#it's a frustrating viewing experience

[scorndotexe]

midnight mass should have been weirder and bolder and it would have been better for it

#persimmon's rambles #im not done yet #but like......even when it's not boring it's still kind of. bland #and like. there's something there!! there is absolutely something there! #potential! #there's potential for sure #it could have been really good #but like......horror needs to be made by freaks #the people making this are not freaks. #like yeah on one hand it's probably just not for me #on the other hand though.......it could have been really good? it could have been really really good? #but it's not. it's just kind of boring with a couple of really strong parts and the better episodes are still made worse by its lack of... #idk. courage isn't the right word maybe. it just needs to be bolder and freakier and weirder!!! #it needs someone who understands the vampire genre and understands catholicism and Gets how to bring them together in the way the show want #in the way the show wants to do #but it's just not there? #like even as a person with very little experience with catholicism i'm not getting anything truly compelling from the show itself #only from what the show implies #or from my interpretation of its better parts #it's a frustrating viewing experience #especially when it's just that boring and poorly paced #and how it lacks any actually compelling characters #the priest is the most compelling character obviously but it doesn't focus on him and his relationship with god and his vampirism #as much as would have been interesting for an audience. or for me personally #and the others are so much worse

[tenvishund]

F I S S I O N - Why the hell do you hurt yourself for this?

#wake up babe new tenvishund art just dropped #very very rusty but inspired by a recent album and general life experiences/interraction #im coming to the end of my degree and trying to find A Real Proper Grown Up Job #and the industry I am in can be really sneaky - you think you've found something good but if you speak to the right people #then the truth comes out #which is frustrating #but here i am alive and well and probably doing better than i ever have been before #even if sometimes i do want to tear my guts out and die like a dog #such is life i guess all about balance #i also wanted to colour the guts red but i cant work this new fancy gimp system so i gave up #enjoy!! thank you for viewing!

[uncanny-tranny]

I think when people talk about things like desirability, they can miss the deeper point of why it can be important to analyze why people are seen as undesirable. It isn't just that a type of person is just... not hot... but often, it's the dehumanization of a person based on marginalized features.

For instance, I had a conversation with somebody about disability portrayal in media, and we had agreed that, historically, disability had been portrayed as a horrific ordeal. However, I think they missed the point as to why the "undesirable disabled" character was so appealing to a broader audience. The idea that disability is other, inhuman, and something that depersonalizes somebody from society is partly why those ideas were and are prevalent in mainstream media and culture. It is the idea that "nobody likes you. Nobody needs you. Nobody wants you" because of the person's marginalized body or experience or whatever it may be.

It isn't some superficial "oh why aren't I seen as pretty by everybody?" It is the knowledge that you are portrayed as undesirable in this way because it is a way to separate you from everybody else. It isn't about beauty, nor is it a selfish desire to be wanted by somebody. It is the desire to be seen as a person - an equal, regardless of who desires you or who does not.

#beauty culture #desirability politics #ableism #ableism tw #i brought up media but it doesn't solely apply to that and the same with disability #i just thought the conversation perfectly encapsulated my frustration with how people interact with desirability #because some people go at it with the assumption that it is shallow and vapid and vain to want to have people change their perspective... #...about how they view a marginalized status #like when trans people have criticism of desirability favouring cisnormativity fot instance - people assume it is vapid and vain... #..but it is us asking to be seen as PEOPLE even *if* we aren't fucking ~desirable~ by everybody. your desires shouldn't impact us like that #our lives shouldn't hinge on us fighting to be seen as human beings - we shouldn't need to fight tooth and fucking nail for it #i've been thinking about that conversation for a while now and it's kind of nice to somewhat flesh out my problems with it all #i have no ill-will to the person i was talking to and about. we just went at the premise in different ways and i have different ideas #i don't think the person is Bad and Horrible. i think that they AND i are impacted by this and we have different experiences

[televisionforwhales]

God early magicians sets up Penny as The Specialist Boy (psychic powers, Traveler, childhood link to the big bad, NOT a king of Fillory, reluctantly suckered in to the group project) and then....what. what then

#wasted!! #ok you '''purposefully''' subvert Q as The Specialist Boy....aaaaand. ?? hm. #the most frustrating viewing experience lol #tvtalks

[diedinflorida]

i'm getting tired of combing through my experiences and finding the same thing over and over again: that "male privilege" is not privilege i've touched. i can think of benefits from my being white but when it comes to being a (trans) man i come up blank. i didn't gain respect or community or opportunities or money or whatever else from transitioning, i gained myself. in gaining myself i lost a major amount of closeness and familiarity with the world. i genuinely cannot figure out what male privilege is for me when being male has not been a privilege. i wouldn't trade it for the world but things suck just as much as when i was a girl, just in different ways.

