#im not even at the day of christmas yet

[hearts4juzi]

me writing anything else: URHGUGHUGURHGUHGUH

me writing afton brothers:

#blinked and missed it #im not even at the day of christmas yet #im just bullshitting this so hnard #and im loving it #I HAVENT EVEN GOTTEN TO THE ACTUAL AFTON BROTHERS ITS ALL JUST INTRO AND SHIT

[unculturedswine69]

sooooo i finally got gaiden which means i have been getting back into yakuza again!!

here are some sketches that i coloured cuz i do not rlly have the motivation for much else currently <3

#so yes i missed christmas i missed new years i even missed valentines day BUT IM STILL ALIVE AND KICKING!!! #i have been very focused on toyhouse+ comms (which i started there) #planning on being more active here this year but SIGHHH the tism is kicking my ass currently #anyways who wanted a life update THIS IS YAKUZA MFS!! we are sooo back we are BACK #shishido...i have not finished the game yet but..hes...hes so meow meow #ikk im so bad at semi realism and stuff i know for a FACT that in like 4 months im gonna be so embarrassed by this post but im trying okay #anyways actual tags #yakuza #yakuza game #yakuza kiryu #yakuza art #yakuza series #yakuza 0 #yakuza fanart #yakuza games #rgg #ryu ga gotoku #kiryu kazuma #kazuma kiryu #kiryu kazuma fanart #kazuma kiryu fanart #like a dragon #rgg studio #like a dragon gaiden #the man who erased his name #shishido kosei #kosei shishido #okay idk what else to tag i forget every single time what i need to tag but whatever if this flops ill just take it like a badass #unculturedswine69

[deus-ex-mona]

mONA CHRISTMAS PARTY LEZZGOOOOOOOOO

#it’s not even out yet but im 100000% sure it’s better than yurushite santa san— #no need for samishidayriya; today is now the day before mona’s christmas song drop~~~~~~~ #merry christmas to mona and mona alone~~~~~~~~ #ok but. if we can get happy christmas party mona version… d o e s that mean we can get a mona ver of himitsu no valentine too—

[anandasamsara]

SIMPLE COMMISSIONS OPEN

Ok, i cant find any other job nor other way to make some money rn. I still have to pay 450 for credit card, that we used to buy groceries, 450 for electricity and at least mom's phone. Ideally, 700 that we owe for the apartment payments, but we can keep pretending it doesnt matter as much.

So, opening sketch and whump comms bc i cant bring myself to do more than that rn. I can barely bring myself to draw at all. I could even toss some notion of nsfw for an extra 10 bucks.

Prices, how-to's and more info >>here<<

Im relatively desperate, bc even tho i managed to pay the internet bill, it doesnt matter if electricity is cut down, specially as we're having heat waves of about 40C for the last week with no end in sight.

(I listed the amount i need in brazilian real, so it would be around 250usd. 400usd if we count the apartment things that im ignoring.)

#emergency commissions #commissions #help an artist #thankfully my aunt decided to buy us some groceries but it wont last much #paid a few bills with money my friends gave me as a christmas present but im still very embarassed by the need #even more so that i didnt manage to make it last more than a month #also my dad being home is becoming a problem #me and mom are trying to eat less so we can keep having food for longer #and he spends the whole day eating everything he sees #its been hard and i dont want to ask for help but i dont know what else to do #no one else will help bc we have a capable man at the house and why cant he go back to the job HE ACTUALLY HAS to keep us afloat #but he doesnt want to so now i have to take care of the bills myself #doesnt matter that i was fired bc the computer can do the same work i did #im very tired and trying to not spiral into depression yet again

[lesbiansanemi]

Do you think if I wish hard enough my mom will get electrocuted by a string of Christmas lights and just go up in a cloud of smoke. It’d be a Christmas miracle

