may have a clearer head once i leave my current job. i'm trying to look but nothing feels appealing given how #burnt out i already feel. i dread going back into my workplace and i fear it's showing to the patients and i don't want that #i want a month off to rediscover who i am as a person outside of getting yelled at in retail and then pick something back up #could be feasible. genuinely could be. i need to sort out the health insurance aspect but. that's lowkey the plan? #to construct a financial safety net and then slam on the breaks for a while; see if i can strike up a deal with the staff about me #coming in for specific tasks bc we already know i'm quick and efficient with the inventory so i do have a little leverage #you know what. this is getting some of it off my chest and i'm starting to feel confident again lmao #i won't be doing weekends starting either next week or the week after so that's a start! i just think i want everything done right now #bc i'm afraid i won't have the chance again but i will. i definitely will #i just need to let myself get to that point; it's just the immense drain from the register work and the Everything that comes with retail #also having to accept that it's okay to leave this; there's not something wrong with me like. ''not being able to handle it'' or w/e #no mindfulness or detachment could've saved me; it was shit and i'm hitting the bricks and that's all there is to it #i've been thinking a lot about it all lately bc it's what's most prominent in my life rn of course #idk. pondering. introspecting. as i am wont to do #anyways if you've read all this you're a real mvp and i am kissing you on the hand #shai speaks

[itspileofgoodthings]

I don’t know what a parasocial relationship is and at this point I’m too afraid to ask.

#I mean I sort of get it #but there is a mental block #it’s not all poisonous I guess!!!! sometimes you love people from afar!!!!! it’s okay!!!!! #reality will let you know when it’s time to let them go #I loved stonefield for YEARS and you know what it’s good they broke up because it got too intense #and I healed and moved on. but also like. love from afar isn’t inherently messed up and twisted #‘why woULd aNYoNe CAre ABouT ceLEBritIEs’ #ummm idk because they’re human beings And have you met human beings they can be so funny and fascinating and charming #No amount of fame or ego undoes that and sometimes it just makes it more tragic #and like. I say this as someone who has (largely) moved on from caring about celebrities the way that I used to #because like. I needed to. And I needed to grow up #and learn to love the people in my life the most #and to understand who that was #and that it WASn’t Emma stone #But like. I loved her truly and a part of my heart still does #anyway like. all of our lives/loves need to be purified in the Sacred Heart #that is just how it goes #and that is the only way to never lose them #Cc: that cs lewis quote about how only in loving Him more than them can we love them more than we now do etc. etc. #anyway I can’t remember my point but like oh yeah sometimes you love people from afar and they’re special to you and like THAT’s OKAY #like yeah yeah blah blah equal healthy relationships that go both ways where you are also seen and loved yeah yeah #it just annoys me though #Life is about learning how to love deeply and purely #and you only learn that by loving #Reality will teach you!!! when it’s off balance a little and needs to adjust !!!!!!!! #something will smack you in the face #But the act of love is never wasted #Okay I DO know what a parasocial relationship is (sort of) I just hate the rhetoric #Love the things you love with your WHOLE heart!!!! Give your WHOLE HEART to things!!!!!!!!! Yes it will get broken!!!!!! That’s okay!!!!!!! #Do not choose disdain!!!!!!!! Do not let anyone tell you you can’t love people or things YES YOU CAN

[cagedchoices]

🎲 from lulu kekekeke double kisses

kiss roulette

3. a kiss on the forehead

@prettydead

They had come so far in such a short time of knowing each other. Few could have predicted that when Lulu and Caleb met in that fateful opening night performance, there would be so much invested in the relationship that sprang forth afterward. It was like love at first sight, for those who believe in such ideas.

A strong basis of attraction, in that Caleb thought Lulu was cute and Lulu thought Caleb was cute and then in the course of the Dazzling Ludmilla's famous knife-throwing act, they were cute together. The first time Lulu invited him to hang out with her after the show, he found he was quickly enamored with everything about her. From her bubbly, warm and outgoing personality to the cozy, warm atmosphere of her tent. Every inch of free space was unmistakably decorated with nothing but love, and might as well have been an enchantment cast over him and his simplistic senses.

He had to admit he still felt surprised when Lulu invited him to hang out with her after the cirque's closing night a little over a month later. He braced for the worst - maybe she'd tell him that they were fun while it lasted, but now the circus was moving on and so was she. Maybe they'd have one last night together and then that'd be it. The tent now sat feeling quite empty and lifeless and lonesome, almost all of Lulu's influence on it now sitting packed away and ready to be moved.

