#im so bored and i miss them so much

[rakkuntoast]

im on the verge of insanity <- so starved for content he has to resort to make shit up

#qsmp #qsmp philza #qsmp forever #sugarduo #caramelduo #philever #im so bored and i miss them so much #my art

[drunkonimagination]

no but making the shy insecure little boy fall for the sarcastic dark-haired boy with a sharp tongue and making the second develop a love so profound and reverential for the first years later was the best decision cc has ever made, wasn’t it

#sometimes i wake up and remember how much i love thomastair #and that’s the result #i just miss them a lot okay 😭 #also im on the train and im bored #so get thissss #thomastair #alastair carstairs #thomas lightwood #the last hours #tlh

[moeblob]

I think Gepard would also probably like to pick him up by the scruff like a kitten (and throw him in jail) !

Thank you for the compliment @durasposts ;w; I have been enjoying doodling Sampo so I am glad he's been appreciated!

#honkai star rail #sampo koski #trailblazer #gepard landau #not actually meant to be ship art but whatever floats your boat in regards to them ??? #i dont really follow many people on tumblr but i do know on Another Site ive seen fanart of silly belobog boys #many a time so i assume its very popular #too each their own and the trailblazer is just there to be impressed with lifting the much taller male even taller #the way people describe being fond of a character has grown progressively more bizarre to me #and i love it so much tbh ... i like the weird ways of admitting you like a character #im so boring and say oh i like this guy and then others i want to pick him up by the scruff of his neck #or someone i dearly love telling me i wanna swing him around like miss trunchbull would #and im like you know what the oc the person said it about im like thats really fair tbh

[un-pearable]

absolutely hate that the oni trilogy reframed lloyd as his father’s enemy bc he was unwanted or unloved bc the whole point was that lloyd was wanted so so badly that his father was willing to give into the prophecy that had doomed him in the hopes that he could save them both from it, and in the process ensured that they would be on opposite sides

#text✨ #THIS ISNT HERO WITH DADDY ISSUES. ITS VILLAIN WITH SON ISSUES (HE WANTED SO BADLY TO PREVENT IT THAT HE PLAYED EXACTLY INTO DESTINY’S HANDS #lloyd does has father issues but. not those ones . i miss them so much (pre retcon garmafamily) #mainly i’m just upset that this is the lingering view in fandom and keeps getting retroactively imposed onto their dynamics pre-s8 #and not only is it infinitely more boring it’s just outright sad #this isn’t @ any particular fan writers im just mad at the show writers again ✨

[misfithive]

BOYFRIENDSSSS/ PARTNERSSS

Idk if this is an unpopular opinion but idc if wilmon ever have a boyfriends convo. Imo they are soulmates and they both know they are soulmates. Someone should just call them boyfriends and the they smile at eachother or orrr idk pls tell me your ideas. As long as its not a cheesy thing. I will only accept Simon asking Wille to be his boyfieeeee ha ha but in my mind i guess they are already partners after Simon said I want to be with you and Wille’s speech so i think they are beyond the boyfriends convo somehow. But people keep mentioning wanting it to happen s3 so i want to know other peoples thoughts. (Sorry for this ramble pls vote and tell me if you think it is important for them to define the relationship or not)

#idc if this is silly im bored #im not on here that much anymore so sorry if someone has already done this poll and i missed it #also tell me whether it is important t you doe them to have this convo or not #wilmon #young royals #simon eriksson #prince wilhelm #wilhelm x simon

[silenthillbunni]

