#it hurts my heart

[bekkathyst]

Tumblr reminding me that green did, in fact, used to exist outside

#winter without snow is so miserable 😭 #the seasons have been so messed up and wrong #it hurts my heart #if everything is going to be dead please let it be covered in the beautiful white fluff

[ladychlo]

#man the way this is a violation of privacy #this just awful #it hurts my heart #bc we have the same and worst shite here #roe v wade #roe versus wade

[liccy]

Just making the content I want to see. Downfall boys in Modern Clothing. Hyrule wearing my old comfy but lightly tacky childhood fashion sense, Legend with a short skirt and a Loooooong Jacket.

#Is it LU? #I'm not really sure #But i'll tag it as yes and no #LU fanart #Not LU #LoZ AU #Hero of Hyrule #LU Hyrule #Hero of Legend #LU Legend #Modern AU #Cake Reference #The band not the Desert #Seriously #I love them #But i'm drifting off topic here #There's a severe lack of Hyrule content #It hurts my heart #but hey... least i'm posting a draw... right?

[sporadicroadwolfflower]

Just a few panels can be so heartbreaking. Those empty eyes.

#Anya's eyes are so soulless #it hurts my heart #spy x family #sxf manga #spy x family chapter 90.5 #spy x family manga #anya forger #loid forger #yor forger

[simurghed]

what would wildbow do if i showed him the infinite & unyielding wrath of the lord

#it hurts my heart #lisa wilbourn

[purplethespian]

I’m thinking about Leelah Alcorn today.

Leelah was a 17-year-old trans girl from Ohio. Her parents didn’t support her. They even sent her to conversion therapy to stop her from being attracted to boys and from being trans. She committed suicide in December 2014. She wrote in her note that she hoped her death would mean something and that things would get better for trans people.

Nex Benedict was a 16-year-old child from Oklahoma. Their family loved them. They were indigenous. They had things that they did for fun, hobbies, a cat they loved. They were bullied at school, and they died from that in February 2024.

Nex and Leelah died nearly a decade apart. They were both trans. They are both dead. The world failed them both.

What has changed?

#just. thinking about things #ugh #it hurts my heart #leelah alcorn #zoe posts

[girlonedge]

People always scold me for buying so many books instead of going to the library, but how do i explain the heartbreak of having to bring a book that I’m in love with back

#booknerd struggles #I just can’t do it #it hurts my heart #I have to have it #mine

[goforth-ladymidnight]

Foxglove

I'm researching flowers and their meanings for Flower Language Day for Tamlin Week, and I just found more proof that Nesta and Lucien were originally endgame. (Of course SJM said as much, but it's there in the text, too. And not just because of the flames on the dresser.)

It almost makes me angry at how perfectly they were set up, only for it to be discarded in favor of... what we got. Here's why:

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FOXGLOVES: "insincerity"

Every time foxgloves are mentioned in A Court of Thorns and Roses, they're directly (or indirectly) associated with glamours.

[Nesta] sneered at the pillar of foxglove I'd painted along the edge of the table—the colors too dark and too blue, with none of the white freckling inside the trumpets, but I’d made do, even if it had killed me not to have white paint, to make something so flawed and lasting. ~ch. 2

I approached a bench in an alcove blooming with foxglove when the sound of steps on shifting gravel filled the air. Two pairs of light, quick feet. I straightened, peering down the way I’d come, but the path was empty. ~ch. 8

Nesta reached into her pocket and tossed something onto the churned-up earth. It was a chunk of wood, as if it had been ripped from something. Painted on its smooth surface was a pretty tangle of vines and—foxglove. Foxglove painted in the wrong shade of blue. My breath hitched. All this time, all these months … “Your beast’s little trick didn’t work on me,” she said with quiet steel. ~ch. 30

In folklore, foxgloves are associated with the Fair Folk, who may have given foxes the flowers as gloves to sneak up on their prey, in addition to wearing them as hats or gloves themselves.

In case my point isn't already obvious, the character in ACOTAR most associated with faeries and foxes and sneaking about is, of course, Lucien.

The stranger whirled with fluid grace. His mask was bronze and fashioned after a fox’s features, concealing all but the lower half of his face—along with most of what looked like a wicked, slashing scar from his brow down to his jaw. It didn’t hide the eye that was missing—or the carved golden orb that had replaced it and moved as though he could use it. It fixed on me. ~ch. 6

Then, in ACOWAR, we finally learn what Lucien's eye can do.

“This eye …” Lucien gestured to the metal contraption. “It can see things that others … can’t. Spells, glamours … Perhaps it can help me find her. And break her [Vassa's] curse.” ~ch. 33

Nesta can see through glamours. Lucien can see through glamours. Lucien wields fire. Nesta (eventually) wields silver flames. The narrative parallels are so perfect it breaks my heart. Even the painted dresser pointed to SJM's original plan:

I slung off my outer clothes onto the sagging dresser—frowning at the violets and roses I’d painted around the knobs of Elain’s drawer, the crackling flames I’d painted around Nesta’s, and the night sky—whorls of yellow stars standing in for white—around mine. ~ch. 2

In summation, SJM laid everything out in the text for her original endgame couples. I still don't know who Elain was originally paired with, but I'm okay with not knowing. That's what fanfiction is for, after all. And at this point, I'm more interested in Feyre/Tamlin and Nesta/Lucien.

