#it was literally this time 5 years ago lmao

[opalthea]

also, hello padisarah nonnie !! it's good to see you again :>

i decided to not answer your ask regarding the wholeeee stuff.. because i don't really care what they want to do anymore. i've done my part of speaking up about their behaviours and calling them out - which made a lot of people open their eyes for once instead of ignoring the warnings they got from me or other people. and i think that's all i want to do.

THIS WILL FORMALLY BE THE LAST POST ABOUT THEM. I will not answer any asks regarding it anymore, so if you want to make your own posts regarding those users, please use your own platforms, thank you.

as much as i encourage speaking up, i also don't want to give a flying duck about them anymore. y'know, like, i spoke up because i couldn't tolerate them and their behaviours anymore - couldn't just keep quiet when my mutuals are knowingly or unknowingly talking to shitty people like that. if they started a new blog, just let them. i don't really care anymore 😭 all i hope is that my mutuals and those that see this are more aware of internet safety and who you surround yourself with. it was already exhausting trying to warn others about them and not being listened to until i made this shit public — i'm not going to start becoming a blog that runs on discourse just so some can finally realise that this person was shitty and that person was the devil.

thanks for also caring abt me and informing me of their new url, i appreciate that a lot! it's on my blocklist now + the mutuals they've tagged on that post too 💀 if, however, i blocked you without a good reason why, or if i blocked you before you knew of this and had already cut ties with them, feel free to send me a message or ask on a different blog! i took precautionary blocks when it comes to having those kind of people as mutuals so .. yeah.

#visitors from teyvat : padisarah anon #thea answers #the post was made because i just couldn't stand the audacity of certain people still claiming to be the victim. #imagine claiming yourself as the victim when your story wasn't even straight. #venting in public but you can't even pick a plot. were you banned or did you leave willingly first without being punished? #then proceeded to say you were wrongly banned when you were literally guilttripping the mods . what did you think- #was gonna happen when you come back? did you think our arms were open then? #you left first . to avoid consequences . now that the consequences are staring right at you #you chicken out? you curse at the effects of your actions? YOUR actions? what about the people you've affected . #you say you aren't the same person you are a year ago but you only left a few months ago and you still affect the mental health of many . #our server wasn't even a mental health server. it's a positivity server. you're supposed to use it to get serotonin boosts #or boost other people. not a place for us to be your therapists and fix your problems. #i still can't get over the fact that neither of them can get their stories straight. wdym a year ago lmao. it was literally 4-5 months ago. #and you still act the same as ever. venting about how you wanted to kys or break down when a damn post unrelated to you talks- #-abt ur fav character in a scenario where they don't love you. #do you realize that the artists and writers' works you consume are for the general and not just you. what is your logic . #and i know you see this . you vague about us all the time. did you think i didn't notice. #the only mercy i've granted you was the peace for 4 months. you tell me i was dogpiling on you but you didn't change at all . so entitled t #-your ways of thinking and what you think is right. #in the first few weeks of u in that server i was the only one who thought better of u. funny how that turned out. #cuz u didn't change then and you wouldn't change now. #idk how many times i hv to repeat this but i blocked each n every ONE of them. including their moots. #and including anyone who interacted with them. im not sorry. if you were wrongly blocked then u can shoot a dm. #otherwise stay blocked and stay mad loser L.

[tunderilona]

cant believe that the only way i could ever get into a relationship is by using dating apps........... if thats my only option i really will die alone 💀

#'meet people through your hobbies! or courses' yeah that does not work LMAO. i took a 10 month long course which was full of #people my age and the only people that even acknowledged me were the 50+ year old women 🥴 which is great btw because they were #really nice <3 but you see what i mean. #i also worked in a theater for 5 years and nothing happened i literally got approached by zero people #same in university. and same in high school obviously but that was 20000 years ago anyway #and now i have 2 coworkers and i meet nobody else. and going to clubs doesnt work either obviously bc who goes clubbing #to find someone to date lmaooooooo but sadly clubs are still my only option bc thats the only time people even look at me #i could go to a speed dating event (which id NEVER do btw. thats even worse than dating apps) and id be the one that nobody #would choose or want to engage with. or idk how those events exactly work lol

[starlit-mansion]

the weirdest part of the fnaf movie is the marketing presence made it so i had to hear people i never wanted to hear talk about fnaf talk about fnaf

