#i waited for my meds to kick in

[prettyboysdontlookatexplosions]

holy SHIT put jonathan “if i have to let my undead wife fuck me into vampirism than as god is my witness i absolutely will” harker in the wife guy hall of fame and give bram stoker a medal of achievement in deranged horniness for this which i think amidst all the weird eroticized terror scenes and all the insane shit about body fluids and penetration is the first thing in this victorian novel i am well and truly shocked to find there. this is…….. SO hot, ESPECIALLY coming immediately after the most explicitly and specifically christian passage in the book thus far, i am genuinely amazed. everyone’s talking about god’s will and judgment day and sacred wafers and jonathan’s taking all this in and deciding: i choose fucking my damned wife into undead eternity. THAT is fucking ROMANCE!!!!!!!!

#dracula daily #i caved and started reading today’s entry from last year’s post as soon as i woke up #both for dracula suspense reasons and bc i wanted something to do in bed while #i waited for my meds to kick in #but my impression of the contract of etiquette is like #don’t post spoilers for future days in the dracula daily tag #but if you go into the dracula daily tag after the email’s gone out and before you’ve read it you’re accepting spoilers for #that day #and i am losing my MIND this is INCREDIBLE

[puppyeared]

Swapped playlists with a friend and I have normal feelings about it

#also I like beabadoobee now. 'if you want to' kicked me in the stomach and left me lying on the ground #I’m just waiting for my meds to kick in what is this 😭 #girls when the feeling of being loved and someone thinking of you when they make something finally processes #they also included the petrigrof everything in you song. im so normal #yapping #doodles #comics #personal #I’m doing a lot of diary comics huh

[stirdrawsandreblaws]

hearing people whispering outside my door and i am going insane (the voices are real i just don't like hearing them bc i'm a traumatized chihuahua of a person)

#waiting for meds to kick in and thinking i maybe should have skipped a day for blood pressure reasons #i wanna take a shower and i cant bc we have a houseguest (nvm one i dislike immensely) #stirring up trouble #really just. it's fine to have people over and hang out and im sorry there's kind of a mess to get around bc of the construction project #i am trying to be a good and rational and reasonable person about this #but she is uh. kind of a transphobe with too much buy-in on white supremacy and cops. i am going to be uncomfortable at best. #she seems to be Trying?? but until she succeeds i am doing my best to maintain a safe distance... #idk maybe this is just a 'stay in my room and try to get some digital work done' day #need to not push it while im still adjusting to the meds. already prone to burst blood vessels...where are my headphones...

[unironicallycringe]

i be workin on a friend's au ganondorf, he's got gloom hand hair and it's cool as hell

#my art #wip #ganondorf #ive drawn ganondorf twice in the past year and i feel like it's leveled me up wtf #i want to get out of bed and work on this so im waiting for these damn head meds to kick in #gotta override the ouchies

[cowardlycowboys]

going a bit off the deep end. does anyone need anything?

#omg kiera no one cares #waiting for my meds to kick in hoping i don't cry again but i am losing my mind still

[goldkirk]

Got my first meeting with a psychiatrist in over a year since the last one demanded details about trauma when I was visibly sweating and shaking! Let’s hope today goes much better and that I have the prefrontal cortex online enough to leave if necessary instead of tolerating that kind of thing again

#note to everyone: if you say ‘I experienced xyz’ to a medical professional #on your FIRST VISIT #they are NOT supposed to require further and further details before moving the conversation along #they should take you at your word and realize that’s not the important part #the important part is hearing what symptoms you have had for how long and how they impact your daily life #so they can help you #NO ONE needs the details unless you choose to share them on your own time #and if someone is pressing you for things you’re not ready to talk about #LEAVE!!!! get up and LEAVE #i know that now #personal #this isn’t about sleep I’ve been going downhill in certain areas for weeks and haven’t gotten the boat to turn around #so I’m asking to start back on meds BEFORE things get really bad #i was planning to wait for the fall #but I’m struggling so much and I shouldn’t have to be #so. SSRI and asking about nonstimulant ADHD meds it is #the good thing is that while my self worth and competency and anxiety are in the toilet again #Im at least not feeling depressed and I’m not having all the sleep trouble I used to or the void feeling #my PTSD symptom improvement is still there it’s just anxiety and ADHD kicking my ASS

