#im fucking depressed dude

[bl00dw1tch]

Watching someone play afop and im so. Oh my god. Oh my GOD. It's literally just a fucking showcase of all the Exact type of shit that has been happening to indigenous people and people of color have been dealing with for Centuries at the hands of white supremacy and imperialism. Like its literally just Showing all that Shit from the perspective of a Na'vi in universe. So it "demonizes" the RDA accordingly. And uet so many fucking reviewers are joshing on it and calling it Boring and Slow and Uninspired and that it makes human's 'cartoonishly evil' LIKE YOU PEOPLE HAVENT LOOKED AT A SINGLE FUCKING CURRENT EVENT IN YOUR LIVES. Oh my god im so mad at all these fucking reviewers now. The fucking AUDACITY to look at something this fucking Honest about the cruelty humans are capable of, while living during the fucking day and age with all this Knowledge we have at our fingertips -- the fucking audacity to look at this game and what the character goes through and not being able to muster up ANY other fucking emotion besides "ubisoft never was great at story anyway so idc lol" fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you. Like actually. You can't even fucking ATTEMPT to connect to this story emotionally? Not even a fucking Smidge? Jesus fucking christ people need everything to be spoon fed to them these days. God forbid a piece of media actually ask you to meet it in the middle for once.

#horse.txt #vent // #im mad lol. the farther i get into the story the more mad i get #oh oh the humans putting the Na'vi in cages is a bit extreme? a bit unrealistic?? #what the fuck has been going on US borders for the past two decades then. #oh oh the pollution of the land and the water to hurt resistance efforts and native populations is so cartoonishly evil!! #HUMANS WOULD NEEEEVER DO SOMETHING SO DIABOLICAL 😱😱😱 #get fucking real. i am so tired of people looking down on Avatar when it's one of the first pieces of mainstream media that ive Ever seen #cover these topics in a fictional lense with So candidly. and nobody wants to fucking take it seriously because it makes them Uncomfortable #to see humans be the fucking badguys #iTS NOT EVEN ABOUT /ALL/ HUMANS THE REAL VILLIAN IS THE FUCKING RDA! ITS CAPITALISM!!!!! #THATS THE FUCKING POINT!!! but noooo people are so fucking sensitive they cant see it as anything but 'misanthropic' #like all of the humans in the resistance arent RIGHT FUCKING THERE for one. and for two ACKNOWLEDGING HUMANITIES FLAWS ISNT MISANTHROPIC #humans have flaws!!! we are capable of great cruelty just as much as we are great kindness!!! #if simply acknowledging and exploring that fact in stories is 'misanthropic' and depresses you then thats on YOU. #grow some thicker skin or something dude idk lol

[disagigglebilities]

The interesting intersection of having both physical and mental disabilities and experience abled bodied mentally ill ableism and sane minded physically ill ableism

#anyway i am severly touch repulsed and my physically disabled friend wont stop touching me because he 'means no harm' and doesnt get it #like idc if you get it just fucking stop #dude also acts like telling me i need to do exposure therapy is gonna cure my driving phobia #like he has literally jokes about making me drive back places and refusing to drive #like i will kill you #also on the flip side is always having mentally ill people tell me that i sleep so much because of my depression #like no i have a physical health problem #a psychologist tried to pull the whole 'maybe it isnt that you cant do these things but that you wont' #like no im physically disabled i physically cant do those things stfu

[savage-rhi]

Magggennnttaaaa!

#before the pandemic i sold a lot of original paintings and such at conventions and shows in my area #well some locals at a gathering today kindly informed me someone has been selling copies of my plague doctor piece #and some of my mini prints and presenting them as their own same with stickers #its not only ai we gotta worry about now even the damn locals are doing this shit #i got a show in may coming around the corner and I'm thinking i might not even sell paintings and stuff anymore if this is going to happen #im a creator that loves collaboration and thinks art should be free to enjoy #if this person approached and asked if they could sell my work i wouldn't give a fuck personally provided they give me credit and or a link #back to my stuff hell if people want to print my work if they cant afford it go for it #but fuck dude you don't just claim you did all that work as if it was yours #this was disheartening news #and several other local artists found out too at this venue that their work had been turned into stickers that vendors bought off amazon #ill hop off the soap box in a minute #still scrambling to get kofi stuff set and donation links prepared #thanks for your patience everyone #im getting out of a depressive funk too with what happened at my work place #and im gonna be speaking with a legal aid rep next week #magenta is my safe word for venting

