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lastoneout · 7 months

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Been seeing a lot of increasingly hostile posts about this pop up again from both sides and honestly I think that "you should work on decoupling your drive to create from your desire for validation bcs audiences are fickle and algorithms are evil, so it's in your best interest to create for yourself first and foremost" and "if you want the creators you like to continue making stuff you should try to give them feedback and support in whatever way you can bcs the internet is fucked and while someone might bake just for the fun of it, if they spend six hours on a cake and take it to a potluck and no one touches it that's naturally going to be discouraging" are concepts that can and should coexist.

Like I don't think fans should feel SO pressured to engage in the Correct Way that they stop engaging all together(like if someone truly does not have the energy to comment on every fic they read I don't want them to stop reading fics in general, hearing about that makes me really sad, I want people to read my stuff even if they can't/don't want to comment), and I do think some people can go a bit too far when making "pls reblog stuff" PSAs, but I also don't think artists/writers are inherently being whiny and selfish for desiring support from the people who enjoy their stuff, especially bcs algorithms are stupid and evil and the internet kinda just sucks in general for creators so that fan feedback is really the only support a lot of us are ever going to get(and also there's also nothing wrong with pointing out general trends in fan engagement and culture and critiquing how some of them are concerning/harmful).

Is it good to create for yourself first and foremost? Yes. Is it normal to want feedback and support? Also yes. Are you obligated to reblog/comment on every single piece of art you find that you like? Not at all. Is it still a good idea to try to support people when you can? Absolutely.

Idk I just think there's nuance here that gets ignored. I'd love to hear what other people have to say tho, cuz I think this conversation needs to happen, so feel free to chime in.

#I feel like I've maybe made a post like this before but I can't remember #but yeah just trying to get my thoughts in order on this one

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spicybylerpolls · 2 months

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I really can't unsee the sexual imagery now. This might have already been said (and if it has then I guess just ignore me? Lol) but - When Mike starts talking about the pen the unknown hero agent gave him. The pen that the unknown hero agent actually gave to Will, but whatever. And then he says "why would he give me a pen that didn't work?" He rushes over to Argyle, takes the pen and un-does it, revealing the number, and remarks. "It's the number. We've had it this whole time." Then, finally, when they go try and call the number they discover it wasn't a traditional landline, like they had expected, instead it was something newer, a modern idea, a computer they were calling.

Most interestingly, after Mike reveals the number from the pen, Argyle remarks "you got his digits man?" creating both a romantic and sexual undertone to the scene.

Aka - the pen is his dick, he doesn't know why it doesn't "work", when he finally comes to terms with his sexuality, he will realize it does work, "it's been here the whole time" and the reason it wasn't working was bc he wasn't attracted to what's traditional (girls) but instead whats new age (boys).

Unknown Hero Agent Man could even be seen as god in this symbolism, when Mike says "why would he give me a pen that doesn't work?" ((( This honestly makes me sad because it reveals a lot about Mike's character ☹️ and also would be proof that he's gay, not bisexual - sorry bi mike truthers )))

unknown, god is unknown

hero, god is idolized

agent = a person or thing that takes an active role, god is the creator

And lol, the unknown hero agent man (god) gives this pen to Will originally and then Mike takes ownership of it? Okay 😭

Also to be noted this happens right after Mike and Will's heart to heart where they talk about being afraid to reveal the truth. I was always so annoyed that Argyle cut him off. I wanted to hear what Mike was gonna say. Well, now I know, I guess. lol.

And see, I had already seen this symbolism through the lens of Mike's romantic feelings alone before, because it works there too. Never did I think about it in a sexual way until... I was introduced to this blog. And saw other posts about the sexual symbolism regarding Mike and Will's relationship, specifically in S4.

It's all just very interesting. How you can convey sexual themes without outright saying it. And honestly, I think that's nice. Because maybe we don't need these explicit scenes in every show, like Sex Education or something. Maybe we don't need it every season. But to remind people that yeah, this is a big part of their life, and specifically Mike and Will's struggle, through symbolism is great, honestly.

Also want to say that I hate that I feel I can't just post this on my own blog lol. I really hate that an open discussion about the literal themes in the show has to be censored. About something that is arguably the most natural thing in the world. Especially when this isn't even really referring to sex itself but rather Mike's struggle with it and would be such a big contribution to the byler fandom overall...

Anyway that was super long, sorry. Would love to hear thoughts about this?

Do you think Mike talking about the unknown hero agent man and the pen he gave to him is symbolism that Mike is frustrated about his sexual feelings for women (or lack thereof?)

1. Yes

2. No

3. Unsure

4. Possibly

Please note that the purpose of this blog is not to be creepy or to make anyone uncomfortable. That's why I created the #spicy byler tag (I will tag all polls with this). If you don't want to see this blog or anything related to it on your feed, please block that tag. Not everyone is comfortable with this sorta stuff, and that's okay.