📖🖊❄️

#journal dump bc i have too much on my mind #1) i HATE my neighbors. theres never one quiet moment. they stomp around and slam cabinets all the time it feels like #2) ​i've been reading more recently even if concentration's hard bc of noise. but i also feel like there r too many books i wanna read #but yeah. too little time. so instead i cant settle on a book and kinda dont even read as much as i want to. a stupid problem really #3) it's crazy to say but i wish i had a part time job. sitting at home 24/7 for 5/6 years has been SO terrible for me. #everything feels meaningless. every day is the exact same. im not LIVING. im rotting away and all my issues get worse. im also so fkn bored #and i dont wanna sit at home and do assignments (even if thats what i technically should be doing) #i want a job to go to which takes me away from home + gives me money #then i can come home and sit and rot and ENJOY it. bc now my lazy time is only smth negative and bad for me :/ #ofc i hate the mere thought of having some soul sucking utterly pointless job and our capitalist society is a slave hellhole. but.. as it is #im not even able to enjoy ANY of my time bc all my time feels bad. plus im only getting poorer and poorer so i cant afford to buy anything #4) im so fkn bored and going crazy from eating the exact same food every single day for the third month now. im sick of it #everything tastes so bland and disgusting. it's genuinely making me depressed 😭 i wanna eat REAL food. im so tired bc no nutrition :(( #i cant do anything except wait for my appt w the doctor next week and hope they put me on a waiting list for surgery.. but ong im sick of it #5) i miss my sisters :/ we live in the same apartment but its like i've completely ceased to exist to them #except when they need to be passive aggressive to me. lol. i miss them. but they just dont wanna talk to me :/ #but tbh. most of all... i just want my health issue to be over so my body can function normally again. #i can face anything in life if i can come home to a cup of coffee nd some chocolate ^-^ <333

[becauseplot]

She dance 🎵 He stance ⚔️

#qsmp #q!tallulah #q!chayanne #the following tags contain slight qsmp spoilers #i am going to miss them SO MUCH when theyre gone #their little interactions in the backgrounds of streams are so adorable and full of life im sobs #theyre kids!! theyre little kids theyre babies ;-; #moments of stream that make me wish i could draw theres so much going on here #tallulah holding her sword and shield up and kicking her legs out #chayanne standing on the grindstone in a playful battle stance and dancing along #theyre just messing around bc theyre bored waiting for phil to get levels at the mob grinder im uhghhghggh theyre so alive

[princekirijo]

I'm so excited to share Riku's persona designs at some point

#captain au tag #i need a name for this au so bad tbh i like captain but like its a bit boring #anyway i have 3/5 designed 😈 #not totally fully because I'm constantly refining little details and stuff #but his initial ultimate and black mask personas are like at a stage where im really happy #and i know im happy cause i keep drawing them #colouring them not so much but me and colours have never been good friends 😭 #now all i have to do is make a cool piece for them. or have a ref sheet. or something #next up will be his third semester design and tbh im excited for that one #i really like the concept of the third semester personas but i think the execution of them was hit or miss #then once thats done i will be designing a new one for him 😈 an au specific one 😈 #y'all can thank nico for that lmao #what can i say i just love designing personas. big passion of mine

[tillman]

Ive read 7 light novels in the past 2 days I do not think this is normal autism.

#throwing all mg thoughts onto disjointed twitter threads and violets dms but jesus christ its all I can think about #theres so much. I have so much on my mind over this fucking seriesss #I wish I liked hueys stupid group more they make everything drag onnn and on. I fucking hate christopher he bores the shit out of me #when the central conflixt is such an interesting weaving of power and insane personal conflicts w established characters I just cant fucking #care when they throw in a fucking Vampire. what. #anyways im about half way done vol 7 now. I need a break lest I drive myself insane with another 200 fucking page book but. GAHHHHHHHHHHH #I miss tick I miss maria I miss them #txt

[belovedisaster]

i am rereading a bunch of the arc 2 books (super bored) and honestly..why does NOBODY ever draw the side characters from these...like onyx, sirocco and rattlesnake, vulture, cobra, TYPHOON...... liosten to me

