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#it doesn’t help that my long distance friend stopped talking to me altogether bc he got a girlfriend
zootopiathingz · 5 months
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I’m sorry but why am I always the one who has to make the plans when it comes to hanging out with friends? Not to sound like a bitch but I’m literally the only one who makes any effort to reach out and plan something with my friends and lately it’s been kinda draining and lonely. Why am I always the one who has to put in the effort? Why am I the one who has to suggest that we hang out? Like I’m always the one who texts first and asks to see them and it’s never the other way around, ever. If I don’t ask for us to hang out then we don’t hang out.
I know I’m nobody’s first choice, but is it too much to ask to be a choice at all?
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rk1k prompt: how long does it take for Connor and Markus to finally stop pining over each other, and what (or who) finally gets them together?
Thisone will be in headcanons bc I love varying pleasures
It takes them one year, two months and Josh to finally get over their asses.
They are ridiculously crushing on each other
Have been for ages
They spend hours on end talking to each other, they send each other messages during the day and all.
But they are also complete mess.
Markus once fell down the stairs because he heard Connor laugh from the other side of the room
Connor didn’t see this, thankfully
Connor faceplanted in front of Markus once. He was walking Sumo and Markus was running without a shirt on.
Connor’s systems stopped altogether so he stayed rooted in his spot.
Sumo didn’t stay rooted.
He started running after a squirrel and Connor just fell. Face forward, perfectly standing upright, planking and all around great fall.
He never went to this park again.
He can still hear children laughing at him when he closes his eyes sometimes.
Thankfully, they didn’t see each other that much for the first few months of pining.
Everything was fine, Connor was friends with everyone and he actually started letting go of some of his guilt
But he mostly stayed with Hank or at the police station so he only saw the Jericho Squad once a week really.
Also he didn’t want to go there too much because he never knows if he’s going to embarass himself in front of Markus. his systems seemed to be malfunctioning sometimes.
Then one day android haters ambushed Josh while he was walking down the streets, arms full of speeches, contracts, accords and other important official documents
Josh didn’t want to be aggressive but it became clear that he wouldn’t have a choice
Then Connor arrived and he kicked all of their asses without killing anyone
He had never liked violence but damn, that was impressive
Since then he developped a sort of hero crush on him and asked him to come over to Jericho more often to hang out and they should totally start tonight
Markus freaks out when he says that upon returning home
« Dude, chill I’m fine, Connor took care of them »
« I know that I started scanning you as soon as you entered the room but why did you ask Connor to come over ? »
Now Josh’s pissed and ready to defend Connor’s honour and reputation but then he sees the flush on Markus cheeks
Markus who’s also fidgeting a lot
« Oh right, I forgot about your little crush, well you’re gonna have to suck it up because Connor’s coming over tonight»
Markus squeaks and starts fretting over his clothes and hair
« You’re bald, chill »
So Connor starts coming a lot more. He hangs out with Josh on the regular now.
They have memberships at every theaters in town. Josh likes how the movies make him feel and Connor likes to think seeing humans interact will help him understand his emotions.
One day, they’re watching a movie in Josh’s room and Connor starts nodding off
Josh let him sleep and go off to finish working on some stuff he kept putting off
Then Markus goes in and sees Connor sleeping so peacefully
He freezes for twenty minutes, afraid he’s going to wake the other android up if he moves
Josh comes back and starts livestreaming the scene to the Simon and North
When Connor wakes up, Markus’s gone. He’s in Simon’s room complaining about « pretty curly haired puppy eyed men and their abilities to make him short-circuit »
Markus then decides to distance himself from Connor because he’s such a mess around him and he needs to get himself together.
So they still see each other and talk to each other but Markus doesn’t smile as much or lingers to speak with him and he’s weirdly professionnal
Connor on the other hand is moping.
His movie nights with Josh turn into moping nights. Full of rom-coms and horror movies. (It’s weirdly therapeutic)
Josh wants to hit Markus repeatedly for making Connor look this sad but Markus is also moping and weirdly intent on not talking to the detective.
Then there’s a reception with the Mayor and Connor is security.
