#im feeling shrimp emotions

[the-holy-ghosted]

Thinking about Henry Peglar again. Everybody take cover

#the heron speaketh #henry peglar #the terror #im feeling shrimp emotions #genuinely #might elaborate if i have time im at work right now but just know! im feeling unwell

[sadeshade]

How do i explain how a character calling themselves bad and a villain in response to being treated like they're bad and a villain is making me feel without oversharing

How do I explain how hard I relate to a character doing things to earn earn a title that was forced on them without revealing too much about my tween years

#nimona #shrimp emotions #im feeling shrimp emotions

[rotomicity]

"how do you feel about church or last of the real ones being teredion songs" I FEEL. A LOT. I FEEL A LOT OF THINGS ABOUT 'OH THE THINGS THAT YOU DO IN THE NAME OF WHAT YOU LOVE YOU ARE DOOMED BUT JUST ENOUGH' & 'I'M DONE WITH HAVING DREAMS/THE THING THAT I BELIEVE/YOU DRAIN THE FEAR FROM ME' FOR BOTH OF THEM BOTH WAYS

"FOR BOTH OF THEM BOTH WAYS" YOU GET IT. YOUUUUU GET IT AUUUUUHGGDHH (FALLS TO THE FLOOR IN AGONY)

#it never crossed my mind that these songs would be perfect for them UNTIL TODAY #ME WHEN I WAS JUST AN ONLY CHILD OF THE UNIVERSE/AND THEN I FOUND YOU. AND THEN I FOUND YOU #IM FEELING SHRIMP EMOTIONS #teredion #teredio #ffxvi #ff16

[crazywolf828]

I just thought about mean kitty for the first time in like ten years and I'm just.

#im feeling shrimp emotions #god I miss it so much #that guy really made a bop #if you dont know go search mean kitty #its worth it #don't mind me

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

Alright I watched Beef

I understand what you guys were talking about now

#i missed some cuz i was watching with my parents and they watched a few episodes without me #but i saw the middle and the last 2 episodes #and it was 🤌🤌🤌 #im feeling shrimp emotions #that might be downplaying it a little but im not a super wordy guy

[interview-with-the-vlfote]

one day humanity will be dead and aliens will come to what will be left of the earth and they will find 2021 album ruin and they will know that humans loved each other so so much

#the amazing devil #im feeling shrimp emotions rightj now <-guy who is relistening to ruin #aughhh

[silverskye13]

as someone who dreamed to be a knight as a child, it's unwise of me to be reading Redstone and Skulk. i can already feel my discarded moral code returning to me. i have been thinking of going to the gym and taking up Kendo practice again. Skye, when i get you, skye when i get you 🫵 /lh

Do it anon. I dream of the day you challenge me to a duel, after long hours of training and self fulfillment and I lay my sword before you and ask, "Was it worth it? Did you fill your time well? Every ounce of joy in your progress was my joy for you. Every moment of victory was a moment of victory I applauded you. Every time you thought yourself silly because of the source of your inspiration, know I wrote 1000 words hoping it inspired you. Every time you wanted to quit, or were tired, or felt lost, I was throwing a blanket around your shoulders and demanding you rest."

I mean, speaking honestly and plainly here, I started drawing because I thought dragons were cool. I kept drawing because edgy wolf comics online were popular when I was a kid, and I wanted to make The Edgiest Sparkledog OC, and put it in a comic with me and my friends, who were all also dogs. I started writing because my sister and I were bored on summer afternoons and wanted to one-up each other on who could write the craziest blatant ripoff of Eragon and Twilight, a tradition that passed on into long RP notebooks with my highschool best friend, and text stories that were so long, my phone provider literally laughed at my Dad when he considered taking off our unlimited text plan.

Is it inherently silly to start learning swords because you read a fanfic? Yes. But it was also silly when a cave painter first put their kid on their shoulders to throw handprints on a wall. They didn't do that to be profound, or to leave a thousand ripples, or for scientists to wonder how historically significant it was. They did it because they had paint and hands, and it was a source of joy.

Go take Kendo because you read a silly, barely canon adjacent fanfic online about some silly little guys. Go relive your childhood hyperfix on knighthood. The world will be richer for it, and so will you, and that's all that matters at the end of the day.

Also if you don't, Helsknight will call you a wuss. [He won't really, but he'll think it really loud. Go learn kendo and kick his ass about it anon.]

