#i think abt all of this a lot tbh

[mumuqings]

tgcf book spoilers, but one mu qing and xie lian snippet that I think about a lot is this one, at the start of xie lian’s second banishment when he’s surprised to hear mu qing being described as generous and kind:

as opposed to this memory from before his first ascension when mu qing started giving out cherries to the kids in the city:

I think it just really goes to show 1) how deeply mq’s actions truly affected xl and what he thought of him, but also 2) just how different mq and xl are fundamentally in the way that they think and approach things.

I don’t have a lot of commentary on xl that hasn’t already been said, but bc we get the story from xl’s pov, we see a lot of mq’s actions being framed as selfish or suspicious (which is fair, bc again, we know how much his actions hurt xl), but we also see a lot of misconstrued kindness, like in book 8 where it’s revealed that he knocked out fx in order to save him. it’s also pretty obvious how much mq still cares abt xl, with how quickly he volunteers as fu yao and the lengths he goes to protect him when he deems hc a threat, so I also think it’s very likely that mq leaving the trio first was exactly what he said it was — that he thought becoming a junior official, ascending quickly, would be the best way to take care of not just his mother, but also xl, fx, the king and queen, and himself, and so in a way, him leaving was him acting on his kindness. but ofc it doesn’t work out, and he spends the next 800 years fighting w/ fx about it, defending himself, his decisions, and his kindness, and nitpicking the accuracies of his statues while he himself remains completely misunderstood by the two people he probably cares abt the most.

and idk, I guess I just think that’s probably a really lonely way to spend 800 years.

#idk where I was going w this actually #but misunderstood mq who cares so much abt how he’s perceived is smth that I think abt a lot #really resonates w my eldest daughter scapegoat of the family trauma tbh #also to be clear I don’t think xl was in the wrong for chasing him away either #I think they were both just twenty year olds doing their best in a situation that twenty year olds shouldn’t have to face #that said I do think it’s hilarious and incredible that fq spent 800 years beating each other up instead of having one (1) conversation #anyway! I love all three of them! I’m glad they get a happy post canon! #oh also I think mq deserved more than just a ‘just so u know dianxia never thought that poorly of u! just be normal!’ #i think he deserves an apology actually #tgcf #tgcf spoilers #mu qing #xie lian #feng xin #xianle trio #yams thoughts

[ohmaerieme]

going to come out and say it i dont think louie and olimar are either romance coded or father son coded. both are wrong and i am always right and i say queerplatonic friendship. LISTEN TO ME. listen to me ok. do you understand my vision.

#can you tell ive been thinking abt pikmin 2 a lot #i dont see them doing romance stuff at all tbh #but their bond is deep and life will never be the same for either of them now #what surviving on a dangerous toxic planet together does to a mf #DO YOU. UNDERSTAND. MY VISION #thats all for now . #/// #pikmin #pikmin fanart #captain olimar #louie pikmin #olimar pikmin #my art #ohmaerieme

[biracy]

I can't remember if I've posted abt this before but regardless: I'm sorry but I really and truly cannot get behind the idea that there is any wide-scale societal "pressure for trans men to be feminine" or "to be twinks" or whatever. You are either conflating a very small online community's beauty standard (usually some kind of transmasc pseudo-appropriation of "femboy" aesthetics, which yes, are often Bad and regressive and fetishized and etc.) with Mainstream Society, or confusing society not wanting trans men to transition with "wanting trans men to be feminine", which are certainly not the same thing. Ultimately if a cis person believes there is any validity to the concept of being trans (i.e. not a Posie Parker-esque "there's no such thing as a trans person" type), they are more likely to think that trans men should be like as masc and buff and hairy as possible or whatever bc that's what cis people think men look like and it's easier for a lot of people to recognize someone who Looks Masc as a man. It is difficult sometimes to see derision of trans guys who are Too Feminine and Not Hairy Enough or whatever (which is not always something someone has control over btw) as anything but "this is Skye who I think is a confused little girl because Skye does not pass" slightly restyled for 2023 "filthcore fagdykes" or whatever lol

