#it would be interesting if she didnt lol

[hirokiyuu]

olivace's mom is interesting bc he doesn't really talk abt her but also like. man. being left as a child fucks you up. being left by a parent who's supposed to care for you and help you Fucks You Up. esp if that parent has just left you with your abuser like......... man

#ive got a thought or two abt her but nothing too specific #'flexibility' or lex/lexi for short....... #au jam'd some stuff abt a helio/stratos swap out and in that we put her in command but im not sure where she'd go in canon #besides Away From Vace's Dad #i feel like she probably dies during the crash but i have to say #it would be interesting if she didnt lol #tho i dont think they ever reconcile regardless u kno #i dont think theres anything there to save. i dont think either of them would want to #i dont really even think there's any way for either of htem to necessarily get closure abt the other #IDK ITS INTERESTING it might be interesting to explore in the wake of post therapy vace #i think in some way his dads physical abuse is more 'acceptable' than his moms abandonment to him u kno #he doesnt really talk abt the second the same way he talks abt the first u kno #bc his dad is a physical pain and his mom would be emotional #idk im curious. it never comes up in his endcards but im curious if anything would ever come of it #guy who is thinking abt this bc shes reading dont fear the reaper rn LOL #teenexo shit #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers #abuse talk #teenexo stuff

[ganondoodle]

someone commented on an old post of mine that sonia wasnt fridged bc shes relevant to the plot and i have been thinking about it for an hour bc i dont think thats an actual get out of jail card for that .... also ... what does she do? be raurus way to cement himself as da king? give some half assed advice to zelda, that has no pay off unless you count zelda time reversing a bunch of weapons*, and then immediately dies just so zelda can essentially replace her and make rauru regret he didnt stab ganondorf right when he showed up in their temple i guess ?? (which is questionable on its own imo)

(*its not a good pay off for powers she was suddendly revealed to always have had(tm) and also is only ever used to .... welll, get zelda out of the way back in time, reverse a few weapons and .. idk create a ham fisted way to give the player her gimmick?)

even if she doesnt technically meet the requirements(lol?) to be called fridged like .. she is spiritually at least for how irrelevant and cheapely killed off she was

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #totk #idk man #be honest were you surprised by her death? #she first time she appeared she basically had a sign around her that said murder me VILLAIN #also i guess you can count her i guess having never mentioned babies with rauru off screen or sth #bc how would zelda have both their powers beign a super super distant relative #i guess there are ways to do that with other relatives and whatever was going on with the ancient hero (uuuugh) reveal #but the way she said it was like #das our 10 000 times removed grandkid or however that works in english #nhjdfkgfjknkgf #like maybe im misremembering something #but you cant tell me she didnt at least FEEL fridged #like when i saw the cutscene i thought at first oh she was just punched no way shes gonna die from one punch- #-i wonder what she will do no- oh she is dead lol #totk is all just subverting ma expecations by making me hopeful for something interesting only to reveal it is the most boring way actually #i cant get over the intro giving me the tiniest crumb of oh thats how zelda being your companion could wor- aaand shes gone bye bye zelda #for the rest of the game

[bunkernine]

Society if Azula raised kuvira 🙄

#purposely avoiding the firebenders are bad arc WHATEVER SURE but the way the fire nation is just not there is UGLIER!!!!!!! #zaheer being an airbender is awesome. amon being bloodbender is like lol ok fine. unalaq doesnt even register 2 me that didnt happen #why not just make varrick crazier 💀 #idk kuvira and azula have opposing values which is why they would be interesting as a dynamic #but still they coulve went from kuvira to amon to zaheer or a to k to z? #the earth queen can die any other way cuz literally them killing her and then trying to capture korra were their only faults mentioned 😭 #they never talked about the actual ideologies 😭😭😭 whatever anarchy whatever #but anyway going from zaheer and p'li to how kuvira is willing to give up bataar 😰🙄😫 LOVE DOESNT WIN?????? NOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! #also wish korra lost her bending for a longer time but fucking crazy she lost it in the 1st place #but whatever this show is fun im not the biggest fan of like the mecha stuff but SAD whatever

[theygender]

