#im gonna make a second one asking who everyone's Spider-Man is based on the big one's we've gotten

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sickness and health- even before the big day

so like the ending is trash because i didnt know how to end it and i didnt wanna make it into a series but hope you enjoy!!!! this is doctor!tom!!! so im warning yall that this is all about injury and its loosly based off greys anatomy so if you cant watch that then you probably shouldnt read this but anyways- enjoy

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Tom’s days were long, they went from early mornings until late into the night, when the sun was no longer apart of the equation. Usually, the young doctor’s life was hectic and he could be found running around like a chicken with its head cut off, but today was different. 

Today, Tom found himself sitting back and chilling (for the lack of a better word) with his mates. He knew the unspoken rule of never saying that it was quiet because then all hell would break loose, and to be completely candid, he was perfectly fine with how his day was going, especially for the fact that in 10 short minutes he would be walking outside to join his fiancee. The two hadn’t had a date night in awhile, due to Tom’s crazy schedule, and they were more than happy to take his free night and spend some time together. 

Breaking him from his thoughts, Tom’s buddy, Harrison spoke up, “Hey mate, what’s Y/N got planned for you tonight?”

Tom felt his thin lips stretch into a wide smile, showing off his teeth. “Not sure. She did say something about going to buy groceries for my favorite. We’ll probably just have a night in, which we both are-”

The curly headed boy was cut off when a shout was heard through the small ER. Both Tom’s and Haz’s heads snapped to the man running in. He was covered in blood and he looked beyond scared, he was carrying an almost unconscious girl. And from where Tom and his mate were standing, they couldn’t tell that it was his beloved Y/N. 

“Please, someone help!” His shouts of panic put the two boys into action, Tom sprinting to the man and woman and Harrison running to grab a gurney. Tom had snatched a pair of blue gloves off the counter as he ran over and was now snapping them onto his hands. “Okay sir, everything is going to be alright. Can you tell me what happened?” 

Harrison was now back with the gurney and Tom was taking the injured woman from the man’s arms, still looking at the stranger, he asked again, happy that he answered. 

“I-I don’t know. Some guy-! Think it was a robbery! She wouldn’t give ‘im anything, so he just started beatin’ her and then took off with her wallet.” Tom nodded along to his story, ready to ask the man if he was hurt himself but then his friend called his name, fearfully. 

Turning around, the handsome doctor lost his breath. He felt like he had been punched in the chest. Now that her hair was moved from her face and she wasn’t hunched over in a stranger’s arms, he was able to see who the young girl was- his girl. 

She was staring up at Harrison with wide eyes, she hadn’t seemed to recognize where she was or who she was looking around for someone, probably Tom, and was crying out. It looked like she was having trouble opening her mouth and Tom felt his heart break into two. And with a heavy heart, he yelled out, “We need some help over here, now!!”

Getting Y/N onto the backboard was easy, so was getting the neck brace on her. The hard part was keeping her still- that and keeping Tom at arms length. All of the doctors, even though they were friends, were continuously yelling at him to stay back. He refused, that was his girl, he wasn’t going to just not help her. She would move mountains if she could help him the same way that he was helping her. 

Everyone was talking at once and Tom felt like his brain and throat were being squeezed in a vice. He heard someone say, “Send blood for a crossmatch.” Haz, maybe?

He heard another person say, “Belly is soft!”

And another, “Bruising on the left chest.” Tom was breathing heavily as he watched his girl frantically look around the room. She was still crying, her mouth still clenched shut. “Pulse is down to 88, I’ve got a line going in now.” 

Tom heard the doctor curse loudly, “Her vein is collapsed. I can’t get it in.”

Another doctor answered, “Try a central line.” The doctors working on his pretty girl were talking nonstop and listing off her injuries and with every word, Tom felt his heart break a little more. Leaning over his girl, but staying out of the way of the working doctors, he said, “You’re gonna be just fine. You’re gonna be fine, alright?” 

More doctors rushed in, each working on their part of the body, and he blocked out all the things they were saying. Tom was grateful that he worked at such a good hospital, that his girl had the best team. The vice around his throat clamped shut when they decided to move Y/N. Her screams were loud and full of obvious pain as they worked on her- moving the poor girl to her side, putting in tubes, cleaning up her wounds, setting bones. With every single thing they did, Tom felt like his heart was going through a meat blender. He couldn’t stand it. 

One of the doctors- a neurosurgeon- asked, “Y/N, honey, I’m gonna need you to move your fingers for me. Can you do that?” When nothing happened, the room seemed to stop, and she asked again, “or- or your toes.” Nothing. It was like she hadn’t even heard the critical request. Tom felt his heart stop when the thought crossed his mind- she couldn’t hear. 

She couldn’t hear anything. 

The brain know-it-all stated this time- no question in her voice. She was demanding. “Come on. Just come on. Wiggle something.” Tom shook his head as he lifted up a heavy hand and snapped next to her ear, and then reached across and did the same to the other. And when nothing happened, when she didn’t respond and just kept on groaning in pain, he said, “Guys.”

When none of the doctors stopped to listen, he said, louder this time, “Guys, I don’t think she can hear us!”

“What?”

“What? Are you sure?” All of the doctors paused their work for a fraction of a second. The heavy hearted boy grabbed a light and started to look in her ears, calling out her name. He was hoping he was wrong, but unfortunately, he was right. There was obvious damage to her eardrums. “She can’t hear anything we’re saying.”

