#i’ll probably feel better tomorrow

[ash-th3-fae]

hey guys am in a not so great mood rn so if i seem particularly snappy or like i’m not paying attention know it’s not your fault, i’m just really not feeling great right now.

#personal #vent #<- ? #idk i’m just having some Not Good Thoughts rn #i’ll probably feel better tomorrow #just not right now

[belablue222]

the feminine urge to go to bed after getting home from work and doing absolutely no drawing (i have several projects i need to work on) idk, talking is hard and not many ppl are talking (it’s mostly my fault being terrible at responding 💀💀💀), so like maybe i’ll just mimir (also probably heat exhaustion is getting to me so rest is a good idea)

#beyahhthinks #don’t mind me just blurbing here to not clog up my story on insta 💀 #it is what it isss #i’ll probably feel better tomorrow

[sea-jello]

if anyone remembers my movie morro au here’s the part where he’s the villain finally LMAO

i had this idea in mind already and it just so happened to sorta line up with the morrotober prompt so

Day 7/October 7: Crystal || Wishing Well || "Too late now." (?)

OKAY so you probably should go read the other part just for the worldbuildings sake but i think you’ll survive if you don’t. anyways he’s still a high up gang member but instead of sneaking around behind the scenes he actually does stuff this time. he still does lowkey stuff he doesn’t go in guns blazing, so like spy stuff, or stealth missions. he still does the jobs from the other part like collect intel, make plans give orders yada yada. also he specialises in poisons instead of weapons cause he has an advantage with his wind. and cause i think it’s cool. like tranquillizers, sleeping potions, smoke bombs stuff like that (ties back to the stealth missions. he still fights he doesn’t just sit back and let the chemicals do the work. they’re just incorporated in) i don’t think anyone knows he has wind cause people would tie it back to him being associated with the ninja, so he uses it but like sneakily (remember in the movie when lloyd says “wind isn’t taken can i be wind?” YUP)

NOW in the other part i said he was very undercover and that’s why they couldn’t catch him. well this morro is a little more involved. as in he and a couple other members tried to steal the biggest crystal in ninjago from the borg vaults, which have the highest security possible (i like to try and incorporate canon and it’s either this or he goes fucking grave robbing and i don’t like that, so it’s the vaults). so they sneak in, they trigger the alarm and they’re like well okay no point now (too late now HAH morrotober prompt that wasn’t even intentional) and start trying to fight their way out. and it’s going alright until surprise surprise, the fucking ninja show up and they get arrested

before i forget morro and lloyd as regular civilians aren’t like close at all cause morro was wus student before the ninja ever were, and he used the stuff he learned from wu to rise up the ranks. they know of each other and they know they’re cousins (ish idrk if morros actually related to wu) but they’ve seen each other like once or twice probably. would recognise if they were asked to identify each other, but do not know of each other’s ninja/gang business cause they’ve both got masks. although i think it would hurt more if they were close so i might change that

so they’re incapacitated and the ninja are like sick let’s go fucking celebrate and dip before morro and the rest of their identities are revealed, so lloyd finds out his cousin was fucking arrested through morros crusty mugshot on the news here too LMAO. i was debating on if they should stay not knowing each other’s identities throughout but that’s like impossible since morros arrest is on the news and movie lloyd would pull his mask of for that “you don’t have to be evil my dearest cousin” speech the second theyre face to face

robbery plus breaking and entering plus aggravated assault plus assaulting a police officer PLUS gang activity since they obviously have proof he’s actively participating (and also he goes out more here that in the post where he’s not the villain so they have more evidence than they did in that version)?? that could add up to like twenty something years in jail. he’s 16 when he gets arrested, but you can be tried as an adult if the crime is severe enough. so he is and BAM hes probably gonna grow up in jail. he’s currently in juvie but will be moved when he hits 18. but he’s not gonna spend his prime years in JAIL

so he breaks out a year later. obviously. remember he is infamous for being a mastermind escape artist

he’s out of jail and he’s out for the ninjas blood. he’s gone three years without ever getting caught and all of a sudden these color coded high schoolers in 20 feet tall robots toss him in the slammer?? they’re going down

