#ive had a crazy two weeks

[calumsclifford]

i’ll be patient despite our racing hearts

rating : teen and up audiences

relationships : mashton, minor cake

words : 5767

The thing is, Michael and Ashton aren’t not friends. They do things that friends do. They enjoy each other’s company. They have the same taste in music. They have good talks. “You can be friends with your boyfriend, Michael,” Calum says, exasperated.

or, Michael and Ashton are accidentally fake dating

read here on ao3

a/n: this fic is part of the 5sos summer fic exchange! this time, i wrote for monse (@lukemichaelcalumashton)! i hope you enjoy some good old mashton fake dating! i had a blast writing it!

as always, massive thank you to hazel (@allsassnoclass) for organizing! i am always in awe of your work and dedication, and i appreciate you an insane amount!

i am, of course, not the only writer participating in the exchange! please go check out @5sos-fic-exchange to check out our other wonderful writers’ fics! i’m excited to read through them, i hope you are too!

#5sos fic exchange summer 2022 #my fic #lukemichaelcalumashton #allsassnoclass #5sos-fic-exchange #ive had a crazy two weeks #i got a puppy 13 days ago!!!! #he is a sweetheart and i love him #but it's obviously a lot of work #and not a lot of sleep lol #he was sick this morning so i was up with him finishing this fic :( #my poor baby :( #i'm not going to get into it but work has been hell #so yeah! crazy week! #on that note puppy is napping so i am going to nap too #all the love <3 #mashton fake dating

[honeydots]

i know im late but xanlow pocky doodle was a must....

#xanlow #fe14 #fire emblem fates #fe laslow #fe xander #PRETEND ITS STILL 11/11 #11/17 looks like 11/11 if you're lying #look ive been having a crazy week you WILL give me a pass #my prof changed the due date of one of my papers so i had to write an eight page paper in. one night. exciting stuff! #that on top two exams and other homework. busy week...... #im so sad tho cause i was literally waiting in anticipation ALL YEAR to do a pocky doodle for them and then the time came and i spaced djfks #ive got a couple more xanlows that i was gonna post in conjunction w this one but i didnt like how they looked together so. #expect art in the coming days #also: natalia if you see this i saw your message!!! and so my song recc to you today is riot by the scarlet opera :D #dots draws

[macroglossus]

being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED

#which is dumb bc i have been formally diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses i dont think they can just take it back right????? #this is so stupid and cliche but what if i have been faking it........ all along........ Argh. #when i was in res i was put on adderall (bc the house psych just kind of experimented w meds LMFAO) and i had to go off them after like #two weeks bc it was affecting my appetite in a way i couldnt afford at the time lmao. but i do genuinely feel like it helped during that #time.... which is why i want to go on it again!!!! but im scared theyll just be like nah and i wont be able to take any of my meds anymore #is that crazy. am i being crazy rn. idk i truly do think most of my experiences w school and like. life could be explained by adhd and #when i was a kid they thought i had it but the two meds they tried didnt work for me so they just. kind of gave up #and i was really extremely unable to do school and graduated hs w an insanely low gpa and then dropped out of community college. LMAO. not #that people w adhd cant be good in school i just couldnt make myself do homework and couldnt listen in class bc i was too busy focusing on #listening. if that makes sense #IDK. idk. i know it's become like. a trend to have adhd is the issue and everything is being attributed to having it so im worried that ive #like. accidentally fallen in w that? even though ive thought i had it for forever and everyone has been like girl do you have this. IDK!!!! #idk. idkkkk im just like. genuinely scared. it's not the end of the world if im not diagnosed obviously but that means that #im just like this for no reason at all. and there's no way of helping it bc it's just the way i am. and i actually am just shitty n lazy. #epic. which incidentally is the proper name for how fucking long these tags are my bad. if you read this far sorry for being insane 👍

[todayisafridaynight]

top ten things i didnt think could happen during the aoki/bodyguard segment Aoki Actually Attacks

#snap chats #ignore the fact joon-gi's having the worst time ever ok sacrifices had to be made #GOD FINALLY I GOT THESE STUPID GIFS #the funniest bit is that aoki primarily targeted eri i just didnt wanna show her gettin dogged on twice #like father like son why the fuck do they both have problems with eri ☠️☠️ #BUT YEAH NO I DIDNT. I NEVER SAW HIM USE HIS GUN OR ATTACK UNTIL LAST WEEK #AND I NEVER SAW ANYONE ELSE TALK BOUT IT AND WE ALL KEPT JOKIN AOKI NEVER USES THE GUN #BUT NO HE DOES my hypothesis. right. #is that he'll only do these things when he has some bodyguards left #'snap the fuck is that top gif then' LISTEN i had JUST gotten rid of a guard before his turn #idk maybe he needs a buffer turn to use guard order idk #but i kept him alone for a solid ten turns and he just kept using guard order #thing is his goons are so easy to take out with essence of rose typhoon or something similar he's always in need of guards #this fight just goes by so fast you never expect him to use either of these- which what makes his empty gun in the followin scene hilarious #hence. why ive never seen it lmao #i can die happy now. im not crazy. im crazy but im not lying #this was so unnecessary LMAO #genuinely insane i can just upload homegrown y7 gifs and videos... wild... #unrelated to these. ive decided tendo is no longer scary ive got the timing down everyone <- two people died during the tendo fight #LISTEN FOR THE MOST PART I GOT IT I JUST FUMBLED AT THE WORST TIME LMAO its all good #at this point im more afraid of the arminator fight since that shit just hates me and kills my millenium runs more than tendo #ok bye im practicing more before my friend hangs out with me

