#i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers

[begonia-shade]

These two had my brain in a chokehold for like 3 months last year and this is how I decided to cope. take it. hold it in your hands if you dare

#i was a teenage exocolonist #iwatex #iwatex sol #iwatex anemone #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #iwatex spoilers #spoilers #i love nem so much #like i just want her to be happy idk #anyways #iwate spoilers #the many spoiler tags are for my beloved partner (in crime) #ok thats all goodnight

[angeloflightandsunshine]

You know, I think the most heartbreaking thing that I've experienced in I was a Teenage Exocolonist so far is that despite being able to remember your past lives and saves, despite being able to save so many people that died in previous lives, despite being able to go out of your way to save people and kill a faceless.

There's no way to save Kom. Kom's jersey will always be retired in the rafters before he was ready to hang it there himself. Anemone will always lose her brother and become susceptible to the human supremacists' idealology. Anemone and her family will always be hurt. All this cosmic power and intervention, and still some deaths and tragedies are inevitable. No matter how hard you try and how badly you just want everyone to be okay.

#i looked up how to save him and learning you can't feels like a huge slap to the face or a punch in the gut #it's still good story telling just makes me sad #and it was especially a punch because I was starting to believe I could save everyone and change everything and suddenly that happens #and I still feel like sobbing after everything was destroyed and I see the wreckage #i was a teenage exocolonist #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #spoilers #iwatex #iwatec spoilers #iwatex spoilers

[neuro-stasis]

"Commander Rhett, sir! I made out with the security system the other day!"

#i was a teenage exocolonist #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #it's still so funny to me #him saying this as I'm actively dating Sym #who's like 'i don't care what my boss thinks'

[namidragons]

catch the exocolonist narrator absolutely coming for my throat 

like damn they really went “scared of vace? you should be scared of my scathing judgement instead”

#i was a teenage exocolonist #I was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #vace exocolonist #i mean to be fair after getting his relationship high enough to even get this conversation it'd be pretty wild to back out now #i did in fact go back and confront him but I was curious

[notathrowawayname]

So I played I was a Teenage Exocolonist

At first, the game sort of rubbed me the wrong way. I enjoyed playing it and the amount of detail and events that can happen depending on your choices is great. But it also felt jarring to me that runs end at age 20, like that was when every decision you've made locked in. And I couldn't get past the idea that Sol is sort of doomed to continue the loop for eternity. Sure the Transcend Time ending exists but that also means that the loop never ends. Sol has to keep reliving their life.

But having had time to think about it, and all the different timelines, having spent time listneing to the insert song "The Child that you Were" and thinking about all the characters and how you can affect their lives, I've realised there's something incredibly bittersweet about it. The game rewards you for solving a problem by making it easier to solve in the next loop. Finding the Shimmer cure, saving Tammy, your Dr Hal, your mum, replacing Governor Lum, brokering peace, etc.

But they can't make it perfect. There will always be fighting, deaths (Kom), conflict before resolution. We're constantly alluded to the fact that the kids don't really have a childhood. They become farmers, soldiers, scientists and childcarers from age 10. They are fighting for their lives and they experience loss and death far too early for any of them to keep their childhood innocence.

But that's sort of the point.

A lot of people have nostalgia for the past when they were a teenager. But the reality is that no, you can't go back. Even if somehow time went backwards and you returned to your teen years, the fact is, you are no longer the person you were back then. "The child you were will not return," no matter how hard you want them to.

At first I parsed that lyric as a source of pain or torture for Sol, but I realised that it's really no different from how all the kids think. Nem loses her brother, Tammy takes time to adjust to the planet, Tang has to reconcile with her brother and deal with her whole "weakness of the flesh" mindset. None of them think they have that innocence or optimism anymore.

But Sol knows that's not true. Sol knows what they're all capable of, how much potential there is in them. They've seen it across countless lifetimes.

And damn if they won't use that knowledge to give them the best lives possible.

And when they're older and wiser, they can all look back fondly at their childhood and think "I was a Teenage Exocolonist".

