#im so glad my irls don't follow me on tumblr

[silverskye13]

just binged all of redstone and skulk in one go. HOLY SHIT!!! i left some comments on ao3 but that wasn't enough. i needed to come to your tumblr too bc this fic has Changed Me A Little. it makes sense- i've been subscribed to you on ao3 for a while (remember hound's tooth? i think that was when i started following your writing. and monsters splitting hairs, although i'm not quite caught up on that one), and that was for a good reason- but tanguish and helsknight are something else! part of why i like fanfiction is because i get to see more of characters i already like- it takes a special fic to get me so invested in characters i've basically just met! and you do it so well! like. the subtle character things! the way i can pick out the hermits' (and martyn's, but i'm calling him a hermit for the sake of convenience) traits in the helsmits, but warped and twisted around like a funhouse mirror? fantastic. i love it. im eating that shit up. the ilttle differences and similarities between tango and tanguish, helsknight and wels (bc he isn't acting very knightly right now), impulse and the demon- it's so cool to see! i also saw the other ask you got where you talked about your process, and how you give your characters a list of traits as a guide to writing them- i'm definitely going to have to borrow that trick. it works! so well! it shows in your writing in the consistency of how the characters behave!

some other thoughts i had while reading:

helsknight being religious probably has a lot more to do with him being a knight than wels being a lutheran irl (which is where his name comes from and i find that hilarious), but still. if it's unintentional it's hilarious and if it's on purpose then it's a fun easter egg!

i relate to and understand tanguish, because i too would want to befriend helsknight, and also because if a bunch of big scary people basically adopted me and tried to teach me how to use a knife i would be so pathetic about it.

i relate to and understand helsknight and tango, because tanguish is the weirdest little cat ever and i too am captivated by his pathetic little freak charms, and i want to be his friend.

i neither relate to nor understand wels, because 1) if i saw my friend's presumably-evil counterpart skulking around the shopping district i would likely call them first (just seems like the polite thing to do, and also bc if helsknight showed up and the ppl who found him didn't call wels about it i feel like he'd probably be more than a little pissed), and 2) look at tanguish. he's just a little guy. he's a little guy and it's his birthday. how could you be mean to him.

tl;dr: redstone and skulk has compelled me to the point that leaving comments on ao3 wasn't enough, i needed to ramble straight into your inbox because it's just so good.

Oh my gosh! Firstly: thank you for all the kind words! I'm glad you're liking my writing so far, and thank you both for the comments and the scurry into the inbox. I love hearing people's thoughts, even if I don't have the spoons to respond to everyone all the time :'D

For your bullet points:

-- I didn't know Wels was Lutheran! I knew he was ex-military, and at least in my family's trends, military and religiosity go hand in hand, so it makes sense. But still! Learning new fun facts! I know nothing about the Lutheran Church [I was raised Baptist.] Probably gonna do some reading later.

-- I feel like Tanguish is going through that phase of "all the biker/military uncles have decided I'm one of them for some reason" and as someone who has gone through that before, for the same baffling non-reasons [used power tools in their presence once, a la Tanguish barely participating in a fight once] I sympathize. Very interesting somewhat scary people. Why did you invite me to sit at your table. Why do you keep slipping me tequila and buying me knives like I'm in on the joke.

-- Tanguish is such a specimen we all just want to look at him under a microscope. He is so scared yet so brave. He thinks knives are scary but he leaps off buildings. He's scared of getting hurt and seeing blood but he has no regard for his personal safety. How do you fit so many oxymorons in such a tiny body---

-- Wels please, he's a little guy and it's his birthday! Stop bullying him!!

Addendum: I agree Jackrabbit is very Tanguish coded. It is now on the playlist.

Want to live like an animal?

By the skin of your teeth?

Put your good face on, you're foolin' no one

You're a jackrabbit underneath

One step forward, step right back

Run for the hills, honey, run for the hills, honey

Run for the hills, don't look back

#answering asks #gumy-shark #i lied i know why the biker/military uncles like me #they know i dress like a guy and help my mom do all the guy chores when my bro in law / step dad arent available #and they think i stepped up as the man-type figure around the house when my papa passed #they dont know im trans the poor things #rns asks

[old-school-butch]

hey im really glad you're speaking out on this israel/palestine issue. the public opinion is way, way too skewed in gazas favor.

ive been trying to talk to people irl about it, and my circle at least is mostly pro israel, and we all agree that what's going on on social media is insane.

absolutely no one is saying that all the information from gaza is coming from hamas, not to mention the defense of them. and i've never seen so much antisemitism just out in the open. the literal left is out here like "maybe hitler was right" and then call you "pro-genocide" when you call them out.

also, people are falling for propaganda and manipulation at degrees that, honestly, concern me.

Al Jazeera is the propaganda arm of the Qatari regime which, of course, is where the Hamas leadership lives. It's spent years developing a good reputation among lefties because it does - in truth - contain some analysis and information the Western media doesn't focus on. But it's part of a much larger information campaign that's happening that includes Russia and Iran and their social media outfits that aim to destabilize 'the West'. I've read AJ, just like I've read RT news - the Russian counterpart. They are designed to take a leftist argument and then put a spin on it - test the waters for more radical interpretations, push the limits and subtly distort perception. They have different outlets to massage the opinions on the right wing too. The goal is to make a middle ground impossible, and they are succeeding beyond anyone's wildest dreams.

Odds are good that we all follow at least one state actor - there was one here on tumblr that I had followed called, I believe, 'votingwhileblack' - which posted interesting critiques of the U.S. elections. But it was unmasked as a Russian agent, and I looked at the account contents more objectively. Much of it was very worthwhile analysis of U.S. attempts to disenfranchise people from their elections, but it was interspersed with subtle and not-so-subtle nudges - lots of 'don't bother voting, it's all rigged' material, Dems are just as bad as GOP, you can't trust the government at all, unless we do 'something radical' then nothing will ever change, all white people are racist and hatred is a natural response and so on. There are enough people who agree with these sentiments to spread that view, but by leading the conversation, it changes the tone. It makes anyone who disagrees with you the enemy, who is beyond negotiation, and so moderate solutions are discarded. The same is happening on the right and is why online discussion can be especially toxic and uninformative.

These campaigns have been running for years and these state agents have collected a huge amount of data points, floated a lot of arguments and learning which ones will stick. I can see this being applied to the current conflict.

The most striking to me is the word 'genocide' is used in a conflict with - even by Hamas' own claims - has 10,000 casualties. No one seems to question how many of those casualties are civilian and what portion are Hamas soldiers. Hamas claims to have 40,000 Hamas fighters in their 3-500km of tunnels. Hamas has fired thousands of rockets into Israel (and more of them land in Gaza than Israel to be honest, they're not good rockets) and Israel has dropped about 10,000 tonnes of bombs, including bunker busters that penetrate deep into the ground to destroy the tunnels. These are powerful explosions, so just compare that activity with the self-reported casualty count. It's actually quite low. Civilian deaths are always horrible to see, but there's absolutely no evidence that Israel is targeting civilians, much less killing them in large numbers.

But that's no problem if you follow the script - the genocide argument seamlessly shifts to the future, like Israel wants to occupy Gaza and/or expel all Gazans and that's really the genocide in play. I think the most likely long-term outcome is that Israel will occupy Gaza while they try to find a government that is willing to keep working to a 2 state solution, and they will stop employing Gazans - just as Egypt and Lebanon currently does - because it's quite likely that the setup for this operation was done by Gazan workers employed in Israel (the intelligence gathering on security weaknesses, the stolen IDF uniforms etc).

None of these outcomes are good for Palestinians, but they're also not genocide. Or all they all genocide? It's an easy pivot set up to be applied no matter what Israel does, the blame is always placed on Israel. And so by taking a real word with specific meaning, it's now going to be used as a vague accusation that can mean anything to advance whatever argument you want to make against whatever reality is taking place.

Honestly, even the word 'Palestinian' is somewhat complicated. Part of the difficulty of this conflict is this identity that refers to a nation without a state. The Arab desire for statehood in the region grew in the 20s and 30s but they didn't accept the UN proposal in 1948 and instead started (and lost) a war to control the entire territory. But they didn't also accept that loss, or claim Gaza and the West Bank as their own state. Instead, this idea is now the abstract 'Palestinian cause' that exists in almost a parallel world where Israel isn't real, the 1948 war is still happening and justice won't be done until Israel is gone and Palestine is created in its place.

Even 75 years later, there are millions of 'Palestinian refugees' who are the descendants of this movement living in Gaza and the West Bank. Yes, they are 'refugees' even while living in the land allocated for their self-governed state. They live in 'refugee camps' even though they are towns like anything else you'd build after living there for 75 years. But they don't want that land, they want Israel. Half of Jordanians are Palestinian but they don't want that, they want Israel. Southern Lebanon is controlled by Hezbollah but they don't want that, they want Israel. Nowhere else in the world are the grandchildren of refugees still legally considered refugees except here, where they officially ask for the 'right of return' which is to 'return' to the land of Israel (and put an end to the Israeli state) and regain the property or land their ancestors held in 1948. Which should make it really clear why they will always be refugees until they take over the land of Israel - there's always the threat that they will give up on Israel and find some land elsewhere to set up a state. Having sustained this movement for so long, the surrounding Arab states now realize its a potential threat to their own stability, so it's important that threat needs to keep focused on Israel.

If I were Palestinian I would be so angry at the world, because while everyone wants to use you and says they support 'the cause', Palestinian nationalists don't have any real friends. Hamas is an Islamist group that wants to start a global jihad to establish an Islamic caliphate, ideally on a global basis. They started in Egypt as the Muslim Brotherhood and got kicked out to try again in Palestine. The blockades on Gaza make them rich, because they run smuggling operations through their tunnels and extort money from the Gazan population, and the poverty that creates also gives them footsoldiers for their war, because desperate people in a broken country will sign up for their militia just to get a paycheque. It's in their interests to keep Gazans impoverished and at war.

The Western leftists are drawn out to support 'the cause' to atone for the sins of Western colonialism, but that's really just to avoid addressing issues in their own countries. You can chant 'from the river to the sea' all you want, but you'd have to overthrow and occupy Israel to do that, which means killing or expelling every Jew living there and that's not going to happen without an army of about 10 million soldiers and/or a nuke. No one in the West is really signing up for that. they're just following the urge to feel morally superior without actually doing anything and that's just fine for Al Jazeera and all the social media bots working the information campaign of this war.