My gf finally found a video game that she's interested in and tracked down a copy of it at a local used game store, so we spent tonight playing Ghostbusters: The Video Game (2009) on my old PS3 and eating pizza that we ordered straight out of the box and I think it fixed me

#by 'we played it' i mean she played it and i backseat drove and provided encouragement lol #it was a lot of fun tho! i like video games a lot but shes never really been interested in any game before #but she had a lot of fun with this game and i had a lot of fun watching her have fun #i didnt realize how much i missed just like sitting with someone and watching them play video games #my brother and i used to do that all the time. just take turns on the console and watch each other play #it was nice to do that again. its like a bonding activity for me #and staying up late playing video games AND eating pizza straight out of the box would have been like my dream as a teenager lol #now WE'RE the adults and no one can tell us no 😌 #<-guy who has work at 9 am tomorrow #rambling

[wildtornado-o]

Something about how out of all of the portraits on the wall in Neos house, the one with Roman is the biggest and in the center. Something about how that shows just how important that moment in her life, where he stood by her and made her feel more loved than her parents ever had, is to her. Something about how out of all of them, thats the one she put her current self's image into, wishing to persist there forever, with him in that moment.

#the portraits themselves are seriously sooo interesting thooo #like obviously theres the main one thats on the cover of Roman Holiday #but then theres the one that shows how her parents were distant and just bought her things she didnt really want to keep her satisfied #then how the one with Neo and Roman sitting above her parents bodies is right after that. a highlight and the high point of her life #only for her to be alone and finding cinder next back to being small and used. #rwby v9 spoilers #*feeling small not being small #Brb gonna listen to one thing again and cry #Ugh i would still love for a softer version of one thing or smthng but i doubt its going to happen lol #birds-chirps #sorry if this post is incoherant im sleepy djsjs #*incoherent

[snickerdoodlles]

having a lot of thoughts right now at 4am about chay being ruthless

there’s a specific animorphs quote i’m thinking of:

"People don't understand the word ruthless. They think it means 'mean.' It's not about being mean. It's about seeing the bright, clear line that leads from A to B. The line that goes from motive to means. Beginning to end. It's about seeing that bright, clear line and not caring about anything but the beautiful fact that you can see the solution. Not caring about anything else but the perfection of it." — Marco, The Reunion by K.A. Applegate 

specifically the bit: It's about seeing the bright, clear line that leads from A to B. 

now, i dont think chay from season 1 is ruthless. but i very much see him as having the makings of it. chay has a very simple and direct approach to things; he sees something he wants, so he pursues it (he asks his idol for lessons their first meeting, he doesn’t let kim skip out on tutor lessons, he confesses twice because he had a homework goal and then a personal goal, he wants the truth so he confronts kim that same day, etc). and we see this theme of ‘chay has a goal, chay pursues goal’ most often with kim because they specifically foil each other in this. kim has a grand speech about making sacrifices to achieve your goals, but he’s stagnant between the world he was borne into and cant fully leave because of his brothers, vs the soft bright world he wants to be in but cant because he comes bearing blood. this directly contrasts with chay, who pursues his goals fullheartedly and recklessly

now, chay's not ruthless. not...yet. but there’s also these little...hints of a ruthlessly practical mindset to him. the most standout point for me in this regard was episode 1 when porsche is worried about his uncle. he’s sent arthee away, but he’s still planning “how do i get uncle out of trouble, and how do i maximize it?”

but chay? chay’s straight up like “uncle’s problems aren’t ours, lets just runaway to go live your dream of owning a bar on the beach”

i love this scene between porsche and chay so much. not only is really heartwarming, but i think it rly solidifies who they are as characters right off the bat. porsche is a caretaker. he takes care of everyone around him, whether he has an obligation to or not. but chay is fully ready to just leave their uncle behind. uncle interferes with brother’s and mine’s future plans? then no uncle in future plans. chay doesn’t even seem to mourn nor care that his uncle, one of his two caretakers left, is just gone from his life after ep1. like...that’s a really cold assessment for a teenager to make about one of his two living family members (that he knows of)