#and btw 'twink' is not synonymous with 'skinny' that's not all it means i am so so so tired of seeing it used that way #i am also tired of like Positivity Posts for 'bears' needing to be based on derision of 'twinks'. get over that! #open mick night #lgbt #gender #god this is like that post where op is like It's sooooo hard being a trans girl who wants a vagina bc that's not the mainstream :pensive: #is it not? mainstream society decided women can have dicks? since when? #let men be masculine or whatever #sorry i know i've been talking abt this a lot lately but yknow it Is difficult. given the way i look and all that #like people keep saying that elliot page tweet was Actually About Body Type but like. is it? or is it about I Don't Think Elliot Page Passe #also tbh people say the same shit abt cis men. 'people are okay with Fem Queers(tm) but not Masc Queers(tm)' wow are they? since when? #and are the people telling men they're not allowed to be masculine in the room with us right now

[sitzfleischh]

Darling, there's a part of me / I'm afraid will always be / trapped within an abstract from a moment of my life.

{Listen on Spotify}

#does it even count as a fandom for me until I make an extremely elaborate 8tracks style blorbo playlist with a full narrative arc ??? #and YEAH I KNOW I put the same bands in my playlists every time - what of it - I have consistent taste #bbc ghosts #bbc ghosts playlist #the captain #the captain ghosts #capvers #captain/havers #capvers playlist #sitzfleischh.edit #anyway this might be my best playlist yet - there is basically an entire fanfic in my head that accompanies this tbh #caphavers #I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ABT THE CAPTAIN OK #also more people need to listen to legendary Canadian band the Weakerthans #it didn't fit for this playlist but go listen to Past Due by the Weakerthans and think about all the ghosts and cry

[plounce]

elle and emmett from the legally blonde musical are one of those m/f couples that i think work best as a woman and a man purely because their relationship and how elle wouldn't stay at harvard for him because she has grown to want true respect & success more than a man she loves' approval/desire is like so important to the themes of the story and it's the whole point and it's part of what makes them so good. on the other hand emmett could be such a hot butch lesbian it's crazy i want to eat drywall when i think about emmett forrest but a butch lesbian BUT it simply would not improve and in fact would detract from the themes of the story. they have to be m/f

#chirps #tangentially. i think that a trans man casting for emmett would be really great for a lot of reasons #the scene of elle buying him really nice men's formalwear and finding clothes that he likes and feels good in... #'take it like a man' in general would have such another layer of meaning and love to it #anyway. there would be a really interesting dimension to their relationship in terms of elle embracing hyperfemininity & emmett being trans #and how their respective relationships with & presentations of gender impede them in the upper-class Professional world of harvard #man that'd be really cool... that would add soooo much to the show... #Emmett Forrest. You Must Be Transgender Now. #tbh thinking more. t4t f/m elle/emmett would be so incredible but also so fucking devastating for certain things. BUT THEY TRIUMPH!!!!! #<- all my tags aren't me trying for a 'best of both worlds' option wrt casting. just me thinking abt how the roles gender plays in this sho #and the ways different casting choices could shine light into different facets #the 2022 west end revival had them both as black which also is really great stuff i think... i wanna find a full boot for that

[hampink]

i still think its a little bit insane that gira was destined by BLOOD to KILL jeramie but instead chose to deny his own fate and fight dugded with jeramie by his side instead

#kingohger #ohsama sentai kingohger #king ohger #giramie #gira hastie #gira husty #jeramie brasieri #the way the show glosses over this like yeah the hasties have been doing this for years yeah dugded said all this In Front of Jeramie #also i like to think this is where jeramie RLLY realizes hes in love with gira. his speech abt dictating his own fate and #showing that hes really ready to risk it all for the sake of jeramies kind/bugnarak and the peace of chikyuu.. #jeramie's “thats more like it/there you go” when gira smirked here was so “thats the gira i know and fell in love with” coded #tbh giras actions here probably impacted jeramie a lot and is why jermy similarly “risked it all/threw everything away” by making himself #a villain(in itself also inspired by gira) later on... #kingohger spoilers