#byler #spicy byler #mike wheeler #will byers

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gb-patch · 2 years

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Hi, the 'refund ask' person here. Please don't feel pressured to give an answer, I just want to clarify and apologize for a few things, for whoever is behind this acc, reading and taking their time to give detailed answers :)

First, I am sorry, truly, for coming across as a rude person who would scam a small business, and such valuable creators and artists. It was not my intention. I didn't think of it in the moment, I didn't even think that my question would be answered. (Which obviously changes nothing because you would still read it, and it apparently took me a while to realize, but you are a real person. A personal 'sorry' here.)

Like you said, it definitely was an 'it doesn't hurt to ask' mindset that I wrote the question with. Thank you for assuming I meant well, I really did. But I do see my fault now, so really, really thanks for taking your time to explain it in detail. In retrospect, no matter how 'well' I meant, I was in the wrong. To put it mildly, I was ignorant. It feels stupid to say it, but I guess I needed to hear from someone that I couldn't just give someone money, take what they're offering, and ask for my money back. It wasn't how I viewed my question then, but it definitely is now. Also, they might not see this, but a sincere thank-you to the other people who commented on my ask, for making me see how wrong my words sounded when they weren't just in my head. It was a lesson learned, to say the least.

Also, please understand that I didn't mean to say it wasn't worth $5 for 'just a moment', even though I did say it that way. I see how I could've worded that differently. Each and every moment of the story is super important to me, and believe me, I do think thay they all are worth way more than what you're charging, or mostly, not charging. However, it was silly and greedy to ask you to just give away even more of those beautifully made moments. Of course it is your right to charge for your hard work, and I am actually glad you're doing so.

I know it doesn't change anything, or take back what I previously said (no matter how much I wish it could) but I really wanted to make sure you didn't think there was someone in your audience who would be willing to scam you and even shamelessly ask for permission to see if they could. Again, not the intention at all.

Finally, it is actually so nice to see that a small company like yours has a lot of supporters willing to defend it. My question definitely wasn't a scam attempt, but if it were, I'm so glad to see that it wouldn't succeed or go unnoticed.

I will keep on supporting you, albeit silently for the time being, and playing your games for as long as I can. Our Life is an absolute delight of an experience, it inspired me a bunch, helped me through some tough moments in my own life, and is a game that is far more than just a game to me. I can't wait to see what you put out there next. You guys are some of the best out there in my opinion. Love what you do, love the way you communicate with your audience, and love how you handle crises like this. Hope you all have very nice lives where you can create to your heart's content :)

Sorry for the drama I caused, and sorry again, bc this ask is too long :) Thank you for reading.

It's alright. You don't need to apologize. I'm happy you were sympathetic to where I was coming from and that's all I would want. You didn't upset me or cause me any harm and I absolutely don't want you feel unwelcome over asking a question. It took years to make a game that could make people happy, but in only minutes I can sour the experience for people forever with what I post in these ask answers. I hope to avoid that as much as possible.

Not long before you sent your answer, there was another ask about this that was understanding of your situation.

"Im NOT that anon but I'm kind of sad how many other anons are judging them and seem to be a bit eurocentric? not everyone who plays these games have the same currency or similar currency conversiom rate as someone whos family is from venezuela, $5 is barely enough to buy flour, rice, and fish so what may seem like pocket change to you might be all someone else could live on. scummy would be to do so without ask. just disappointed bc i thought this community was more open-minded"

I agree that money is a difficult thing to get and people can't be blamed for not being able, or simply not wanting, to use it on visual novel content. Though, it is also a sore spot for artists who are very familiar with people who flat out devalue their time/effort and think there's no reason to pay for it. It can be hard to always take the question of 'can I get your hard work for free?' with no frustration. But that wasn't the intention of the original question.

If it the question had gotten a different type of response people wouldn't have felt the need to come to my defense over it. At the end of the day, I'm the one who could've avoided this and answered the question in a way that left the asker and the other readers satisfied/informed. It went too far this time.

It's always hard to know how to manage these situations. When a question comes along about a touchy topic but I think it's important to answer, I try to make it definitive and also to make clear that this doesn't open the gates for future asks about this. If I don't, then inevitably more asks come in and I either have to keep addressing/arguing a topic or ignoring them without explanation. It can make a development blog about posting previews a pretty unpleasant place. But if I use one ask to make an overall statement, it can come across unnecessarily strong against the single question the asker sent in.

To the OP, I'm sorry for making you feel like what you did was a huge mistake. It really wasn't. It was a just question over a policy that was intended as neutral and ended up with extra meaning put on it because of outside circumstances/other people's prior and potential actions. I hope you're able to feel reassured after all of this.

And the last thing I'll say is that future asks commentating about the situation won't be posted.

