#lately its just been really neat

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"I think this is the most inhuman; and human, that I've ever felt.." MUCH CAN HAPPEN IN A YEAR. IN FIVE YEARS. A DECADE. imagine how much can happen in a century. just ONE (1). How will you grow? what phases do you find? even in 5 years, you will find patterns.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #jrwi suckening spoilers #jrwi the suckening #arthur bennett #HEY SO THE REALLY FUNNY THING THAT THE CHARACTER DID THAT SEEMED RLY SILLY N GOOFY IN THE MOMENT? #LIKE THE WHIPLASH BETWEEN SERIOUS N SILLY ALMOST PISSED YOU OFF? WHAT IF I FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU SAD ABOUT IT #this was meant to be a scribble that would be a bigger part of a bigger page.might leave it on that page. #but still. bc o that i nearly posted it onto my wacky side blog.BUT NAYY I SPENT TOO MUCH TIME N ENERGY N YOU GOTTA SEE IT #ARTHUR BENNETT DRIVES ME CRAZY. I FEEL LIKE ITS ODD FOR HIM TO BE SO TECHNOLOGICALLY OUT OF TOUCH #WHERE HAS HE BEEN. HAS HE BEEN IN WAR? IS THAT WHERE MAGNUS CAME FROM? WHERE WAS HE WHEN HE WAS WITH EDWARDS CREW? #ARTHURRR I HAVE QUESTIONS ARTTHUUURR!! HEY CAN I ALSO ASK; WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME #DO YOU THINK HE HAD ANY IDEA HE WOULD VEER CLOSER AND CLOSER TO THE MONSTER HE DESPISES. ALL BC HE DESERVES IT. OR WATEVER #HE FASCINATES ME SO MUCH. TO LOOK AT THE STONE COLD STOIC FOOL FROM THE START OF THE SHOW #AND TO FIND OUT THAT HE USED TO BE A BAD BOY.. A DELINQUENT... A LIL PRANKSTER.... MY GODDD THATS ADORABLE #I WOULD LOVE TO KNOW MORE.... BUT I DOUBT THE LAST EPISODE IS GONNA ANSWER THOSE QUESTIONS..i love arthur bennett so much.... #AS FOR THE ART!! i mostly used the fire alpaca watercolor brush. tbh im not a brush guy. anti aliased default pen tends to be my main game #but LATELY IM SQQQUIRMIN OUT OF AN ARTBLOCK so expirimenting like this is helping #DONT LOOK TOO HARD AT IT!! im still proud tho. colors are fun :3 im also very proud of the backgrounds #I LOVE THE CARTOON THING where the background looks all fancy n painted but the characters are solid colors #what else can i ramble abt. OH YEAH. i looked up the bikes to make sure they were time accurate tehehehe. 1913 to 2012. #almost a century apart!! isnt that neat? ALSO FUUUCK CAN I JUST MAKE A QUICK CONFESSION. DOWN HERE IN MY TAGS. #only the strongest can read my tags anwyay. SO I REALIZED WHY I LOVE ARTHUR SO MUCH. TIME IS A FLAT CIRCLE #while arthur is a Stoic and Cool vampire w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORs #THERE HAPPENS TO BE A ROBOT FROM A BAND W A TITANIUM ALLOY SPINAL COLLUMN #WHOS A Stoic and Cool ROBOT w a knack for being playful/silly; who alsos been alive fora century thus witnessing HORRORS #the fuckkkiiinnngggnn The Spine from steam powered giraffe. WHATEVER. i cant escape from my heart. i guess. #i think The Spine and Arthur could be friends. Arthur saw the band perform back when they were the Steam Man Band #EDIT: WOOPS I DIDNT REALIZE THIS WOULD END UP IN THE SPG TAG. HI GUYS DIDNT KNOW U WERE STILL ALIVE SORREE 4 THE CROSS CONTAMINATION

[eshithepetty]

Concept: after the events of the manga, Mob, now seeking to accept all of himself,  becomes looser with the usage of his powers. His vast strength, once so tightly kept to himself, dense and suffocating, expands. As a result, things start happening that he doesn't exactly mean to happen. Little things, little accidents - tying his shoes without thinking, flickering the lights when he's upset, the plants around him standing taller when he's happy. And they pile up, little things becoming big things, until the whole of seasoning city is pretty much coated in his aura. A gentle presence now that it isn't so concentrated in one place.