He doesn’t do shit but stare at Markus all night.
One man is really drunk when they leave the reception and he starts being really rude to Markus
Connor’s in front of him in a second, staring down at the man and asking him to step away
Markus is the literal definition of heart eyes.
He wants to thank him and apologizes for being such a dick to him by avoiding him but Connor’s already leaving with the lieutenant.
Hank makes fun of Connor during the entire ride home.
« I don’t have a crush »
« Kid, I’m a detective, I know how you look at someone you want to bone »
« You’re insufferable lieutenant »
« And you want to have sex with android jesus »
« He doesn’t like me this way »
« I’m sure he’d like you in all sort of ways, sidewa-God why am I saying this I disgust myself »
Meanwhile, Markus is babbling about how cool that was and how Connor is probably the best android ever made and why did he even think that he had to keep his distance to protect their friendship or the well-being of androids, Connor is g r e a t and Markus want to be with him forever
Josh joins him because he’s the second biggest fanboy of Connor.
Simon threatens them with driving the car into a pole.
Markus relents and accept to just grow some balls and talk to the other android.
Connor keeps a list of some ideas to get Markus to notice him. Because he’s organized like that and he’s over Markus bullshit.
He talks about it to Josh one day and Josh makes fun of him but he relents and listen to him rant about how having a crush is so hard especially if the other person is so perfect but doesn’t seem to like you and it’s so frustrating.
Connor is ranting about loving this guy who he’s not supposed to love but he can’t help it
Markus overhears them as he’s gearing up to finally confess to Connor and he’s heartbroken. If he thought he had a chance it’s clear that he doesn’t now.
Still, he can be a good friend if nothing else so he’ll still go inside and cheer Connor up since he’s basically in the same position as himself and Markus knows how much it sucks so he’ll make sure the detective isn’t as crushed as he is right now.
Except just as he pumps himself up to go in there he hears Josh
« You do realise you can say it’s Markus,  we all know it and honestly I don’t blame you, I think everyone had a crush on him at one point. »
Connor says nothing for a long time and Markus has forgotten how to move, his stress levels are rising dramatically
« I mean, most of us had some crush on you at one point too, but have you seen yourself take down a man ? I’m not attracted to you but damn when you do that ?I would eat you up »
« Fuck off Josh »
« Gladly »
They don’t say anything for a few moments and Markus can imagine Connor fidgeting with his coin behind the door
« Don’t tell him, he has enough on his plate to worry about my feelings on top of it »
That’s when Markus decides to make himself known « Your feelings always matter to me you know »
Josh fake vomits « You fucker, that was so sappy I’mma throw up »
Connor doesn’t say anything but before Josh leaves he can see Markus sitting down on the couch next to Connor and he’s smiling timidly while Connor is freaking out, stress levels dangerously rising until Markus takes his hand in his and starts muttering some stuff he’s too far away to understand.
When he comes by a few hours later to ask them if they’d like to go to a concert North is dragging him to, he’s met with the sight of the two of them, curled up together on the couch
« Oh guys, you’re so cut-WAIT ARE YOU NAKED ? WHY ARE YOU NAKED ON MY COUCH EW GUYS GROSS GO AWAY »
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jessethejoyful · 6 years
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another bit
Hey look another chapter! This time we focus on miss Agatha and her history with Simon and Penny bc I love them
Ao3 link cause I'm on my phone - https://archiveofourown.org/works/15488646/chapters/36482463
word count: 2027
AGATHA
My parents didn’t explain anything to me until the day Simon came to stay.
We were in Grade Four together, but he’d completely disappeared from class for a whole week. Teacher hadn’t said much about his sudden absence (“Simon will not be with us for a little while; he’ll be back soon.”), so I just sort of… accepted it. So did everyone else, for the most part.
Some of the other kids liked to make fun of Simon, because we were ten years old and he could barely speak in full sentences. The most common nasty rumor was that the school had finally realized Simon was too stupid to be there and kicked him out.
I smacked one of the girls who said that.
