#id never seen these before and love them sm !!!

[criphd]

eleanor marx, photographed 1867 & 1877

#id never seen these before and love them sm !!! #eleanor marx #victorians #socialist women #<3

[sehodreams]

hellooo!!! okay i needed to recover mentally from ur response because it was SO good TOO good i loved it sm omg<33333 losing my mind, bully!sungchan lives in my head rent free 24/7

i rly need sungchan to whore reader out to eunseok and anton at some point too id feel like they’d be so bad good to her<333 i imagine eunseok would be a bit of a meanie too but anton would be like.. awestruck, hed wanna suck on your tits and feel ur body because he’s never seen someone so beautiful before, would get soooo pussydrunk getting to taste you UGH

also not sure if i misread it and reader did squirt but like.. imagine if reader squirted for the first time with sungchan in eunseok’s bed🤭 and sungchan would never let you live it downnn

i imagine getting railed by sungchan and he’s teasing you about cumming in eunseok’s bed or blushing when anton called you over to him at the party or whatever and you clench around him at his words and he teases you so viciously about wanting attention from the other boys “you’re such a slut, you don’t need anybody but me baby” and would mark you so bad, leaving hickeys all over your tits and tummy<33333

sungchan would love to play dress up with you and keep putting you in slutty outfits and once ur crying and cumming, body shaking and completely wrecked by him, he’d give you soft kisses all over your face and whisper to you in ur broken state that he loves you so much, “you’re the most beautiful girl in the world, and you’re all mine” “i’ll never let anybody take you away from me” “you’re my princess, i promise to always take care of you”

It was a squirt, maybe I should've put a tw so others don't get confused either haha 😂. Oh, and also, just like you said, Sungchan will never let you forget what you did in Eunseok's bed.

I love that this is almost pure porn. He's so mean, I love him 😭🩷

I'm pretty much sure that he'll oblige you to cum like that again a few times, cooing in your ear how good you did for him that day, his little whore following his orders. "But don't act like you didn't enjoy it, you liked it, if not you wouldn't have let me fuck you there and cum again, so fucking dirty".

He's so mean he has you denying his words and then crying when he jackhammers into you, all deep and leaving you dizzy with how good his cock inside you feels.

He has that effect on you, and you love it as much as you hate it, you hate it because he doesn't let you think at all, and you love it because it feels good to not have to think for a moment.

But then you feel guilty, how could you do that to his friend you had just met? What are you, an animal? You can't leave things like that, and behind Sungchan's back, you organize a little meal to share with Eunseok to apologize, and you tell him to bring Anton if that would make him more comfortable.

When Sungchan arrives from the gym he sees you floating around the kitchen, doing a meal that he dies to taste because he loves your food, and when you receive him all pretty with that apron on, he feels like being less mean to you.

However, what would be of him if you didn't drive him insane?

When you tell him you're waiting for Eunseok and Anton, he doesn't feel angry at you, but he feels something he doesn't like, and he's asking "How did you even talk to them if not through me?"

"Oh, I just went to Eunseok's place, I was nervous, but I had to apologize, they're your friends after all" you answer.

His mind starts running before his mouth, why did you go without his permission? Even more, why did you go without him?

He doesn't say anything, leaving you alone to finish while he thinks what to do to you to teach you that you're not supposed to make decisions on your own, you have him for something, you're his girlfriend, his, his, his.

It seems you haven't learned your place even after all he's done for you.

When you happily smile at his friends, he pretends everything is okay, sitting beside you and even joking a little bit. "Did you like our gift?" He says to Eunseok.

"A lot, luckily it was before laundry day" the other immediately says with a smirk.

You blush in your place and Anton has to cough before telling you that the food looks great to change the atmosphere.

Sungchan changes the subject to some shit you can't understand, they talk about some memories and you lean to his shoulder when you sip from your glass. Everything feels normal, and you start to wonder, maybe that was the step you had to take for Sungchan to see that you could be a good girlfriend, and that you didn't deserve to be teased all the time.

When you take the dishes to the kitchen before dessert, Anton is such a gentleman that he helps you carry the dishes inside, and you can't help but smile when he praises you just like you wished Sungchan did more.

When Anton goes back to the living room Sungchan goes to the kitchen to help you, but when you feel him get closer to you from behind, you know he won't just help you serve the food.

"You like that? You like that you finally have some attention from someone that would've never looked your way if it wasn't that you weren't with me?" He murmurs.

"What?" You ask confused.

"Don't act all innocent" he says, one hand moving to find your panties under your dress to caress the skin under it, "I know you're wearing this dress, a dress I've bought, only because you want all our attention, but I'm sorry to say this baby, no one else wants to fuck your fat pussy other than me"

"Channie?" You can't even finish saying what you were thinking when you feel his cock pressing to your ass and then playing between your folds.

"You're such a slut, you don't need anyone but me" he groans when he plugs into you, and your mouth falls open, hands gripping the counter and teeth biting your lip so you don't moan loudly.

"Channie... Please don't, they're outside" you cry as silently as you can, shivering with the way the firmness of his body feels with the softness of yours, and, even if you ask him to stop, you lean more to the front, giving him a better access to your entrance.

Your pussy is wet, it echoes with the way he's fucking you, and your legs shake to the sensation of the cold air meeting your nipples when he, once again, just like that day at a party, pulls down the front of your chest to reveal your chest.

"They don't care, they're here, in my place, with my girl, they can fuck off if they don't want to hear us."

You don't nod, you don't try to run, you just let him, because a part of you knows they're listening to the wet sound of your pussy being fucked and your skin clapping, which as sick as it sounds, turns you on even more.

You imagine, as much as you don't want to, at them looking at you, staring with desire, and you even imagine them touching you a bit too.

Anton would be so nice, different to Sungchan, and Eunseok looks a bit meaner, which scares you, but not enough to not feel yourself getting wet at the image.

"Stop containing your moans" he orders, and for the first time, you don't comply with it immediately, maintaining your lips pressed to not feel more embarrassed.

Suddenly a fire starts inside him, because one thing is you act out, but now you're being such a brat, not following his orders the second he says them, and he can't let you do that. He gets closer, and pulling you to him, he grips your waist with one hand while the other finds your mouth and obliges you to receive his fingers inside, making you gag with the sudden push inside your throat and then stealing the moans you've been trying to keep silent so hard.

"That's better" he sighs when he hears you crying and gasping for air, clenching around his cock with the intensity of the moment, and soon finding your release with a couple thrusts more, deep and hard, filling you until you're sure you will leak down your seat.

He moves your panties to its place and grabs two dishes before he walks out, leaving you alone to fix yourself.

The front of your dress looks obviously different, he stretched it until it lost its form, and you doubt you could wear it again, such a shame, it was a pretty dress.

Anton can't meet your eyes anymore, and the two of them eat in silence before they leave. When you open the door for them, Anton looks down at your chest, a drunk look in his face similar to the one you imagined, and Eunseok is a bit bolder, touching your arm and telling you that he had a great time.

"Go to hell" Sungchan says, pushing his hand away from you. Still, you can't help but notice he hasn't done it immediately, and that they smile at each other before Anton pulls Eunseok out to leave, who maintains his eyes on yours every second of it.

When you're washing the dishes Sungchan does the same thing, he appears from behind, just that this time he hugs you with one hand while he pushes two fingers to check your insides, and making sure his cum is still there, he talks. "I'll never let anybody take you away from me."

#sehodreams thoughts

[aphrodite1288]

Idk if you still perceived them as a toxic relationship, I'm the one who thinks that the most healthy thing in a relationship is communication so I really doubt ksoo get enlisted bc he wants to and not telling anyone about it, I mean exo is a thing, his relationship with jongin is other, maybe he didn't tell the other members but Ji is something else in his life plus his dad just died almost a year ago. I kinda understand your point and your theory about ji's depression cus his disease is a fact told by him, but speculate everything is all about ksoo fault its fck toxic. Depression is not something you experienced from one day to another and can be caused by so many accumulated reasons that took years and years to understand and ksoo must know that tho do u think he's that cruel and go to the army without a reason knowing Ji could be really sad about it? Kai must know that before anyone else so he could have time for processing and plans to do tgt but is normal still be fck sad after ksoo left and having therapy is a completely smart thing to do, that doesn't mean they had a huge fight

First of all, all what I said is not my perception, not my opinion, it's what I've been told from everyone: from K-EXOL, to our sources to the insiders who know SM staff or worked in SM and from Exo themselves told about this issue. And guess what? They know better than you. They're closer to him than you would ever be.

Sorry if it can't fit your narratives and feed up your fantasies.

Kadi just like any other couple aren't perfect they have their ups and downs and they certainly have their own flaws. Calling a relationship toxic just by one argument is wrong of you. This is not wonderland I think you should go seek medical help if you think like this.

You're the one calling them Toxic for not having a communication not me!

Ask your parents, I don't think they've never fought in a relationship of 2 decades at least.

I don't know if I'm allowed to share this info, but fuck it, I hate when dumb people who think they know their faves start calling us liars.

Kadi in 2022 in March exactly, they were on a massive fight and had a break again and they even went to Couple Counseling and the old Fans of this Tumblr from the Instagram group know this already. I've seen kadi's name on their Couple Counselor's Chart with their names and IDs, it was a bad thing from that Counselling company as they sold the Info to Sasaengs easily, K-ExoL, when they saw Ji and Ksoo going there frequently alone separately were curious why were they attending couple counseling sessions? Do they have issues with each other or with someone else they know ? And hence they followed them dug into the subject and discovered this and unfortunately the info was leaked. Remember when Ksoo went to Hawaii alone? Well it was during that period of time they were on a break.

