#just ignore my frustrated ramblings

[oblivionsdream]

Why is trying to pick a starting point for a story always the hardest part for me??

#I’m staring at my notes and fuckkkkk #all i know is that I want to start in the middle #I already talk about foolknight in terms of them already knowing each other #and it just makes sense in my head to start in the midst of it all #then I can include flashbacks of how they met/past moments #but fuck I’m indecisive and picking a starting point that would establish the main players best is hard #I have too many options #just ignore my frustrated ramblings #I’m just grumbling into the void #I don’t know how all of you writers do it all the time

[stellanix]

(genshin impact spoilers incoming)

one aspect of furina's characterization that's pretty understated but that i really really really love is her intelligence and curiosity. usually in genshin, when a character's intelligence is an important trait of theirs, there are aspects of their design, writing, voice acting, etc, that very clearly tell you "hey this character is smart." albedo, for example, wears a labcoat, is always saying big sciency words in a calm, rational tone of voice, and other characters are always talking about how smart he is

but furina? nothing about her on the surface suggests that she's a "smart" character - quite the opposite, in fact. superficially, she's introduced as a bratty, conceited, overconfident person who actually has no idea what she's doing. we eventually learn in the archon quest that that was all an act, but even after she regains her freedom, nothing about her really seems archetypically intelligent, at least at face value

instead, furina's intelligence is always shown rather than told (the only exception being nahida's voiceline about her). she had an intelligence network across teyvat feeding her information, and we saw in the flashback how she directed researchers to study the prophecy and potential ways of stopping it. before things like lyney's trial or directing the two musketeers, she'd stay up all night planning and piecing things together all on her own. she loves learning new things, she has lines in the teapot about how, when she's interested in something, she wants to become the most knowledgeable person in the topic, and also how she'd like to disassemble the teapot itself to learn how it works, and she's quick to learn new skills (like surfing). and, of course, she's well read, and quite possibly teyvat's foremost expert on the performing arts

i like how furina sort of defies the concept of character archetypes. she's initially presented as an archetypical bratty, dramatic, spoiled popular girl, but that was a role she forced herself into because it's what people expected of her. but the real furina, while still retaining some of the flamboyance from her archon persona, doesn't really fit into a clear mold. she's smart without being a super-genius, and she's kind without being a soft-spoken doormat. it makes her feel multifaceted and real, and i really love that!

anyway, this is why it makes me mad whenever i see people calling furina stupid, cuz she's not!

#furina #genshin impact #don't mind me just rambling about my blorbo #tbh given her love of learning and how old she is i imagine furina could her own against zhongli in a quaint trivia contest #furina's true traits being shown rather than told is both great storytelling but also kinda frustrating because some people miss it #and end up mischaracterizing her as a result #but then again some people will also ignore character traits that are explicitly told so it's maybe not the writing that's at fault here

[duckprintspress]

So, y'all who use Gmail...do you realize Google is just. Not showing you e-mails?

We're having increasing trouble with Google receiving e-mails from our server, despite having everything set up correctly - and this isn't about being sent to spam, this is about them full-on just not putting the message through.

If it's happening to us, it's happening to others.

If you use gmail and interact with people who use private domain e-mails, and you're like "why haven't I heard from them?!" you might want to follow-up.

It might also be a good time to start considering moving away from gmail, because yes, as far as I can tell, Google is just. deciding not to deliver e-mails. without notifying people on either end that the e-mail hasn't been received.

#unforth rambles #duck prints press #it's so fucking frustrating that i now have to wonder every time #is this person ignoring me or did gmail just decide they don't get to know my email exists

[grantwilsonenjoyer]

something so funny about matt saying "its just like shooting a deer!" about grant killing the chimera. and freddies "yeah but no one has had to TELEFRAG a DEER"

#dungeons and daddies #dndads #grant wilson #also #gestures to all the hero oak swallows garcia art about her having to kill deer specifically #matthew you did not reach your target audience with that one LMAO 😭 #i get what hes saying & how he wouldnt necessarily think abt the impact of it in the moment when he suggested it #HOWEVER i also disagree bc i feel like after Listening Back to that arc it is quite clear how that would be traumatic idk #i agree w freddie. like shooting something is one thing but ?! #idk . IDK i am just rambling #i am giving matt some grace though bc I understand his frustration w/ people using the chimera thing to make darryl seem like a horrible da #darryl wilson my beloved u are such a good father #idk i think people ignoring how much darryl changes in his efforts to talk to grant r ignoring a major part of grants character #which is that no matter how much someone loves/supports you it isnt going to suddenly get rid of ur trauma #ahem. Anyways. darryl is a wonderful dad and grant loves him very much 🩷 #I should write something about them hmm

[radiantaerynsvn]

constantly wishing i was more eloquent and a better writer so i can give the proper words to my feelings about aeryn sun but i wouldn't know where to start and where to end, i just love her so bad and she makes my heart hurt in both the best and worst way. she really is The character, my best girl, beautifully complex and haunting and with the best character growth i've possibly ever seen, no one's doing it like her.