#im just picking them up and putting them down #i think darkness of dragons is a little odd in the way it handles #poverty and crime in the scorpion den #but qiblis family is really compelling...i really missed vulture i hated him so much #and cobra #fucking crying #i felt for qibli because i forgot she was just being nice to him to get his trust #it made me so fucking upset #also tui is not as bad of a writer as i remember #i think the protagonists are really bland #i get bored listening to. winter and qibli and moon babble all the time #and qibli becomes a kind of milquetoast pov when he stops doing his like...analysis #overthinking thing #though i guess you could put that down to his character development and becoming more relaxed BUT #THATS NEVER STATED #AND ALSO HE HAS NO REASON TO RELAX OVER THE COURSE OF DOD #but umm back to what i said about the scorpion den #its kind of gross and really revealing what tui about poverty or areas of poverty with the scorp den #there are definitely exceptions to some things ill say but #1. winter being a total dick about the poorer dragons in the sd and never getting anything for it and never having that challenged #LITERALLY CALLING A QIBLI A STREET THUG #and its just accepted by qibli being like #Well hes a prince. I guess he cant help it. I guess #2. the outclaws come off weird to me #and its weird how every dragon thats not an outclaw or accepted into them (usually translating to #special and smart and educated or having special talents) #is listed off as just being like. dumb and poor #but im especially thinking about sirocco and rattlensnake who are like #just as much victims of circumstance as qibli with a shitty mom but its fine because theyre stupid and violent #it feels like tuis going. Theres so many criminals and peddlers and p**rs in the scorpion den but qibli is special and good and should be li

[oflgtfol]

"Why do you visit us alone, Turtlestar?"

Turtlestar recognizes the she-cat in front of her from the last time she had visited the Moonstream. On that fateful night, only twelve moons ago, the river had been blazing with the light of the waning gibbous as it gleamed off the current. Silversong had greeted her with stars sparkling in her eyes and moonlight weaving through her fur. Now, tonight, the moon is just a thin crescent setting on the horizon, and the Moonstream is dark. Silversong is but a pale apparition floating over the water.

Turtlestar bows her head. “I come before StarClan tonight to ask that… that you may rescind my nine lives, and give them to my deputy, Fawnspot. Name them Fawnstar in my stead.”

A moment of tense silence, and then, “Why should we do that?”

“I'm not fit to be SpruceClan's leader," Turtlestar replies. "It is… destroying me, and I’m afraid that it may destroy my Clan in the process."

A murmur rises up before her. She lifts her head to see more spirits have joined them, staring at her from behind Silversong. In the darkness, their forms blend together, faces bleeding into more faces until they're unrecognizable. She can't make out any eyes, but she can feel the weight of their stares, their disapproval heavy on her exhausted shoulders. She feels pinned down, small, cowering there alone on the river stone.

“It is not every day that a cat receives eight additional lives from StarClan,” Silversong says. “Do you doubt the gifts we gave you?”

“No, I just — I’m not worthy of them,” Turtlestar chokes out. She hangs her head in defeat. “Please. I’m trying to do what’s best for my Clan. And what’s best for my Clan is not me.”

Her pelt burns: with shame, with guilt, with humiliation. Only twelve moons, and she has come crawling back, knelt down and begging to be relieved of the duty that any other cat would be honored to have. As painful as this is, she knows that withstanding a single more day of this burden would be more than she could bear.

"Very well," Silversong says. She looks down at Turtlestar, eyes glinting like ice. "Let the ceremony commence."

A new cat emerges from the formless mass of ghosts. Rainstar, the leader of SpruceClan before her, steps towards Turtlestar and dips his head. Her mentor, her friend, and her predecessor — he had believed in her when even she herself didn't. His eyes are downturned and somber as he says, "There is no coming back from this. Are you sure you would like to begin, Turtlestar?"

She nods wordlessly, and he sighs. "For your ninth life, I gave you the gift of judgment. Now, I will revoke it.”

Rainstar leans forward and touches his nose to her forehead, and a terrible hollowing sensation pangs through her chest. It feels like the life is being sucked out of her, leaving her empty, shaking and weak. She feels a piece of herself missing, somewhere nestled next to her heart, where now nothing but a small, gaping hole resides, and she knows that hole will only get punched bigger and bigger over the course of the night. He pulls away and watches her, green eyes shadowed in the darkness, before he melts back into the crowd.