#speakin' candidly #transandrophobia #im not deleting this post but i have changed my views on this a lot #like yeah my whiteness is the biggest contributor to my privilege #but i made this post at a bitter and angry point in my life and i think i intentionally ignored some of the privileges i have gained #that doesnt change the fact that maleness has still sucked lol. but i have had male privilege #but being completely honest male privilege is not doing a lot for me and while it is there it is mostly #just isolating and frustrating. which is a common trans experience who wouldve thought

[seaglassdinosaur]

The way Percy talks about himself in the show though, having ADHD and dyslexia, saying he knows that something is wrong with his brain, it’s heartbreaking.

Because stepping aside from the magic and monsters, this is a kid who’s internalized the ableist messages and bullying that’s been directed at him. He believes that having ADHD and dyslexia means that something is broken in his head. Not that his experience is natural, another one of the many different ways that people go through the world, but that his difficulties mean his brain is broken, and by extension, he is innately wrong.

It’s this out loud recognition of the struggling quiet part of someone with a learning disability, who can’t figure out what is going on with themself. They don’t know why they are the way they are, they don’t know how to manage it, and they certainly haven’t accepted it as a part of them, trying to fit into the expectations of a neurotypical society. All they know is that according to everyone else, they’re ‘wrong’. So they must just be ‘wrong’.

#everyone thank sally jackson because she comes in w an alternate understanding #a change in Percy’s narrative which has been shaped by the ableist society #she tells him ‘there’s nothing wrong with you you are great the way you are you are exactly the way you’re meant to be’ #‘even if it doesn’t make sense to you you are the way you’re meant to be.’ #and she gets him somewhere where there are tons of people just like Percy. changing the narrative and outlook his has #at camp percy is able to step away from the NT society and how they view his ADHD/dyslexia #as a fault and error #and he’s able to see ‘oh this actually is just a normal variation of the human experience’ #anyway I just want to continue to shout out sally jackson as a great mom for never being upset w Percy for his struggles #but always supporting him through them #comforting him as he needed and being a great parent #Sally ily #pjo #pjo tv show #pjo tv series #pjo tv adaptation #my post #(I also say all this as someone w adhd #who now loves the way I am. but also. still gets frustrated when I can’t work the way I want to #Percy internalizing the message that something is wrong. that he’s dumb or bad. it hurts Me. #and I want nothing but the best for him.)

[fefairys]

definitely something to be said about the privilege of having queer community in real life. cause not everywhere has places where u can go and easily/safely meet other queer people... so there are a lot of people online who are in echo chambers bc they only surround themselves with people like them and they dont really know any queer ppl irl (through no fault of their own) and so they end up only knowing about perspectives of themself and people who agree with them on everything.

in real life queer communities youre not going to agree with everyone on everything, but thats a good thing. we're all from different backgrounds and have different experiences, different upbringings, etc. online if you disagree with someone you can just unfollow them, but if you're in a community irl and you disagree with someone you cant just kick them out of their damn community. you have to listen to each others perspectives and find common ground. and sometimes agree to disagree on certain things. i feel very lucky to be able to be exposed to so many different queer experiences through my irl queer friends that i wouldn't have if my only exposure to the queer community was the people i choose to surround myself with online.

#i mean you should be reading about other ppl experiences online aside from just your circle of curated friends and mutuals #but i still find it hard to fault people when they dont really have many options with queer community irl yknow #it is a very isolating experience and i understand the impetus to only want to be around ppl who agree with u and have the same experiences #as u online because irl u are faced with no one being anything like u. #i see how it happens and i understand it and empathize with that perspective #its just frustrating when those types of people make grand generalizations about queer ppl or whatnot when they havent had much irl #exposure to different queer experiences and views and such

[brookheimer]

didn’t expect the anne carson post to get notes but now that it has i myself am the recipient of bad takes. horrible