[clits-and-clips]

Moving back in with my parents has actually been a wake up call. They are not travelling well at all which I knew, but had no idea of how bad it really is. Keep your family close and for fuck sake check up on your friends PLEASE

#txt #horrible to hear the things my dad is thinking #hes always suffered with depression but jesus christ man #im like #so fucking scared #he said having me here has been nice and #like seeing his little girl with a smile on her face is lifting his spirits #but i need to do something #i have to fix this #as much as im able #my parents are legit the best and i hate to see them suffer #fuck dude

[fellhellion]

the way Miguel conceptualises the alternate self and Gabriella is sooooooooo ahdhdjfj god he’s so mentally ill and emotionally isolated. like, he views himself and the other Miguel as functionally synonymous (“I found a universe where I was happy”) and thus sees Gabriella as essentially as much his own daughter as she was to the man she actually knew.

#miguel o'hara #miguel and spiderverse’s silence on our Miguel’s family life just leads me to think they’re either dead or the relationships he had w them #are so broken as to be unsalvageable #but man. MAN. he wanted that life so badly he considers himself to be synonymous with alt Miguel. And his attachment to Gabriella IS one #defined by him going that’s my daughter 🥺❤️ oh her dad is dead? I’m also her dad! and that life looks so happy and SHE is what makes it so #why can’t we both have that. #god. he needs therapy he needs ALL of the therapy and also like. a hug. dude. you’re so damn depressed my guy 😔 #im thinking spiderverse the narrative doesnt dig into the whole. you didnt RAISE this girl miguel thing ik you love her but you're not her #father thing because theres already sm going on in the narrative and its more streamlined to keep his conflict solely on the canon conflict #but in world id wager the reason other characters dont dig into that with him is because like. how do you even approach a conversation like #that. for all the messy and fucked up moral complications theres no doubt that miguel SINCERELY loved gabriella. and considering timeline #wise this all went down a few months ago and everyone has been busy mopping up anomalies. ofc no one wants to have this conversation if it #doesnt look like it needs to be had <- miguel just slowly losing his emotional gourd in the corner over just. ALL of this lmao #tunes talks spiderverse

[hilsoncrater]

criticizing fictional women's actions/roles can be tricky to navigate because like

on one hand i do not want to unintentionally open pandora's box to bad-faith misogynistic interpretations from sexist people who may read the analysis and view it as a reinforcement of their own extreme bias/hatred beliefs towards women

yet on the other hand, her character did do something worth criticism over and/or she is partly at fault for shifting another character's arc/the story arc into a negative turn, and to pretend like She Has Not Done Anything Wrong cages her into a glass box

#im just.... #its the ACTIONS and the ROLE she plays that is the critcism. not because she is a woman #and to limit her character by her sex and/or gender is fucking WHACK #to reduce it down to that is just...bizarre #like sorry dude sometimes!!! a mother plays a negative role in her son's life!! and partly contributes to his depression #and there's history tied into everything ofc. present day contexts #so when we critically examine a character no matter what we have a responsibility to acknowledge those real life factors #misogyny is so heavily interwoven in our patriarchial society #and so you always want to support and love and care for your women characters #but i feel like you can love a character and still analyze/be critical of her actions #or you can flat out dislike her! that's fine!! but there's a difference between dislike due to actions/role and dislike due to gender

[hello-is-anyone-there]

Me, with a bat, beating my seasonal depression back now that it's November

#the bat is not listening to car seat headrest #im so srs #Nov to March really fucking gets me dude it's annoying #dark academic #dark academia #darkest academia #seasonal depression

[russellius]

Why do you have to be so anti everyone? you have a really good blog but it's just not fun anymore