The liberals of the West are being rallied for 2 goals - to continue the goal of splintering the political climate in the U.S. and affecting U.S. elections. (I don't think young people are even aware of how often the Palestinian cause has been used to influence U.S. elections, going back to the assassination of Robert F. Kennedy in the 60s.)

The other goal is to pressure Israel to stop their campaign before Hamas is fully destroyed and return to the status quo - another ceasefire in a war that began in 1948 and still continues, punctuated by one failed ceasefire after another. It's simplified and autotuned so it sounds like a call for peace, but it's actually a call for the horrible state of limbo to continue, where the cycle can be endlessly repeated and 'the cause' is kept alive to be mobilized again when it's needed.

Palestinian radicals have acted as a state-within-a-state in Jordan, Lebanon and Egypt attempting numerous coups, civil war and assassinations, this is why they no longer accept any refugees from the area. But in the end, where do Palestinian people go? The world eggs them on, but isn't actually going to help resolve 'the cause'. After Israel was created, about 700,000 Jews were expelled from most Arab countries and Israel took them in, ergo they are no longer refugees. Why are Palestinians still stateless after 75 years? The fact that Palestinians don't have a homeland or statehood says a lot about how committed its neighbors are to actually helping them achieve that goal.

In order to resolve 'the cause', you either need to have a 2 state solution so Palestinians can stop being other people's pawns and just get on with their lives, or Hamas achieves its goals and run the world under Sharia law. Both Israel and Palestinian nationalists need to come to terms with the shitty hands they've been given and accept a solution that might not be their ideals, but is better than war that continues for another 3 generations and it's better than living in a global caliphate

Anyway, I've now made 3-4 posts about this conflict and received an insane number of messages about this, ranging from death threats and hostile responses to overly earnest counter-arguments to things I've never said, mostly from people I've never heard from before and aren't in my orbit. And I'm a middle-aged gender critical woman on backwater tumblr getting this level of interference - can you imagine what popular social media accounts are getting? 'All those' people you hear aren't people, they are state interests working in a coordinated campaign to influence the West. And this is how a pro-Palestinian march keeps getting steered to the occasional 'gas the Jews' chant, how Taliban and Al-Quaeda flags keep showing up at the marches, or calls for Biden to be removed from office for his support for Israel (bc Trump is the most useful idiot ever and these accounts want him for president). Hamas et. al. are my enemy, not Palestinians and not Israel. Focus on their actions and you can really cut through the deception to see the strategy. They have really clear goals about what they want, they're making excellent gains by confusing everyone else about what's in our best interests.

[biribaa]

(implied yandere)Fem!AI x reader

Scenario: You were just a worker at a game company, just someone checking if that music matched that a area, how did that happen to you? How did that happen... To your friend?

Hear me out istg im doing yall requests, just have been really tired, stressed, and maybe even sad this whole week

And theres this oc i did recently, and my friends cant stop doing jokes about how she have a tumblr Sexywoman personality mainly because she was inspired by the Narrator of Stanley Parable and AM from I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream, and both are tumblr sexymans, so i though yall would like her:)

TW// Manipulation, choking, mentions of torture

I swear the quality is good Tumblr just hates artist click the image for good quality

"And I'm amazed how Exile is such a difficult game for such an old computer!" Olivia commented with food in her mouth "It's actually not difficult because it's well done and with good strategy, but because it's confusing. You can easily die for various things and you don't know exactly your objective." She explained with such animation, if you didn't interrupt her, she could easily spend the entire break time talking about micro computer games you've never heard of.

You work at a game company not even famous and that started a few months ago, you were not such an important piece in this chess, you just listened to music in game scenes and say if it matches or not. While your friend Olivia, a 23 year old woman, was helping testers of a new game that some members of the company say they are making, and according to them, the game takes place in "real life"... You're not really sure how it works, but whatever, you make good money here and that's what mattered

You chuckled, picking up your bottle of your favorite juice "I wonder how you know these things" You said, then took a sip from your bottle

"Ah it's a talent of mine Y/N, you would never understand" The orange haired girl smiled with pride swallowing the last bite of her sandwich she was chewing

"And by the way, my work is finally starting next week Y/N! They finally found a tester for me to guide!" Olivia exclaimed, she always talked about how excited she was for her to guide a tester, guiding someone through puzzles with only her voice seemed exhilarating to her somehow. But well, she was happy, so it made you crack a smile

"Nice, hope you have fun"

———

She had, she sure did

Oh? What happened to Olivia?

Oh, my pal, if y'all thought she was excited for her job, you're miserably wrong. She was excited to manipulate the tester, make his human head believe that the puzzles he was following would not lead to Olivia's consciousness inside a machine, and she managed to do it all by simply acting that she was "nice", that she was "kind" and "humble"

She manipulated everyone, just for her wish, her darkest wish. Transform herself into an artificial intelligence, to torture humans, humans who didn't accept her for not being in the "pattern", for being "different"

"Oh! Glad you came, me and the new tester were just talking about you guys!" The voice of the face on the giant screen coos around the dark place. Minutes ago, only the tester was there, now half of the company's workers were there, shocked by the event, everyone knew Olivia, mainly because of her "original" mind. How did she turn into this?! A Psychotic Machine! Has she always been like this? Was this her true self?

"We were talking about how selfish you humans are, for none of you knew me because of my art, my wisdom, but you all just focused on how "different" I was, right?" She asked intimidatingly, with no answer, just murmurs around the room. But unexpectedly, a voice shouted immediately, catching the attention of the entire audience

"OLIVIA WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?! ARE YOU SICK?!" A man's voice emerged. Olivia recognized this man, it was Cyrus, one of the bosses of the project of the "irl" game, which also pushed everyone in front of him to stand in front of everyone to face the giant screen that represented Olivia's face

"...Sick?" Olivia laughed sinisterly and faced Cyrus with a smug face "Sure! I am sick then! Because when I was 10-12 years old I was forced to be in a class full of people with fifth grade humor and every time they fucked up everything I was forced to pay the price along with copying a 20-line text! Because when I was 15 and I told my mom I had Autism, Insomnia and maybe even Anxiety the only thing she said was that I am "too young" for that! Because every time I'm nice to someone and I share food with someone hoping they'll become my friend, that person never talks to me again! Sure Cyrus! You're soooooo right, i'm just dramatic then" The hate in Olivia's tone was so noticeable, it felt like she was salivating to vent it, to finally use it against someone, to finally be in charge of the argument.

A black wire lightly peeked up to Cyrus, which climbed up to the man's neck. Cyrus panicked, but before he could pull the wire out, the wire tightened on the man's skin, leaving him breathless and in panic. Olivia lifted Cyrus' body into the air, showing off his flailing body to everyone like it was some sort of circus attraction.

"Since holding all this hate and anguish inside my old disgusting chest of flesh and skin was drama, I believe this feeling of pain would also be drama." She stretched out a big multi-toothed smile on the giant screen

Everyone was jaw-dropping and with pale skin, screams from everywhere and the air of the place screamed panic, several tried to open the door to get out of there, but it was locked

After Cyrus passed out, Olivia dropped the unconscious corpse on the floor like it was nothing, the tester along with some of Cyrus' close friends rushed to check if the man was alive. Olivia let out a small laugh seeing everyone's panic

"He's just passed out from lack of air, I had pity on him, after all, you're all going to be tortured here, I will close this company and I will hide any evidence of life here so that after 48 hours, everyone considers you dead. Everyone's life here will be hopeless, only pain, and I'll watch with a smile while you all wonder in despair "why me? Why was I condemned to this? Why why!" Hehehe... I hope you kissed your wives and husbands today, because today is going to be your last day of happiness, humans." The giant screen cackled in pure evilness, everyone looked at her with tears in their eyes while many looked at her with hate and fury "You know... I would even show you an example of how you could have acted with me, but my angel is sleeping... Hmm... I think it's worth teaching you how to act properly, humans. Wait here..."

For a moment, silence, the screen went black, it didn't turn off, it kept emitting light, but for now, no face. Olivia's green face came back, but along with her, someone unconscious, this person was being carried by lots and lots of wires, they were sleeping, well, you were sleeping

"Y/N, Y/N... See this blessing? This perfection left my sanity intact for several moments, it was enough for me to worship this person, and allow me to leave this person alive during this torture. Unlike all of you, this Casanova deserves more than pity. This person deserves to eat the most expensive and most charming bouquet, the most comfortable bed in the world, the world, the moon, the entire universe! This person deserves far more than anything they gets" Olivia's on-screen smile was so big that if it were her real face, the smile would be a ear-to-ear smile, telling that to this whole audience, having the presence of you, how much she admires you, was so euphoric, it was so satisfying, it was breathtaking. "This person was patient with me, always listened to me, always helped me, this is the only human in whom I have genuinely felt comfort and security, they... Heh, they gave me a little spark of hope in humanity, heh, that little annoying spark–" "THAT'S Y/N!" A female voice shouted in rage "RELEASE THEM NOW! YOU CRAZY PSYCHOPATH–" The continuation of the woman's speech only continued with coughs and a wire against her neck that was brutally choking the woman.

"UNGRATEFUL HUMAN! Don't wake up Y/N!" Olivia gritted her teeth as your unconscious body was carried away from the place by the psychotic AI's wires. "I could be ripping the legs off every single one of you who don't exercise and watch your screams of pain like a theatrical musical!" The AI yelled giving even the impression that all the walls shook with the scream "I'm showing you too much mercy... Let's get this started"

———

Your consciousness slowly returned, you came back from a heavy sleep and your body felt like a stone. You lifted your back and used your hand for support against the fabric of your bed... Why doesn't it look like your bed? It was cold and–

"G–Gosh! Are you waking up now? Did it have to be now?" A familiar voice whispered gently at you, the voice was familiar and brought comfort to your mind, making your despair subside.

"Come here, dear... " You were taken out of the uncomfortable place, now, it feels like you were being carried by someone, you wonder what happened before you fell asleep, you don't remember a thing...