Couples fight dear. It's normal ! And most of the couple fights occur because of LACK OF COMMUNICATION.

So yeah ! Expecting a couple in a relationship of 14 years won't have any miscommunication or a fight is so dumb of you. We don't live in Wonderland ! This is life! Have you ever been in a relationship have you watched BLs and Couples movies haven't you seen couples hurting each other and crying and breaking up despite being in love??

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So same for Kadi, they can hurt each other, misunderstand each other, Do things to each other, TAKE DECISIONS WITHOUT DISCUSSING IT WITH E/O! Take decisions in a moment of anger ! It's normal it happens and this is what Ksoo did and unfortunately it's true and it was a no-going-back issue becos that's with the government it's military application. He himself regretted it later because he missed many good Movie offers and opportunities at that time, even his managers and SM's production team told him he messed up he acted in a moment of anger at that time, and going on hiatus due to military in the Epitome of his career is a very bad move and he was told that by Veterans and his friends in the industry and he admitted it to movie producers and Management teams in SM, and.it was a famous discussed subject. No idol wants to go on military hiatus when they're on the epitome of their career, but instead until they settle things down first then they go. Because Many idols and actors get a little forgotten and may lose their popularity after military due to the hiatus and some DON'T! which is why you see Baekhyun and all idols always anxious telling their fans "Please don't forget us! Promise you'll be here when I'm back! It won't take a longtime! I'll be back before you know it!" " think of me all the time when I'm absent" and Baekhyun was smart enough and was the very first idol to have filmed Content for his fans to be outed every month it was so smart fans didn't even get to forget him.

So moral of the story: Kadi aren't perfect. And you should know Honey that YOU DON'T KNOW KSOO !! The idea you have on him is not 100% what he really is like! Y'all tend to glorify and shape idols in a perfect mold and put them on a pedestal as Sacred people who don't sin or Do wrong. Honey 😂 your Ksoo Oops isn't a Saint! He makes mistakes!! Remember you're just a fan! You don't know him personally to keep saying he can't do such things and that it's not his character 🤣 blah blah blah who are you? His mother?

Listen I'm just really tired of explaining everything to dumb people here. I don't care anymore, I say the info I have which I didn't create myself, I just report what I've been told and confirmed with Evidence, believe what you want if you don't wanna believe, leave it and leave.

Don't come up here and force your opinion on me, because we're not here discussing opinions, I'm giving you an info most of the time "A FACT" means something that actually happened and was proven to me, so I'm not here discussing it with you wether it happened or not and what you think about it, I don't care what you think , the thing happened years ago and that's on Period. I'm not gonna go back in time to discuss with you how it should have happened.

#kaisoo #kadi #kaisoo love #love #dika #kaisoo love story #jongin #kai #kyungsoo #D.O #kadi are a normal couple they can fight and break up

[honeypiehotchner]

Gravedigger’s Daughter (Hangman x Fem!Reader) -- part three

Hi besties we’re back!! Thank y’all sm for all the love on this story🥺 I’ve loved writing it & I love that y’all love reading it💛💛 (but also don’t quote me on the accuracy of some stuff in here,,, I’ve never stood underneath the wing of a Super Hornet like they fly in TGM but I’ve stood underneath an A-10 so I kinda went with my experience of that)

Summary: You’re finally back in Fightertown to visit Penny and Amelia, but there also happens to be a group of aviators back at Top Gun. One of which who seems dead-set on wooing you.

Warnings: ooh boy, lots of sadness in this one, lots of tears, I cried my way through writing this (but it has a very fluffy end)

WC: 3,859

Being back at Top Gun makes you feel 18 again. Showing your ID at the gate, being recognized and told to have a wonderful day. Driving around to the parking lot and parking in your dad’s old space; no one parks there anymore, out of respect or what, you don’t know.

You can’t bring yourself to get out of the car. You’ve turned the engine off. Unlocked the door. But you can’t move.

The last time you were here, it was to collect your dad’s things. Your mom couldn’t do it, so she sent you. You didn’t mind, not really. You were glad to be here alone that day. You didn’t have to hide your tears or be strong for your mom. You were a complete wreck and no one said a word.

You’re better today. You don’t feel as awful as you did that day, five years ago, but you’re not far from it. Tears sting the back of your eyes and you blink the sensation away.

You’re here for a visit. You want to be here to visit. Why is it so hard if it’s something you want to do?

Finally, you open the car door, throwing yourself out and shutting the door in one swift motion. If you didn’t do it quickly, you knew it wouldn’t happen. So you keep moving. You lock the car and head up to the front door. The guard lets you in, but if he recognizes you, he doesn’t say it.

The emblem on the tile floor is just the same. You used to try to jump from one end to the other when you were little, but you only ever made it to the middle. Now you can easily step over it.

The hallway here is the next obstacle.

When you came to collect your dad’s things a few years ago, they asked if it was okay to leave something here: his helmet. It sat next to a picture of him in the cockpit, in a glass case. His headshot was framed above, engraved with In memory underneath, as well as 1968-2015.

It’s still there, except his helmet isn’t. You guess they’ve just put it away for the time being, because a new picture is in its place. An old one of your dad and Warlock.

You lean in closer, not sure if you’ve seen this picture before or not. It looks new to you, but it’s the Warlock you remember. The two of them were nearly inseparable.

“Y/N?”

You turn your head, recognizing his voice immediately. “Rear Admiral,” you smile.

“Ah,” he waves his hand as he comes toward you. “Whatever happened to Uncle Solomon?”

You’re not sure what it is about him saying that, but the tears well up in your eyes and he’s bringing you in for a hug before you can question any of it.

You hold on tightly, burying your face in his shoulder, willing the tears to retreat back into your eyes. They do, but it’s a close call.

“I could hardly believe my ears when Maverick told me you’d like to stop by,” the Rear Admiral says, pushing back from the hug but still holding onto your shoulders. “My god, you’ve grown.”

“It’s been almost ten years,” you laugh. “I was thirteen when you deployed, remember?”

“Has it been that long?” he asks. “So you’re…”

“Twenty-three now.”

“No,” he shakes his head. “You’re making me feel old, Y/N.”

“That’s my job,” you tease.

He grins. “Oh, give me another hug, kiddo, I’ve missed you.”

You gladly do, letting him squeeze you tightly this time.

“So,” you start, “scale of 1-10, how much have things changed?”

“Eleven,” Warlock replies quickly. “Maybe fifteen.”

“Damn,” you mutter. “Guess I should’ve expected that.”

“You know how it is,” he says.

“I know you can’t explain,” you remind him. “No need to be all vague. We can move on.”

He smiles gratefully. “Let’s take a walk. I have something in my office for you.”

“You didn’t need to get me anything,” you say, walking with him. “What is it?”

He almost answers, but stops himself. “You’ll see.”

You know better than to pry, so you drop it, knowing you’ll be at his office soon, anyway. If he’s the Rear Admiral, then it’s around here somewhere, and likely massive. And cluttered to all hell.

You pass many, many rooms with the doors shut and probably locked. Down one hallway is the barracks, where you’re sure Hangman’s room is. Warlock steers you in the opposite direction, making a big loop around, finally stopping outside his office.

“As you know, we kept something of your dad’s when he died,” the Rear Admiral says as he walks into his office, flicking on the lights.

Instantly, you know what he’s about to hand to you.

And you don’t want it.

“Please,” you interject. “You can keep it here. It’s important--”

“It is,” he agrees. “But it was important to your father that you got his helmet.”

“I can’t take it,” you protest. “It belongs here.”

“It belongs with you,” Warlock says, fighting each of your arguments.

He pulls out a set of keys and unlocks the cabinet behind him. You avert your eyes as he opens the door, too afraid to see it. They hadn’t put it out just yet when you were here last, so you haven’t seen it. Not since the last time he was wearing it, which was right before he left.

Right before he left to die.

“Y/N,” Uncle Solomon says gently. “He made me promise to put this in your hands.”

You sniffle, the tears beginning to return with a vengeance, ready to cascade down your cheeks. You shake your head. It’s all you can do to keep staring out the window.

“If you really don’t want it, I will keep it. I’ll keep it until you’re ready. But it’s yours.”

Slowly, you let yourself look at Uncle Solomon, and then down at the helmet in his hands. Your dad’s helmet.

A broken sob leaves your lips just at the sight of it. The black background, red capital letters spelling out GRAVEDIGGER, but the A is gray, made to look like a tombstone. It’s exactly as you remember it.

You see it all the time in your memories, when it was tradition to slap your dad’s head. “Make sure my helmet works,” he’d say, and you’d hit it once, and nod seriously. “It works.”

Uncle Solomon brings you into another hug, and you grasp the helmet, clutching it to your chest. It feels like you’re getting to hug your dad again, and you smack the helmet once, finally doing what you should’ve done before he left. You never got to do it that last time because he was never meant to go up in the air. He was training them, not flying. But things went south, and he had no choice. He went up so the other aviators could come home. Even though it meant he wouldn’t.

You think of those lives he saved and you’re grateful. You don’t know who they were -- security reasons and all. You’re glad they were able to come home. But oh, how you’ve cried for hours upon hours at how unfair it is that your dad never got to come home.