Thank you again for playing!

#ask #gb patch games #gb patch

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taegularities · 1 year

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Hello lovely Rid 💕💕💕

I feel you a hundred percent on it being so heartbreaking to see so many content creators on here leaving or even just feeling discouraged from the lack of interaction.

It's been making me so sad for a while to see all of these amazing talented people not getting the love and appreciation they deserve.

And it might sound too self pitying but I genuinely wish I could be on here all day reblogging things, reading fanfic and leaving feedback. Sometimes I don't feel like I'm doing enough and I overthink the way I interact with content all the time. Like, I wish I could read more than one fic a day and be posting feedback more often too. And I wish I could interact with every author on here because everyone deserves so much love for the amazing things they create.

Anyway, I didn't want to make this about myself, but I have this on my mind constantly too and I wish I could help more.

If anyone is reading this and is too shy to interact with content on here, please please please consider doing it, because not only does it help the wonderful creators, but it's also extremely fun and the least we can do as people who are enjoying the fruits of their labour!

I love and appreciate everything you do, Rid, and also the fact that you're here still despite everything being so discouraging. Sorry for the ramble and I hope you're doing okay 💞💞💞

hey, love <3 everyone should read this ask. i want to tattoo it to my forehead.

i understand. i know some readers really try hard and it means the world to me/us. it's okay that you can't read everything, and you absolutely don't have to... you'd be an actual superhero, if you could. i think just the thought counts, too, and you do so so much already.

what i don't enjoy is just seeing likes. or knowing someone read my stuff but didn't reach out. it costs nothing, and writers do slave over those fics for ages while simultaneously handling their lives...

i'm just wondering — and that's a question to all silent readers: what can we do to make you interact? i know you're shy, but i wonder if we can make this space more welcoming to you... bc i really do promise that once we start talking, we'll have so much fun, as ivi said. and that goes for most blogs here!

just wanna clarify again that i'm more than happy with interaction on my blog! but this is more about the silence and loneliness, and so many people leaving. the community has changed, so let's make it fun again 🥺

#this is also kind of why I post cmi based on reactions now. but you guys all come through so i'm thankful for that <3 #and thank you ivi. i'm alright just thinking.. hope you are too 💕#notes for rid 🌹#ivi <3

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michaelmyersbignaturals · 1 year

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this won't go anywhere since my blog is still new and no one will probably care but i need to talk my vampire and werewolf lore somehow. it's not fully developed yet but oh my god i can't shut my mouth. i wrote this 2 years ago and my writing has improved since then but these are the basics:

Basically there are four main courts of vampires; one for each direction [north south east west], and there are small "sub-courts" within them [some affiliated with the main ones, some not]. They each have their own form of politics, but sometimes if there is a large event going on [like one of the subcourt lords going batshit insane and trying to cover the sun, so vampires can go out for longer and take over the world yk] they meet up and discuss how to deal with it, do it, and go back to their homes

There are also wars, but they almost never actually do anything territory related, but it does change a lot bc you know it's WAR. there are mostly humans though, and these subcourts are usually small, and the main courts are very far away from human civilization [like the northern one literally being in the middle of the ocean].

And some more about the vampires themselves; they were created by a rogue god, trying to wreak havoc onto the world. The vampires that were around when they were created have either been vanquished, or seclude themselves from others, and so modern vampires don't know much about this god. The main courts mostly forgot about them, but the south didn't. No one in the south did, so the subcourts here are connected to the main court, but only because they're basically a huge cult, and their lord is a cult leader who believes he himself is the creator of all vampires.

Also the lord of the western court is dumb but his decision caused them to be one of the most powerful vampires

So basically what he did was he found a desert in not sunny weather, and chose to make his court live there. A few days after settling there the regular hot, sunny weather came back, and they were super far into the desert so they're just stuck there. But! Since they're immortal, they've developed large, broad wings [either man made or evolutionary] that block out the sun! And they also developed a small resistance to it, so they can be out there for hours, since the sun now only feels like a bad sunburn to them

If they're out for too long they'll still get vanquished though. sad

the way their fangs work is that they have modified canines that act as glorified straws; they suck blood, and these fangs connect to some major arteries that only vampires have that flows through their body, which comes in handy when it comes to our next point;

the sun.

The vampires feed on humans, but in MY universe the sun chooses what to affect, so if you have human blood in your system, you won't be vanquished; so what the vampires do is feed on humans and basically trick the sun. i haven't fully developed the reason the sun doesn't get immediately suspicious, but i would say that it wants to make sure it doesn't make a mistake, so it just allows anyone with human blood to not get vanquished [and animal blood too ofc]. i might develop this more as i write a story based on this lore. i like the celestial bodies being sentient; so let's move on to the moon, and werewolves! the werewolves aren't as developed as the vampires, but i can't wait to think of some interesting ideas for them.