#this post brought to you by being jumpscared by the fnaf bus wrap in eddy burback's new video #we finally found the down with cis bus #anyway. i really hope jenny nicholson does not follow through with making content about the fnaf movie also #it's somewhat more in her wheelhouse but also. idk i've been very conflicted about the general reactions to the fnaf movie #is it a legit criticism to say that it's only for the fans and it's awkward and cringy? what other purpose should it serve? #i feel like it would have been more legit to say that if it had been sharted out by a bigger name director 5 years ago #but you can't really like. section off a movie from being part of culture at large the way you can with a video game #but also it was marketed WAY more than i expected lmao. but also with surprisingly little movie-centric merch #so it doesn't feel like as much of a kids meal tie in merch flood as it did when it was just passing the former high water mark of peak fna #i was killing time in the gamestop at the mall recently and heard the cashier say they literally can't keep fnaf merch in stock #idk. as always. i am absolutely fascinated by every aspect of fnaf. it is such a strange little phenomenon.

[charlieism]

i have had the most beautiful day today 😌

#woke up at reasonable time day is bright sunnt beautiful and warm (rare) i wash my hair and blast music (immediate ego boost) i dress up #in fav fit do some makeup accesorise get my ass to campus bc whats the point of looking good if i don't see ppl ik AND WHO DO I SEE #but the girl i made out with at a party the other week and have been thinking about!! i was sadly sitting inside the hot stuffy full study #room bc all the outside tables wers taken & whaat did she do but appear after 5 minutes and invite me to sit at her table outside with her? #and whooo is now coming to my bday party in a couple weeks? and there was a puppy outside there the whole day i played with so much blessss #i miss having dogs. and i watched 3 and a half lectures which is the first time ive actually done schoolwork in ages lmao. & then i called #my long distance childhood bestie who's moving in w me in 3 weeks for then bumped into my other good friend at the supermarket #THEN my bestie whose also moving in next year told me her frjend would sell me some weed which is GREAT bc my plug fell of the face of the #earth 2 weeks ago :( so i got blazed w my OTHER bestie and played a literal perfect game of mario kart. win after win baby. bowser forever #jay rambles #drugs tw #i love using tumblr as a diary

[cj-kenobi]

guess who FINISHED HILDA and CRIED like a LITTLE BABY over it (it was ME i will never be the same again)

#HELP #never getting over this show ever literally never its not gonna happen #i cant believe it first aired 5 years ago #wanna go tell 15 year old me it doesnt get cancelled and it doesnt get bad it stays good stay hyped #i actually genuinely cried #NOT the first time this show has made me cry like a little baby tho lmao #i actually cried TWICE in the finale and i will admit that to anyone its not my fault its fucking GOOD #hilda netflix #hilda season 3

[pepprs]

also the way a student (🤮 @ me calling someone “a student” btw. Omg) said straight to my face “ppl are gonna keep thinking ur a student” today and i had to sit there like 😀

#purrs #it was this speed d*ting event (very inappropriately named) for staff members and student government ppl except they called all the staff as #administrators except i think out of all the staff who were there i was the only one who wasn’t an administrator 😍. and i kept introducing m #myself as having just graduated a couple months ago and i also very stupidly dressed for casual Friday and wasn’t wearing businessy clothes #like everyone else AND some of the check in questions were like for students what was the most impactful experience w admin you’ve ever had #and for admin what’s the most impactful experience you’ve ever had w a student. and im like literally you guys are the first students im #working wi th like ever in this role helppp 😭😭😭😭 and im not even an admin. so basically i had the hugest impostor syndrome the whole time on #top of not being able to even hear anything really and then that guy came in for the kill at the end and i just didn’t know what to do w mys #myself 😭 like not a single student (again 🤮 at me referring to studnets a) at all b) as if i am not ONE OF THEM bc i can’t fucking #believe om not) but not a single student is goi ng to actually believe that im a staff member for like. 5 years i think. once there are no m #more students here who knew me as one and once it’s been enough time that ive grown into my role then i’ll be fine but this yr is literally #gonna just be me trailing after * going aheem heem whimper and nobody even looking at me bc they assume im 12. fucking awesome #i hate this like 😭 i know this is where i need to be and want to be but the impostor syndrome is so real and i don’t think any of the #The Students™️ (🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮) don’t believe it either. LMAO!