[kenobihater]

apparently if you pressure astarion into sex after his confession in act 2 he'll straight up dump you, which makes me happy to hear because he's developing his boundaries and relearning self worth. it's a hard scene to watch (and one i could never bring myself to play through personally), but i'm really glad the developers included it bc your actions should have consequences and you shouldn't be able to treat the characters like shit and have them still fawn over you. also, he says THIS in response to tav saying that he seemed to be enjoying himself, and i don't think he could get more explicitly ace unless he had a big blinking neon sign on his forehead that read ACESPEC

#len speaks #astarion #bg3 #like i understand not everyone gets this dialogue (i sure didn't) but it feels bad to ignore his plainly stated identity tbh!! #idk. i'm very nascent in my gray ace identity but its not nice to see people straight up ignore his identity for their own gratification and #pleasure (like the drow scene tbh. not a fan of that) #like at the end of the day its a video game and he's fictional and you can do whatever you want forever but his asexuality means a lot to me #and ik i'm not alone in that. so i think allo ppl should be aware and respectful of that and at the LEAST not spew aphobia or anything #like the bar is in hell but it's still not being cleared. thankfully i havent seen very much of that at all firsthand but i do not trust #this website to be normal abt characters like him lol

[vamprnce]

here we go, I doodled him as a fox 🤲🦊

#my art #kusuriuri #mononoke 2007 #medicine seller #i dont do furry art a lot/at all so im nervous to post this.... 😶🫣 i rough when it comes to animals sjfjgk #but honestly i really wanted to draw him as a fox 😔 i couldn't stop thinking abt it #i see him as a catboy too tbh #was gonna do kayo as a cat as well but just dod kusu for now :') maybe will doodle her next time

[tastywaffles]

+write how u became a fan!! im so curious

#i do think 2016 was their peak #the og 3 + kami band interactions #lots of touring and lots of interviews and they were getting so much traction #won awards and all #i personally became a fan on 1st of jan 2021 #because a mutual mentioned them to me 1 one time and now im totally normal abt them #babymetal #sumetal #moametal #momometal #yuimetal #kami band #im curious because now they collabed with 3 artists who have different fanbases #i wanna know which one got them more fans #i feel like it'd be bmth tbh #maybe by next year the uzi collab would top it but rn i think the bmth collab brought them more fans than uzi's

[kideternity]

[Image ID: Inked digital drawing of Digimon character Justimon. Justimon is a humanoid with a heavily Tokusatsu superhero inspired design- wearing a bodysuit with multiple different armoured parts particularly around their left shoulder, elbow and wrist, ankles, knees and chest and abdomen area as well as rivets dotted around their body. They have a belt with a large circular belt buckle spiked at four corners in the middle, as well as a very long scarf. They have a metal helmet on with no facial features, and four metal antenna- two longer ones that are sticking up and two shorter ones sticking down at each ear area respectively. Their right arm- a redesign of the accel arm- is much longer and bigger, with sharp claws at the end of it. It is very mechanical looking, with tubing and more rivet and gear motifs, their right shoulderpad having a blunt spike coming up from the middle. They are in a mid action pose, as if they were jumping or running, looking to the side with their head slightly lowered, their left arm bent closer towards their body whilst the right arm is fully outstretched. There are dark patches of shadow around certain parts of their body and scarf as well as small action lines. /End Image ID]

His strange fighting pose

#digimon #justimon #digital monsters #digimon fanart #dinu yells into the void #dinu yells in the void #dinu's sketchy art #digimon tamers #if literally any one person understands the like band reference im making with the like post caption ill. #idk ill get you lunch or something #WITHOUT LOOKING IT UP BEFOREHAND ill know #anyways i like justimon a lot. #hate ryo more then literally anything godbless but i LOVE justimon generally #its one of my top 5 digimon of all time tbh #rabbit coded ass digimon with those big ol metal antenna #i will say though. i like the different arm concept. but i dont like the execution #so that is yeah an attempt to redesign the accel arm #i LIKE the blitz arm the blitz arm is cool #but the accel + critical arm like. clash too much if you look at it as a whole. #like i dont think they match thematically with both the blitz arm and just justimons overall design #too like. i suppose mechanical and ‘crust punk’ y instead of very sleek and streamlined #thats a giant tangent i think only i care about this that much 😭 lol #but yeah. justimon. i liek them #technically this counts for digi ocs too but. god knows if ill ever talk abt them in depth here