for me, what holds chay back from tipping into any sort of ruthless so far is mostly his naivety. not innocence (chay is not innocent yes i am still fighting on this hill), but he has certain expectations of the world that don’t necessarily match what the world is. to me, this shows most clearly when he sees warning flags (”...how do you know i have a brother?”) but is fully willing to ignore them in favor of pursuing his original goal(s) instead of taking the warning flags into account. and since he doesn’t plan for them, when some of those flags grow into actual problems, they really trip him up in ways he’s not prepared to handle. but he doesn’t have that any more at the end of season 1

if we do get a second season, i would be v curious to see where chay’s character develops. im apparently the outlier lol, but i actually really love where kim and chay ended in s1. they were on a trajectory to crash in the middle and instead they missed and landed where the other started. kim, the kid running away from the things he’s always wanted, puts himself out there with zero expectation or surety that chay will reach back. chay lingers over the video, unsure if he wants to respond to it or block it, so he throws his phone away to deal with it another time. and it’d just be really interesting to see how these two characters would react following the same trajectory the other one originally did, but coming at it with a very different background/development. and for chay specifically, i would just rly love to see how his ep1 “lets just abandon uncle to the debtors and go live our dreams on a beach” hints might come back/come into play in a mafia world setting

#this is v stream of conscious like. this isnt anything super serious. 5am is not a time for serious lol #anyways. i have. thoughts. #didnt want to expand in the post bc this is SO very much thumb tacks and strings and headcanons but. i also want to see chay's ruthlessness #and how it might mirror/follow namphueng's ruthlessness specifically #my read on namphueng is that she's playing her own game. and whatever game she's playing for her survival. she did it knowing that she'd hav #*have to abandon her sons and that she cant/wont reveal anything to them right away #there's some fun ideas to play with there between porsche's phoenix symbolism and korn's chess bs #so i would rly love to see like. porsche v much takes after his dad in his caretaker and big heart traits #where as chay is v much namphueng's son and they have a bright clear line between point a and point b they'll pursue without hesitation #there's a fun playground in there between chay and korn but that probably interests me exclusively bc it relates to talk shit get hit series #lol ANYWAYS i personally would love for namphueng backstory and a namphueng backstory that includes her selling out her original family #specifically (i mean the family the theerapanukuls killed and took her from). then namphueng tried to get away from them #that would be v fun for me its the top of my s2 bucket list #btes if ive misspelled anything shhhhhhh its 5am ive been up since before 7am spelling isnt real #this isnt rly meant to be anything lol just. been keeping me up all night. oof. #kinnporsche #mine: kinnporsche #pls stop saying chays this weeping willow or doe-eyed bambi or innocent bean or whatever i am so tired lol #chay did not abandon his uncle to the wolves for this kind of slander lol #he did not sell himself like he was living a y/n fanfic for you to box him into innocent maiden tropes #he didnt push every step of his and kims brief relationship for yall to make kim the dom lmao #.......promise im done. this isnt a tag whine lol. its just like. idk. did yall forget the shit chay's pulled in canon #he's the same wavelength of insane as kim thats why they work #tag rambles #tag rambles: kinnporsche

[majjiktricks]

it irritates me when a story introduces a loveless character and they always use that as a symptom of their trauma. like its something that needs to be fixed. something wrong that makes them sad, pathetic, or cold... i would like to see a character who is introduced as not interested in romance or relationships, who is able to grow and develop and heal without needing to "find the one" for their happy ending...

#jazz noises #i got thinking about why i stopped watching peaky blinders the first time #i did eventually cone back to it and i love the show its great #but it bothered me how they turn an enemy into a sudden romance with tommy. hes introduced as no longer interested in relationships after #being in the war. and i almost hoped he would stay that way. because i liked him and wanted to share something in common with him. #but then they had him get married and have a child and a TWO YEAR TIMESKIP #or something like that. to put him into domestic life with a wife and child and suddenly i didnt want to watch it anymore #i did come back to it. she dies relatively quickly lol

[upsidedowngrass]

look, i know cheesy mostly answered that liam would listen to metal 1) because he was put on the spot and 2) likely because its funny to imagine liam ‘literally just some Standard Guy’ plecak as listening to music far more intense than he is, but tbh?? it is so fitting. like yeah, thats abt right for him. i cant even figure out how to explain how/if it coincides w what we see of him but like. its just the truth