The espers in the area can obviously feel it, but the non-espers come to notice it too in other, subtler ways - the plums beggining to bloom earlier in spring. The weather forecasts becoming more unreliable, as sunny days come when it was meant to be cloudy, or wind sometimes picks up out of nowhere, or rain arrives sooner than expected. A lot of car accidents get saved from a lethal end just from seemingly sheer luck. The creepy sounds that one and another have been haunted by dissapear suddenly. And at times, out of nowhere, more than before, people stop to think, just how lucky they are.

From this, new urban legends arise, and the common consensus that believers arrive at in the end, is that a benelovent spirit has entered town to bless it with small miracles. But at the center of it remains, in truth, an unintentional protector - just one small boy, named Kageyama Shigeo.

#mob psycho 100 #mp100 #kageyama shigeo #headcanons #late night rambles #i've been reading 'the trolley problem' on ao3 recently... #REALLY recommend esp to those who love mobs character. it explores the after effects of the final arc so intrestingly #and i love how it approaches those changes as just another chapter in mob's life - he still has challenges. they're just different ones now #I LOVE that <3 #we're never done growing #and i appreciate the strange existentialist elements in it too... its neat :) #anyways this is just something i thought of while reading that so not exactly related. but i wanted to ramble about the fic series anyways #jfjdkfjgh #my own post

[bisan-is-trying]

Me joking with my mom while cooking: aren’t you super proud of my cooking skills!! There's no match for me!! Im unstoppable!!

Mom in a solemn voice: but im really disappointed in you

Me: ????

Mom: pursuing your Master's degree, it seems like you no longer care about continuing your studies, it’s like you've frozen that idea.

#way to kill the vibe mom #she is still disappointed that unlike my bachelor's education #i didn't immediately jump to a random university and study whatever random major they gave me #even though i could’ve gotten a neat scholarship and studied something i really liked at the time #at the time i had no idea what im soig and where i wanted to go so i just followed along #but im not suffering through getting a master's degree for something i dont even care about #what she doesnt know is i have a plan. i have been following the plan ever since graduation. #if plan goes perfectly im supposed to start applying either this year or the next #she has no clue sometimes i stay up really late thinking about all the decisions i made and things i can no longer change #i dont want to do the same mistakes again #also its not like i can really afford it right now without a proper scholarship #i get she wants me to be the best at everything but the way she goes about it always makes me feel like a failure #mom...

[bornetoblood]

For the art requests...

Hmm, what do you think Flora (Moon Presence) would look like if it had a human appearance 🤔

moon milf and fish milf gijinka

#ive been wanting to do this for a while actually #shame i got a little burned out with the kos one #i think theyre still a little monster-y hense floras CLAWS and kos's fish mouth and lack of eyes #i think she still has gills also #i think all the great ones were people prior to ascending and that some of their original form stays in them so they can animorph into #people-esc things if they try really hard #i just think its a neat concept #i need todo oedon #theyre kinda like the wetnurse i think #okay enough tag talk #late night doodles with ratborne #bloodborne #moon presence #mother kos #great one gijinkas #nudity #cus flora has some of her tiddy out

[unexpectedbrickattack]

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#chattin #would u believe me if i said this was pep//pino related #its SILLY i was just listening to my friend get upset at ranked ow #bc like hes master and cant really climb past that anymore #and he plays as healer (bc dps role takes too long to queue up for) but hes been having some very dogshit tanks lately #bc u know. they thought it was a good idea to have one (1) tank… #but he was commenting about a shit rein that he had that kept running away from the group #bc all rein mains have one singular braincell #and he was like roadhog wouldve been a better fit bc of their comp #he was lamenting about the lack of roadhogs he sees in comp bc most of them switched to dps or zarya/junker queen #and i was like :( i miss my piggy man i miss him so much-> man pig designs are so fun i love w devs lean into it #-> boar designs are super fun i love boars they mean alot to me -> oh i need to draw boar peppino again i miss my piggy man #-> ROADHOG PEPPINO… #it wasnt even like evocative of anything #it was just like ‘roadhog is fat and pig related and i made my peppino pig related. thats neat!’ #and then i sat there thinking of a tiny roadhog in overwatch. like literally the height of ana running around w a hook 😭😭😭 #if i draw that that means im obligated to draw roadhog as peppino but i got comms to finish #no time for dat goku…