#fleabag was right i don't know what to do with it. with all the love i have for her #just finished icarus abides rewatch obviously #i can't breathe i'm just here sobbing over aeryn and johnaeryn at 5.30am as one does #because i cannot be normal about things i love #something about getting too involved with characters and ignoring reality #the choice is just going to wreck me again too #and everything from here on out #silly little ramble on here because i know my friends are okay with my occasional outbursts about it but i fear being annoying atp #and i have the need to talk about her all the time and it's very frustrating #aeryn sun #farscape #my silly little text posts

[dol-dee]

Wahhh I wish there was smut for my Butch Avery, alas that would require me to actually write it

#urhghghghgh believe me I tried and urghghghghg it’s not good okay tbf I didn’t even get to the smut part #I was still in the build up section #writing is so frustrating arghghghghg everything I write sounds so awkward and stiff uhhhhhrhrhrhrh #sry ignore my whining I just got fed up #dol rambles #dolrambles

[the-nightmare-theater]

me if i see one (1) more person severely mischaracterize bedman

#this is about the people calling him a misogynist. #im This fucking close to making a post detailing why he isnt one #im so mad like. honestly im a bit embarrassed by how mad i am lmao #like yes!!!!!! hes a bad person!!!!!! hes bad in different ways though #calling him a misogynist genuinely is just flat out misinfo #uggghhhhhh i meant to be asleep by now but ive spent the past 30 mins being mad at people on the internet #over whats probably bait #but UGGGH just the thought of someone believing that makes me just wanna fucking strangle someone #ignore me im just venting my frustration with this whole thing #nightmare ramble #vent #honestly i wouldnt even call him a fundashi i dont have that hc for him but calling him a misogynist is flat out wrong but could actually- #-be mistaken as the truth #by people who dont know the character well #he!!!!!! literally hates everyone besides his sister!!!!!!!!! #he hates women And men!!!!!!!!!!! #and nb people too although we havent seen him interact with a nb person in canon so the jurys still out on that ig #literally fucking says in his character bio that he doesnt care for age or gender #please learn how to fucking read ffs #anyways im gonna try to sleep now thats off my chest #edit: the term wasnt fundashi it was himejoshi #i mixed them up in my defense its 8am

[licorishh]

Most people really don't seem to understand that friendship is a two-way street.

They expect you to wait on them hand and foot as they rant about and constantly pour on you either their issues or their passions and when you finally have something you'd like to talk about you get a "Man that sucks :/" or a "Cool" in return.

Find somebody who doesn't do that. Then you'll have your best friend.

#i know i ramble sometimes and i'm extremely grateful that my best friend puts up with it :') #but see then in return i do the same for her because it would be completely unfair for me to expect her to act like a wall for me to talk a #or when i wanna show her something and i can tell she's being polite and it doesn't personally strike her fancy I MOVE ON #and she does the same for me and we have way frickin better communication and we have a frickin rad friendship #it's give and take #and also can we bring back the idea of being able to work through some things on your own? #like i am ALL FOR having a support system that can encourage you when things go wrong but some things can be solved on your own #i shouldn't be bearing the burden of figuring out your life for you you know? #i'm absolutely willing to help but if you're just going to spend all your time complaining to me and never ever take my advice #then there comes a point at which i'm literally just acting as your therapist and that's not how friendships are supposed to work #i've become kind of the designated therapist in a lot of friendships throughout my life #and it is exhausting constantly being complained at (sometimes over very minor things) #only to have that person or people COMPLETELY ignore your advice every single time you try to give it #that's not friendship my dude that's using me because you just want someone to complain to #like i said. support system good. treating your friend like an emotional punching bag to let out your problems 24/7 very very bad. #like when i was feeling completely unlike myself and irritated and frustrated for three dang years straight #i didn't really talk about it much because i knew it wasn't the kind of thing advice was going to fix #so i wasn't in the discord servers every two seconds “MAN I REALLY JUST DON'T FEEL GOOD :///” #because when other people do this to me there comes a point at which i'm like “WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO ABOUT IT” #like i've given you all the advice i have and you have taken absolutely none of it nor have you taken any action on your own #so now i'm just here to make you feel better about yourself and that's really not my job #emotional support is necessary. patting you on the head when you refuse to do anything to better your situation is not. #tl;dr people who refuse to do anything to better their situation other than complain to ME about it 24/7 drive me nuts #and it drives other people nuts so please don't do it to anyone #don't bottle up your emotions but also don't let them come crashing down and drown everyone you know #just because you can't be bothered to put ANY effort forth to contain them #emotional regulation is attractive~~~ #society today has built such a culture of “it's not YOUR fault and if you cry about it hard enough someone will fix it for you” like no sir #sometimes it IS your fault and sometimes you DO need to take responsibility #and if it is your fault then absolutely no one but you is obligated to fix it