[arielluva]

i replayed turnabout trump again for like. the 5th time i think??? god its such a good case

#ace attorney spoilers #i literally cannot get over the foreshadowing that only really hits when you play the case again with full context of the game in mind #'is this your idea of revenge for what happened 7 years ago' #kristoph projecting 'settling an old score' onto phoenix when that was actually HIS motive #also just the fact that phoenix and kristoph here were basically divorcing in court in front of everyone very bitterly BDKHKAD #also how kristoph's sprites are slowly revealed over time #you go from only seeing his normal ones to suddenly the one where he has his hand on his glasses #then the one where he looks up kinda evily and then the twitchy ones the hair in front of his eyes yadda yadda #they did not have to start this game off with such a banger of a case but im so glad they did #also yes i have played this case specifically 5 times though i should say i have not played apollo justice itself in full 5 times (yet) #the first time i played it i was emulating the game on citra but did not get past the intro to turnabout corner on there #the second time i got the cartridge for christmas and played through the game in full #the third time i started to replay the game only a week after beating it the first time (i don't remember if i made it to the last case) #the fourth time was another replay attempt but i stopped at turnabout serenade #and the fifth time was just today where i intend to replay the rest of the game in its entirety again #i am very normal about Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney (lying) #anyways im gonna make sure i actually make it to turnabout succession this time lmao #i dont think ive gotten to that case since i played the first time and i wanna see kristoph's final case as well as see vera again.... #turnabout serenade is always about where i stop when replaying the game #i didn't mind the case the first time i played the game but now its kind of a roadblock to me #turnabout trump is great and i love turnabout corner!! #and then there's serenade... but then there's succession!!!! #anyways NDKABDKJD #also don't get me wrong i like serenade just. not as much as the other cases

[imwritesometimes]

it's like I get really enamored with the idea of this fic but then when I sit down and try to work on it in any way I realize how much work I'd actually have to put into it to see it to completion and I completely freak out and shut down

#i write sometimes #but not really cause I don't ever write anymore #idk it's weird like I've written kinda long fics before #well.... long to me. like 17k word 10 chapter fics. for *me* that's long #and I fucking FLEW through those. like I just went for it. like a woman possessed #now I'm like god that sounds like WORK idk maybe just. don't. do it. #but then I can't stop thinking abt it. I mean I've been contemplating these blorbos and writing for them for MONTHS now #like literally 5+ months #if I would have just stayed the course and written I'd be done by now #then there's also like. The Factors. the show it would be for. the characters. #also that the show ~technically~ ended like literally 14 years ago #and I've been Unwell abt them for so long and this is so STUPID #and it's stupid that I'm reluctant to write or share fic for a show or for blorbos cause I'm nervous abt being judged for it #but then I can't even work on it even if I'm like oh well just don't share it! cause I'm like omg the WORK #anyway I'm having a totally normal one rn my Time is not at all making me devolve into lunacy like it always does lmao #erin explains it all

[vampirologist]

other ppl my age go on vacation on spring break well I do a 12+ hour work day nonpaid internship

#literally every year I have worked during some break like winter or spring instead of chilling lmao #vacation???? what’s that #I only go on vacation when my grandparents let me tag along #Last time was like 5 years ago?

[bravevolunteer]

i just realized i've never posted any of my michael art i don't think?? Have The Guy Ever

#most of these are sketches or wips (literally did the sketch for the 3rd one a year ago lmao) bc i do not have TIME but .. HIM..... #i would be unstoppable if not for The Tasks #i . may or may not have ended up filling like 5 sketchbook pages that i'm turning in with afton family/fnaf character designs tho LMAO #which im not posting bc very much under construction but no one has to know! how will they know! #⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc

[tiredsadpeach]

May not feel great rn but tomorrow I get to see my best friend and we’re exchanging gifts and then afterward I’m going with my sister to pick up a cat

