#its 6am and i havent slept yet

[tearful-kay]

I wish the world was soft for me, like a jellycat from chapers.

I want for an easy view, like pastel colours from a children's book.

I need to feel safe, like I'm wrapped in a blanket in your arms.

I long for you as you once were, like the mom I had before.

#tearful kay #poetry #childhood #nostalgia #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #its 6am and i havent slept yet #mommy issues

[wind-without-wings]

Yzl leaned against the white balcony surrounding the fighting pit, staring down absently at the current match. A gold coin juggled across her fingers, occasionally holding it between her knuckles as she paused to think.

A lot of new fighters recently, and not just from Ionia. She couldn't help but to grimace as another of Bilgewater's fish-men were dragged out of the ring. Personally, she didn't like Jack's men, let alone Jack himself. But they were decent fighters, and the better the fighter, the higher the stakes. The higher the stakes, the more money you could walk away with.

As the arena was getting tidied up for the next bout, Yzl pushed herself upright and away from the balcony. She was itching to move, and sitting around on the viewing deck wasn't going to scratch that itch.

No. She would have to take a peek at the bouts, and see if she could slip in. The fish-men brought money in, but were too forward and brutish to be entertaining in her book. Not everyone came to bet. Some came for excitement. And what's the excitement in knowing who wins before it starts.

Yzl chuckled, crossing her arms as she left the crowded balcony and headed down below.

Showtime.

#take to the skies [IC] #musings #its 6am and I havent slept yet

[sunlitsaturn]

tw// mention of r*pe, s*icidal id*ation

recently, i was asked by a friend

"What's been your biggest accomplishment?"

i thought id have an answer.

i thought.

i stayed silent.

she apologized for asking, maybe she thought the question made me uncomfortable.

there's some truth to that, in a way it did.

but it wasn't her that caused me to become uneasy, no.

i am twenty. i am young. i am in school, striving to one day get my PhD.

i am twenty. i have battled demons of all kinds. i have severe trauma. i am sick. i have delt with years of suicidal ideation. i am a recovering addict.

i am twenty. i have seen death, peaceful and horrific. i have seen illness no cure exists for.

i am twenty. i have many diagnoses. i hallucinate. i have see things daily no other person can see.

i am twenty. i have dealt with hatecrimes ranging from non-aggressive to violent. i have been r*ped. i have been beaten. i have been in many situations where i thought i was going to die.

i am twenty. i love humanity. i am empathetic. i love and nurture all i can. i do not hold grudges, i do not get angry anymore. i see love in every living being, i see the world as a place to protect, i see the cosmos as home.

i am twenty. and my accomplishment is that i have survived. i am surviving. and even after all i have been through,

i love this world.

that is my accomplishment.

1.30.23 - 6:20am

#late night thoughts #random vent #its 6am and i havent slept yet

[proshippers-against-censorship]

That whole little spat has also really proven how "don't feed to trolls" has fallen by the wayside because tbh, I was here for the entertainment and I will be the first to admit that that was full troll behavior - I mean, why else would Kurloz be my pfp?

And they just kept jabbering and ranting on and on...

Babes you could just stop engaging at any time, I have no need to barrel into your asks and keep it up lmfao. You're in control of your online experience. I'm here for the drama, this account exists for the drama. I give advice but I'll admit that I - again - am far from a great person and I will happily play around with antis. You keep talking, you keep up that entertainment. You keep little ol Jackal-troll here fed.

You want me gone? Curate your own experience, hit that block button, stop engaging.

It's that easy.

#anyways its like 6am and i havent slept yet goodnight #that was fun #proshippers against censorship #jackal barks #proship please interact #proship positivity #proship #proshipping #proshipper #proshippers please interact #proshipper safe #anti anti

[hhawkeye]

when i called my doctor last week to discuss my mental health being bad she asked if i was worrying about The Situation In The Middle East and i didnt even know what to say like. it feels crazy that thats her first question and that i, as some random person w no connection to palestine, would be able to get help with my Feelings about it while palestinians are going through unimaginable horror and just… have to live with it. like of course i’m thinking about it. of course it’s weighing on me. how can it not. but what am i gonna say. “yeah watching a genocide happen in real time and not being able to do anything about it is making me sad. can i get some drugs pls” ??????? idk. there’s a lot of other stuff that’s been fucking w my mental health so i’m getting more help anyway but i don’t know how to feel when being upset and outraged and horrified about a hellish event is treated like An Illness rather than just… being a person.

