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meimi-haneoka · 4 months

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{drabble} Somewhere I belong - Kaito/Akiho

This is the second Kaito x Akiho / YunaAki drabble that is paired with the first one I wrote from Akiho's POV. Please read that one first so you can have a better understanding of the situation!

The setting is the same as the first drabble, but Kaito's thoughts drift all over the place because....well, he's Kaito. He's been officially named as the "overthinker" by CLAMP so now I'm going to call him that for quite some time 😂

As you will be able to see, while Akiho thought to herself without problems that she loved him, you won't see Kaito thinking that, here. This is a very early stage of their new life and he's still far from acknowledging any of that, but he's starting to come to terms with things, at least.

This one might be a bit more angstier than the other one, again because this is Kaito we're talking about. His self-loathing won't disappear overnight. But I hope that the finale will comfort you, at least. ❤️

Once again, I'm not a native English speaker so forgive me if any line sounds weird!

P.s. Dandelion, thank you again! P.s.2 Yes, I also like Linkin Park 😁

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“I’m sorry...”, I blurted out, in a whisper. Every time we ended up in this situation, I would apologize. And she would never reply to it. Maybe an apology wasn’t what she wanted to hear, but I had yet to find out what were the right words to say.

Kaito's POV

I don't think I'll ever be able to forget it.

The way she looked at me when they told her everything, that night. The way she had slowly turned her head and kept her gaze fixed on me, while the British magician rattled off all that my plan had entailed, down to the way it had affected my body. He recovered all the previous memories, and he knew Akiho-san needed an explanation more than anyone else, but also knew I was in no condition (neither mental, nor physical) to give it to her. I could feel her gaze piercing through me, while someone was helping me sitting down, as I couldn't even stand up.

Her hands gripped tightly the tablet, shaking. Her blue eyes, usually crystalline and bright like the Caribbean Sea, darkened several shades and became like a raging storm. They once again glazed over with emerging tears, but she probably held them back, because not even one dropped.

And I felt so weak. My guilt, growing again by the second. I would've given anything to remove that hardened gaze from her and bring back the soft features I've always known. But you see, that was my problem. Giving everything the way I did before wasn’t the correct answer. And I had finally surrendered to the truth, that night. But I didn't know any other way. I simply didn't know how to express how important she is to me without pushing it to an extreme, and that was exactly how we came to that point.

I don’t know when exactly I started to hear that voice inside of me, telling me that I wanted to connect with her.

I could hear it every day, before I carried out my plan. Louder and louder and louder. Kicking and screaming inside of me. I tried to fight it for so long, forcing myself not to hear it. But when she asked Sakura-san to bring me back, and she stated that she refused to keep living a fabricated life, wanting to go back to what she had before with me, I suddenly grew so tired. So, so tired. I was exhausted. I didn't want to fight it anymore.

I've fought countless magicians ever since I was a little boy, and defeated every single one of them. People kept me at a distance for that. And yet, completely oblivious to all of that, she was the one who defeated me every single time. Even this time around, she won. She won over that brutal, devastating desire to disappear forever that had consumed my life to such degree. She won over my guilt and self-loathing that I, quite frankly, haven’t got rid of yet.

So here I was, now, clinging to her like a lifeline in the kitchen, while I waited to regain control of my breathing. I had tried to hide it from her, the first couple of times after I got back on my feet, following that fateful night. But she found out every single time and made very clear that if we wanted to live together from now on, this had to stop. I didn't know what to do with myself anymore. Why was I fighting it again? So I did as she requested, and by now, this was already the third episode of seizure she had witnessed.

I didn't know.... how any of this worked. But I wanted to learn. I wanted to try.

I was slowly starting to get it. Why I caved in and agreed to go back to her, that night, despite how confused I was and how much I still despised myself for making her cry like that. She made me feel wanted. Made me feel accepted. Made me feel like I finally belonged somewhere. I hadn’t realized how much I actually had yearned for that, all this time.

I thought I was nothing to her. I thought that she could've lived perfectly fine without me, without remembering anything of what we experienced together. Because, in the end, who was I? Just her butler. I embarked on that mission with the full understanding that I would've always been just her butler, and I played that part till the end at the best of my ability. An expendable tool to let her reach the happiness she deserved.

But I wasn't. I wasn't, and I couldn't see that. I could only finally realize it that night in the most harrowing way possible, causing that face I wished to see eternally smile to be tainted with burning tears, as she poured out all her pain. Pain that I had caused. This wasn't the kind of support she wanted from me, and I failed her terribly.

I was willing to do anything to make things right. So when she asked me, no, rather demanded to not be kept in the dark whenever I had one of my seizures, I had no choice but to comply. That was what she wanted, and there was no way I could refuse it to her.

But now that the medicine was finally starting to kick in, and my breathing stabilized to a more normal rate, I raised my head to look at her worried face and I couldn’t help but think how unfair all of this was on her. She was so young, and she didn’t deserve to withstand all of this because of my choices.

She helped me stand up and supported me all the way to the couch, where I finally laid down and released the tension from my stiffened muscles. Seizures usually left me completely exhausted and sore.

She sat down on the floor next to the couch, and we exchanged a long, wordless stare. Her eyes were again clear and bright. Before I drifted in a dreamless heavy sleep, I remember I felt so grateful to have her by my side. I didn’t deserve it. But the warmth I felt in my chest, contrarily to before, felt so nice. And I was pretty sure she was the cause of it.

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disciple-of-frost · 22 days

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Okie dokie then... (0 A 0)

Also! I'm just going to be answering these as a comprehensive list and not send out more. I'm really really sorry, I just don't want to send more to people I might have already sent this to. Just know I appreciate each and every one of you and my inbox/messages are always open if you want to chit chat more!

Also Also! I'm just going to be answering 12 things that make me happy, a nice happy medium also cuz my brain like to freeze up whenever I try to think about myself and my interests. (T _ T)

1.) My mutuals OCs! Seeing the love poured into each character and the unique takes everyone has done to fit MSQ/character dynamics to them is so cool! I know we aren't all a hivemind and we won't like all of the same characters, but seeing you all uplift and be supportive to one another helped me be more open and post about Ishi.

2.) Coffee. I am a caffeine fiend and I have done my damnedest to recreate a lot of the drinks Starbucks has released at home. And I will say, I make a mean Lavender Cream Matcha. If you think you can't make something like that I'd say don't be afraid to try. You might surprise yourself.

3.) Monster High. I was in high school in conservative, small town nowhere when they first released and my parents didn't feel the need to buy things that weren't necessities. So now that I'm an adult and enjoying things I never got the chance to when I was younger I have 5 Draculauras hanging up in my bedroom.

4.) My cats. I know I said Animals already in another post, but I don't care. I have four fur babies and they are so special to me, I'm currently living in a really small semi-beaten up apartment because any houses for rent where I am have pet limits and I am not going to abandon two of my cat's just so I can live in a slightly nicer but exceedingly more expensive house. It's not a perfect place to live by societal standards, but it's ours and my boys are everything to me.

5.) Music. I am expanding my music horizons, but for the most part I still listen to a lot of the music I did as a teenager. Linkin Park, Killswitch Engage, Sevendust, Breaking Benjamin, etc. But I do try to find more independent artists that emulate a similar sound to my old favorites; Mallavora, From Ashes to New, Aviators, Magnolia Park.

6.) Gonna move away from physical/material things for a sec. That feeling you get when you get done cleaning a room and you sit down, take a deep breath, and just smell the clean.

7.) The satisfaction of finding a new recipe and nailing it on the first/second try.

8.) Seeing people be kind. I know there are horrible things happening in the world right now, but seeing seemingly small acts of kindness get's me teary eyed. A person rescuing goose eggs from a pond and returning them to their nest. A man picking up trash from a forest creek. Somebody getting gifted a plane ticket to go see their family in another country or having a family member show up to surprise them. I'm honestly getting misty eyed just typing this out. I'm just a really emotional/sentimental person.