#I don’t talk about this best friend on here a lot lately but he’s great and I love him #platonically and romantically #I’ve had a crush on him for uhh 9 years teehee #he doesn’t know I still feel that way or at least I hope he doesn’t because I don’t wanna make him uncomfy #we dated back in 2013 but I was a pos then and cheated on him because I give in to peer pressure #I’m serious about that btw like the chick that convinced me to cheat when we were official I went over to a friends house and she thought I #would cheat on her because I was so easy to convince the first time lmao #anyway that was forever ago and I am very very different now and would kill past me tbh for that teehee #this is the best friend that stayed with me after I cut off everyone because they stayed friends with my abuser #he’s literally the fucking best and I love him so much and I hope we always stay friends despite my Crazy lol #but also CAT INFOOOO okay so me and my sister went to our local pet store and they partner with a specific shelter? idk I can’t give the #name out because the only pet store listed on their website is the one we go to and that’s too much info about where I live lmao #ANYWAY I was more just showing her the two 4 month old brothers I saw the other day because they’re cute and I was hoping I’d see they were #adopted which they weren’t but they’re chatty kittens they’ll be gone soon tbh probably snatched up for Christmas #but so I had just been there two days ago on the 16th and we went on the 18th and one new cat was there #a 1 1/2 year old black cat named Morticia!! she was so cute they had a hot pink collar and bell on her and her file said she gets along well #with dogs and other cats (perfect for us we live with our parents still so full house) and it said she loves to be held and talked to ☹️☹️☹️ #and her arrival date? the 16th so I just missed her but ALSO that’s one of our family dog’s birthday he turned 5 that day!! #also learned today Morticia had three kittens who have all been adopted and you’ll never guess their names #Wednesday pugsly and thing teehee #the fact that cat is just named Thing is so fucking funny #anyway my sister was petting her and she rolled into it ☹️ got head scratches and ear rubs and THEN I was filling out the application for he #while we waited for our parents to call us back and Morticia LAID HER HEAD IN MY SISTERS HAND ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️ #so yeah my sister fell in love and the naming matches so well with her other cat who is about 2 years old now who’s a long haired tortoise #named Magnolia !! she’s a really chill cat who when it comes to other cats if the cat likes her she likes the cat but she’s also the younges #cat we have rn but my cats half adore her and half dgaf like my older two just want to be left alone by the animals and loved on by humans #but my younger two (8 and 5) still act like babies and run around like kittens so they love magnolia and she loves them so I have no doubt #Morticia is gonna fit in just fine and we don’t have to change her name!! #idk about y’all but we like always change our pets’ names when we adopt them and sometimes I’m glad we do because we have an anxious big #mutt doggie and we named him Chimmy which worked out well because he’s kinda silly and goofy and yknow neurodivergent but his og name?

[naturenaruto]

anyways 30 really does indeed Hit Hard so if i gave any advice to anyone itd be to think about your life like youve just gone back in time, time travelled to 5 years ago. pretend ur life got worse in the future but you got to go back, what would you have changed 5 years ago? what was the biggest problem you had 5 years ago?

is the same stuff still a problem now?

#like 5 years ago my biggest problem was that i didnt have a job or money and lived with ppl i didnt want to be around #5 years later i do have a job and live alone and am not around those ppl #so thats something to feel good about! #a problem back then has been solved #so a helpful thing for me is to just go down a descending list of Problems I Used To Have #and start at the top to see if theyre still a problem and then go to the next one #so the next one after that would be my health and thats what i need to focus on next year #bc that was a problem my entire life chronic issues tht i just ~mever got arouns to fixing #but now doing that will greatly improve my life so #for anyone not yet 30 lmao you have time #another thing is to think of it like the debt payment concept where you pay off the smallest payments first #so think of like the smallest fixable problem and fix that then go up the list #but for me i know that so many of my snall problems are caused by the bigger problems #so fixing the small ones wouldnt really help me personally all that much so i do the opposite and by fixing that one big problem #soooo many of the little things just literally dod magically disappear #bc they werent the source of my problems they were just side effects of the big stuff #but i understand that most ppl wont be able to go after that one big thing so soemtimes working on smaller stuff helps first #it just depends on how you feel these things are caused by or if theyd be gone if you fixed something else

[stevebabey]

hi ruby <3 just wanted to congratulate you again on your follower milestone! super well deserved that so many people continue to read and praise your lovely work and bearing witness to ur silly posts and reblogs (i personally love to see it)🫡 i wasn’t able to celebrate with you because uni has kept me insanely busy but i’ll be sure to enjoy what you’ve put out so far AND i’ll definitely be joining the next one!!!!

loving U 🫶

hi bee <3 hehehe thank u for the love honey u make me GOOEY with all ur nice words 😭 u rlly do have to bear witness to my stupid posts if u want to get to the writing LMAO but thank you for sticking thru it im v sorry u missed the celebration!!! i hope uni eases up for u soon lovey MWAH

#next one.... #about that #im sa sorry but lord knows when i'll be doing this again #that literal last time i did one of these before was 2017 #thATS LIKE NEARLY 5 YEARS AGO #so maybe don't hang round for it lmao #they're a lot of work as i've found #ruby talks #moots my beloved <3 #asks #answered #love u sm #im sending so many kisses bro #u can even count them all thats how many im sending