He was supposed to be at dinner. It was a quick mission. He said he’d see you at dinner in two days. Those two days were up and dinner was cooked. The doorbell rang and you thought that was weird, but you went to answer it anyway. You opened it and instead of your dad, you were met with two men in uniforms, sorrow written all over their bodies.

“No,” you remember saying, and that’s all you said. Over and over again. “No. No, no, no, no, no. No!”

Your mom heard your cries and rushed to your side. She saw the men and they only nodded, confirming what she knew. “We’re so very sorry,” they said, but all you heard was your own sobs.

Like now. All you can hear are the sobs wracking your body, Uncle Solomon’s quiet murmuring as he holds you, resting his chin on top of your head.

“Oh god,” you cry, wiping your face with the back of your hands, but the tears keep coming. “I miss him, Uncle Solomon, I miss him so much.”

“I know, kiddo, I do too,” he replies softly. “It’s okay,” he says, and his voice cracks, no doubt because he’s crying with you.

You realize your tears have spilled onto the helmet and you wipe them away, drying your hand on your pants.

“I’m sorry I didn’t make it to his funeral,” Solomon says.

You shake your head. “You were dark, there’s no way you could’ve known.”

“I know.”

You don’t know what mission Solomon was on, but he was unreachable. It was no one’s fault. He had a job to do.

“He’d understand,” you reply, sniffling. “I understand too. You’re here now. And you held onto this,” you murmur, thumbing over the letters on the helmet. “Thank you.”

“Of course,” Warlock says. “I have been meaning to reach out to you, but never could find the right time.”

“I guess the right time came to us instead,” you chuckle, wiping away more tears.

“I guess it did,” he agrees, wrapping an arm around you. “I didn’t mean to bombard you. I know this visit was very impromptu.”

“It was, and it’s alright,” you shrug. “I knew it was going to be hard. It took me five minutes to just get out of my car.”

“I understand,” he says. “I didn’t feel right coming back here without your dad.”

“But I know he’s glad you did,” you smile, giving up on wiping your tears away. “He’d be proud of you.”

“Of me?” Solomon says. “He’d be proud of you.”

“Don’t make me start crying again,” you groan, already feeling the lump in your throat. You take a deep breath and swallow it down. “I’m supposed to be getting a tour, you know. I can’t be sobbing the whole time.”

“A tour?” Solomon raises an eyebrow. “With who? Maverick?”

Shit. “Sure.”

“You’re lying.”

“Not technically.”

“Y/N.”

“With Hangman,” you cave. “But it’s not really a tour. I grew up here, for god’s sake, I know where everything is.”

“Ah, so that’s the one you’re smitten with,” the Rear Admiral starts to grin. “I knew there was one.”

“How?”

“An uncle knows,” he replies, and that’s all he’ll say about it. “I’ll walk you out.”

“Of course you will,” you mutter, knowing the only reason he’s doing this is so he can say something to Hangman.

You move your dad’s helmet to rest under your arm and follow Solomon out into the hall.

As the Rear Admiral is shutting his office door, he says, “You know they have an assignment coming up.”

This is all he can say, really. He can’t say what it is, where it is, when it is, or how long it will be. But he can say it’s an “assignment” and that it’s “coming up.”

“I gathered that,” you reply. Why else would they be here, especially Maverick?

“It will not be easy,” Solomon says, and that’s your clue. It’s highly dangerous. There are risks involved with everyday tasks and missions, but this is worse.

“Okay,” you nod. “Thank you.”

“Just looking out for you, kiddo,” he replies quietly.

“I know,” you murmur. “I appreciate it.”

The two of you walk in silence the rest of the way, outside toward the hangar. The jets are lined up per usual, but none of the aviators are in sight. They must be showering, or already headed to The Hard Deck.

Except one.

Hangman is waiting for you by his jet, standing at attention when he notices who you’re with.

“As you were, Lieutenant,” Solomon calls out once you’re closer.

“Sir,” Hangman responds, relaxing. “Y/N.”

You think this might be the first time Hangman has called you by your first name and not “sweetheart,” “honey,” or “darlin’.” It almost makes you snort.

“It was good to see you again,” the Rear Admiral says to you, holding out both arms.

You give him a hug as best you can while still clutching your dad’s helmet. “You too, Uncle Solomon,” you murmur. Hangman’s shocked expression is priceless.

“Have fun,” Solomon says. Then he looks at Hangman. “Not too much fun.”

Hangman nods. “Yes, sir.”

“Alright,” Solomon grins. “See you around, kiddo. See you tomorrow, Lieutenant.”

“Yes, sir. Have a good night,” Hangman replies with another nod.

Solomon leaves and heads back toward the building.

Hangman waits a few moments for the Rear Admiral to be out of earshot before he says, “Uncle Solomon?”

“Bet you weren’t expecting that one,” you tease. “I’ve called him Uncle Solomon since I was…god, probably five. I think the story goes that I said it out of the blue one day with zero prompting, and it stuck. Apparently my dad said, ‘She has spoken,’ and he’s been my uncle ever since.”

The warm memory brings more tears to the forefront of your eyes. Hangman notices immediately and his soft smile turns into a frown.

“Are you okay? You look like you’ve been crying.”

You nod, and the tears start falling all over again. “Because I have.” You take in a shuddering breath, pressing the back of your hand over your mouth. “Rear Admir-- Warlock-- He gave me my dad’s helmet,” you hiccup, your arm tightening over it. “I wasn’t expecting--”

“C’mere,” Hangman murmurs, not waiting for any sort of reply from you before he pulls you in.

Despite having just cried your eyes out a few minutes ago, you do it yet again, this time in Hangman’s arms.

You wrap your free arm around him, sobbing into his shoulder. He holds you tighter, wishing he could fix it, but knowing that he can’t. You feel him widen his stance so you can put all your weight on him. He rests one hand on the back of your head, shushing you gently, and you swear you feel him kiss the top of your head.

You grip his uniform, pulling him closer, and he hugs you tighter in response, knowing what you need without having to be told.

You’re inconsolable for who knows how long, and eventually you calm down, but Hangman still holds you up.

And you let him.

You bury your nose in his shirt, inhaling, loving the way he smells and how it fills your lungs. You don’t want to move, but you know you’ll have to at some point. Right now, though, you just want to stay here. Forever.

“I hate seein’ you sad, sweetheart,” Hangman whispers, and this time you definitely feel him kiss your head.

You nod into his shirt, which is more like rubbing your face and tears all over him.

“I got you,” he says. “You okay?”

“Better,” you murmur, turning your head to rest your cheek on his shoulder. You take another deep breath, harsh and shuddering. “Thanks.”

“Anytime,” he replies, but doesn’t move. Neither do you.

You open your eyes and look at the jets, the sky, the hangar. The things that you’ve grown up around and loved. Things that feel like home to you.

You lift your head, eyebrows furrowed, looking up at the jet next to you. “We’re standing under a Super Hornet, aren’t we?”

Hangman grins. “As a matter of fact, we are.”

“That’s what my dad flew,” you murmur, your eyes filling with tears again. “Is that what you fly?”

“It is,” Hangman replies gently. “In fact, we’re standing under my jet right now. I was just finishing checks when you and the Rear Admiral got here.”

“Sorry if we ambushed you,” you murmur.

Nothing about this feels weird. Talking to him, still safely tucked in his arms. You know by now you probably should’ve stepped back, stepped out of his arms, but you haven’t. It’s like both of you are waiting for the other to let go, and both of you refuse to.

He shakes his head. “You didn’t.” He pauses, looking down at you, his eyes wandering all over the place. Your eyes, your nose, your cheeks, your lips. “So,” his eyes snap back to your eyes. “Still up for a tour?”

“Maybe,” you shrug. “Maybe a small one.” You lift your free arm off of him and reach up, cursing. “Damn.”

“What?”

“I’m still not tall enough to reach the wings.”

“You’re close, here,” Hangman, without warning, tightens his grip and lifts you skyward.

“What are you-- Hey!”

“So you can touch the wing!” he laughs, not even straining. “What?”

“Oh, fine,” you mutter, laughing with him, raising your arm and touching the wing easily. You can’t help but grin once you do. “Thank you.”

“Of course,” he says, carefully placing you back down.

He uses this as an opportunity to let go of you entirely, but he doesn’t step away from you. Although your arms aren’t around each other, they might as well be.

You’re suddenly very aware of the helmet under your arm and you bring it forward, looking down at the call sign. Hangman looks down, eyebrows furrowing.

“Wow,” he says.

“Yeah,” you murmur. “I wonder if it fits me anymore. I used to try it on to be funny,” you pause to laugh, “but it always swallowed my head.”

“You could try it on,” he says.

“I know,” you reply quietly. “Just working up the courage.”

“Want me to help?”

“No,” you shake your head. “Thanks, I just--” Another deep breath. “Doesn’t feel right. Not yet.”

“That’s alright,” Hangman replies. “You wanna take a walk? See the other jets and cool down.”

“Yeah,” you nod, smiling a little. “That sounds good, let’s.”

“Come on,” he nods down the tarmac, holding out his arm for you to take. It’s almost instinctual, the way he does it, his southern roots undeniable.

And you take it without hesitation, glad to hold onto him a little more as you walk.

+++

Hangman insists on cheering you up, so after dropping off your dad’s helmet at Penny’s, you head with him to The Hard Deck.

You wanted to spend the night inside on Penny’s couch, but the idea of hanging out at the bar with everyone is too enticing. Especially the idea of beating Hangman at darts and pool -- again.

