#like i like making the stuff ive been working but yeah....

[thefurriestofchows]

woah psychonauts art in 2024

if u just wanna look at the art and scroll ur good to do so :] if u wanna know where i’ve been, read below!! 💖

soooo, hi!!

i know, its been awhile since you’ve properly heard from me. i’m sorry :((

i got into psychonauts near the end of HS / beginning of college, and between COVID, graduation, and all the major changes in my life, it was an amazing place to just make art i loved and explore stories with the characters i love :]

as time went on, i began to step away from here to focus more on college and my work

i also got into different things since then! Barry, HLVRAI, just to name a few

i haven’t ever forgotten my love for psychonauts, not for a second, in fact, my inspiration for coming back here was watching a play through by a new streamer i found

watching someone react to it for the first time just made me fall in love with it all over again.

and now, here we are

i graduated, and now i’m fresh in the world trying to figure out what to do with my life

I’m currently figuring out a job and all that gross adult stuff, but even now in time of great change, i’m drawn back to the world of psychonauts

now the big question — what about the riptide au?

i’ll be honest: i reread riptide, there’s parts i like, parts i didn’t, and parts i completely forgot what i was setting up for

ive matured as a writer and storyteller since riptide’s conception, and i think it needs a refresher / boost

i think you can already see that from tholomew’s design — i tweaked a few things while i was drawing it (especially his shoes oh my god i had no idea what i was doing with his shoes before)

i haven’t forgotten any of psychonauts, even as my life heads in different directions. i think, right now, i’m gonna clear out my inbox for a fresh start. if you have any questions about the new riptide au, i’ll try to answer them when i have a spare moment in my day 💖

but yeah, i’m not dead, just got so busy and caught up with life i disappeared for a bit

but here i am again! four years later

but yeah, thats about it, thank you for sticking around :]

#psychonauts #psychonauts au #riptide au #psychonauts razputin #razputin #psychonauts oc #my art #idk how to tag #ma! #chowy’s talking into the void if space again!

[coccoart]

Looking through my stuff I've realized there's actually a lot of things I never posted here =⁠_⁠=;;

#i also haven't painted (watercolor wise) in MONTHS ( ˘̩⁠╭⁠╮⁠˘̩⁠ ) #ive been trying not to let that get me down too much u_u #like i like making the stuff ive been working but yeah....

[theoldkyokodied]

Uploading all my Tomgreg art at once from the past few week before season 4 hits, who knows in what kind of mental state i'm gonna be once it does :')

#tomgreg #succession #dont even talk to me i started watching this show when i had nothing to do at work and now i watch it with averiel my good friend averiel #and we are going to watch s4 together and i feel physically ill from bein so excited #so ya thats what ive been up to... anyway. i love these idiots they desever nothing but the worst (affectionate) #im also a tomshiv lover btw. im the one who yells 'THIS IS HOW TOMSHIV CAN STILL WIN' while they are actively losing on screen #thats the kind of person i am #dont look at me (lying on the floor) #okay i was not going to say stuff in the tags and let the art speak for itself but i NEED to point out details in the wine Painting.. #i put a lot of work into that one. thinly veiled metaphors and symbolism yknow.. #greg is gripping the stem of the wine glass with his full fist. tom and greg are dressed in the same outfit (sock garters included) #greg look appalled but he is not doing anything about the spill. tom is fondly pouring greg more and more wine. he is doing him a favor #i colored the red wine the same way i would color blood :) oh and tom is not really touching greg #only holding the chair in place. greg is making himself look smaller than he is like usual #oh and @ the person who said that it's the inverse of the tom and nate scene i love the way you think. i did not think of that before #but god. yeah. i actually thought about the scene change from when roman uhh.. christens his office in s1. the one with the coffee machine #i always go insane at that cut. this is not exactly the same since it's more.. about emotions but yknow.. it can be.. the same...