[juroguro]

feeling stupid proud of ian

#im really glad he's privating his vids too. def the right move to make there #i went back and watched the tana vid bc i always thought of that one as like an obvious like. i am being an asshole and you should not be #an asshole type of satire from the beginning. but like hearing him say that stuff i was like. oh ppl were taking it serious cuz he was being #serious. like 😰 #i just entirely miscategorized that memory lol. and probably did the same for the rest of his old videos. not gonna return to those ever #probably. glad i've never felt nostalgic about his content lol #and now it's squirrel time :) yippee!! #i hope he makes more vids like the stim toy one soon :) it's nice seeing him actually enjoying what he's putting out #and documentaries!!!! #also i'm typing this wearing my sheep hoodie rn lmao. honestly im too afraid to look back at that content cop rn cuz. i like this hoodie #it's comfy 😭 i don't want to burn it #mostly unrelated a few months ago i finally took a look at a design on this sweatshirt i've had for like 5-6 years that i always wore and #saw that it literally had a slur on it??? and i was like HUH????? WHAT???? #so i just wear it at home now 😭 it's too comfy i don't want to give it up 😭😭 #just some journaling #cc #edit: AW HE CHANGED HIS HEADER!!!! ON THE SECOND CHANNEL!!! it's so special :D!!!!! #also clarification i do still feel mega nostalgic about the cc vlogs. also always been too scared to watch those because they have such a #pleasant vibe in my head. maybe i will look at one now #edit again: i watched the zoo vlog with max :) happy!! #i will shut up now

[happyvalkyrieofdoom]

I think my trusty MP4 player that I’ve been using on an almost daily basis for about a decade is preparing for a happy retirement

#so basically for some reason something seems to be pressing on a lock button #so when you use it the player locks all the buttons all the time so it got really difficult to use it #it happened a couple of times some time ago but now the player locks the buttons immediately after i unlock them #the other thing is that when that lock button is pressed when the player is turned off it turns itself on for a moment #so when i woke up at night today i've seen my player turn itself on and off a couple of times (which was a little bit spooky lmao) #(i wasn't scared though because that already happened once or twice i think) #and i think that because of that the battery runs out alarmingly fast #like i was charging the player for an hour today in the morning #and when i wanted to use the player in the evening the battery ran out after like 5 minutes of me struggling with it lmao #so i think it had to turn itself on and off again throughout the day (which i've noticed once but it probably was more times than that) #so... yeah #now i have to put my music somewhere else #but i'm happy that it served me well through all those years lmao #also sorry for literally writing a full-length novel in the tags lmao

[thebirdsandthebats]

Okay @s-p-r-i-n-g-t-i-m-e I’m sure you know plenty BUT I’m going to use your wonderful and hilarious comment on this as an excuse to talk about Bernard, bc I realized recently that there are plenty of ppl who haven’t read most of the comics he’s been in. So get ready for my long overdue:

UNPACKING BERNARD DOWD + HIS TRAUMA (for those who cannot keep up with comics but want to get to know him)

So to start, Tim met Bernard years ago ofc, when they were in high school. It’s established pretty quick that Bernard is an extremely Unserious guy LMAO, the first thing he does is literally circle Tim and try to feel him out socially, see what kind of guy he is. He’s the kind of guy who gets himself in trouble with his big mouth, and seems to enjoy poking at Tim and testing his patience. By the time we meet Bernard again in the recent years, he’s grown a lot, but at his core he’s still the light-hearted, fun, goofy guy with very strong opinions. Just less stand-offish, maybe

Throughout the time Tim spends at this school though, Bernard does experience some wild shit. He lost Darla (somebody he really cared about), he experienced a shooting at his school, and then Darla came back from the dead, kind of scared the hell out of him, and used him to contact Tim again. It was kind of played for laughs, but like. That’s gotta fuck you up. (Robin #140)

Obviously this is the kind of thing that maybeee has a lasting effect on you. And BECAUSE Tim Drake: Robin got cut so short and the writer had to rush to wrap up the series, we’re left to fill in a lot of gaps and draw conclusions about the years we didn’t see Bernard ourselves. But we absolutely get some insight as to his life after Tim left that school and we stopped seeing him in the comics. Spoiler alert: it was hard.

In TDR, Bernard discusses the the cult that he’d been in that Tim saved him from in Urban Legends. He says that “he’d accepted himself”, but others hadn’t. Obviously there’s the natural reading that he means his queerness (which has me chewing through drywall), but I think that he’s speaking very broadly too. Bernard is a very odd example of a civilian, because he’s always getting dragged into things much bigger than him. And even before that, he had his big ideas, his conspiracies, his loud personality. He tended to rub people the wrong way in high school. Then in issue #7 of TDR (the Bernard pov issue my most beloved, weird pacing aside) Bernard refers to this “oozy, sticky feeling” that he ALWAYS feels when Tim isn’t around. He says when he’s alone it’s harder to put one foot in front of the other. To keep GOING. To wake up every day.

