#i think we have some at my uni

[weirdlizard26]

<- guy who is sad again bc he speaks english better than their own native language

#wl26 #sad so sad #when im done with uni i rly need to look into joining a ukrainian speaking club or SOMETHING #i think we have some at my uni

[carlyraejepsans]

i don't think I've ever enjoyed a birthday party with friends as much as today i am genuinely getting a bit teary eyed

#initially i wasn't planning to do anything but then i thought what the hell what if we go out to drink something #except it was all very up in the air so a good deal of folks couldn't come (which is fine that one's on me) #but the two who COULD make it are genuinely some of the funniest motherfuckers I've ever met and one of them brought his gf along #and we hit it off IMMEDIATELY and THEN we ran into another pal I hadn't seen in a while and hadn't had the chance to invite in person #who also joined in after he finished hanging out with other people and they got me a present????? 😭 #i haven't had a birthday with friends in fucking . 3 years between covid and everyone i knew moving away #I'm so happy i think my heart is going to explode #which ik. hey isn't that a very boring and simple hangout YES but also not to me baby i have been in a depression isolation all my teens #i started to genuinely enjoy my day to day life like. 4 months ago ever since starting uni #it feels like turning a new leaf yknow? like. i made it. i made it out. god i could cry #sorry I'm a little drunk

[hella1975]

born to write fanfiction forced to go to pilates

#WHAT IS HAPPENING. HOW DID I GET HERE #THIS IS NOT MY SCENE I SHOULD NOT BE HERE OR WHATEVER THE WOMBATS SAID #no hate to pilates itself im acc very pumped for it but the entire setting of a gym TERRIFIES me #but the uni is running a bunch of shit for women’s month and one of the events is this where they’ve booked the gym #and for 3 hours for free you can just go to different sessions #and me and my mate saw ‘free’ and didn’t look back like one thing I love about us is We Will Just Try Shit #and now im here in athleisure kit. no cargos in sight #I actually can’t remember the last time my outfit was so streamlined I feel naked rn #only plus is I’ve somehow got a decent fit like I had a real moment of secondary school PE class thinking I was gonna #be looking around feeling shitty and out of place for not having The Branded Shit but somehow I’ve acquired stuff #leggings from my old flatmate who IS a gym girlie meaning im twatting about in GYMSHARK LEGGINGS LIKE SOME SORT OF POSER #I feel like im going to dance classes again this is so. this entire thing feels on the edge of nostalgic and generally just WEIRD #I feel like the Cool Girls will be there I feel like they will know there is something Fundamentally Off about me and I’ll never know what #BUT OH WELL. DO IT SCARED #hella goes to uni

[not-a-21st-century-girl]

Alec Hardy is a cockroach btw

#cockroach (affectionate) #THERE'S CONTEXT TO IT #the context is that it's an in-joke in my friend group. we exclusively refer to him as a cockroach. #ellie miller is a cockroachess obvs #they're cockroach4cockroach #it's even funnier in english for some reason #I'm sorry I'm at uni rn and my brain melts. also i want to make cockroaches content but i can't now. this'll have to do #there's also a convoluted classification of other broadchurch characters that we have but i think tumblr is not ready for it #broadchurch #alec hardy #ellie miller #millerhardy #THIS IS THE EPITOME OF SHITPOST I KNOW....

[irhabiya]

today sucked the life out of me ya Allah

#nothing particularly happened #well actually multiple things happened but none of them are that big of a deal im just tired #yesterday the ppt file for my presentation corrupted as i was finishing it :') didn't have autosave on :')) #had to redo the entire thing from scratch. i was working on it all week too for god's sake #finished by like 4am today and i had to be up by 8 for uni so i barely slept #the presentation was fine i think given i had to do everything again last minute but ik the original version was better #my blood pressure was through the roof the entire day for some reason. felt my pulse in my head for the whole day #fitting because our pbl case this week was about hypertension😭 #called my dad to make sure he went to get his meds renewed... #i'm really worried about him he refused to go to the doctor again aslan but i sat him down and we had a long talk about it #alhamdulillah he agreed to go. only for them not to have his diabetes meds in stock💀 bas ya3ni it's good that he went anyway #my mom is a different story she's so stubborn i swear #had an argument with her today about letting me work again to lift a bit of the workload off her since money is still so tight #and she got pissed at me #so now im tired unrested have a migraine and my mom is mad at me what a day bgad #ya Allah

[sjonni33]

this is like. super embarrassing but yeah :/ i ripped my only pair of jeans today, which really sucks :( disability support has until nov 8 to decide over my case and until then i have 0 income except from the tiny bits i scrap by. uhm if anyone could like, spare a euro maybe? i'd be very grateful. i also have things listed in my shop, some are only 1 cent (or whatever you want to pay for it), i also have some stickers here, here and here. some prints here and here . shipping is as low as it can be <3 and i also offer discount codes (use RATASSES for 5% off!!) you can also commission me!!

i'd appreciate any help, even just in the form of sharing this post or reblogging/sharing my art!!