#I’m not even DOWN THERE YET and I want to fucking KILL HER #I have to work Christmas Eve and the day after Christmas. I live four hours away from my family #I told her this MANY TIMES I said I’ll drive down after work on Christmas Eve be there Christmas morning but I need to leave by 3-4 to get #home at a reasonable hour so I can have time to unpack/catch up on a couple days of chores/get plenty of sleep #she called me last night and told me she didn’t schedule Christmas stuff until SIX PM #and when I said why tf did you do that I’m not staying that late #she got mad and upset and was like ‘it’s the only time everyone is free :(‘ #BUT THEN proceeded to tell me we were having lunch with her HUSBAND’S family at noon #(ppl I am not close with never have been literally don’t talk to) #and everyone I know is like ‘just leave when you said you were going to anyways’ #and like yeah I could but then my family is gonna be ENRAGED that I didn’t do Christmas stuff with them #and they’re like ‘well explain that your mom didnt listen to when you said you needed to leave’ #but the thing is. no matter what. they’re going to take her side #I should sacrifice my time and comfort to spend time with them because they’re FAMILY #never mind that literally not a SINGLE ONE OF THEM has EVER come up to visit me #IM always expected to drive down there. but that sacrifice doesn’t count it’s not good enough #but if I stay that late I won’t be getting home until AT LEAST midnight or later #cuz my family has no fucking concept of time so if it starts at six that means it doesn’t ACTUALLY start until 7 so most of them might be #there by 8 so I’ll be expected to stay until at least 10 to sufficiently catch up with all of them #I’m going to scream I’m going to cry #if I leave early I’m the awful ungrateful terrible bitch who never comes to see any of them #but none of them could adjust their days by just a few hours to see me before I needed to leave #FOR MY FUCKING JOB !!!!!!!! SOMETHING COMPLETELY OUT OF MY CONTROL #and like the thing is. my piece of shit manipulative bitch mother #I KNOW she did this on purpose #I know she didn’t plan this until six to FORCE me to stay longer because she was mad I wasn’t staying long #(again… because of work… something I can’t control) #so she’s orchestrated this to put me in this position #where I have to suck it up and stay and be exhausted and have tired migraines for a week cuz I get only a couple hours of sleep and then #or leave and make everyone pissed. I hate her so FUCKING much

[sydmarch]

you won't believe what showed up today FIVE DAYS IN ADVANCE OF THE ALBUM'S RELEASE??

and also:

!!!

#like a kid getting all their christmas gifts early i was so surprised they shipped it out already #havent listened yet bcus i was out today but im soooo ready #i cant believe i jave bag of rabbits now & on a lime green cassette even. literally album ive dreamt of getting to hear ever since i found #out existed & was unreleased & 'might never see the light of day' #texticles #caleb landry jones

[doodlboy]

Local man has an 8 hour shift 2morrow gn every1

#1 of my coworkers asked me 2 cover for him 2morrow bc he knows im barely getting hours rn #which is rlly sweet so instead of only 12 hours this week i get 20 and it rlly helps bc i need to save up for a computer #im gonna open comms eventually but rn im too drained 2 work on anything. even personal projects #i gotta get a computer and somehow save up 4 a car but christmas and me redoing my room & #stuff made my bank acct take a serious hit. which. is fine ig bc I'm not living alone yet #i still gotta set my 401k or whatever its called up. and do the savings/investing thing #work should b paying me 25 an hour man..all my work these last couple months only totalled to maybe 3k #if i was going 2 college that'd be all gone in like..2 weeks bc a bachelor's 4 game design @ snhu is a lil 1k every 8 weeks #with financial aid apparently bc somehow i make 2 much. anyway #its 2am im rambling and i gotta b up at 10 #so gn every1 #ily'all #mwah #xoxo #and such #also im excited 4 valentines day bc all the silly pink lovecore stuff is out and i rlly want to b pink & cute this year idk #elliot rambles

[bonnvivre]

‘TIS CHRISTMAS EVE AND I CAN FINALLY OPEN MY CHRISTMAS MESSAGES !!

posting each of my responses below :0 (cross posted on twt so it’s pretty much copy and pasted so wherever you see it, it’ll be the same on the other platform)

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OH MY GAHHHHHHH !!!!!! i hope you have fun during the holidays too, mars :D have a great day !! no he would put his hands inside his clothing like thjs (see second pic)

I QUOTE THIS ONE EVERY CHRISTMAS AHAHAHAHA merry christmas !! have a great day :]

GUNGOO

merey christmas, hamantha LMAO

HI I RECOGNIZE YOUR USER !! :000 MERRY CHRISTMAS !!! HAVE A GREAT DAY !!!!

OH I RECOGNIZE YOU TOO AHAHA HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMASS !!! thank you i try to send out the highest quality of posts frfr ;] on tumblr at least, can’t say the same for twt, especially on priv as you can see (see second pic) LMAO

its a pretty fire ornament ngl thank u for your double messages it makes it look like i have more than i really do 😭 MERRY CHRISTMAS !!