[luciality]

iggypan

#shut up luci #delete later #i cant keep thinking of alice going to japan for a meeting but deciding to arrive early to do some casual tourist things bc its been so long #since shes done tourist things. anyway this is like the early aughts or late 90s whatever. she goes to the bridge to see all the cool fashio #fashion and maybe take pics like a rude tourist. maybe even check out the shops and buy something cute. and shes like WOAH so many cool styl #styles. heavily inspired by me england i am england i invented punk me personally i did that. and goth. whatever the hell this lolita is #is also clearly inspired by european fashion. and vw's mini crini line. #she just thinks jfash is neat. doesnt rly get all of it but she likes it. its cool. but then as shes taking picture like a rude person #she notices one girl look straight at her and then duck and turn around and speedwalk away. and iggys like oi wait im sorry i'll delete the #picture im sorry miss i didnt mean to be rude! and when she catches up to her shes like ?!?!?! sakura??? why are you dressed like this??? #and sakura is like ahhhh i didnt know you would be here. sometimes i dress up when i am not working. it is fun i have some friends who like #to meet up here. yes humans. ahhhh >_< i really didnt mean for u to see me like this..... and iggys like oh its no big deal i dont mind. #i think this whole lolita thing suits u. hahaha remember when i used to dress all punk and gothic and whatnot? what you wear outside of work #is your own business. plus its cute :3 like u :3 hey maybe next time we can dress up together and go clubbing or to a concert. er... #a live as u say. haha lol. and sakura is like mmm perhaps. that might be fun. and then alice is like Right now how do i get to the maid cafe #from here. and sakura is like >_> ok um which one. #i love them

[chaoticgremlinbrainspace]

was going insane at a friend last night now I need to research transness in the 70s and all that fun stuff so I can be fully unhinged and maybe actually write smth for once instead of being haunted by visions

#grem screams #I love history #I love reading and learning about the past and the people #I love seeing the way things have changed the way things reflect and parallel and diverge #I also just really like queer history #I love learning about the ways people existed and shit #idk theres just smth so cool about people in spaces that aren't really talked about in regular history classes and like learning about them #I might be a lil cringe boy art student who cant help but romanticize shit because hes full of feelings but idk it got me feeling #sometime of way #idk lately ive been feeling like I cant quite find the words to describe what I am I just know I am what I am #and that often people just get it or they dont lol #ngl this all started off as me vague posting about wanting to write a trans genda scout from tf2 fic and getting wya too invested in how #that would work logically bc it needs to be accurate #it needs to be a journey!!! #and I want it to be in charater #but im also a lil bitch for angst lmao #im also a nerd lmaooo that and its hard for me to write things dow n with out it sounding wrong or just not right you know? #it feels wholly too earnest and cheesy to my own ears and it makes me shrivel up like a popcorn left in the oven #uh anyway I think trans scout is neat actually and I would love to see more explorations into it guess im gonna attempt to be the change I #wanna see in the world lmao #idk hes just so easy to grab and dunk into the #world is fuck being different is hard give 200 dollars sauce you know? #veeerrrry easy to project onto the trans angst is he is like sponge and I am a vicious liquid #and he has daddy issues lmao apparently arcording to my very small sampling size that tends to happen side by side #and idk I think it would make sense for scout to just straight up not know a lot of shit he gives #me when I was in middle school and I thought it was funny to trick people into thinking I was a guy even tho I was totally a girl /sarcasm #he gives deep in the denial sauce but also totally extremely uncomfy when people find out and getting unreasonably happy when hes called si #but ahahaha nooo im totally a girl haha and just feeling more awkward now #lmao #sorry for the rambling lmao idk if this is accurate for his charater I do think him being trans could be a fun thing to just explore and sh

[silverislander]

fully intended and foreseen consequence of coping better with my anxiety is that this blog will at some point inevitably become More Cringe and that point is SO close on the horizon. if you get mad at me for posting things i like on my blog that is for me you clearly have more issues than i do for worrying abt that possibility for hours on end