All heads turn toward the door when you walk in, probably standing a little too close, but it’s not like you’re holding hands. Still, all the aviators eye you with suspicion, no doubt because they were wondering why Hangman stayed back at Top Gun.

“There you are,” Penny waves you over. “I was wondering how long you’d be.”

Maverick stands from his stool, grinning cautiously. You can tell that he knew today was hard. “I was beginning to think Hangman here kidnapped you.”

“Not quite,” you say.

Maverick pauses, still hesitating. “Did you-- Did Rear Admiral--?”

“Yes,” you nod, saving him the trouble. “It’s at home-- at Penny’s.”

“Good,” Maverick replies. “That’s good. And you’re okay?”

“I’m okay,” you say. “Thank you.”

“Yeah,” Mav nods.

Hangman hands you a beer. “Your usual.”

“Thanks,” you smile.

Maverick looks between the two of you. “Okay...”

You already know what he wants to say, so you remove yourself from the conversation. “If you need me, I’ll be at the dart board.”

“Not so fast, sweetheart,” Hangman follows you. “I’ve been practicing.”

“You’re full of shit,” you laugh. “But alright. Let’s see if you’re any easier to beat.”

He’s not. But he tries his hardest, which is adorable.

After a few rounds of darts, you move on to the pool table, not wanting the night to end anytime soon.

“You wanna rack ‘em this time?” you ask, sipping your beer.

“With pleasure,” Hangman grins.

He makes a whole show of it. It has you rolling your eyes and laughing, which was his plan all along. When you break, none of the balls land, but when Hangman has his turn, he makes sure to sink a stripe, letting you have the solids.

Midway through your second game of pool (you won the first, of course), you hear everyone get quiet as someone begins playing the piano.

“I forgot that thing was even tuned,” you comment, rubbing chalk on your stick.

“Rooster’s favorite party trick is tearing up the piano,” Hangman explains.

It’s true, Rooster is amazing. He’s just messing around right now, but it sounds insane.

“You know what time it is!” You hear Rooster shout. He plays a few chords, and then to your surprise, everyone, including Hangman, yells out, “Goodness gracious, great balls of fire!”

You hang your head with a laugh as everyone goes crazy. Even Hangman, who you’ve noticed has a bit of a frenemies thing going on with Rooster, is beaming, gearing up to sing along.

You expect him to join them at the piano, but instead he turns around and starts singing into his pool stick.

“You shake my nerves and you rattle my brain, too much love drives a man insane,” he nods his head dramatically. “You broke my will, but what a thrill.”

“Oh my god,” you shake your head at him with a smile.

This reaction isn’t good enough for him, though, and he continues singing, walking toward you with his pool stick in hand.

“What are you doing?”

“Kiss me baby.”

You give him a look.

“Ooh, that feels good, baby,” Hangman laughs, taking your hand to spin you in a circle. “I wanna love you like a lover should.” He pulls you against his chest. “I’ma tell the world that you’re mine, mine, mine, mine!”

He spins you again and you keep going, giggling like you used to when you were a little kid.

“Come on baby, you’re driving me crazy,” he sings, pulling you back in.

You shake your head. “Goodness gracious--”

“Great balls of fire!”

Everyone cheers as Rooster plays through the interlude of the song, his fingers gliding across the piano with ease.

You continue dancing with Hangman, having the most fun you’ve had in a long time. You feel free. Hangman leaves his pool stick against the wall, using both hands to dance with you.

“Kiss me baby,” Hangman sings, and you shake your head, but you’re still grinning. He pulls you in abruptly, one hand holding yours, outstretched, the other holding the small of your back. “I wanna love you like a lover should.”

“You’re fine, you’re so kind,” you sing.

And the both of you sing, “I’ma tell the world that you’re mine, mine, mine, mine!”

The dancing continues as Rooster plays the chorus one more time, everyone far from being done.

Unbeknownst to you, everyone is watching you and Hangman as you continue to dance in whatever way you two think is fun. All that matters is Hangman sees a smile on your face, and that’s what he wanted. After a day like today, he wanted you to have a night full of laughter.

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[dexter-erotoph]

hey i have no idea how dex works n you seem to be a huge enthusiast of their character so can u like.. yap about dexters personality a bit (/nf!!). im trying to work out their personality but im really confused on how to characterize them. so far, ive got some little bullet points. for a little headcanon or whatever ? i think they'd have huge interests that would be seen as a little odd, like, taxidermy or something. theyre like, a freak. (/pos)

also, i think itd have to do more research on with aspd since dex does have thatttt. uuuhm. oh yeah, a good note is that theyre not like. "Evil!! grah!! i kill people because im EVIL" cuz thats not them. they struggle with their emotions, morals, and needs. which i think also goes into the possibility of really bad intrusive thoughts perhaps.

like. they seem to have some of their morality intact (as they dont attack skid n pump immediately) before slowly spiraling and trying to hurt anyone they come across. dex also focuses on animals specifically because they dont believe that they dont feel emotion. they try to justify their behavior through beliefs and desperation to satisfy their persistent thoughts. they also run off the thrill of others pain. and i dont think theyre exactlyyy.. oblivious to the fact that this is a really bad problem, but more that they use being an exterminator to filter their needs into a.. "safer" (and in all honesty, an easier) way.

sorry for the whole ramble, but thats really all i can get so far with their character. also so sorry if this question is weird, but id just like a little input or ur idea of their character lol. no pressure tho ^_^

dont apologise i LOVE talking about dexter it Is really tricky to completely understand him kinda because of how all over the place all the things we have about him are . i was actually thinking earlier about how if sm got like adapted to a show like what happened with dhmis/ maybe we could see more of dexter and understand him better . i think ive talked about this before but i absolutely think theres kind of a thing where people see dexter as WAY more outwardly chaotic than he really is just bc well that’s like 95% of his screentime . how i really think he is is he Can get really easily excited and restless and with a lot of people it’ll drive them away (one of the characters i like to think has this dynamic with him is radford i dont know why i like the thought so much but i do) but he really is just like. hes a sweetheart he loves to draw and make stuff and hes just very smiley and laughs a lot . he isnt afraid to put himself out but he can also get like grumpy and snappy when hes paranoid Thats another thing. ive noticed in pelo’s doodles that sometimes hes portrayed complaining or just like with an irritated expression . i think while he Is a very happy go lucky type character it’s not difficult at all for him to get like . hostile for lack of better word? just annoyed at other people for something that could be really little or unintentional. i have no real point to this this probably will not help you much at all i apologise but the thing is i kinda think there’s No wrong way you can go with dexter in any way. he is such a good character that every aspect of him never feels tired or boring or really wrong to me

But uhh tldr kinda . maybe try to like nail it in that he’s just trying his best. for me thats a really big part of his character just the fact that despite everything that could potentially hold him back he always keeps his head up and just tries to do whatever he can and thats what the focus of his character would be if he wasn’t in a story that had his role revolve around his death. i hope this helps in Some way thank u very much for asking

#feel free to like reblog and add onto this with what you think . i did an Awful job i cant structure stuff i say #ALSO THE WEIRD INTERESTS PART. THATS ALSO A REALLY BIG PART OF DEX #whenever i see stuff like that in fics or art of him im immediately like yeah that’s a good sign

[sublimecatgalaxy]

could you write something about eddie x reader who has thick thighs?? love ur writing sm i hope you’re doing well!<3

Uh, yes, as a thick thigh girly, I need this. I'm glad you're loving everything and I hope you're well❤️

"Man," Eddie sighs, dragging his nose along the inside of my thigh, his hands squeezing my waist a bit as his eyes flutter up to meet mine, "I love these." He whispers, thumbs dragging against my bare stomach, eyes moving back down to my navel and thighs, memorizing every inch of skin as if he'd never see them again.

"Why?" I laugh breathlessly, running my fingers down the expanse of his freckled shoulders, loving the goosebumps that erupt in my path. He smiles fondly, clicking his tongue with a knowing shake of his head.

"These," he inhales deeply, slapping my thighs playfully with the palms of his hand, pulling a laugh from me, "are a gift sent from the gods themselves." My brows pull together as a scoff leaves me, shocked that he's this enthralled with a piece of my body that he's seen a million times over. He's acting as if he's never been between my thighs before, when we both know that he spends a lot of time down there.

"Out of all the things I'd think you'd have a 'thing' for, I'd never guess my thighs." I snort, reaching down to play with the curls that rest atop his head. He arches into my touch, loving this time that we have after work and school, just the smoke of a joint and some quiet music flowing around us.

"Fuck, they're amazing, sweetheart. I could sleep right here, forever." He whispers breathlessly, biting at his lip as he watches his hand message into the skin and muscle. He has a sweet smile on his lip, boyish and innocent, even though his mind is probably in the gutter, his mind racing to every which way he can love my thighs and show me how much he loves them.

"Well, I'm not making you move anytime soon-" I squeal, feeling him tug me down onto the bed so his arms can wrap around my thighs and his nose can press into my stomach, a happy groan rumbling in his chest as loud giggles escape me.