#i just kind of said like yeah but thats not the main thing #which sounds terrible too bc like. what do you MEAN thats not the main thing #how is my worry about idk fucking. work and whatever somehow worse than people being killed en masse #like people are actually living through this and all im doing is sitting here seeing photos and videos yet somehow im the one getting help?? #i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it #sorry this probably makes no sense. its almost 6am i havent slept yet

[seaside-rusty]

Has anybody else pointed this out before? im almost certain someone has but i was looking thru the tmagp tag and i havent seen anyone mention this, so please tell me that there are other people who realized this as well. but heres my thoughts on the limited merch design, despite being a bit late to the party.

#rusty rambles #im positive other people have pointed this out but i cant find any posts that do #tma #tmagp #the magnus archives #the magnus protocol #its almost 6am and i havent slept yet #too busy with Thoughts. #also the quality is really grainy. the text on the left reads #“im pretty sure the flower is a spider lily(associated with death)” #feel free to roast me if this is like. common knowledge in the fandom. im a bit out of the loop rn

[homokommari]

im more inspired than ever to draw superman eating out batmans pussy

#but its almost 6am and i havent slept yet

[wolfsyndrome]

its been a long day my jaw is aching from being clenched

#its almost 6am and i havent slept yet

[ratmadeofrats]

Would They Misgender Me? (Bones s4 Edition)

Credentials: im a they/she who’s rewatching the show and reawakening an old hyperfixation while doing so

Bones- Yes. She’d ramble about how singular ‘they’ isn’t grammatically correct but would probably humor me after i tried explaining it, but by that point misgendering me would feel less like bullying.

Booth- Yes, but he wouldn’t mean to. He’s just genuinely so confused but by god will he at least try. Would probably refer to me as ‘he’ a lot which i’ll count as a win.

Sweets- No! But... he would be a little to performative about it. Over-enunciating the “they”s and never actually using she. I’d feel safe being out around him, though.

Angela- At first, yes, but would quickly switch gears if I asked her to change it up. Though I do think she’d fetishize the concept a little too much... I wouldn’t wanna be left alone in a room with her for too long to avoid discomfort.

Hodgins- Same as Angela where he’d start using only “she” but fix it after I ask. I think he’d slip up a lot more and kind of forget to use “they”, but it wouldn’t be on purpose.

Zach- Yep. He’d be just as confused at the “grammatical inconsistency” of it as Bones but would just follow her lead on it. Camille- Yeaaahhh... Hate to admit it but she did straight up say she “missed when there was a simple pronoun”. She wouldn’t get it but I think after some time she’d get over it. Would probably only use “they” on me though.

Vincent- Nah. He’d spout some facts about the first known instances of nonbinary people in different societies and move on. 

Clarke- No, because dude wouldn’t even perceive me enough to have the chance to misgender me.

Daisy- Exact same situation as Sweets. She’s just so excited to know a queer person and she gets a little too much about it.

Wendell- No doubt that man will never misgender me. He might be a little confused but he would immediately put an effort in.

Fisher- Nah he’s too emo not to get it. You can’t tell me he hasn’t at least questioned his own gender before.

Arastoo- I think he wouldn’t do it on purpose, but would just forget that she/he aren’t the only pronouns. He’s a sweet guy though so he’d put in an effort once he caught himself.

#i honestly dont know how to tag this in a way that'd get this seen... #eh who cares its 6am and i havent slept yet if u see this then u were destined to

[knoxprox]

My sleep schedule is so fucked…

#its 6am i havent slept yet and i have to be up by 9am for work #and i’ll end up too tired to function then napping then being awake all night tomorrow too… #all because my body just said no sleep one night now im stuck in the cascade #im so sick of this #i get it fixed for a couple of weeks at most then it gets fucked again

[uravitypng]

my body aches tonight so im writing a fic about someone helping and its spicy and ooh im really liking it so far and i dont think i've ever properly written him before so it should be fun.