#hfjone #hes literally so silly #bryce drives him to see a band he likes post one #and bryce is like. i thought you were gonna listen to fucking beatles covers. what #amelia ? also wouldnt have heard much music like this pre one but i think shed be SO interested #liam and amelia just chill on the floor listening to the loudest music possible #and bryce doesnt seem like someone who would care for like. more intense and noisy music #so hes like. wtf #(charlotte would join amelia and liam obv. bryce is on his own) #all four of them end up seeing a band together and bryce feels like hes herding cats #bc liam and charlotte both try to join the mosh pit and bryce is. hell no #and he has to force amelia to wear ear plugs (she is simply very invested in the music) and shes so sad #she doesnt take them out bc yeah ok that makes sense. but shes sad that the music is no longer as loud #(amelia and liam have a headache for two days after bc liam never put any in and amelia was sdidnt have any for at LEAST an hr) #(bryce tells them yeah. thats your own fault) #(he still gets them some ibuprofen tho lol) #also if this seems rambly its bc i went to a metal concert recently and it was fun and i acquired new knowledge #(idk if its the type of metal liam listens to esp since i am a bit new to the genre. but i still know things i didnt know b4 #and now i can write these highly specific interactions better now)

[narwhalandchill]

ANYWAY now that ive gotten my firefly rant off my chest and on a more positive note about the story overall; i Really liked it!!!! and character-wise specifically the biggest surprise for me in a huge W way was actually acheron??

& given i was actually somewhat committed to pulling her anyway (well. initially as kafka replacement to pull my first lightning carry after losing 50-50 but. Well. she had mercy on me at the v last moment thank goodness 😭😭) so actually ending up liking her character this much just cemented that resolve for good too. cant wait for her!!! like i am still meh on her base design not bc its that bad by itself but simply bc seeles existence just cheapens it so much like. Why are they so similar. but its not bad lmao

anyway to her actual characterization. first of all. the VAs delivery omg yall beidous english voice is already one of my all time favorites in genshin and shes doing an amazing job as acheron like. she started talking and im just INSTANTLY warmed up to her just from that KDJSKDKJK i love love love her attitude and energy!!!!!

n personality wise too??? like ive seen others mention a similar sentiment but its just the way how. even after getting the warnings from now Two separate characters that shes up to no good. im just like. "nah id win" abt it SHSKDKSI like throughout the story she comes off as so damn likeable and grounded and realistically friendly (as in not like. too open n aligned w the player from the get-go to feel believable for the character as opposed to a plot contrivance) that i just. even if shes bad news im team acheron truly.

she has genuinely funny one liners too ??? like not necessarily jokes outright but the kinda comments she says are just . very realistic in that dry witty way that comes off as natural and entertaining shes so charming!!! i love her. the more contemplative stuff she says too

but also like. girl whats up w the ominous red text ily but are we cool 😭😭 and the whole shredding us into thin slices on first encounter in the dreamscape like. Ok uhhhhhhhh ik i said nah id win and team acheron forever but this is kinda. worrisome

BUT that just means im so fucking excited to see her go apeshit too lmao like. oh shes an emanator here to do murder and spread death? COOL i hope she has fun!!

(and ik i said firefly rant over but. what the actual hell is that post firefly merk dialogue option where the games like very heavy handedly implying ur supposed to be blaming ACHERON for "letting it happen" in some emotional frenzy???? bro what 💀💀 0/5 moment i would never. n even if she plausibly did im just. dude her being cold towards firefly is just a plus for me when the narrative has just railroaded the TB into being sooo charmed by her magical presence lmao i Liked that acheron was suspicious n cold)

overall Definitely wasnt expecting acheron to establish herself as such an instant favorite for sure but. shes here now and im v happy abt it im super looking forward to seeing those more dubious goals of her come to the forefront in the future like. im so curious about whats up w her and her memory and that red text and everything