#also 75% of the people reblogging it atp do not seem to understand my frustration w the comments #like i didn’t post this to be like look how ableist twt users are in denying the lived experience of depression for other ppl #i mean sure but that was not the point of the post #it’s about an inability to read poetry and a newfound insistence on everything including art having a Take i #it’s about a fundamental disconnect with literature and works in general that are not written for you specifically #relatability politics infiltrating literary discourse #like their criticism of the poem is the strangest i’ve ever seen bc it has nothing to do with the poem. people do not know how to read #anymore #they treat everything like it’s a tweet they either need to publicly agree with or publicly mock #but yeah like my point was not Look How Dismissive They Are Of Neurodivergent Experiences #it was Jesus Fucking Christ The Education System Is Failing Us And Critical Literacy Is At An All Time Low #i mean this isn’t supposed to be about depression. it’s about life and living it #and honestly people defending it from the depression/neurodivergenxe angle is just the flip side of the twitter hate — you like it because #you view it as representative of your specific lived experience and would likely not like it if it didn’t #it’s being wrapped up into identity politics #and that was sooooo not the point of the post like i am criticizing the relatability/identity politics mode of reading #it’s made us unable to look at things on their own terms let alone thru a legitimate critical lens! #i mean ofc you can like stuff bc it resonates w you i’m not criticizing That. but saying that that’s what gives a work of art value or #determines whether or not it’s ‘good’ is ridiculous and narcissistic and rooted in the tiktok brain fungus discouraging all nuance ever #sorry sorry i’ll shut up now

[loyalhorror]

i want a break from flat hunting and flat viewings but its not the kind of thing i can just take a break from because. i need to move. aughghgh

#rat.exe #i missed a viewing today because fatigue was just way too much and im just #stares at the ceiling. what if that was The One. #sighs. #i'm just so tired #ideally it should be a fun experience! finding somewhere new to live! #but instead its just. endless frustration and exhaustion as every place rejects me for either being disabled or for having cats

[kingcriccket]

The thing about the fall of the house of usher is that like. I think Mike Flanagan is a great character writer but... somehow maybe not a very good horror writer? Which I know is an insane take given his body of work but like. He's great with suspense, but when that tension finally breaks, at least in Usher, it tends to feel kind of... stupid rather than scary.

Which means you're watching all of these interesting, horrible people play off of one another in excellent ways, portrayed by excellent actors, as they unerringly make their ways towards extremely obviously telegraphed and kind of stupid deaths.

#the whole episode w Camilla where she's obviously about to get chimp attack killed #& you're sitting there watching her be a slimy media personality spinning her brother's death for clout #& like you're mourning already not because she doesn't deserve to die #but because you know something dumb is about to happen to her & the show is about to become a bit less interesting #because she'll be gone #i know mike Flanagan is on here so on the off chance he sees this like. no shade man genuinely big fan of your work #it's alive! #the fall of the house of usher #i guess this blog is just like. the place I'm bitchy about media now #it's like a frustrating viewing experience because the good parts are SO fucking good #& the actors are so good & watching them play off each other is SO good. #and then something really really dumb will happen. and you're like. oh. right. #oh no I wonder if the tanks in the roof of this building that was condemned for being full of dangerous chemicals #will in fact be full of dangerous chemicals that will kill everybody #oh they were? wow! #it's not even a Hitchcock'the audience knows there is a bomb but the characters don't' think it's just like. #you're just kind of waiting for it to be over so you can go back to the interesting stuff.

[ouroboobos]

its soooo fucking impossible to sift through information about religions youre not famililar with

#its so hard to fact check anything if you dont have the context that comes with a background in whatever belief system youre researching #even if you take the initiative to study scripture!! the way you interpret texts is informed by your experience and culture #if i got curious about islam and decided to read the quran thatd be helpful #but i wouldnt interpret it the way someone who was raised muslim would and there woul be a ton of shit that id miss. aughhhhrbrhrrbrb #very frustrating i just want to know everything as soon as i become interested in it thanks #i know the actual learning experience has its own value but it stresses me out. i blame my christian upbringing #my instinct is to view everything through the lens of ''ok what are the sins and what am i obligated to do under threat of damnation'' #ive tried a few times to find resources on judaism. genuinely do not even know where to start

[bijoumikhawal]

the problem with personally relating to a culture in a sci-fi series is people will say things slightly off color and I'll wanna gnaw on rocks about it

#cipher talk #'Ancient' about a culture that has living descendants and adherents to its religion #Implying the colonizing culture that's genocided it is a descendant culture #And tbf beta canon is inconsistent about this but most people have read one specific book! #Not about anyone I follow I just get very frustrated with how people read Hebitians because there's a cultural like #Background to what Hebitians are thar most people reading it seem to completely miss #Because to them they hear a culture get called ancient (= dead) and have no baggage about it. Why would they? #And they don't think about what descendancy means or about crypto-religions or when states weaponize race mixing #But if you have experience with this and hear the word ancient and almost have a flinch response and know it's not even just you because #Cultures you have no relationship to get called ancient (= dead) constantly as a form of political disenfranchisement #It's a popular point of view to put on people which is why it's a problem! That doesn't make it hurt less