The press of the water-slick stone beneath her paws is grounding, now. She digs her claws in and pants, chest heaving, as she regains her bearings, head spinning and heart racing. The ghostly mass of StarClan cats hovers over the water, silent and watchful. Like the loss of her ninth life was an actual death, and this is her final judgment. But she still has seven more lives to lose tonight, and seven more final judgments to endure.

Another cat approaches. Sageleaf, a former SpruceClan medicine cat who had died when Turtlestar was still a kit, too young to remember them, but old enough to hear their stories. The cat eyes her flatly, face too stoic to betray any emotions. “I gave you your eighth life in honor of making difficult choices. I see it has been put to good use. Now, I will remove it.”

The cats come and go, and matter less and less each time. In between the terrible, bone-deep ache of each life lost, their words somehow still reach her, penetrating through the fog.

“I gave you your seventh life for loyalty.”

“Your sixth life was given for integrity.”

“Forgiveness.”

“Duty.”

“Confidence.”

Finally, as Turtlestar stands hunched over and trembling with exhaustion, Silversong steps to the front once more. She eyes Turtlestar coldly. “For your second life, I had given you perseverance. Now, I will take it back." She presses her nose to Turtlestar's forehead, hard, unforgiving, and it feels as though the warmth is leaving her limbs.

Silversong pulls back, but doesn’t retreat. “You will remain known as Turtlestar, as a reminder of the lives you once had. You may not be leader of SpruceClan any longer, but may your experiences forever remain in your memories and guide you for the rest of your days.” Now, she steps back. “Have a good life, Turtlestar.”

Turtlestar watches as the thin crescent moon finally slips below the horizon, and StarClan fades away. She is left standing alone on the stepping stones, a shivering wreck in the darkness with only the rushing of water for company.

#brot plays clangen #my writing #<- really really really old draft from back in MAY. that im only just finishing now. it predates the turtlesky dual death scene #ugh i miss turtlestar so much . sooooo much she was so epic #i keep allowing new injured loners + 'found a cat injured by the thunderpath' cats to join the clan #but theyre all BORING THINGS like oh used to be a loner then joined the clan #none of them will ever compare to turtlestar. she was so freaking epic

[arcaneyouth]

is death note good? no. but also yes. but mainly no. haunts me anyways

#death note spoilers #for the tags im about to leave #the plots bad its been boring since light gave up the book the first time they clearly dont know what to do with all the characters #cause minor characters are getting swept under the rug and forgotten #RYUK hasnt even done much ever since light forgot everything like. HELLO. OF ALL THE CHARACTERS TO SWEEP UNDER THE RUG #dont even get me started on how bad the female characters are #the only decently written one was rem and they killed her #misa is everything to me. the writers dont even understand her like i do. #misa couldve been so problemgirl. she couldve been so unhinged. but no. bimboification beamed. #if shes not gonna get the character development she deserves i will simply have to do it myself #shes smart. to ME #also i feel unbearable yearning when thinking about misa and rem like holy fuuuck. missed opportunity for the best wlw romance in the world #the tragedy of it all. the fact that loving misa will kill rem. both of them know this. it doesnt matter if only they get to spend #another moment together. do you understand my vision. im losing my mind

[jagerstian]

I had a realization earlier while reminiscing on past traumatic events that those events did in fact change me as a person and I only just now connected those very obvious dots and now I'm pissed off because do you realize how cool and carefree and extroverted I could've been? This is so bogus, I used to be the popular kid and then BAM. Trauma. Now I'm a hermit who sometimes goes days without hearing myself talk without realizing it. People used to greet me by name, complete strangers i had never seen before in my LIFE, but they knew me because word got around. What the FUCK. I WAS SO COOL AND BELOVED? Now I'm basically if a potato was sentient. AND MY REPUTATION STILL PRECEEDS ME? THERE ARE KIDS FROM YEARS AGO WHO STILL THINK ABOUT ME AND STILL WANT ME TO LIKE THEM? THERE ARE GUYS WHO STILL LIKE ME SO MUCH THAT THEY ARE STILL ASKING ME OUT AFTER ALL THESE YEARS? What a downgrade I became. Today I had to work up the courage to cheer for my cousins soccer game out loud. I used to be EVERYONES hype man, effortlessly. It was like a switch, the way I changed. How do I reset to my default settings? Thanks brain, for protecting me, you did a good job, now please retire so I can be fun again, thanks