The moon is also a sentient being [like local 58 but equally terrifying] and that causes werewolves!

basically imagine the moon being a living creature that roamed the earth; in any form. wreaking havoc, killing all of the humans the other gods created. the gods decided to banish the moon into space, cursing it into the form of a planetary mass. in order to keep the moon subdued, hunters were assigned to quell it by hunting and giving it blood; but the moon forced them to undergo a painful transformation each time they hunted in it's in its full phase, and so the first werewolves roamed the earth. every few years, when the moon is at its full strength and getting ready to return to the earth, hunters from around the world are chosen to undergo this painful transformation. their forms vary on their strength; more strong and powerful ones were the more anthropomorphic werewolves you see in most media, and the more agile and sneaky ones were basically transformed into wolves. some are just humans with their anatomy squished and stretched, basically wolf shaped humans. others get fur, and basically transform into wolves.

this transformation takes hours. their bones stretch and break, their organs shift and change, their skull changes drastically. this is the most painful experience any human could ever have to experience. hunters start at around 4 in the afternoon, and it ends at 10 at night, where they then rise and begin the hunt. they stay in this form for the rest of the night, and then turn back the next day. the transformation afterwards can be triggered at any time, and becomes less painful the more they do it. some consider it a blessing; others consider it a curse.

because of the vampires dependency on animal and human blood to survive, there is conflict with the two. there will be more development as i write the story.

#ramblings #worldbuilding #vampires #werewolves #just me talking about my lore #its the autism i can't help it!#ive been working on this lore for years now and i don't care if this goes nowhere #i want an archive of it

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awek-s-archived · 1 year

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i know i would be absolutely no where if i hadn't approached a cc when i was starting off as one... you guys are more than happy to reverse-gatekeep every single thing and usually even go out of the way to explain if the other party can't understand the tutorials available. what font to use, what sizes you should have for gifs/text if using, the bare minimum one should have as a colouring, how to experiment with effects or colours once you're comfortable enough--i learnt most of it from my friend back then because it was all so confusing and new. i try my best to help people but i wish they'd reach out to us too as i've seen a couple of people trash talk ccs, and i quote (from twt >:( are we even surprised), 'they act like giffing or creating content is for 'special' people, specifically their own friends and all yet they have the nerve to say that stealing is bad. what are we supposed to do when you won't share?' which made me feel quite sad... it's obvious they haven't asked the right people for any help and just want to justify stealing content. PLEASE reach out to us by either ask, dm, reply etc. because we are more than willing to do anything we can to have more cc mutuals and to just help a fellow aspiring creator out because we've been on the same boat at some point.

honestly most ccs i've ever met are just happy to see other people getting into the thing they like and creating for it and making a community based on it bc notes aside it can b really lonely to be the only person (or few people) talking about something :< but i think the take you saw on twt might've just been people who like to repost and have a complex about how everything should be available to THEM on their own platform, because they feel entitled to it, so they feel like they can just take the hard work people create on here to repost it under the guise of 'sharing' when in reality they just feel like they're owed that content. bc as you said they just want to justify stealing, they don't actually want to put the work into it, but when it comes to being asked not to steal, they always say it's not 'that hard' to make content anyway, while simultaneously refusing to learn to make it. it's a cycle because they refuse to understand and respect boundaries (reposting someone's content being one of them regardless of the type of content it is). but creators have always been lovely to new / up and coming creators in my experience! the person that inspired me to start giffing again years and years ago is a v cherished mutual now and if it wasn't for her and other mutuals of hers supporting me when i started out i probably would've given up learning. that's why it's so weird to me to see the hate content creators get, not just in kpop but fandom in general and for a variety of reasons. but i think it just comes down to the fact that the average consumer (who is unskilled and uncreative) doesn't understand or appreciate the fact that media/art don't belong to them and they can't lay claim on everything they see just because they happened upon it. they treat online content like virtual finders-keepers when the reality is it never left the ownership of the creator to begin with, therefore it's just..stealing.

#asks

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spiders-hth-is-an-outlier · 1 year

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I posted 5,264 times in 2022

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I tagged 3,749 of my posts in 2022

Only 29% of my posts had no tags

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#dog i try so hard not to call stuff ‘orwellian’ bc cliche/overused but folks that was in the book. like. like this occurs in that book

My Top Posts in 2022:

I think sometimes when I am caustic about a TV show that I actually love, it's because I am fundamentally angry that I got tricked into caring about it by people who, in retrospect, it feels like did not care about the show, or me, or what the show was to me. I don't know how to respond to that except angrily, and I prefer my undying anger cut with as much humor as possible. I don't mind loving something imperfect, but I truly resent being treated like a fool for investing in something, like that is actually extremely hurtful to me. And it makes me not want to be fair to the creators, who yes, were sometimes very clever and thoughtful, though other times overly slick and careless and inattentive. And I can, in some moods, parse out my positive and negative reactions to various bits of things with some equanimity, but in other moods I'm really just very angry about being yet again That Idiot who trusted people who were mostly just fucking with me to get a reaction, as bullies do. And then I'm not always fair, I know.