9.) The fact that I have been able to keep a single plant alive for more than a week. My partner and I got a potted plant at a baby shower for his boss almost a year ago and that little guy is still kicking.

10.) Giving compliments to people when I'm out in public. I never got a lot of positive affirmation as a kid so whenever I see someone being unabashedly themselves and just wearing their style proudly I like to let them know they look good and that they're killing it.

11.) Finishing a game that had me emotionally invested. Lookin' at you Persona 3: Reload.

12.) Seeing my friends in person after not hanging out in a while. Being an adult can be lonely and people have responsibilities in their own lives that they have to put first before leisure and friends. So actually finding time to be together with the people I love and being able to hug them is super important to me.

Okay then. That's about it for now, if I do get another one of these I'll try my best to list a few more.

Thank you to @paintedscales, @shadesofblades, @myreia, @draconian-empress, and @corsair-kovacs! 💙

#inbox answered #paintedscales #shadesofblades #myreia #draconian-empress #corsair-kovacs #about me

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mlmxreader · 7 months

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A Thousand Miles | Eames x gn!reader

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↳ ❝ anonymous asked: May I please request something using the following prompts for Eames X non-binary, male, or gn!Reader:

“Y'know, I hate being a thousand miles away from you” ❞

: ̗̀➛ it's difficult to be without Eames, but it's always worth it when he comes home.

: ̗̀➛ swearing, smoking, mentions of therapy/therapists

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Sighing heavily, Eames dropped his bags at the door and kicked his shoes off; he had been a thousand miles away from home for almost two whole months, and he was glad to get back to normal.

The cash he had gotten would keep you both afloat for another year, and then he would be off again a few months before it all ran out; he was all too eager to get back to normal. Morning coffee given to him in bed as he watched you get dressed and ready for work; he kept telling you that you didn't need to go, but he couldn't deny that the extra cash helped.

He would clean and tidy up while you were gone, always just and just finishing the last little bit of washing when you walked through the door. He would make dinner if you came home early, tea if you didn't finish until the evening.

Eames loved the soft normalcy of routine; always finding one of his shirts missing in the wardrobe and then smiling to himself when he thought about the shirt that you had worn before leaving for work. Taking out the recycling and the kitchen bin. Folding the washing as he hummed along to a selection of songs by Linkin Park and Sodom, nodding his head here and there a little bit as he smiled.

Normalcy, the beautiful mundane, the everyday routine that was so easy to fall into every time. Eames had missed it for more than he could ever say.

He allowed himself a moment before he walked into the kitchen; it wasn't particularly late, but it wasn't particularly early, either, so he stuck the kettle on and lit himself a cigarette as he leaned against the counter. Your presence haunted the kitchen so wonderfully.

Your tobacco pouch along with your filters and papers strewn about on the breakfast bar. Your coffee cup left by the jars with the spoon still in it. The smell of your deodorant was infectious, festering in the air. Pineapple and pepper.

He felt his shoulders drop as the tension left him and, just for a moment, he closed his eyes, listening to the footsteps that trailed from the bedroom and grew closer. He opened his eyes just in time to see you approaching him.

"Y'know, I hate being a thousand miles away from you, my dearest darling."

You grinned at the words, rolling yourself a cigarette and stealing his lighter. "I hate it, too… how was it?"

"Exhausting," he grumbled. "You okay? Have you been going to your appointments?"

You nodded, standing next to him and letting your head rest on his shoulder. "I have, I always do… the doctor reckons I'm getting better but… maybe we should talk about it later?"

Eames nodded in agreement; in all honesty, as much as he loved being home at last, he was fucking tired beyond belief. His biggest want in the world was to be under the duvet with you, your body against his and your soft breaths fanning across his skin; your subtle squirms to get closer and to steal some of the duvet from him.

He missed it more than he could ever say, and it was all he lusted for. Eames was always tired when he came back from a job, and you knew that well enough that you didn't even need to ask him why he looked so run down. Work took a big toll on him, and it was only natural that he would be tired. It might not have been physically taxing, but emotionally and mentally, he was always left drained and… almost empty.

You hummed, letting out a quiet yawn; your appointments with the therapist were much the same, but Eames always insisted that you had to go. He looked out for you more than he would ever admit, trying to be a good boyfriend to you but never changing his mind and thinking that he had so much to make up for. He always thought he had more to make up to you than he could count.

Lazily, you slung your arm around his waist and pulled him in a little closer; a soft hum was drawn from the back of his throat as he put his arm around your shoulders and let out a soft yawn.

"I washed the bedding earlier," you murmured. "If we're quick enough, it'll still be warm."

The kettle clicked off, but Eames couldn't find it in himself to bother as he stubbed out his cigarette, waiting for you to do the same before he practically chased you all the way to the bed; he allowed you to get in first before he snuggled up beside you, nearly giggling as he did so.

You were quicker than he was, pulling him close and squirming around so that you could press your face to his neck. Your arms around him tightly and your leg lazily draped over him. Oh, Eames had missed that most of all.

But the bed was ever so slightly cold, so he grinned at you as he raised his brows.

"Cold bed dance?"

You laughed, nodding; Eames did it first, wriggling and gently kicking his legs as you soon followed suit. You loved having him home, you always would. The cold bed dance was always the highlight of when he returned, as above all else, it made you laugh.

Instead of coming home to a cold and empty house, the halls would finally be filled with his humming and the warmth of having him potter about doing the cleaning; the kitchen would soon smell of curries and chilies, spices lingering in the air and making your stomach growl loudly. The bed would no longer be empty and too large to handle.

The sofa would never be missing someone nearby. The wardrobe would never seem like it hadn't been touched in years after a couple of days. You wouldn't be so miserable when you walked home.

You loved having Eames home.

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opinated-user · 9 months

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What confuses me... My unhealthy faith in LO started around the time of some Luna/suicide video (I can't remember the name but I'm sure it's still up - it was after the episode "Do Princess Dream of Magic Sheep"). It meant a lot that she asserted "I will drag your ass kicking and screaming to therapy. If you're still alive, I've been a good friend" (paraphrasing)

At the time that sounded beyond rational to me, as a kid who wasn't given therapy because the adults around me couldn't afford it

Since then I've grown, gone through multiple therapies - both good and bad. And have come to realise how horrible that statement is. ESPECIALLY against marginalised groups, who are so much more likely to be abused and traumatised by the systems (I'm pretty privileged and have still been mistreated)

The weird part is... wouldn't Lily know this? Given the backed evidence. Why would she be advocating for such a harsh force for therapy when she knows firsthand that it doesn't always help people? Does she prioritise that sense of superiority over genuine morals?

Also. It's so uncomfortable that she still makes Linkin Park jokes. I can't prove it, but I'm an old fan and YEARS ago a comment pointed out how insensitive the jokes were since Chester Bennington's suicide. She apologised and promised to stop. That didn't last, once Lily thought nobody was gonna say anything again

I'm glad that I'm out of my old mindset now. But it still endlessly shocks me whenever this constant new information shows up

i started this blog thinking the worst LO had done was catfishing Brittany, manipulate Patch and emotionally abuse Lizzy during their relationship. all of that is bad enough, but at least it wasn't... molesting her own sister and stealing her underwear. i guess the only thing we can count on with LO that it can always get a lot worse.

#lily orchard

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thesinglesjukebox · 4 months

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THROWN - "ON THE VERGE"

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Michelle gets us some metalcore coverage...