I know the dresser also points to F/eysand as a couple (and the night sky symbolism in the text is not lost on me), but in the first book, Tamlin was the Rose to Feyre's Thorn, and Lucien was the Fox to Nesta's Glove.

I mean, yeah, it sounds funny to say it that way, but gloves are symbolic in their own way, as well. Gloves in Victorian times, for example, were symbols of a woman's purity. And what does Nesta's name mean? PURITY.

Do I need to go on, or have I made my point?

#it shouldn't make me mad #but it does #i think it's the wasted potential of this series #i like the first book #most fans don't #and that's okay #but as a writer #the fact that these poetic details were there #and then scrapped #it hurts my heart #we could have had it all #lucien x nesta #nesta x lucien #lucnes

[ithakawrites]

Thinking about Kakashi's mother, since there's zero info about her. The earliest Kakashi we know of is 5.

What if Kakashi did remember her, at least a little. She was ill ever since the pregnancy but she hung on for a few years more. She didn't pass until Kakashi was 4 or so.

In those 4 years, they were your average family. Sakumo with his fearsome reputation who took on less missions after his son was born because he was so ecstatic over his new little one, and deathly concerned over his ailing wife. He just wanted to protect his family, wanted to be there for them. He doesn't think he could be happier.

Baby Kakashi who grew up a mama's boy. Always cuddling, always cooing even as a newborn. And his mother was equally besotted. She squabbled frequently with her husband over who got to cuddle the baby and she always won because little Kakashi clung to his mother stubbornly. He's generally a quiet baby but the tantrums he'll throw when he's separated from his mother is spectacular. Those chubby fingers dug into her clothes, his round face pouting as he hides it against her. He looks just like his mama.

Sakumo settles on holding them both.

Little Kakashi who grows up very fast, able to talk by his first birthday, able to walk, but still clingy. Follows her everywhere around the house. Always found peeking around her legs, barely above knee level. Shy, but running to his father when Sakumo comes home, babbling baby talk. He's got a little obsession with clinging to their legs. And his mama will always scoop him up into her arms for a cuddle because he's so cute and she needs to hug him, blow into his cheek until his squeals of laughter fill the home.

Sakumo can barely watch them, he's so overcome with love and happiness.

When she passes, Kakashi grows up very quick. He sticks to his father, predictably, and starts learning his father's famous ninja skills.

He starts wearing a mask, because he has a sensitive nose and he doesn't want to smell everything. He wants to remember how his mama smells. The mask helps. All the new scents won't overcome the memories of the soft, sweet ones of his mother. It doesn't last forever, but with the mask on, or when he covers his nose, he thinks he can almost smell her again.

It's the only thing he has left of her, and he guards it closely.

#Hatake Kakashi #Hatake Sakumo #Hatake Clan #Kakashi's mother #Thoughts #Babykashi #Family feels #Kakashi Hatake #Sakumo Hatake #Kakashi's mom #I've always thought about Kakashi's mask and why he wears it from so young #And I love the idea of his oversensitive nose #But I wanted to think a little more on whether he remembers how his mum smells #And thus this hc was born #It hurts my heart

[fullofpuredisgust]

photographed by patrick robert, feb 1988

#i love this pic so much #it hurts my heart #palestine #photography #free palestine

[operagxreal]

i just finished good omens :(

#IT HURTS MY HEART #JUST LOVE EACH OTHER WTF #opera gx

[jjksugurugeto]

can we talk about how rested suguru looked after his psychotic break ?

he went from this:

to this, skin clear, hair washed, no bags under his eyes (bro is getting that GOOD sleep):

#suguru geto #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #kfc breakup #and for some reason that makes me really sad #idk what i'm trying to say here but #the difference is astonishing #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #and again #it makes me really sad #it hurts my heart #idk idk how to explain it #like by losing some integral part of his morality he could let go of those incessant thoughts that kept him up spiraling ??? #my post

[jaysgirlx]

there's a duo in the trio, it's always been there but it's becoming more apparent slowly :(

#✩ fragments of reality ✩ #it hurts my heart #but it's okay #cause i always knew

[muffingnf]

dont even get me started on dream changing his usmp plans because of this . if i started killing i feel like i would never stop

#doing so much for a guy who wont even respond #hes so fucking kind #it hurts my heart

[sins-spookyboogie]

He apologized again 😭. Please B understand that we know you aren't the same person now and feel true remorse for your past mistakes. We can and will move on.

You are the best Pete and we love you.

I don't think Bui knew how many people missed and looked forward to seeing him!

CR: fujoshi_you

#please i cant stand him crying #it hurts my heart #kinnporsche #kinnporsche the series #build jakapan #bible build #biblebuild #vegaspete #pete phongsakorn #KinnPorsche #kinnporsche crack #kinnporsche brain rot #kinnporsche the world tour #kp world tour d1 #kp world tour

[kurooandkenmasslut]

Sobbing I love tengen sm

Look at him 💞💞💞

#— nat talks ‹ #Hes like my comfort character #He gets bashed for no reason istg 😭😭😭 #IT HURTS MY HEART #like it aches #So bad #I just love him #All i want is for him to stop getting hated on #I saw on tiktok people having hate comments on him and i literally twared up #I feel like IM getting bashed #But im not. Im sobbing now bc he doesnt deserve this one bit 💔💔