#it was v non-canon but it held such good balance between gore-revulsion-fear & beauty-softness-desire

[babybabyaphrodite]

hm. i think, as a woman, vampires being so perfect only to be so broken just hits so right. to be beautiful and forever young and captivating. to be marred with trauma and have your soul covered in blood that you can’t scrub away and be such a cheap imitation of true humanity when deep down you are just an animal looking for what will satiate the gnawing need you can’t quite place.

i can always draw parallels where i want, but this feels specifically potent. ofc i’m drawn to media ab seeing & accepting someone as being perfect & debased.

#i’m sure non-women can feel this way too! i just think it’s a different exp growing up identifying as female #ppl in my tags keep telling me i’m autistic so mayb thats part of it too idk i don’t have time to unpack that #i read a life changing fan fic & that inspired this #it was v non-canon but it held such good balance between gore-revulsion-fear & beauty-softness-desire #vampires #twilight #twilight renaissance #twilight revival #alice cullen #cullen family #edward cullen #jasper hale #rosalie hale #esme cullen #bella cullen #carlisle cullen #emmett cullen #bella swan