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David Moore: Power music, nu metal revival! [7]

Michelle Myers: Metalcore is less a genre than an approach. It's hardcore-shaped music rendered in a metallic palette. In thrown's case, the hardcore is modern, post-Knocked Loose heavy shit with a tough NYHC beatdown influence. The metal is thuddy, dissonant thall, pitched straight down to the depths of hell. In an interview with Ola Englund, Thrown's multi-instrumentalist/producer Buster Odeholm said, "It's 2023. Notes are overrated." Thrown's willingness to eschew melody for texture and rhythm lends their music gravitas. The riffs on "On the Verge" are never sterile, and Thrown's considerable technical prowess doesn't overshadow the intense emotionality of their music. They don't need to play fast. They don't need to squeal like hellspawn. When the breakdown comes, they just chug slower. The new pace allows frontman Marcus Lundquist to add a new layer of despair to his words as he repeats the first verse. "I've tried," he insists, in the past tense, "to come to terms with my mind." He doesn't need to tell you it was an unsuccessful attempt. [9]

Brad Shoup: One of my favorite bits is "Nuggets, but for __". If it worked for garage rock--a very bad style of music--why wouldn't it work for Eurodance or gabber or freestyle? Or metalcore? This would be one for the Children of Nuggets box: the anguish is rendered from a very old and muddy palette. (Referencing "demons" is bad enough; did they really have to rhyme it with "screaming"?) But to their credit, they take their torment and swing it against a brick wall. The track, frankly, slams: the breakdown is sick, the klaxon-like guitar ostinato and rap sample are a nice nod to the massively influential (!) Linkin Park. Another hint we're dealing with a new generation of metalcore: they're out in a breezy 2:15. [6]

Ian Mathers: Satisfyingly chunky, like a good peanut butter. After the relative velocity of the opening salvo, it's a nice change when they downshift into something more stompy. Kind of wish they kept it there, but this is so short I can just play it again. [7]

Will Rivitz: If not for the TikTokicity of this song -- phonk-inflected intro and interlude, verse-chorus-verse-chorus-bridges-are-for-suckers structure -- you could have convinced me this came out in 2007. As that was the last time this type of -core featured regularly in my musical diet, I don't mind the throwback at all. [7]

Katherine St Asaph: This wasn't my thing then, and it still isn't my thing if you add a Tyga intro. [4]

Joshua Minsoo Kim: I'm mostly interested in this as a barrage of textures: the phonk intro, the revved-up guitars 40 seconds in, the breakdown's constant pummeling, the way things cohere in the final seconds. And yet, I still feel shortchanged -- there's not enough time for the heaviness to really hit you. [5]

Nortey Dowuona: The snare drum is the most underrated drum in music. It settles a song, makes it translatable and danceable -- a space for vocalists, other instrumentalists and a poet -- but it rarely gets as much praise and love as the bass drum or the kick or the hihats. Here, the snare punctuates the frothy guitar and drowned bass and drags the song back to earth, allowing one to get immersed as the song lurches to a stomp, then a hop, a jog, all made possible by the snare. [8]

Jacob Sujin Kuppermann: Linearly gets more conventional (and less interesting) with time; I was so disappointed when it switched from the very fun groove-like riff of the first half to the more pounding downward spiral of the B section that I immediately ran back to the start of the song. [6]

Micha Cavaseno: One of the more fascinating things about the death of rapper XXXTentacion is just how effectively he helped bring dirtbag aggro rock energy back from seeming death. His flirtations with "screamo" and "nu-metal" (themselves emulating the work of fellow post-Raider Klan rapper Bones) led to a bunch of kids in rap and rock alike taking his DNA and merging it into filthy Adidas Rock wallows, whether for aesthetic purposes or genuine appreciation. "On the Verge" is the same beatdown hardcore knucklescrapes that I've heard for decades, but until fairly recently your average rap homages were funk beats or a guy rambling about his third eye, not fake Memphis-style loops or Marcus Lundqvist barking in a Three Six-style staccato pattern. I can't help but be taken with the idea that we live in a world that's slightly discolored even in the monochrome. [4]

Taylor Alatorre: I spent the better part of a week trying to gather my thoughts for a blurb that would weave together digressions on the etymology of "metalcore," the history of abortive nu metal revivals, the performance of masculine self-loathing, and the ethnomusicology of hardcore shows. Had the footnotes ready and everything. Then, after around my 37th time listening to the mini-breakdown before the chorus ("well I cannot fucking wait"), the urge to write had dissipated completely, and the urge to slam had taken hold. I am no longer thinking about what the next word in this sentence will be; I am astral projecting myself from my office chair into a violently teeming mass of bodies that I'm several years too old to safely be a part of. I am at war, I am at peace; I have given up. [7]

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#thrown #music #metalcore #music writing #music reviews #music criticism #the singles jukebox #Youtube

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thethistlegirlwrites · 4 months

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Songs and Ships Tag

Thanks so much for tagging me @talesofsorrowandofruin , I'm putting this on my Writeblr instead of my main because I'm doing some OCs for this...

Rules: write about two to five songs from them that represent your a ship between your OCs (it can be platonic or romantic or a secret third thing). Then add a quote from said WIP (if possible!) underneath it.

I'm going to do this for Sierra and Shay because I'm kind of obsessed with their dynamic right now...

They both come to the situation with so much past baggage and issues, and I love how over the course of the story the perspective shifts as to which of them is the real monster (and then starts asking whether anyone is too monstrous to change, and where we go from there if we do).

The Unforgiven II by Metallica

Lay beside me and tell me what they've done And speak the words I wanna hear to make my demons run The door is locked now but it's open if you're true If you can understand the me then I can understand the you Yeah, what I've felt, what I've known Sick and tired, I stand alone Could you be there? 'Cause I'm the one who waits for you Or are you unforgiven too?

2. Flaws by Bastille

All of your flaws and all of my flaws They lie there hand in hand Ones we've inherited, ones that we learned They pass from man to man You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground Dig them up; let's finish what we've started Dig them up, so nothing's left untouched All of your flaws and all of my flaws, When they have been exhumed We'll see that we need them to be who we are Without them we'd be doomed

3. What I've Done by Linkin Park

Put to rest What you thought of me While I clean this slate With the hands of uncertainty So let mercy come and wash away What I've done I'll face myself To cross out what I've become Erase myself And let go of what I've done For what I've done I start again And whatever pain may come Today this ends I'm forgiving What I've done

4. Gravel on the Ground by John Denver

So let's walk the road together. Who knows what we'll find tomorrow; Maybe good times, maybe sorrow will be waitin' 'round the bend. Given time, two hearts discover what they're feelin' for each other; At the best we'll end up lovers, at the least we'll make a friend. But life ain't no easy freeway, just some gravel on the ground. You pay for every mile you go, to spread some dust around. Though we all have destinations, and the dust will settle down; But life ain't no easy freeway, just some gravel on the ground.

I had to have ONE road trip adjacent song in this list given that's literally the entirety of Compass, and I tried to put these in some logical progression of the relationship?

Anyway, here's a snippet:

Sierra walks over and kicks the chair. Shane startles awake, blinking in the lowering sunlight. “Huh?”

“Got a proposition for you. You told me a pretty good story back there. Enough I think I might believe you. If I’m right, then either I go toe to toe with my agency, or I let you go. Either way, my career is most likely over. But if I let an innocent…person…die, then it ought to be.”

“What are you saying?”

“I don’t think you lied to me. I don’t know why you didn’t tell anyone else the truth already, but I think you’ve told me now. Which means somewhere in LA, a murderer is still on the loose, we’re the only ones who know that, and we need to find them in case they kill again. And I’d rather do it with you. You’re the closest witness to the crime. We need you in the middle of the investigation, not a thousand miles away. After this is over, if you still think the stake is your best option, we’ll do what’s best for you.” She leans on the back of the seat. “What do you say? Do you want to spend the last days of your life in a cell, or would you rather look the bastard who framed you in the eyes when we take him down?”

No Pressure Tagging @nade2308 @catwingsathena @telltaleclerk and anyone else who sees this and wants to jump in!

#writing #compass #sierra aguirre-stoker #shane barrett #tag game

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jen-lee3 · 7 months

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So I love Resident Evil, and in particular Leon Kennedy because when I was like six or seven I watched my dad play Resident Evil 4 on the gamecube and went, I like this funny man. And now years later the remakes slammed me in the face now that I'm capable of complex thoughts. But none of my irl friends like Resident Evil to the point my best friend has stopped me mid conversation because I got really focused on it again. So I need people to talk to about Resident Evil, if not for my sake then my friends. So here are some random Leon headcanons/thoughts that I need to put somewhere. They're not completely original of course, but here.