Then everything took a turn for the worst and Tom felt like he was going to throw up. Hsi heart was in his stomach and he was on the verge of a panic attack. The machines that were hooked up to his pretty lady started beeping in wild succession. A doctor concluded, “We are gonna have to intubate.”

Another well trusted man said, “her jaw is locked. There’s no way!”

The head of plastics said, “If I can reduce the swelling, you can get one in.” he paused and looked at Tom, then back to the injured friend, “I’m gonna have to pop her jaw.”

Tom was in hysterics. “No way!”

“I have to! It’s gonna hurt like hell, but I’m sorry, I have to.” And before he knew what was happening, he was being held back as he watched in pure agony. He watched as the doctor placed his thumbs in her mouth as best he could and as Tom fought against his friend that held him to the wall he shut his eyes, not wanting to see her in any more pain. Perhaps that was worse, though, because he could still hear the loud yell of pain that his pretty girl let out and Tom felt nothing but anger. Anger because his girl was hurt and anger because he couldn’t do anything to help her. He was just beyond angry. 

It was only hours later when Tom let himself be in the same room as her. When he finally stepped foot in her private suite he forgot how to breathe again. She looked horrible. She had bruising around her eye, it turning shades of purple and yellow. Her jaw was wired shut and she had a feeding tube going up her nose as well as a bandage wrapped around her whole head. Tom felt his heart drop to his stomach, he spoke, eyes down, “Hey, love.”

With no answer, he looked up to find Y/N looking at him with curious eyes. “Can you hear me?” She stared still, so he sighed and pointed to his ear and she shook her head. The lovesick boy felt his heart drop even further, if that was even possible. Realistically, he knew her hearing would come back and that the bruising would fade and that she would get better, but he was still feeling like he would always remember the feeling of seeing her so hurt. So broken. So defeat. 

He couldn’t bear it. He wouldn’t. So for now he pulled over a chair and held her hand, comforting her without words, comforting her with all his love. Because that was his job as her future husband.

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MCU & SPIDERMAN: FAR FROM HOME SPOILERY REVIEW

This is my first, initial “review” of the latest MCU movie - “Spiderman. Far from Home” 

SPOILERS, BEWARE! for “SPIDERMAN: FAR FROM HOME”

“Everywhere I go/look, I see his face/I am reminded of Tony”

The memorial video made by Peter’s HS friends. The comic cans, the online/getty pics used, the editing, the music choice “Dolly Parton’s “I will always love you” … from “The Bodyguard” by Whitney Houston” & images of Tony, Steve, Nat, Vision… Tony…

all the Ironman drawings/art on the classroom wall in Peters school (as he & Ned talk about the vacation plan)

the Ironman mural on the building wall… when Peter escapes to the roof… from the “press conference”

the film/video choices on the plane from Americas to Europe  (next to: “Nova: Einstein Rosen Bridges” &  “The Snap,” & “Finding Wakanda,” & “Hunting Hydra.”) is a 114 minute long Tony/Ironman docu/film… story

I am pretty sure there are also some pictures/posters/images on wall/screen at the airport, when they arrive in Europe... but I need to go watch it again (3rd time) to be sure. I think I saw it, but am not certain....

The murals (with flowers & lit candles) in Europe (Prague)…

Tony’s tech… everywhere

The EDITH integrated in Tony’s glasses...that are now Peter’s. He’s the next Tony Stark. He is the only one who can be trusted with the power - everyone else would just use it for their own good. The Tony glasses being basically a supporting character in the film... central in many scenes. 

Tony’s friends & “enemies” (people, who remember/mourn him & people, who are jealous of him)

Things I noticed/The little things:  

The BLIP “in memoriam” video edit made by Peter’s HS kids: The font was comic sans! The song choice was “I will always love you” by Whitney Houston from the film “The Bodyguard” (original: Dolly Parton), and the “in memoriam” part included images of Tony Stark... twice (first & last), Nat, Steve, VISION...and also others.... And biggest question here is... does this mean that Cap is considered dead? Does this mean his time travel shenanigans lead to him/the team listing him as one of the casualties... to not reveal the details of what really happened & to keep the time travel & other things... a secret? 

BOH! MJs new favorite word. I loved how Peter used it back at MJ... when he doesn’t want to reveal what’s in the bag/box. 

That “cat” in that one scene kinda looked like GOOSE, but only  a little bit, so was it a random cat, or was it a “relative” of Goose? Maybe another flerken?

I absolutely loved how happy & excited Peter got when he was told that the multiverse is real, not just a theory (anymore). I’m kinda sad that it turned out to not be true... for now. (he’d love to learn about the multiverse, just like he’s now studying Thor, who was a myth before, in his physics class)

When Peter was betrayed by someone he trusted & had no one to turn to, who did he call...from Netherlands? Happy. He was the one person, who knew, knew him & could be trusted, and could help him. I’m glad he had that option...someone to turn to. 

That tulip field in Netherlands was beautiful and all, but I was kinda sad to see that plane land there... and then hover above it..for a while... 