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[psychewritesbs]

hi! i didnt have much success when looking through ur blog to see if uve addressed this alrdy so apologies if u have.

i was curious to know ur thoughts on jjk's portrayals of gender, esp women/femininity. if u have particular insight from a psych or philosophy bg, id be interested in hearing that (warning, i have a v feminist critique lens)

ik u love gege's writing 😅 but his handle on female characters/femininity has given me such a difficult relationship w jjk, and its v difficult to have discourse on it. on one hand, we're introduced to sm interesting realistic women, tbh i actually never stanned a woman in manga before jjk. but imo it cant be denied that gege is a sexist writer. despite how realistic jjk women r theyre all .. halfwritten? i cant think of a single one who isnt underwritten, not fully explored, not utilized substantially in the plot, etc. and there r sm ex's of extremely minor male characters in jjk who r given more thematic relevance than frequently recurring women that just underscores that gender gap imo

this isnt solely a gege problem ik but what bothers me in particular about jjk vs other mangas is how gege addresses strength, even in the light of nb/androgynous characters, and how it feels as if gege's def of strength is inherently masculine? even despite going so far as to give us a philosophical battle shonen w diverse reps of gender and emphasizing individuality that encompasses both femme/masc traits

how a reader interprets whether a jjk woman is strong or not is obv subjective. like, i think shoko is strong but shes not depicted as such bc she doesnt have a combative technique whereas yuki maki nobara or mei r depicted as "strong" bc of their battle abilities. but it also feels as if those women r strong bc they take on "masculine" traits/mindsets whereas there r no clear depictions of "femininity" making women or men stronger. even utahime who falls into v classic shoujo girl tropes is seen as weak despite teaching her students v proficientally in battle strategy (mechamaru v mahito is a good ex of that imo), as compared to how gojo teaches his (ie dumping them into missions for experience). but thats not what gege ever chooses to highlight

femininity also doesnt even seem to make men/nb characters stronger. the ex's i can think of r naoya as a vagina (lmao), geto as a mother to curses, yuta as highly attuned to his emotions, kenjaku as yuji's mother -- those r things that support these (mostly) men's strong sense of individuality but like, those arent really the things that lend those characters their "strength", u know? like geges just sprinkling in androgyny for the spice 🧐

what is feminine vs masculine, how an individual embodies those traits in their gender identity r already complex topics. im obv generalizing a lot here, but i just, idk despite how many other nuanced philosophies gege explores, what is strong/desirable in jjk still falls down to all-out fighting abilities/physical prowess, emotional detachment, isolation, extremism, etc -- all things we harp on toxic masculinity for. and even when he critiques that, theres no cogent counter solution/way to be strong that gege provides, much less one that incorporates "femininity" and women

maybe im just asking for too much from gege after having read so many great representations of women and gender by female (and male) mangakas/writers but.. i shouldnt be 🙄 he can utilize his female characters more imo, esp when he can clearly set them up so well. and im sure theres things ive misread about jjk and its portrayal of femininity, theres plenty of holes in my thoughts ^^ anyways, this is obv not a great topic to bring up in a fandom that is so polarized between dudebros and women w unaddressed internalized misogyny.. so i welcome any and all thoughts and interpretations on ur end! (also omg im rlly sorry this got so long)

I love you feminist anon, if I may call you that lol, I just always name my anons 😂. I am so grateful that you sent this.

I feel like you've very eloquently explained the deeper reason as to why I personally can't relate to the female characters in jjk. If I'm honest, I like them and think they are fun and good enough representations or attempts at depicting the archetypes that rule their personalities.

As you say, however, some of them remain rather superficial and underutilized... and please forgive me anyone who loves them, but some of them feel like they are basically dudes wearing skirts.

No offense to dudes who wear skirts or people who like men who wear skirts or anyone for that matter. It's just that, as a personal preference, I like female characters that wear skirts, pants, leggings, etc and have equal amounts of masculine and feminine energy.

So, even if I find they are good enough, I've never necessarily loved jjk female characters, because, as you also say, I've read/seen one too many amazing and iconic female characters by other authors...

And it's not like I think you're asking for too much from Gege in wanting better female characters, it's just that, as you also said, I like his writing and I read jjk precisely because of what it's doing for my masculine psyche. Like... quite literally.

So perhaps I'm more forgiving than you are because of it? Because in all reality, there are female character moments in other manga that I have to give the bombastic side eye to, and jjk isn't one of them.

Let's taco'bout it more under the cut.

So, that said, I have to admit that you might not find a lot of "feminist oriented" content in my blog because my feminist lens is reserved for dealing with lame dudebros in my real life, and also, I honestly do not know how to wear the lens on the same level of depth as you do.

Also, since my blog's lens is depth psych, I very much focus on femininity and masculinity as psychological qualities that exist on opposite ends of a continuum regardless of biological gender. You'll see me refer to femininity and masculinity like this throughout my answer.

So because of this, I'm coming at the whole issue from a slightly different angle than you are. The way I see it, I think the way the jjk female characters are written and thematically utilized (basically everything you said), ultimately comes back to how Gege's exploration of femininity is limited by his own sense of self, and very much likely biased by the sociocultural landscape he grew up in.

I don't know how much you know about Japan, but Japan has one foot in the future, and one foot in the past...

And like... ok I'm totally oversimplifying the whole thing. All I'm saying is... Gege is a man who grew up in a man's world, sharing his view of the world through jjk, which is a story about initiation of the male psyche that is published in a magazine for young boys.

Do you see the pattern there?

So If you feel like his female characters are underutilized and underexplored, and that thematically jjk focuses way too much on masculinity and masculine definitions of strength at the expense of the feminine archetypes he does present (like Naoya as a vagina LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL)... well... to me, we're basically looking at the limits of his own relationship to his femininity, which, this relationship is in turn an imperative precursor for psychospiritual development in depth psych. More of this in a bit.

Anyways, that's my anticlimactic reasoning for why I am more forgiving about the issue than you are. To be honest, I've been so consumed exploring my masculine psyche through jjk (because personally my feminine psyche is more developed in certain aspects) that I just never focus on the female characters (that is not to mention what I shared earlier).

ANYWAYS, I fucking love what you wrote about Gege's exploration on power from a masculine perspective because you're 100% spot on. What I'll say to that is that, to me, from a depth psych perspective, that's kind of the whole point.

I invite you to look at it from this other level of perspective (in addition to the whole "Gege's psych is a product of his upbringing"): the whole idea of individuality and focusing on the sense of self as a measure of "The Strongest" is being shown as an incomplete part of the equation...

... that leaves "the strongest" ultimately feeling dissatisfied.

This is a sentiment echoed by several characters because ego strength (masculine definitions of strength) is ultimately an unbalanced measure of strength precisely because it ignores feminine values and measures of strength.

Who knows where Gege is taking jjk at this point, but I will admit I am hoping he is going to explore this in more depth because, central to Jungian thought and depth psych is the idea of the Buddhist middle path and union of opposites.

In Jungian psych this means that, when you have an unbalanced ego attitude like that, something has to give so that the pendulum swings in the opposite direction, which gives the ego the experiences it needs to integrate the "opposite" attitude. This ultimately results in a more holistic and balanced perspective for the ego.

That to say that I'm wondering if Gege is going to make the pendulum swing in the opposite direction with the whole "individuality" idea since self-preservation is a "masculine" trait. Again, psychologically, it's all about balance, and right now, the story is out of balance in favor of the masculine traits you mention.

But... to bring it back to Gege's possible limitations around his perception of femininity and how developing a healthy relationship to his anima (femininity) is a precursor for psychospiritual development... what if, on a meta level, jjk is depicting part of Gege's journey towards integrating and deepening his relationship to his femininity and what you're seeing is the beginning of that journey?

Hint hint Tsumiki! maybe I'll write about it someday

This is the thing... In depth psychology, more specifically what is called "the psychology of fairy tales", fairy tales and myths are stories that depict the thinking patterns of a peoples through metaphor and symbol. The characters in these myths and stories are thus characters playing out dramas in our own psyches. So basically, think of jjk as an objective exploration of Gege's subjectiveness (psyche).

Admittedly, even if the pendulum swings in the other direction (more feminine definitions of strength), you might find that his exploration is rather shallow or that it falls short of your expectations for what you'd like to see from a feminist perspective. And you wouldn't be wrong for it, it's just that Gege is probably not on the same level of understanding that you have about femininity because he's, like you and I, a human on a journey of self understanding and growth reflecting on how his environment has shaped who he is.

The same goes for women with internalized misogyny. Sometimes you don't know what you don't know, and coming to an understanding of it is a process that doesn't take place overnight.

So I think the only part I'll disagree with is that Gege is a sexist writer. But that's perhaps because I'm being a bit too technical in what sexist means? i.e. masc supremacy or hating women and perpetuating stereotypes. I think that rather than being sexist, his unconscious biases are showing, which is why someone like you can pick them out.

I do understand where you're coming from though, and admittedly perhaps I am being too forgiving of him.

Last thing I'll say is that I've said a couple of times that wanting for jjk to have these iconic female characters feels like an exercise in futility. In retrospect, I now understand that it's not that anyone shouldn't want for jjk to have iconic female characters, but that doesn't change the fact that jjk will probably remain the wrong manga to look for them, and that's something to make peace with because it is what it is.

So, here's to hoping we get a chance to see a deeper representation of feminine values in jjk or Gege's next manga. Because, if he's done such beautiful work with the masculine psyche, like you, I'd be curious to see what he makes of a deeper exploration of the feminine psyche.

Between you and I, I'd actually love reading a proper battle bl from Gege. And I mean proper. Like... gays so canon that even the dudebros can't deny it.

ANYWAYS... giiiiiiiirl what an ask 😮‍💨. I don't think I've done it justice tbh. But hopefully I made sense? I really do love what you wrote. It was very eye opening to see this age-old argument spelled out the way you did it. So thank you again for sharing your thoughts!