These are pretty much all Remake Leon, because honestly I prefer him. He's got consistent characterization. Not that og Leon had much of a chance in that regard, there were a lot of writers and years and even consoles between each game, and I still love him. Remake Leon just gives me a chronic case of "i can fix him" disease.

He is a dog person, 100%. I think there's even art for either 2 or 1.5 of him with a bloodhound. But we knew this.

He can’t really have a pet, but if he could I think he’d inexplicably end up with a cat. He doesn’t know how this happened. It just did, and suddenly his phone is filled with pictures of this cat. Like a real ugly cat too.

I feel like he played soccer or baseball in high school. Gotta get look good for those college apps. Absolutely not foot ball.

I feel like he was well liked in high school and college. Not exactly popular, but if someone was planning a party and saw him walk by, shout out an invite to him, because he's just a nice guy.

Girls probably liked him being at parties because while he's bad at flirting, he is always ready to throw down with a creep, watch a drink, walk a girl home. Using his hero complex to enjoy a party without worry.

Leon listens to dad rock. This much is obvious. I’m using my parents for reference but they’re roughly about ten years older so there's differences. Def doesn’t listen to as much hair metal I think, but would probably get a kick out of steel panther still.

So much nirvana though. So much.

That being said, nothing is funnier than the idea of his inner elevator music being Linkin Park. He kinda missed them, getting beat up by Krauser. But I can see Chris several years later grabbing a cd thinking Leon might like this. Leon doesn’t know when Chris found out his birthday to buy him this gift as he did not tell him.

The visual of Leon zoning out and miserable with Numb playing just hits different okay.

Also everyone has seemed to collectively decide he likes NIN, specifically Closer. Which yes totally see it for re4 Leon, but also hilarious. He was 17 when that song came out. Can you imagine, freshman year or college with a Leon that's even a few years younger than re2 Leon, taking a girl back to his dorm room, and putting on some music to try and set the mood or something, and that song pops on. “I wanna fuck you like an animal” Sir, you are a golden retriever of a man that song doesn’t suit you yet.

Leon’s arm with the bullet wound seems to have some issues. I’ve seen several people throw that idea around and it makes sense. We know it was hours before he got proper medical attention at the very least if not days.

I also think he might have some slight tinnitus. Maybe just in one ear. Not enough that it would make him more vulnerable in a fight than his arm having issues. But the amount of explosions, getting thrown around, and even firing a gun. It wouldn’t be surprising.

I know that when he mentioned Wesker before he called him ‘Wesker’ like everyone else. But I think if they met, Leon would call him Albert cause it’s funny and he had no sense of self preservation.

I think Leon has a weird thing about his neck. Like sure it's fun to joke about him getting choked, but he has actually been choked by a lot of monsters to the point it’s probably touchy for him. I genuinely don’t think he’d like getting choked. And even touching his neck gets him to flinch unless he trusts them.

I didn’t want to get into nsfw, but since there's literally a tag for this on AO3… yeah, Leon’s packing. At the very least, I think this because something has to give him the confidence to say all that stupid shit. Because I don’t think it’s just his fighting skill.

Eye contact. The boy loves eye contact. If you manage to get in a conversation with him (and there's not zombies trying to kill you) he is keeping his focus and his gaze. And you know… eye contact in other situations too I guess…

He watched Buffy season 1, only got to watch exactly 2 episodes of Buffy season 2 before Racoon city. I looked up when the episodes aired. He didn’t even get to see the Angelus arc. He’ll never go back and watch until years later when streaming is a thing.

Another idea I’ve seen more than once I agree with. His apartment is so impersonal. Man walked into Ikea, pointed at one of their display rooms and said yes. Which is what they did in The Room. Tommy Wiseau looked at a display window and went yes.

Loves blockbuster and other video rentals. He loves movies but it’s probably hard for him to have a collection, so he rents them. Though that's always risky if he gets called away. But what else is he gonna spend his money on, the late fees are barely an issue.

sapphire-weapon has a lot of good Leon headcanons but I like the one about him being a fantasy nerd in particular. Being a Neil Gaimon fan makes a lot of sense. Probably enjoys some Terry Prachet as well. Very picky about fantasy but I would just want to show him my weird puppet movies. Like come on, this one has David Bowie who doesn’t like David Bowie?

I recently was shown Escape from New York and I think Leon and Chris would somehow start talking about that movie and they’ll get really excited about it and that they both love it. Like lots of good Kurt Russel movies, but I don’t think The Thing or Big Trouble in Little China gets the same results from those two.

He’s probably not Italian. If he is, it's probably too far back to matter or at the closest a grandparent they don’t really talk too. I would buy Scottish or Irish relatives closer than Italian. He is a white guy in America so he is probably a mix from several European countries but again, too far back to matter or really affect him culturally. He’s just American. Take this from someone who is of Italian descent, (my dad’s grandparents moved to Canada from Italy) and while I’m only a quarter Italian and actually have very similar colouring to Leon (pale, blue eyes, blonde) my family is still very Italian. So I feel like I can be a pretty good point of reference here.

Also the mafia background. Y’all saw one concept artist say he was Italian, and then that mock interview back in the day said his parents died in a “heinous crime” and decided it was mafia related, which hey. But idk, he seems too plucky in re2r. I feel like he’d be more disillusioned with the police force if something like that happened. I mean that is applying realism to Resident Evil which as we all know is a very grounded and realistic horror game, but regardless, he’s not mafia. Mafia princess Leon is hilarious, but just as a fun au.

But eerizon mama’s boy video tho? Makes me want to rip my phone in half (affectionate)

Probably raised catholic. He’s got a couple lines about religion and by merit of being a white guy in America, def christian family. Now y’all in the states have like a million different versions, start throwing directions into it too, so I really only know catholic. And also, Sister Michael of Derry Girls comes to me saying “I do love a good statue it must be said” and she’s right.

I wish there was more fan art of Leon with Catholic aesthetics because they're so good. Martyr Leon, Saint Leon. the possibilities. God I wish I could draw.

As for shipping, I’ll ship Leon with just about anyone.

Leon and Ashley are my personal favourite, I just think it’s adorable and knight/prince/ss relationships make me feral.

Chris and Leon are fun because grumpy old men romance!

Luis and Leon are really fun because Leon looks like scary dog privilege but I like the idea Luis is the dangerous one. He may or may not have been involved with Nemesis. Pissing off Leon is bad, but pissing off his boyfriend? Rip.

Leon and Ada are toxic and fun. I don’t understand the sentiment of, oh it’s not manipulative or unhealthy. Yes it is, that's why it’s sexy. I support women’s wrongs.

Leon and Claire are wild, something ends up on fire at the end of all their dates.

Leon and Krauser… okay maybe I don’t ship them. OG Leon? Sure, they’re more equals. Remake Leon? Krauser I’ll kill you.

In my head I refer to him as blonde because I first saw him in OG re4, but he's really more of a brunette huh. It also varies even in that regard (looking at you vendetta). Kinda like Link. Various between shades of blonde and brown with one random ginger/pink thrown in due to tech constraints.

Anyways, I have more thoughts but this was already waaaay too long. Please talk to me about Resident Evil my bestie can’t take it anymore.

#Resident Evil #resident evil 4 remake #resident evil 4 #leon kennedy #leon s kennedy #pls i need re mutuals #my friend is going to kill me if i dont stop #leon my favourite idiot

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perceives those character questions... how about ur man seymour anddd.. homura. variety. you don't gotta do both if you don't want

SEYMOUR!!! I LOVE HIM SO MUCH <3

favorite thing about them: Oh god do I have to pick just one thing?? I love his hair, I love his glasses, I love his clothes, I love his voice....I love how sweet he is to Audrey and to his plants <3 I also love how he was immediately convinced to kill orin when he saw him hurting audrey like YESSSSS KING!!! THE GUY SURE LOOKS LIKE PLANT FOOD TO ME!! He is also so SO sopping wet and pathetic and that only makes me love him even more.

least favorite thing about them: NOOOOOO I CAN'T SAY ANYTHING I DISLIKE ABOUT HIM I LOVE HIM TOO MUUUUUCH

favorite line: "Hi, Audrey! You look radiant today~ <3" OR "Twoey, that's disgusting." OR "You watch your language!"

brOTP: i guess him and twoey but only in AUs where twoey is actually nice and isn't trying to eat the world. I would like for him to have more actual people to be friends with!!