I think that Bernard has always felt like an outcast. (Robin #121, he doesn’t fit into any clique). He wasn’t as okay with it as he acted. And I think he wasn’t getting any attention from his parents. (Batman: Urban Legends #5, Bernard’s parents nonchalance to the days leading up to his kidnapping)

So just like Bernard explained to Tim, that feeling got bad. and he wanted to let go. The chaos monsters, the cult, all of it was a means to an end. But then Tim agreed to see him again, and I think that sparked something in him. Because he started learning to fight. When he was tied down to that alter and Tim was saving him, I think it fully sank in to Bernard that he didn’t want to die. Reconnecting with Tim gave him hope and made him really feel something good for the first time in ages.

So now that they’re dating after the cult fiasco, we get to know this current Bernard. A less goading, maybe calmer Bernard. But he’s still himself, of course, rambling about his ideas and making bad jokes and sticking to his guns (he has NEVER been a pushover, no idea where people get that idea?). I think a lot of people complained that Bernard mellowed out too much in terms of attitude, but I think if he seems “nicer” it’s because 1) he’s grown now. It’s been a while since we last saw him, and he’s clearly changed a lot. And 2) because he’s dating Tim now. He likes him a lot, and he’s an affectionate partner. He wants to lift Tim up.

But the fact that he was pulled into a cult still remains. And as lighthearted as Bernard tries to be, that traumatic experience still happened. It said in Urban Legends #5 while Tim was searching for him that Bernard had welts on his arms and legs and had been acting different, so it’s not like he was just snatched up on a whim. He’d spent significant time there. For those who haven’t read much abt the ways cult trauma specifically can fuck you up, I recommend doing a search if you’re in a good headspace for that and want to understand him more. because it’s pretty bad.

And then! yeah. you guessed it. Bernard gets kidnapped again. Chained up next to a BOMB that’s counting down. RIGHT WHEN HE’S WORKING ON HEALING FROM ALMOST BEING SACRIFICED BY A CULT.

And surely this can’t get crazier. He’s almost died twice in the past 6 months. except, remember his parents? In TD:R #7, we really see a little more of his relationship with his parents. He doesn’t live up to their standards, and his dad specifically seems to just want to argue with him. The restaurant they’re at is attacked, and everything goes to shit, and. you know, I think these panels really speak for themselves.

And for the record, when it’s revealed that everyone is seeing their worst fears, Bernard’s parents fears are not about him.

So now Bernard has to deal with that. And we start to see that Bernard is really not as okay as he’s tried to be. He keeps a baseball bat by his door because he’s been kidnapped twice now. And just when he’d likely thought things couldn’t get worse, he heard the Chaos Monsters were back. I can’t imagine he feels safe. He lashes out for the first time since all this has happened and yells at Kate and Tim, because while they’re doing what they feel is necessary to save more people (AND I DONT BLAME THEM AT ALL), Bernard can’t talk about it.

And I will forever be sad and insist that TD:R got cancelled too soon, just before we could get into the really juicy stuff, because things had to be wrapped up pretty quick and this was the only comic Bernard was consistently appearing in. But when Tim is giving himself up to the chaos monsters, Bernard goes out and rallies anyone he knows can help. Things were rushed because there was no more time to flesh out the story the way it could have been, but I’m including these panels just because I love Bernard Audacity Dowd using a fucking flashlight and shadow puppet to call Batman. geeking out for a minute. And then leading the battalion to save Tim with a SLEDGEHAMMER. gay people rule.

So yeah! While I see the vision of how a lot of Bernard’s trauma was meant to be semi-resolved and let him come to peace after saving Tim back, we just didn’t have the time for him to heal properly. I’d give anything to get inside his brain again. UHH IF YOU READ THIS I HOPE YOU LOVE BERNARD NOW and don’t come at me if I left something out, some of my comics aren’t with me rn. Bonus TimBer for the road:

#WHEW IT TOOK A WHILE TO ORGANIZE THESE PANELS #Hes NOT BORING he is SO FASCINATING TO ME #i think his character is just not being utilized the way it could be #I didnt source every panel so just ask if you want to know where something is from! #bernard dowd #batfamily #dc comics #tim drake #timber #timbern