#it legit makes me so anxious

[stonersolana]

i just realized how close i am to starting my 3rd trimester and i am anxiety 😭

#sunbun speaks #pregnancy #2nd trimester #i'm not ready 😭 #like i want my son out of me already because pregnancy is absolute hell #but also when he's out I'll have to do soooo many doctors visits 😭 #and then there's the 4th trimester aka PPD and recovery #which I'm NOT looking forward to #it legit makes me so anxious

[shadowthestoryteller]

#tf you mean i can have a panic attack so bad it appears in my dream #legit i had to have someone comfort me IN THE DREAM BECAUSE OF IT #*angry noises* #I'm not even anxious about it at this point #just extremely annoyed #like brain #the EKG bloodwork AND two docs told you our heart is FINE #SO WHAT GIVES #tw panic attack #tw heart problems #but not really problems BECAUSE THE TESTS SHOW THERES NOTHING WRONG SO BRAIN CAN WE CHILL #I hate having a sensory disorder that makes me literally feel my own heartbeat #*more angry noises* #tw heart

[scattered-winter]

woe another tag vent session be upon ye

#one of the girls in my class looks just like her. oh my god. #like im not being dramatic i literally thought it was her in my peripheral vision. #literally almost burst into tears in the middle of the room lmaooooooo #and then for the rest of the day every time i saw someone with her hair color i just saw her. #this shit sucks fr y'all i have never almost cried in public this much #and then i had to drive to pick up some groceries and fuck. #ive never been an anxious driver. i quite enjoy driving actually. #but i literally almost had a panic attack when i first pulled onto the road. i was so fucking anxious the entire time i was behind the whee #someone came up behind me pretty fast and i legit had to pull over to calm down it was so bad #so uh. not gonna be driving for a while lol. gonna kill myself or someone else doing that. #idk. idk i think this has me pretty messed up and i probably will be for a while. idk #my roommates and i finally decorated our living room and it was . fun. we laughed and made jokes and it was fun #but well. predictably i am feeling guilty over having fun now. which sucks ass from every angle #should i probably maybe make an appointment for therapy ???? probably ??????????? #idk. might be good to talk all this out out loud yk. but also i Know i will cry and i dont want to do that. #sigh. anyway. #also predictably i cannot sleep. couldnt last night either. #i might go paint in the living room. i dont know. #anyway if u read this whole rant ily ur earning the veteran's pass to Winter's Breakdown Sessions #winter speaks #personal #grief tag #<- once again if u need to blacklist. will not hold it against anybody i prommy #tw death #tw panic attack

[embithesinner]

as a digital artist this ad makes me so unbelievably pissed

#embi rambles #tumblr what the fuck #this legit feeds into one of many reasons why i always get so anxious with how long it takes for me to do an art commission #i pressure myself to get it done as soon as possible but also not make it seem like i half-assed because i always try to Never Half-Ass #just to show how much i appreciate them commissioning me at all #bottom is also cropped cuz i'm in the middle of a road trip n i ain't tryna give hints ya feel

[orcelito]

checked in for my flight tomorrow and i am hissing biting tearing @ the fact that they dont have a gate assigned for my flight yet

i know the general area since i know the airline im flying with but i DONT. LIKE. not being able to plan ahead.

#speculation nation #if they dont send me an email announcement i guess im gonna have to just look at the fancy tvs when i get there #i'll get back home someway or another. even if im grumpy about it #OH THO since i got so seriously anxious being in the isle seat for my flight here (bc being surrounded by that many people set off my #anxiety about being in crowds SO fucking badly) #i was legit considering forking over $31 just so i wouldnt have to experience that again (also bc i wanted to have a window seat to see #outside with better. bc i wanna take pics in the air this time) #BUT! it automatically assigned me a window seat. in the waaaay back unfortunately. but still a window seat #so i will hopefully not nearly have an anxious breakdown bc of being surrounded on all sides by people #no promises about my anxiety relative to general airport things! but at least i wont have to deal with the being surrounded. #plus! window seat! that'll be nice #i dont get claustrophobic in the sense of small spaces scaring me. i rather like hunkering down in a little corner. #i just dont wanna be absolutely surrounded by people like that again haha. ha.. #gonna have to wake up way too early tomorrow to get to my flight in time. and then im gonna lose two hours :/ #on top of the time on the plane. but it's ok fire emblem worked very well for making the plane ride pass quickly #so i imagine it'll be the same for this one. MAN plane ride is so much nicer on my nausea than car rides. love that for me

[triggeringtommy]

lil peep and wake n bake by myself with the pets this morning??? Slay :)

#my partners former coworker is coming over today #first time having someone over since we moved omg #my stomach has me up early anxious as fuck #like legit shittin my dick y’all I’m so nervous #we’re just gonna smoke a blunt and maybe make Mac n cheese