OTP: Him and Audrey, obviously. Literally they made me believe love is real <3

nOTP: Seymour/Twoey or Seymour/Orin. He does not deserve that kind of suffering.

random headcanon: He has autism (just like me!) and his special interest is plants/botany, specifically weird and exotic plants (His monologue in "da-doo" could be interpreted as him infodumping). Also, he's prone to sensory overloads bc he gets overwhelmed easily ;w;

unpopular opinion: hmmmm. idk. i think some people give him too much credit for his actions. some people like to act like he was some secretly fucked up mastermind from the beginning but he's literally Just Some Guy who was talked into killing people by a giant plant bc his life sucked and as far as he knew, he didn't have any other chance to make things better. he was living in poverty and stuck in a dead-end job. he was desperate. did he make mistakes? yeah of course he did. but like. idk. i feel like everything was more twoey's fault than seymour's.

song i associate with them: "Put Your Head on My Shoulder" by Paul Anka. Its from around the same era the movie takes place in and I can picture him singing it for whatever reason.

favorite picture of them: LISTEN i have a whole folder of pictures of this man its impossible for me to pick just one BUT:

this recent addition to my collection is pretty cute <3 he looks soft i just wanna kiss his cheeks and give him a big ol hug

aaaaaand now homura

favorite thing about them: SHE IS LITERALLY SO COOL. I like that she seems cold and distant but is actually feeling SO MUCH beneath the surface. I also like when she uses her guns or her time-shield thingy. OH and the sassy little hair-flips she does sometimes!!! ALSO she kicks kyubbey's ass all the time it's great. I also have a weakness for characters who have distinct "before" and "after" personalities (Homura's being her shy pre-magical girl/time loop self and her serious self that we see for most of the series)

least favorite thing about them: Her whole deal at the end of Rebellion is kind of weird I'm not entirely sure how I feel about it (I think the main series ended on a well-enough note) but her demon design is still pretty cool. Also she kind of gets into Madoka's business a lot like showing up at her window in the middle of the night?? It's funny but also girl what the hell are you doing?

favorite line: Uhhh I don't remember any of her actual quotes from the series so here's one from the legendary video Meduka Meguca: "MEDUKA DON'T GOOOOOOOOO"

brOTP: I feel like if her and Mami had a better, less antagonistic relationship they could be good friends.

OTP: Her and Madoka of course! <3

nOTP: I have no idea.

random headcanon: She is autistic and also a lesbian to me <3

unpopular opinion: ummmmm i don't know lol i don't really interact with the pmmm fandom much

song i associate with them: "In the End" by Linkin Park. I'm pretty sure I saw an AMV with her set to that song way back. Plus, the lyrics fit her situation pretty well

favorite picture of them: This one speaks to me

#jess speaks #seymour krelborn #homura akemi #answered asks #this was fun ehehehe >:3

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dadiism · 10 months

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WELCOME TO MY LIFE: AN ANGELO CORTES ESTRADA PLAYLIST

welcome to my life || simple plan

to be hurt, to feel lost to be left out in the dark to be kicked when you're down to feel like you've been pushed around to be on the edge of breakin' down and no one's there to save you no, you don't know what it's like welcome to my life

you're gonna go far, kid || offspring

now dance, fucker, dance, man, he never had a chance and no one even knew it was really only you and now you steal away take him out today nice work you did you're gonna go far, kid with a thousand lies and a good disguise hit 'em right between the eyes hit 'em right between the eyes when you walk away, nothing more to say see the lightning in your eyes see 'em running for their lives

mr. brightside || the killers

i'm coming out of my cage and i've been doing just fine gotta gotta be down because i want it all

you found me || the fray

lost and insecure you found me, you found me lyin' on the floor surrounded, surrounded why'd you have to wait? where were you? where were you? just a little late you found me, you found me

in the end || linkin park

i tried so hard and got so far but in the end it doesn't even matter i had to fall to lose it all but in the end it doesn't even matter

animal || miike snow

in your eyes i see the eyes of somebody i knew before long, long, long ago but i'm still trying to make my mind up am i free or am i tied up? i change shapes just to hide in this place but i'm still, i'm still an animal nobody knows it but me when i slip, yeah i slip i'm still an animal

who i am hates who i've been || relient k

cause i don't want you to know where i am 'cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state it's ever been and this is no place to try and live my life (stop right there) that's exactly where i lost it (see that line?) well, i never should have crossed it (stop right there) well, i never should have said that it's the very moment that i wish that i could take backi'm sorry for the person i became i'm sorry that it took so long for me to change i'm ready to be sure i never become that way again 'cause who i am hates who i've been

ocean avenue || yellowcard

there's a piece of you that's here with me it's everywhere i go it's everything i see when i sleep i dream and it gets me by i can make believe that you're here tonight that you're here tonight if i could find you now things would get better we could leave this town and run forever i know somewhere somehow we'll be together let your waves crash down on me and take me away

#chq;task #[ inspiration ]#[ angelo ]

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Blood was preparing for a fight against his little brother, surprise Jr. jess was worried about blood she didn't even know blood had a little brother. Babe, I'm worried about this fight..... then a hole in the ground appeared two figures crawled out of the hole one was a half breed of a goat and a unicorn. Brother. Little brother, haha, surprise Jr. chuckled, then octavia surprise jr wife hugged him babe who's that mare? He didn't know, so he asked hey bro who the your new cunt? Jess was mad at the comment that she gripped bloods arm in anger I'll show you whose the cunt feather head fuck octavia wasn't mad because she knew she was stronger then bloods wife whatever kick ass babe she kissed surprise jr deeply then out of nowhere blood teleported surprise didn't have time to react or block till he got upper cutted giving blood a second to talk to his sister in law just don't hurt my husband too much please my dad stolas is getting married soon and they need him to bless the marriage understandable sis but no promises and brother who's your new wife? I'll tell you later, sis, maybe on a double date? Ooooo yay, I love double dates me, and surprise been needing one. Babe look out jess warned blood then he pushed octavia out of the way, getting blasted by surprise with one hell of a punch, hah surprise jr laughed then he kept beating on blood surprise jr summoned a death orb smashing it into bloods chest making the area unstable the ground started breaking away exploding the area they were fighting at jess and octavia were trying to keep their footing but got blown away. "Surprise, Jr. was beraly standing over his brother"

His right arm was badly damaged surprise jr breathed heavily, trying to keep standing, but his last breath made him pass out blood, then got up, vomiting up white blood gasping for air s-so-on..... he tried to crawl out of the crater, still gasping for air, vomiting up the white blood. Then, a rift against time ripped open, taking blood and surprise jr back in time without a trace jess and octavia were shocked what did you do you feathered bitch where is my husband?! Me how do I know you didn't do this you fucking God cunt I'm a god fucker get it right satan fucker