I look at my Magicians tattoo every day, all through the course of my day. I think all the time about whether or not the world is beautiful enough to live in, if the stories we tell about our lives make them beautiful or if they are sad attempts to narcotize us against the utter emptiness. I think about being on a key quest every goddamn day, and maybe I should be more grateful to the writers for opening up those questions for me through a protagonist I think would absolutely get exactly what I mean when I say that. But then -- I also do not think the writers very much liked that protagonist, or that if they knew me they would like or understand me at all, and gratitude still feels slightly out of my reach.

So if I sometimes talk about The Magicians as if it were "bad," that is admittedly a stripping-out of a lot of nuance. The reality is that I think it's a show that failed -- that failed to solve its problems or answer its questions, mostly because over and over it seemed to get bored and drop things as though nothing truly mattered and everything was disposable, which I personally think makes it a show that failed to land on a human level. And a lot of things fail, but I really, really didn't want this one to. Sometimes that leads me to giving it a little too much credit, and sometimes I know I give it too little.

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I have this theory that what's wrong with Quentin is literally just like -- college. I mean, things are "wrong" with him, in that he's non-neurotypical and almost certainly has a depressive disorder, but I think the actual reason he's so visibly stressed and angry and self-loathing is that there's no environment more ill-suited to managing stuff like that than a place where people are constantly exhorting you to make massive decisions and simultaneously submit to nearly constant external assessments and everyone around you either has power over you or is in direct competition with you and you're expected to hyperfocus on yourself and your goals and be ready and able to justify every choice you make, and they say if you can do that you'll be successful but if you can't that's called failure, and also you don't ever sleep or have any privacy and half of your emotions are still mostly or completely new to you. He is like 22 at the beginning of the show, and he's furious with himself for feeling broken, but he is 22 and he's just limped across the finish line of a notoriously irrational and inhumane educational system. Quentin's biggest problem is that he's not capable of repressing how beaten to shit he's been by the last few years, but I guarantee 90% of his classmates are equally fucked-up and neurotic, they're just hiding it better. Quentin's not a good hider of things, have you seen his face? It's not built for that.

Anyway then he goes to Brakebills, which is exactly like Columbia except exponentially more so and also he's been training for this for ten minutes instead of his whole life and he fully thinks he's going to be expelled just as randomly as he was admitted, and the institutional solution Brakebills has settled on for this phase of student life is Brakebills South, so what more can you say about that. The reason Quentin starts to get better once they all flee Brakebills is that academia is designed to ruin people. Fillory is too, but sometimes you're allowed to stab your problems, and that really seems to be liberating for Q.

There are probably flaws in my logic here, but. Sometimes you don't so much need a quest to fix you as you need to do adulthood badly for a little while and gradually do it less and less badly, which Quentin did in seasons 2 and 3, but I suspect he might've just naturally done anyway if he'd managed a movie theater or whatever during those years instead of going to the school where they shove demons under your flesh. I'm saying he maybe didn't have all that many problems that required intervention, so much as they required just letting up on himself for two seconds.

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I want to be clear that when I make fun of my fandom for rebloggging the same three kissing gifs obsessively for the last four years, not only am I doing so with love, I frankly appreciate our sense of restraint, because I also slum it over in Supernatural fandom, and I promise you that if even one canon Destiel kiss existed, those feral hobgoblins would be printing out copies and nailing them to people's doors like the 95 Theses. You would be physically unable to escape that screencap until your dying day. We're doing fine.

219 notes - Posted March 23, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I think part of the origin story of a lot of queer acephobia -- and I’m going to stress this at the top and the bottom, I’m only interested in how dynamics like this come to be, I’m not here to absolve anyone of it, don’t be an acephobic weirdo, deal with your stuff -- is that you are a filthy pervert and you aren’t entitled to sex it’s not for you is a massive pain-point for allosexual queer people. Any interest at all that we express in sex is deviant, obscene, a mental illness, destructive, offensive, and predatory; sex is what’s wrong with us, and the message kind of soaks in that if we could be ourselves but minus the sex, or at least the acknowledgement of sex, we’d be allowable. Even back in the Deep Darkness of the 90s, I remember hearing people say nobody cares what you do in the bedroom, as long as you don’t shove it in anyone’s face. Maybe the people saying that believed it and maybe they didn’t, who knows. But it was easy to believe, at least on some level. Maybe it wasn’t your personhood that was unbearable, but just some particular action or expression that you could mask or moderate, at least where the straights could see you.