[lesbiannoel]

its so fucking goofy that high intensity exercise makes you feel better. like ohh im so glad i did my little sprint, now im not gonna kill myself for at least 12 hours. this is so fucking stupid

#and then we wake up and do it all over again... #mine #also i DO need to go back to therapy as ive been saying for months #it would prob be good to revisit my other coping skills rn... #this week i [redacted] two days in a row and had crazy [redacted 2.0] urges alllllll week which sucks but whatever #big win! i did not make myself throw up in my office floor's shared bathroom despite serious consideration. yippee!!!

[villageoracle]

iced coffee and bong and three tylenol and two ibuprofen i love you

#personal tag #literally bombs in my head #every sound is so loud and ive had a headache for a week and my ear has been ringing for longer louder #the old ear infection + ed + no sleep + always moving or going + so much weed + trying to understand my childhood combo #don't forget the always has to be thinking about work #also i have to go to california in a week #also ill be stuck with my mom and sister for a full week #but ill have my two yr old niece who will be so sweet with you and then suddenly tell you to stop talking over and over #shes crazy and i need to encourage it #sorry ive been progressively getting higher as i type this #im gonna change the post to something sillier because im chiller now

[16-jarrah]

How do you get the motivation to start new shows and not stop a few episodes in? There are so many shows i want to watch (bcs included thanks to your blogging) but even when i have nothing else to do, it just winds up feeling like a chore

it depends on the show really! you have no idea how many shows i've forgotten to watch and/or dropped in the middle of watching them bc my brain doesn't wanna. (answer: most of them.)

in the case of PoI i started watching it mostly bc of my friend christy and bc michael emerson is in it. but it also has an intriguing premise. if you look at the past shows i've completed since last year only like 2 or 3 of them don't have some sort of intriguing mystery/thriller element. i'm mostly curious abt where the show's gonna be headed since the premise itself leaves you open to explore a lot of like themes and topics.

#i also started watching tfprime but i'm only a few episodes in despite starting it weeks ago. i keep forgetting to continue it too #zom100 i started bc i couldn't sleep lmfao #starting brba actually felt like a chore for me too to be honest. but im glad i kept watching it bc its a good show #i dont like it as much as i do bcs though. i think bcs really hit all the boxes for me in terms of what kind of show i would be crazy over #it also helps to be in a state of distress bc i need a show or two to keep going or else ill go lose my fucking mind #(but dont actually go looking to be in a state of distress) #ill also mention fiona & cake bc that one i started watching just now bc adventure time was a HUGE part of my childhood to teen years #ive been with it since day 1 and never got off the ride #oh if youre talking about arcane... i finished it a while ago i just had a caitlyn moment #op #asks #anon

[thestarstho]

Sorry for disappearing for a bit there lol

#star talks #not bob’s burgers #so my job had this crazy sale that we had to take two weeks to prepare #and then i had to tie up some loose ends with class schedule next semester #and now ive been preparing for my road trip to Colorado this weekend #been craaaszy

[malxshrine-a]

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#hahaaa so quick update on rl situation #started a new job at a factory and already the area ive in has been goving me a static charge that has me being shocked #on EVERYTHING / ANYTHING metal and ive got to use buttons that have electricity running through them #one button doesnt even have a proper plastic cover on it so to turn it on i have to stick my finger inside it to actually hit it #imagine that. imagine getting shocked for my entire shift EVERYWHERE in little doses and by these buttons w electricity yu know? #ive been there two days and already have to remember 6 machines and im gonna learn more #10 all week despite the rest of the department doing 10 just on sundays and 8 the rest of the week. by the third day they wanted #to have me alone. they didnt even have me in the system to clock in / no badge / no time cards / dodnt tell me all this until monday #here i am thinking shits usual shift time and its not. came in two hours late #hypertension / heart palpitations / high blood pressure just from dealing with knowing i have big gaps in training and they want me alone #me getting shocked to high hell. and knowing even if i WANTED go skiddadle that i COULDN'T #my poor heart been going through it. dealing with them ive been going through it. #NO WONDER PEOPLE NO CALL NO SHOW ON THIS AREA AND YOU CANT KEEP TEMPS #nah cause fuck me running up a damn tree for acorns. tryna relay im being shocked and the girl training me not believing me #til i lit her ass up by touching her on accident through her gloves AND mine. i cant even use my gloves to help #i TRIED THAT. so like she didnt believe me til i made her see had to go to the doctor to not feel like #im being subtly gaslighted into thinking im making a big deal out of nothing and im crazy #i CRIED in the bathroom / before my shift / and after bc i feel off and my anxiety about being shocked is enormous #now i have to deal with paper work while feeling like my chest is being beaten on and squeezed. HAHAAA #im mentally / physically / emotionally going through it. but thank you for coming to my ted talk