the ninja find out he escaped through the news again and come to the conclusion he’s probably coming back for revenge lloyds like oh my god my fucking cousins gonna kill me i’m gonna die at the hands of my own family. wu pops up and he goes blah blah you need to TRAIN i know all of this kids tricks you need to HARNESS the ELEMENTAL POWER INSIDE OF YOU instead of RELYING on your MECHS or whatever idk let’s be honest they need to learn not to rely on them more. the ninja are like 👁👁 you know this guy CUE classic wu backstory montage

i’m not very sure how this would end yet but i feel like it would be really funny if they were planning to hit him with everything they have and it ends up with lloyds “come back to the good side dear cousin of mine” speech anyways. either ways there are multiple fights in which lloyd does try to pacify him and make peace, but morro never gives him a chance to explain who he is so he doesn’t know he’s the green ninja til the end lmao. if this were a lego movie it would be a fight that sucked terribly, make a plan and improve and train, fight again but this time they’re sure they’re gonna get him but everything’s failing at a sudden turn of events near the end, and lloyd gives his heartfelt speech. maybe morro refuses but a new bigger threat appear like the overlord or something and they have to work together and morro realized hey fighting with people isn’t so bad. idk i’m just throwing this at the wall atp see what sticks

this one isn’t that long cause the last one was more worldbuiling and this one’s more about plot, and it’s not that great cause i speedran it in time for morrotober and it’s like lowkey underdeveloped and it’s currently 3 30am i might come back and change some things. the only thing i had completely set on this was he tries to steal the crystal, he got arrested, then broke out, so feel free to suggest some changes!

#ITS STILL THE 7TH SOMEWHERE #lowkey idrk how i feel about this i don’t really like it #but it is what it is #these are just ideas #sorry if i don’t meet expectations i am falling asleep #i’ll come back and edit it tomorrow if it really really sucks #jellos movie morro au #go look at the one where he’s not the villain i like that one better #ninjago #lego ninjago #morro ninjago #ninjago morro #morro wu #movie morro #morrotober2023 #morrotober 2023 #morrotober #not art for once #it’s probably gonna be the only time #maybe

[trouvailleamor]

anyone constantly feel like their life is falling apart in slow motion? no? just me? i guess ill see myself out then

#spiraling #and so tired of it #but really I’m just stressed for tomorrow #once it’s over I’ll probably feel better #maybe

[skyward-floored]

mmm nearly everyone in my family went somewhere tonight :(

#siiiiigh #it’s my own fault really I never go anywhere #plus you know sick atm #though I’ll probably go somewhere tomorrow cause I’m feeling better #but it’s not somewhere I meet people really it’s just a job #guhhhh #it would be cool if being lonely didn’t come with side effects such as bad social skills and anxiety 🙄 #rambles from the floor

[thethirtyproject444]

15.05.23

Woke up so flat today, just didn’t wanna get out of bed. I got behind on my day from the get-go and the more behind I got, the more I just wanted to go back to bed.

But I did some work and got a run and a walk in and the main thing is I didn’t sack it all off and go back to bed. Socialising and being out of the house loads just takes it out of me soooo much. I’ll feel better tomorrow ✌️

In other news, my audiobook of Why Has Nobody Told Me This Before? just came in at the library so I can’t wait to start that! I heard the author speaking on a podcast a few months ago and she was great 🦋

#always nice remembering if I just take it easy and get an early night I’ll probably feel better tomorrow #check in

[e77y]

Long but relatively unserious vent/rant below the cut (sorry I added this in bc I realized how long this post is oops)

Being at the center of some kind of internet witchhunt (which ik is kind of buzzwordy but) is literally my biggest fear ohhh my god. Even a small scale one… I think I would Die. Maybe it’s because I had a similar thing happen with my friend group in high school where one of them convinced the others I was like evil and spread all these rumors about me… 😭 He was splitting on me but still. That’s an explanation, not an excuse. And it basically confirmed all of my intrusive thoughts about myself, and my personality completely self-destructed and changed, and I haven’t interacted with any of those people the same way since. I isolated from them for MONTHS and just loathed myself. Bleh