#anonymous #dont mind me its been a long day and im feeling shrimp emotions

[kicktwine]

the problem is I’m such a staunch believer in the slow buildup, the earnest enjoyment of meandering through terrible story decisions and weird nothing subplots to build up into a conclusion that explodes out from all that as fantastic storytelling and intrigue based on all that buildup, such that it makes it necessary to get through all that or you’re missing something essential, that I’m also a terrible person to talk to about what makes a story good. I can tell you plenty of what actually makes something tight and well-written and all that technical speak but how could anyone take my advice when I so so so love excruciatingly long unnecessarily complex fumbling and weird nonsense that spirals into, inexplicably, weird nonsense that makes you cry your lungs sore

#kipspeak #my point being everyone is too mean about post arr. sure f’lhammin did not have to be our problem but everything after that was like #meandering. Thinking. building. unnerving. they were cooking and i RESPECT their dubious food #i love homestuck and long audio dramas and dnd podcasts and indecipherable fancomics and lego ninjas and khux and im starting to love ffxiv #all incredibly long and made with passion and kinda weird and hard to get into #said with THE MOST affection in my heart #I could structure a kids show and I know how to write for tv but in my heart of hearts #I just want to write an impossibly long absurdity epic that is weird and a little bad and also makes you feel shrimp emotions #ALSO I feel 0% bad for not respecting ur theory or opinion if you haven’t played khux/dr/recoded I don’t feel bad about it at all I’m right #understand what’s going on in them and I’ll respect your theories. it’s like comics enjoyers but less chaotic #don’t let me get into comics. superheroes never really catch my interest but if you let me get into comics I’d explode #‘it gets really good’ is a genuine way to interest me #also don’t let me get into anime that do this. I already watched a thousand episodes of detective Conan— #maybe it’s a careful balance of weird and Good Storytelling Seeds. it has to have internal logic for one; and it has to have a structure #It has to be leading somewhere. and I want to see where it leads #we are GOING through the disney worlds. all of them. they are COOKING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[so-very-small]

new freak just dropped: this tiny has the power to explode people with their mind

#and god i wish i was this tiny. let me just 💥💥💥💥💥 #ive said it before and ill say it again: anyone who’s ever slept with me needs to die #sorry. its four am and i CANT SLEEP and im feeling shrimp emotions about a stupid hell of my own making #certified pity party hours 🥳

[ur-local-remy-kinnie]

wowzers akane the goober!! (submission for @mari-lair’s dtiys)

#tbhk #jshk #toilet bound hanako kun #jibaku shounen hanako kun #aoi akane #my stuff #my art #posting this from tummyache city (im probably not gonna survive this tummyache tbh) #i like how the eyes on this one turned out tbh #literally used the same brush for the entire thing & didnt even think to use anything else #aughhhhhh im kinda proud of this ngl (i aay that abt all my art) #rhi if ur reading this HE ISNT POPROCKS #SOBS. MEAN TO ME!!! #also since he has bunny ears & human ears in this au does he just hear twice as well or what #me asking the real questions here #im just gonna write an entire essay in the tags arent i #i am sorry for everyone who opened the tags to see whatever the hell this is. #anyways i was listening to bug art on repeat while doing the sketch/lineart for this #it made me feel shrimp emotions #i actually listened to a lotta good songs while making this one #ive been getting more into punk-rock lately!! #i was listening to the clash while colouring this it was so fun #specifically their album ‘london calling’… such a major bop #oh & dazey & the scouts!!! #maggot is such a banger song istg #i was literally fighting in the trenches tryna find good reference pics for him in this outfit #i mean i coulda drawn him in sth else ig but i had already started it & i wasnt gonna give up anytime soon #strangely enough i actually kinda knew what i was doing when colouring this… i usually just wing it #anyways i’m out of tags so ig that’s all #ty to everyone who read all this lmao

[pissditching]

#i don't knwo man i'm not even high im just feeling shrimp emotions and i have questions

[definitelynotshouting]

Can I ask, since you mentioned agreeing 'even if under duress' - how did the Watchers convince Player Grian to join them in hunger au?

So take this with the specific grain of salt that ive never watched Evo directly (but have friends who have ((thank you wren)), so i know tidbits via osmosis from them), but my thought has always been that the riddles the Watchers gave the Evo Players were all tests used to measure cleverness and intelligence-- the whole point of them attempting to copy the mind of a Player into a Watcher larva in the first place was to try and avoid the insanely high infant mortality rate their typical juveniles go through, bc they dont understand their own limits enough to even know they have them yet. So they needed a Player they knew they could instruct and who would listen to them, and, well. Grian, for all he was rebellious and outright defiant of the Watchers, still solved their puzzles and only had to be punished once before he stopped trying to mess with them

What ive always pictured is after the dragon fight the two main elders of the Watcher colony finally revealed themselves to Grian properly-- i have this crystal clear image of the two of them hovering above and next to the central end island, looming over Grian, and like, these guys are big. HUGE. A good 5x bigger than the ender dragon itself, at LEAST. It would be hard not to feel insanely intimidated by that, honestly, especially when there are two of them side by side, blocking your entire view of the End from that direction.