As Caleb helped her finish with the very last of her belongings, he mentally prepared for the heavily dreaded conversation to follow. "So, that's the last of it…" he said, smiling weakly and lowering his head. Why did saying goodbyes have to be so hard? "You're all set to go."

What she says in response, he wonders if he willfully misheard. A flight of fancy on his part…but maybe…did she actually just say…? "Wait—"

"You're not going with them…" he repeats, lifting his head hopefully. The color in his eyes livens up as Lulu explains more. He stumbles forward, gently cupping his hands around her jawline. "You're staying here… With me?"

It's more than enough to make his eyes water with a few joyful tears. Given the choice between a career with her circus family, or a life with Caleb, Lulu seems to be ready and willing to give the latter a shot. A genuine smile on his face, he presses his lips to hers as he has so many times before. He parts from the kiss, gently tipping her head down to place another kiss at her forehead, and then carefully aligning the tip of his nose with hers as their heads rest together. After a few moments, he lets out a soft laugh.

"Oh my god... Don't ever scare me like that again."

#prettydead #the other side of you — dyn | lulu & caleb. #answered tbt. #modern v1 tbt. #realistically i don't think lulu would just let caleb go round under the impression that their whirlwind romance doesn't mean anything #but apparently i wanted a lil bit of drama so skfjslgjakfjd #on the other hand it seems not unlike their brand to just be a little bit unpredictable #and have 'im staying here to be with you because i am in love with you' be a surprise move #idk! i hope it's okay tho

[smoosnoom]

for the soft asks uhh how about 7 12 n 21 ?? i hope ur having a stellar day 💫

7. what color brings you peace? - light blue and dark brown !!!!! lovely colors

12. how are you? - just because of u vin i am doing so spectacular ! a little upstrung but just because i should be writing rn . but i am doing a-ok !!!! :D

21. if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be? -

DO NOT GET A TWITTER

#the last one is a joke i met some very lovely ppl #um probably . dont wrjte a practice kissing fic even if majority rly liked it #i mean . idk OKAY lets move on #thank u vin for being so nice i hope tomorrow treats u so kindly and u find a ten dollar bill on tje ground #/ask

[bloggirl8842]

My psych says I don’t like my mom or my ex because they make me vulnerable but I think it’s because they are/were both serial boundary violators. Well serial boundary violators sounds serious but I mean they are just good kind people who would not leave me alone when i ask(ed)

#i mean so am i so i dont exactly blame them but like. my mom doesnt knock used to hold me down and epilate my body doesnt take no for an #answer ever on anything unless youre MEAN to her and i dont mean anything serious i mean she asked me to go to the store with her to pick #out paint for her walls i said no she asked again i said no she asked again i said no so she went on her own and facetimed me so id help her #pick. my ex had a similar thing where if i was like hey lets not talk tomorrow im burnt out hed be like okay and then the next day early #morning he’d send a good morning text and then several more throughout the day and then we’d call at the end of the night #people do who not let you fucking breathe. i hate it. if i saw my mom less often id probably like her but her so much as sitting next to me #on the couch will have me tense and pissed. she also takes glee in hating things i like and its not a conscious or serious thing but its #really weird. ive done the same for her since i was little i dont know who did it first. like ok we’re moving our new place had wallpaper in #my room i wanted to keep it she wanted to remove it she agreed to keep it and then made plans to remove it bc she was going to get rid of it #at some point later on anyway for the house’s value or something. they removed it recently and she showed me a vid of the place and when she #gets to my room shes like hehehe its goneee like girl what the fuck is going on with you. she wouldnt let me change the decoration of my #room as a child it had to be the way she liked it. even my body had to be the way she liked it dude the epilation thing shed laugh as i #cried (in a shirt and underwear man) bc i was finally hairless. my ex was nowhere near that bad but again ZERO breathing room and whenever #id try to take some hed be like ‘’i just worry that if you take this space you’ll come back and break up with me’’ uh. yeah with that #attitude the breakup’s coming either way. he’s a good guy though just 24 and a man (both sad afflictions) he’ll shape up. or not. idk im no #t invested #he did listen to a lot of what i said just not the basic things of ‘’leave me the fuck alone sometimes’m #im annoyed that my therapist framed this as a me issue but shes right when it comes to me having trouble w vulnerability and i should just #clarify my pov here so she can change her assessment #my ex leaves me alone now. he does a great job at it i thiiink hes moved on which im happy about #i dont know if id ever want to be friends again though idk if either of us can do that #i cant. rn #i understand why he wanted so much from me though. i get it

[zemnarihah]

started moving some of my shit over to my new apartment today adn well. its moving.