#also honestly unintentionally hilarious moment from acheron when she jist. asks for directions to the lobby too 😭😭😭😭 #anyway. overall i wonder if theure like. making a point of setting up the 'suspicious' characters to turn out far more benign #than appears at first glance #and have the more like. omg friendly people. turn out more involved in the shady stuff #like to a degree it already happened with aventurine. whole time everyones playing up how shady he is but #ultimately he really didnt do that much in terms of actually harming us? he was surprisingly straight (lol. lmao) w us throughout #like Obviously hes acting in full self interest but i do overall v much agree w black swans assessment of him too #that as a businessman it does matter how he handles his deals. now obviously he could turn out a whole lot different in the future #but nonetheless. point being he wasnt all that nefarious compared to how he was presented as #whereas both acheron and (sigh) firefly do kinda have that initial friendliness and then later on turn out to be #Not what they seem . which isnt like a twist or anything its just interesting #tho i suppose its less whos more or less trustworthy at first glance and more just. everyone lies on penacony #just depends on what their aims are to truly know whether they stand in opposition w us ultimately #acherons strange bc like of the cast rn. truly would trust her the most just based on vibes . which might not be smart 💀💀 #logically the most quote unquote trustworthy are swan n aventurine methinks . swan bc she said she wants more of my memories for her stash #so she wants us alive on both a personal basis and as a memokeeper #n aventurine bc he sees us as his own investment in whatever gamble hes undertaking #so cold as it is. we are very valuable to those 2 as assets so like they might hide things n mislead but they dont want us dead lol #anyway v much looking forward to the future developments #hsr #rambles #hsr spoilers

[awek-s-archived]

ok sooo people who have me blocked are stalking me apparently so just wanna clarify that y’all do not even have the decency to talk to me off-anon about the stuff that bothers you which is why we have beef in the first place. i absolutely will shade you knowing that you shit on me for months, while pretending to be my friend, twisted my words about something because you wanted a justification to block me, cry about me ‘crying wolf’ when i get crazies in my inbox like it’s normal to hound someone for letting out their feelings on their own blog .. on anon as well .. furthermore getting in your feelings about me being white complaining about whitewashing, ok! in that case, from now on, i’ll be whitewashing all of my content too, since it’s problematic that i try not to. that seems to be the logical explanation since whitewashing asian ppl seems to be ok with this community. not to mention the fact that well, you have people keeping tabs on me despite the fact you hate me and have me blocked yet continue to spread lies and twisted words to literally everybody you come into contact with, and are obsessed enough with me that you have to check everything i say on my own blog.

i’ll happily say the name of the people i have beef with but then y’all will have to explain why you twisted my words, why you pretended to be my friend when you were bothered by my general existence and wanted to block me all along, why you didn’t ask me to clarify what i meant during the ‘drama’ period (i already know the answer though, it’s because you wanted justification to have me blocked), why your friends are keeping tabs on me despite the fact that you have me blocked, why it bothers you what i say on my own blog, etc etc. the whole point of this drama is that i THOUGHT WE WERE FRIENDS and evidently got in my feelings about finding out LAST that i was actually hated all along but i guess being in my circle was good enough to ignore the things about me that annoyed you at the time? then idk, spreading enough lies that people i’ve never talked to in my life think that they know me and what the norm is for my blog and my interactions. very weird behaviour all around. but uhhh i guess... continuing to spread things about me and complain about me is preferable? to actually talking like an adult, off-anon? which you could’ve done over a year ago? idk. i’d take a look at yourself first.

#dee proofread this for me and she said im allowed to vent my feelings and agrees so ! lol #the whitewashed thing is so funny bc i literally have spoken to multiple poc abt it as an issue a lot of times #and everyone is like yeah u shouldnt whitewash anymore. so obviously i try to uphold that view #but i guess if ur a poc and ur white friends whitewash content its ok and it doesnt apply to them ! #anyway this is my final post ever about it bc i genuinely at this point feel like this is a witch hunt #ive avoided telling ppl about yall bc i didnt want to cause more shit but you both go around spreading stuff abt me to anyone who listens #without giving full context or talking to me or dee or tris abt any of it #im not fucking interested in talking to you anymore bc i was hoping against all hope that you would come talk to me like an adult this whole #time! but apparently thats not possible so just keep my name out of ur mouth #stop stalking me #stop sending me anons when you have me blocked #u bitch to other people who dont even know me while naming me and spreading lies so im allowed to bitch on my own blog #without ever setting any of my followers on you. lol. #aweks.txt #edit: in the third tag i meant anyone not anymore!! sry

[dirt-str1der]

Do you consider any of the non protagonist yakuza girls well writen?