If you over have any other thoughts on the topic I look forward to hearing from you!

I rambled too so... hopefully I made sense 🤣.

#ask the mental gymnastics anime girl

[askfallenroyalty]

Thank you for your tutorial on eyes and tears, I appreciate sm!! I've actually seen Scott Mcloud's references before (in a textbook at school once), but I'll be sure to look into him more! Do you also possibly have a guide on how you draw hands? That's something I struggle with the most.

ooh okay so i'm going to preface this with: i'm RUSTY on hands. I REALLY need to do some hand studies because my default method is limited and NOT accurate 😭 i'm not the best at hands

that said... hands are not the devil. they are scary and hard to get at first, but once you understand how to do them, you will love them. i'm shaking hands with the concept of hands. i love hands like a brother. hands are one of the most expressive and important parts of a person to draw, you can tell SO MUCH about a character just by their hands alone! once i got over my fear of hands i realized a whole new world of expressive art was given to me

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hands are a bit hard to explain, so apologies this is more messy than the eye tutorial. hands can be broken down to simple shapes, its just a matter of learning to think in 3d.

it's important to understand the hand itself is not a box. It has a 3d triangle attached to the base of the hand, where the thumb is. If you're not careful, your hand will be too boxy and the thumb will look more unnatural if you don't account for this.

use references! study real life! there has never been an artist who can accurately draw and interpret the world into a stylized art style without understanding what you're interpreting first. References are not cheating. If you use a reference, use ones that are publicly available or make your own, or credit. (the ones I use here are free)

studying can be a simple drawing exercise like the above or doing figure drawing. Understanding gestures, how the hand moves in a 3d space, how it wrinkles, moves within it's joints

clip studio paint has 3d models that are great tool. i use them for more human characters or for poses I struggle with.

sorry this post is so disjointed! i don't feel too confident in my teaching ability here

#i might come back and edit this to flow better but rn i'm really hungry #ooc #art tutorial #art talk

[ivanzplaid]

I loved the hcs of the white death and the trans reader you posted. Do you have any more relationship or general hc about him? Please and thank you :)

hi!!! yes of course of course! im glad you liked them, im absolutley in love with this man so id be happy to deliver, thank you sm🫶🫶 ill do general & dating hcs :)

requests are open, masterlist is up!!

White Death x Gn Reader Hcs!

Warnings: Mentions of Violence/Murder, Possessiveness, Slight Stalking Mention, Fluff!

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General Headcanons

he can use a phone to the extent of texting, calling, and emails, anything else is behind this mans needs and abilities

he has reading glasses.

since taking over the criminal business, hes VERY weary of his workers, always has walls up around them, even if theyve always been loyal, but we're shown of how fast & strong he is, so i assume he scares them to stay loyal to him

absolutely cherishes his clothing, if you splatter blood on it, or spill something, its another mark in his mind to kill you

doesnt drink/smoke excessively, he needs to be alert, but also doesnt have a taste for too much, he doesnt indulge in it as he follows a lot of old sayings ( exp. take control of your fate, or it will take control of you )

however, if he did get drunk, he would be a sad or loud drunk, expressing his depressing thoughts he never says sober, or lets himself go to have a good time

he has a weapon on him 24/7, sleeping? gun. date night? gun. business meeting? gun

he has nice hair, washes it frequently but is tainted with the smell of blood, or smells like mens hairwash

never experienced a true childhood, the goal of taking over the criminal empire consumed him, and while successful theres a part of him missing thst he doesnt see

slightly eccentric man, he has fun in his own way thats torture to everyone else

i need to talk to somebody about the way he plays roulette and how he spins the chamber if his gun bro, that is so fine, he displays confidence and precision in his kills while putting out a distinguished demeanor that scares the people

not afraid of death, we can see this when he plays roulette fairly, and from the many assassination attempts, he isnt accepting of death to himself, but hes not afraid to play around a bit before mass murder

bribes a lot of officials, or simply blackmails/kills them he is in charge and the law is never a concern

never sleeps entirely well at night, either he always has some enegy left iver thst he cant fall asleep till one in the morning, or his work keeps him up until then

has quite a few hobbies besides ones that are strength/durability training, as mentioned before, slight cooking, some type of arts, some reading here and there, has some type of little sand zen garden in his house

he has a large house, not only to flaunt himself shallowly, but the larger spaces and rooms make it harder for assassins who broke in to find him before he wakes up/his guards get him

has some patience to him, not if you owe him money or anything else, but in other aspects he has a certain patience to him

never been thoroughly injured, never gone to the hospital which is another fear tactic he uses against his enemies

he is a master manipulator, undoubtedly smart & quick on his feet

house is mildly decorated, never loved having 'clutter' but it being bare wasnt preferred

quick tempered on the wrong subjects, but likes to draw things out and see his victims in pain, begging for their life before killed

he loves a painful death

he justifies his torture in his own crude ways, as seen in the movie when speaking about the woman who owed him money

if youd like more im all here for it, but heres some for now🫶

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General Datings Hcs

he loves you till the end, and even then he doesnt let up, its rare that he find a true honest love, and once he finds you, hes determined to have you

great man who can express his love through actions, words, and thoughts, he checks all boxes

petnames include; Darling, Love, Divine, Sweetness

all very classic yet sophisticated, he gives you the best because in his eyes you are the best

as mentioned previously, he is very protective of you, to the point where he may even suggest you quit your job, and that he can financially provide much more than enough because of how anxious he is hed lose you

internal fear of abandonment by you, but he refuses to acknowledge it, burried far far inside him

sentimental & meaningful boyfriend, his kisses he distributes to you are elegant, the way he holds you is graceful, the feeling of you in his hands gives him a soften look on his face, letting up his vulnerability

if you ever somehow got hurt, hes tracking the person down and envisioning their death, no harm against you would be justified in his eyes

he cherishes quality time, going out to shop with him, going out to dinner, spending an evening enjoying the movies or leaving the day in his arms on a couch? he thinks its adorable, yet will agree nonchalantly as thats just him

will take your hand and kiss it while keeping eye contact

the type of boyfriend to either give you his coat, or open it so you can go in next to him, and then he'll pull it around you to pull you closer

he is always on edge about your safety, so if theres a chance you feel a pair of eyes on you, you could find him not to far away, supervising you on days he feels uneasy

spending time in bed together is calm and easy, he has an arm wrapped around you while you two have a moment to talk about anything snd everything, this is usually where times get mire vulnerable, so treading lightly is advised

if you get new outfits, he full expects you to show him them, he wants to see just how gorgeous his love looks

he is a busy man, with a business to keep up with, yet he has a surprisingly good amount of time to himself, he is a strategized thinker whos amazing at problem solving, keeping you always in mind

very thorough about his security, if he could keep a wallet hed have a picture of you in it, but he doesnt want to endanger either of you, so he keeps a picture of you with him in his clutches to always have it safe and with him

lets it be known that youre well protected, he keeps your image sacred and lets his attempted killers know hes not afraid to destroy and kill everything in his path for you

at night hes more than fond of running his hands through your hair/feeling your hair, he admires its styles/texture as you sleep peacefully under his watch

when he plans dates theyre going to be intimate, between you and him, he can sell out any restaurant hed like just for you

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i loved this & i always have more, and if you have any more thoughts about white death feel free to submit <3

requests r open, masterlist is up!

#white death bullet train #the white death #white death x you #white death x reader #white death #bullet train #bullet train movie #bullet train 2022

[lets-talk-spirituality]

I would love your take on the Satellite music video when you have the time and energy.

The little tiny robot who traveled across a big world and so far looking for a way to their person.

My heart 😭❤️ This one has been my favorite so far and there's this genuine purity to the music video. just like pure love and wonder, always looking back up to the sky.

And the end, when him and robot were together. ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

The airplane from 1:53 - 2:03 caught my eye.

https://www.quoteandquote.com/quote/?id=117

🕵️‍♀️

Finally getting around to this

So first I notice people making out, and Harry wearing what looks like pajamas but with stars on them. (a tie to late night talking? Another sky reference)

Then we notice this little robot going about its life when it’s struck by seeing curiosity on TV. We are told that curiosity has been lonely for ten years (very specific years to put there), I’ve told you guys I believe he became aware of SM before something great in 2012/2013 and 10 years is 2022/2023? Weird.

Also the bot noticed curiosity on the screen and fell in love with them? And then set off on a worldwide quest to find them? Harrys written in songs about seeing someone’s face everywhere he goes, about “searching every lonely place, every corner calling out your name”

In the quest for finding this curiosity, little robot goes around the world and sees so many things he’d have never seen if he didn’t set off to find this other robot, he sees mountains and oceans, deserts and snow, and he finally makes it as close as he can to his goal, his battery dies. I think it’s sort of like what I’ve said before, sometimes you outgrow the outcome on the journey because it was never about the destination, but little robot needed curiosity to wake something up in him to go on this journey.

In that way it mirrors what I’ve said so far about how them being aware of each other all this time is a journey in and of itself, coming to acceptance that at least you can see the same sky, looking at the sky is looking at the robot he set out to find, I’ve mentioned how Harry looks to the sky to connect with his person before.

Ofc Harry has a Saturn shirt and is looking up at the sky at the end.

Love you vestigative nonnie!