[byanyan]

i'm actually like, so fond of this mental image in my head of byan, who has 0 patience and has a hard time sitting through activities they don't enjoy, just letting sol lead them around a museum or a bookstore by the hand despite both of these locations being ones they tend to avoid. yeah, they're in and out on how much they're paying attention, probably playing a game on their phone or something for at least half of it, but they're there and they're listening to him talk about the stuff that interests him and trying to find some of it interesting for themself, and that's honestly so far beyond the effort they typically put in to another person's hobbies & interests... says a lot about just how much he means to them and it gives me a lot of feelings tbh

#answered the ask an hour ago and i'm still just sitting here with my chin in my hands as i continue to think about it #and it could seem like. disrespectful or rude to spend half of the time their on their phone #but i see it more as them WANTING to be there with him; WANTING to have a good time with him doing what he likes; #but also knowing that they'll get frustrated and crabby if they don't have something to busy themself with #and actively wanting to avoid that BECAUSE they want him to have a good time & they want to be there with him #bc it's not like they'd even be ignoring him and everything around them... they're listening & they're present #they just also need a little extra stimulus #idk idk i'm rambling i'm just. i'm still thinkin about it i think it's v cute #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.

[sharkjumpers]

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.

#okay ignore me sorry i dont want to bother anybody back to the classic using tumblr tags to ramble. Ok? #--------------------------------------------- #iiiii hate having ptsd. I am like 14 years old and i dont know how to be bigger. Ok? I do not know why i had to go and argue with my mother #when i have to see her every day . And deal with the consequences of arguing with her. I dont know how i used to do it but now i #am just sitting here being forced to interact with other people while on the constant brink of tears. #How am i supposed to do schoolwork when i have ptsd and just want to curl up in a ball on my bed aks style. Riddle me that #I dont know its just frustrating that I have to navigate normal things like school while getting blasted with some evil ptsd moment every #other day. something something i must just be a teeth hurt kinda guy. #They should be able to wrap me in FRAGILE DO NOT TOUCH paper without any questions asked you see. #Dont give me responsibilities i am straight up a little kid forever. one bad source of information #i will be okay i know this will pass but lord. #meowing #i dont know i just need to be held like a baby no questions asked for a while badly But i cant. Sad!

[combeauferre]

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#there's rly nothing like seeing someone else on social media describe their first day of adhd meds being like #this kind of eye opening experience where everything feels Immediately Different #and they're wired and awake and aware of their surroundings #and knowing that ive already been fucking around w my meds for 2-3 months and had barely any positive effect #even more frustrating when they're taking the medication i was told was on shortage so i couldnt take #it's just #sighhhhhh #like it's not their fault obviously #but there's just this displaced kind of. idk. heartbreak ???? seeing someone else doing Rly Well on medication #that hasnt done anything for u #like. god i just want my meds to be great and fucking lifechanging i want to Not Be Like This any more #im Tired and i just want this shit to work #sighh #incoherent rambling #ignore me

[dandyshucks]

fellas.... the art is not going well tonight, I'm ready to start gnawing on my sketchbook