[lollytea]

I'm never shutting up about this

#toh spoilers #im SORRY but you dont get how happy this makes me #the moment i saw his face i said ''bi'' and its one of those headcanons ive been deeply attached to #and i want to cry thinking about how he KNOWS. He knows hes bi. #hunter the golden guard is fully aware that hes bisexual and he wears a little pride flag patch #i KNOW this doesnt actually prove anything but SHUSH. I like it #im fully dumping my prior headcanons to hunter being unaware of his own orientation until recently because i like this better #hes always been aware. its just been a fact to him. same as being blond or named hunter. #its not something hes ever had to think deeply about. it just Is #but its probably not until luz came out that he learned that being bi in the human realm was an entirely different thing to back home #and i can imagine him personalizing this garment of his and its like #hunter: its MINE. i want to patch it full of stuff that i like. stuff that represents me. #luz: hmmm. sorry hunter. ive only got these two patches to choose from. good witch azura and the bi rainbow #hunter: i guess the rainbow works. that represents me. gimme!! #luz: ....the bi rainbow...represents you...? #hunter: yeah?? #luz: YOURE BI??? #hunter: YEAH??? #luz: sorry its just...you never mentioned it...not that you HAVE to mention it but-- #hunter: *shrugs* never came up.

[joelletwo]

now this is gonna sound really stupid and i need no one to call me stupid about it -> it turns out when u make food that is more than the bare minimum to be edible. ie make it a lil fancy w a lot of flavors and textures going on (scary to me <- autist). u want to eat it more. and even tho its more work. sometimes the prospect of eating something that actually tastes great is motivating enough to get u thru the work. and so conversely it is easier to keep up a consistent eating routine. bc ur not also constantly bailing on planned mediocre dinners to eat all ur backup stock of emergency instant meals.

#YOU KNOW. i mean most of u probably genuinely know. sometimes theres a delicate balance of. #u cut back u cut back u cut back so u can get stuff done despite the [disability] [lack of spoons] and u live in Bare Minimum Land #and then at some point u think abt adding stuff in and its like oh yeah i forgot i can do that. i forgot i can expend a little extra #effort. SOMETIMES. it doesnt always work which is why i never want to be called an idiot for playing it safe and minimum lol. #ive got. no one else doing this stuff for me. so i always want to make sure i have enough budgeted energy for stuff like. eating #once a day at least. lol. lolllllllll. is that enough justifying myself. ive been eating okay lately. even w the diet change. and its nice #altho also eating more regularly means i actually go thru my bought food quicker means i have to buy more. 'SPENSIVE. in 2024

[istjury]

my csp just killed itself and now i dont have any of the downloaded stuff there and cant open any of my files thus i can't finish any of my works

im goig. isnane i dort even care if anyone can comprehend what im saying i just need to put it annywhere cause im a crybaby ew /lh

#rip my billion quadrillion drawings #alright whatever im normal now #deepest apologies to anyone who have seen this post #rant post #nonsense #and thanks to finley for giving me a screenshot of my csp workspace(i have no idea how the whole layout/stuff youre using to work called) #like. just the program looks in general. i dont know how its called #neither in english or my native language #not even talking about bits of other languages i know #so yeah anyways thanks to finley for helping me get it to look like it used to #the original looks of the program makes me dizzy #lmao imagine pretending to know english and ranting on the tumblr dot com #ive been learning english for almost 10 years

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

sometimes i like to imagine a future where i write that (y/a or adult targeted) dragon book series i desperately want to, but i know that i wouldn't be able to do it without including art in the book. every time a new important character is introduced the next page would have to be a reference / art of them to Show What They Look Like

