#im going to regret this arent i

[lesharl-eclair]

lets go 0/84 too late for regrets (tagged ficaday cause i dont want to clog my long rec posts)

#f1 #formula 1 #ficaday #sounds like some physicist. lol #im going to regret this arent i #f1 fic recs

[sh4tt3rg1rl]

50 notes and I'll draw this with sigil and sun

#im going to regret this #arent i #xeyasks

[ganondoodle]

im kinda glad i was a tiny child when windwaker came out and i only played it years later without having internet access for the longest time bc i would have NOT survived the hatred i know ww got when it first came out bc it wasnt what most people expected (ww is my fav zelda)

loving botw but not liking totk and seeing the vast majority praise the latter like its the holy grail while alot also discrediting and needlessly hating on botw for it is already making it hard to stay calm about :U

#ganondoodles talks #special interest go brrrr #sucks when you care so much about a piece of media thats out of your control and it does something you hate #i do not control the hyperfixation #it wouldnt be so bad if people wouldnt keep hating on botw just to praise totk more tbh #and before people say but arent YOU doing the same thing in reverse??? #welll ... its suppposedly a sequel yes? #direct sequels should build on the first title and totk does the opposite doesnt it? #again one of my biggest problems is that it was advertised and called a direct sequel qhen it really isnt #like at all #how some characters also made a weird turn in their personality it really does feel like it did a majoras mask thing without admitting to i #like majoras is GOOD #it was weird and kinda nonsensical but ultimately worked #can you imagine if totk just went with the whole other dimension thing properly and really went ham with it- #.... i am coming up with even more ideas for totk rewritten arent it.. #anyway i dont think im gonna get a collectors edition ever again given the risk of me not liking what its for #regret spending that kind of money on it after i calmed down my fears and in the end they turned out to be mostly right #;__;

[yourlocalwoodlandcreature]

OKAY OKAY HEAR ME OUT

HAVE YOU EVER SEEN A VERSION OF GENDERBENT CROWLEY OR AZIRAPHALE THAT WASNT HOT???? AM I GOING INSANE??

#crowley #aziraphale #aziracrow #gomens #crowley and aziraphale #genderbend #am i just gay?? #please i need to know im not just fucking weird #im going to regret saying this arent i?

[slushed-puppy]

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#love the wholesome perfect fantasies obviously #but um #does anyone wanna gang rape or something #do i not inspire violence and lust?? #im going to regret saying this arent i lmao

[hella1975]

what do you plan to do with your degree after uni?

FUCK NASTY!!!

#if i ever touch economics again it's a cry for help like i cannot stress enough how fucking pointless this degree is gonna be #okay deep breath im only being so negative bc im balls deep in exam season. it's a GOOD degree i DONT REGRET MY DEGREE #this will be EXCEPTIONALLY helpful when i go into the working world i am EMPLOYABLE bc of my DEGREE #like economics is a VERY versatile subject there arent many areas of work that econ doesnt apply to in some way #so i KNOW it's a really good degree to have and i can kinda do what i want afterwards #but oh my fucking god. jesus christ. bloody fucking hell #i do however know that in the immediate year after my degree im gonna move back home and waitress full time #bc i just need to like. take some time off education and recover LMAO and i want a space to just tick some boxes i never got round to #like learning how to drive and stuff. and living without having rent to pay in a place im very familiar with will be good #even if i do think it's gonna have it's own struggles. oh hometown blues we're really in it now #but yeah after that year im thinking about maybe doing a masters? but ill have to proper blag it bc you typically have to do #masters in subjects relevant to your degree and i dont want to go within a radiation exclusion zone of economics #so. there's that. do u think if i say please somewhere will let me do a classics masters be honest. if i say pretty please #ask #hella goes to uni

[lewishamil10n]

my brain is so full of fuck tonight

#sth sth feeling unfulfilled. i know its only middle of the night thoughts but ive been so low lately. im not where i wanted to be #and i regret my career choices n i regret not standing up for myself but also i dont blame myself bc younger me was v much a people pleaser #and i just didn't wanna upset n disappoint my parents in any way . they're so proud of me when they tell ppl what i do and on the inside #im just cringing bc there's no joy in it anymore n im not even 30 n wont be for a few yrs yet im not SUPPOSED to feel this way #my job situation isnt good n all i can do is hope n pray im able to go abroad because if i cant im literally afraid i will give up #n also i regret not standing up for myself to my mum n stopping sertraline . i wonder who i would be today if i had continued meds #n now there's a v good chance im gonna need more medications for what seems like undiagnosed n severe adhd #n i am just. so fucking burnt out n no one around me gets it !!! 'why arent u happy' im just not! im not! and idk what to do about it !!! #ugh sorry im just venting #tbd #remy.txt