#its tumblr were all cringe here. fucking grow up or leave genuinely #also i literally tag everything im into + trigger tags too. block tags or just unfollow me theres no hard feelings i prommy #anyway. ive been falling back into creepypasta which ive mentioned before i was super into as a teen! fun stuff #i love that the fandom is still alive and doing fun new stuff :') theres such good art out there!! and character interpretations!!!! #and ive also gotten really into league lore over the past few months actually. the arcane fixation has morphed #basically it went 'this character looks cool whats their deal. whats this region like. oh another neat character lets look into that' #and then suddenly i know too much™️ bc hyperfixations for me are about gathering information and stories like a raccoon #i have FEELINGS about it. post probably incoming soon abt that #and BRIAR!! shes a little gremlin i kind of love her already #levi.txt #will i delete this in the morning? lets see #but for real tho. im doing really good lately. things arent perfect but i feel like a person for once #i can talk to strangers without acting like a trapped prey animal! it turns out im fucking funny actually! people like my jokes #im SLEEPING again. regularly. that was an issue for nearly a year and im doing ok again (not perfect but hey! ~8hrs!!) #i can just. sit around in public now and not feel like im on a hidden camera show where everyone is judging the way i breathe #slowly switching from self deprecation 'i want to die' jokes to 'im literally gods favourite prince and the hottest bitch alive' #i still get really nervous but it doesnt feel like a personal flaw and it doesnt feel insurmountable anymore #so yeah naturally thats going to come with (hopefully) a lot less shame around things that i like #just asking kindly that people are normal abt it. this is me thriving i guess

[ybbag777]

This might just be me but why do people even want to see amazing animated things, things that work partially based on being animated, turned into live action because animation is SUCH a good medium for visual storytelling. Like why would you look at something like avatar the last Airbender and think "yeah this but not animated" what

#and this also applies to disney live action remakes #like why would you take a movie where like 90% of the choices made in it are because its animated #anyway #i just really like animation #ive been putting on atla in the background while drawing lately #i just really like art and animation is just art that moves and i think thats neat #when i was a kid there were certain movies i watched a lot because the vhs they were on had behind the scenes features i really liked #like im pretty sure every time i ever put the movie bambi on in was just to see the making of interviews that were at the end #animation #idk this is just rambling honestly it late

[perenlop]

why is giving family members a small wishlist so much more tedious than it has to be

#me: hey heres my wishlist its in an email can you also forward it #them: yeah sure but uh you cant have anything thats not on amazon bc we dont know how to use other sites #me: wdym its the same process #them: well its more complicated oh my god we are older we dont understand #me: well ok. ill find alternatives where i can #them: wait can you just let us edit our own wishlist with what you want? #me:... why cant you use the one i sent? #them: BECAUSE it is too much ok pls just send a couple of things #(the list only has like 8 things and two are gift cards) #me: well. fine heres two things i really want #them: hm. are you sure you want that? it doesnt cost a lot #me: yes. i dont like asking for expensive things that arent games we have been over this. #them: well put something more expensive on there then we just feel bad getting you a cheap thing bc then we think youre worth less #me: .... ok heres one of those custom pokemon shirts just bc i think theyre neat #them: OH MY GOD THATS SO EXPENSIVE we are not wasting our money on that. #me: ... ok can i have the games then? #them: sure. god why are you so hard to buy for youre sooooo weird about gifts #for extra context: my brothers and cousins ask for over $100 worth of stuff and usually get all of it and more #and its not like im ungrateful either i never snap at them or anything. i usually ask for practical stuff or aesthetics like stickers #when its not books or games... but theyve gotten more passive aggressive lately i think #for my bday most ppl werent weird but my aunt made a big deal out of getting me a $20 sweater i couldnt wear #bc of the texture and size not working for me. and like loudly emphasizing ''OH GOD DONT LOOK AT THE PRIIIICE UGH IM SO MEAN'' #all the while im being polite and thanking her and shes just freaking out at me for ''being hard to buy for'' #and being ''forced to buy me something so gross and cheap'' like it felt like a weird power move #echoed voice

[earlyspringtranscendence]

what if u DID get the pepper and salt grinders as tattoos :3 (do it!!!)