Octavia smiled, then laughed I like you miss? Jess ka pie Octavia wasn't impressed by the last name pie because she knew bloods past gfs didn't deserve the name pie. How do I know you're actually a pie miss jess? I know I am Octavia chuckled, knowing she earned to be called a pie. What did you do to earn the pie name besides being married to the dead god Blood? jess was confused but also angry. What do you mean? Octavia appeared in front of jess instantly she was shocked at the speed of Oct, and had you seemed surprised? You see, I earned my pie name not only am I married to Satan but I wanted to earn my name and prove I had the strength to carry out my husband plan you may have married my brother in law but you are no pie your a nothing jess until you earn your pie name you are nothing in my eyes Octavia spited in jess face blasting her to the ground now if you don't mind I need to rasie some hell on the surface since your not gonna stop me Octavia kicked jess in her face walking off summoning hell fire bring lava from hell Octavia summoned demons kill the innocent bring me all there souls they followed queen Octavia orders killing innocent ponies burning down building settings fire everywhere jess then get up seeing all of bloods work he made to keep their home safe she didn't know what to do her home her family will all die she started crying then she felt a pulse of magic through her veins. Jess got up saying hey satan fucker Octavia turned then got blasted by jess oh so the god fucker got some balls now Octavia whipped her face running for jess jess blocked her breaking her right arm off Oct screamed in regrowing her right arm. Oh, you think you can stop me mortal?! Huh!? Jess was mad she started walking to octavia , and instantly, octavia felt a sharp pain in her chest, so she looked down, falling jess, then heard her kids screaming she teleported tobthe castle seeing demons trying to ate her newborn. Hey asshole!!!! The demon saw jess, it smirked, eating the newborn. jess heart dropped firing blood holy fire at the demon it died quickly from the force of the fireball, and then she heard crying it was still alive jess seached through the ashes picking up her newborn kissing it momma pie? Kids? Nothing but a dead silence she feared the worst, then octavia came busting down the door, saying awww how sweet I get to kill two mortals now then the pie kids appeared but jess walked in front of the kids she gave midnight the new baby cracking her neck prepare bitch AHHHHHHHH! Jess hair went pure white, growing angel wings and a halo above her head octavia was scared, then ordered the demon to attack but instantly fell dead octavia was scared falling to the ground begging for mercy jess rage was taking over till blood and surprise jr came back but surprise jr deck jess knocking her out control your wife brother then octavia fell from a heart attack by jess. You should talk, lil bro. Your wife was destroying our home. Your wife is lucky she'll have a busted jaw . Oh yeah? You two stop now your brothers they both sighed know their mom is right they hugged each other and surprise jr and took his wife home and blood put his wife to bed then he told the kids not to bother her till she wakes up

To be continued

Tag for @n-o-nv2

Mod pie: It feels like I should've hand-written this one. I don't know why I didn't live and learn

#Spotify

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kryoymir · 5 months

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For the end of what has been one of my more active years, I asked fans to submit some questions. Here, I've answered them to the best of my ability.

Also, you can find a remix of Already Over by Mike Shinoda on my YouTube and SoundCloud now!

Hi Kryo, is VOID NXLL still a thing or you're not sure?

So, I don't want to say anything concrete on this because when I do that it usually doesn't work out, but I hope you'll keep an eye on the VN social medias next year.

Which track from Slipstream of Conscoiusness is your favorite and why?

I thought this might be a hard one to answer but, surprisingly, the answer came pretty quickly once I started thinking about it. Kick It! is by far my favorite piece in this body of work I'm already incredibly proud of. I just love the energy and style to it, it feels incredibly refreshing in a way I can't quite put into words.

What is your top music of 2023?

Slipstream of Consciousness!

No no, seriously. So, in no particular order, my top albums of the year are The Algorithm by Filter, EndEx by 3TEETH, and Under Glass by Kanga. There's also been some good stuff from Foo Fighters, SiM, King 810, and Spiritbox, and Linkin Park put out an excellent box set. As of writing this, HEALTH has a new album slated for digital release in December, and I suspect based on the singles I'll enjoy that quite a bit. If you like scores and soundtracks, the full OST for Chainsaw Man released this January, and FFXVI had a pretty killer one.

What's your GOTY (game of the year)?

This is a hard question to answer because a lot of the games I was looking forward to this year were disappointing in one way or another. Tears of the Kingdom was pretty weak as far as lore and storytelling, FFXVI didn't keep the gameplay engaging enough for the 80 hours I played it and the level design was lackluster in some places, Spider-Man 2 dropped the ball with the third arc. Overall very hard to pick one.

Is there a possibility of an extended version of Seventeenth Angel? Very charming track, wish it would be longer.

It's not an impossibility. I don't currently have any plans to work on one but that's not to say it'll never happen! I will keep this in mind in the future though and if the opportunity presents itself, I'll try my hardest to make it happen.

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lpfreakification · 5 months

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2023 Schaumburg Adventure Post!

I'll actually start from the Plan Of Attack I created this morning.

1. Left the house with money given to me from dad.

The default outfit I wore all day (with my lovely assistant + husband, Axel ☺️)

2. Recognized a store clerk I haven't seen in a long time. He was the one who taught me how to buy gas from the counter. ("$.. on pump #... please") I told him how lots had changed the last time I saw him. He asked if I still worked at my old job next door. That was one of the big changes I mentioned: me leaving my old job of 6 years to focus more on school + how I'll be quitting my other job in January b4 school starts again. After a nice bit of catch-up, I filled up my car + went to Target.

3. I was able to stop at Target to find what my brother's fiance wanted: a pair of dumbells. I quickly texted my brother if this brand + set was ok. Thankfully, he answered fast + got a yes. Yes! Not knowing I'd find a set like this, I didn't grab a cart (had a basket instead) + was hauling this with my two arms thru out the store 😵‍💫

Also managed to grab an item of food my brother wanted for Xmas + some grapes for the kickboxing Xmas party.

It was quite an endurance test bcuz an old lady was in front of me. I kept thinking to myself, "damn, I should've grabbed a cart if I knew I'd find this. At least, this is a good workout for my arms."

I was able to set these dumbells on the ground as I waited in line. I lightly scooted my basket as I carried the heavy item 😵‍💫 I was telling myself that if someone asked how I'm doing, I'd say I'd be sweaty.

As I was approaching the next available self-checkout, that's when my coworkers from my old job ran into me with their Starbucks drinks. Hugged one fully + the other carefully bcuz she had Starbucks drinks. Ha, I was right about a person asking how I was doing, + my response was being sweaty 😆 One grabbed a cart for me as they saw my struggle. Once she came back, I was catching up as I was scanning my items. My Plan Of Attack, the coffee for the guys back at my old job, Genshin (Sumeru is gonna be long), + their recent cheer conference 😄 I finished scanning + paying as we parted ways. That encounter cheered me up, too (my reason is on IG Stories). I can't help but remember how much my favorite manager loves his pink drinks X3

(Quickly doodled my favorite manager from memory)

(He's still such a bad@$$! 😍)

4+5 I'll skip bcuz I got everything at Target + used the atm drive-thru. Nothing eventful.

6. I showed up at 1:30. It was locked. I definitely had a good time jamming in the car to Linkin Park's Faint, Cascada's Every Time We Touch, + The Killers' Somebody Told Me as I waited. Didn't take too long until the owners came to open the door + set up. I set down the grapes + jammed to Linkin Park's More The Victim.

[Time out, I need to drown out the sound of praying with loud Linkin Park >B( *does that, starting with A Place For My Head* Much better 😊 Ok, time in 😚]

They were setting up the majority of the time I was there. I set a timer to 45 minutes so I wouldn't lose track of time. I mostly (happy) danced to whatever music was playing in the bg, whether hard or soft.

The best part during my short time was that there was one of my kickboxing classmates dressed up as Santa! He brought some homemade habanero jam with cream chese + crackers. Normally, I don't like spicy foods (despite having a "spicy" personality at times). However, I was a bit curious. I had a bit of heat kicks underneath my tongue. I surprised myself that I liked it??? The Santa classmate was right: my mouth wasn't on fire, + no steam coming out of my ears 😂 He looked like he was happy that I liked it.

[Aw, my speaker died. Faint was next 😭 *listens* Ah, silence. Good.]

There was another dip made from Little Debbie's cakes + Nilla wafers. It was too sweet, even for me, the one with the sweet tooth. Strangely enough, the Habanero jam was more memorable. The sweet dip's 2nd

As I hung out, I checked my phone + saw my very pregnant sister wanting me to pick her up on the way back 🙃 It's not bcuz it's far (it's actually close), it's my fear of driving with passengers ever since... *flashback* My car accident in February 2021? 2022? (the day Russia invaded Ukraine). Long story short, bad weather + got hit in the passenger side, totaling my previuos red car. I was lying to the internet about "losing my car" + kept that a low profile so they wouldn't freak out as much + didn't want unwanted attention. I was like, "Are you sure???" (Clearly still traumatized)

It's too bad people were trickling in by 2:30, aka the time I had to leave. So I said my goodbyes, + left with a plate of food.