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#if u r curious abt following the saga that is my life: #i did finally accept an official offer from a school this afternoon. which is a huge relief and really exciting #and for once i think i did something that will b good for me in mind and body lol bc i think i could b happy with any of the places i #applied to but this program is most geared to my interests and its in a place where i think i can have fun due to the accessibility #of nature and the mountains haha. like at rutgers i think i could have got a good education and had a lot of opportunities but i think it #would have crushed my soul a lil bc it would b more high pressure and in the city. ya kno? so i hopefully i dont regret the choice lol #i still have to wait on the offical acceptance stuff but now at least i can allow myself to get excited abt the potential project and start #researching. which i mean ill have 5yrs of a phd for that but idk im excited and my life feels so empty and meaningless rn ive gotta take #the excitement where i can haha #anyway housing is gonna b a bitch bc there arent a lot of places available in grad student price ranges in the city to the point where they #said so in the official offer rip. and i have to decide when im leaving the southwest bc i could stay til August or leave in july and take #like a whole almost 2 months to just not b doing anything for a sec. and my dad was like !!! u could go to the crazy state parks #or drive out to the pacific northwest! and that would b amazing but also that sounds so scary to do on my own lol #like i dont wanna b missing and murdered as a youngish non guy traveling alone #but i could do it if i tried im sure. anyway i just wanted to let yall kno #bc im so doom and gloom on here all the time but a transition period is looming so im only stuck here for a few more months #and hopefully itll b a page turn into a happier place haha #watch out yellowstone cyanobacteria. im coming for u >:-] #knock on wood. ya kno. just in case #hhhh at least i can breathe a lil better now i have a direction #unrelated

[cleaduvalls]

why is the saw poster a severed hand. he cut off his foot

#saw #im going to regret tagging this arent i

[networkunsupported]

i have an idea but it involves me having to create something and then forget about it for the next three years or so until enough time has passed that a thin film of irony and disconnect has been created between the current (that is to say, future) me and the product of my labour

so hopefully therein i shall feel comfortable enough to bare that particular part of my creative soul to the world. alas, it requires creating something. now. that is the hard part, isnt it

#its real toby whining about wanting to make a podcast again hours #ugh #you know what im just going to bed i cant be doing with this rn damn you spirits of inspiration its beddy byes time #im gonna regret this when i wake up tomorrow arent i #x') if only i could voice things. and have a mic. and not be british #tho this does remind me to listen to cicadas podcast sometime :eye:

[starseers]

I'll be honest, I hate the attention DID gets.

This whole acceptance culture thing doesn't help anything, it just makes things more appealing to those who don't deal with it and don't understand it. I prefer when the worst you'd get was "oh, so like split?" Or "I wish I had friends in my head". You were more so an outcast back then, not some fucking idol or superhuman.

I don't know about you, but I'd rather not have my disorder be put on a pedestal for millions to see, to be cooed at for being so "cute", because it's not cute at all. Or be picked apart because you aren't a carbon copy of someone else with this disorder, because who would have know that a disorder developed from specific situations would look different between other individuals, individuals whose experiences vary widely? Even better, be picked on because you aren't a textbook example.

I don't think it should be widespread knowledge, just that it should be approached with basic human decency (unless you're a doctor who's trying to help a patient). Having resources for loved ones of those with DID or spaces for systems to freely talk should be more important than scrambling to "educate" or make the entire population "accept" it. We aren't being discriminated against like the rainbow umbrella's (not that we aren't at all, but it's extremely different and can't be handled the same way), we don't need some rip off pride month for (how many times do I say this before I become desensitized too?) a trauma disorder. Yes, it's life long, yes, we shouldn't be ashamed or forced to hide, but we shouldn't be romanticized.

It honestly should be common sense, but please, don't talk about something you don't understand or don't live with. That isn't your place to talk, and I mean that for everything, because this is a huge issue all over the internet. Raise others voices up.

#guess who watched those fake disorder cringe youtube videos again? #yeahhhh #anyways i feel like fucking shit 🤠 #but go ahead you rad inclus come give me even more shit #just laying out my thoughts here #🛰️✶.*̥˚ #🦊✶.*̥˚ #did #dissociative identity disorder #did system #traumagenic system #endos dni #tulpas dni #ohohoho im gonna regret posting this arent i 😩

[aleclightofmylifewoodbane]

not to get into like ed discourse or whatever on here but i hate ed twt with a passion and if ur one of those people that calls sick people “wannarexics” or whatever just fucking block me

#i regret going on there every time i do because people are legitimately horrible #i want there to be good proana spaces that arent as downright horrible as edtwt is #i also dont they should be public like twt is go to a forum !! #proana #dont bother talking to me just block me #because i dont want to talk to you #i keep it off tumblr and will continue to do so but im ana and im absolutely not tolerant of that behavior

[this-doesnt-endd]