I think none of them had rights

#Thanks for the ask ! #like you have to actively like girls to notice them theyre inconsequential #also who is this why are you sewing discorse in my inbox #i spelled discourse wrong. my mom ordered the dog trainers to train ollie right now because he is insane and hes eating soo many treats #not because hes a good boy but because they are tossing that shit at him #they were literally almost there with yasuko #i thought her story was so fucking interesting ... #like its really not a fault of the girls they are all pretty good characters in their own right #like we have a variety of them too. we had miss tatsu who was out there turning guys inside out but she randomly had to go get kidnapped in #order to complete kiryus training arc. like how funny would it be for the whole thing to be staged and miss tatsus like Lol good job kiryu #for passing my test. oh this guy ? yeah he did get the better of me but i kicked the shit out of him then roped him into my schemes. dont #you think practical application is more effective than training ? anyway theres nothing more i can teach you but you can come train whenevr #we didnt even get an in game appearance for yuko but apparently she was a massive troll but too cute to get into any real trouble #mirei was. . . i literally said ‘are you kidding me’ when they revealed what happened to her like seriously ? is this real ? they did #that ? like literally she should have been living it up in cahoots with katsuya and being so sexy and divorced forever. she should have #faked her death because every single parentsl figure haruka had leaves her. and god haruka like honest to god i love that she just ran off #like that i thought it was so kiryu of her to be an absent father. but also my friends have all brought up very good points which is that #haruka should NOT have gone back to morning glory like she should have stayed in ono michi with her loser girlfriend whos a boyfriend with #her new extended family and only go back every now and then to see her siblings honestly i hated that .... like girl spread your wings .. #choose where you want to roost stop going back !! just get out !!!!!! its literally okay to tell the rest of your family ‘i dont wanna wipe #your asses forever i love you guys but im out of here’. and god i .. as much as i loved y0 makoto should have left her shitassed husband #girl had a whole ass baby with him ... find someone better im sorry ..!!! like whatever i know that thst was the ‘best’ option for her and #she deserves financial stability and a rich doctor husband but she also deserves crazy sex with a girl with one eye #i think what yumi did was awesome but like. actually i have no complaints about yumi. wait no i do. kazama was a shitass for marrying her #off to that politician because he couldnt stand having a woman in his house. im now thinking of that unecessarily hot doctor from y0 wtf was #her deal. and god the unnecessarily hot cho-han lady from y5.. oh wait ako had rights. she fell in love with kiryu at first sight then got #over him which is literally the best thing a girl could do for herself. PLUS she throws molotovs and is generally awesome #i cant remember any other girl. oh yeah god reina. .. reina .... god milky though .... i think she was fantastic and i want her badly. and #yayoi fucking disappeared after a certain point in time and ran off to another city with her baby daddy and sugared him to open a bar #well its not canon but im certain thats what happened because she literally went radio silence like girl where are you ....

[amatres]

hm. giving more thought to layla in relation to killing others bc the answer i gave off the cuff didn't seem exactly right. and it's very. grey, i suppose?

in general she doesn't go out of her way to kill people, sticking often to giving people second chances, even if the person doesn't seem repentant. but she also isn't going to spill tears for every person she kills (sorry ember, she's not as devoted to the idea as you, though she admires your dedication to it).

however there are times even she feels it's just not possible. with some she feels no remorse, such as with hulrun who she found vile in his zealotry, but in other cases it is. not smthing she takes any pleasure in doing, and is unable to let go of her sympathy for the person as she does it (wenduag....) to the point it haunts her long after it happened.

i suppose it's interesting in the two instances i can think off as the biggest examples of that scenario, with staunton and wenduag, she still tried to afford them some dignity or peace of mind in the end, like with allowing staunton to have a proper burial or with telling wenduag she was afraid of her potential in wenduag's last moments

camellia's death was an outlier, and is more an example in the position on having to keep making the calls on who lived or died affecting her negatively to the point she goes against what she would normally do in that situation, and then it haunts her because what if's will plague her afterwards.