[sunny12th]

hrrrrrrr Daenerys Targaryen 'once you leave home you can never go home.' the red door, the childhood she never knew. 'which childhood? the one where you learned to be afraid?' and 'dragons plant no trees' but she made the city of bones Vaes Tolorro flourish and she's literally planting olive trees in Meereen while her male counterparts mock her as the queen of olives. the weight of a dynasty is on her back and she never had a maester, only a brother. she wants to go home, any home, the red door, the childhood she never knew. she can never go home but she can build one. she can never get her brother back but she can find a nephew. she can never have a child but she can find a family. daughter of death, bride of fire (life). she wears a crown of stone dragons and chains her children in stone and she is drowning, freezing, a death worse than death is waiting for her if she looks back. she rips into burnt horse flesh with her son and feasts and giggles. you cannot choose where you come from but you can decide where you'll go. she'll never have a child but she'll create life from stone. there's a destiny waiting for her across the sea but there's people suffering right now right here. destiny gets put on hold and she'll burn slavers, break chains, sack cities, fuck up again and again, and keep moving forward carrying it all on her back. there's no home to go back to. destiny will have to wait for her.

#NONE OF YOU GET HER LIKE I DO #daenerys targaryen #asoiaf #mine #im currently in a lot of pain and waiting for my meds to kick in!

[iero]

Had a panic attack that literally woke me up in the middle of the night last night and lasted until the early morning and let me tell you, that shit is TERRIFYING. Needless to say, I think I'm ready to go back to work.

#personal #Am I still in pain? Yes. Is it controllable when painkillers are taken though? Also yes. Somewhat. #Breaking news! #Girlie who doesn't have their mental health under control feels 100x worse being holed up in the place they live alone under for FOUR days #I literally have not left my house since my surgery on Wednesday morning... #And then I'm wondering why my anxiety/panic attacks have been God awful these four days... Gee I wonder why! #Like I don't wanna go back to work because capitalism but I need to for like... A distraction. #My thoughts have been racing and I'm just begging for people to talk to me in my personal life to calm my anxiety down. #It feels debilitating at this point. It's literally taken over my life. #And I have my anxiety meds but I only just got them so I have to wait that 1-3 weeks for them to actually 'kick in.' #I really should have asked my new GP for the tiniest amount of benzos to get me through this recovery. #And I don't even have a follow-up appt. for my recovery but I am gonna call them on Mon. and ask for one for my own peace of mind. #I've called this office three times now over the course of three days to make sure what I'm feeling is 'normal.' #Anyway!!!

[ispyspookymansion]

i need to make a zine about navigating the (professional) world as a trasmasc dyke so bad i feel like i could chew all my fingers off

#if i cant talk about the strange isolation and dismemberment of my identity even in progressive spaces due to the general #populace inability to Grasp what im putting down and how i always have to give something up #unless im with someone i really know and trust. i think ill start screaming. #my work is great. my job is good. the company is very inclusive. but everyone there believes im a trans man. #and i dont want to vivisect myself trying to explain #kora.txt #sorry for making posts im avoiding tasks and waiting for my pain meds to kick in #like. i Chose gender at work because id rather be gendered correctly wrt pronouns and my name and stuff that has a more real and active role #in my day to day than lesbianism. but also its not two separate things to me youre getting me wrong!!!!! yk!!