#i dont think id be able to handle like. publishing or whatever Without that #maybe that stems from my control issues maybe im just an artist at heart #but i would also need there to be a glossary and a detailed map and maybe footnotes or a basic bestiary- #but then sometimes i wonder if i'd want it to be like... a comic instead #manga style in a way??? i wouldnt color it. it'd be in b&w with only the occasional colored spread or somethin #but all of that If Possible or plausible is a very long way off which is okay its okay #ill get there ill get there #unless something changes and i want to do something Else but its been a goal for many years already #its only recently that ive buckled down on the worldbuilding and character crafting and genuinely considering the plot and themes #its a hot mess! but theres something in there! im determined to find it #its definitely a couple years yet of changing things and switchin stuff around and Thinking.... #who knows if ill ever get there! i hope i will! #but yeah it'd be a book with a bunch of art shoved in it httyd style (kinda) #bc if im gonna Make something im gonna combine my favorite hobbies as best i can #absolutely unprompted #its an exciting but daunting prospect. writing an actual Thing #mostly the plot part of it #i can craft characters i can do worldbuilding #but the plot? oof #there's this other one ive been working on since 8th grade #and its still... barely anything lmao #its for my favorite personal characters - my very first real oc my special boy light of my life but Man. #plot has hands!!! #and then ofc there's my beloved idiot squad... i want to do something for them some day maybe.... #so many ambitions so little energy... i will strive to make future me healthy enough to achieve Something we so desperately want!

[lord-squiggletits]

I need to reread the comics again to have specific arguments/evidence for this, but like

I feel a bit like I could've been sympathetic to the way other Cybertronian colonies view Cybertron, if it weren't for the fact that at least several of them (as in, ones that get notable dialogue/screen time) are so low-key self-righteous?

Like, idk... there's a lot of criticism of Cybertronians because they're so "warlike" and how their obsession with violence and vengeance is just dragging the whole galaxy down with them, but uh. The Autobot-Decepticon war was basically a product of societal ills bubbling over for like 6 million years beforehand and then finally boiling over into a 4 million year war that lasted as long as it did because the people involved had immense social/psychological trauma from being "raised" in an oppressive society.

So when the colonists come in being all 'omg you people are so violent and uncivilized why don't you just like, stop fighting' it kind of pissed me off a little bit as a reader/person like. Idk the colonists really came into this society of people full of massive amounts of trauma where even before the war society was super oppressive and no one has any experience of living "normal" lives unaffected by violence and bigotry. And the colonists were like "ummm wow why don't you guys just??? stop fighting???." Like idk it wasn't EVERY SINGLE MOMENT, in fact I think that when it was played for laughs it's quite a funny "fridge horror" type element. It was just annoying because like.... IDK???? It's just really annoying to watch a bunch of people who lived relatively sheltered lives on their own planets come to a different planet full of traumatized people and be like "omg why are you people so fucked up" IDK BRO MAYBE BECAUSE THEIR SOCIETY WAS OPPRESSIVE AND THEY LIVED THROUGH A LIFELONG WAR???

It also doesn't help that the colonies were literally founded based on imperialism and conquest so like, it's fucking rich to hear colonists scolding Cybertronians for their violence ruining the whole galaxy while literally sitting on planets that their Primes colonized from others. The hypocrisy of this is briefly mentioned in Unicron (literally the FINAL STORY OF THE SERIES) but like, that's basically the only time Cybertronian characters are given a reprieve of sympathy from other characters in universe and it's so tiresome.

I've talked to other people who didn't like the colonists and thought they basically (narratively speaking) existed just to shit on the existing characters, and it's actually really easy for me to sympathize with/outright agree with that assessment of the story considering how much of exRID/OP seems to be preoccupied with "Cybertron/the Primes/Optimus sucks" with very few reprieves for anything positive happening and even fewer chances for characters to get to explain themselves and experience a little bit of justice? Like, as the audience, it's just very frustrating to see the characters you spent hundreds of issues keeping up with get shit on by a bunch of "literally-who"s and then not really get a chance to ever defend themselves, either by literally defending themselves in conversation or having some sort of narrative thing happening that vindicates them at least symbolically