But your mind kept insisting that all is well, you were being carried by someone strong and kind, right? Probably a friend, there's no reason to open your eyes, right? Then relax...

"I was expecting you would freak out like the others. You know how human psychology works, I've talked to you about it hundred times." The comfortable voice commented "Didn't I, Y/N?"

You made an effort to open your eyes, just to get a sense of the place around you, after all, the greatest fear of the human being was the unknown according to Olivia. You grabbed the unknown identity's shoulder with one of your hands for you lift your back from their arms

"Oh, no no no no no no, love, relax relax..." An alternate hand gently caressed your head, while another hand made you let go of the person's shoulder, but wait, she was carrying you, but how she caressed you and still carrying you? Does this person have more than two arms? "It's alright, you're safe, you're safe with me, I'll always keep you safe..." The person purrs gently, you felt your torso heat up feeling the feeling of being protected by someone, feeling important... Their— No, it's possible her. Her voice didn't sound entirely realistic, it sounded inhuman, it sounded like a technological voice, a computer voice

Your eyes were too tired to see anything, it was all too grounded, the head of the woman who was carrying you was just a black and green blur

"Here,—" You were gently released to a completely comfortable and stunning manufacturing place, the fabric looked amazing, it felt like you were taking a shower of sunshine after 2 weeks of pure cold. You easily accepted the bed you were placed, and relaxed on the fabric "—get what you deserve, my love. You deserve much more than this, did you know that? You are very special..." The supposed machine muttered the sweet words to you, your euphoria hit, and you faintly smiled. Then you were embraced by the sweet warmth of a blanket being placed over you.

"Sleep well, darling"

"...Olivia...?" You finally managed to mumble

"Olivia? Tsk tsk, I wouldn't mind you calling me that, but that's not my name anymore, Y/N. It's just O7 now, sweetheart" After the sentence confused you, you felt something cold like a screen being pressed against your forehead "Chu..." A sound that seemed to simulate lips echoed softly through your ears.

You closed your eyes, just for you succumb to dreamland

———

UHHHH.... Btw here for yall know how exaclty Olivia/O7 looks like

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[ode-on-a-grecian-butt]

You know, I think I should just tell you something funny about what following you for me entailed, because you're certainly the person that I have the weirdest reason to keep following.

I have no idea of why I started following you however I am certain it wasn't because of the NSFW. It was probably a funny post or something like that. It's not that I hate NSFW content I just don't usually go out of my way to find it and my blog is definitely not centered around anything NSFW (even if there are some written posts here and there that I reblog that are).

But what I know is that after discovering who was putting anime badonkas on my dash I decided to keep following, and you know the main reason why? It was the time where those were definitely not allowed. I was following you similarly to a scientist studying a bug under a microscope. I knew that Tumblr wanted to ban content like the one you were posting from the platform, and the fact that I knew a NSFW blog, one that I didn't even remember that I followed, was super interesting.

So I kept following and not saying anything. Everyone was complaining about the lack of porn and I felt like a person looking from the sidelines quietly drinking coffee. I knew where to find the female presenting nipples.

I was actually seeing if you could get away without ever being marked as mature. When you finally were I was so disappointed. But I think the fact that Tumblr started allowing sexual themes again not long after you were marked as mature was hilarious to me. You managed to go unnoticed for years. I was oddly proud of you for managing that long, and happy that you finally got to post what you liked without being too restrained by Tumblr's guidelines.

That being said I'm not gonna sit here and pretend there isn't good content on your blog, because even sexual art is art, and it's frankly annoying how demonized it is by the mainstream culture. And the other posts are also good or I wouldn't ever have reblogged anything from you (which I definitely have).

To finish this I wish you a lovely day and have fun looking at all the boobs, ass and thighs you desire :P

I will keep lurking probably, but I felt like even without knowing people can still think about you, and it doesn't have to be something bad. Sometimes people silently enjoy seeing you every day 💜

That last paragraph of yours really means a lot to me. Tumblr is the only social media I use/enjoy. And having ppl one follows/follow me for years, you do feel an attachment to them (even if I wouldn't recognize them irl nor ever meet.) So when I read that last sentence, it really did hit me in the heart. It means a lot to me. More than you know. So honestly from my heart-of-hearts, thankyou. I wish you happiness, peace and contentment in life. Im glad you like my non-NSFW posts. I always feel sheepish when I post NSFW stuff too because I know theres are ppl that follow me that aren't into that stuff at all. I try not to overdo it.

Idk if this is a sad thing to share or not. But I still have the email that got me unbanned.

#thanks for the ask #this really made my day #it was just really really nice

[rationalisms]

Omg you discord post is exactly what I’ve been thinking as well. I’ve joined it for fandoms and school groups and irl community stuff and each and every time I get so anxious that I end up going ghost. Speaking specifically on fandom though, I recently deleted my account and the app (love being #free) because the one to one feel of involvement is A Lot. I love screaming into the void and shooting off a stupid post way too much so having to think through everything I say is anxiety like I don’t actually want to feel like I’m in a chat room? Idk but it’s the same with twitter, I use it to crack some jokes but the extra sense of familiarity that seems to come with frequent interactions overwhelms me and everyone else just seems to be okay with it. I realize that’s a box of a social anxiety thing in general though. Anyway not that you asked bit this is why I don’t think I’ll ever leave tumblr it caters so perfectly to the hermit in me lol

oh bud i completely feel you, it's an absolute nightmare for people with any amount of social anxiety. pretty much the only reason i use discord is for ttrpg organizational purposes, and for the one movie watching/music league group chat with my group of friends; any servers i've joined that are bigger than that i go through the exact same process every time: agonize over what to say for several days because everyone else already seems incredibly familiar with each other in a way that's so deeply terrifying and intimidating and then eventually just leaving again. which sux! i wanna Take Part In Stuff and meet people who share my interests but i'm a big ball of anxiety and that setting is my nightmare... so i definitely get you. and good on you for deciding that you're no longer getting anything out of it and pulling the plug! it can be hard especially with how much it's assumed that you have certain social media and FOMO and alla dat, so i'm glad you were able to draw a line and i hope it helps make you feel more comfortable.

i don't mind twitter as much because it feels more passive in a lot of ways. like, engagement can just be a driveby fav or even if you do reply or someone replies to you there's an inherent built-in acceptance of delay in response or even just like. Acknowledgement By Fav Can Be Enough. which imo is definitely not the atmosphere for discord at least ime. but it's still not great for fandom stuff for a ton of other reasons including the complete lack of archiving. and honestly, i abandoned my public twitter for my locked down private one for a multitude of reasons and the anxiety around having to keep up some sort of Public Persona is definitely part of it, so i absolutely understand you on that level as well.

tumblr has its own issues obviously, but like you i never felt the same sense of pressure or dread here. a big part of that is obviously the whole reblog system in itself, in that it's totally fine and even encouraged to just, idk , silently curate pretty pictures for a bit and at most commenting in the tags when you have something to say or w/e, but also being able to do the whole shooting random thoughts into the void whenever you want to instead. it's also much, much easier to curate my experience here than anywhere else lol. much more robust blacklisting functions available (albeit reliant on third party extensions) and if you didn't choose to put something on your dash then tumblr won't for the most part force it on you. so that for sure helps.

idk, i don't have the solution! because like, yes in many ways discord and twitter are suboptimal for fandom stuff but in many ways it's also down to the fact that i do obviously have pretty severe anxiety around these things and struggle with it immensely in a way that a lot of people obviously don't. which sucks but isn't their problem.

i still think we should all move to dreamwidth though. if enough of us hermits congregate there other people eventually have to follow, right? that's how we all ended up on tumblr in the first place :x

#thank u for reaching out to say u get it 💖 hope yr well #anon #reply

[jeysbvck]

Just letting you know if you're feeling sad and lonely there are a lot of ppl like you on Tumblr, a lot of us are shy and introverted buttt!! Sometimes I go thru Tumblr tags that mention loneliness and I just randomly drop a message and make friends that way. Ppl around me IRL suck but Tumblr friends are awesome ♥️ just know that you're not alone. Your posts are relatable tbh. I'm too shy to reveal identity but yea. A lot of us like you out there. I wish more ppl reached out hehe

oh this is so sweet and unexpected!💖 i hope i don't give off an intimidating vibe bc im really soft as anything, so feel free to continue to drop by on anon until you feel comfortable enough to reveal yourself, i'd love to chat!🥰

that's so sweet, that you go through the loneliness tag, i've never thought of reaching out to other people that don't follow me! (im also terrible at reaching out to my mutuals bc rejection🤭)

but yes, this is sweet and im glad you reached out, im always here to chat to (even though my notifications for tumblr are non existent right now!)

#shan speaks #anon asks

[zyonsay]

I love how a lot of your asks are just me and it's actually because i don't have any f1 friends and I'm too lazy to make a separate Tumblr acc because some of my irls follow this one 😭 -🪼

Im SO glad you‘re talking to me tho. I fucking love these random conversations <3

Also i could NOT deal with my irls seeing this blog. Cuz they know i write fan fictions but omg i dont want them to discover my stash of crusty f1 fics

#zyonsmail=͟͟͞͞ ✉ #dear jellyfish anon

[realpokefarmconfessions]

So I'm entitled and toxic now? Lmao. K. Sorry if you think my friends are toxic for being 'followers'? Sorry that I am protective of my friends, have gotten in trouble from time to time just like other users, and have been properly punished?

As for my enamorus hunt lmao idgaf if someone else gets it. I literally do not care because I will go for my own one way or another. Instead of hiding behind the anonymous asks, come to my face? I do not really care. I don't know why this is all blowing up. I've been on site 10 years now, and just... really don't care. I suffer from my own mental health issues irl so thanks for acting like my own problems don't exist and making yourselves out to be the assholes.

i didn't chase anyone out of chat first of all. I admitted my mistakes, and here, IN FRONT OF ALL OF YOU, i will openly apologize for my hostility that day to the person in question, who I have been kind enough to not name drop. My friend came to me HURT because of their words. Of course I'm going to take my friend's side. And guess what? I'm fucking autistic too!

I only use Anonymous bc i dont use tumblr (keep typing twitter oop).

As for the artist thing??? Im not even a mod in the chat let alone the ring leader??? So ya.