Speaking of the plane: The Avengers Tower was sold & is now being re-built by someone else, The Avengers Headquarters was destroyed in Endgame & since Tony is gone (and everyone else ran  away/went to hiding), I am not sure it’ll be re-built (we saw that the clan-up after the battle was happening... in the background...during the Endgame end scene where they set up the time travel platform by the lake). And now the airplane was destroyed in FFH. So lots of Tony’s tech (suit making machines & other tech) is destroyed now. And even though  the introduction of EDITH suggests that he had many other labs & tech set up, “secretly” everywhere... still... it keeps getting destroyed. and since he’s not here to create anything new, all his work will soon be destroyed/gone if this keeps happening. 

Peter stripped not once...but twice...in front of someone... a girl: first the SHIELD European agent, who made him the new (black) secret european “Night Monkey” suit (pants) & later in front of the girl he really likes... MJ (shirt). 

Mysterio’s illusions: all those scenes were visually amazing/brilliant! The Prague fire monster, the bar scene illusions after Peter leaves - the twist!, the German “safe house” illusions  that ended with the train & then the London Tower bridge illusions. 

The bar scene “turn of events” twist moment was brilliantly scary: it showed just how “crazy” Mysterio was. That, together with the “illusion rehearsal” scene, when he learns about the missing projector...and threatens his whole team... that was same level brilliantly scary. 

“Appearances can be deceiving”  hahaha Oh, how it hinted at the end credits scene reveal. It was not just Happy trying to tells “Fury” about Mysterio and his deception, but... also how Fury & Maria Hill are actually... skrulls, who work for Fury, while he (and Hill?) are elsewhere, working on other projects. 

Skrull sleeper cells... mentioned by “Fury”... a reference to Captain Marvel & comics.... 

Happy throwing a shield...at the drone... His cap moment. And his comment about how heavy it is/hard it is, and he doesn’t know how Cap does it hahaha

Michelle and the medieval weapon..that she borrows from the museum vault... 

There are many artifacts in the Tower of London museum vault - the crown jewels, all kinds of medieval tools & weapons, and also... “IRON MAN” - medieval iron knight armor!

Peter taking a selfie as he swings in NYC...in the end. He’s swinging & reading texts/texting & taking selfies... 

The text/line on the fence on the street/in front of “construction site”.... when Peter/Spiderman is swinging to MJ in the end scene..on NYC streets... (Madison Square Garden) say:   “We’re excited  to show you what comes next. And there are numbers 1, 2, 3 & a ? (instead of number 4) under the text. This has many meanings: a) the people in the MCU/FFH universe  are excited to show the citizens what they’re building there. b) the MCU creators are excited to show/tell us/viewers/fans what’s to come next...both in Spiderman films & MCU in general (Phase 4). c) Also..according to fans, who know more, it’s also a reference to the “Fantastic 4″.  

The initials B.F.P. on the suitcase he takes to Europe aka the suitcase belonged to Peters uncle Ben (May’s husband). Too bad it, too,  along many other things & places...got destroyed..in this film. 

LOL at everyone knocking on Peter & Ned’s rooms door at the hotel theyäre staying in in Venice. Interrupting “Fury” (and Peter) & Fury’s reaction... (he is so done with being interrupted...every 5 seconds)

All the “upgrades” to the class trip in Europe & all the changes in itinerary... #IfTheyOnlyKnewWhyThePlansWeereChanged

The “Peter tingle” (aka The Spidey Sense) 

“What happens in London/Europe, stays in London/Europe?” Peter, who is/has been keen to keep his identity a secret, behaved strangely & boldly in Europe & especially at the end of the big “battle” in London...where he just stands on the bridge...without his mask & talks to & kisses MJ. In the middle of the bridge, at the center of big event... Are there no video/traffic 8etc) cams in Europe/LOndon in 2023/2024 MCu? Are there no cameras/smartphones that people use to take pics & vids of every big event they see... in 2023/2024 MCU? I found that surprising... based on all the attempts he made until now & in this film..to keep his identity a secret. 

Pepper Potts signing the big (in both size & sum) check from Stark Fund to May’s charity event. But not being able to attend the event herself. Most likely cause the actress is done with MCU, but... otherwise...interesting... to mention her like that & specify that she was unable to attend in person...

How many “vacations” has Fury taken over the MCU history? While I mostly think that this was the first... after Fury & CM were “reunited” during the Endgame events (BLIP) & the plan was formed after Tony was gone (they were both at his memorial service) & the returned Fury who had no more team on this planet, was kinda lost...) But I also kinda think he might’ve used the skrulls before to take vacations. I am pretty certain that we saw the real Fury in Captain Marvel, in Iron Man films...  and I am also pretty certain that he was himself in Infinity War/Endgame...because as he’s “dying” aka turning into dust he doesn’t turn into skrull.Though it is possible that the dusting doesn't count & the skull face is only revealed if a character actually dies. (this is why we can be certain Tony was Tony & Nat was Nat in Endgame) 

ETA

What I LOVED the most 

My absolute favourite scene(s) is the Peter & Happy at the Holland/Netherland  tulip field & on the plane, hovering above the tulip field scene(s) -  their “talk” as Happy patched up Peter’s wounds. Talking about being a superhero and making mistakes, about Tony...and more... 