But one afternoon, a week later, my mother came to talk to me as I was getting home from school. Helen, my nanny, had gone to make me a snack while I changed out of my uniform, and Mum came into my room and sat on my bed.
“Come sit, darling,” she had said, patting the spot beside her on my sheets. “I want to talk to you about something.” I did as she told me, hopping up beside her and leaning my head against her shoulder.
She took my hand. “You know your friend Simon, from school?”
I frowned up at her. “Yeah. I miss him, when is he coming back? Do you know?”
There was a pause, before my mother said, “Well, I do, actually. We’ve been going through some paperwork with his social worker… and he’s going to be staying with us.”
I remember I didn’t understand. “Until he can go home?”
My mother sighed. “Simon doesn’t really… have a home anymore. I don’t know how much he’s told you, Agatha, but his mother died when he was born. And now his father…” She rubbed her face, looking perturbed. “He went a bit mad and tried to hurt Simon. So the system took Simon away from his father, to keep him safe. Does that make sense?” I nodded, but I still wasn’t sure about the situation. “So Simon is going to be living here with us, now. He’ll be apart of our family. Like a brother.”
This was where it clicked. I still didn’t know how to react, though, so I just nodded again. She smoothed my blonde hair back from my face and smiled sadly. “Don’t worry too much, darling. Just think of it like an extended play date. Having siblings is wonderful, you’ll see.” Another nod, and my mother kissed my forehead. “Go ahead and change. Simon will be here this evening.” She got up and left, closing the door softly behind her.
While I changed, my mind was whirling. I was too young to really understand, I think. It took me several years to uncover the full truth of it; that David had tried to kill Simon, and had been abusing him for years before that. Simon didn’t tell me until a few years after he started living with us, which was fully understandable. That was also the reason Simon had always been so quiet at school; he’d grown afraid of speaking, because his father would hit him if he mumbled or muttered, so he chose not to speak at all.
At the beginning, having Simon living with us was difficult. He was like an injured cat, prone to lashing out, but also keeping to himself a lot. I remember keeping my own distance for a long time, talking to him when we were with my parents but starting to avoid him anywhere else, and especially at school. It had gotten out to the other kids what had happened with his father - though not the full brunt of it - and they used that against him too. While before I had been quick to defend him, by that point I was afraid of being made fun of too.
So I left him to his own devices.
As it turned out, his own devices were punching anyone who tried to pick on him. Before we moved to Grade Five, he got into six different fights. And he never won; the kids would team up on him, because they knew he’d throw the first punch, three or four against one, and then claim it was self-defense after they’d kicked the shit out of him. He was small back then, skinny and knobbly, and he never had the upper hand.
At home, when my parents would gently scold him for the fighting, he would just sit and stare. He was so despondent around us. I don’t think he really knew what to do with himself. He was so sad, and afraid, and he knew that my parents had taken him in, but he couldn’t contain the mess that was going on inside of him.
It wasn’t until we got to Grade Six that I was ready to make amends. The guilt had been gnawing at me for two years, shame over abandoning my friend when he needed me most, but I had just been a kid too. Simon reminds me of that now and then, when the guilt rises up again.
We were a few weeks into term, and the fighting had been getting worse - my parents were at their wits’ ends on what to do with him, coming home with a broken nose every other week. He’d tried to bite the court-recommended counselor they sent him to, so that quickly stopped. But I saw him, one afternoon after class, cornered in the courtyard by a few bullies.
I could recognize by then how he looked before he was going to swing: shoulders hunched forward, fists clenched, chin drawn in to his chest. He’d grown half a foot over the summer, his torso had gained mass, and I knew this fight would be different. He might win, for once, but he’d be in far worse trouble.
I’d just started across the lot when one of the other kids actually threw the first punch. It was one of the bigger boys, a tosser named Danny, and I guess he figured he had the advantage with his two cronies there, but they were both weedy and small, like rats. So I raced over, screaming and shoving myself between Danny and Simon, who both stopped swinging when they noticed me.
“Oi, Agatha, what’re you defendin’ him for?” Danny snarled, taking a step back. “Simple Simon’s just gettin’ what he needs.”