#I was a Teenage Exocolonist #I was a Teenage Exocolonist spoilers #excolonist #gaming #indie games #time loop #Sol will spend eternity improving the lives of every alternate version of their friends and family #and they will find a way to be okay with that

[danthehtgman]

I both love and hate that this is an option. Tammy is temporary, cotton candy is forever.

#I love this game #save the sweetest girl in the whole colony #or enjoy some delicious treats? #exocolonist #exocolonist spoilers #iwatex #iwatex spoilers #I was a teenage exocolonist #I was a teenage exocolonist spoilers

[exocolonistfeelings]

Honestly I have a lot of mixed feelings about the Gardners whole deal and the Peace Ending. Mostly cause the Peace Ending involves a tactic that’s just…really loaded for me. It’s very much less of a peace talk and more of a…coercion. The humans will die unless they submit and the only reason why they get a slightly better deal is cause Sym is there.

I don’t think it’s a bad idea to have an ending like that, I like that there’s no golden ending. But also I think it’s important to acknowledge that what the Gardeners did is an…actual colonization tactic. I know it’s weird to call it that cause the humans are colonizing Vertrumna but the Gardeners imposed strict rules (no reproduction, a halt in industry and so on)  and as much as I understand why the made those demands (the industry one in particular) this does not exist in a vacuum where real colonizers didn’t make those same demands to their colonies (usually by force, Something we know the Gardeners Do due to the Epilogue talking about how they dispose of particularly rebellious humans) 

Even though the demands were made more “reasonable” there still not great, it’s an “accept or die” situation. Which again is just…very loaded in meaning.

(I’m being unspecific since I’m most familiar with stuff from my home country and I’m a very private person, it’s an Asian country if you want some tiny specifics on the background here.)

I don’t think the game…necessarily intended this though, I obviously can’t read into the exact intent of the game. But I don’t think they necessarily meant for all that implication to be loaded into the Gardeners. Or atleast not in this way.

I don’t know, but that’s the main reason I cannot enjoy the peace ending that much…it is so reminiscent of Real World Colonization Tactics that it just immediately brings my mood down.

#exocolonist #iwatex #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #i was a teenage exocolonist #first exo post in a while and it’s this… #hehe… #sorry I’ve just been thinking about it for a while

[leavesandbounds]

If anyone wanted to know why I dropped off the face of the planet for two days

#for context this is being posted at like 3am on April 12th and it only says i played today because i just stopped playing #literal 12 hour gaming sessions over the past two days #this game has me in a vice grip #shay says #i was a teenage exocolonist #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #i guess? #i blacked out the cards but left the early game achievements I got

[arionwind]

I know it's a funny line and all - I was literally just goofing about it - but Mom's whole speech about "First apocalype, huh? First one's always the hardest," if she lives until the first Faceless attack just really underscores how dire and desperate Earth got for this cult (and presumably everyone else). She is making light, but not making it up. This is not the first or even second time her entire world has been shattered to its core and contrasting the easy way she tries to relate with you here to the way she closes off if Geranium dies really underscores just how much emotional labor the man is doing to keep his tough as nails dynamo of a wife going.

No wonder he invents and then does space weed.

#exocolonist #I was a Teenage Exocolonist #spoilers #exocolonist spoilers #I was a Teenage Exocolonist spoilers #IWATEX #IWATEX spoilers

[looseinthecatroom]

Jfc this really REALLY is the week of " I want us to be together above all else" "I do too but what I NEED is something different than what you've chosen".

LIKE

(First Higurashi Sotsu, then I Was a Teenage Exocolonist, now Good Omens.)

It has been a hell of a week my good chums. x_x Talk about a TREND.