That scene...to me...sums up...hopefully... what’s to come. It confirms what I thought would be the case. Tony was/is Iron Man and no one can & should replace him as Iron Man. So everyone asking Peter if he’s gonna be the next IM... everyone looking for the next mightiest protector of the earth... and looking at SM...cause everyone else seems to have disappeared... are just putting too much pressure on him. He’s not the next Iron Man. He is Peter. He is Spider Man. (though after that end twist... who knows... maybe he will put on an iron suit for a while...since he can’t be the unknown neighborhood hero anymore...now that everyone knows...) But to me it summed up peters journey in this film & sets up what’s to come. He needed some guidance & Happy provided it... he needed to realize that he’s he’s own person & his own superhero & he’s not there to replace Tony/IM or any other superhero

But yeah... I loved how Happy said it. When others pressured him & manipulated with him (Beck purposely making him feel inadequate by saying things like “if you would've done better, he might’ve not died”), the now Pilot was his best friend & the one person he could really talk superhero things with...the one person, who IMO helped him the most with his grief over Tony & all the feelings he had regarding that & the pressure he felt to be his successor. 

Peter is likely the person, who will take over Tony’s role..somewhat...with the tech and such, but he is Peter, not Tony. 

And the end scene in Endgame with Happy & Morgan..talking about cheeseburgers & now this scene in FFH with Happy & Peter talking superheroes, responsibility, Tony...and more... tells me that Happy is now the mentor-uncle to these kids now...kinda. 

...and when Peter, excitedly, yells “I love Led Zeppelin” when the iconic IM song “Back in Black” by AC/DC starts to play... haha... awesome

What I hoped would’ve been (will be explored in future films) explored/shown in more detail: 

THE BLIP & how it affected regular people. We only saw the comial bits/parts - the marching band of Peter’s school disappearing & reappearing & Aunt May reappearing in her apartment..that was no longer hers...as someone else had moved in (a family). When in reality... this film confirms my “theory/suspicion” that Avengers 3 & Avengers 4 - the Thanos snap & the Hulk (un)snap both created chaos everywhere. Both emotional, and legal..and other issues. 

The fact that the world is not in chaos... makes no sense. But then again... since NYC & several other places on Earth being battlefields during the Avengers vs Bad guys/aliens battles...in the past films...and being re-built really fast & people seemingly not panicking or having PTSD after the events... is a thing... then I guess only the main characters will remember & suffer after living through such events...everyone else seems to go on with their normal lives in a week or so... 

It did bother me a bit (even though I know this is a blockbuster film..and those don’t deal with such things...) that the very real repercussions of the snap & re-snap were not really shown or told. Just the funny Blip-video. And then the little bit we saw from the Aunt May held charity event for the homeless. That was the only real hint about the seriousness of those events in the fictional universe (even though she also made a joke about it on stage...but the cause itself is serious)

Things that bothered me

How no one seems to do any background checks in this universe. How no one seems to use any security measures. Like... no one checking up on Mysterio’s backstory (and yes, I know...his team helped create such amazing backstory & provided such great “proof”...that it fooled even “Fury” & SHIELD -- probably would not have fooled the real man, but... that’s the point...) but still... 

Also... Tony’s glasses not having any other safety measures & it being so easy to transfer over the power to someone else. And...despite Peter being vulnerable & trusting what others tell him (he probably thought Fury had checked up on Beck, but still... how & why did EDITH/the glasses not “scan” Beck...and reveal he’s a fraud? I know... that the only time when he’s looking at the illusionist when wearing the glasses is in the bar scene & they seem to be not “on”... still... why is the tech not scanning everything nonetheless? Though yeah... I know that the idea is that because of the characters emotional state they are vulnerable & easy to manipulate, and hence not thinking of checking “twice”...

MCU using the same backstory for yet another villain. Thats old. It’s done. Time to move on. I'm talking about Mysterio & how his backstory is that because he feels personally attacked by Tony Stark then that’s a reason (which justifies..in his mind, when it does not...and has not for any other past MCU villain, who thinks the same twisted way) his actions - destroying historical sights/cities & leaving behind casualties... not caring if there are innocent bystanders getting hurt. I will allow it this time, because Tony was in the center of this film, but this had to be the last time MCU uses the same “Tony hate” as the villains motivator. Also... I don’t trust Beck’s version of the story, so I would not be sure if he’s telling it as it was. He might be, but he might be not. (maybe he did come up with the idea, but perhaps his work contact stated that all creations during working for SI belong to the company, so he has no right to claim the tech as his own..no matter how much he regrets it after. Or perhaps he did (co)create it, but since his idea was weapons-based (destruction) & SI didn’t do weapons anymore, the tech was redesigned by Tony. But until MCU makes a stronger case... I’m not gonna blame Tony for “stealing” becks tech & claiming it as his ow. Also because I do not think Tony ever claimed in past films that he made the tech. He says it cost him a certain sum...though... So it’s even possible he “bought” the idea from Beck...and turned the weapon into therapy sessions... But even if mr. Beck was telling the whole truth and he was the sole creator of the tech & Tony “stole” it... none of it justifies his actions of purposely hurting innocent bystanders & destroying places. ) 

And I cannot believe how anyone can see Mysterio as the good guy, or sympathetic to Peter.  I might be wrong, but IMO all his “friendliness” in the beginning was a trick... part of the plan to earn Peter’s trust. It was part of the “illusion”, so even though I appreciate his comment “never apologize for being the smartest one in the room”, I don’t see it as anything other than fakeness. And I know I might be wrong & he might’ve really liked the kid & try to be friendly & appreciate him... up until “his team messed up & he had no other option than to get rid of all the loose threads”) 

Things I did not see coming: 

The train! I mean... at first I did not suspect that it was actually Beck, not Fury in Germany, but I became suspicious before it was revealed. And then I suspected that the illusion was not over yet, but... what I did not see coming was that train...moment. 