[luobingmeis]

every day i feel like both the prosecutor and defense attorney for 3zun and all of my thoughts end in “would things have been different if the brotherhood was never formed” and then in every AU i make they are married and in love forever and ever

#‘every au’ is an exaggeration bc there is in fact my bare bones pacrim au #where jgy does fully get got at the start #but the spirit of 3zun is still there :’) #anyways i would say ask me abt my 3zun thoughts #but that feels like a bad idea #bc this is my 3rd time drafting my bare bones thoughts #bc each time i got way too carried away #anyways tho why reduce 3zun to who was good or bad or right or wrong #and instead think abt how between the clashing world views and personalities and life experiences #3zun consumed itself from the inside #like favorite trios that never should’ve been a trio <3 #this is where my lxc frustration and heartbreak super kicks in #bc like on the one hand what if he ‘left well enough alone’ #and didn’t suggest the brotherhood? /would/ things have been different? #or would things still have gone to shit? #but then like lxc sees so clearly the effect their mother’s death had on lwj #but misses it w/ himself #someone said it much better than me but like. lxc refusing to know the truth behind his mother’s actions -> 3zun #if i remember to look for the post i think i’ll just reblog it bc i think abt it a lot

[icewindandboringhorror]

Begrudgingly trying to look for a new phone because my current one (which I’ve had for 8 years) is having some issues but like......hhh.. Every person I know who has a newer phone like.. theirs SUCKS lol.. you can’t take the back off/battery out, some you can’t even change out the microSD because apparently they expect you to just use evil ~~cloud storage~~ or whatever nonsense, they come with so many apps built in which you can disable but not fully delete (wasting space on the phone), can’t control when updates happen, one of my friend’s has to be connected to the internet just to get voicemails??? like having to be connected to wifi or mobile data just for some BASIC functionalities is insane (I prefer to keep my internet disabled at all times unless using it, hate the idea of just being internet connected constantly in the background and having all these apps sending and receiving data and giving dumbass notifications when I’m not even actively using them), SOME of them don’t even have a built-in GENERIC notes app or media player (like I’m just supposed to download spotify instead of using my collection of youtube to mp3 files?? lmao) or photo viewer (I know someone who doesn’t have a generic ‘photos’ app, just “Google Photos’ which prompts them to make an account and login every time they open the wretched thing), etc. etc. etc. 

Genuinely, if it weren’t for my need to be able to use the internet to map and check bus directions/look up things on the go when needed, organize/transport files, and take photos on a whim when I may not have my camera with me - I would legit just get one of those basic non-smart phones where you can only text and make calls lol ... alas... ToT

#like i just hate simplification i hate everything being online i hate making accounts i hate cloud storage #i hate not having full control and customization of my experience i hate being forced to be connected #to the internet i hate siri or ok google or whatever the hell i hate being sent random notifications #i didnt ask for because the phone updated by itself and downloaded or enabled some shit i never wanted on there #i hate doing anything on a mobile device and everything being an app when desktop useage is so superior and so much easier #to process and do things that way and jthat i cant even open the back if i want to or change out sim cards like you used #to be able to or all this extremely easy and perfectly normal stuff that USED TO BE a function forever but it's like choice is gradually #being removed... w h y #Its the same thing with websites being oversimplified like WHY take away options and functionality to 'streamline' things and make them #more 'mobile friendly' when previously there has been both a mobile and a desktop version of websites for a long time?? #what is the problem with having MORE choice? if people dont WANT to utilize the extra options and functionality then allow them #to choose to simplify things #but if people WANT increased choice and customization then the options are still present #what if i WANT a more detailed complicated ~difficult to navigate~ view of a website?? what if i want to send 45 paragraphs #of text instead of short quick messages and emojis chat style where pressing enter sends a message instead of just doing a line break #etc. etc. which yes now I'm getting away from the topic of mobile phones and just speaking in general lol but its like #I just feel frustrated that everywhere I go it seems like things I used to be able to do which were USEFUL and functional - now the option #is gone or limited or made worse. And it's not just being afraid of change like some new things are fine when they make an experience #BETTER and actually HELP but like what the hell is helpful about having 4GB of my total 8GB built in storage #taken up by pre-installed apps that I literally cannot delete and that is space I will never use.. ??? and some of the other #changes it's like.... ok?? and for WHAT?? lol #AND i know like.. you can hack your phone and make your own changes to it and stuff but I shouldnt have to do that!!! #it should be EASY to customize and have it function however I WANT it's literally something I'm PAYING for..!! #and that cloud storage shit I do not care HOW the world changes you are never going to talk me into storing important stuff on some #fucking server somewhere that I don't have control over. same thing with live service or online fucntioning video games. I will find every #possible work around to keep 'physical' copies of anything that is actually important to me. 2087 in the word war 5 google amazon #fire world wasteland I'm still going to be clinging to my little usb stick in an undergound tunnel listening to 70 yr old mp3s #and playing downloaded copies of games that are mine that i payed for and own and can play however whenever i like lol #ANYWAY .. hggh.........maybe I can find a good 2018 or 2019 phone on ebay instead of buying a new one in store #would still be an upgarde technically since mine is from 2014 lol