So I think if you’re coming from a place where a lot of your journey to deal with your own sexuality starts with that specific trauma -- like, I really can understand why the idea that asexual people are oppressed is hard to process. They’re doing what everyone told you you should do! They’re the ones who are being obedient and inoffensive and “safe” and “family friendly!” Of course that buys them approval. Everyone always told you that was what buys approval, and you went through so much, externally and internally, to come to a place where you could say you’d rather have the sex than the approval, but they never had to do that! They don’t even want the thing that was your monstrous flaw, how dare they think they understand what you’ve been through?

Idk, obviously no one story is everyone’s story, but whenever I hear an allosexual queer person being dismissive of the idea that asexuality is an axis of oppression, I get the strong feeling that I’m seeing the long shadow of someone’s internalized, visceral disgust of gay sex, manifesting as a resentment for people who never had to be disgusted by themselves in the same way. I have so much empathy for that, I honestly do, but it’s still not okay to be so wrapped up in your own trauma that you’re fundamentally incapable of listening to people who are traumatized in a different way from you. The way we’re treated isn’t fair, but it also isn’t the fault of asexual people, and the kicker is that straight people lied to us all along. They wouldn’t like us better or treat us with more dignity if we could just excise the sexual desire from our personalities -- ask an asexual person about that.

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shizuu-chann · 2 years

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(Yet another) MASS EFFECT RANT:

You know, the Crucible is an amazing feat of engineering. Therefore, there's no way in hell you can tell me that that thing isn't advanced enough to be able to pinpoint specific targets and leave others alone. The Destroy ending is my preferred ending, bc at least Indigo lives, and I can get over if I just have to make up her rescue and survival on my own--even if I don't like it. However, what always pissed me off was (not only did the Catalyst look like that stupid human child I have never once cared about; like, why? Why couldn't it have just been a floating ball of energy or something? It didn't need to be recognizable to Shepard's human brain. It was stupid, and I'll forever be salty I can't skip through the end dialogue with it...) the fact that it tells you the Crucible "won't discriminate". It's stupid and I hate it. There's no reason it shouldn't to me.

I'm sure the writers wanted to give all the endings to the series a bittersweet edge, bc real life isn't always perfect and blah blah blah, but I don't care. I don't care. I don't consume media for the realism. Quite the opposite, in fact! I consume it as an escape, so give me my perfect happy ending! Fix-it fics are great, but I'm so picky and I want to read about MY Shep, so I have to write it myself, and while that's fine, sometimes I just want the writers of the canon material to just give me what I want. Or at least give me the OPTION to have what I want. BioWare games are full of options (and sometimes the illusion of options, but that's a topic for another post), so why couldn't a perfect ending exist? It's disrespectful... THEREFORE, in my fic that I have yet to finish, but I've already started and know the ending in my head, the Crucible wipes out the Reapers and the scientists were able to program it to ONLY attack the Reapers. Specifics were programmed to differentiate between pure Reapers and creatures with Reaper code (re: EDI and the geth), and it didn't ever fuck with Shep's cybernetics or whatever specifics she had going on. Also, I hate that the Citadel, like, blows up, so that doesn't happen, either. Maybe damage to the Presidium, since that's about where the Crucible docks, but the structure of the Citadel is still intact. I'll let SOME of the mass relays be damaged, for that "life is imperfect" feel, but not all of them (like, maybe the Primary relays--the ones that can only go in one direction and take you from one side of the galaxy to the other--were fine, while the Secondary relays--the ones that can't shoot you as far, but are multi-directional--were largely damaged, idk). But EDI lives, bc I hate that stupid sad death montage after you make your ending choice, and so do the geth, bc they and the rest of the galaxy deserve to try and cultivate peace and understanding between organics and synthetics bc I do not believe that there is never a way for us all to coexist no matter what the stupid Catalyst AI says. It came up with the WORST plan for "preserving life," then destroyed its own creators--who were fucking dumb enough to create an AI to prevent other AI from wiping out organic species--so basically it doesn't get an opinion on anything bc it sucks. And Indigo, and EDI, and the geth, and the rest of the galaxy get a happy ending, like they should have from the start. All that hard work, and blood, and sweat, and tears, and struggle, and death, and sorrow JUST to BARELY survive and/or die at the end? Fuck you, ME writers. Do better.

#long post #mass effect #mass effect 3 #me3 #me:le #me: legendary edition

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Goblin ❣︎ 도깨비

Kim Shin, an undefeated war general, is ultimately killed by a jealous young king named Wang Yeo. After death, Shin is revived by the gods—but his revival is by no means miraculous. He becomes a 도깨비 (dokkaebi, goblin), and is cursed. He will have to pay for all the lives he took in battle by living alone in immortality, witnessing everyone he's ever loved, die. Remaining lodged in his chest is the very sword that killed him. There is only person who can see that sword, and draw from his heart so that he can finally rest in peace: his bride... whom he's yet to meet.