I feel like my crown just shifted up oh my god

#i have a cleaning thursday before work so like i can tell someone #but also why did i do that i schedualed it super early like im already regreting it #considering itll be the day after valentines which means my shift ends at 9/9:30 #and ill have to be there at my dentist by 7:30am #its whatever i just need to finish my dental work at the office then get my wisdom tooh pulled and ill be done w my teeth health wise #and then its onto the allergy shots which reminds me i have to reschedual my appt w my ent hoepfully its not anything too crazy far out #but i wanna talk w him and be like hey these shits are expensive what are my options or do u wanna be a homie and update my diagnosis #so they can get covered by my insurance cause i think if i can breath at like even 80% capacity my life would immensly change #and i was reading abt how like major chronic allergies lead to inflamation and my drs were concered abt that n i know i need to lose weight #but not being able to breath thru my nose hinders that to a degree #but like severe allergies are horrible for inflamation and like fucks up ur body and its like no wonder i feel horrible all the time #and itll prolly massively improve my sleep which also helps you #and i gotta go see my thyroid dr whos on the opposite end of town and wont answer the fucking phone to schedule and appt #cause i have to do that to renew my prescription and frankly i wish my primary dr could take care of that or get a new thyroid dr in general #but shes on maternity leave so ill have to wait for that #my dentist is also on maternity leave so ill have to see a diff one #i also ghosted my cardiologist but he literally called and was like ur fine the tests we ran showed ur in good health #but u should be more in shape and i didnt want another lecure abt being fat so i didnt go but i prolly should tho my results #prolly arent relavent anymore #and ive attemped ive done my bike workout a bit but its also been winter and i cannot bring myself to do anything besides rot in bed #most of the time and if i am going out its like to the movies or events where i just stand around and talk to people very low effort #i also have to email that lady abt my cetificate i still havent gotten abd the haircut place who charved me twice and write that damn review #that ive forgotten so many times

[soldier-poet-king]

Started my long weekend off by royally pissing off my mother and now I have to just. Deal with it ig. 🙃🙃🙃🙃

#it wasnt even my FAULT #i came home 30 min later than i said and forgot to text bc i was v tired #Im tWENTY SIX #but oh no my YOUNGER brothers can come and go as they please #i understand she has undiagnosed untreated anxiety #but like hot DAMN #im going to shower and hide in my room and cry #this is just the last straw on what was already a difficult day emotionally #(i read a bad mean callous Catholic article and i regret it #ppl are so mean in the name of truth and im upset #and also im not even convinced theyre RIGHT even if theyre technically doctrinally correct and im flirting with heresy #orthopraxis vs orthodoxy #and the spirit vs the letter of the law. etc etc etc #THE GYM DIDNT HELP IM SHOWERING. MAKING AN ILL ADVISED COFFEE. AND PLAYING PFKM #the divine is unknowable can we all jsut stop being mean. like. why is this so fuckin hard to be kind #im too interested in radical mercy and universalism for this. in my secret heart of hearts #YALL ARENT RIGHT YOURE JUST MEAN

[toytulini]

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#toy txt post #i guess i just need to find a different job since this one seems to be. not great for me #but i also like. dont know what wont be bad for me. like sorry i just dont think there are jobs that are accessible to me that arent going #to feel Like This #at least in some way. and this one has good insurance and shit. and if i can get my shit together it has fucking. paid community service #time that i could theoretically use to like. volunteer at the aquarium or smth and have a day off for it and get paid by my job #which could be a foot in the door to a career that i am interested in but im just fucking. stuck and fatigued and in pain and wallowing and #have no fucking energy and i cant do anything and im fucking nocturnal and i joke about it and i was fine with it but i hate it i hate #not seeing the fucking sun and i miss my old job which is INSANE but i know what i miss about that job was #that it was part time. and i regret not doing more with that #but im also allergic to normal hours i guess i dont fucking know #i know part of it is prolly just feeling profoundly out if control of my life so i just stay up bc at least thats quiet time for me #w no expectations but thats not even tru bc i shoukd be at least doing my fucking laundry or smth cos it would make sense #and the fucking answer to so many of my issues rn is like just do that then or just stop doing that then but i cant i dont know why im just #like this ive always been like this stupid useless cant fucking do anything cant fix my shit just fucking wallowing and angry and doing #nothing and its just gotten worse cos now i have fucking chronic pain and fatigue and now i REALLY do FUCKALL #im depressdd and anxious and in pain i should get a therapist but thats hard and i dont fucking trust ppl #i should move out and maybe that would help bc i wouldnt feel like i have to wear a mask around my own house but im barely functioning #as is w a lot of support from my mom i cant fucking live on my own #not to mention the whole country being so fucking. Bad rn. ive done nothing all day not even resting #and tomorrow ill wake up too late and be in a rush and in pain and tired and just #i dont fucking know #im so miserable and lately so many topics can just send my stupid little brain just Spiralling but i dont want to say that i dont want ppl #to feel weird for talking about fucking college. i dont want to sit here being so bitter that something in my brain broke about school #im happy for ppl who can do their fucking college shit i just. smth wrong in my brain and i cant dwell on it and i try not to be too #outwardly negative about it cos i dont want ppl to feel like they cant talk to me about it or smth idk #rambling and venting and im gonna hit tag limit lmao for sure #been having the same goddamn problems nonstop for my whole life and its just that i cant fucking do anything #i have too much shit i should rid of #whatever

[flyingspicerack]

There's a hotel nearby if you're interested~ Aaaand if not, let me show you how a pachinko master scores a jackpot.

No, no hotels, i uh... I dont like you like that *looks away* id... Watch you play pachinko though... Ive never played. You could... Teach me?

#spice.ososan #spice.ask #im... going to regret this arent i