#good omens spoilers #good omens #good omens season 2 spoilers #i was a teenage exocolonist #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #iwatxc #higurashi #higurashi spoilers #higurashi no naku koro ni sotsu #higurashi sotsu #good omens season 2 #also all fan fucking tastic bits of media btws #would appreciate exocolonist more if it wasn't giving me a headache re: some of how it handles polyamory but that's a rant for another day

[begonia-shade]

I still need to learn how to use this site. Anyways. Silly ! <3

#i was a teenage exocolonist #character art #i was a teenage exocolonist sym #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #iwatex #iwatex spoilers #i hope im doing these hashtags right

[angeloflightandsunshine]

Spoiler about the result of that 'helped Tangeant' stat

Me after finally learning about the whole genocide plan Tangeant was working on after sneaking into the lab and then being given the responsibility of convincing her then LUM OF ALL PEOPLE to not: HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT

#I'm surprised it was that easy to stop but it definitely made me feel like I was defusing a bomb when talking to her about it #they did a really good job of making that scene of sneaking in and discovering it feel dark and horrifying and dread inducing #holy crap that was really dark #and the art from the card I got from it sends a chill down my spin #like Sol's imagination or what they thought of Tangeant in that moment #or like a weird creepy pasta art thing you'd usually see in the MLP fandom and brush off except she almost actually did that #not maliciously like depicted in the card but it still almost happened! #i was a teenage exocolonist #iwate #iwatex #iwatec #iwate spoiler #iwate spoilers #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #I'm just really good at making posts like this at 4 am aren't I?

[neuro-stasis]

ah yes, my favorite part of every iwatex run AKA when i finally get to kiss my alien bf and then he launches himself off a cliff immediately afterwards

#i have to do it every run it's the law #i was a teenage exocolonist #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers

[justsalpals]

I'm loving I Was A Teenage Exocolonist so much, but the Dys/Sym/Sol poly end is my fucking white whale

Before playing myself, I saw it existed and immediately zoned in on it. Stopped reading to avoid spoilers, started up the game for myself. Wooed the shit out of Dys, but then Sol didn't want to kiss Sym? Googled. Ah, so I need to romance Sym first. Gotcha, gotcha.

Cut my end off early by setting off the bomb and running away with Dys. Take two, now armed with more information. Successfully romanced both of those beautiful boys, as well as saving several lives (though I was unable to overthrow the governor or end the war). I was a fool, stopping Dys from setting off the bomb entirely (though I did help repair his relationship with Tang, which is a win). The ending came, and although both Dys and Sym were dating me they didn't seem to overlap. Damn.

More googling. Okay, more information acquired. Restart. Doing so well. Angling to become governor, and getting as many characters as I physically can up to 100 friendship while I'm at it. Everything is progressing smoothly. Dys leaves the colony. I find him on the ridge.

And this fucker needs 3 strange devices (and crystals, but that was nbd). I have two. TWO. Because I've been giving gifts at all opportunity to make friends. I cleared out the ridge, and it's the last year of the game (so there was to be no respawning). Failed, right at the end.

I'm screaming. I'm feral. I need to change up my chosen romance next time or I'll go insane.

Also because I really wanted to see it play out in the peace route, and it would be so much repeating at this point.

#i was a teenage exocolonist #I was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #iwatec #iwatex #dys exocolonist #sym exocolonist

[hirokiyuu]

besk/instance, baby names

Anne had complimented the sound of it, Flulu had remarked idly that it certainly seemed unique, but Instance had heard Besk say Dysthymia and looked up at her with an expression that mean she knew exactly what that word meant. In return Besk had smiled, a curtain dividing the stage from the audience, and said, "It's anti-aspirational." Instance, so strangely kind in the oddest moments, had not challenged her on the lie.

#thanks for this one op i got this prompt and SHRIEKED #you get me. you get me #how do you writing #i was a teenage exocolonist #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #asks #ask memes #anon

[manaquartz]

Woohoo! Just got the Governor ending! So here’s Masc!Sol’s Governor ending card! I love the outfit a lot lmao.

#i was a teenage exocolonist #iwatex #teenage exocolonist #teen exo #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #iwatex spoilers #teenage exocolonist spoilers #teen exo spoilers #sol #solane #solana #solanaceae