#i hate moving so bad. i hate the fact that this is like my 5th(???)time moving in the past #like 4 years? #also like. i doooo think this new place WILL be better but also i really liked my current place:( like i probably wouldve chosen to stay #here but my roommate rlly hated it. #this was the biggest room ive ever had it was sooo nice i love having space. #the new place will be nice bc its v close to my school and my friends and fam like ill be able to walk to school. where i live rn its like #a 20 min drive. and itll be nice to not have to deal w parking at my school bc those parking lots are literally hell on earth. and im gonna #be spending so little on gas #it just is like. well im literally done w in person class until fall semester. so all of that quite literally doesnt matter at the moment. #the only immediate change happening is that. its gonna be smaller #also its gonna be just me and my bestie. which will be good i mean our other roommate isnt that bad by any means but i think it will be #nice to have it just be the 2 of us #also im gonna sneak buttercup in bc its also more expensive and no way am i paying more for a smaller apartment and ALSO paying pet rent #pet rent is insane anyway but especially for buttercup like SHES A CAT. #but yeah they asked if we had pets and i was like no:) and the girl at the desk goes #okay just let us know if that changes bc if we catch you:) theres a fine:) and idk if she like noticed the cat hair im always covered in or #smth but i feel like she knew. but im not worried lol it was funny though #anyway. i will have to oceans 11 heist smuggle her in (take her on saturday when management isnt there)

[softandwildx]

I know here on tumblr we like to LOL @ the cringey haters together but I just really want to acknowledge and send love to anyone who is quietly struggling with any harassment or hate they have to deal with for being who they are.

Whether it's because of your sexuality, orientation, mental health, body, skin color, etc. it's okay if you're not able to make jokes about something you're struggling with, and ultimately others can't truly understand.

But you're not alone and even though it may not always come across in the best way, there are entire communities behind you and people quietly loving you right back.

#i keep seeing these really awful nasty anons today and i don't know what's wrong with people #and i know the usual reponse is just to clown on these people but a lot of us on here don't have good support systems irl #and sometimes you can't just let it roll off and call the troll a troll and move on you know #hurtful shit can cut deep sometimes and it's okay to feel hurt by someone going out of their way to hurt you #i wouldn't wish it on anyone but you're not naive or too sensitive if your feelings get hurt by mean people #idk man people are shitty sometimes and i hope everyone is doing okay

[arthur-r]

hi how is everybody doing??

#im ok im a little bit terrified about how i’m graduating in a couple seconds #by which i mean months but it feels that way #and like hooray i get to move away and be transgender and study history and help people and everything i’ve always wanted to do #but also. the kids in my graduating class. i dont know all of them. a lot of them hate me. but at least they’ve been familiar faces #and the idea of going away to a college where nobody knows my name is kind of terrifying #like i know the entire point is to reinvent myself. but isn’t that scary?? i’m going to become somebody new and that terrifies me #anyway i’m so normal regular. in other news i’m about to have a cranberry orange muffin. so wish me luck with that #anyway there’s this girl i kind of like and i kind of wanted to say something but now it’s kind of pointless #she’s going to the u of m. i’m going to wisconsin. that’s just the end of the road isn’t it?? #nothing is strong enough to say anything. but the problem is it’s like this in high school and i go to college and reinvent myself #then what?? i leave college and reinvent myself again!!!! get a masters reinvent myself again!! move towns reinvent myself again!! #struck by the realization that nothing in life is ever permanent except for death. how terrifying is that #anyway i am so normal and regular and cool and good feeling. everything will really truly be okay it’s just #idk. it’s weird being at this stage in my life. didn’t mean to ramble on like that though #so anyway i hope you all are well and would love to know how you are doing. other than this stuff i’m just hanging out #sending all the love to my senior friends who are in this predicament. and my junior friends who aren’t here yet. and whoever else shdhdf #but especially my friends who are my age or like a year older who are in this same kind of soon-to-be-overwritten high school experience #wish you the best of luck finishing and starting over. and try not to take it as seriously as i’m doing its probably not that bad rationally #and so anyway i hope you are doing well and let me know how you’ve been!! hope everybody is okay #ask to tag idk if this was vent territory but it was like. kinda nearly. i can tag with whatever #me. my post. mine. #college talk #(sorry!!) #delete later

[drunk-poets-society]

The funny thing about grief is that you just can’t rationalise it. Yeah sure you can think about it logically, make sense of it in that way, but then there’s this constant, nagging, clawing part of you that’s just deeply human, that just wants to be human, almost desperately so, and it overrides logic sometimes and that’s ok