[cheesey-rice]

I've been getting a lot of vids from international YouTube channels bc of my foreign language interests and I see a lot of international poc complaining about American poc being in historical shows and calling it the same ahistoricality as someone casting a white person to play a poc, and I've felt that I disagreed.

Just trying to articulate this from my perspective as a 2nd gen kid... I think that folks saying poc being in like British historical type shows in positions poc definitely wouldn't have been in at that period have a point when they say studios should just produce movies/shows that tell the history of actual poc instead of misrepresenting history of predominant white countries have a point in that yes, American culture and media definitely has this huge Blindspot to history outside of a certain sphere of white American culture influences... But I still feel like there is a definite difference between a white person being cast as a historical poc vs a poc being cast as a historically white person.

Bc when it comes down to it I feel like the perspective some non-americans might not have is that when you grow up in America you are raised as an American. Poc are not exempt from the American cultural concept of what our history is. Like regardless of how u feel about the musical itself Hamilton is a good example of how something that exists in our culture as American history is something that a poc creator was able to retell as their own history as an immigrant. Regardless of the quality of the piece, one wouldn't say that the people of color in Hamilton's production are talking about or reenacting American history in an unfaithful or inaccurate way because American history is their history and an immigrant writing a view on that history from an immigrant's perspective adds a level of nuance to the piece rather than taking it away.

But in the case of a white person playing an important historical figure of color, it's completely different. Like in the instance of that famous harriet Tubman case, a white person could not play the black woman who fought the white institution of American slavery her entire life. Because victimization at the hands of the institution of slavery on the basis of race in America is a history that cannot be said to be the history of all Americans. Non-black Americans and (also most black non-americans) are not going to grow up being continually affected by the social, financial, and legal ramifications of the institution that remain in this country. A person who has never experienced a life that continues to be affected by racism is not going to be able to accurately tell a story about race. And because America has relied on racial dogma to excuse free labor and human rights abuses used to build the agricultural basis of our society from the very inception of the nation, there is never going to be a story about a black American in our history that was not in some way affected or influenced by the experience of racism.

I understand that from an outside perspective seeing an American poc just say a casting choice is "racist" can sound like oh they're saying a white person isn't allowed to play this role what about creative freedom etc etc. But like, ignoring the knee jerk reaction to call everything 'cancelling' these days maybe realize that they're saying a white actor is going to do a worse job representing a character who experienced racism than a person of color and that's just a fact. It's not restricting art to criticize that the choices behind it make the actual piece worse in the long term for very obvious reasons.

#+ with more fictionally oriented historical media i think putting poc in your fantasy history just makes it more accessible to #audiences of color. like if you want to purposefully not include poc that's your choice i guess but like dont get your knickers in a fuckin #twist when poc tell you they dont want to read/watch it bc theres no poc like you are the one choosing to exclude them #+ when media geared towards kids is criticized for having racial diversity thats especially egregious. like why do you not want black and #brown kids to be able to dream about wearing fancy dresses or fighting dragons too. like become normaler idiot #+ i do think that non-american poc who are frustrated with america portraying their own histories through the lens of american social #issues have a fair point in wanting those histories to be accurately represented and resenting american cultural hegemony's #influence over international views of that history but blaming poc for wanting to create media that reflects their own experiences #is not really punching up as much as they seem to think it is in my experience #personal

[williamrikers]

my working theory concerning thai bl subtitles is that every translator has a dartboard next to their desk and every time they have to translate a verb into english they close their eyes and throw a dart at the board to decide which tense to use. there's no other explanation

#misc #linguistics #*mine #like i KNOW that time works differently in english than it does in thai #but i feel like a translator should at least have a general grasp of the verb tenses of the language they're translating into #i haven't seen a single bl series that got all its verb tenses right and maybe they should all simply hire a native english speaker #to double check the verbs #it would make the viewing experience much less frustrating