#it should be done tomorrow #its 6am and i havent slept yet .. so .. bed time asdfghjk #♡ mine / talks

[nakitengoku]

Maybe this will fix me

#quinn talks #i amtrying to recorrect my sleeping habits and havent slept yet #its currently 6am #ive been awake since around 9:30 am #i might try an do a small sleep? bc i do plan on doing some light work tomorrow? #but idk

[strawbwerriesart]

its 6am and i havent slept yet! this is all i have to offer

#im still deciding how I like to draw tom #eddsworld #ew #ew fanart #ew tom #ew tord #ew paul #paul ew #tom ew #tord ew #eddsworld fanart #art

[aroacee-of-spades]

nyx im losing it over the last episode if good omens the timeframe makes no sense

hi sorry i took a day to respond to this!! (btw part of the reasoning for this is that ur ask pushed me to finally create a table listing every single time that aziraphale's clock displays throughout s2, which is why most of this will be abt the clock)

i will actually launch into essays abt the timing of the last episode i'm not even kidding

to be perfectly honest with u at first i thought it was trying to mimic books, when timing would change to fit a scene (and not to point fingers at writers who do this ig but i just don't typically like stories like these lmao) but even that doesn't explain the damned clock (i am so done with the clock, its presence haunts me) + why would Neil ever have any reason to mimic amateur writing???

anyway, i'm killing myself over any way to make sense of the timing in that episode rn.

like unless if the way time works in the uk has changed since i last lived there, and if aziraphale changed time during the Halo Scene (this also brings up the question of How Much and What Else did he change, which to the latter i don't think he changed Anything) which btw in the Halo Scene, its 6am and while i can't find the exact time at the start of The Ball (if u can pls tell me i'd love to expand on this, rn it's just a bunch of ramblings put into a google doc) or- more technically i found One tiiiiny scene from the bts clips that MIGHT be the correct time but i have yet to check this lmao (according to the clip it's 6:30pm which, if true, only adds to the utterly bewildering timeframes)

BUT ALSO everybody seems to have a sense of time (as seen in the nina, "i havent slept in 30 hours, order accurately & fast") which means that MAYBE IT'S JUST US?? which makes this whole thing so much more confusing bc if thats the case then why. whyyyyy. Why would you EVER use a working clock??????

i have SO MUCH to say abt the timeframes at the END especially. but before i do, i really wanna know what u think (btw this isn't me trying to pawn my answer on u i just really wanna know ur opinions on Everything gomens related haha)

i also wrote this during my breaks as i worked and i'm now done and am Very Tired and cannot fathom doing anything other than resting on the sofa and rewatching gomens:)

#red tag #mutuals;) #not-so-good omens #gomens

[kvroii]

I just remembered latte art is a thing so im putting some oc thoughts here for later for my barista ocs

-kori cant draw latte art. she stopped trying because she cant get the shapes right. She thinks others might laugh at her for it, or someone might ask for a refund, but shes probably more worried about it than anyone else.

- phecda can make good latte art. He probably makes the really fancy modern ones of mascots and anime characters. He's so humble about it that its not fair, but secretly he tries to overdo each one for the theatrics. He will deny this. He's a bad liar though.

- goodwin makes really nice traditional latte art, but only when wearing her prosthetic. If she doesnt have it, she cant tilt the cup just right. Its fine because she always wears it to work, and her good customer service brings people in anyway. Sometimes she spills coffee on it though which might be a problem bc the metal is more for aesthetics than functionality, which is to say rust is still a possible issue.

- kai is trying his best okay. he's getting there. sure his hand shakes too much and he doesnt have a frame of reference for any design that isnt something he saw in the lab, but hes TRYING, be NICE to him!!! Depending on a customer's stance on experiments, they either specifically want his attempts at latte art to be encouraging, or they would sooner take something drawn by kori and give the myrios cafe a bad review on the city's hologram app anyway.

Anyways i wanna draw this eventually but its 6am and i havent slept yet. So that will wait until tomorrow or whenever, bc i also wanna draw a cool kori art thats boucning around in my head. I'll see which comes first.

#i kinda like postibg more rambly stuff sometimes? so i might keep at it #i was gonna post this on my reblog/random thoughts blog but it feels more of an art blog thing #its been so long since i shared oc info oopsies #if you see a post after this ive gone to bed but my schedule runs one art a day so itll probably post something half an hour from now. #itll probably be spark in a ryousangata outfit? okay good night!! :3

[kronehaze]

more backgrounds aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

its 6am and I havent slept yet so Im amazed with how little Im tired rn

anyway cozy evening in @arcadeology s seastone au

#ckart #miraculous ladybug #miraculous fanart #marinette dupain cheng #marinette cheng