i want toooo im just having a really hard time finding tattoo artists i like in my area :(( a friend of a friend is currently getting her tattoo license & a friend of another friend does stick & poke & some machine tattoos so i think im gonna like look into both of them further ... the girl getting her license rn makes really beautiful work but she lives in germany and the guy who does the stick and poke does pretty stuff but im slightly less into the style and he's also my friends ex so like. idk how awkward that would be

#also bc i do want the salt & pepper so it doesnt matter sm what the style is but also like #ideally . ideally i would save up all of my money for years and get one huge tattoo starting in the small of my back #all the way down to my foot & around my leg butttttttt i mean #a bit much for a First tattoo. but then again i really like the idea of having that ONE singular tat #in my mind its just really effective and ~neat in a way if u will #idk !!! also to be fair ive been spending my money too much lately in general so i should take on a couple shifts #if im down so bad to get a tat #ugh idk. its also mostly really hard to find people who do stuff that i really really want you know #one of my friends has a gorgeous colour tat which they got in NL so maybe i need to hit up their artist #OR i need to go 2 america to hang out w my bezzie and see THEIR artist

[selkiecoded]

i rewatched rgu e39 the other day and im still besotted with all the references to drowning rgu sprinkles throughout its adaptations. i dont take the various adaptations as canonically interlinked, so to speak, and i have feelings (because when do i not) about each adaptations take on the story as a whole, but i think its utterly fascinating that all three of utenas main adaptations all involve drowning and rescuing. even outside the main adaptations im faiiirly sure drowning is still mentioned? like i havent read the movie-manga but i heard something like that. and drowning status is still unclear for after the revolution lmao.

i mean, i went in and read a little bit of the manga near the beginning when i wasnt completely sold on rgu yet - and overall i think its really lacking, haha - but it was the first thing that implanted the idea of "drowning" in my head. i mean, the way that little utena and the prince "meet" is because she was drowning, and he came in and rescued her. i do not think that a really great "meet-cute" in relation to the themes of the story as a whole... BUT its really intriguing when compared with the anime adaptations.

i mean, with the tv version, its very clear thats not how utena and the prince met. their meeting in the show exists in a liminal space that could technically allow the drowning in the more realistic space, ill admit, but really, its not how they met. period. INSTEAD the drowning is relegated off to juris older sister and an unknown boy, whose name juri forgot. this, of course, is a story being told about utena. the student council understands this. it seems to foreshadow the way that utenas presence is forgotten within ohtori. WHICH to bring us back around, is crazy because this paints utena as the rescuer, in conjunction with the prince that saved her. its a story that doesnt need the context of the manga at all, but it definitely gives it an extra flavor.

all of this gets muddled in the aftermath of adolescence of utena, of course, which relegates utena to neither prince nor damsel in distress, instead to bystander hurt in the aftermath. i have some gripes with a lot of AOU, and ill definitely have to rewatch it before i form a very strong opinion, but its a very weird take, i will admit. this, combined with the rest of AOU that spits out something between a sequel and a retelling, definitely causes a raised eyebrow or two. im not entirely sure what to say quite as much, due to just how much AOU is an outlier, without the clear allegory of utena as either a prince or a princess. AOU says nonbinary lesbian utena rights...?

#not really going anywhere with this its just been on the mind lately. #i made a post a while back when i was first going through the tv show about the drowning #but that was without the context of AOU - which is intriguing! but id need to watch it again to really get my thoughts in order about it #because AOU is a huge‚ beautiful‚ sometimes stupid‚ complicated mess. even to someone whos already watched the anime. #idk i just think its neat that the drowning got included in ALL THREE of the adapations. #like. bonsoir ikuhara will literally form an entire company centered around one story that involves drowning instead of going to therapy