GOAL HAS BEEN REACHED!!!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!

#i *thankfully* have all groceries done for this week and don't have to worry about rent #but yeah :( clothing or any other items i need i just cant afford. i can just about cover my health insurance but even for that i have to #dip into my savings. i have my disability support case on september 7th. an entire month from now and THEN they have until nov 8 to reply #i also think they can even get an extension of 48 days after that? so they'd have until somewhere in january to reply and it's #im literally stuck. i cant get any other type of support because my boyfriend earns too much but we can barely scrape by in the month on hi #income and that's without my health insurance food and 0 savings #fuck this country istg. i want to move SO BADLY. because this country does nothing for me. NOTHING. #i have to wait an entire extra year to see if i can go to uni 😩 and im so stressed. first gray hair and im 21 <3 haha #anywy #im really sorry for having to do this :( i hate it sm #signal boost #sjonnies post #also if youve tipped me before please DONT tip me again!!!!!!! i dont want anyone to feel pressured or obligated please #only spare me some money if you are 100% sure you can miss it!!!!! not even 100% but 10000% sure!!!!!!!

[rox-of-iu]

me + mayhem going on a stupid silly hike for my stupid silly mental health

touched grass and i am normal again (lying)

#i will get back to drawing soon let me just sleep for a few years shdjhkfds #anyway photo credit to mayhem again i cant take pictures to save my life lol #btw the caption is obvs reference to that one hike video tiktok i think so credit to that also its not my joke #anywqay it was nice did help me a little bit #been feeling a bit down due to some personal problems ykno #and also due to not being accepted into a med uni I rly wanted to (but didn't put enough effort I'll confess) and that almost no one getsin #but i was only missing one point o(-( i was the first in line outside the capacity limit hasjkdhsahd #even tho my brain is rly small for it lets be real hfjsdfhksd but like hhsdjhshdjkhd those biches at physiotherapy baited me hdsjd #mqf i have failed you lol #also i have accidentaly gotten back into one piece as I do for like two weeks periodically every few months or so dhjsdhk #so im revisiting my olde blorbo trafalgar which is just reminding me of a fact that this was one of the fuckers my itty bitty young self - #- wanted to pursue medicine beacause of lmaoooo #bad timing one piece fixation!! bad bad!! sdhhdjshdjakshd #whatevrrr whatevr whatevr io dotn care! enough of that hahhskj #but hey as some of u may remeber im czech so haa whats up with the mountains right since we are very cute and 'down to earth' state hahaha #its cuz its actually from austria :)) #we went hiking there since theyre co by kamenem dohodil as they say #fuck english has the exactly same saying im moron that ruins my whole thing hjdsk 'a stone's throw away' whatever ignore that ig hahhah #so yeah very beautiful very powerful go touch some grass lads #also they are not stones throw away i was lying but close enough- #also random czechs stop jumpscaring me in other countries challenge why was there so many of us horrible horrible horrible

[lover-of-mine]

People do know they don't have to buy a Stanley, right? Or whatever the fuck is the current bottle people want. You got your bottle for free in an event in 2015? All the power to you, but if having a cup that matches their outfit makes someone happy, why the fuck do you care????? Are you paying for their bottle? No, you're not. The bottle will still be produced. What's the ethical problem here??? If having a blue cup, and a pink cup, and a cup that makes me look like a koala keeps me going, then it's a necessary purchase. You're not the one spending money on it so why do you care?????????