Also...during the London Tower bridge scene... I had a hunch that he’s pulling a double again..and the dying Mysterio on the ground was fake, but I did not see it coming that in reality he was standing right next to spidey, while pointing a gun at the kid. I had thought he was “hiding” somewhere instead. So that kinda surprised me...

What surprised/confused me

What surprised me a bit was seeing THAT character (William) from IM1 being on Team Mysterio. Yes, he was one of Tony Stark’s Stark Industries previous employees, but  it confused me a bit that he blames Tony, when he should've seen Obadiah Stane (who yelled at him for not being Tony Stark & not being able to create a miniature arc reactor, when Tony could do it in cave...with no high tech..using just a box of scraps) as the one to blame -- his anger should’ve been directed at (based on what has been shown on screen so far) at the man who yelled at him in IM1. 

But I guess there’s either a bigger story there after that that the MCU writers/directors decided to not reveal just yet (as we saw him take that thumbdrive after the download was completed at the end of FFH) or Mysterio simply was able to manipulate people so well & rallied them against their former boss, making everyone see him as the bad guy & the source of all their problems. 

THEORIES: 

WHAT IF... the NYC “fake news broadcast” was an illusion created by Mysterio/histeam? This would make it much easier for Marvel to have several other movies released in the next few years...before the next Spiderman & go easier on Spiderman? This way we would not miss a lot of time & there’d be no need to clear his name. they could just have the movie take place right after Far from Home (and prior to the coming movies events)...or they could start with a flashback to the end of this film & the  fade to “2 years later” or something. The last bit is also how they can still release the next Spidery film in a few years, while having several otehr films events happen in between... use a time jump early in the film... after a “flashback”...to the time Peter was considered a villain

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[julianmakesmydickhard]

uncomfortably deep and personal questions

questions here

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01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

thankfully, me and my mom are super close.... we don’t talk about my dad tho

02: Who’s the last person you said “i love you” too?

man, i tell everyone that i love them. i truly love everyone that shows even the slightest bit of kindness towards me

03: Do you regret anything?

yes,

04: Are you insecure?

oh yea. part of it is my introverted, soft spoken personality, and part of it is just how negatively i see myself oop

05: What is your relationship status?

single, unfortunately lol

06: How do you want to die?

painlessly. the pain that comes with death is what scares me the most i think

07: When did you last eat?

lunch!! i had a bomb ass colombian dish,, man do my people know how cook good food

08: Played any sports?

does show choir count?? aggressive dancing with aggressive singing??

09: Do you bite your nails?

nope

10: When was your last physical fight?

i know i say that i want to slap people sometimes, but i’ve never actually done it

11: Do you like someone?

y’all, im always attracted to someone sksksk

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

yup

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

yes, but we don’t talk about him

14: Do you miss someone?

oh god yes...

15: Have any pets?

yes!! i have one lil doggie

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

i’m very tired lol. it’s like 11pm which is v late for me since i have 7am classes

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

nope, bathrooms are gross

18: Are you scared of spiders?

yes, have you seen them??

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

yes, imagine all the things you could change or prevent

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

honestly, it’s been a while, i don’t really remember

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

i’m gonna go see a play that one of my friends is starring in on saturday and then i’m gonna celebrate my birthday with my doggo on sunday

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

ahh, this is such a difficult question. i want to give my kids the childhood that i never got. but what happens if by some circumstance, i give them the childhood i had, and negatively impact their life through it?

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

i just have my ears pierced

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

english and art! math and science are my worst. i guess i function best when i’m able to use the creative and imaginative side of me whereas i fail when logic and reason come into play

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

yes yes yes and yes

26: What are you craving right now?

blueberries

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

no, never

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

yes

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

no. unless something changed in their heart and they, for some reason, felt bad for treating me so badly, and decided to weep, no

30: What’s irritating you right now?

so many things ahhh,, why do i have to be so introverted? why am i so deperate to find love, when it keeps biting me in the butt?.why can’t i make friends as easily as other people?

31: Does somebody love you?

honestly, i don’t think anyone does, maybe only my mother?

32: What is your favourite color?

auburn

33: Do you have trust issues?

oh god i wish i did. i wish i was able to keep people at a distance. i let people in and basically ask them to use my secrets, my insecurities, my whatever, to break me. and then the cycle goes on and on

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

i dreamt about me meeting billie eilish a couple of days ago. it was v nice

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

i don’t know lol, there’s not a lot of people around to see me cry i guess

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

yea, it’s not good i know

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

forgive

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

no, but it’s definitely not the worst, and i’m thankful for that

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

i don’t remember, but i do know that i was v late to the game

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

god no

51: Favourite food?

colombian food, thai food, japanese food

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

i want to believe this, but sometimes shitty things happen and i’m like wow, there’s literally no benefit or reason to why this happened except to make me feel like shit

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

kissed my doggo goodnight

54: Is cheating ever okay?

if you’re my friend, i’m just gonna say that even if you’ve cheated on someone before, i don’t see you as less of a person or a friend. people make mistakes, and it’s also part of who i am: someone who tried to look past the bad and see the good, ahhh i don’t know how to explain this the right way but i hope you understand my pov. anyways, i’ve been cheated on before and it sucked balls. so no, i don’t think it’s ever ok in a relationship. but i also don’t think that it’s something that should affect your friendship with someone. i think cheating is something that needs to be dealt with among the cheater and the cheated and shouldn’t bleed into your friendship with a random, uninvolved person. but you can totally disagree with me and that’s fine!! everyone is subject to their own opinion based on their own experiences and personalities etc.