[seilon]

sometimes I think about the fact that through the neuropsych evaluation I had when I was 14 i was deemed to have a working memory related possibly-genetic anomalous neurological issue based on how insanely and noticeably bad my immediate recall skills were/are. and i did not learn about this and had just assumed it was adhd related until literally last year at the age of 21. because it was never addressed ever

#I’ve had so many issues in school and shit because of this and it sometimes makes me So anxious #like #like I double and triple check texts I write sometimes just because it’s so common for me to miss something small thatd make me sound stupid #or something along those lines #that and ugh god DATES. due dates. I’ve almost ruined entire final projects because I recalled a date wrong #whenever I have to enter verification codes I have to say it out loud multiple times becuaee if I don’t there’s a good chance I’ll forget #almost immediately #like it’s affected a ton of stuff in my teenage to young adult life and I didn’t know that it was a legit NEUROLOGICAL problem until last #YEAR. in my (sort of) fourth year of college??? #(sort of because i did 3 years community college 1 year of uni) #what do I even DO with that information #other than. I mean. im trying to get reassessed already but that’s primarily for autism reasons #having a hard fucking time with that though but anyway #it’s just wild to think how much of my life I’ve dealt with that without any legit help for it #kibumblabs #personal #sorry this is really out of nowhere I just. remember it sometimes #like oh yeah. i literally have a mystery neurological handicap. right

[yukinyaminyato]

so yeah here's my yesterday's cosplay 😳 posting these pics here makes me nervous but,,,, 👉👈

#yea the photos are quite low-quality bc i took them in a slight hurry + my hands were shaky lol #im holding the end of my belt in that one pic bc it's supposed to be my 'tail' eheh #i got so many compliments last night i was like 🥺🥺💞💕💖 #idk why posting these pics makes me so anxious :| maybe bc there's so many but i legit couldn't choose the best one ahaha #my posts

[lucatielsgirlfriend]

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#i get so fuckin depressed and anxious when i think about working. it confuses me when people talk about just getting a job like. #what do you mean you aren't paralyzed by illnesses when you need to make money #i legit dont know whether to try and fix this with medications first or smile through suicidal thoughts in a job i dont want or like. #it seems to be that everyone else is doing the latter? and that makes me paralytically upset because i guess i should do that one. #literally just give me a job like come on local employers you know its me <- they dont know its me #sorry worst of all i havent even tried and i know its my fault for not trying but like if i even think about it i go into like sad-shock #and tbh im not even good enough to try i dont think i could take the knock of failing so i just never tried #i just feel like a spoiled useless kid i dont know how to fix it.......

[hawkinslibrary]

so i’ve been having a rough time for a while now but this year in particular -- these last few months even -- has felt especially harsh. i actively try to keep this place as positive as possible, but i do know that things slip through every now and again. tonight’s another hard night where i just don’t feel that great about myself or anything, really

but instead of letting myself get too too deep into that negative place, i just wanted to say thank you to all of you for being here and providing me with good company and distractions from my spiraling. i’m not great at communicating and i don’t talk to too many people, but each time i do, each set i’m tagged in, each tag on a set i’ve made, things like that really do make me feel a little less alone ❤️ 

#i barely feel like a person sometimes and i'm so anxious about everything that i let it control my life #but i do have fun here most of the time and a lot of that is just existing here on this blog #and knowing that there are people who love this show as much as i do and actually like the stuff i post #like... i feel like this blog is the only really good thing i've got going for me #and you might think that's sad or embarrassing or whatever #but seeing all the edits and playing around in photoshop and organizing my blog really does make me happy #anyway... this post happened bc i was doing a job search and having a breakdown again lol #if anyone knows any legit remote jobs that will take someone who isn't good at anything... #lex talks

[agayconcept]

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#booooo i have an early morning orthodontist appt and i h8 everything #its 2 cities over #Ugh #and ofc its in an area w atrociously bad public transit #the joys #i've already moved money in my bank acct for an emergency uber / taxi if it takes too long #h8 everything #h8 that i even have to go bc #a) this orthodontist is a POS and treats me (and most ppl) terribly #b) i shouldnt even have to go bc its HIS fault my teeth moved #(took off my permanent retainer when it broke and wouldnt replace it. told me the teeth wouldnt move. they did. when i called to say so #he told me i was imagining it and making things up out of anxiety. told him no but he wouldnt listen. cut to 3 months later #and i have gaps where i shouldnt and my dentist did xrays and was like Damn Dude. they've moved a lot. go back and demand he fix it. #so now i have to do fuckin invisalign to fix the gaps before getring another wire on & its gonna cost a LOT of money that i dont have. cool #and also c) they want me to make a decision Today but i told them i need a quote to then ask insurance / disability. they threw a fit #and r def gonna do so again when i show up #ughhsgshshhs #they're also gonna blame it on my vitamin deficiencies. which ya can contribute but does Not exolain the rapid shifting my guy #that was u screwing up and now u dont wanna own up to it #he legit refused an appt w me so im seeing his colleague. real mature bro. real fuckin mature #but there's no other ortho for me to go to around where i live plus there's the whole legal thing of like. #he screwed it up so i can fight for it to be his responsibility to fix if necessary #anyway #i am anxious rambling bc i DONT WANNA GO DO THIS #i h8 dentist shit enough as it is bc of autism / anxiety / ptsd #and this office is the same one that verbally abused me as a teenager for having anxiety and as an adult for being disabled #fml #wish me fuckin luck im gonna gd need it #into the trenches we go