#recent events have been a bit heavy #sigh #bad start to this year :| #I mean I guess I’m pretty cold and don’t show much emotion other than happiness and glee when I’m with people I like but I don’t really ever #let the sadness or anger come up to the surface because I find them to be awfully inconvenient so I just deal with them with a neutral face #and it looks as if I don’t feel anything and I don’t as long as I wear that expression but then sometimes something just happens that you #simply cannot keep it in and it does come out and then I feel like I’ve betrayed myself. but it’s okay that’s life. and though my coping s #mechanisms might not be the healthiest they have gotten me this far and maybe one day I’ll live a life where expressing those emotions don’t #doesn’t* make me cringe and one day I’ll able to live out the true experience of being human but until then I’ll have to keep it all packed #tightly inside me as if they are bags of luggage that I don’t really have any use for but I take with me everywhere and never unpack #maybe some day I’ll find a home and can unpack it all and get rid of what’s not needed. one day and I have no choice but to move along #until I find a home. sometimes circumstances are just like that. you can’t survive if you waste your time crying or punching walls #idk. sigh. I’m just putting this here #text

[peachyteabuck]

i think for awhile i didn’t believe i had RSD b/c im not a people pleaser & so much of rsd discussions revolve around that. there’s no real point to this textpost im just processing how someone can look at me and go “yeah this person is Totally Normal”

#i mean they didnt #no person has looked at me and gone 'this person is fine' #but u just get treated as the weird kid and u move on #im not saying that ppl pleasers have it easier somehow?? or that ppl pleasers need. like. to shut up #rather i think how we discuss rsd esp when the 'we' is NTs #should like. shift a tad. #open the circle. u know the drill #idk i got rejected from food stamps this morning #(i'll be okay i can reapply once my second job lets me log hours) #and for some reason it like. flicked at my heart #im also on like day -1 of my period #so im a little sensitive #a little rubbed raw #thinking abt how ppl always want to call me mean #but never want to thank me for booking meetings or calling ppl or sending emails #im always too mean until they cant pick up the phone #or dont know how to ask for what they want #why do i get to be a bitch when im the only one who accomplishes things. #why do i have to be the loud one when im the only one willing to speak up #just ((screams)) #lukis says things

[bloodyke]

its that time of the night where you start reflecting on things and realize that you actually ARE mad about things you thought you moved on from ages ago

#zenith.txt #and by that i mean i thought i had already given up on my time and wishes being respected and to just let things go #but im actually really upset about all of the little things that keep happening over and over #like i started thinking about how i needed to get something and i specifically asked months in advance MULTIPLE TIMES #for my parents to help me with it (bc I can't drive or make phonecalls and need them to make the appointment and take me there) #and ive been asking for three whole months multiple times bc i needed this done so i could have everything in time #and i brought it up again today bc the deadline is very close and they were like oh we forgot oops and i was like its okay it happens #and asked them to just make the appointment now and then i moved on bc i get it my memory sucks too #but now ive been thinking about it and they ONLY seem to forget about things ive asked them #my haircut the appointment driving me to the post office events i wanted to go to specific items i asked for by name when asled whag i want #etc etc etc #and it seems like an ongoing pattern of me constantly getting thrown to the side and disregarded..... #idk its very irritating especially when IM the one blamed like i dont remind everyone every single day #its not just about the appointment either its EVERYTHING #like asking them to stop making specific jokes always ends u with them doing it again after a short time had passed like i never even asked

[lilgynt]

oh i did go on that dinner that turned into pool and then smoking by the mountains but goal was met he wanted to khs

#personal #i sent my friend like 7 three minute long videos to explain it all i’m not typing that out #but to sum it up. he was very nervous whole time i was cool as a cucumber #he wants to properly date and has tried moving on but it feels disgusting so it’s either me or nothing at least for several months #i don’t want to date bc 1 don’t trust him 2 im not gonna look through his phone or track him im not doing all that #3 i’m not embarrasing myself to my friends and family etc etc #at most i could fuck him but wouldn’t do exclusivity since i couldn’t expect that of him #he’s very upset that he fucked it up also made that worse by telling him true things i did when i had a crush #very tasty VERY tasty also knows i’m talking to other people #amended that later to i could do exclusivity but i couldn’t date/ claim him #and he had the gun back of his throat at that part he was like ah. that’s how it feels from the other side hearing that #bc he’s done that to a lot of people and i was like LMAO. i laughed in his face a lot #also so good he had to go at pool and was like when can i. CAN i see you again?? am i ever gonna see you again??? and i was like idk lmao #so he was like you know what lemme see if you can come with and i was like ain’t that a serious talk with ur friend and he’s like let me #see okay just hold up #also at pool he was giving tips and i was like dude im not getting it just move me how you need #man got so fucked up and i was like i don’t want to touch you unnecessarily if i don’t know how to get it in but god. i want to touch you #and anytime he had to touch me would hold on for a hot hot second #also i made sure i looked bad as fuck and one of the first things if not first thing he said was how good i’m looking #anyway learned this week i love being cruel and mean and that did come out #anyway a lot of stuff happened hang out went from like 9 to 2 am #oh and so bad he called it a date and i genuinely asked this is a date and he was like :0 :00 :0000000