Things get spoilery under the cut—you've been warned! ;)

Chipper, yeah? Haha so, right off the bat, the premises of Goblin remind me of like, a much more morbid version of the legend of King Arthur. You know, a man draws a sword from stone to prove himself the greatest king in all of Britain? Yeah. Just to be clear: this is a good thing (imo). Like, I personally think this is just such a cool idea for a drama 😍

Let's jump right in. I'm gonna be honest and say that, at first, I felt a little turned off at the female lead, Eun Tak, being nineteen (in the beginning of the show), meanwhile the male lead, Shin, is 900+ years old (but physically looks to be in his thirties). It just... rubbed me weird. But hey, the Twilight series (both the books and the movies) is exactly the same—high school girl, century-old man, bananas yet somehow romantic storyline... And I loved me some Twilight as a young adult. So I mean, I have no right to judge, really. Plus, Eun Tak soon turns twenty anyway. So that's an improvement I guess 🤷🏻‍♀️ We follow her character into her late twenties, nearly thirty. So things are definitely fine by then haha! 👍

Don't let that previous bit make you think I didn't enjoy Goblin—I LOVED it. That detail is just a lil funky to me, is all. Back during my Twilight obsession days, I was nearly twenty myself, and the thought of being pursued by an older man was exciting. Hell, I mean, it still is! But now that I'm two years shy of my 30th Birthday, I feel differently sometimes. I think, LAWD get that girl away from that man, she too young for him LOL. I am definitely getting old... Enough about Twilight now, apologies! I'm only using it for the sake of conveying similarities seen in Goblin 🙏 Let's talk cast!

Kim Go Eun as Ji Eun Tak and Gong Yoo as Kim Shin

Eun Tak is a bubbly young woman with limitless energy! While still in her mother's womb, Mama Ji was involved in a hit-and-run incident which, sadly, took her life. During Mama Ji's dying moments, she prayed to anyone above that her child's life be spared. Sat on a rooftop from afar, beer in hand (lol), Shin hears her prayers, as he is a god of sorts. He appears before Mama Ji, and shows mercy to her unborn baby. Eun Tak grows up with the ability to see/speak to ghosts. Said ghosts tell her constantly that she is the goblin's bride. How do they know? A strange birthmark on the back of Eun Tak's neck tips them off. Eun Tak unfortunately was taken in by her abusive bitch of an aunt, who jabs Eun Tak every chance she gets. Her cousins are assholes. Eun Tak's aunt really only keeps her around in hopes of collecting Mama Ji's savings (intended for Eun Tak) one day. Sad, right? I mean, isn't Eun Tak being born without her mother enough as it is? Life can be so cruel 😔

Lee Dong Wook as Grim Reaper/Reaper/Wang Yeo

This is Grim Reaper (or Reaper for short), portrayed by the handsome Lee Dong Wook. His character is just this strange, not at all tech-savvy man with a constant deadpan facial expression. Said facial expression provokes so many giggles during funny moments, and drives home the longing and desperation during sad times. We learn quite a ways in that he, in his previous life (again, just in case: spoiler), was Wang Yeo G A S P ! The young king that is essentially responsible for Shin's death, as well as all the misdeeds that were done to Shin's family. Again, this is something I don't want to spoil. Well, more, anyway 😆 You gotta see it!

Yoo In Na as Kim Sun/Sunny

Kim Sun, or simply, Sunny (she loves to spell her name for people lol, S-U-N-N-Y!) is the second female lead. Yoo In Na is so gorgeous that one look at her makes you feel like such a potato hahhah. 🥔 This fact about her beauty bleeds over into the show itself—every time another character meets Sunny, the camera does this slow motion pan into her lmao. She really is that pretty! Sunny's personality comes across so odd at first... Having watched all of the episodes now, I feel the intention of Goblin's creators was to make her seem like a soul searching for something it has lost in a previous life. idk if that makes sense, but yeah. She has this way about her, like she's disconnected from others, and is sifting through the haziness to find this thing she feels she's lost.

Yook Sungjae (my BtoB bias 😍) as Yoo Deok Hwa

Sungjaeeee ahhhh 💘💘💘 I had to gush, sorry! Hehe. Meet Deok Hwa: unofficial nephew of Shin. Deok Hwa is a third-generation chaebol (heir to a family-owned corporation) and spoiled man-child, always seeking his credit card hahaha 🤣 But I love him so much. Between Gong Yoo, Lee Dong Wook, and BtoB Sungjae? Man, I'm dying over here! Deok Hwa's true identity is revealed later in the show, which if you haven't seen it yet, I won't spoil it. Just watch. But his ending sucked. Like where did he go? Everyone else's endings got tied up neatly except for his. What gives, man? 🤔 Edit: I was actually reading an online conversation about what happened to Deok Hwa online—someone jokingly said he was reincarnated as BtoB Sungjae LOL 💯

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AMAZING OST 😍😍😍

Good pace, episodes drag at times. A little confusing in the beginning, but you get there eventually. Maybe this is just me though, viewers who are a little more keen than I will likely catch on sooner ;) My mom was a little confused as well, and actually said at one point, "This should be called the 'what-the-hell-is-going-on' show," hahaha. Like I said though, we quickly moved on from this, and loved all the things. There are actually, I think, three (?) specials that were made to aid viewers in making sure they understand the complex events and relationships clearly. I haven't watched them yet, but want to!