WOE to the artist who tries to draw shit above their skill level AUGH

#IT DOESNT LOOK BAD PER SE BUT ITS NOT WORKING HOW I WANT IT TOOOOOOOO #if i had a hat rn I'd eat it out of frustration SBDHFHDJL #i want to share some kind of art though so djdsjfkdl I'll just. share this frustration LMAO #ignore the alphacritters in the bg btw lol thats there for the kiddos and Sunny in the system dsbdjdkl #i think theyre fun too and they were a cool weird thrift store find so djdkdl #THIS SORT OF STUFF IS WHY IM ALWAYS STARTLED WHEN PPL SAY I HAVE GOOD ANATOMY SKILL OR WHATEVER #i am FIGHTING for my LIFE in this sketchbook SBDHDJKL #i have no idea what im doing dhdkskl i just look at pictures and adjust things til they look right #75% of the time its pure luck the other 25% of the time i maybe have some sort of idea of the right ''vibe'' of the anatomy SHDJDKL #i gotta do some real studies at some point of muscle groups or smth idk dhfkdl maybe skeletal structure would be good #okay anyhowdy im rambling down here sorry SBJDKSL hope everyone is having a good day/night/etc #im going to... give up for tonight and go to sleep maybe djdhfkdl #throwing in the towel bc goddamn. bites my sketchbook. curse my inability to draw vertical angling and whatnot #dandy.cmd #doodlebug.jpeg

[sweetlilbird]

Gender…

#khalid rambles #fyi I’m going to vent in the tags so don’t read them #I’ll probably delete this later #today has just been…a day #my gender dysphoria (I can’t spell so idk) has been kicking my ass lately but it all got so worse when my body decided to remind me #that I do indeed have a uterus that functions #and to top it off im having insane cramping and it’s just been so painful and frustrating #because I feel like I can’t really talk about my feelings with anyone because they’ll get worried or maybe just brush off my concerns #idk idk I hate this feeling but idk what to do about it #like the drive I went on was nice but I still feel just…bleh #maybe if I ignore it then it will go away

[wild-at-mind]

It’s weird, I feel like when I first quietly entered online LGBTQ spaces in 2014-ish, it was really common for people to say ‘you don’t need to [physically] transition to be trans’. And by that they meant not just nonbinary or genderqueer, but like what we used to call FTM or MTF. Honestly now I see that sentiment expressed less and less now. What does that mean then? Are we prepared at all to accept a trans woman who only socially transitions, and a trans man who does the same? If it means low/high voices, stubble/lack of stubble, etc etc? I really hope so because otherwise we are less progressive than we used to be, ironically!!

#trans #just to be clear this is about social perception not dating or sex or anything #and it's about people who have made moves to socially transition #not to gatekeep but i can understand why people get frustrated with those who hang in and out of the closet #when it comes to social transition (aka me!) if there's no great safety need for them not to come out #anyway i know im in a different position than many i'm partnered and monogamous so would not be dating if i transition socially #but i think about this a lot and part of me wants to almost challenge queer people's acceptance #do you accept me if i don't get the top surgery when most other people do? #do you accept my high voice? #can you see me as a man? #we'll see i guess #normies just think i'm a tomboy i reckon #though i do have a femme side it's a man's femme side #i'm just rambling now #if you think this is all wank then please ignore lol

[appreciatingtokrev]

fucking crying i managed to run genshin again FINALLY only for it to crASH FIVE MINUTES IN BECAUSE I WAS ROTATING THE CAMERA. and now i am back at square one with not being able to go past the element loading screen. i fucking hate my life

#look i would have laughed abt this if it’d been two or three days since it’s last run nicely #bUT IT WAS DURING THE FUCKING LYNEY BANNER. #ever since i have not managed to make genshin run for more than 30 minutes #and i’ve only managed to make it run for that long once #AND i’ve only managed to make it run FOUR FUCKING TIMES since that day it crashed while we were in the middle of the lyney banner #i am suffering #i usually cope my ignoring genshin exists but FUCK I WANNA PLAY GENSHIN AGAIN. FUCK. FUUUCKKKKKK #like i’ve taken a few breaks before too etc but those were all out of FREE WILL #and this is NOT #rant #sorry i just. i am so fucking done #genshin is one of the things i look forward to every day and not having been able to play it in like two months just. fucking sucks #i am sad i am mad i am frustrated and i am crying rn #fml #☆—`elys rambles

[erggggggggg]

my favorite thing about my parents is that they praise my brother for doing basic things (paying his bills on time, finally keeping a job, not lying and finally being honest) but i have milestones in my life and they don’t say a fucking word about them. my business has been open for 5 years today and they are both aware it’s today but have not said a thing 🫠

#ignore me i’m venting #yelling into the void #it’s just really annoying that they are obsessed with anything he does but i can do stuff and get nothing from them #it’s more just frustrating because i can’t imagine not celebrating something big in my child’s life??? like how are you just so unbothered?? #idk i know we are very different people and it annoys me #it’s been like this my whole life it’s not going to change now #this could make no sense and have typos but i’m just rambling and idc