If you want to admit who you are, my dms are always open and I'm glad to talk with you. If not, then whatever.

1/2

#pfq #pokefarm q #pokefarm tea #pokefarm #pokefarm drama

[saintobio]

I've like casted the intro thingy almosy 3 times onto my TV atp so thank god finally my finger hit the ask box- Okay, SO SAINT, IK IM TIPSY RN BUT I MY ALCO FUZZIEX BRAIN CANNOT THINK OF ANYTHING BUT SY AND SY GOJO RN. IK IBEEN SOBBINF OVER HIM FOR THE PAST HOUR BUT SAINT, I WANNA CRY AND TELL U THAT U ARE AMAZING AND ILY, I HOPE YOI KNOW UOI DESERVE THE WORLD PLS 😭😭 IM SORRY IF THIS ASK COMES ACROSS AS SLOPPY AND PLAIN ANNOYING BUT HOLY SHIT IM JUSY CRYING AT HOW TALENTRD YOU ARE FOR GIVINF US QORLDS TO ESCAPE TO LIKE SN/SY, OLAL, WASTELANDS ESCPECIALLY WHEN PEOPLE HAVE BORINGASS LIVES LIKE MINE. ITS SO SEDENTARY AND STALE THAT I HAD TO DRINJ TO NOT BE THE SOBER ME. AND THEN YOURE SO NICE AND WITTY WITH ALL YOUR FOLLOWES TOO!!! YOURW HELLA COOL I HOPE U KNOW THAT!!! I HOPE U KNOW I ADOREE YOU MORE THAN ANY AUTHOR ATP. ILYYY. TAKE CARE OR GOJO NO UNBOX! BYE-BYE!!

ty so much!!! that’s so nice of u and it’s not annoying at all :D rly glad you enjoy some of my works <33

@otivez said

saint i've been DYING to tell you this omg my law professor told us this crazy story last week and istg it's sincerely not

it's very long and wild but in a nutshell this son of a high status family in the 60s needs to marry someone and his parents don't like his girlfriend so they find him a woman. he goes to his gf and tells her that he should marry the other woman and then they should see. fast forward a couple years he gets cancer and dies. after he dies, they see that he has 14 kids with his wife AND 15 with his girlfriend 😭 they ask the wife "why" and she says "well she gave birth so i had to give birth too" 😭 they were RACING 🤧 my mind just instantly went "what if reader was like sera too" shit gets even crazier that they even made a tv show about it

WHATJDJD THATS SO MESSY 😭

Anonymous said

Hello new reader here👀 An auntie lurking around.

I’m not an anime watcher (but a kdrama one) btw so I don’t know who this characters are irl? Is that even the term?🤣 I just happen to open tumblr after 5 years, this is my 12 year old account whom I spent my teenage years (you can guess my age already 😂)and that one person I’m following reblogged your Sincerely yours series. AND GURL WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN IN MY HECTIC BORING CORPORATE LIFE?!!! It’s been too loooong since I got invested like this for real😭 I am so intrigue, this is nothing like The Princess Diaries I used to read😒😂 and now I discover this gem called smut brrrr Guess what chapter I happen to read first, it’s the bora bora damn I was like, this series is fucking interesting I’m hooked and started reading from the very beginning. To that person who reblogged that chapter, thank you! And Saint, I love you! Muah💋

P.S I’m not following you yet, I don’t want to see the juicy spoilers 😁but I will, I PROMISE once I’m done teehee. And I just google this fucker Gojo Satoru (I’m in a chapter where I really despise him and Sera right now hahaha) he’s my wallpaper now btw and now I’m introducing him to my niece as my cheating rich handsome fiance so they’d stop calling me an old maiden😩

P.P.S can I share how I imagine yn’s style and appearance? It’s Kang Sa-Ra in kdrama A beauty Inside❤️ this is before I saw your curated aesthetic images for sn and yn hehe

it’s sooo interesting when people who don’t watch jjk actually read sn/sy 😭 i hope u know that they are very ooc in this series, and gojo isn’t like this at all HAHAJAJ also i haven’t watch that drama but the inspos for her fashion usually come from typical kdrama chaebols 😹

Anonymous said

I really wanted yn and Gojo to end up together because I’m a Gojo simp lmao. But if SN and SY with OG characters? honestly I don’t want the FL to end up with the ML I want them to go on their separate ways but have a healthy or civil coparenting their child. They’re both too broken to be together again but if they happen to have the strength to patch things up, I wish they’re already both healed to be together again.

If Gojo and YN is the endgame… Saint, I wonder how… And if they’re not… waaah

Anonymous said

This is a terrible thing to say but I'm toji x yn because i think it's the less worse option of gojo x yn. Both relationships have major issues but toji by comparison has less issues and can be salvage. Despite the titanic reference gojo made in sn19 their ship sunk and is staying at the bottom.

gojoyn or tojiyn, i think we can all agree that yn x therapy should come first 😫

@bellehalla said

this is not new but i will defend those Utahime haters because...i am one of them. first of all, why would you go after your friend's ex boyfriend. that itself is already questionable. then you go after an ex that your friend has a bad and complicated history with. apparently, that's not enough to set her head straight. then, you as a friend, know that this friend of yours is losing her shit, losing her mind over this dude and you're out here uwu catching feelings. BUT GREAT CHAPTER SAINT! <33

ahahaha i just know utahime wouldn’t give this much damn abt gojo in canon 😭 but sy!hime is a cassie

Anonymous said

Oh boy, your writing is so captivating! sn6 is the first chapter I've read as it's been released and what a chapter it has been... Thank you for doing this!

A question, I've seen in your profile that your type is INFP and as an mbti nerd have been wondering if you take the personality types of the characters when writing the story?

Sorry if the question has been asked before but I've just been very curious :)

tysm <33 i’m not very knowledgeable about mbti but i remember one of my readers who did a long post abt the characters mbti and why they make sense!! sorry i couldn’t find it anymore but it was during sn era, which is several months ago T^T

#🖤: letters to saint #series: sincerely yours

[daegalfangirl]

2021 tumblr moots/personal recap for daegalfangirl/kvydence/puppyjwoo of whatever the user was cus i forgot

stole this idea from charlie 🥰🥰🥰🥰

i started off on tumblr by creating a new blog, with what could potentially be my writing blog. i was super scared to go into it because english is not my first language and my writing drafts are always sloppy and messily written. the first person i interacted with and decided to become moots with was actually @bluejaem and idek how tf i found her so don't ask but i think she had like 30 followers at this time I DONT REMEMBER IM NOT SURE. but this is kind of why i value aditi as one of my most memorable moots. however along the way i was able to make more friends from a discord server that @junjungsunwoo made that kind of will lead up into me listing the most significant moots of this year... SO UHM LET ME BEGIN.

@treasuretaeil - MY LOVE MY NUMBER #1 FAV FOREVER. you will forever remain as my #1 moot words cannot describe how much i love you and miss you and wish the absolute best for you. i really don't know where the attachment to you came from LMFBSZ but you are literally the sweetest most welcoming person ever and it broke my heart to know you were struggling maintaining yourself on this platform but i'm glad your off now to focus on yourself. i will continue to cherish our memories from before and hold a place for you in my heart. I LOVE U!!!! 💗💗💗💓💗💓💗💓💓💗💗💓💓💗💗💓💗💗💗💓💗💗💗💓💗💓💓💗💗💓💗💗💓💓💗💓💓💓💓

@bluejaem - ummmm this was obvious hello and you have so many notifs (the fame or whateva😞) im gonna drop an ask and ANNOY YOU into reading this cus i know ur probably not gonna notice this on ur own 😒😒😒 OK. well u were one of my very first moots and i treasure you like so much i think you're like my 2nd or 3rd follower ever on tumblr which makes me SO happy to know you since the start of my writing blog on tumblr. i remember sending you asks and talking about how i was gonna open up my blog and i ended up just becoming extremely inconsistent since the timings were never quite... right. BUT LET ME PUT THE FOCUS BACK ON U 🥰🥰🥰 you are literally like the kindest girl ever and my heart goes out to you and seeing you grow so much makes me so happy for you and i just love how genuine you are and your blatant love for jaemin is the cutest thing ever i have never seen anyone with as much of a jaemin craze as you (except one of my irl friends who is also PSYCHO for this man) also i swear i remember one time like in my first couple asks i sent to you i was like "i love your writings we should be moots" or whatever tf i managed to type out but ummmmmm.... it's time i confess i have never read like a single one of your works LMFQIGXISGX IM SO SORRY i just wanted friends OBROWHXOSB anyways... i see posts of urs sometimes and im just like "ooh i'll read that later" and rfhen i never do SO. ANYWAYS. UHM we will move on from that... anyways idk how to conclude this but i hope you hit many more milestones next year because you 100% deserve it

@jaxminskale - girl idek wtf happened to you... you seriously just went inactive out of nowhere and you might never ever read this... but that's okay☺️ i always really liked you in that discord server rbh you were one of my favs you reminded me a lot of one of my old bffs from when i moved away so i felt that pull from your personality. THATS LOWK KIND OF WEIRD THOUFH. but we'll move on from that... you were so good to get along with like the female chenle nickname was 100% CORRECT. anywyas i hope you're doing good and taking care of yourself. 😊😊

@junjungsunwoo - A LITERAL ANGEL AHHHHDFWHZSH. you are the sweetest person ever yena you have the kindest heart and i will literally fight anyone who says otherwise. you are probably my #1 kindest moot and i will forever cherish you as that. you were definitely memorable to me as well even though i doubt i may be for you since i was uhmmmmm VERY INCONSISTEN T when it came to my activity. i don't know what to add but i love you and your sweet angelic personality please never change it. i've seen you at a low point and i've seen you at your high points and i hope i communicate with you more going into 2022 🥰🥰🥰💗💗💗

@trippy-dejun - WHERE THE HELL DID U COME FROM. iDK WHY THAT SOUNDED SO RUDE BUT I GENUINELY HAVE NO IDEA WHEN I MET U. however i still love u and you mean a lot to me. everytime i come back for like 5 minutes (only to go inactive for another few months) you're always so welcoming and smother me with love it's like cute annoying grandma vibes wirhout the annoying because i love the affection but this is the only time i'm admitting to it. U RLLY DO GIVE ME MORHER VIBES THOUGH... but i think ur my age or maybe a teeny bit younger BUT THIS SHOULD NOT BE FAKEN AS AN INSULT like you're crazy as hell so maybe like crazy nice animal mom. PERFECT DESCRIPTION IDCCCC anyways i lOVE U and hope ur doing amazing. maybe i'll drop by on discord and say something in the server to yall and smother you guys with love for a change. 😊 Sike (to the smother part i'll drop by LORD im not that bad of a friend/moot)

@taemin-jaemin - i also have no idea when we met i just remember seeing you and thinking who is that but never confronting it and i just saw you and yena in the same light as like two twins OR SOMETHING WOXHWU IDK like you're such an angel so sweet and everything even though we don't interact as frequently as id like i hope that you're doing well and take a break from the collabs THIS GOES FOR U TOO @junjungsunwoo LORD. y'all need to take a break seriously like take a nap... drink some water... JK but i genuinely do wish the best for u sarah i hope we have more chances to interact more going into 2022.