... what 🧍🏻‍♀️

#tf do you mean im anti everyone im literally doing nothing on here except posting about one guy? #like 😭 #what do you want from me #im depressed and i have a hyperfixation. the primary focus of this blog is to have an outlet for that. #if this is about me not posting certain drivers again - can we just move on. #nobody is forcing you to follow a blog you dont enjoy #if you dont get the content you want from here you are always free to seek it elsewhere #or you can post it yourself. #i have my interests and i will stick to them #and thats not me being 'anti everyone' lol like. i dont even fucking slander anyone 💀 #im just here posting 24/7 about one dude ffs. #let me be please :) #answered #(like. when did i ever post driver hate. how am i 'anti everyone'. half of the grid i havent even mentioned on here) #(man. yall make this site so much fun huh.) #((just. why am i expected to post content i dont like. or what is this about. i have been consinstently blogging the same way #for months and months.)) #(wait. did the toto slander upset you? bro come on now)

[iinryer]

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#said it in the tags of the marjan tk carlos doodle I posted but. feeling very unsure about how i will be engaging w ls moving forward #still very much support most of the cast and I do enjoy this silly show #but it’s difficult coming to terms w the fact that their golden boy is a nationalist and zionist #just so unbelievably disappointing and depressing to see #so unless some personal views make some drastic corrections sometime soon im going to be engaging differently than before #i don’t know what that looks like yet. bc i know there are people who still deserve the love #but it’s frustrating to see. i wish it wasn’t the case but if he wants to make this bed he can lay in it and deal w the concequences #i also apologize for wording this kind of vaguely I just don’t know how to be eloquent about it #but for clarity: im genuinely nauseated by the shit ronen has been posting #and I fucking hope he finds his sense but shit dude. #this isn’t about boohoo an actor I liked has bad views #it’s about having a moral fucking backbone and a shred of dignity and critical thought before spreading genocidal propaganda #to your massive audience #so #anyways #i felt like it was important to at least address my position bc silence is not an option with shit like this #and also it’s been making me feel physically unwell since I first saw it and i think I needed to get it off my chest lol #viva palestine. now and forever. no caveats. no ifs ands or buts #iinryer talk #also sorry for making this an all tags post but this isn’t up for discussion. so.

[todayisafridaynight]

once more thinking about The Morning Of New Years 2001 and its just now dawning on me that arakawa really chugged two bottles of booze and smoked A Fuck Bitch of ciggies Presumably before noon. like dire situation i know but god damn guy got a lot done in two hours

#snap chats #AND he's just chilling in the dark. ok not 'chilling' but yk what i mean #either he can really hold his liquor or bro picked up some .5% shit #now some might say 'snap it's two hours' and to that i say 'it's only been two hours' he just walkin off two bottles like theyre nothin #unless he is The Most Functional Drunk perceivable theeeeeen CHRIST #in all fairness he is only sitting so no fear of him tripping and banging his head into his desk but still #were you doin twenty-minute rule my dude... funny as hell consideration considering. The Fuck Bitch Of Ciggies #like i dont think health consciousness is on the table this morning.. #what time is it. at that point. i keep telling myself i'd try to hunt down the time in-game but i doubt i'd find anything #arakawa office so fucked for not having a clock on the wall like girl id go mad not knowing what time it is #can i get a timeline of events for what happened. jo calls -> presumably they talk about a plan -> drink time #i doubt arakawa would be lying about the time sawashiro got in contact with him.... unless he did.... lol... anyway.. #i just want a timeline of events like masato commits murder at midnight -> calls jo afterwards -> ??? #did my guy sleep on it.. did he think of a plan all night... #ok bye i cant be sittin on this all night i have a comic im lining. which is why i made this post LMAO #I REMINDED MYSELF OF ARAKAWA'S DEPRESSION BREAKFAST ok bye

[bitchybylershipper]

alexithymia by noahfinnce is so fucking real like mom and dad i am literally serving my symptoms to you on a fucking plate please diagnose me just notice me at least