[crippled-peeper]

I just saw some images of fusions much larger than mine (like 17 levels) and I suddenly felt awed but also very small and humbled in the comforting way

having the benefit of getting mine as a pubescent teenager so I am still decently tall despite the fusion being done at 14. I’ve now met people whose spines were fused at age 7. like. dude

the breadth of diversity within and around spinal disabilities is huge

#personal #I forgot to take my meds earlier and I’m waiting for them to kick in. Free me #from the hell of my own creation

[todayisafridaynight]

getting wigs for characters with the same hair color as myself make me feel like the biggest dumbass around but youd have me fucked thinking im burdening myself with daigos 2000's emo cut just for a weekend

#snap chats #a weekend is generous im only going to the con on saturday #i like how im making it sound like anime nyc is this weekend when its at the end of august LMAO BUT NO LISTEN #unfortunately beauty influencers have finally done their job right and this one guy was reviewing an eyebrow pencil #but the twist is that this pencil was like. SUPPPER STUPID FINE im talkin .08mm and he demonstrated how it could imitate stubble #SO OF COURSE. my ass wanted to see for myself cause as much as i like my sponge-stippling method its not super precise #and that shit gets annoying when most of it looks fine but then i press too hard or i angle the sponge wrong and now i gotta start over #In Any Case the pencil i got did exactly as i hoped and its actually p fun putting on LMAO. i prefer how it looks too #anyway how this all relates to this post. im probably gonna go as y2 daigo again for anime nyc in august #and I Repeat im not cutting my hair for that LMAO so. Wig 😩 #i like it when i cosplay him cause i just go by his actual design cause if i even breathe near skinny jeans ill wanna kms #also i just like to be as accurate as i can be yk. plus the leather pants i have are cozy and theyre one of my fave pairs of pants 🤤 #in any case. whenever that wig comes in ermmmmm i dont trust myself to take pictures 😞 my selfie game is dick #maybe ill stream yk2 LMAO but anyway. good night i think im gonna force myself to sleep now #i got back to my dorm like four hours ago or whatever and i am not looking forward to doing school shit again. alongside comm shit #OH WELL we ball good night #wait before i Good Night cackling as i have my meds next to my aoki tablet and plush #great reminder honestly. Take Your Meds Or You'l Convince Yourself To Be A Republican #ok goodnight fr now im gonna giggle and kick my feet thinking of cosplay

[asparklethatisblue]

the problem here is also that my parents have absolutely no sense for who to blame for bad moods. Like. I hear one of them yell at the other like “oh wowzers, I hope they calm down before they clap eyes on me lest they remember something to be mad about at me too!”

#I’ve never been considered as a creature who can get their feelings hurt #Not to beat a dead horse but when I was waiting to see if the nut allergy would make me feel worse the other day #waiting for the meds to kick in #i was crying and sniffling a little bit and my dad kept telling me to stop crying #eyoooooo

[mokeonn]

executive dysfunction

#simon says #my art #art #i am waiting for my meds to kick in #i tried to force myself to work and it is physically painful to do so

[baconcolacan]

Aww! Poor guy! Get some rest buddy 🫂

I think I need less of it after falling face first into my keyboard and sleeping for several hours like that

#asks #anonymous #I WENT ON OVERTIME CAUSE OF IT #I just got off ‘work’ rn #Took my night time meds and waiting for it to kick in #to HOPEFULLY put me to sleep thsjdjf

[of-mutts-and-men]

Lemon sun carmine moon charcoal rising

Mulberry in transit (this is astrological for when i lwarn to drive )

I had to read that like ten times to finally realize what you were talking about lmao.

#hornyramble #anon chit chat #ill be waiting 👁️👁️ #oh noo my windows left open in the middle of the night 😴😴 #hope i wake up in my bed later #😏 #the sleep meds are kicking in

[an-attempted-poet]

jewish + anxiety + afab = constant stomach pain.

#like. my pain tolerance is SO HIGH #simply bc i am so used to having debilitating and incredibly painful feelings of pain in my stomach #and the best part is i can NEVER GUESS WHAT OF THE THREE IS THE CAUSE #am currently curled up into a ball waiting for the meds to kick in. #ahaha pain. #i’m not lactose intolerant i promise i’m just weird #jewish #jewblr #anxiety #afab