The reason it’s on my mind is bc I’ve seen this happen to friends and mutuals and even just people I’ve followed in small fandoms, where the whole fandom hates them bc of this little drama and like. I KNOW that fandom drama is not the end of the world, but truly I think that would destroy me for months. And I would never be able to set foot in those spaces again :’) Getting a handful of rude comments about a fucking transfem hc I had at like 14 made me stop writing fanfic for YEARS 😭😭😭 sigh. Just bc they said it was ‘out of character for him to want to be a girl’ 🙄 (<- character who canonically felt confident when dressed as a woman btw. initially for a disguise but then she grew to love it. BUT I DIGRESS KNSHFJW)

All this to say I think that’s why I tiptoe around everything I say online… I am SO scared of ruffling feathers, but I know that fandoms are places for like! Having fun! And it’s not a big deal! And it doesn’t affect my real life! But like idk.. I just hate the idea of being hated by anyone. I’m sure that I ANNOY some people, and that’s whatever; I talk a lot and make overly personal posts sometimes (like this lol) but I don’t wanna be HATED yk? And idek if it’s better to be hated and ostracized publicly or resented in secret by people who still interact with you… :( Agh. If you ever have an issue with me, please DM me instead of letting it build up into something worse!

ANYWAY LIKE.. with fandom stuff. Idk. I want to have fun! I want to write and post things on Tumblr and AO3 etc but I am just very scared of peoples’ opinions, especially now that I have a decently popular/well-liked longfic in DnDads. For some reason I have convinced myself that writing bad or self-indulgent NSFW will make everyone hate me lmao. Like girl the POINT of fanfic is to be self-indulgent……….. sigh I need to get out more

^ light-hearted… but also kinda true haha. I stay at home a lot just bc I don’t have many reasons to go out atm and only a handful of close friends to go out with. Hopefully that will change when I move next semester lol. And whenever I get interests, they’re VERY strong and long-lasting, and fanfic writing is one of my main hobbies, so I get REALLY into online communities. And rn that is kind of my little niche fandom Tumblr bubble… which is embarrassing and probably unhealthy but whatever. I just inevitably get a lot of anxiety about things that are important/fun to me (bc OCD), especially bc I’ve never really had mutuals/‘friends’ in a fandom before this, excluding my irls

Anyway this got longer and more vent-y than I intended so I will tag accordingly, and sorry to whoever is reading this lol; I just wanted to get my thoughts written down in a public forum bc idk… Makes me feel less insane when ik other people can see it, too. Helps me not take it too seriously and spiral lol.

#vent #cw vent #rant #delete later #<- like tomorrow morning I’m shre #usually I delete stuff like this immediately but I’ll try to keep it up #was talking to my mom earlier about OCD and intrusive thoughts and whatnot…. #she definitely has it too. like undoubtedly #her intrusive thoughts and compulsions sounded exactly like mine #which sucks for me bc my dad ALSO definitely has OCD (in a more outwardly recognizable way) so! wahoo! double whammy #just feeling kinda defeated about mental health stuff #I feel like it’s never gonna get better #I need to go to therapy or a psychiatrist or SOMETHING #it’s been like 4 years now since I was originally supposed to go lol #and I keep putting it off out of fear (I think) #my friends (irls) have all been getting diagnoses and prescriptions lately #which is exciting for them but :( idk. I feel like there’s no way to medicate whatever I’ve got going on except SSRIs???? #and I don’t really want that #mostly though I’m just scared of going back to therapy or to a psychiatrist bc I think they’ll think I’m lying or crazy or whatever #which sounds stupid when I write it out but idk #I should probably keep a journal but when I’m only writing for my own eyes I just kinda wallow in it and write concerning poetry lol #I like journaling in a way other people can see (even if y’all DON’T like seeing it lmaoooo) bc it makes it feel more real? #and out of my head.. concrete etc. #wackyposting #<- seriously need to change that tag still lol

[emily-mooon]

Sometimes I just feel like writing a fic where chapters are episodic and I don’t have to elongate an event cause I finished it in one chapter.