does any of this make sense. no. i am tired and hungry

#ama mumbles #layla (oc) #lesson from this post: she is not a solider and she is being pressure cooked the longer in a position of authority she is #shes just a silly dhampir aha why are you making her a knight commander #also an interesting point to remember is she is a dirge bard! i know i make jokes about making skeletons dance and all that lol #but she has a genuine respect for the dead and the legacies they leave behind. she wont stop for every single dead but you know #she is not rlly leader but she also has very high charisma so ppl like to listen to her. unfortunately galfrey noticed this F #why do these deaths haunt you. bc i was incapable of saving them but perhaps they Could have been had smthing changed for them first #:for staunton and wenduag #versus bc i let my emotions get rid of someone i had come to trust over a span of a couple months in a single moment #i didnt even do it myself. for camellia #she Was going to let camellia live btw. but her emotions from wenduag were still running high alas #tho im sure she would have had to kill camellia later on anyway. and she would have felt bad about it then too tho probably. less so. lol #on discord i said she only kills in self defense which. is and isnt right necessarily. anyway i cant keep going on i need to eat #also another thin to take into account is she takes in the victims views into account! #playing through meeting hulrun before he is set on killing ppl on sight is i got to see his and embers convo #and it is so bad. but layla didnt kill him there bc ember said not to and her view on the situation takes precedent to her own disguist #anyway in her actual canon layla kills that man bc hes about to kill ramien she does not. get there early enough to have a calmish convo

[hiddenbeks]

hrmm. i wish u could do actually bad/evil/stupid decisions with bad consequences in dai. yknow. like an actual rpg

#im just thinking abt celyn and the fact that shes licherally the least qualified of my dragon age heroes for the position of inquisitor #which is hilarious but also interesting and i wish i could explore that in the game. yknow #ch: celyn #like shes a blood mage n part of the mage rebellion she hates the chantry she would blow one up à la anders if she could #she was raised in a tower with no contact with the outside world n didnt get out until the age of 19 when andrale conscripted her #she is full of pent up anger she has no skill in diplomacy no idea how to lead n represent some holy army or manage foreign relations #and the only reason anyone listens to her is bc she has the anchor n bc shes kinda terrifying. #obviously the game cant accommodate every possible backstory n personality the player cooks up in their head for their inky #and i Guess not being able to roleplay properly is purely my fault for making a character with a homebrewn backstory in the first place lol #but like...... it would have been so interesting if they'd shown the inquisitor struggling with their position #and given them opportunities to make mistakes that are objectively bad #bc like none of the origins is qualified for that shit lmao. except maybe non-mage trevelyan #so in fact its also bw's fault for giving such vague backstories for the origins #like they could've given us a character who is qualified and whose competence is believable. like shepard or whatev #or. they could've kept the vague backstories n let players come up with the rest and given more room for roleplaying #and presented opportunities for the inky to struggle leading a fantasy catholic army #when they've never been in a leadership position before and/or are not fantasy catholic themselves #god i just!!!!! the lack of Thought put into dai's writing still frustrates me in the year of our lord 2023!!!!!! #they dont even let you shank an npc for looking at you wrong like in dao!!!!! #at least you can have vivienne kill that one noble guy for insulting inky's honor. celyn totally does that btw

[akkivee]

sometimes i leave a kuukou plush in communal areas at home and any time my mom sees him, without fail, she’ll ask me if he’s a bad character and i have to tell her no 😭😭😭 he just looks mean lmao that’s just his face 😭😭😭

#this is vee speaking #kuukou confirmed the kind of guy you would not bring home based on appearance lmao #(unless you’re rei—) #we have opposite interests so i don’t share everything with her like i did as a teen #but once she happened across the cast of rapping boys and thought ramuda looked fun lol and that’s how he gets all the— LOL /j #i know i just listed out some of his crimes lol but kuukou’s not bad…………… he’s a good boy when he sees the need to be lmao #like i’m sure jyushi’s mom wouldn’t have let kuukou into her house into his room if he didnt know how to exercise chill and his manners lol #(nevermind jyushi’s friends are flashier than kuukou lmao) #c: kuukou👑

[theygender]

My gf and I have talked about hypothetically opening up our relationship at some point in the future which would make me very happy as a polyamorous person, but I just realized that if that actually happens and I have to go back out on the dating scene I'm gonna have some trouble bc now that I'm more outwardly butch people are gonna expect me to make the first move and I have never made a first move in my entire life