#squiggposting #paused work to muse about this which i prolly shouldn't have lol #oh well i'll still get stuff done #like idk an example of this is how pyra criticized OP for using religion to manipulate people #(lets just ignore how she said she would teach OP but never actually did) #but in the story there's never any sort of confrontation where pyra learns about history or talks with OP #and OP gets to be like. yeah on my planet primes fucking sucked and i'm the only one trying to redeem their image #also ive been fighting an endless war that lasted 4 mil years in which me being a shining figurehead was basically #the sole motivating force keeping my army from just collectively succumbing to endless despair #and i also had to use this shining figurehead image i had to keep the opposing army from genociding a bunch of organics #like not once does OP get to express his side of things he's basically just shit upon endlessly by other characters as he keeps doing plot #i feel like i had another example but i can't recall who/what was involved lmao #like idk it's not just that barber's writing is depressing and dark and edgy. i LIKE stories that do that kind of thing #it's just that it feels a bit as if the story is ENDLESSLY depressing and dark and edgy with almost no reprieve #as if it's mostly presenting the flaws of the characters with no chance for them to justify or redeem themselves #idk i feel like there was another better point/example i was gonna make but i can't remember it #like idk i guess a dark depressing story would've been better if the characters at least got to defend themselves #bc as is it basically feels like they (esp OP) get shit on endlessly and never once get to express anything about it #so like. they get shit on in universe. but also as the reader since there's never a contradicting viewpoint or the character defending them #it's as if you're supposed to take this one-sided criticism of them at face value and it just doesn't seem fair AS THE READER #if i read about OP getting shit on by some people and defended by others and also him expressing his opinion on himself #then that just feels like a normal fair narrative where i get to take sides #but if it's just OP being shit on and he hardly expresses much about it #then it feels like i as the reader am expected to agree with the portrayal being shown? #but in reality the portrayal just feels negative and unfair and one sided to me #and why the fuck do i want to read a story that's just the characters i know and like on an endless shame parade #also shout out to 'literally who' aka slide calling OP 'literally fascist' lmao #one of the most cringe moments of the entire comic. wait no. i can think of a more cringe Slide Moment #when unicron is about to destroy the planet and trypticon is getting shot and dying(?) in the background #and the story decides to pause and focus on Slide so she can monologue about how evil and tyrannical OP is

[ask-the-bone-boys]

[[ok gang i am genuinely so sorry to be doing this literally RIGHT before the end of the event but i've got a whole buncha stuff lining up irl that i am starting to reeeaaally need to address/prioritize and there are a couple things that i still want to do for the "finale" here that i haven't had the time to set up, so all of this is to say iiii need to take at least a day or two to Slow Down And Chill for a bit

I haven't entirely decided if this means I'll take a full break like i have been for the weekends or if I'll just post a little less than I have been, it depends on how I end up feeling really. I will absolutely try my best to make up for the days I've missed tho! I have something pretty cool planned that I think has the potential to be pretty fun, just like i said I gotta set things in place first haha]]

#ooc #i was gonna work on a whole buncha things today but i. UGH. ended up hanging with my roommates instead 🙄 #and ive actually been uh. yeah maybe a little Unwise with all this & working on it real late into the night and i am feeling it Catch Up #i'm really really hopeful that the stuff i need to set up shouldn't take more than like a day or two #and then maybe i'll still post a lil extra just to make up for it lol #but with about a million final projects (if i never have to write another fucking essay again i will ascend to the heavens) coming up- #- i am being forced to think maybe i will prioritize sleep a bit. for like a day at least #again i am sooo sorry and tbh im apologizing more to myself than anybody else so dont actually worry. but AUGH WE;RE SO CLOSE COME ONNNN #ahem. yeah you get it lmao ty for being such a cool audience so far <333333 i will return SOON!!!!!!!!!!

[gibbearish]

ik i talk abt high control groups kinda often but i do encourage anyone involved in discourse in any capacity to watch folding ideas' "this is financial advice" video, because a lot of what he says about the gamestop apes being a self-organizing high control group imo also explains the more toxic discourse tendencies, and i feel like most discussion around high-control groups on here focuses on the tradtional kind that has one or a few distinct leaders which makes it harder to draw parallels between the signs. so i think its important to point out that these kinds of groups can still create that same energy as a unit even if there isn't one specific person calling the shots