55: Are you mean?

i don’t think so!! but then again, i can’t really be the judge of that lol. i try my hardest to be the friend that i’ve always wanted, if that makes sense. i try to be kind, and supportive, and positive, and there for them, etc.

56: How many people have you fist fought?

no one, ive never gotten into a physical fight

57: Do you believe in true love?

it’s not that i believe in true love, it’s that i hope and pray for it. i hope that one day i’ll find it

58: Favourite weather?

cold, cloudy, people walking around in big, fluffy jackets and scarves

59: Do you like the snow?

yes! i saw snow for the first time in my life a couple of weeks ago!

60: Do you wanna get married?

ahhhh,, my parents set a really bad example for good marriage. my parents’ marriage taught me that men can change over time. and that once they’re safe in the bounds of marriage, theyll stop their act, get tired of you, and act like a totally new person. and that... scares me. i don’t want a husband like my dad and i’m so afraid that the same situation will happen to me

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

yes, names like baby, sweetheart, love, honey etc. make my heart weak

62: What makes you happy?

real friends, tight hugs, platonic cuddling, romantic cuddling, acts of service, uplifting words, hand holding, forehead kisses, soft intimacy, need i go on?

63: Would you change your name?

i wold ditch my last name.. can you guess why? i’d love if my middle name became my last name, legally

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

romantically? yea

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

nothing, cuz that kind of stuff doesn’t happen to me

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

no. i try my hardest to only let my friends see the happy side of me. i don’t like burdening them with all the bad emotions i sometimes feel. my complete self would be if i shared ALL of my emotions, the bad as well as the good. but i think it’s better this way, they would most definitely get annoyed after a little bit of time

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

probably my friend tino

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

i don’t remember,, it’s been a long time since i’ve actually talks about truly deep subjects with someone personally,,

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

i want to believe it. i want to believe that i’ll one day find the person of my dreams. the person that fits so perfectly with me and is just so perfect ahhh

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

i don’t know, i’m selfish when it comes to dying. death scares me

#sfw #why do i love oversharing sjsjsjs

[legitmarvelshit]

The Girl On Fire (Avengers)

Warnings: Fluff, angst, Civil War fights, protective father figure

Requested: No

Word count: 5771

Plot: Y/N is Tony Starks daughter. In the time where the Avengers were against each other, she abandons her morals and takes the side of her fathers co worker and close friend Steve Rodgers/ Captain America. She shows a side of herself that she has never shown before.

Gif by: @shut-up-bitchbitchbitch

My dad is wrong about this. I know he is. He should have never signed that stupid paper. I was told to stay home while they all went to Germany to deal with their ‘interpersonal altercation.’ Little did my dad know, Cap recruited me to fight with him. I was also told to never use my abilities in fear that I might lose control and hurt someone. I’ve been practicing. My flying is smoother, my telekinesis is stronger than ever, fire is hotter, but I’m controlled. No one but my father has seen me on fire. Until today.

Me, Sam, Bucky, and Steve we’re meeting a woman that Cap knows for their armor. Sams wings, the shield. Cap got out to talk with her while me Sam and Buck waited in the tiny cramped car filled with large buff men and little old me. I was sitting in the back seat with Bucky. We all observed Cap sweet talking this woman.

“Can you move your seat up?” Bucky growled as he struggled to find a comfortable position.

“No.” Sam answered in a quick low voice. I snickered and immediately stopped my raising my hand to my face. Bucky looked at me quickly and then back towards Cap who was locked lips with this woman. Cap turns back to us and we all smile at him. He rolls his eyes and comes back to the car. He sits in the front seat and we drive to the meeting spot. I plug my headphones into my ears and drown out the sound of Sam and Bucky arguing again about something dumb. The drive wasn’t more than ten minutes away. We were meeting up with Wanda and Clint and someone named Scott Lang. Apparently he can shrink and it makes him an asset to the team. We pull into a parking space in our very suspiciously small vehicle. If anyone were to look into this tiny ass car and see these three very large men with one very small young girl I wouldn’t blame them for having a fairly bias outside perspective on our situation. I mean cap could have found a bigger car but it works for now. They all get out first and form a wall in front of the car so I can’t get out. It was unintentional but I still need to hit Sam with the car door to let them know that I couldn’t get out. He frantically turned around and moved the other two. I climbed out of this car obviously struggling. They all scoffed at my troubles and when I finally stood straight Bucky side hugged me tightly. I couldn’t tell you why but these three no matter what will always build a wall to keep me safe. Even with people we trust it was a habit of theirs. Especially Bucky. He’s always been like a big brother. I stood half behind them but still able to see. Clint got out of the van that they drove in. Wanda along with him.

“Cap” Clint said with a smile on his face and his hand out to greet him.

“You know I wouldn’t have called if I had any other option.” Cap said taking his hand.

“Hey, man. You’re doing me a favor. Besides, I owe a debt.”

“Thanks for having my back.” Cap said turning his head towards Wanda.

“It was time to get off my ass.” Wanda said sarcastically.

“How about our other recruit?” Cap nods towards the van.