[stealingpotatoes]

Honestly Mace would have loved Luke and Leia with his whole heart.

yes!!! honestly he's like a grandparent (in the dynamic way, not age way) bc he was harsh on anakin but you KNOW he's much more caring for the twins, like how a grandparent is strict on their kid but gives their grandkid literally whatever. and anakin's like where was this for me

#i've never drawn anything for it but i think about AUs where anakin's caught or killed n rots is stopped a lot #and then the jedi take the twins and are Too Careful and the twins just Know theres smthn off abt them but dont know what it is #and all the difficulty padme faces bc the jedi fucked anakin up!! she doesnt want them having her kids!!!! the last she has left of Him!! #but whats she supposed to do about her illegal-kids-of-an-evil-jedi against an ancient order backed by the senate and law #and you have obi wan torn between wanting whats best for the galaxy (the twins are carefully trained) #vs wanting whats best for his friend and tbh his brotherwhatever's memory (padme keeps the twins) #very aggressive jedi vs human conflict for him #theres just SO MUCH in those kinda AUs #bit hard to draw to explain tho. like u gotta draw so much for context so ive never rlly tried #but i think abt mace and his relationship w the twins there sm bc you KNOW he wants to treat them coldly and w constant suspicion #but he Just Can't #cause ya know. their dad. went evil. and theyre also INSANELY POWERFUL force users #thanks for the ask! #wow ok went off in the tags abt an au nobody asked for <3 #gotta get it out my head somehow ig

[khr-doodling]

tfw the person you love with all your being loses the round and is killed in front of your eyes

#khr #katekyo hitman reborn #khr fanart #sawada tsunayoshi #my art #still have no clue who would take sua's role in this #like the obvious answer is kyoko. but then that kinda raises the question abt where ryohei fits in all this #hypothetically kyoko could fit the role of hyuna. but so could chrome. so could lal mirch #maybe haru? but she's such a cheery character that the vibes don't particularly match #ofc so is kyoko but she's a lot calmer in comparison so it works better i think #idk man i've already put way more thought into this then i originally intended #mukuro or byakuran in luka's role is also floating around in my brain #i'm leaning more towards the former for that one #solely bc it opens to possibility of hibari in hyuna's role #and that is such a big personality clash that i'm kinda living for it tbh #i should probably make a tag for this au #alien stage au

[crookedlyinnernightmare]

tbh i think abt the black feathers in teruhashi's aura sooo much.. fallen angel imagery w her would go SO hard

#tbh i think aiura's gut reaction to teruhashi's aura becoming progressively dark would be negative n she might want to intervene #but the more she comes to understand kokomi's circumstances and troubles and trauma she starts to wonder if this change might be necessary #perhaps even good.. #lol what if i made them go through an entire corruption(?) arc where its uncertain what is 'good' and what is 'bad' anymore n they toe the- #-line of losing themselves. also they're wlw #i haven't thought abt this a lot at all btw. aha. heh... #saiki k #teruhashi kokomi #aiura mikoto #<because of the tags

[borinhoran]

jackie to shauna in 1996: “are you really going to keep something from me out here? what did i do? when did you stop wanting me to be your best friend?”

callie to shauna present day: “i swear to god mom, if you lie to me again — im so fucking over secrets. like, i can’t.”