Anyway picture that with the context of these two giant floating winged worms youve never seen before, who have demonstrated their powerful ability to manipulate code in a way you cant.... telling you that they have chosen you to become one of them. Thats an immense amount of pressure, both from flattery and fear, especially considering theyve punished you before for defying them. I like to think even then, Grian balked a bit, and while i dont have exact dialogue beats here, i know the Watchers continued putting that pressure on him (likely while leveraging his friendships too-- like ive always said, if Grian hadnt been chosen, BigB wouldve been, and i can absolutely see the Watchers offering to take him in Grian's stead) until he finally caved and accepted their "offer" of joining them.

Unfortunately, he didnt find out exactly what that entailed until it was far too late.

#shouting speaks #asks #hunger au #evo watchers #watcher!grian #grian #evo smp #tldr they pressured tf out of him to do it #through both flattery and also leveraging his own fear against him #he was a Player after all. they were likely bumping his mood post-dragon fight to make him more suggestible #the most painful thing abt this to me is that the Watchers still werent being deliberately malicious here like #with the way they viewed Players this was NORMAL to them #they just. didnt rlly consider them as much more than food/hosts for their young. in their eyes the Watcher that emerged was different #than the Player it had hatched from #even though it had Grian's mind memories personality and stats #every day i feel shrimp emotions abt this #the horror he went through..... and they never once thought of it as torture #they never once regarded Player!Grian as something that needed to know what was going to happen to him #bc it was normalized to them. yeah sure Watcher juveniles hatch from Player hosts thats NORMAL thats part of their life cycle!!! #the only new thing is this one would still retain the Player's mind #it was a fucked up science experiment basically and grian wasnt told ANYTHING before it actually happened to him #sobs and cries ohhh grian i fucked you up SO BAD huh #also huge shoutout to my friend wren for giving me a little context while i wrote this and confirming my ideas slotted in #rlly well with existing canon. character understander status continues to stay intact im winning #txt

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneepy cozy....

#cats #(medical stuff mention for tags) #poasting confortable image of boye for peace and serenity and such forthe #I have little weird episodes sometimes where I get shaky (but like violently like 'would spill a drink if you were holding it beacuse #your hands are moving so much' type shaky) and weird and sick feeling but usually it passes in an hour or less. but last night I just #literally couldnt sleep I was shaking so much and my heartrate was up a ton and wouldn't go down even after like 6 hours plus super nausea #so I went to the hospital and now shall wear a heart monitor for a week. which hopefully it's just some weird drastic low blood sugar #event or something and there's nothing actually going on. ekg + ct scan for blod clots + virus panel + almost all of the blood work seems #normal so... aa....... #Though me being so privacy focused hrggh... I basically have a constantly bluetooth connected device around me #since the monitor comes with a cell phone that is constantly transmitting data to the place. which they said they'll call you #if they see anything weird which is also scary. random phone calls... but definitely better than letting an issue go unadressed lol #the phone is also not meant to be more than 10 feet away from the monitor at any time so I put on this old tactical fishing #vest thing thats like navy green with 100 pockets and im just using one of the giant pocketson the side as a phone holder #my enormous silly vest just to keep one little phone #ANYWAY... because I got up early the morning before and didn't sleep at all and spent nearly all day in waiting rooms and such #I have been awake for like 32 hours striaght. which I'm sure also does not help with an elevated heartrate lol #feeling shrimp emotions or whatever people talk about unlocking at a certain level of stress and sleep deprivation #and also no food or water. after a while they brought me like 3 saltines and some ice water but I basically also haven't eaten since 3am #last night and it's 2pm now.. #thus............ bapy............. baby boye....... he will help ease all ailments with his baby powers... #And no I dont drink energy drinks or anything with caffiene really I'm afraid of all substances on the planet essentially #My body just likes to become shaky and weird randomly even when I'm not conciously anxious about anything/have had no caffiene/etc #and I guess I'm always more nervous about getting anything heart related checked out because of my arm/shoulder/chest area injury stuff #... i literally have constant chest pain all the time. it moves around but i nearly always have some sort of pain or pressure in my chest #so when people are like 'oh well a little weird heartrate is fine but watch out if you have pain!' it's like... i always do lol.. how am I #supposed to tell the Bad Pain apart from the Always Pain when the descriptions of Bad Pain are very very similar #AAAANYway.... hrghh... i wanted to be very productive and finally post drafts and wrok on things today. but alas.. #I can at least post small image of soft boye.. though he recently got into stuff in the bathroom whilst left #alone and knocked things into the toilet.. So perhaps not an innocent and NICE boy.. but still.. a soft one .. beautfile....

[mewtwo24]

I just watched s2 episode 10 in the english dub and I have to say. Nothing could have prepared me for Howard's delivery of that final scene where Xie Lian gets worked up about the truth coming out.