#origibberish #namely the signs ive noticed most over the years are obviously internal jargon‚ thats kind of a given when working with microlabels #but see also transmed/truscum/trender/tucute/acey/theyfab/transandrophobia truther/etc etc etc #ideas being boiled down to short gotchas that just get ping ponged back and forth #see The Entirely Of Any Ace Discourse Argument for that but again see 'theyre just trans mras' #and the tendancy for members to turn on anyone who steps out of line even a little #omg i cqnt believe i forgot pro/anti discourse too theyre really bad about all of these on both sides #oh or another example would be steven universe discourse #like 'it endorses letting fascists off the hook' would just get thrown around as if it was undisputed fact despite there being MILES #of shit going on in the background to get to that #anyways. yeah 👍 keeping this in mind has already made a huge difference in how i engage in online discussions #and has also been a good rule of thumb for when to Stop engaging with someone #where if theyre displaying these signs thank you i do not want to be part of this #and like yes that goes for people youre arguing with but it obviously /ESPECIALLY/ goes for people you like #if you have a friend who you feel like you cant say anything that disagrees with them or theyll freak out at you. you dont have to keep #being friends with them. if being around someone makes you uncomfortable and you constantly find yourself making excuses for why #they treat you the way they do then thats a bad sign #and like with that i really hope ive managed to yknow. create a nice space here where ppl feel safe bringing stuff up? #idk

[mspeevee]

picrew update

but i guess i may not have even posted about this WIP here

I wanted to add at least 5 of each item slot before releasing it and might release a heavy WIP and then have continual updates whenever I add more to it when I am in my Picrew Mood

ofc i want 30 of each hair slot, mouth slot, and nose slot first though~ never feels right releasing a picrew w only a few hairstyles available personally

#msposts #this one is going well #since i have no fear with it being fandom stuff since its not #its actually tobaiblog related! #its an npc maker and will have a haunt colour option as well #that vibrant blue at the end there is that option #currently its in a very rough state but is fun to test colours with #to no ones surprise though my life is currently my job and s3 dlc #god its so much fun #its the first time ive wanted to make an actual oc for the splatoon lore #like everyone has their own agents or versions of them but that never interested me personally #i wont post abt story or anything for a week minimum though #but just know i enjoy #ofc any posts would be tagged w every tag known to man though! #picrew #pic #text #my art #but yeah ive been working on this on and off for like over a month now? #so i post abt it now cuz its not something ive dropped yet

[androidboy]

-

#ive been getting more open with my gf about things ive been through #like tellin her stories about stuff that has happened #and ive noticed she’s changed the way she approaches things and like #i know i have some behaviors that annoy her and are unhealthy that stem from what has happened #and ive been working on them but it’s still hard #and idk last time she stayed over i did a thing and was immediately like oof bc i knew it was a pet peeve #and just not good on my end either #and it did in fact really bother her and i apologized but then a few min later she brought it up again and asked if it was tied to show ive #been treated in the past and i was like yeah :/ and idk #im workin on my shit #she’s changed the way she approaches things with me in a way that doesn’t feel infantilizing #it just feels very nice #the pet peeve is me not being direct and talking circles around something #ive also got a bad habit of finding it hard to say no when im first asked something and she’s started making sure to give me lots of chances #to say no or say i changed my mind #and i really appreciate that too

[real-life-cloud]

im GOING to write today ........ i WILL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#the sky speaks #i havent used twitter in so long and lemme say i missed using tumblr like twitter. just putting my long rambly notes into a single post #anyways onto the rambling #i havent been writing or drawing like at alllll #too busy #also was so sick #but now that i have my new job and i know what my schedule is gonna sorta look like #3 days at joann 2 days cleaning w mom and 2 days nothin #PLUS i dont have to spend money on therapy til after the new year now #and mom is coming home and she seems rly optimistic abt sobriety #im feeling like i can finally create again !!!! #i have 2 creative presents i need to do before christmas #but aside that and 1 prompt still in my inbox (that i rly wanna do anyways) everything else i wanna do is all for Me :) #im kinda put out bc a lot of stuff i wanted to do this fall got shelved.. i wanted to make bday art of kirishima xinyan and kazuha. #i wanted to open comms. but im way too rusty w art rn to be confident doing that. maybe after new years? #god i wanted to come out to my parents properly. the day my mom went to rehab was national coming out day. #it was also one of my last therapy sessions. i came out to her instead #i still managed to do stuff tho. started my new job and got together with friends TWICE !! and i've kept up w doing my moms job alone #idk where im going w this anymore ive lost steam. but yeah. i wanna write today! idk what yet. i hav so many wips i could work on..