[silverislander]

i'm so fucking tired man i really am. barely did half the work on this paper i needed to do today and i just feel so fucking useless

#like seriously all i had to do was skim a few papers and write like. a paragraph or two. and i couldnt even manage that #levi.txt #vent tw #and yeah it probably is the adhd but fucking. who gives a fuck i cant even prove i Have that problem anyway #my therapist takes it seriously and hasnt questioned me but i just feel like shes humouring the crazy girl so ill listen to her #like for the sake of rapport. i wont be able to fix my anxiety if i cant trust her right #i cant get diagnosed to prove there is a problem and i cant get any treatment to improve it whats the point anyway #this is my final essay its a BIG DEAL. i shouldve started it weeks ago but i forgot the instructions were up #so now ive got a week to write research and send off a complex 12 page paper on fucking coriolanus #i have to write at least two pages a day to even scrape by under the deadline i know im gonna have to beg for a fucking extension #theres an exam in another class next saturday i havent started to study for either and i only got a 60 on the last one #i feel so fucking STUPID i couldve started all of this earlier if i could just not put something off for once in my goddamn life #but no! binge watched half of a show tonight #stayed home like a fucking loser while all my friends had a movie night bc i was INTENDING to study or something #fucking ridiculous ive got the priorities of an actual child #delete later

[ceruleanfuckup]

GIVE 👏 US 👏 THE 👏 DEETS 👏

Y'all are nosy today!!

#hes great #and im trying to not say very much because its a personal thing shouldnt really be a public thing #i like him a lot #theres been two polycules that ive ever tried to infiltrate and this one is important to me #2/3 of them like me so thats decently good odds #not trying to date everybody but its very important to me that i impress the people that are important to him #he needed to be up very very early today because he picked up someones shift but he knew that i had just had a crazy shift #and it had been two weeks since i had seen him last so he gave me more of his time than he should have which made me feel great #hes fun for me to be around. not sure what he wants this to end up as which is a bit stressful but we've takked every day for 76 days now #sorry *77 #hes just neat. and i like him. and i want him in my life for a long time #so we'll see what happens

[storm-of-feathers]

son of a

#this appointment was actually supposed to happen two weeks ago but didnt bc i had to get down to connecticut #which. ended up giving me and joe covid #and bc of that exposure even though ive since tested negative joe didnt take his second test #and hes still coughing so if he tests positive i have to put it off AGAIN. #which is annoying bc its about adhd medication which is yk. schedule 2 drug #so i actually have to have an appointment every 30 days or so to keep on it #bc it doesnt have refills the prescription has to be renewed once a fucking month #which is super annoying! #esp bc theres a shortage on adhd meds rn anyways #both bc of general abuse during finals season and bc its used to make meth #for anyone not familiar: schedule 2 is like. the mostly tightly controlled a substance can be while still being legal #its also crazy addictive if you dont have adhd bc ig if youre normal it makes you able to do homework faster or something #but i do have adhd so gjhfbdbfbfbshgfuck.

[common-pipistrelle]

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#got back into crochet a couple days ago. very fun and im enjoying making stuff as gifts for people #it just takes so much time. ive had two late nights (as in going to sleep past 6am) in a row because i was up crocheting #on that grind #its just crazy how less than a week ago i was depressed out of my mind and nothing seemed interesting #and now ive got something to focus on #should focus on revision for exams next week and my programming project buuuuttttt #i dont wanna so lmao #p

[thursdayg1rl]

sick to my stomach thinking about going into school tomorrow tbh

#this is enough. they need to stop this madness and give the last week off we cant keep living like this #like ive had two days rest but i still cant do two more days of it its crazy

[souplix]

crying on my flight to arizona like i wont be a wreck tomorrow going back to the real world

#sam rambles #how did i survive these two weeks #like i miss my bed and bf!!! #this trip taught me i cant handle not being cuddled #like ive had it so good for 6 years #i was touch starved like crazy #and i love my people a lot #i just wish i was less......... me #i was a lot this week #i dont wanna dive too deep cause i am putting it off on purpose

[devotedlystrangewizard]

still so insane to me that im probably moving out of my mom's house in a few months like ive never actually moved before?? ive lived in this house my entire life ive been through so much here and now im just. leaving. and it always seemed so far away that id get old enough to finish high school and make that decision. that i would finally make it out of there. ough

#ramblings #going halfway across the country too #im moving in with my dad #so its not like im going to a completely strange place by myself or whatever #but its so crazy #on one hand its great! my mom is a terrible influence on my life! she sucks ass as a mom #but on the other hand. the longest ive ever not lived in this house was 7ish weeks. and now im just. never coming back #i love this room ok. i grew up in it. ive had it my whole life. in this house of images and aesthetics this room is MINE #and yet im. never coming back #my sister will get it. she'll make it into her room. its the bigger of the two of ours. #and ill cut off as much contact with my mom as humanly possible. at least for now. while i try to heal. #so much is changing its terrifying i hate it here