#i had the worst summer of my life and then my mom read my journal which was basically my only outlet for all the thoughts and feelings #i was and wasnt having and how much i hated myself #and then when they got me a therapist they said they didnt notice anything was wrong with me they just thought i was tired #like dude. be so fucking for real. kids who are okay do not sleep for days #i was not lazy #i was very depressed #and they thought i was fine #my mom even was like “why didnt you tell us you were struggling youre supposed to tell us everything” #okay but you wouldnt have listened #when you forced me to come out to you you told me that im not actually a boy #you made me cry when you read my own extremely depressing journal entries to me and told me that i am not autistic #theres a reason i didnt fucking tell you anything #wow sorry about that rant in the tags #tw self hatred #tw depression #personal

[muskpunk]

when eating doesn't make brain stop being Bad: uh oh

#so defeating every time I run down the Body Needs And Coping Skills checklist and noooooothing fucking works ♥️ #I'm sick of fucking wallowing! can I please move on with my night! can I do or feel literally anything else! #I want to cave my own fucking skull in dude I'm not even sad anymore I'm just frustrated as fuck #and fed up with having to choose between being pissed off or too depressed to move #I need something to change SO SO desperately and I know that but I can't DO anything about it #I don't even feel like there's a point to saying any of this #I won't even remember in the morning probably. I hope I don't fucking wake up as myself #cause I fucking want out too #can't give a shit about any of this anymore. sorry for not breaking down quietly or whatever #it's in or out and in is 'not helping' so out it is #not that i can even do that with my whole chest lol. not that theres any relief in this but to wear myself out enough to maybe sleep #so someone else can deal with it in the morning #and delete this and go back to being so so quiet #like always. #but at least im calling it out for once lol #more than the rest of us ever fucking do.

[kitsuna21]

ALMOST DONE WITH ALL MY MISSING WORK LETS FUCKING GO RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#kit talks #DUDE SCHOOL HAD BEEN KICKING MY ASS FR #Like it was a mix of new meds/drama/depression/a fuckton of stuff #I almost got kicked out of mama mia but im hanging by a THREAD #I havent been able to most my TMP wips in my folders bc of it and now i have time to catch up i love them sm <333 #also also I got some a lot of art in my folders from just schoolwork i can post later #and guess what???? ya boy is finally getting a good microphone!!! Now I'll be able to apply for voice acting jobs once I set up my portfoli #god i feel great rn holy fucking shit im gonna CRASH tonight

[eosofspades]

okay so maybe it was just me being ahead of the curve or whatever but like. did anyone else have their ultimate misery / severe depression era during middle school instead of high school?

#mine #mental illness #it is FOUR AM i should NOT BE thinking about this but oh my god #i read something and i just realized that it wasnt just depression i had a full-fucking-blown psychological BREAK when i was 11 #and i need to be up in four hours but now im too pissed to sleep like oh my god i had a FULL PSYCHOLOGICAL BREAK and #STILL none of the adults in my life even noticed i was SAD?? FUCKING HELLO?????? #anyway rant in the tags but also im genuinely asking did this hit anyone else in middle school/ages 11-13 instead of high school #bc all the stuff i see is about how miserable and mentally ill kids in high school are and im absolutely not discounting that #but like. high school was SO MUCH BETTER for me it was fucking PARADISE compared to how deeply fucking hurting i was #throughout all of middle school. like i would relive all my high school years ten times over before i even ONCE had to feel how i felt #from the ages of 11 - 13. high school was FUN for me and i was still very mentally ill going into 9th grade!! #like. okay you know the adhd principle of executive dysfunction where the idea is that DOING the task is easier than STARTING the task #and the analogy that goes like. imagine you had to struggle for hours climbing up the gravel mountain to get to the construction site #so when you finally get there youre like oh thank fuck time to lay some bricks i could do this all DAY #and the guy who drove up the mountain to the work site is all angry and is like man stop bragging about how EASY laying bricks is for you #man its hard work!!!!! and youre like. not as hard as climbing up the damn gravel mountain dude #and whenever i hear people talking about how high school is the worst. i think of that. #yeah man high school is hard. not as hard as suffering through the crushing misery of being 11 though.