#i got 5 tiktok videos on a row of people bragging about their old bottles #one girl literally ran her bottle over #and im like okay? you dont care where you're drinking your water #some people find dopamine on stupid shit like having their bottle match with stuff why do you care how they're spending their money???? #ugh #yes i have a Stanley. it was a gift tho #i also have more cups that i probably should have #but one sparkly cups that match my phone case kept me drinking water while i was at uni so i think thats a win #and they were also a small purchase that kept me going on bad days #i dont see the harm on having multiples of one thing #its not like I'm throwing the old ones away #i still use most of them when i feel like it #its a harmless thing #ITS A FUCKING WATER BOTTLE #fucks sake we cant like anything #thoughts thoughts thoughts

[bootyful-seventeen]

i am too mentally exhausted to even deal with this shit anymore with my mom and grandma and low key wish i'd go comatose for a few years to be left alone tbh

#had a clean up service come by to see the damage and give a quote on the estimate and my grandma wasnt having it #she got upset and started crying to them about she has only 1 daughter and is trying to help her and they're trying to tell her that keepin #all that junk isn't gonna be helping anyone especially my mom but she wasn't getting it and i said i'm not helping clean the junk that's #all around the house cuz i'm tired of it all and having to manage my emotions since i am for sure emtotionally stunted from my childhood #and have to deal with a schitzophrenic mom and an absent sister who's balls deep in denial while i'm struggling to find a job here #and my grandma always stressing me ot saying she's gonna kick me out isn't fucking helping here at all like she thinks it does #so when they left she spent all day sobbing on the phone how i'm a terrible granddaughter who wants to throw out good stuff #when i'm not gonna keep helping sell shit for my mom cuz my sister can do it as her family contribution since she did nothing since dad die #and the thing is i gave them all options on clearing shit out cuz i know this family by now and shit doesn't get tossed but it migrates #cuz i said months ago i can ask some friends if they could come down and help sort and declutter #grandma said no to that and said she'll kick me out if i do it and she didn't want to pay for my mom's shit to get moved into a storage uni #she leaves the clean up to my mom and i think the backyard got worse but she didn't call anyone to throw out the junk like she threatened t #so i call a fucking hoarders clean up service cuz that's what my family is on my mom's side at this point and the city will be called too #and she has this reaction cries all day and calls everyone to say i'm horrible and yells at me saying i'm the one killing her with stress #when she's already been doing that for months to herself when i'm just tired and possibly mildly depressed or something idk #i barely leave my room and don't go outside except to walk my dog but idk cuz my family's attittude was we don't go to doctors cuz #cuz they're for crazy people but of course it's gotta switch up for my mom and no one else and i'm just sick of it all #grandma doesn't accept free help and she won't accept help that i pay for myself with my money set aside for school so i'm done #unlike her when i say i'll do something i stick to it so i'm not doing shit anymore unless i can call a friend to help with this mess #it's gonna sound like such a horrible thing but i can't wait for my family to die so i can live in a clean home again and get help #like deep serious help cleaning and big time grief councelling cuz i barely had time to process my dad's death and being the one to find hi #and that was just this february like god i am going to need so much fucking therapy in my future it's almost rediculous #and probably say screw my mom's side and visit my dad's side a lot more since they seem to be the normal ones in this shit family tree #at least they're not stupid and leave junk everywhere where one neighbour getting sick of not being able to sit outside and enjoy their yar #without mountains of junk staring them right in the face and landing a notice from the city to clean up especially since #we have chainlink fences and at least 7 neighbours can see the backyard and everyone can see the front porch when passing by #i'm just tired of living in these suffocating households and even wanna file a report myself to kick them into gear #its horrible living like this and no one should live surrounded by junk and things they never use or even garbage

[rpfisfine]

my friend pisses me off soooooo bad

#i text her first to ask abt how her essay is going wish her luck 2 times and she doesnt even like the message or say anything she just #changes the topic and then leaves me on read. okay #plus shes been getting so weirdly paranoid that im talking shit abt her to other ppl just bc ive finally made some other friends that arent #her after 1.5 years of suffering alone at my uni #(which i seriously to be honest do just bc shes been getting on my nerves with a lot of things lately) #but like man . throughout the 1.5 years that weve been talking to each other we havent progressed enough to call each other by #our first names to get the other to turn around etc i dont think we r close enough for me to abandon the wonderful religious practice of #sometimes discussing the things that your 1 friend does that piss you off with your other friends but then still hanging out with them #not because youre some sort of irredeemably evil two faced motherfucker but because thats just a normal part of having social relationships #mp #like i get that insecurity sucks and its a shitty feeling etc but ive literally dealt with this my whole cringe embarrassing childhood & #teenage years LOL like as long as your friends still make a conscious decision to spend time with u & u have fun together #then i think you dont need to worry. which is what i do so #the sun will rise again tomorrow