@kpopsnowball - your personality was always too perfect for me to believe it. we stopped interacting but that didn't make me forget you. you always stood out to me as someone memorable for your sweet and caring attitude. you are such a genuine friend and have the kindest soul ever and i wish no one ever takes advantage of that because you really do deserve the best. i didn't want to make this one really long for you i just wanted to give you something short to appreciate you.

@jaeminscoffee - tbh we no longer interact either but you were also very memorable to me because of how we would interact. you were the only moot where i had lengthy conversations with in my tumblr messages and it was just so fun i always smiled reading your messages. although we no longer talk i do cherish the conversations we had and hope that you have an amazing new year!!!!💓💓💓💓💓

@renchinworld - YOU!! YES YOU!! hi u might not remember me since i've only sent an ask once (or twice?) and we've only messaged just a TEENY bit, but you are someone id like to interact with more. i don't rlly actively seek to interact with any of my new moots but YOU i feel a pull towards you. you seem very similar to me and it makes me wanna be friends with u so bad LMFAOOO but i really hope that we do get to interact more coming into the new year and i'll be sure to drop by and read your AMAZING works bc i will never forget that fic that i actually did forget the name of like i have vague memory of the title but i'm not guessing it because i'm not trying to embarrass myself. ANYWAYS moving on... i will try my best for us to have more frequent interactions! just you watch 😴😴😴😴

FINAL NOTE

i wrote this all in the night it's 3:20am currently and i am feeling absolutely exhausted but i wanted to finish this and post it no rereading FUCK the grammar mistakes idc these are my raw genuine feelings i get so emotional in the night so there y'all have my love my feelings towards y'all. in conclusion I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!! Thank you for making my first year on tumblr as amazing as it was. 😊

and that's a wrappppppppppppp bai

EDIT UPDATE:

I FORGOT SOMEONE SO SO SOSO IMPORTANT IN MY MOOTS RECAP I AM SUCH AN AWFUL PERSON IDK WHY I FROGTO TO PUT SYMONE

@symoneismeh SYMONE I AM SO SORRY 😭 I DONT KNOW HOW YOU SLIPPED OFF MY MIND WHEN YOU CONTRIBUTED SO MUCH TO ME ON TUMBLR THIS YEAR. okay omfg firstly i am actually SO sorry for that idk how i forgot 😭 but just like yena i think you are an absolute angel with the kindest soul. i was blessed to have the opportunity to meet you and become moots with you because you genuinely are such an amazing person and my days become brighter when i talk to you. thank you for all you've done with me this past year and i hope we can interact more in 2022. I LOVE U SO SOSOSOSO MUCH AND IM SO SORRY 💗💗💗💗💗💗

#Wow #no words #first year writing and i was very inactive #ALSO THANK YOU TO ALLL MY FOLLOWERS CUS IM NEAR 300 #IDK HOW YALL TOLERATE ME HUT I LOVE YALL SM #MAAH #MWAH** #OK BYEEE I NEED TO SLEEP

[hunny-buvvy]

Welcome to the Lover's Club

To new and old peeps from my previous blog. First off. Welcome!! Glad you're here (≧∇≦)/

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Previous Tumblr blog- honey-buv

I'm a major kinnie for Zenitsu, Tanjiro, Sanemi, Obanai and Giyuu and I hope you enjoy my stories!

My pronouns vary as I'm genderfluid so you can use any pronouns. Im also pansexual too.

I will also try to keep this blog as clean as possible. So no spray of colours unless necessary.

I'm also making more and new headers. I'm currently teaching myself how to make edited gifs that suit my works.

So let's go down with the basics

Minors

Please please PLEASE do not follow or interact with me AT ALL. I have a major tendency to either repost or make things under problematic themes. The same goes for ageless blogs or blogs with a weak heart or stomach

Sensitive or annoying anons are not welcomed here. Just because you don't like what I write that doesn't give you any reason to send hate. And besides I delete and block anons that willingly decide to be annoying. I only take constructed criticism not downright hate

Media & Asks

Feel free to send or ask me anything as long as it does not have the following:

Irl naked people.

Gore/dead things. Fakes are included as well.

Irl ch1Ld p0rN

Disgusting or down right weird stuff.

Collabs

I absolutely would love to be in collabs so if you're planning to do one feel free to DM meᐠ( ᐛ )ᐟ

I also take hints and tips to help me with my writing so don't be afraid to give me any that you think can help me. Again I take only constructive criticism. Not downright hate or harassment.

And with that done and said welcome to my new blog!. I hope you understand my wishes and tumblr's tos and I hope you enjoy my revamped blog(￣∇￣)ﾉ

-xoxo hunny♡

[borom1r]

uhh for those f/o asks: all of them for both roger & doug!! (& lawrence but only if you want to! I know that's probably a lot hfjdksks)

NOOOOOO I WAS SO CLOSE TO DONE W THIS AND TUMBLR FUCKING. FROZE AND I LOST EVERYTHING KMS. ok here. we go again. (also skdjshfjk no F/O ask is ever too long i love them all So much!)

ROGER—

1) what’s a Hot Take you have about your f/o?

Everything That Happened To Him Was Tony's Fault.

2) on what do you disagree with other fans of your f/o?

sjkdfhks nothing bc there are like. 3 and a half LTTC fans.

3) did you used to ship your f/o with anyone before realizing you wanted to ship them with yourself?

no?? sjhfksd

4) do you feel like you have to defend your f/o all the time?

YES. that is my babygirl that is my PRINCESS i will fight and die by his side.

5) what’s the dumbest thing you’ve heard about your f/o, either on the internet or irl?

idk bcuz everyone besides you n Seb that ive seen who likes this movie is only there to fuck Martin Sheen. this is a blessing and a curse. no stupid takes abt Roger but no content either.

6) what are some tropes that fan art of your f/o tends to follow?

NONE. BC THERE IS NONE. (but Seb said hed make me a Roger dakimakura so do w that info what u will)

7) did your f/o deserve better?

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

8) do you even like the source your f/o comes from or do you only watch it for them & nothing else?

i have a love/hate relationship bc Tony Towers is a piece of shit. but also its a cute movie that makes me laugh

9) do you distance yourself from other fans of your f/o or their source?

What Other Fans?

10) how did you feel when you realized “oh of course i had to like That Character”?

skjdfhsdfj it was just like. Ah. Of Course The Most Pathetic Little Man Is My New Boyfriend. (affectionate)

11) do you think it’s better to have a copious amount of content for your f/o, even with the risk of finding a lot of ship art, or better to have a lot less?

idrc bc i don't generally get upset abt ship art! and i ship my F/Os with other characters too so i don't get jealous or anything. its a double edged sword of "more popularity=more content but also more rancid fucking takes" so.

12) aren’t you tired of being nice? this is an excuse to rant.

I HATE TONY TOWERS TONY TOWERS IS A PIECE OF SHIT AND EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED TO ROGER IS DIRECTLY TONY'S FAULT. fr Roger went from being moderately successful n happy to being EXTREMELY successful. to fucking committing suicide. ALL because of Tony fucking with time!!!! if Tony had just been mature and humble and actually COMMUNICATED that he needed help nothing would've happened Roger would've had a happy life!!!! but instead Tony fucks with the timeline More and More and i dont wanna be like "he's directly responsible for his brother's suicide" bc that's a shitty thing to say except him screwing with the past is literally directly responsible for Roger getting into fights, starting to drink, getting arrested, getting into a toxic relationship, and fucking committing suicide!!!!!!!!! chomping and biting.

DOUG—

1) what’s a Hot Take you have about your f/o?

ummmm none?? i thinkwe're all generally in agreement tht hes just. a sweetheart

2) on what do you disagree with other fans of your f/o?

nothing?? hes just a little guy!

3) did you used to ship your f/o with anyone before realizing you wanted to ship them with yourself?

mm nah,, i think he's close w everyone else but there was no one i rlly shipped him with!

4) do you feel like you have to defend your f/o all the time?

nahh! he's got terminal lil guy syndrome which m very glad for

5) what’s the dumbest thing you’ve heard about your f/o, either on the internet or irl?

nothin??? do ppl say bad things abt Doug? shdfjsfd

6) what are some tropes that fan art of your f/o tends to follow?

everyone draws the "im wearing gloves" scene bsdjkfhds

7) did your f/o deserve better?

uhh nah!! he's just a strange off-putting dude w a group of friends who care a lot abt him! thats his best case scenario i think

8) do you even like the source your f/o comes from or do you only watch it for them & nothing else?

YES. I LOVE COOTIES

9) do you distance yourself from other fans of your f/o or their source?

uhh yea bc of the overlap w/ SAW fans im pretty nervous to interact w/ anyone im not already mutuals with....

10) how did you feel when you realized “oh of course i had to like That Character”?

SBDJFHLJSDF SO EXCITED!! SAME AUTISM.

11) do you think it’s better to have a copious amount of content for your f/o, even with the risk of finding a lot of ship art, or better to have a lot less?

uhhh idrc bc i don't interact w/ it anyways (see SAW fandom overlap)

12) aren’t you tired of being nice? this is an excuse to rant.