“He’s rarin to go.” He turned and opened up the side van door. “Has to put a little coffee in him, but he’s good.” He slammed the door open and woke him up. He got up out of the car tired and groggy. I giggled at how funny this stumbley man looked.

“What time zone is this?” He looked around with squinted eyes.

We all kept talking until we had a definitive plan of how this was all going to work out.

“We should get going.” Bucky said keeping me close. A voice speaking in German sounded over the speakers.

“They’re evacuating the airport.” Bucky said translating what the voice said.

“Stark.” Cap said turning to him.

“Stark?” Lang said confused as to what he was referring to.

“Suit up.” Cap said

The plan was that we stayed behind and Cap goes to try and negotiate with Tony. I was a last resort. Cap went running towards the helicopter that rested in the runway. Tony shot something that fried the circuits. He stopped and Tony and Rhodey landed.

“Weird how you run into people at the airport. Isn’t that weird?” He says sarcastically and turning his head to Rhodes.

“Definitely weird.” He said playing into it all. They nodded at each other and then looked back at Cap.

“Hear me out. The doctor, That psychiatrist, he’s behind all of this.” He said calmly. Out of nowhere T’Challa jumps out from behind a terminal tunnel and lands on the ground.

“Captain.” He said in a low tone almost at a groan.

He swing from a string shot from his wrist in through the window. He kicked Bucky from the side and sent him flying.

“Your highness.” Cap said politely back. You could tell that he wants this to be a calm civilized discussion but is prepared for if and/or when this isn’t.

“Anyway. Ross gave me 36 hours to bring you in. That was 24 hours ago. Can you help a brother out?” Tony said to break up their conversation.

“You’re after the wrong guy.” Cap said quickly

“Your judgment is askew. Your old war buddy killed a lot of innocent people yester-“ Tony retorted.

“And there are five more super soldiers just like him. I can’t let the doctor find him first, Tony. I can’t.” Cap said interrupting Tony.

“Steve. You know what’s about to happen. Do you really want to punch your way out of this one?” Black Widow walked in and said threateningly.

“Alright. I’ve run out of patience…UNDEROOS!” Tony yelled hands cupped to his face. Suddenly a quick red and blue blur leaped over the top of them. Shooting something at Caps shield disarming him completely. He landed on top of a luggage transporter. “Nice job, kid.” Tony said.

“Thanks. I could’ve landed better but new suit it’s just..i-it’s perfect, Mr. Stark. Thank you.” Spider-man said to him.

“Yeah we don’t really need to start a conversation.” Tony said dismissing him.

“Yeah. Cap uh Captain. I’m spider-man. Big fan.” He said saluting.

“We can talk about it later.” Tony said trying to get him to stop talking.

“Hey everyone.” He said awkwardly.

“Good job.” He said giving Spider-man a thumbs up.

“You’ve been busy.” Cap said towards Tony.

“and you’ve been a complete idiot.” Tony said bitterly back to him. “Dragging in Clint, ‘rescuing Wanda from a place she doesn’t even want to leave, a safe place. IM TRYING TO KEEP-“ He sighs and calms himself down. “I’m trying to keep you from tearing the Avengers apart.” He said sadly.

“You did that when you signed.” Cap said.

“Okay, enough. You’re going to turn Barnes in and come with us…now. Because it’s us! Or a squad of J-SOC guys with no compunction about being impolite!” Tony said to Cap who was not going to change his mind for anything and Tony knew that. “Come on.” He whispered as if this was his last chance.

“We found it. Their Quinjets in hangar five, north runway.” Falcon said into Caps earpiece. I was positioned behind them in my emergency combat suit my dad made for me. Cap held his arms up as Clint shot an arrow to break the binding.

“Alright, Lang.” Cap said

“Uh guys I think something’s wro- oh” Spuderman said being hit by ant man as he grew back into himself. He runs over to Cap.

“I believe this is yours, Captain America.” Lang said in a fake 40’s soldier accent.

“Oh great. All right there’s two on the parking deck, one of thems Maximoff. I’m gonna grab her.” Tony says then boosting into the air. “Rhodey you want to take Cap?” Tony asks.

“I’ve got two in the terminal. Wilson and Barnes.” Rhodes says as he boosts in the air too.

“Barnes is mine.” T’Challa yells and runs off. Cap then throws his shield at Rhodes knocking back and causing him to groan.

“Uh Mr. Stark what should I do?” Peter says holding down the button on his earpiece.

“What we dicussed. Keep your distance web ‘em up.” Tony said

“Copy that.” Peter said as he swung towards the fights.

Cap went running after T’Challa and threw his shield at the back of his head. He tackled T’Challa to the ground as he stood up again stood in his way of getting to Barnes.

“Move Captain. I won’t ask a second time.” T’Challa said efforts obviously useless. He leaps in the air and attempts to kick Cap down but all three were blocked by Caps shield.

Me, Bucky, and Sam were running, I’m not entirely sure what for. The Spider guy landed on the window looking for us.

“What the hell is that?” Bucky yelled as we all were still running in unison.

“Everyone’s got a gimmick now!” Sam said

He swung from a string that shot from his wrirst into the window kicking Sam and sending him flying. Bucky ran up from behind him to hit him but as if he could see it all he turns around and catches him metal arm. Our eyes both widen.

“You have a metal arm?! That is awesome, dude.” Catching him by our pride Sam launches into him. He picks him up and he starts to squirm.