“Eat a bag of dicks, Danny,” I spat back, using a phrase I’d heard an older kid say at the store a few weeks previously, even though I hadn’t really known what it meant. I jutted out my chin, daring him to hit a girl, and he seemed to actually debate it before falling back, hissing.
“Not worth it,” he growled, turning. “Guess freaks stick together.” He and his mates slumped off, while I turned to Simon, who’d gone quiet. He was looking at me like I was some sort of aberration, eyes wide. He was bleeding freely from his nose, and there was a cut on his cheek, unbidden tears streaming through the blood and mixing together. I pulled my handkerchief from my pocket and stepped up to him, dabbing at his face when he didn’t shy away.
“Why did you help me?” he asked in his muted voice. He wouldn’t meet my eyes.
I answered simply. “You’re my brother.”
From then on, things with Simon improved dramatically. We stuck together like glue, and the fighting stopped altogether. He was incredibly protective of me, and the others weren’t as willing as Danny to hit first. They’d still lob insults at both of us, spitting rude comments at us in the halls and on the grounds, but their words didn’t touch us when we had one another.
I started going to therapy sessions with Simon, with a nice lady named Dr. Ebb who had stuffed goats shoved in every nook and cranny of her office, and who always gave us biscuits. Simon didn’t say much to her at first, but with some urging from me, he slowly started to open up. And once he started talking, it was like he couldn’t stop. Things continued to improve.
When we got to our upper years, my parents sent us to a good boarding school together. This was where we met Penny, who wound up being my roommate, which was a real experience. She was brusque and unexpected, pointedly asking all sorts of insensitive questions that for some reason didn’t bother us, but endeared Simon and I to her instead. Because she wasn’t being mean; she was genuinely curious about us and our admittedly odd relationship (She asked if Simon and I were dating, which I took to mean that she had a crush on Simon - but then she asked me out, and I gently declined, and nothing changed between us. She was the first person I told that I was asexual).
The three of us became inseparable. Penny and I had a kind of unspoken agreement between us to take care of Simon, who was prone to falling apart at random times. The fighting did stop for a long time, but there was a point during our eleventh year that he cracked a bit.
While Simon had fixed a lot of his speaking problems, and was more or less normal, a person doesn't go through trauma like he did without some lingering wounds. Small, invisible ones. Like a wicked stammer when he was nervous, or when he came across a dead bird and went into fits. There was a group of boys that took notice, and took stock, and went out of their ways to set Simon off because they thought it was amusing.
The summer before that year, he’d had another growth spurt, rounding off at just over six feet and getting even broader in the shoulders - so when the boys came after him, even four on one, he ended up on top. Victorious, nose broken, cut by a switchblade, and covered in bruises, and booted into detention for several weeks. He started doing Skype sessions with Ebb. He grew quiet again.
Penny and I stuck by him through it all - me quietly supportive, Penny loud and angry about the boys getting away with just detentions, not even as long a sentence as Simon, because he'd won. She wanted to pummel them herself, but Simon and I both talked her out of that.
One of the best things about our school, though, was the programs it offered. It was a fairly prestigious school, so it had a lot of variety and specialization in its courses of study. Simon was able to explore his interest in art, and he found a lot of peace in drawing and eventually animating. And it was clear to everyone that he had a real talent for it, so my parents gave him everything he needed to pursue it, all through high school and into uni. Penny joined him, though she followed sculpting instead of drawing, and our room always smelled like clay.
Meanwhile, I was a little sad to watch them go off to classes without me. I'd tried drawing, but it became quickly obvious I had no clue what I was doing. Which was fine, I only really tried because I wanted to be with Simon and Penny. So instead, I followed my passion for science into the biology courses, and saw less of them during our junior and senior years. But they always made the effort to include me outside of class, and we spent a lot of time in mine and Penny’s room, them sketching and creating while I made flash cards and studied very hard.
I was ecstatic when we found that the university we all wanted to attend had a good veterinary program and art program. I didn't want to admit it, but I was terrified of going off completely alone to school, though I did end up getting my own apartment while they split one. I got a dog. Everything fell into place. 
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