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!! i hope your year will be an amazing one :] YES I’D LOVE TO BE FRIENDS !! hope you see this !!

MERRY CHRISTMAS !! WAAAAA THANK U ٩( ᐛ )و I’D LOVE TO BE FRIENDS !!! whoever you are, hope you see this on twitter :]

edit: i got two more messages !!

HI KONYYYY MERRY CHRISTMAS !! thank u sm man i’m so proud for the both of us that we made it through another year !!! luv u kony, you also take care of yourself, i hope to see more of you too :]]]

HIII MERRY CHRISTMAS !!! i can’t believe you’re still here after all this time ;u; thank u for ur support in my agenda LMAO

#MERRY CHRISTMAS TO THOSE WHO CELEBRATE IT !! #it’s not even christmas yet here but hey time zones amirite #thank u for all the messages :]]] im so grateful to receive some #HAVE A GREAT DAY EVERYONE !! #lookism #christmas 2023

[bitterpossum]

I hate how like. Hypothetically you're ment to relax and have a good time and recharge over the holidays but in reality I am forced to 5 billion family functions in a row that leave me even more run ragged than I was over finals week

#please god how many days can a person possibly spend sitting in a corner for 6 hours straight with their #extended family who kind of hate you for being the weird queer one and the one cousins husband whos actually pretty cool #but cant talk to you for most of the time because he has a kid to watch over #im so tired. all the time. #its not even christmas yet

[geddy-leesbian]

think my christmas day plans will be taking an edible and watching silly shit like the Don Quixote movie maybe and listening to the Rush records I got last night

#my mom works that day so won't be doing anything with her #and while it surprisingly hasn't hit yet im pretty sure I'll get rlly sad #from this being the first year im having a christmas visit my sister/BIL/nephews #we never did christmas day with them but me my mom and my other siblings would always go to her place at some point in the season #to play mario party. trivial pursuit. other miscellaneous games #and like ive said my sister's always been a shitty person who was very difficult to have a close relationship with #but she was fun in small holiday doses like that #and i don't feel like getting into all of it rn but what happened with her this year is absolutely smth that can NEVER be fixed #even if she ever apologizes (which i doubt she will) and tries to fix it i still wouldn't feel comfortable having Any contact w her

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#other ppl: youll be fine! u r passionate abt what u do #no u dont understand. its not passion. im being consumed. im being devoured whole and alive. #its out of control and its killing me #stop trying to tell me im good. i can assure u its a problem and i want it to fucking stop. whats the point of being successful if u cant #even fucking breathe? #this has been my weekend in purgatory for some reason. but fuck u i got the fucking application 98% done so im gonna read it over tomorrow #when my brain doesnt feel like its gonna explode and thrn send it to the dude and idk see wtf he has to say about it bc im positive i #overwrote it bc im unhinged. whatever tomorrow im gonna spend another 4hr transfering algae #if i can. turns out ive given myself a headache and now i cannot sleep lmao #lol i wrote all that yesterday night. it appears i was having a bad time. and i continue to have a bad time bc my manuscript is 98% ready #for submission but i leave at 7.20 tomorrow morning for my flight and wont be home until 7pm in this time zone at the very least #which means ill have to fucking wait all day to submit i guess unless i use plane wifi or something. fucking idk #i also havent sent the application in yet and i havent bought any Christmas presents bc my brain is splitting into a million pieces #its 10 pm now. will is sleep tonight? who's to say i still have work to do on this fucking manuscript #at least my coauthor thinks itll only get sent back with minor revisions so it must look pretty ok #part of it is just me bitching abt inconsistent methods across papers bc it annoys me but also i dont give a fuck #i will fucking psychically control ppl to read this paper and use its knowledge bc the way they talk abt the topic annoys me so much #which is additionally annoying bc like i said i dont give a fuck #anyway im procrastinating #unrelated #my parents texting me today: yay we r excited to see u 🤗 #and im just laying on the floor eminating a demonic aura

[hayaku14]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE AUTHOR OF AL RIGORE WROTE ANOTHER KAISHIN FIC OH MY FUCKING GOD IM ABOUT TO COLLAPSE SOMEONE HOLD ME IM TOO EXCITED TO READ THIS FIC I MIGHT DIE FR

#HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT KCKJXJSKXJAKXKKKSKDKAKS #i was like 'imagineering??? that sounds familiar...' AND THEN BOOM IT'S AL RR AUTHOR BROOOO THE WAY I COLLAPSED THE WY THIS SHITTY DAY BEGAN #TO BRIGHTEN THE WAY MY CROPS AND WATERED AND MY SKIN IS CLEAR AND I HAVENT EVEN READ IT YET JDJDJSHSJJDSJ HIHIHI IM SO EXCITED #i really dont want to go to this damn christmas party now i just wanns cuddle my pillow and read this fic uggggh #prattles

[myfirstandlast]

im scared bc now that i’m essentially getting this public school job i know my body and mind have begun to settle into its fugue state where i have no thoughts and make no progress and waste literally all the time in the world because i just can’t imagine any other options it’s how i wasted four years with my major it’s how i ended up joining gr**k life it just feels like this is it and i trap myself

#let’s say i miraculously get a car and to move out post-september getting my license #it definitely won’t be until christmas at the earliest because i have to finish out the year #but as soon as the year is over my parents are back on my head about applying for master’s programs which i still don’t want to do #i don’t have a break to be free #and i’m certainly not gonna to be inspired to find my dream artistic lesbian job in middle of nowhere GA at an elementary school of all plac #like everyone too old or too young to understand me. no real work friends no real ACTUAL friends im just going to be going to work and going #home. oh lol i started crying typing. im really over talking into the void i need someone to hear me and help me #but even if up to that point EVERYTHING somehow falls into place. now i’m entirely alone with more bills no resources no one to call and no #idea what i want in any capacity. like i feel like a caged animal i feel insane #im falling into my coma of uselessness and i already lost the entirety of my adolescent young adult years i don’t want to lose my 20s too #not to be like 30 is ancient your life is over then obv not but i don’t care about what i do in my life at 30 and beyond #i want my life to be happy NOW i WANT the best of my life to be in my 20s where i can get away with the most stupid fun because i’m just #young and gay and i still have an excuse for not knowing what my life is yet. i cant breathe not knowing what i want to do but at least its #an excuse. i feel like dying i feel like my insides are rotting to black ash we’re social creatures and im suffering #i sound so stupid. i know i really know. but the people i see living the life i want carefree making money as it comes #have parents who lovingly text them who care but stay out of the way who are supportive but aren’t up your ass and down your neck #they’re just people that would raise kind smart independent individuals and im none of the above so i don’t have a good shot as it is #but i still want to be free. i want to die but i want to be free just a little before then #i hate my life. i hate waking up in my bed every day and seeing my bedroom and being in my house. i want it to be over

[dreamonminecraft]

Went to my school's winter concert to support my friend but holy shit this has been the most boring couple hours of my life

#i want to go to bed but i have christmas cards to write because it's the last day before break tomorrow #and i have my fucking precalc final (😭) tomorrow at 7:15am and im gonna kms #i haven't even finished the study guide yet and i have an 83 in the class (i need go keep a b)

[teruthecreator]

i was going to do my makeup to take pics w my glasses but then i realized i would need to put on contacts first bc I Cant See Without My Glasses and then take them out to put on my glasses and that just sounded like a lot of work

#ignorance cloud on #i got new palettes for christmas and i havent even used them yet bc too depressed + new work tiring me #SIGH....whatever im bringing my big palette to my gfs ill use it then #btw seeing my girlfriend in 4 days. what the fuck

[devotedlystrangewizard]

having to celebrate christmas with my abusive stepdad vs the fact that its the last christmas ill ever have to celebrate in this godforsaken household

#but but im ur guardian #im moving out in like. june/july #probably to go live with my dad #and i can finally cut my mom & stepdad off <3 #how to write christmas poem for someone you hate asking for a friend #i mean theres a chance my dad will tell me to go back in the holidays but #honestly #he literally left before the divorce was through. on a whim. and didnt come back to pick up his stuff for a month #bc he was that sick of being around my mom #i think he'll understand when i leave and just really dont want to go back #and my mom can beg all she like but i will block her number if she tries so #finally. gaining control over my own life. i guess #finally getting to the point where all those 'cut the toxic people out of your life' posts arent just reminders of what i cant do #6 more months and i can just go. i will never have to go back. i have no obligation to stay here #better yet ill probably get a job & go study over there so going back here would just be counterproductive #and my mom cant even be like because im 18 and shes legally not allowed to do that anymore <3 #the only reason i still follow her rules is because i live in her house <3 #personal #one more mother's day as well #would be cool if i could move before father's day but i doubt it #gonna make the coolest mother's day gift for my stepmom in 2024 (shes cool and deserves it)