The just...sincerely agonized delivery of "That my words were the empty ramblings of a sad child!!" shook me to the core. The absolute self-loathing in that line, the raw emotion. The way concealing the truth was done to spare Lang Qianqiu but also at its heart was about Xie Lian's unresolved feelings of humiliation and shame, the way [redacted] did everything in his power to make Xie Lian lose faith in himself and the possibility of good prevailing in the world.

The way TGCF keeps me up at night, man...

#tgcf #xie lian #lang qianqiu #the runner-up line that devastated me too was: 'it's the least of what I DESERVE!!!' #i dont think there are words to describe how that made hua cheng feel knowing all that he does (from his time as wu ming) #legitimately its on the spectrum of mantis shrimp im guessing bc i can't fathom trying to put it into words either #the way xie lian won't stop punishing himself for wishing for better--for wishing for peace and collaboration--even 800 years later #the way he continues to take responsibility for all the wrongs others commit--the way he deems himself a failure -> #for things he simply could not change or did not purposefully incite. the way he won't stop punishing himself when things go wrong #i honestly cant get over how acutely xl feels like the result of gifted child syndrome #having all of these grandiose expectations placed on him and doing his utmost to uphold them at any cost #doing everything he can to the point of self-destruction to do the right thing #only to end up hated in the end when he proved to have limits--even as a god #and discarded despite his efforts; ultimately deemed worthless for not measuring up to what were impossible/rigged standards from the get g #and like . the way up to this point they made the creative decision to make xie lian's emotional range fairly static #not that he's unfeeling but that he doesn't tend to raise his voice or express anything extreme (for good reason) #until this precise moment where it all comes flying apart with so many old scars torn open #absolutely fantastic im on the ground #honestly i feel like i forget how difficult a decision this had to be for hua cheng #i mean naturally he chose this because he wanted xie lian absolved #and ultimately xie lian really does need to stop the self-flagellation--he takes it too far #but watching him tremble with fear haunted by the echoes of what he almost became #fucking cHRIST

[donghuamuqing]

Crazy together as in you see a spider on the wall i see a spider on the wall. You see the woman in the wallpaper and i tear down the wallpaper for you. Crazy together as in if your hand shakes my hand shakes too but i steady it to place mine over yours. Crazy together as in your mind could be stretched out like candy and id still walk you home at night and tuck you into our bed. As in im with you every step of the way. As in theres no place you could go i wont follow. As in theres a cave in front of us and i walk in first. Crazy together as in the undying devotion i have to you. You tug at my thoughts even when i kick you away. I cling to you as you let me go. Crazy together like co-dependency crazy together like you may never see another clear sky again so ill bring you an umbrella and get myself wet to keep you dry. Crazy together as in i will lie beside you like a dog as you sleep. Crazy together as in you could say anything ill believe its true. Crazy together as in hands touching hands eyes meeting eyes and the link between us that charged up like an electric shock when we stand near each other

#my post #crazy together makes me feel shrimp emotions sorryyyyyyyy #crazy together its about the DEVOTION its about im never leaving you behind im never walking away from you its You always #will was already in love with mike when he said that but he fell 200% harder after that pure plummeting to the earths core #will is so much stronger than me i wouldve kissed my best friend if she said something like that to me forget abt 1980s homophobia

[soldier-poet-king]

Finished my reread of the thief today, first once since rott, and like. Oh man oh man. I had a strange grief in rott because it almost felt like Gen's parentage speculations come from nowhere, I adored the book, but idk smthn about that gutted me in an unpleasant way and idk why! (I think it's just having read the first 3 books as a tween and then rereading them obsessively for over a decade before the sequels gives one a skewed perspective)

But like. Rereading the thief now. Oh. Oh. It's all been recontextualized. Everything about Eugenides status as an outcast in Eddis is recontextualized. It fits. It all fits. The strange odd grief I'd been harbouring since rott is gone. I should've just trusted mwt. She's a genius. Like. Even if it wasn't intentionally foreshadowed BC y'know, 20+ years in the making, but it works as written. And everything Gen says about his cousins, aunts, and uncles in the thief now clicks into place. Idk how to explain it other than it's like. The recontextualization of the beginning and end of koa, but spread out through the whole series. Through Eugenides' as a character. Bookending the books. I'm. ??? Emotional and idk why

#fran reads #whats up its fran im once again having very big emotions about silly things maybe #but it feels like something has finally clicked into place #like i finally understand #and im not sure why it took another reread to understand #given ive read these a zillion times #but maybe its just. a reread with fresh eyes #either way. it is a grief and it is a joy #and truly qt giving me shrimp emotions i will never experience elsewhere #im so grateful. #anyway off to qoa reread. ready to be gutted :)