Quite repetitive tbh, as there are unnecessary flashbacks often. Probably for two reasons: the obvious of reminding you what's what, but also to create suspense. Typical duration of most tvN dramas seems to be about 16 episodes, so it's possible these flashbacks and things are, for lack of a better word, filler. I don't know how rigid or lax tvN is about having a drama set at 16 eps, but I get the idea this is their preference. Seeing as so many of their programs on average last that long, I feel this must be what they want. Such has the potential to affect the writing, either positively or negatively.

A continuation of the previous bullet: I think Goblin's creators oversimplified the plot at times. I'm unsure if this is due to possible pressures to meet a specific requirement(s), or what. I'd rather forgo ALL restrictions and let creativity flow, let the story be told without pressure to fill a specific amount of time, etc. but TV production is weird. And contracts are weird. tvN might not to blame for these issues, could simply be that storytelling isn't always easy, man. I'm a writer myself, it's hard! I'M being redundant now lmfao! Anyway, yeah ~

Absolutely LOVED all the scenes that were filmed on location in beautiful Québec City, Canada 🍁 Tall, romantic trees, the fall foliage, historic buildings... sigh. Now all I need is Gong Yoo chasing me and we're all set! ;D

In addition to Shin being revived, my crush on Gong Yoo has been revived as well LOL. He fine 🔥 A classic K drama crush, can't go wrong with GY👌

Gong Yoo is always stellar at doing kiseu (kiss) scenes, and in Goblin, he does not disappoint. He really goes at it 🙈 which is preferred vs. the typical person kissing a stone statue that you see so often. He even did a lift kiss with Kim Go Eun that was reminiscent of THEE Coffee Prince kiss he did with actress Yoon Eun Hye! 😍

I never saw it coming, how the sword would wind up being removed from Shin's chest. I worried what the writers were going to do, how would they approach this, and just wow. The way things turned out is such a relief. It also told me that Shin's love for Eun Tak is true. I mean, I didn't need that scene to occur for me to know that, rather it just adds extra oomph that yes, Shin really does love Eun Tak. He didn't want her to suffer knowing she was responsible for his "death," so he thought quick and used her hands WITH his hands asdfghjkl. How dumb (bc noooo now you're gonna die) and amazing he is at the same time 💜

I love how Shin made his way back to Eun Tak after passing away, it was such a powerful scene. I could really feel his struggle, and kept yelling at my TV for him to stand up lol!

Devastated that Eun Tak died 😭 I really thought as many times as she'd cheated death before, she would somehow continue cheating death again and again for the rest of her days. But no... What a selfless person, Ji Eun Tak. Her being reincarnated as Park So Min gave me some closure. Not the closure I wanted, but closure.

The relationship between Shin and Reaper is ADORABLE. Whenever they interact with each other, they just have this great dialogue. Shin pings, Reaper pongs, Reaper pings, Shin pongs. It's great 😄 I still laugh about the slow-mo scene of them returning from the market with green onions HAHAHA 😂

I love Sunny & Reaper ~ However, their history as Kim Sun & Wang Yeo in their past lives is so very sad. I don't even know where to start RE: my feelings on this 💔 imo, their ending kinda sucked. I just wasn't satisfied with them having had this complicated, tragic story, only to be reincarnated in this fashion that I ultimately found to be just... idk, disappointing 😩 Again, closure, but not the closure I wanted.

I thought Reaper, the other grim reapers, the name cards, the depiction of what happens immediately following death with the brewing of the tea, the afterlife, etc. was all very creative. We really don't know what awaits us when our time comes—it's interesting to wonder if it's anything like it is in Goblin 🍵

Can't stop thinking about Goblin, even though I'm now watching Thirty but Seventeen & Mr. Sunshine! I'm emotionally cheating lol halp.

Photo credits: tvN & AsianWiki

Yo yo! I'm sorry I took so long to watch + write up this review! It's been a long couple of weeks for me, I wasn't always able to watch when I wanted. It was maddening 😆 But I have finally watched, and feel like the most accomplished person on the planet hahaha. xoxo 💜

#goblin #도깨비 #asian dramas #korean dramas #tvn

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