[agendratum]

i keep being like "can't believe these people are friends they don't even like each other" but like i have to admit it makes all the sense

1. rich kids of politicians/influential people, "the golden youth", from what i know usually sticks together basically because they're growing up in the same circle anyway, they know all the same people, go to all the same places, all know each other etc

2. queer people tend to flock as well (at least it seems to be a widely agreed upon fact? i mean from personal experience, my queer friends group aside, in uni we were friends with the only other queer guy there even before i started to like him, at work i also found most of the queer people and stuck with them, even tho, again, some of them were not that likeable to me, but that's just personal experience) it's like, if you're queer, sticking with queer people you don't like that much is still better than sticking with cishet people you don't like that much, if this is making sense

3. they're in the same university, they have the same classes

combining the first two factors with the third one, they just have to stick together, because they don't necessarily have anyone else to stick to and they need somebody, at least until they graduate. it doesn't matter that your friends are shitty assholes who aren't even really your friends, cause at least you have somebody by your side and you know exactly who that is

#remember? too much coffee #now I'm just thinking about that guy from my uni #i started liking him eventually dont think that i was friends with someone i despised #yet he still annoyed me a lot sometimes but like #at least together with him we didn't have to be worried about being out and also in our little toxic group of friends #(there was another girl cishet but chill) #we could joke about gay sex all we wanted #and then he was from relatively wealthy family #(at least compared to me and that girl) #and in uni continued to be friends with another girl #cause they were classmates before that #and with her boyfriend as well #and from what i know I'm assuming both the girl and the bf were also relatively rich #so the three of them kept being friends even tho they both treated our guy like shit and the bf also treated that girl like shit #but they stuck together for some fucking reason #so you know #I don't think i should be surprised about the of friend group #wow no more coffee for me #watching ofts

[taeyungie]

hi ♡ i guess i'm back? 🥹

here's a little life update! i think you guys deserve it after my absence that lasted longer than even i expected it to last ;( i am very sorry about that. i miss everyone here and bangtan so much, you have no idea. the reason for all that is that for the past months i have been going through a lot of things and changes in my life. there were good and bad things happening, time flies extra fast, days melt into one and i didn't even notice the past half a year pass. although i think my absence was unavoidable in these circumstances i just thought that you guys deserve to know what's been up with me for the past months haha i have received a lot messages and reminders that people remember about me and that they miss me and i just want to send all of you my biggest apologies for leaving you for so long with no response, as well as all my love and gratitude! 🥺 i think i've been always fairly transparent on here so if anyone wanted to know more I'll leave some more details in the tags but basically I just hope that soon i will be able to become more active again and respond to messages ❤️❤️❤️ i hope everyone is doing great 🥰

#honestly... it was yoongi's comeback that made it happen. that made me have motivation to come back. i didnt expect it but here we are LOL #because for the past months i have been struggling a lot and i almost lost all the connections with my friends family and bangtan #i lost all my feelings and thoughts #i didnt miss anyone i didnt want to do anything i didnt want to be anywhere. i was completely submerged into my own head #i still am. it didnt exactly get better but.. its just yoongis impact jasbhdjdjd he made me remeber a lot #in october last year i developed a very agressive eating disorder and its gotten a lot worse at the begging of this year #and it has taken everything from me. it sucked me dry and still continues to do so. it made my mental health so much worse on every level #but im still here and thats what matters in the end right ❤️ #from the good things - after long unfortunate and very stressful job hunting i finally got a stable job 🥰 and i continue my uni so far #that's why i was absent here most of the time. i decided to focus on my life and on trying to change something and to fight a little more #after jin's enlistment announcement... it was a wake up call for me #and maybe soon i will be back on track but im taking things slow. especially that its not easy for me at all #but i just wanted you to know that theres been a lot happening here so ❤️ im not just getting bored of tumblr and bts haha #i never stopped following the fandom i never turned off my notifications from media i never stopped looking up what they're up to each day #i just didnt have time and motivation to be active. because of my health i wanted to be quiet and away from eveyone and everything :/ #even from my comfort people and activities #that sounds sad but. it's alright so please don't worry about me ❤️ I'm holding on just fine. got used to some things ❤️ trying to heal #so yeah i think thats that haha i think its enough and all basically #it may seem like very little but my life has always been very slow when it comes to big actions haha #anyway. love you all so much ❤️ thank you for not forgetting about me ❤️ #soon i will try to answer some mesdages from my inbox. please wait for me just a little bit more ❤️ im very overworked right now #but im so sorry that you have to wait so long ❤️