#i really did just become boring #not because im not interesting #but out of fear and self preservation #i had to learn to keep everything to myself #to build impenetrable walls #to not trust ANYONE #to keep my head down and not get noticed #i think I've gotten better! #it's just going so slowly #it's been 4 years #can't the process go any faster? #i miss who i used to be #i know a lot of people who miss her too #some people get trauma and it gives them their spice #i got trauma and became a giant thumbs down #and it's CRAZY that my biggest insecurity has been how boring i am for so long #and i never connected the dots till now #tbf i tend to force myself to not think too much about what happened #i made a promise to myself to never get that bad mentally again #and I've kept it #but im tired #im tired of BEING tired #and I'm tired of mourning the person I lost #myself #ew whyd i get all edgy tonight #bye #im off to draw dumb shit to make myself feel better

[box-dwelling]

Yeah because those cases were actually fun.

You don't get to mock turn about goodbyes and reclaimed if the case your giving me is dull as shit and drawn out to hell.

I literally stopped this case half way through to replay goodbyes because I needed to remember that this series isn't actually bad and boring and it's just this case. Keep her name out of your dirty fucking mouth

#literally i want so fucking bad to play some of the cases in this game #defending trucy? battling Phoenix as apollo? seeing maya? ema coming back? simon and athena defense team? another apollo backstory? #wedding case? im so down for all of that #but accessing it requires me getting through this fucking thing that is quite possibly the most boring vase this series has ever given me #i could power through big top #my limits are being tested here #im also very grumpy because i didn't save and had to skip through a ton of dialogue and that took like an hour #but i hated this case before then too #what if 5-2 lost all its charm? #what if we gave it insane stakes and then never took them seriously? #what if every fucking chracter sucks #ahalbi is fine but he is bland #panye is panye and thus actively annoying #rayfa looks like she might be interesting later but right now is deeply grating #nick is nick. hes good but he needs more to work with and he is weird girlless which really makes you appreciate having them there #i miss athena #i miss her so much man #please weirdest of weird girls turn up and make this tolerable

[sk3l3t0n444]

.

#yay im still not okkkkkkkkk #i have legit resorted to playing solitaire #thats how fucking bored and unmotivated i am #i cant even get out of bed most days...i just sit in my room and rot away... #yk its been like 7 months already...and im still not over it #like it still hurts...it hurts so badly... #id it bad that im still not over it yet? that i still think about them every day #i cant listen to some songs anymore...that was our song...that was our song...that was our song...i cant go to some places anymore... #i cant look at some things the same way anymore...sometimes i wonder if it was for the best...i wonder what life would be like... #i wonder a lot about if they even remember me...if they think of me as much as i think of them... #i just want things to go back to how they were...i was happy then...why does everything go to shit for me...did i do something wrong...? #is this my punishment for whatever sins ive commited? is there even a god out there? and if there is why do they want me to fucking suffer?! #i miss so many people that i cant have back cuz whatever higher power if there is one fucking hates me...what did i do wrong? what did i do? #am i just doomed to fail at everything? cuz it sure as hell seems that way... #idfk... #i just want to be ok again

[aspeckof-stardust]

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#i really dont get why theres so many ppl complaining about sab 2 #this season was fantastic it was so action packed and fun and surprising!!! #the og trilogy especially the last 2 books are boring and they managed to make it so much more exciting in the show #did they cut some plots?!? yes but i didnt miss them #i love how it set up for the ice court heist and king of scars #i thought it was really clever to use the second half of crooked kingdom since it gave us scenes we love with the crows #and im just hoping and imagining tolya tamar and mal in the ice court heist crew too since theyre with inej now #show mal as strumhond really fits not to mention its an well thought out political move on nikolais part #im sad david died though they couldve changed that he and genya deserve the world #all in all i loved it cant wait to rewatch and for the next season (bc wel'l have one i wont accept otherwise!!)