(It's a good thing I bought + brought the grapes, or else it would've looked bad, grabbed food, and + not contribute anything)

7. And so, I drove to my preggo sister's place, I switched to the passenger side, + she drove my car back to the house. What a relief! I was so scared of driving a passenger, let alone, the very pregnant sister.

8. The main event: the Schaumburg Adventure Post!

We didn't enter thru our usual entrance at the now-extincted Sears. Instead, it was like the opposite side of the mall. It's like standing in one place + starting to spin around in circles in one direction + then spinning around in the other direction. It feels weird.

1st store I saw was SuperDry. I fell in love with this store when I went to Washington DC in 2018 😍 The hoodie im wearing rn is fron SuperDry. I managed to try on two sports bras. The size 8 is a tight fit but good for keeping my chest in place. The size 12 is a comfortable fit but doesn't secure my chest as well. The siblings weren't too sure of the initial sizes, henced the reason i tried them on. As i was leaving, the preggo sister arrived. I showed her the two items i tried on. Needless to say, I got both.

Urban Outfitters, i got my other brother a candle that says "Magic S***" + two Pokémon card packs.

Next, Sephora. *c+p Twitter post*

"The line at Sephora is incredibly long. It's not my favorite place to be in, considering how anti-makeup I am. I'm near halfway there only to find out that someone already got the thing but didn't mark it as "Bought."

F*** it, imma buy it anyway so my time won't be in vain." - 12/3/2023 4:50 PM SUNDAY...

(I also bought an item online for her, just in case >BP)

Vera Bradley - a black lanyard strap for myself

Too Cool - An Aggretsuko pencil case + more OHSHC stickers 😍

Box Lunch - initially, I bought two bib sets for my future nephew. As soon as I got out of the line, The Blue Eyes White + Blue Eyes Ultimate Dragons pins caught my attention. I went back in line + bought them 😅

Hot Topic - I was looking at the band shirts. Obviously, I was looking at the Linkin Park shirts. I was like, "I already have that one, I already have that one, + oh? I don't have this one o.o" It was the One More Light shirt. What a find for me! And I got loads of pins/buttons. I resonate with the big crying corgi one the most (bcuz this was when I was running low on money).

Mall - I found this timeline that wasn't here b4 😮 Apparently, it's this mall's 50th anniversary. Woah.

I took pics so I could read it later, + there's also a link to all these pics + history:

https://click.simon.com/woodfield-mall-50th-anniversary-lp

Needless to say, A LOT has changed. I think I'll make a separate post on that. I think.

The mall was close to closing.

I traveled towards the old Sears entrance. The Rainforest Cafe is now Peppa Pig World 😢 The 1st floor of the now-extincted Sears is closed off. The 2nd floor has been replaced with "Primark". Combining descriptions of what my sister + dad say, it's like a Kmart version of Forever 21? Idk, I can't really wrap my head around it bcuz it's so new, the vibe + fashion isn't for me, + I'm still holding onto my childhood nostalgia of Sears.

I quickly visited F.Y.E. nearby. It triggered a memory of buying yaoi Manga there. Thus triggered another memory of being a bookstore that had so much more yaoi Manga. My memory has served me correctly of where it was located, but it was too late.

(Noooooooooo!!!!!) The mall was closing up at this point, so some stores were already closed 😞 I could've redeemed myself to get Heavens official blessing, but then again, I haven't touched my yaoi Manga all year long 😨

As I was making my way towards the exit, one last store caught my attention.

Ximi-V - This was where I went ballistic with pen shopping. I had trouble with paying bcuz I didn't have enough, so I put some things back + reduced my purchase by half. In short, I bought 8 pen refills, 6 pens, a multipen, + a mini Zhongli mirror ☺️

(I can only fit 10 pics on a Tumblr post so words will have to do)

Of those 6 pens, one of them was a mystery Genshin pen. Apparently, I grabbed their last one. The character I got was the Raiden Shogun (a very powerful character in the game). A lucky find for me. Although, it looks like I can fit a Zebra Sarasa +/or Pentel Energel ink refill in half of these pens. The barrels look cute, though 😍

I was the last person to meet up with everyone else this time because of how ballistic I was in that last store.

Overall, stores were relocated (like Urban Outfitters), some stores are gone (like where I found the Sora bust last year), + more anime stores are popping up. 🤔 I feel like it'll get overwhelming by the next one or two years. It was a good nice + short visit this time around. Either bcuz we had a short amount of time or bcuz we're getting older, thus getting slower. Oh yeah, there's online shopping, too.

9. We went to City Works to dine. We all had to run to the bathroom b4 we got settled into our seats. The men were hypnotized to the football game on TV, the women were feeling baby's kicks, + I was lost in thought. About my purchases, my plan of attacks, + ideas. Ordered two drinks, my usual amount, + devoured my food. I felt like I wasn't satisfied enough + didn't want dessert. Usually, I drink my 1st drink fast, + my 2nd drink is slow due to the amount of food I just ate.

10. Finally, I will end this post (+ Plan Of Attack) now that I've been home, + been writing this for the past 3 hours 🫠 Time is short. I want to catch up on Genshin b4 I actually fall asleep. I got kickboxing in the morning, too. Ultimate question: How should I go about publishing this to Twitter if Twitter Circles are now gone?

Option 1 - upload link publicly (+ make sure siblings don't see)

Option 2 - dm this to my two favorite mutuals (you guys know who you are 😎)

Option 3 - Figure out some alternative?

Option 4 - don't, + leave it here on Tumblr.

I'll see to this (eventually?)

Nite y'all!

#life #Schaumburg Adventure Post #Schaumburg

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tiny-tigers · 11 months

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Okay so these are not lyrics based so pay no attention to those - we're going VIBES ONLY 😂

Okay so the songs for: young 'happy go lucky' Fred as people have described him (who loves to dance very badly)

Reflections by Misterwives

Pumped Up Kicks by Foster the People

What You Know by Two Door Cinema Club

The songs for quiet pensive Fred who's a bit insecure, possibly lonely, and studies/practices piano on his own:

Heavy by Orla Gartland

Eyes Shut by Years and Years

Grace by Rag'n'Bone man

Two Weeks In July by Franz Gordon

And some 80's classics just because he loves that genre:

Don't Dream Its Over by Crowded House

Take On Me by A-ha

I Wanna Dance With Somebody by Whitney Houston

(again, not lyrics based) 😂🙈

For Fred : * I'm actually not too far from your vibe as well :-)) if you need any comments on a song I will provide it. I + 1 all your choices so far.

For JvP :

About him :

Wallows - Scrawny (litteraly HIS SONG)

Used to be level with all my friends / Still wear the same shoes I did back then / I don't think they've ever been untied / I can't regret the things I don't try / I'd switch it up but I don't like change / Only content if things stay the same /Don't care to watch the story unfold / Hate feeling like I'm not in control

You don't like my clothes but you still like my smile /Take me home to mom but it'll take a while /They might think they're cooler than me by a mile/ I can still have wisdom and look like a child / Scrawny mother fucker with a cool hairstyle

Lou Bega - Mambo No. 5 🎺🎺🎺 ( loverboy-flirty baby)

Everybody in the car, so come on let's ride To the liquor store around the corner The boys say they want some gin and juice but I really don't wanna Beer bust, like I had last week I must stay deep, 'cause talk is cheap I like Angela, Pamela, Sandra and Rita And as I continue you know they're getting sweeter

So what can I do? I really beg you, my Lord To me flirting is just like a sport

Linkin Park- Numb (with a papa in Rugby but who failed a real career and all falling apart a bit lately + England fans seeing him as a mistake )

I don't know what you're expecting of me

Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

Every step that I take is another mistake to you

'Cause everything that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart, right in front of you