[hella1975]

just think this time tomorrow ill be publicly indecent in a spoons somewhere. i am so strong

#ONE MORE EXAM. WE CAN DO THIS. I WILL BE DONE IN LITERALLY LESS THAN 24 HOURS NOW #AND THEN THE NEXT EXAM SEASON ISNT UNTIL MAY. COME ON GIRL #we have such a fun plan for tomorrow though bc the consensus has just been 'we need to get fucking mangled after this exam' #like i havent been out-out in WEEKS the closest i came was the end of december for a hometown house party of all things #i didnt even go out for nye. let's all take a moment and consider the implications for someone like me NOT GOING OUT ON NYE #so i am OVERDUE a good night out and then on top of that ive had exams be SO fr #and also this is the first year where my main friendship group (i.e not my housemates but my actual social circle) #are ALL econ students like there's about five of us and we all do econ and yeah two of them ive been mates with since first year #(the girl is my best mate at uni and is always who im on about if i talk about a 'girl on my course' and the lad is the one i lived with #in first year and have kind of got a thing with now?) BUT THE OTHERS ARE NEW ADDITIONS AND THAT'S SO FUN #so we're ALL gonna tip out of that exam and then me and her are gonna go back to mine to get ready bc am i fuck doing make-up #before that exam. the STATES i have shown up in these past few days i think the invigilators are worried about me #and then we're meeting the lads at the pub and starting there and THEN going spoons bc it's me and the girl's tradition #(calling her just 'the girl' is so funny. woman 🫵) after exams to buy each other mystery shots at spoons and we HAVE to drink them #and then one of the lads really wants to go to a karaoke bar for some reason?? so that might be in my future #AND THEN we're going clubbing. im so ready. take me home vodka shots. the end is near please please please #hella goes to uni

[0-k-4]

crazy times. everyone is depressed. is it because of school, is it because of winter, is it because of Life. who knows. mystère et boule de gomme.

#some girl in my class is having a solid three mental breakdowns per week + having BPD #another guy is sleeping three hours per night because of stress and running on sheer will and cafeine #lots of us do not eat lunch anymore. staying in class to work instead. some of us stopped sleeping too to get more work time #at least four of five of us for forty students are seeing a therapist and are under medication #people are literaly fighting for their lives with the second row of exams coming #lots of us are fantasizing about dropping and going to uni #not even speaking about the Scholarly Losts that do absolutely not know where they are going or what they want to do and feel like they are #doing all of that for nothing #even the teachers are worn out lmao what is this #they didnt lie that third year can really beat your ass #anyway #i kind of enjoy it. the suffering of my people. make things more fun like none of us think they are doing good. it is funny #the global Wtf are we doing atmosphere gives some sense of fraternity #i will miss it when its done

[valaratminaforaldrar]

literally feel sick to my stomach why can't i just get a good job without going to uni

#i'm starting to think that maybe uni isn't for people who are neck-deep in their mental illness and they should get help instead #can some like book company thingy just like hit me up and buy my book for a trillion dollars and then i can pay all my friends and #all my mutuals and we can all live happily ever after without having to work

[eggmeralda]

overcome with the sudden urge to listen to songs my friend likes...what does that mean

#the friend i had some massive platonic thing for back in october 2021 and then again for a bit at the start of 2022 #the one with the girlfriend who i had absolute drama with in 3rd year of uni. but not for reasons of like. me formerly having a thing for #her boyfriend but actually just bc she was a bitch and really toxic and manipulative to him anD THEY'RE STILL TOGETHER what is up with that #anyway i have a playlist of songs he likes and i am. Listening to it...... all of a sudden #wtf wthag the fuckkk wha tfo you mean ye what i #but i also have the overwhelming need to listen to songs i liked in spring 2020. idek why i'm experiencing both these things at once #i didn't even know him in spring 2020 #i think it's bc i was thinking about the secret history this morning which was soooo spring 2020 for me #and don't delete the kisses was The song of spring 2020 it was so symbolic of. the events going on at work #and my friend loves that song and we listened to the album on vinyl together at like 1am on the sofa in october 2021 and. #and i accidentally just listened to that song which is responsible for me currently experiencing both these Vibes #anyway disregard this post i am just feeling thoughts and thinking feelings #ramble