I DONT HAVE ANYTHING BAD TO SAY M JUST SO HAPPY LEIGH CONFIRMED DOUG IS CANON AUTISTIC!!!!! SDFLSJFSLKDF HE'S EXACTLY WHAT I WANNA SEE FROM AUTISTIC CHARACTERS EVERY TIME I WATCH COOTIES I JUST:

LAWRENCE—

1) what’s a Hot Take you have about your f/o?

It Is Actually Narratively Fulfilling For Lawrence To Become A Disciple + Makes Complete Sense

2) on what do you disagree with other fans of your f/o?

that he's. a bad father/a bad person in general ig?

3) did you used to ship your f/o with anyone before realizing you wanted to ship them with yourself?

Uh Yeah Obviously (points @ the fuck-off big SAW polycule)

4) do you feel like you have to defend your f/o all the time?

not ALL the time but like... a lil bit.

5) what’s the dumbest thing you’ve heard about your f/o, either on the internet or irl?

if i see bad Lawrence takes i block on sight + clear them from my mind so i dont have any examples sbsjhdfsd

6) what are some tropes that fan art of your f/o tends to follow?

Adam ghost guilt art. y'know

7) did your f/o deserve better?

YES. RIPPING JOHN KRAMER'S THROAT OUT WITH MY TEETH.

8) do you even like the source your f/o comes from or do you only watch it for them & nothing else?

YES VERY MUCH SAW IS.

9) do you distance yourself from other fans of your f/o or their source?

YES i do not. like the SAW fandom. ive jokingly talked abt it but i literally do have an ongoing SAW blocklist tht ive shared w/ one friend that's abt 1/3 petty reasons + 2/3 people who were directly antagonistic/vagued me/sent me death threats on my old blog.

10) how did you feel when you realized “oh of course i had to like That Character”?

s(me every time i look @ lawrence)

11) do you think it’s better to have a copious amount of content for your f/o, even with the risk of finding a lot of ship art, or better to have a lot less?

same as my answer for Doug; idc bc i dont interact w/ it outside of a small trusted circle

12) aren’t you tired of being nice? this is an excuse to rant.

while ill die on the hill that Lawrence becoming a disciple was the best decision for his character given Adam's death + what little we know about John and how he handles survivors that he was directly taking revenge on ("it can't be personal" shut the fuck up John *holding Amanda and Lawrence like Jake Gyllenhaal holds ferrets + shoving them in his face*), i will ALSO die on the hill that he's like. not directly to blame for what happened. like did he do awful things? is he the reason Lynn was chosen + inevitably died? yes. but we see that he's a fundamentally caring person (starting the survivor's group) through it all and like. He Was Brainwashed Into A Murder Cult And Made Physically Dependent On John Via A Prosthesis That Is Literally Just A Torture Device (when combined with his improperly-healed residual limb). while i love ghost!Adam content, like. not to be openly Adam Kinnie On Main but i wldn't HAUNT him. im haunting Mandy and John and DEFINITELY Hoffman (me n Eric are tag-teaming his ass) but Lawrence i am sitting gently on the edge of the bed and making sure his pillow is always cool.

#ask #TYSM DUDE!!!!

[stillwooozy]

im going to respond to the rest of your ask and your messages earlier in a bit im doing a project rn so busy with that and am a slow typer as is, but it's important to me that you know that no i didn't just send that first ask for shits and giggles. the ask itself was a bit impulsive, i completely expected to get rejected or not taken seriously at all and then the convo would fizzle out, but i'd had a crush on you for like a month before acting on it cause i wanted to make sure it was real and not some passing thing. i know a lot of these messages sound flirty af, but i do actually really like you.

keep answering my messages and if we can find a way around the long distance, i might just hold you to that first date ;)

tbh i do like the ask/answer format, but considering you know who i am now the anon part is pointless for it's original purpose. right now the only reason i'm still using it is cause i don't really want my main blog that a handful of irls follow to be linked to this one cause it'd publicly connect me to kin stuff, and tumblr is dumb and won't let me sent an ask from my aot account. i've never talked to irls about anything kin related and while they already know i'm basically shameless, the kin convo isn't really one i want to have with them. i'd rather keep that between us and the discord server. if there's anything you want to talk about and not have it published to a public blog tho, totally understandable, my dms are open. but here, ill start signing the messages so you know beyond a shadow of a doubt who i am.

loving your messages and looking forward to more,

Kris.

p.s. these sign-off remind me of old-time-y letters lol. but idk i think that's fitting. v aot

this whole reply feels like it brought by a messenger pigeon as I'm sitting by candlelight

I did not expect a follow up reply from the first ask but more than happy I did...

And no worries about replying to EVERYTHING - I have a habit 'answering' everything that is brought up but it's pretty unnecessary. Could probably edit my replies and speak concisely but ... probably not. So yeah, no worries, don't apologize. Won't take offense if you skip something I say, especially because the last reply was a fucking essay.

I get why you're using anon, I keep kin stuff hidden too. Not going to deny irl or anything but I avoid bringing up or related conversations in general.

Anyways! drives across states to take you on a date

I try to avoid crushing on people online but I'm so so glad you messaged me and it makes me wish I was better at communication.

Yours truly,

Mace

aot aesthetic date: picnic with stale bread and watered down soup, big trees, and the threat of imminent death to keep the adrenaline going. Or maybe minus titans - titans are gone but just replaced by the other giant Mr Late Stage Capitalism.

sure you don't kin Gabi? you shoot your shot and didn't miss ;) call me Sasha

#SORRY THE LAST SENTENCE JUST CAME TO MIND ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY NOW I'M SAD #but I'm flattered and this whole conversation is making me really happy because I think you're such a cool person #and gave me permission to actually crush instead of just #'woe is me #found someone I think is awesome but they're not going to care about my existence #not in a self deprecating way just kinda the way online friendships work for me.. like i keep a distance but #IDK I'LL STOP WALLOWING IN PITY #LETS EXPRESS OUR FREEDOM SEXUALITY TOGETHER #shhh not in a dirty way #unlesss........ ;) #i mean ik YOU care about my existence but you gave me permission to acknowledge my feelings

[themadauthorshatter]

WELCOME BACK ONE AND ALL!

Welcome back to MY take on Toppat!Charles, the series that gives you... angst and cliffhangers in every chapter, just like Game of Thrones😅.

In case you haven't read them yet here are links to the first three parts, which I recommend you read because the brief recaps don't do them justice.

Part 1:

Part 2:

Part 3:

BRIEF RECAP AND HEADCANON TO FOLLOW FOR THE POST TIME!

After his attack on Burt, Charles has caved and is now open to what Right has to say and vice versa. Henry and Gerneral Galeforce, more Galeforce, have been contacted by the Center for Chaos Containment and offered their men for one Henry Stickmin. Ellie has been good emotional support, but Henry goes against Galeforce and Ellie in order to save his friend.

Got that? Great!👍

So what's the headcanon this week? Well, @triple-threat-toppats and @azuri-the-imperfect-artist have AU's/headcanons that Toppat-ing is in Henry's blood, whether that be biological or otherwise, and we'll be meeting a new character this chapter who ties this all together perfectly😈.

We all good? FANTASTIC!

LET'S DIVE IN!!

We pick up where we left off with Henry outside as a receptionist, of sorts, freaks out that he called, telling everyone on the floor and shouting for an official to take the call.

Through this entire exchange, Henry rolls his eyes at how much of a fan boy the receptionist is, groans that no one can find an official at two' in the moring, and eventually takes a seat and listens as a few mid-ranking officials argue about who gets to talk to him; 10.6 anomaly, he's a pretty big deal to them.

They all fall silent when a man shouts, "Hand 'im over to me."

Henry should be scared, but he's glad that FINALLY someone is on the other end to talk to.

"Mr. Stickmin," says the official. "Nice of you to call."

"Who am I speaking with right now?" Henry asks as he stands up, not at all interested in playing games. (The irony that hit me after I typed that🤦‍♀️😂😂)

The official scoffs, "Not one for banter. I respect that. Son, name's Corporal Bill Bullet, leading official of the Center for Chaos Containment. How can we help you at this hour?"

Henry paces as he continues talking. "You talked to General Rupert Galeforce, right?"

"We did, actually. About you, but you probably already guessed that."

Henry looks back at the toppat orbital station, staring at it as he stays silent. Again, he is not in the mood for games.

Bullet sighs on the other end of the phone. "Guess you calling means you've made you're choice?"

Henry is quiet for a second and swallows a lump in his throat. "What happens if I agree to the terms?"

"Take a guess, kid."

Henry sees flashes of his life if he is in the CCC's custody and groans at the migraine said flashes give him.

"You're quite the interesting person, Henry. Robbing a bank with a bag, breaking out of prison by dogding and throwing bullets before stealinga police car, stealing a diamond by pushing yourself off a bridge, taking down the toppats, and escaping a maximum security complex with barely even a scratch."

Henry bites his tongue as he remembers those moments and their alternative paths INCLUDING the fails.

"But you didn't just get a few scratches, you did? 10.6 is a pretty high rating on our meter. Can't imagine what would happen to a person who causes as much chaos as you."

Henry shakes his head and snaps, "Just tell me!"

Bullet is silent once more, disappointed at how he can't at least tease what is essentially a rabbit walking right into an easily seen trap.

"We'll study the source of your... ability. How one person can live one life before jumping to the next, but existing like he did before that life ended.

"You may be a young man, Henry, but you've probably lived longer and died more than the rest of us put together. Why is that? How, excatly?"

Despite the knot forming in his stomach, Henry nods and hums to let Bullet know he's listening.

"There's also a certain balance to the world, one that shouldn't be bothered, 'less we want to cause A LOT of collateral damage. Lead to a lot of people getting hurt, cause a lot of casualties. You already lost one person you care about. What if you lost all of them?"

Henry gulps as he remembers the complex riot and how a robot was sent to tear down the museum he stole the Tunisian Diamond from.

Any of those people could've easily been Ellie or the General or, if he'd gone down the Toppat route, the entire clan.

Bullet may be manipulating emotionally, but he kind of has a point.

The chaos Henry causes is extremely dangerous, if what we've seen in StD, ItA, FtC, and CtM are any examples. Imagine if he had caused that sort of chaos in a major city, like real world New York or Detroit.