#i can’t even think abt this too much bc it’s a lot #these scenes parallel each other so god damn much #shauna choosing to tell the truth the second time to her daughter and not the first time to jackie #it’s like not telling the truth when being begged for the truth has been haunting her for decades #so she…. inappropriately tells her daughter the truth #despite how bad of an idea that is to do both in the sense that we as viewers know what callie has been up to #but also in the sense of how irresponsible it is for a parent to bring their child into such a horrible situation #callie really might as well be jackie tbh #like i guess i’ve never really considered cassie to be a uhhh metaphor for jackie #? #but god damn #it’s all kinda clicking for me rn #yellowjackets #jackie taylor #shauna shipman #jackieshauna #yellowjackets spoilers

[soldier-poet-king]

Ok not gonna actually put my replies on someone's post bc that's RUDE (and it's not borne out of ill will I genuinely like discussing this stuff but idk if that is appropriate here!! I don't know this person!! I am bad at knowing when to open my mouth!) but I really liked the theology of vespertine? I didn't take it as things done in the Lady's name are Valid Religious Actions, nor did I take it that both good and evil come from the Lady. Its clearly based off of Christianity, and i thought the questions it asked about theodicy were quite interesting (and perhaps my favourite bit of the book, and why I found it so moving).

It was less that the Lady causes xyz bad thing to happen, and more that the Lady /allows/ xyz bad thing to happen only so that ultimately some good can be brought out of it. Which, imo, is very in line with a Christian view of theodicy, esp in the Pauline epistles (and Job, and obvs the Gospels). Evil is brought into the world by human action, but that human action is allowed to happen (BC free will) and ultimately is transformed toward the Good. That doesn't mean that ppl aren't shitheads who claim that their evil is divinely sanctioned, nor that hurt people do not (understandably) blame the divine and lash out in their hurt. But that ultimately, for whatever ineffable reason the inexorable will of god PERMITS evil to occur, knowing in divine wisdom and grace it will be transformed to the Good.

That's not a comfort. Not really. I think it is frightening and terrifying and awe-inspiring and horrible all at once. I have my own personal feelings on the subject. I just think it's an important distinction, and fwiw much closer to my own reading of the book. Its the same sort of troubling not-answers to questions of divine providence, grace, and the will of god that the sparrow duology examines (in a much less harrowing way, albiet, the sparrow is heavy).

Idk man I think I'm just fascinated by theodicy and conceptions of evil in non dualistic universe where evil exists despite an omnipotent and all-good divinity. I think the Augustine Brainrot got me.

#i am only mutual in laws with this person and idk if theyre comfortable with me randomly saying shit #and so!!! i will go on my little theodicy rambles on my own #idk man. i just really loved vespertine. one of the top books i read this year #i found it incredibly comforting and also incredibly disquieting #that sense of divine providence that is both suffering and grace #i didn expect it to wrestle with that #and i dont think it did it in a way that's really incompatible with christianity tbh #but maybe i have greek philosphy brainrot and a lot of weird thoughts and feelings abt theodicy more generally speaking #i know my opinions arent often mainline wrt faith #regardless. i adored vespertine. i wish other ppl of faith felt the same!! #its not really a big deal im just. thinking my silly lil thoughts all the time

[franklyimissparis]

from what i’ve gathered about alex turner as a writer, especially with a lot of his newer stuff (i.e. eycte, tbhc, and the car), is that he very much seems to take the mccartney approach to writing in which he’s writing about approximately 10 different ideas all at once in any given song - and if you think a song is about a person or situation, it probably is at least a little bit.

like he’ll be writing a song and it’ll be about 3 of his ex-gfs, his earliest memories from his childhood, a reflection on fame, an inside joke with a friend, and an homage to an old french film no one’s heard of - all at once.

#he can write a line and it’ll mean four different things depending on the day and his mood #i think that’s also why it seems hard for him to boil what a song is about into a quick quote as well #this definitely isn’t the case for all of his songs a lot of them are pretty cut and dry #but i think it’s a bit funny when some ppl (mostly on amtwt tbh) will argue so hard over which ex a certain song is abt #when it’s likely that there was at least a little bit of inspiration taken from all of them #plus his crazy gay situationship ofc 🙄🤚 #sorry couldn’t help myself #alex turner #arctic monkeys