#🕵️‍♀️ anon #Harry styles #satellite mv

[qulizalfos]

hi liza wanted to let you know that all of your comments on tsad make my entire day and i almost started tearing up when i saw ur comment today 🥹 u r too sweet like. words. thank you for being so kind always <3333

hi bee!! omg i genuinely dk what to say i just fuckign love ur fic!!! im forever grateful to have discovered it :] and i completely agree w/ you because. words. i cant with them right now lol just. i am so glad to make u happy!!! this is going to be extremely ranty but. it feels good to say :)

tbh when i started reading tsad it had been a rlly hard day for me lol (sit through 1 hour of casual homophobia at the family reunion --- speedrun) and later i was like scrolling through the byler tag endlessly and i saw the link eventually and my brain went "oh shit!! awesome!!" and i just. felt so happy reading it. it was so cool and it had a unique premise and id never seen anything like it before and i love how u handled their characters!! it was absolutely perfect and it made me feel sm better about myself after the shitty day and so its just such a special thing to watch it grow and update and be able to let you know how important it is!! <33 sorry that was suuper long winded but it is rlly close to my heart!

thank you thank you Thank You for your beautiful writing and letting us be a part of the tsad universe <3333

#sorry this was rlly heavy but like. this fic is so special <3 i love it so much :D #lizaasks #mutuals!! #bee <3 #tsad #/personal #< or. info dump. #liza lore haha

[sojutrait]

thank you so much!!! 😭💓💓💓hope u feel better omg fuck the plague

i just simply started making sims kdjfkdk

I DO im so happy season 2 has started it reminds me sm of old school sims 4 lets plays with storylines and such UGHHH im so glad that style is making a resurgence

thank u!! again im so unhelpful when it comes to advice on making sims bc i really jus Go for it 😭 i dont really have a different approach when it comes to making masc frame sims either

probably not bc its such a small action (like theres only 2 or 3 steps iirc) it just wouldnt be worth the hassle and i dont think that many ppl would find any use out of it😭😭

well,,,, tis the season 🤔

i highly doubt it dkfdkkd

i didnt its from the gallery! i just decked out the inside

ahhh i play on desktop but theres 3 and 4 columns for different screen sizes u can read more about it on the actual mod page iirc

my defaults should be good but my mods arent but i cba to update them rn 😭

( @simarcana ) TYYYYYYY she really is, i just wanna spin her around in cas all day and gawk dkfndk

my only tip would be dont dress them in clothes only if u would wear it/its your style. more so let it be a reflection of their character and their own fashion sense. theres alot of my sims id never dress like djfdkfkd but i know its something they would like !

NOW- DIFJDIFJDK me and nia orphyd have written many dissertations about... That aspect of dante's life but i will not confirm nor deny if that was included

im drawing up blanks too rn 😭😭😭 id suggest if u already know like the ethnicity of ur founder sim to just google last names from that culture and go from there, thats what i usually do dfjkd

10!

thank u omg but no i would feel bad if anyone gave me their money esp considering my tendency to like.. dip for weeks at a time DFKDJK also love u tumblr but i absolutely do not trust u with my credit card information

strip naked/bald, facial features, skin details, hair, clothes, repeat any steps if i dont like what i picked initially

( @thatoneplumbob ) no thank u for enjoying them !!! 💓💓💓😭😭

thats an easy one i dont JFKDJFK thats all neighborhood stories and mcc, i would simply die if i had to do all that myself 😭😭😭 i just pop in and give them quick makeovers

( @cutie-with-glasses-blog ) thank u so much !!! u have a great day as well 💓💓💓😌

i havent, im not a big marvel movie fan 😭😭 BUTTTTT i have seen edits and fancams of shuris actress and i agree i would also sell my kidneys and yours for her, shes so fine

( @wildsangria ) THE WAY I ALREADY FORGOT THIS DISCOURSE HAPPENEDDHFDJHDJ ugh throwback to when i gatekept the decades old tabletop rpg game dungeons and dragons

ive been staring at this in my inbox for almost a month and it never fails to make me laugh yet also feel horrified great job you two

WELL GOOD NEWS I DID and ive only made one hs so far!! buttttt it was before hsy so it doesnt work with the pack 😭😭 ill prob make one for hsy eventually bc as much as i hate building im also drawn to it like a moth to flame

thank u!! but ahhh no i havent been having any problems with uni

thank u, i hope ur having a great day too! tbh its not like something i put like... effort into if that makes sense KJDSK like for my gameplay sims no matter how casual i try to make it i inevitably start adding unnecessary depth into them 😭😭 like ill just be cleaning my house and think hmmm this sim hates this food or once had this happen to them, so pretty much the same approach i do to my ocs!

I ACTUALLY RECORDED A VIDEO i just gotta grow some bawlz and upload it 😭😭 its just a quick cas vid for a sim i wanna do gameplay with on there but im still peeing in nervousness

TYYYY i am doing well i rlly am 😌😌 im on winterbreak so YIPEEEE hope ur both doing well too!

#asks #anon #simarcana #thatoneplumbob #cutie-with-glasses-blog #wildsangria

[stealingbones]

can i just,, rant about south park? (spoiler warning obv)

I never thought id be into basic american adult tv buthere we are- I recently got into it, feb 19th i started watching and finished the whole 26 seasons and two games (sot and tfbw) in a month. Just finished tfbw game earlier today and almost lost my mind fr bc wth man.... anyway, theres your background for how mentally ill i am, now-

South park characters have so much detail in their characters, right down to the little things, like cartman having to finish singing sail away or kenny liking oragami, like??? i love the little character details that nobody thinks about hello??

Its so hard to take them seriously with that stupid artstyle (the artstyle has grown on me and i love it sm but still, theyre hella goofy) but seriously some parts cut deep- especially the whole fucking covid thing, never in my life did i think id cry at fUCKING SOUTH PARK ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? I see a lot of angst and it actually makes sense??? And just,, a lot of stan's stuff is really depressing, i hate the episode(s) 'youre getting older' holy fuck. The fact that stan knows how to drive at 8 years old most likely because his dad is an alcoholic who drives drunk too is graaAAA,, I feel so bad for butters too, the innocent child who gets all the trauma dumped on him 💀 none of the kids in south park are safe from trauma, not even 'new kid' (they fr made you choose a parent, dude.....) one of my favorite serious moments though actually is when kenny tries to get them to remember his deaths, the like "TRY AND FUCKING REMEMBER." is so dramatic and im fbedhunfinjecnijef

also cartman being the only one to remember kenny's deaths waa,, Cartmanland he says 'what kenny? he dies all the time' and when kenny tries to make the others remember,, cartman isnt there so á, then cartman isnt shocked when kenny escapes wherever tf cthuhlu sent everyone. cartman did drink kenny's ashes so that could be the reason he remembers epic

also also, i didnt even think about it before until i seen just kenny and kyle at the bus stop, but stan and cartman moving away and just having two of the main four left at the iconic bus stop scene is so upsetting,, I enjoy the older seasons best 💔 Like season 10 and earlier man,, their early seson voices too omg <3 When they started doing season long stories was kind of annoying (edit bc new episode dropped, they put cartman back lmao,, still missing stan though man...)

Switching topics- No wonder style is more popular than stendy, it has more content than stendy even though theyre cannon dating 💀i think cartman and wendy interaction more actually. Wendy's kind of cool and i wish theyd make an effort to show her and stan together more often (even small things like they do with creek) and a few times its even shown how little stan cares, like with the texting thing or the time they broke up for a bit stan had said he hadnt talked to her for weeks... Stan doesnt deserve wendy tbh, i also always forget she killed someone for stan lol, they really dialed her crazy back,,

I probably have more random thoughts but these are the main ones,, the little guys have been doing laps around my brain for a month straight and i feel like im going to explode

#sp #south park

[kazzattack]

im a playlist connoisseur, i name playlists like its my fucking job.

normally when im naming playlists, I think of what I get in frequent moods for, so im not making a tiktok music playlist or smth because how often do I actually plan to listen to what I hear on tiktok (now the stuff thats not trending that come on my fyp as ads, thats a different story)

sometimes theyre pretty normal names (“albums to revisit🫶🏾”- just a bunch of my favorite albums, albums that I would like to love more, albums by artists I feel cant make a bad song; “get your day ✨started✨”- songs that make me want to be alive and promote having a good day because i start it off in a good mood)

every so often i get silly with them, these titles can come from something I see on sm (“songs to save me from vecna,”) or seen in a quiz I take (“songs id crash my car to”- this one has two versions- the og, emotional songs id prob crash to bc im in my feels, and sicmct2 which is full of high energy songs id crash to bc im having too much fun singing along and not paying attention (i have never been in a car accident), or I notice theres a common theme to the songs im cultivating (“i am transcending,” and the description I put is “feels like im floating ig,”) descriptions can also help with naming too because then you can avoid adding songs that dont match your theme.- ❤️‍🔥

honorable mention for some of my more interesting playlist names:

tears🫵🏾, songs that would be in an oth episode, should’ve been in glee, the actual childehoode., multi player songs, my whitest whites, write these papers BITCH, wedding jawns🥳🥰, 🌈

i like how you had to specify you’ve never crashed before. u r hilarious

hm hm hm. i have a playlist called “FUCK aubrey” full of kendrick’s disstracks, megan thee stallion and songs that just give “fuck a bitch ass nigga” energy bc fuck that bitch ass nigga yk? i think that’s a start. then there’s “am i sad or in love,” full of love songs and sad songs bc i can never tell the difference.

i have another playlist called novaclocks, which is novacane by frank ocean and broken clocks by sza smushed together. the description says “all my majestic songs,” so for the most part it’s alt rnb or chill indie music. i want more playlists with names like that bc it’s very appealing to the eye to me. i have a playlist of song recs that ro gave me too, i called it ivy’s orchid which is just her two account users smushed together, and now i throw other pretty song recs i get in there too. the name reminds me of harlivy a little and i thought it was cute

i think i suck at playlists bc i just be listening to anything. like. i just put all 830 of my likes songs on and go about my day. but i switched to apple music yesterday and i cant transfer my likes saurrrrr now i HAVE to make playlists </3 i think im gonna work on my musical playlist next. that’ll be all my hamilton, heathers, one or two mean girls songs and a lot of disney songs. thennnnnn maybe a playlist for songs that give euphoria vibes. ty C ur the best

#ttm <3 #❤️‍🔥 anon !!