And this is where I pull out a fake presentation talking about a 1930s Jancy au that is a slow burn friends to lovers where they get into weird situations and go on adventures like it’s a book written by L.M. Montgomery and has a similar energy to Little Women.

#ok I have to admit that I am horrible at writing about one event for too long #when I was in my creative writing class I noticed when writing a book for my final project that I could write one paragraph for each chapter #I was unable to write a chapter that was multiple pages #because of this I think that writing something more episodic would be good for me to write becuase then I’ll probably finish it #I think I’m also much better at writing things that are short and sweet and get straight to the point #I love all of my other au ideas that I have or want to put into fics but I think I need to start writing in a zone that I’m comfortable with #and not dive head first into something I need to work on more #so I’m going to start plotting out the first few chapters for this fic tonight and start writing tomorrow #give myself a bit of a break from drawing and allow myself to get back into writing #in way that works for me and my rollercoaster of ideas of a brain #sorry for the wall of text here in the tags and if you read them I hope you are all doing well and for those of you going back to school #or are already back I wish you good luck on your studies #btw all my other fic ideas will be written and turned into a fic or finished at some point #I don’t know when but they will be when I feel like I’m ready to dive in #(and also when I get a grasp on how to plot better with the dumb plot triangle)

[grahammmzcrackerrz]

I’m convinced he doesn’t like giving me head and its freaking me out a little

I hate overthinking about jokes people make

#my chest hurts thinking about it #that that burning feeling that happens when you’re anxious #puppygraham rambles :3 #got the autism and ocd combo #probably but I don’t know for sure 🤷 #I couldn’t tell if he was joking or not then I obsessed about it for like 2 hours #I still am a little bit I’ll feel better tomorrow when I ask him about it :3 #he’s so kind for caring enough to reassure me for small issues ☹️💗💗💗

[tvrningout]

forgive me for being mia, but i made myself sick by downing some apple juice ( it was too good 😭 ), been a lil anxious bc my mom forgot her phone at the house ( it’s dark and she gets lost easily and she’s not home just yet ), and i caught some dude watching me take out the puppy in the dark, so overall this evening is just not going as planned at all asdfgh

#i don’t understand how it’s nearly 8 pm already #my dad and sister are both home now so that makes me feel a bit better but i think i need it to be tomorrow now :’ ) #my brain is prone to worst case scenarios too so i’m trying to not let myself think too hard bc i will just worry until my mom is home #we are gonna try to write and see if i can focus on those one liners #i’ll probably keep making them based on song lyrics and queue them perhaps #get ready to ramble | ooc

[iguessitsjustme]

🐰

Ok. So I know that the fact that I keep using anon mode makes this kind of contradictory. But I think you're super nice and always take time to answer me so not that intimidating. Merry Xmas and have a pleasant trip and as always, the best food.

☃️

Hello my dear anon!

🐰 - barely intimidating

Honestly that makes sense. And I know there are many reasons to use anon. It’s why I keep it on. I’m very glad you think I’m super nice because I have worked very hard to not be mean.

Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays depending on what/if you celebrate anything to you and I hope if you’re traveling you have safe travels! And you know I always make sure I have the best food. I’m gonna make people feed me lol.

How intimidating am I?

#ask game #my brothers flight is currently landing so I will probably not be on as much for the next few days because I’ll be with family #but I’ll still be hopping on here and there #so feel free to send me anything or message me or what have you #I’ll respond as I have time and this goes for anyone and everyone #also everyone pray for my siblings that will be stuck in my car for 5 hours tomorrow bc we better hope they like stray kids

[abowlofpetuniasandawhale]

some days are shitty no matter how good you’d like them to be and sometimes all you can do about that is try to make tomorrow a little more bearable for yourself. no one can make me feel better now, but i can do something small to make my future self feel better later.