[orcelito]

oh yea i was also so late in leaving for my lab today that there was NO way i'd be biking in time. but i managed to catch the bus bc there was a spot for my bike so i got there on time after all <3

#speculation nation #highlight being that someone else with a bike was also catching the bus at my stop #and as i was trying to get my grip to lift my bike up this dude started putting his bike up #but like. in the front spot (since i was standing closer to the bus & gearing up to put mine on the inner spot) #and the driver legit honked at him & yelled like 'dont put your bike up before theirs! how are they supposed to get it on?!' #& the dude was properly chastised lmfao. & i just plopped my bike on up there. #i have a lot of anxiety about taking the bus with my bike bc of like. if it'll have room in the first place being a big one #but also im allergic to inconveniencing people. so me taking extra time to put my bike up and then to take it down when im getting off #it's Awful. i hate it. so i avoid riding the bus with my bike if i can help it. #but this time went pretty well actually. makes me feel maybe a Little less anxious about possibly doing it again. #i still dont wanna rely on it if i can help it bc if there r already two bikes on there then im FUCKED #but in an emergency. where im gonna be late Anyways. it's tolerable. #like lmao i usually am passed by the bus about halfway thru my biking commute to class. #but i was passing the stop right as the bus was coming up so i was like 'Whelp guess im doing this today' #the reason being. i was gaming in the morning as i ate breakfast and lost track of time a bit lsdkjflsdjf Whoops

[charliechaotic]

tfw you not only picture animatics while listening to songs but also when singing them from memory

#picturing wren sonnet my beloved #it feels so goofy to post abt my oc like hes well known #ah yes everyones favorite blorbo #wren sonnet #this anxious 16 year old boy #im sure someone would like him #i know its bad to be tumblr famous but i legit just want people to talk to smh #ASK #ASK ME ABT MY BLORBOS #ask me anything #ANYTHING ABOUT THEM #Im even making a #undertale au #with that little freak #issue is my brain hurts so I havent concepted enough to comic it properly yet even though I have some central idea #and yeah im a skelebros fan (had the idea bro ends up stayin with them!! found family fr) #unfortunately toriel dies #woopsy

[venusinverted]

reasons you can never get me to move to another site: at least I dont get spam bot dms and notifs on my art abt fake scam promotions. jfc that shit gives me so much anxiety. the first bot I see to do anything like that to my art Im killing with my bare hands

#personal #legit makes me so anxious because I hate the idea of my art being stolen #like SHUT UP GET THE HELL OFF MY POSTS #the weird thing is I probably have all the main bots blocked already #its just the periphery ones that keep fucking showing up #like gnats.

[bi-buck-coded]

Anon i literally swear on my life 🫡🫡🫡🫡

#i am literally on the edge of my seat #i am a vault i promise #i mean ok im a vault with stuff like this but fun fact i love giving people gufts so much that i legit #cant keep my presents for people secret and it makes me anxious / sad when i have to like hold on to gifts for a while #bc all i want to do is give the gift #not that anyone asked but #with like actual stuff i am a golden girl #’a friend and a confidant’ #if you will

[sharkieboi]

not to go too much into my own stuff but i’m watching a queer talk show and the guests are talking about “omg never tell a partner to relax that’s such a turn off”

meanwhile my tense and anxious self actually really appreciates when a partner tells me to relax 💀

#shhh sharkie #tbh I think it’s more I don’t realize how wound up and/or legit tense I am #i won’t get into sex stuff here rn but yeah I tend to get overwhelmed in a good way #but that means i’m still clenching every muscle even after coming 😬 #but yeah all these guests are like ‘that’s such a turnoff 100% of the time!’ #and i’m here like 😬 depends on the situation? sometimes yeah it’s rude but also sometimes #being told that in a ‘caring for you’ way is actually very good #even non-sexually. was cuddling with a friend and i was laying on him and got anxious about crushing him #so I was both trying to relax but also extremely aware of where I was resting my weight #so. anxious. trying very hard to regular my breathing and try to relax #and he (affectionately) laughed at me like ‘just listening to you try and control your breathing’ #I don’t relax easily or very willingly! #tbf the context from the show is a closeted gay man trying to sleep with women and women getting frustrated at his lack of response #but the response from the rest of the guests being like ‘ugh yeah that’s such a turn off! #and tbf if it’s said in a frustrated way I get it. #but said in a nice ‘let me make you feel good’ way. it’s nice.