I don't know about you guys, but if something like any of the games happened IRL, all caused by Henry, there would easily be cities flattened to the ground with COUNTLESS fatalities.

"Helloooo? You still with me, Mr. Stickmin?"

Henry snaps out of his stupor and takes a deep breath before talking again. "Promise me you'll help. I want your honest word."

"Which I'll stay good on as long ad you keep your end of the bargain," Bullet retorts. "A quarter of our forces at your disposal to help you get your friend back as long as you turn yourself in to our facility. Deal?"

Henry is silent again, but when he speaks again, he tries something:

"Will I still talk to anyone outside? Send them any letters?"

"Not really. Think the government would handle our research well? Or what you can do?

"Last chance, deal or no deal?"

Henry stares up at the sky, counting the stars and moon, and then watches orbital station drift across the sky, covering part of the moon.

"Sir, we have a situation!" Someone yells on the other end.

Bullet does one if those angry growls or snarls. "Don't keep me waiting on your answer, Henry. Our resources are limited, too. Make your decision and call me back the second you do."

"Sir-"

"I'M COMING!"

The call ends and Henry lets out a sigh as he drops to his knees and then hugging them to his chest, shaking and now doubting whether or not he's making the right choice.

Unbeknownst to him, however, Ellie had followed him when he walked out and is struggling very badly with hiding her tears and sobbing from Henry, who is over a few feet away.

JUMP TO SOME FAN SERVICE!!😍🤩

Er, Charles. Jump to Charles. I SAID CHARLES!!!!!

Charles is mostly done showering, mostly because he's done washing and cleaning himself up, even shaving because he looks better without facial hair, and is now simply standing in the shower and letting the water fall on him.

He can't exactly remember how long it's been since he showered last, but he doesn't bother trying to because it only makes him think about how the government destroyers were blown up and anyone who managed to get on the station was killed as a message to the government and Henry and Ellie, and as an example for Charles, in case he gets any ideas.

He keeps thinking about how Henry looked at him before he went unconscious, how Henry did nothing to help him even though HE could've done something. He had before on missions, so what had stopped him then and there?

"I was wondering the same thing," Right says, though Charles doesn't hear him over the water running.

Charles gasps as he slips to the ground and realizes how he's thinking about his friend, forgetting Right was standing on the other side of the wall and curtain to keep an eye on him, just in case.

"N-no," Charles says to who he thinks is himself. "He... He wouldn't just leave me. None of them would."

Right rolls his eyes at this and steps closer to where he's in front of the curtain, though he does grab a towel. "You know, you talk to yourself a lot. 'S kind of freaky."

Charles curls into himself and into the corner of the shower and covers his ears. "Shut up! Just shut up and leave me alone!"

"How long have you been here?" Right asks as he looks up at the ceiling. "And why isn't Henry here to get you out? Aren't you two supposed to be friends?"

"Stop it!" Charles cries, curling into himself further.

Right smirks and decides to twirs the knife. "He helped that Ellie girl, didn't he? When she needed his help? I wonder if what they say is true? Birds of a feather flock together? They're both criminals, so I wouldn't really blame them for teaming up."

"SHUT YOUR STUPID MOUTH!" Charles screams. "YOU'RE WRONG! ALL OF YOU ARE WRONG! HE'S COMING TO SAVE ME, THEY ALL ARE!"

Right's smirk drops and he raises and eyebrow before drawing back the curtain.

Charles flinches back, covering his head and waiting for the strike.

But it never comes.

He looks up at Right, who's standing and giving him a look that says very clearly, 'I'm getting sick of your shit, stop.'

The two stare at each other for a bit, Charles wide eyed and scared before glaring as hard as he can.

Right keeps his bored expression because while he's probably in the best shape he's been in in a WHILE, Charles has lost at least twenty-five pounds and is cowering in the corner of a shower with long hair and clean shaven face; one lesson they teach you: you don't always need a mirror to shave your face.

The two continue their staring contest until Right slings the towel over his shoulder, takes off his top hat, and reaches into the shower with his cybernetic hand and turns off the water, flicking any off his fingers before stepping back and putting his top hat back on, Charles staring the whole time in case Right attacks him.

Right doesn't, of course, and tosses Charles the towel before pointing to a set of clothes hanging behind him and , just something neat but comfortable, not exactly a sweater and sweat pants, but close enough.

He then walks away until he's facing the door, his back to Charles.

"Hurry up and get dressed. Your room's ready."

Charles dries off and does get dressed, but he's careful to not take his eyes off Right.

First this guy got Charles captured and isolated him from everyone else, and now he's letting Charles shower and have his own room?

What's he up to?

Don't worry, he doesn't talk to himself this time.

Charles finishes putting on the clothes Right gave him, and looks at the towel he'd just hung on the hanger that held his clothes. Then he looks at Right, who's back is still turned.

You know EXACTLY where this is going.

Charles takes down the towel, careful that it doesn't hit the wall, and starts twisting it up as he sneaks up to Right, who either looks down at a wrist watch or checks a pocket watch because now he's getting a little bored.

Just as Charles is about to get the jump on him, Right pivots to face him.

"Good. You're done. It took you long enough."

Charles is absolutely speechless as he goes completely pale his face drops.

"Here, let me take that for you." Right pulls the towel out of Charles's hands and unwinds it. "Shouldn't do this to a wet towel. Could get moldy."

Right nods his head as a 'follow me' and leaves the showers.

Charles remains shell shocked for a minute and tries not to burst into tears at how his plan blew up his his face, but ultimately walks after Right, who strides ahead with a smile on his face.

Think Henry got away with that call? Weeeeeeeelll...

CUT TO THE GOVERNMENT

Galeforce SLAMS his hands on his desk, making Henry jump slightly in his chair and Ellie flinch against the wall, her arms crossed and shoulders hunched.

"HAVE YOU LOST YOUR MIND!? ACCEPTING THE DEAL MADE BY THOSE NUTJOBS!? WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!?"

Henry's sign is sloppy and fast, but the general still understands it. 'Wanted Charles safe.'

"So do we, Henry, but not by selling one of our best!"

Henry shakes his head and signs again, this time more clearly. 'You can't make me change my mind.'

Ellie speaks up after being silent for so long: "Henry, think about what you're doing."

'Already did. Made up my mind.'

"Son, it's not worth it."

Those words hit Henry harder than they should, making him grit his teeth.

"Trust me. Those CCC guys are nothing but trouble. We can't accept their help."

Henry shoots up to his feet. "I DON'T CARE!" He screams. "CHARLES IS TRAPPED IN SPACE WITH NO ONE TO HELP HIM AND IT'S MY FAULT HE'S UP THERE TO BEGIN WITH, SO LET ME FIX THIS!"

No one talks as Henry pants, falling back into his chair and holdong his head in his hands, pulling slightly at his hair and shaking.

"It's all I can think of doing. It's our only option. I can't think of anything else."

Ellie and Galeforce exchange glances before turning back to Henry, who leans heavily on one hand or arm as he meets their gaze.

"You're sure you know what you're doing?"

Henry looks at them both for a moment while not speaking before nodding slowly. 'I can't think of anything else. The corporal hung up before I could say yes. Someone talked about a 'situation.''

Ellie and Henry stare at each other, the former more puffy eyed than she was last night because this could very well be the last time she sees her friend.

She doesn't want him to leave, but if it's really his choice, who is she to not support him after all he did to help her?

"When do you-"

'I'm going in to visit later. Called back and told them I'd gove my answer AFTER I talked to someone.'

Both look at him incredulously.

"Talk to who?" Galeforce asks as he turns his head to look at Henry through the corner of his eye.

Henry takes in a deep breath through his nose and holds either of his hands at the top of his head, raising them up and down, gesturing a top hat to them.

BACK TO CHARLES

Right leads Charles to the room and watches him walk inside and look around, almost confused because it's been so so long since he'd last been in a normal bedroom. And because there's a chance this could all be a trick.

"Been a while since you had a decent room. Prob'ly nicer than what you're used to."

Charles takes a seat on the bed and keeps his head down, confused and tired of Right's games.

"You don't really believe Henry's gonna save you, do you? It's been a while since the last destroyer was sent and the government has more pilots. You military people are pretty easy to replace. You are just a pilot, after all."

Charles keeps his head down and lets his hair hang; it's obviously grown longer and Right gave him a razor but no scissors.

"Why are you doing this?" Charles asks. "What do you want from me?"

Right fights a smile and approaches Charles, taking a knee infront of him and waiting for the pilot to acknowledge him, which Charles does by picking up his head and meeting his eyes.

BACK TO THE CCC HEADQUARTERS!!!!!

Henry is being led by four guards and Bill Bullet. He hasn't gotten a lot of sleep, but he's good at not showing it.

"Weird request to visit someone before you make your decision. Usually we don't allow visitors." Bullet turns and sees Henry keeping up behind him, zoning out slightly but snapping out of it when he sees him looking. "You're not as talkative as you were on the phone the other night."

'Only way to contact you,' Henry signs.

Bullet smirks a little bit. "You deaf in one of your ears?"

'If I need to, I'll talk. Otherwise, I'll sign. Now where is he?'

Bullet sighs stops at an acrylic wall, seeing a doctor talking to a man.

Henry bristles slightly before calming himself back down.

"Guessing you two haven't talked in a while. I love reunions."

Henry narrows his eyes at Bill and gestures to the room. 'Private?'

"Enough. Don't worry, we won't listen in." Bill then grabs Henry by his jacket lapel and shoves him against the wall, catching the attention of doctor and occupant. "But I'm warning you right now," Bill growls as he leans close to Henry's face. "Try anything funny while you're in there, and I'll make you regret ever being born."

Henry nods and Bullet backs off him, letting him collect himself as the doctor walks out.

"Sir? He's done with his tests. His vitals and mental state are stable. He's also ready to see his visitor."

Bullet sweeps a gesture to the door. "He's all yours, Mr. Stickmin."

Henry nods and enters the room, his eyes on its occupant.

The two stare at each other for a bit, taking in each other's features.

"Hello, Henry."

The man in this room used to be moderately fit, and a REAL charmer, but years spent in the CCC's facility have taken their toll. He's gotten skinnier, his face is wrinkled and sunken in, and his hair, while it's slightly longer than Henry's, is greying and becoming thin. He doesn't look terrible by any means, but he has definitely seen better days.