[pepprs]

not to p*riod post but like. it came so late last month and it’s even later this month probably both due to stress (lol) and i mean i never “hope” i will get it ever but i was hoping id get it during the fall break so it wouldn’t mess up any of the things i need to do this week and i think there’s like a 90% chance im gonna get it tomorrow which is a jam packed day during which im supposed to give a campus tour to a prominent vice president an hour after getting to the office so. lol

#purrs #i don’t want to call it when i don’t even have cramps yet but if i wake up in agony im probably going to work from home. im trying this new #thing where i don’t push myself to do the usual thing if im in agony and i know there’s stuff that needs to get done but it won’t get done #well if im not well first so. yeah. i feel so bad like the tour is at 10 and im probably gonna… idk. i shouldn’t say im going to do when i #don’t know for certain yet but it’s not looking good. also i am kinda worried abt why suddenly it’s getting later and later like ive been #thru much worse stuff than what’s happening currently and it came maybe like 2 days late at most but im getting to the point where it’s #around a week late now and ummmmm. i don’t think that is normal 😃 but i am trying not to think about it that hard bc nothing else is ‘wrong #that i can tell it’s just it’s late. idk. im dreading it so much i always dread it it’s so so painful and i hate knowing im about to #experience such severe pain i cant function for like 24-36 hrs 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 #delete later #probably gonna have to cancel the tour which will make me look like a flake but. 😐

[just-gay-thoughts]

Yall I'm getting so excited for the weekend because I don't have any big assignments, so I'm gonna try to alter a vintage dress I got yesterday! If all goes right I should be able to slowly buy more dresses without needing to worry about them fitting perfectly!

#gay thoughts #never gonna be the type to purposely buy bugger sizes #but when buying vintage or thrift its dissappinting when something cute is just a little too big #so like this dress fit perfectly in the skirt but the top is too big and i cant just go a size down (in store thats not always an option) #i want to get better at sewing and build the skills to get to a point where i dont need the clothes i buy to fit perfectly when i buy them #theres been a couple dresses i havent gotten because their was just on area that didnt fit #id also love to get to a point where i can just make my own #because the trends rarely fit my personal style #but yeah im hoping to get like a mini sewing machine #ive seen some simple ones for like $20 so im hoping i can find one and it works well enough #even if it doesnt last longterm to have something for small stuff wiuld be nice

[beatcroc]

did the old tumblr live toggle actually work for yall? mine literally never has lmao

#on a more serious note. ive said before but it really is so disheartening how much this site is going to shit #saw a comment that said staff was like ''changes will continue until revenue improves'' which i dont know if is 100% legit but #I'D certainly believe it. and in which case. god if that isn't the darkest death knell possible. #esp. for me bc like. this is the only social media site ive ever really used #it has such a unique layout and i really enjoy working with it for what it is #most of the stuff i make is made to be posted On Tumblr and doesn't really work anywhere else #like wrt to how i format comics and writing for here [and askblogs formerly :p] #like yeah i could migrate and yeah i could figure out other ways to present stuff but i don't want to! i like doing it like this! #and then theres the whole losing audience thing or whatever like fine. irritating sure but ultimately does not matter i'll still make stuff #it's mostly just frustrating bc this year has been the best i've made use of tumblr formatting and most ive enjoyed doing so #and strongest it's been received!...all while continually falling apart around itself #like RIGHT as i hit my stride you know. if i was already past my prime with it it'd still be annoying but whatever its bound to happen #but like right now!!!! come on dude. #bweeeaaahh