Shawn Mendes - In my blood (obvious choice)

I'm overwhelmed and insecure, give me something

I could take to ease my mind slowly

Just have a drink and you'll feel better

Just take her home and you'll feel better

I'm looking through my phone again feeling anxious

Afraid to be alone again, I hate this

I'm trying to find a way to chill, can't breathe, oh

Is there somebody who could…

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in

Sometimes I feel like giving up

But I just can't

It isn't in my blood

Indochine - 3e sexe (lgbt+ anthem in a way)

Et j'aime cette fille aux cheveux longs

Et ce garçon qui pourrait dire non

Et on se prend la main

Une fille au masculin

Un garçon au féminin

Category passion rhymes with obsession

when I had been called stalker I started a playlist to do a clever reply so you can have that different degree of intensity over there : *

Tempted to also add Alt-J / Every other freckle but it is more of a mood reserved to when you (I mostly I ) 🫦 think 🫦 about him but don't look for the lyrics hahahahahahaha not my fault he is so yumyum and the freckles omg omg my kryptonite

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queen-of-obsessing · 1 year

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Answering the post about song recommendations similar to 4th of july:

VERY tough to answer btw, I haven't listened to a song that hits so hard while also being so quiet and captures grief so perfectly but I will try to do my best

Gajendra by Willow

Song inspired by the hindu tale of Gajendra Moksha, it's about surrendering yourself to the universe in hard times

Hide and Seek by Imogen Heap

This song is mostly her voice and a vocoder so it gives this very sobering feeling of emptiness, it became a meme in 2014 but it's actually very sad T. T it's vaguely about a broken home/family

A Tale of Outer Suburbia (release) by Hands like Houses

This is an Acoustic version of the song, the lyrics are very powerful, I think its inspired by a children's book and it's about not seeing home in the place you're supposed to call home and the despair that comes with not being satisfied with the way your life is going, This song is not similar at all to 4th of july cause it's the opposite of of acceptance lol sorry but it hits very hard too

Fin by Anberlin (full version)

This song isn't quiet but a song about a good ol' crisis of faith always shakes me to the core, it's very long btw haha

Can't go back by The Crane Wives

This is also a song about acceptance! And is indie folk like a lot of Sufjan's songs, it's not quiet acceptance of death like 4th of july but coming to terms with your mistakes and with something you lost, all the while kicking and screaming, I love this one

Cyn - I'll still have me

Breakup song but with the theme of acceptance and self love! I also love the video

One more light- Linkin Park

Also a quiet song about death, but hopeful, hits even harder with Chester's suicide in mind

Ghosting by Mother Mother

Accepting somebody doesn't want you /need you in their life and you've been clinging to them far too long

Euthanasia by Will Wood

He wrote this song about his pet rats he had to put down, Will Wood has very eccentric and theatrical songs, most of his stuff is weird but in a good way

These are all I could think of for now but honestly nothing will top 4th of july, most of the songs here are very cathartic so it doesn't leave you with that contrast 4th of july offers but hope you'll like them!

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I'm assuming you've also listened to Casimir Pulaski Day from our banjo sadboi Sufjan but that song also slaps me in the face everytime 😭

OH MY GOSH thank you for this!!! i'll give them all a listen :)

#song recs

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yihooniall · 3 years

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Balboa - Behind the lyrics

Niko: What’s up? We are Niko and Aleksi from Blind Channel.

Aleksi: We have just released our new song ‘Balboa’. Let’s check out the lyrics and the meaning behind them.

Niko: We have laughed about how 99 things go wrong and then one thing works out and that one thing will take us forward. We wanted to make a song and tell about it, because we clearly aren’t going to post about how wrong everything goes all the time.

We were eating wings with the boys and I said we should make a song called ‘Balboa’. Mainly about Rocky Balboa, as he is an underdog and what makes Rocky Balboa the character is that he always comes back to the ring. But also Sylvester Stallone is a big inspiration, because his career has had many set backs, but he has still managed to work hard and do his own thing and we saw similarities between him and us.

I'mma keep coming back Keep coming back like

It doesn’t matter how down someone will put us, we will always come back.

Aleksi: Yeah, and that’s also a good tease what the chorus is like as well.

Niko: Yep, we introduce the hook of the chorus a little bit.

Blood in my eyes Veins full of ice Strike to survive Prepared to die Whatever the price I'll pay it twice

Everything goes wrong and there will be set backs. What it feels like. The feeling is not like ‘oh I am a bit upset’. It actually feels like you’ve worked crazy hard and then you feel like you have blood in your eyes and veins full of ice and you paint a picture of how it feels when you've been hit onto that tatami and what the feeling is like.

Aleksi: And I think it also tells about the whole band’s attitude and how we want to break through just like ‘Whatever the price, I'll pay it twice” and we will work our hardest towards that.

Niko: Yeah I've been building my basis Wanna see the look on your faces From stadium stages Here's to you who said I'll never make it

‘Building my basis’ So we have been doing this for eight years, which is quite funny because for a lot of people we are that ‘new band’. But we have a history of eight years and it’s been like building our base, so we are all ready when we have our chance to show what we can do and we’ve managed to have these chances throughout this year.

Aleksi: An amazing sample is there too in that part ‘from stadium stages, here's to you who said I’ll never make it’. We sampled that ‘HU!’ from Dark Side to that, because so many people told us that that song won’t go anywhere. But it did! I think it has went quite well.

Niko: Yeah, pretty nicely.

Aleksi: Yeah, so we wanted to sample that in there.

Niko: Time to tie my shoelaces Running up the staircases Whatever comes I'll face it And claim it

So there we have a little bit of that Rocky movie aesthetic; tie your shoe laces, get up the stairs and anything that will face us, we will catch that.

Aleksi: Every time you burn me to the ground Every time you kick me when I'm down I'm coming back for more Like I'm Balboa

I think this sums up quite nicely the mentality of the song and us as well.

Niko: We’ve discovered, especially at our concerts, when the crowd can be part of the performance, like when we sing together that ‘coming back for more Like I'm Balboa’. So we want ‘Balboa’ to be that thing that the crowd will shout out with us and we can just throw the microphone out there.

Every time you see me bleeding out It's a one step closer to my crown I'm coming back for more Like I'm Balboa

People will always think ‘Okay they've had enough, they aren't getting back up again. But the reality is that our feeling is ‘It's a one step closer to my crown’. It is one step closer to what we have been reaching for. It was also funny that we got a Linkin Park reference in there with that ‘one step closer’, one of our favourite Linkin Park songs, to show some respect too. We thought that was quite cool!

I'm sending suckers home like Drago I've got no bow, no arrow, but Apollo follows Gimme a clubber for supper Making these fake clowns go breathless I grow when I suffer like having breakdowns for breakfast

So here we listed some of Rocky’s contestants. There is Ivan Drago, Apollo and also Clubber, that some people actually missed. A lot of our younger fans don't even know who or what Balboa is and they think we just came up with a word, and we think it is very funny. They also wonder ‘what is that dragon they're singing about?’. But we only find it funny! If you know, you know!

'Cause every time you think I'm defeated I'm saying please be seated Always up for a challenge The struggle made me a savage, I'm damaged Underdogs are a dangerous species Taking hits until everyone sees me

One of the most important lines in this song is that ‘underdogs are a dangerous species’. Being an underdog has a sense of danger in it, and we think it's cool. It is also quite cool to be that underdog, and it has given us some sort of strength when people haven’t always believed in us and they have told us that ‘you’ll never become anything’. It has given us strength to work hard and we always want to show them what we can do.

Aleksi: And I feel like we are underdogs already with just our music. We are representing a genre, that’s normally not at the top of the charts, and that makes us even more hungry to break through this type of music too, as well as our band. Like, break it through again!

#blind channel #niko vilhelm #niko moilanen #aleksi kaunisvesi #alex mattson #thought i’d translate as i couldn’t sleep #maybe someone will get something out of this #sorry if there are any typos #or anything #they both look so good #i love them #niko bae #always so gorgeous

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