[n0ct0urn1quet]

guogugh. guguugoguguhg., sentimental hours

#nothin happened LOL i am just . oh i am thinkgin (positive) #im just sitting her elike oh wow im gonna. like. meet my gf in person in the next year or two at least #and !!!! idk its kinda funny i think abt it a lot n in my mind its like OH its not a big deal its gonna happen no mattr what so :] #but then sometimes i like REALLY think about it and im like oh my god. like. Im Gonna Meet Her One Day in person and. idk JSKDLKJG #its hard 2 explain !!!!! ig its just like when i passively think abt it im like oh yeah tahts neat :] #but then i REALLY start to think about it and im like no WAIT thats not just NEAT thats fucking EPIC ACTUALLY?? thats BASED????? #bc idk !!!!!!!!!! ig lately its been. like. Not As Bad. the distance has been Bearable. we're able to vc somewhat frequently and we can #video chat occasionally so its not like our only way of talking is thru text. sometimes i can acutaly verbally talk 2 her n that definitely #makes things. Better. yk what i mean. but idk cause now im just thinking n im like ougughh Ggrrouuggh (positive) #gough eve n just thinking abt meeting her is like givigng me butterflies im all . jittery. and i mean jittery in the most positive way poss #*possible. liek im not anxious jittery im just like EXCITED jittery. BUT LIKE ALSO KINDA ANXIOUS ?? #BUT IN A GOOD WAY I PROMmy its that kind of anxious u get when something excited is gonna happen n ur all excited but like nervous #but in a good way. you get wha t i mean right. im just hrhngkdjnkjbhj!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jlkdfgbkj :) #and I KNOW its gonna b a while its gonna b a few years im gonna have to save up to get a plane ticket n to afford to be able to like #have someone move my stuff from my state to her state (sinc i mgonna be living with her where she is) but. surely it cant be that expensive #anyways sory ive been going back and forth someone (cough cough loioks at my gf ocugh cOUhhhgh) sent me an ask on another blog #so ive bene going back n forth in typing in this post and in that other post and i m just Grrough (positive) alslo my head hurts ouchIE #anyways thats all this is kidn of a random post im just !!!!!! many thoguhts head full of positive thoughts JKSDJLKJLKG

[chelleisamazing]

I just finished reading the 'God Save the Blessed American President Mom' fic and I sobbed hard through it all..

#god Im a wreck rn but I needed that cry #my anxiety at work has been so bad lately... #heaviness in my chest shaking hands kind of anxious and its been awful #and the best i can do for myself rn is come home and just disconect reading wholesome rwrb fics #and ive also been having trouble sleeping so thats what i do #until my eyes get too tired #bc i guess some part of me doesnt wanna wake up next morning #and go in rto work and get drilled with emotionally draining work and deal with stupid shit/people #not my coworkers/friend tho #i love them sm they keep me sane ♡ #I'll never say it to those dummies but I think they're pretty neat ♡ #just here avoiding more sleep writing this #and hoping tomorrow is the day it finally gets better #but not really feeling that hopeful... #either way.. #at least i can always escape into alex and henry's love-filled world at some point of the day and worry about nothing ♡ #loads of rambly tags but #truthfully-- no piece of media has ever touched me like this #and it really feels like it heals something in me for a while ♡ #been thinking if I should see a therapist again too... #but im pretty sure my insurance doesmt cover it... #anyway #goodnight and here's to hoping #sad? little post #stuff

[johnbleepingzoidberg]

i sometimes very much regret not sticking with neuro as a degree :(

#the problem was. i had no idea what i wanted to do with it #because the only clear paths were med school and research #and med school was a def no because my adhd wouldve fuckin slaughtered me #and ive worked in a lab setting before and it wasnt my favorite so the research aspect didnt seem desirable at the time #i just wanted to learn brain stuff u kno #which i understand involves a lab setting 90% of the time ajflsvgkdgn but i wasnt really sure what i was doing back then #but looking back i kinda wish i stuck to neuro and felt the research path out a little better #because it couldve been really neat #idk. been fantasizing about changing career paths here lately :/ #mine #also not feeling too hot lately #i hope its just allergies and im not getting sick 🫠

[avatarofthelonely]

why did everyone just decide to take my trivia quiz today lol

#ive been seeing occasional spikes these past couple of weeks bc of the whole tmp thing but those are usual like... #spikes of 10 people not 73...who are you people....... #blathering #ok but something neat ive noticed lately is that theres been a good number of ppl answering my 'what tma ep is your fav?' w/ a fathers love #like was there a post made about it or something that made ppl remember it or something? doesnt really matter #im just happy its getting recognized as the good ass episode it is...literally was Thee episode that made me realize #'oh i think im Really liking this show' when i was first listening