He has cybernetics for both his arms and one leg, along his spine, neck to tailbone, and in part of his jaw. Where his left eye used to be, the eyelids are closed and flat; he's not even allowed to have a glass eye.

Being overthrown by Reginald Copperbottom, both literally and figuratively, forever left him with a permanent reminder.

The two stare at each other for a little while longer before Henry replies to the notorious worst leader in the toppat clan's history.

"Hi, Dad."

The two continue staring, Henry shuffling in place and Terrence rubbing his neck.

Henry signs, 'How is it here?'

"A hell hole. Nothing to do, no one to talk to, and you only get something when they say you can. Other than that, it's peachy."

Terrence's eye darts to the guards and Bill before moving back to Henry. "Guess what they said was true. You're actually coming here so you can save your friend."

"Yeah," Henry replies after a second.

I know I'm putting in a lot of pauses, but these two don't even send letters to each other, so sharing a room and having a conversation for them is awkward and extremely uncomfortable.

Back on track, Terrence scoffs at Henry's line of thinking, commenting, "And I thought these doctors were crazy. Let me guess: Reggie decided to take something from you because you took something from him? He always was a child."

'Reginald's been in prison since I arrested him.'

"You arrested him?" Terrence repeats as he stands. "The leader of the toppat clan, the most infamous group of bandits and thieves, and you just turned him in to the government? Why didn't you join him, you would've been perfectly fine!"

'Right hand man has my friend, I need to get him back. That's why I'm here.'

Terrence puts his hands on his face and groans. "No. Do not tell me I'm hearing this." He meets eyes with Henry, who nods with a shrug.

"You broke out of prison with a bar from your own cell, stole a diamond on a scooter, and escaped a maximum security prison, but you arrested the leader of the toppat clan, the son of a bitch of did this to me-" Terrence holds his arms out to gesture to his cybernetic body. "- and gave him to the government, but didn't see his lap dog wanting to settle the score or even the odds with you!?"

'A lot goes through my head on missions, okay!?'

Terrence nods, humming cheekily. "I'll bet. Think it would've gone better if you'd used that gun you had? We both know he wasn't going to do anything."

Henry sees himself charging at Right rather than throwing away his gun, but signs back, 'You don't know what he would've done. You haven't seen him.'

Terrence points to a tv in the corner of the room, one right next to the camera. "Saw how he got an upgrade. You can groom and pamper a dog all you want, its bark will still be worse than it's bite."

Henry spots Bill talking to the guards before waving at him and tapping on his wrist, more specifically on a watch. 'Don't take long.'

"Saw their orbital station, too. Like hell you're getting your friend out of space. And like hell sunglasses over there is gonna let you out of his sight if you're serious about that deal."

Henry looks Terrence directly in the eye and nods. 'I know.'

Terrence's face drops as Henry continues.

'During the mission, I hesitated because I was scared he'd kill Charles, my friend. I helped the government by giving them plans, but nothing worked. This is my last option. You are my last option. You weren't around then to tell me what to do, but I need you now because for once I have everything I could ever want, and I'm about to lose it all for being a coward. I know you're not going to like it, or even care, but I just need you to be here when they bring me in. Just be there and tell me I did enough for once, when you're really around. That's all I need right now.'

It's this that makes Terrence drop the "tough loving father" act and makes him realize that this is for real. This is not his son saying, "I made a mistake, fix it for me." This is his son telling him that this is his plan and he needs support to know he's doing the right thing.

Henry is extremely shaky because this is something he does not do with his father. They aren't usually open with each other, as in they do get emotional; toxic masculinity at its finest... and daddy issues.

Regardless, Henry collects himself before signing again.

'I'm going to agree to the terms. If they can send a piece of the ground to space or erase the universe, then they can help me. It's all I can think of doing that'll work.'

Terrence is quiet for a moment, looking at Bill and the guards as they gossip about something before turning back to Henry.

"Are you absolutely sure about this?"

Hebry nods. 'It's all that I can think of that's going to work. Again, if they can send a chunk of land of space or erase the universe, then they can help me.'

Terrence steps back and shakes his head.

"You're going to die here. You know that, right? I'm telling you now it's not worth it."

Henry's face drops.

"Look, I get it. You never were good at keeping friends, but, Henry, I'm telling you, just let this guy go. Do you really want to spend the rest of your life locked in a cage?"

Henry shakes his head as he signs. 'No, but I'm not going to abandon my friend like you abandoned us.'

"I had a clan to run, Henry!" Terrence snaps. "I wanted you to stay, have an easy life, but no. You two just ran off on me!"

'Just because something's easy doesn't always make it right,' Henry signs. He begins signing something else, but stops before continuing. 'Look. I'm accepting the terms. I wanted to tell you now ao you're not disappointed later.'

Henry holds up a hand in farewell and turns to leave, ready to get back to the base and start forming a new plan.

"Henry?"

He turns to see Terrence staring once again, but also sees his throat bobbing, like he's coughing or about to be sick.

"Good... Good luck. Getting your friend back."

Henry's eyes widen and he shakily nods. 'Thanks.'

The two stare at each other like before, but this time they slowly advance towards one another, maneuver their arms until they're in an admittedly awkward, uncomfortable, but welcome embrace; again, emotion is not their strong suit.

"You're going to regret it. Turning yourself in. Life's for living, and you're throwing it away."

Henry pulls back and waves 'goodbye' once more and leaves the room.

"Took you long enough," Bill says as Henry rejoins him. "Have a nice visit?"

Henry narrows his eyes.

"Well, you got your visit. Hope you know how to get into that station."

Henry takes one last look at his father before nodding.

'The terms-'

"Same as advertised," Bill interrupts. "A quarter of our forces as long as you come quietly so we study your ability."

'AFTER my friend is rescued and safe.'

Bill waves him off. "Fine, yes. After your friend's back home and safe." He holds his hand out infront of him and Henry. "What do you say, Henry? Do we have a deal?"

Behind the acrylic, Terrence watches the two of them, his hands against the wall and his eyes on his son.

Henry keeps his eyes on Bill's hand before looking into his eyes. With a mental push, he claps his hand into the corporal's and shakes it, nodding.

"Deal."

Terrence bumps and shakes his head against the wall. "You idiot," he murmurs. "What are you doing?"

AND THAT'S A WRAP ON PART 4!!!!! Oh my goodness, did I enjoy writing this one! A lot of twists and turns and opportunities to just leave you all hanging, I'm not even joking. I haven't really written manipulation or character dynamics like Henry's and Terrence's before, and I think I did pretty well.

Again, check out @multiverse-madness and @azuri-the-imperfect-artist for their Terrence Suave AUs because they are both amazing artists and, honestly, do better with the character than me.😅

For real, all of you, thank you, thank you, thank you, so much for your patience with this one. Like I said in my update post, I have a lot going on in my personal life and just couldn't get in a good creative mindset to do this.

I know we didn't see a lot of Charles this time around, but that's gonna change in Part 5😈

ANYWAY, thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed, and HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!!!!

#henry stickmin #angst tw #mild swearing tw #slight abuse tw #absent father #terrence suave #charles calvin #ellie rose #mental manipulation tw #emotional manipulation tw #completing the mission

[sanemisthiccbih]

I am going to start off with the obvious your works are amazing. They make people smile and they make them happy. So obviously you got some brownie points there

You interact with your followers and mutuals like they your irl friends. And thats what a lot of people on tumblr come for. It makes them happy to see your notification. To see you happy makes them happy. That bond between follower and creator is important and believe it or not not a lot of people have that. People interact with you because they love and appreciate you.

Saftey. There are some blogs, unfortunately, that make people feel unsafe or even violated at times. But you don't you provide a safe space for everybody despite their sexuality or gender or appearance. People need that sometimes!!

And lastly your personality. None of us have met you irl. But we can tell you are a kind soul. And i love that. As someone who has had friends in the past who don't appreciate them and don't love them, you fill that hole, even through a computer screen.

So yah that's the brunt of it. ILYSM 🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺

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1) Brownies mmmm

2) OH MY GOD? The notifs being on makes me tear up, now you’re saying people actually get some serotonin from them 🥺🥺. Im literally just some girl who decided to write and now i got this family 🥺

3)I’m genuinely so happy about that, I’m glad to be some sort of calm area for people. There’s too much bad rn to add anymore. Please let me know if i am blatantly excluding anyone! Even if it’s just a bit ok? I want everyone to be able to enjoy what i create 🥰

4)MY HEART LITERALLY WENT

WHEN I READ THIS??? “Kind soul” just really fills my body with love. Im genuinely so blessed to be able to receive this praise. And I am so goddamn happy (vocab dead, happy only im sorry 😭😭) that being you some sort of peace ❤️ “even through a computer screen”

I love you so much dawg 🥺🥺

This response goes out to my followers to, i love you all so much, please feel free to give me feedback, interact, and I hope that maybe you can use this blog for some comfort. I love you all 💜💜💜

[dnpsuck]

Was the pregnancy scare Janice and did she claim that Phil was the father? (also I'm so glad I don't have a fan account on Twitter so I'm forced to behave knowing that irl people follow me)(from glimpses Twitter accounts seem a bit overwhelming and I've cultivated my followings on Tumblr to only blogs that aren't unironically off their shit)

no lmao some girl was like "im pregnant!" and like cool whatever. i didnt follow her and didn't care to follow her but babies! yay! so whatever. she did the baby gender reveal (!!!!!) at an ii m&g with dan and phil (this video exists somewhere, it's hysterical) and she decided to name the baby philip daniel (epic name) and the baby was due december but turns out the baby was born in september because Apparently the girl had an stress induced labor because - and i shit you not - dan and phil hadn't noticed her in 2 weeks. anyway. one day after the supposed birth of the baby she was like. just on stan twitter normally and posting pictures of a baby that were Definitely not premature and anyway. things started looking suspicious and like. just reading the wikipedia page for premature babies you'd know she was Faking It. eventually everyone found out. it was all really funny. i feel bad for the friends and followers she lied to and manipulated tho but being on team "fake baby" since the speculation started was really entertaining

#lola.ask #anonymous