“You have the right to remain silent.” He yells as he pushes Sams face. He finally reached out of his grasp and shot one of his strings along the ceiling beams. Bucky picked up a large piece of fallen metal and launched it at him. He dodged it with ease. He pulls me behind a pillar and watched the side.

“Hey buddy I think you lost this.” And he throws the same piece of metal right back at us. Sam again attempts to knock him down by launching into him but he misses and he shot one of his string into the base of Sams wings. He groans and falls to the ground.

“Sam!” I yell worried for him. He puts his hand up and clams me down noting to me that he was okay. He shot what now looked like webs close up onto Sams wrists, disabling use. I walk out slowly to face him. I turn my head to the side and stare at him.

“You look like a regular person. Who are you?” He said to me. I smile and my body from the toe starts to set on fire. My eyes turning a light shade of burning orange, I shake my hands ember fall from them.

“The girl on fire.” I raise in the air and shoot fire from my hands straight down on him. He webs away and Bucky goes to help Sam.

“Mr. Stark! You didn’t tell me one of them can set herself on fire! She’s chasing me away I can’t get back to them!” He yells over his earpiece to my dad.

“What are you talking about no one ca-…no no no no no no no, what the hell was he thinking?!” He yelled.

“Mr. Stark what do I do?!” He yelled as he dodged me again.

“Kid, that’s my daughter she is more powerful the everyone of us even the witch get away from her!” He yelled to him. He webbed out of the previously broken window. I followed close behind him as I could hear Bucky and Sam yelling for me to stop. I didn’t listen the fire burned inside me. I kept following him even outside in front of the rest of the Avengers. I let myself down to the ground the fire on my body may have stopped but my skin was still smoking. I followed him now him being on the ground parts of his suit burnt off leaving half of his face exposed. I reached him but what stopped me was my dad flying in and landing right in front of me in a kneeling position mirroring the one I was in. I looked him in eyes of his helmet. My eyes still glowing but now red. He disarmed his head looking me down with his real eyes the ones that he gave me. I stood and let him go. He ran to the aid of his team but still watching as all of them looked at me and my father. He stood with me yet he was significantly taller then me.

“You’re wrong on this, dad.” I said to him my voice altered like it was many different voices all in one. Making it notably scarier and more intimidating, as a boiling tear ran down my face. He went to wipe it away but I quickly moved out of the the way of his metal armor so it wouldn’t melt. He got noticeably angry very quickly. He turned his head a very beaten up Steve. He boosted towards him and hit him once again.

“You recruited my DAUGHTER, to fight against me!” He yelled at him I flew over to him quickly stopping him for landing another hit. I land in front of him and catch his fist before it lands.

“NOOO!” I scream loudly. The screams were deafening and sounded like the antichrist himself.

“He didn’t do anything. I wanted this. I volunteered.” I said as my dad took some steps back. I walk closer to him he looked genuinely scared of me he boosted over me and sided towards the other Avengers. I knew why. It was so I could leave and calm myself down. I was acting irrationally and dangerously and almost hurt a kid that was probably my age. I flew and found a fountain around the airport I landed inside and submerged myself. Weirdly enough submerging myself in cold water was the only way for that to happen. A boil started and then soon simmered down as my body temperature dialed down to the human area, which for me was 110°. I ended up flying back soon after still dripping and sizzling but calm my voice returned to normal my eyes still orange. I land in front of them and walk to my father.

“I sided with him because I’m old enough to know what I stand for. I know what I want to fight for. Sadly that differs between us.” I said to him.

“He should have never said yes. You don’t know how to control yourself yet!” He said pointing a finger i. my face.

“Yes! I do! Do you think I would be here right now if I couldn’t?! You have no faith in me or quite frankly the rest of my team. I said leaving him and walking to Bucky, Sam, and Cap. They all seemed quite apprehensive to stand all that close to me but they didn’t show it.

“Please don’t do this, Y/N. I don’t want to have to do this to you!” He said to me.

“I know what’s right. I’ll stand by it and I’ll fight for it no matter what it takes.” I said sternly. He looked down and engaged his helmet. He boosted up and threw bombs at usI caught them mid air and threw them to the side. I watched them explode in the distance.

“Like you said, dad. I’m even more powerful than the witch. But what would it be like together?” I said his expression turned into an anxious get-away-from-the-situation-immediately face. Me and Wanda have only ever practiced this once and we both ended up passing out. She flew towards me and landed.

“Are you ready?” She asked me in a slick smooth tone.

“As ready as I’ll ever be.” I said in return. We stood about 100 yards from each other.

“GO!” I yelled and we both start to run really fast at each other.

“Wait no they aren’t going to-“ Bucky said just as scared as my dad was now. Cap went running after me but it was too late now we were ten feet away from each other when he bailed and ran in the other direction. We flew directly at each other and shot our hands together causing a blast of energy that sent people flying back. We fell to the ground and got back up. I look at my hands and nothing seemed to be wrong she got up and walked to me.

“I think we did it.” She laughed and hugged me. We both fly over to our team as they were all knocked to the ground and were stumbling to get back up. I helped up the guys as they then dusted themselves off.

“How’d you know?” Cap asked me.

“Know what?” I asked him.

“That it was going to work?” He said pointing between the both of us. We looked at each other.

“We just knew.” We said simultaneously.

Sorry that this was kind of all over the place and abnormally long hope you liked it.

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