In all of my relationships but two the first move was made by the other person, and I wasn't even the person who made the first move in the other two. In the first one the girl chickened out on her plans to ask me out and then our mutual friend who didn't realize that that had happened outed her by asking me what I said afterwards, and in the second one me and the other person both went to the same friend on the same day to talk about our crushes on each other and then she made us talk about our feelings

I met my current girlfriend on a dating app, and the first time she tried to ask me on a date she wanted to take me to the theater so she asked me if I had seen the new beauty & the beast movie and then instead of realizing that she was asking me on a date I said that I'd already seen it and gave her a negative review of the movie. And then when she asked me on a date again a few weeks later I had to ask to make sure it was a date when I got there 😭

...And that reminds me of another event in high school where a girl I liked took me to the mall and we walked around holding hands the entire time and then afterwards I had to get one of our mutual friends to ask her if it was supposed to be a date bc I was too nervous and also stupid 😭 Another girl that year asked me to skip class with her and told me that if I flashed my pretty smile at the teacher I could probably get away with it and I had to show the text to my friend to ask if she was flirting. I'm gonna die out there on my own 😭

#rambling #the friend i showed the message to was the same one i made ask the other girl if it was a date #and he didnt even answer he just raised his eyebrow and stared at me like 'really?' #god im just. remembering how stupid i was in high school now #there were two other crushes that i had who may have potentially liked me back and i may have even been told that by multiple people #but i was so deep in my self hatred and also stupid that i didnt think it was possible for them or anyone else to like me 😭 #they both were friends of mine and they eventually stopped talking to me completely and i couldnt figure out why #and now i hope its not bc they they thought i was leading them on. bc i wasnt. i was just a massive idiot #you have to explicitly tell me that youre interested in me or want to go on a date or whatever or im not gonna get it #and tbh. that didnt even always work #my first major crush in high school was on a girl who told me directly multiple times that she was into me #but i was even DEEPER in my self hatred at that time #(and also only just figuring out how social interaction worked bc she was helping my autistic ass learn) #so i just. assumed it was a joke. bc no one could have possibly been interested in me and definitely not such an amazing person #i guess at least i have a scrap of self confidence now and im brave enough to ask for clarification now #and if i specifically ask someone on a date at least i would know for sure its a date? #and it could either be lame or cute but i could ask for permission to kiss them. it worked for my gf #i cant interpret signals for shit 😭 #i dont even have a valid reason to be thinking about this right now lol its not like i have permission to date anyone else romantically yet #but ive been watching clone high with my gf and abe keeps misinterpreting joan directly saying that she wants him in increasingly dumb ways #and i just keep cringing bc i realized that that was me ahdjsksl.... #only difference is in my case it was never bc i was ignoring them for someone else. it was ALWAYS bc i was an idiot #literally i would be there pining for them and every attempt they made would go right over my head #you have to be morosexual and very persistent to date me 😭 or tell a mutual friend whos very persistent ig lol #i know we are All useless lesbians but i think i deserve a medal or smth #ill hang it on my corkboard next to the souvenir that one of my crushes who i didnt think liked me back got for me in high school #which was a plastic license plate that said 'babygirl' on it bc that was her nickname for me 😅 #god i really hope people didnt think i was leading them on. imagine someone thinking im a player flirting with a bunch of different girls #without ever making things official. when really if i found out for certain any of them were interested in me i would have died of shock 😭 #and if we WERE in fact flirting i wouldnt have realized it. i was just SO scared and SO stupid 😭😭😭

[jkthy]

How do you feel about Victoria kord existing in the comics now

wow i did not expect someone to ask me for my opinions on here LOL. im not personally a fan of her since i feel her existence conflicts with and devalues teds responsibility complex / relationship with his father in relation to kord industries but i honestly havent really read the new run besides skimming the first issue a while back

#txt #plus shes just. kind of not interesting #i would elaborate more but its almost 1am here and ivr been slaving away all day. #her movie version wasnt really compelling either. like the movie did push me to finally look into blue beetle but #i honestly only really liked the non superhero bits with jaime and his family. LOL #I was also tipsy both times i watched it in the theatre #and im not a fan in general of the implied changes to teds backstory #Not to say i didnt like the movie or throw up every time they mentioned him though #Cause i did. severely