#i’m probably going to have some level of pain all day and some level of irritability #but i can do my stretches and take ibuprofen and clean up the house #and at least tomorrow i’ll wake up with less pain. and if i don’t i’ll have everything ready to help me feel better and a slightly less #stressful environment

[iamdexter123]

Nothing worse than being ill and alone in a hotel room, far from home and all the things that make you feel better.

#if anyone has any fate sickfic recs to keep me company tonight I’ll gladly receive them #hopefully two good 🤮 has done the trick #because I have the rest of the week of work to get through #where did this come from #I did a 7.5km jog this morning and everything #man I’d love some coconut water right about now #probably shouldn’t go for that hike tomorrow morning even if I do feel better

[pinkspiraling]

i started thinking too much and stressing over finding a job and freaking myself out about shit that is not even happening right now. i hate that my brain worries so much like stfu and just do shit. ik im trying to live or whatever but i deeply want to die most of the time. rn i think im just like “well if im gonna die then i might as well have fun first!” but life is unfortunately not very fun when i am terrified of everything

#i’m gonna take my meds now lmao i’ll probably feel better tomorrow #pink’s word vomiting

[seilon]

jesus christ I feel like shit

#thank god for testosterone making me unable to cry like a normal person because I sure would be otherwise #im as close as I can get to it pretty much #cant wait for my mom to get back today or tomorrow and ask me when I start the new job and I’ll just have to say oh yeah :) they never #called back actually :) haha #I know they made it sound close to certain but lol guess not! #kibumblabs #i fucking hate this I hate getting invested in anything and putting in time and effort into shit just to get fucking spat on #just emailed the general hotel email but I doubt that’ll do anything. anything good anyway #cause the restaraunt/club is managed seperately I’ll probably just get the runaround or a ‘I’ll let her know you contacted us’ which #literally never actually means anything #either that or I’ll just be rejected indirectly which won’t exactly make me feel. better #I also applied for the 8000th time to another place for a similar job but I’ve never had luck with this place so that’ll probably also #result in nothing #woohoo it’s fucking September and we’re still stuck at fucking square one! hahaahaahahahaah SO cool #for real it should actually be a fucking legal requirement to give your applicants/interviewees some form of follow-up. it’s just so #fucking degrading to try and follow-up and just being ghosted. like what’s the point of that #it feels simultaneously like rejection and being strung along at the same time. i talked to you in person the least you could do is give #me any kind of update. for the love of god

[entropys]

:-) things are getting better september truly is a month of new beginnings

#yesterday i went out to the grocery store late at night and bought so much yogurt i think that was my turning point i am forever changed #and today i went to the mall with my mom and bought myself a pair of sunglasses that i really wanted for so long #and the guy that works there recognized me 😭😭😭😭 #i went there before to buy my cousin a graduation gift and honestly i came back bc i wanted the same ones i got for her they’re so cool #anyway the staff recognized me and gave me a special discount bc im a ‘regular’ even tho this is only my second time buying from them 🥹🥹 #that was so nice of him bc if it wasnt for that dicount i probably wouldnt have bought the sunglasses bc theyre a bit pricey for my budget #anyway i got them 🥹 so im feeling a bit better #also! i bought myself a little rice cooker for one serving so i don’t starve and stop ordering so much food that i don’t have money for #i think this month is spending on myself month #and tomorrow im going out to celebrate my friend’s birthday 🥰🥰 we’re going to a bakery then to a museum and im bringing my camera with me <3 #recently i’ve fixed my 10 year old camera and its so perfect i love it so much i found a manual online and im gonna learn how to properly #use all the effects and settings it has #i bought it with my mom in 2013 and honestly we picked the best design ever it looks so coooool god i love my little camera im taking it #everywhere with me 🥹💛💛 #anyway .. the last episode of uncanny counter 2 aired today 🥲🥲🥲 im gonna make myself some rice in my new rice cooker and watch it 🫶 #then i’ll take a warm shower and finish off my friends bday gift #im making them a crochet cat keychain i hope it comes out well #alsoooo LETTERS WITH NOTES OUT TOMORROW im soooo excited i love you september #anyway i came here to talk about my week bc it was nice :-) i hope everyone’s september is going well too <3