[madaranuii]

wahhhh this is me angel 🎀 anon idk if you've seen my other asks </3 but GAHH i agree sm with all my fellow anons, I love looking at your blog its part of my daily routine!!! hehe ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡)

I also love love love your art its so good!!! especially all the little details you add are so fun and ahggh i'm such a big fan hehee..

(｡𓎆 𓎺 𓎆) I saw how you provided ibara hqs/thoughts and wondered if you could do Leo? hes my little meow meow... my friend got me his nui recently and ive been putting him in my cleavage LMAO

Personally i'm a big yandere fan sooo i always like to think id be his muse hehe and he doesn't wanna share with anyone...

another idea i had was him being inspired by my moans and wanting to write but not having anythin to write with, so he starts frantically tracing out the music notes on my skin.. hehe... i also think he would be sooo bitey. he cant stop leaving marks all over ᓚᘏᗢ

OH MY GOD IM SO SORRY I MUST HAVE MISSED THEM WEEPWEEPP... BUT HAII ANGEL 🎀!!! ᰔᰔ

THANK YOU SOSOMUCHHH!!! I LOVE ADDING LIL DETAILS SO HEARIN U LIKE EM MAKES ME GIGGLE HEHE ᰔᰔ!!

OUUUUU LEO. LEOLEOLEOOO MY BELOVED I barely talk about him even though he's such a fucking silly fella and I absolutely adore him so much ??!??!!??!? (LITERALLY FUCKING LEOP .. HAS NEVER TALKED ABT HIM BEFORE. A CRIME.)

OHHHH he'd so love to be between the titties hehe :3cc I do the same to my madara nui <33

MAKING MUSIC FROM UR MOANS... HE SO WOULD !!??!!! he'd be so clingy and needy, like attached to ur hip and basically hissing at anyone who even looks at you if they aren't his friends (I like to think Madara would be the exception to his lil hissy hisses, and he'd willingly share u with him, but only him tbh <3 could just be me wanting to be in a Madara + Leo threesome like HAIII :33 three autistic individuals getting it on HAHA)

BUT bitey Leo HOLLLYYY SHITT he would!!!??!'! it'd almost look like an animals mauled you after sex, with so many teeth marks and hickeys, I like to think he'd target mostly your neck, shoulders and chest with his bites, but also sometimes your thighs and lower belly <33 I also think he'd sometimes fuck you to the tempo to songs he's creating in his head? like get extremely rough then slow down into simple lil drags, all the while you're whimpering and whining beneath him <3333

maybe also... he'd love having his hair messed around and pulled <33 take it out of its lil ponytail and start messing it, tugging on it and grabbing handfuls while he fucks you or vice versa hehe :3cc

FUCCCKK I LOVEEE LEO ... talking about him makes me so happy HEHE THANK UUU ANGEL<33

#.* 𖦹 angel anon 🎀 !! #𖥔 : madaranuii.ramblez!!

[namuneulbo]

week eighty-six

i was so busy on sunday so i couldnt post in time. sorry!! ill write and post this now at 1 am on monday. it was a good sunday though, cute person at the till but i got so flustered i forgot to look at their last name when i ided them so i just know his first name and middle name loool. went to the bar after work w c, l and s. we then went for food and ate in the school cafeteria. a cute security guard came after a while and asking for us to show our keys to prove we could be there lol.

ive been listening to loooots of saosin. im so in love w their stuff. so the sotw is obvious hehe.

okay now ill go through the week in order lol.

monday i dont really remember. just work.

i had a shorter shift on tuesday, only four hours! afterwards i met up w e and e and we walked around town and then had some food and then went to some shops. it was fun and time went by so fast.

on wednesday i thought id have to rawdog the music quiz and just go alone and hope id find someone ik there to play w BUT c came home just in time so she joined me along w d, e and s. s left before the results and d and e left right after the results. we did HORRIBLY!!! we came like,, 9th ??? out of 14 probably?

s joined us afterwards and m also joined in after a bit. i thought it was a lot of fun but apparently ive now gotten the news that s is... a bit weird. idk, i always thought my friends were kind of,,, making him seem worse than he is but ig im starting to understand what they find so odd ab him and back on wednesday i still enjoyed his company. after talking for a while, m left to go to another table and c and i were left w s. h joined us at one point and omg i was so excited ab it, i think hes so cool and cute and sweet and i kind of fangirled internally. like truly its not like a crush or anything, hes just so sweet and funny so i was so excited to talk to him. THEN..... D JOINED??? idk if ive talked ab him too much on here but basically hes just this bassist dude whos so fucking cool to me and ive never spoken to him and before this i hadnt even sat at the same table as him or stood within the same circle as him. ig this experience was quite humbling though lol i think i made him up to be more talkative and louder than he actually is. nothing bad ab that i just realized ive probably made him way cooler in my mind than he is irl. hes just human lol. hes still cool to me though but i need to mention that its funny that c had literally said to me like “girl, ur hyping him up way too much. hes just a man.” and now i was indeed proved right. he is just a guy lol. its kind of become an inside joke by now though and i like that ive created that correlation to him now so itll always be in the back of esp c and ls minds. i did fangirl a lot when he sat down at our table out of nowhere though and it was so funny bc c kept giving me a look.

d left quite quickly to go to talk to others and after a while me, c, h and ss convo turned into a film bro convo bc apparently all three of them r film bros and i havent seen like,, any movies so they started listing movies from every era and of every genre that i had to watch and it was so funny. after they had been listing stuff for a good 15 minutes they finally said dead poets society and i could finally be like “IVE SEEN THAT ONE”. i then watched interstellar the next day... no reason why i specifically watched that one...

after watching interstellar on thursday, i got so inspired to go learn cornfield chase on piano so i ran to school at 12 am but obviously it was closed. i knew it would be but sometimes the gates might still be open or something so there r loopholes but yeah, not this time. i checked every door lol. i still havent gone to practice it. i practiced a little bit at home on the keyboard but it sounds so bad and its so hard to play, mainly ergonomically.

friday! played sims all day and then went for a drink w t. we then went for a walk and then got some food to end the evening. i love them sm <3

saturday was work again but it was a five hour shift that went by pretty fast and it was such a weird shift lol. theres this guy that comes in every now and then and weve always had this little tension between us, like a pretty obvious romantic tension. i remember all the times hes been at the till while i was working. one time he was also just in the store while i was fixing some shelves, i think i was specifically organizing cat food? anyways, first time, i actually cant remember fully if it was him but im pretty sure?? idk, like i said, i get flustered when i see pretty ppl so i just remember a BIG tension and his hand shaking a bit when holding his card to the card reader. second time he bought cigarettes and i ided him and TURNS OUT ITS A GUY I WENT TO ELEMENTARY W LOLLLL. hes two years older than me and all i remember of him is that he used to show me gore on the computer at the after school thingy we were at. honestly shaped me a lot as a child probably. i wonder if he remembers me from that as well. anyways. he bought food some other time too and i remember just really feeling the tension still. like its sm fun??? like how u can feel that we both find each other so attractive yet no one says anything apart from just smiling and doing like a specific type of eye contact and just like idk... speaking in a certain tone ig??? its sm fun. hes so hotttttt. anyways on saturday he came in twice, once w his friend (who i also know and hes not a great guy sooooooo) and that time his friend was just buying cigarettes but he stayed away for some reason and like fully turned his back to me lol idk what that was ab but then after an hour or so he came in alone to buy some quick meal and the tension was back. i think he mightve genuinely just avoided me the first time bc he didnt want his friend to know??? or am i being totally delusional rn?

later that shift d shows up. THE d. we were both as surpised lol i just looked up from my phone when i heard someone start piling up stuff on the conveyor belt and then i meet eyes w him and his eyes widen just as much as mine and hes like “hi!” and im like “hi!”. we dont say anything else but it was just so funny and i keep smiling lol. hes so iconic to me. maybe a little hot too but like mostly iconic. i think. he is QUITE hot though... like to be fucking fair....

THEN omg. this was so fucking funny and i laughed ab it for the rest of my shift. this guy came in to buy alcohol and he was young so he showed id before i even got to asking him for it and his name is literally the same as w, my crush. FIRST AND LAST NAME WERE THE SAME??? what a fucking coincidence??????? it was so funny and i had to keep myself from bursting out in laughter in front of him it was so fucking weird. i didnt think w had THAT common of a name. like yeah first name sure, one of the more common ones for his age but like first and last name??? woah.

anyways, thats a fucking wrap.

sotw: saosin - racing toward a red light

#diary #tumblr diary #namuneulbo