[bunnyb34r]

Well guess the Easter Weekend Curse in my family is still ongoing... yay...

Context, every Easter weekend that I can remember, something bad happens.

Grandma got sick and went to the hospital, huge fight between my mom's brother in law and my dad, probably was when my dad and his dad had the fight that split them up until the end, aunt died, dad died, other aunt died, got hurt at the water park, family fight/rift BECAUSE we went to the waterpark instead of having our egg hunt (between extended family being immature. Yall could host one that's an idea). Uh family fight, family fight, another family fight (gee I wonder why we stopped doing the egg hunt).

Today's was just emotional blowup and minor breakdown (not ab DogCousin wgdgdgd dont worry)

And bonus: I guess easter was always when my moms oldest sister would run away. God forbid we spend ONE DAY not praising her and spend it focused on the resurrection of Christ. 🙄

Anyway it happens every goddamn year and it still surprises me every time 🙄🙄

#marquilla #the rift was bc my cousins (who at the time were in high school and for the past 3 egg hunts just sat in a corner texting each other) were #SO UPSET that we decided hey lets NOT stress ab this stupid party that inevitably leads to fights and lets go do something different #just the 3 of us. i mean hell the oldest is in college and the youngest is 8 so pretty much everyone has aged out of the egg hunt. #but apparently that was the wrong move bc how DARE we deprive them of the chance to sit in a corner and ignore the rest of the family and #text each other. (it was literally 2 sisters and 1 cousin. the cousin could have just idk VISITED THEM ANY FUCKING TIME??? you #dont need an egg hunt for this?? yall drive now??) and how DARE we deprive them the chance to look for candy in the grass. didnt we know we #had a monopoly on filling plastic eggs with candy?? no one else can do that but US! #like the youngest literally did not care one way or the other that year and the youngest group of us wouldve been 8-13. so not like we #put a stop to it bc /i/ outgrew it and there were still toddlers #it was tra/dwifes family btw like her specifically and she wouldnt let my mom fucking forget for like a decade #several times we told her YOU can host it no ones stopping you 🙄 but noooo it's not special that way! 🙄🙄🙄 #im still bitter ab that i guess but bc of the grief she gave my poor mother and the subsequent grief our relatives gave us for it #over fucking plastic eggs and candy #and it wasnt like it was ever a competition bc my mom would always count the eggs in the big ass tub and how many kids were playing and it #would be like 'okay everyone gets 12 eggs. when you hit 12 STOP' bc we didnt wanna have more drama and tears over PLASTIC FUCKING EGGS #anyways i hate this shit bc easter should be a joyus time and it always fucking sucks #every goddamn year

[babisawyer]

got so stressed out I literally sat down and started praying and my mom was like "you've gotta be fucking kidding me."

#🐇 #bullied!!!! I'm being bullied #jokes on her because it actually worked out so. #okay so this is gonna get wild I can promise you #not about why I was praying we're moving on from that it's in the past #my anxiety is so bad rn like so bad it's giving me the jitters and I wanna pace but I don't like to pace because my parents are always like #um what the fuck are you doing???? and then on top of that like my anxiety sorta peaks right and then I get these little hints of depressin #thoughts and I keep knocking them out of the park dude like get the fuck outta here!!!!! #and also I have two packages coming so like don't be sad! you have things to be excited for! but then I got an email that the first package #is gonna be late of course it is. I want my goth crocs I want my vibrators I'm a good person #I mean don't get me wrong I'm excited about the other order it's got crystals but like that's not supposed to be here for a week #probably more let's be real that one's gonna be late too #maybe I need to do my nails I need fresh ones it's probably been two weeks and one fully cracked in half it's the opposite of a coke nail #um yeah idk if I have more to say tbh goodbye for now