#like wow so much regret so much love

[batarangsoundsdumb]

on a scale of one to ten how badly did i screw myself going so far into shipping a rare pair as a joke that i am now sort of shipping it

#it is bruce/oliver :( #you know how i used to go 'they are exes they used to FUCK' #now my brain is just hyperfocused on the period of time when they were hypothetically in love #but also like how the time line of roy going to rehab and jason dying kind of overlap #and you have two guys in their mid thirties thinking like 'what if we admitted we loved each other back then?' #like fully stressing theyre not in love anymore but the fact that they were each other's first love and whatever #but also that the trajectory of their life had to have been affected by what they didn't and did tell each other #like wow so much regret so much love #i was rereading some shit i wrote like a year back and god man god god god they would have been such a good pairing as teens #at least in my head #anyways tell me if y'all want to see me post those snippets somewhere :? #batarambles

[urproblematicfav-arsonk]

Oh so when you're in love with a cannibalistic serial killer sadomasochist who openly admits to helping people just to get the opportunity to push them into failure and suffering 'cause he thinks its funny, its cool and normal and just basic Tumblr Sexyman shenanigans BUT WHEN I'm in love with a gangster murderer, rapist, sex trafficker who drugs people and is a narcissistic stalker I'm suddenly endorsing abuse and am bad wow ok

#cant wait to deeply regret posting this #have we considered that angel is just ungrateful #maybe he doesn't deserve to be val's victim if he's gonna act that way #you got a whole psycho all to yourself and don't even appreciate it wow #this is a joke btw #i mean the sentiment that you shouldn't bully ppl over fiction characters is real but ya know #me a sex repulsed asexual: god sure do love that rapist #there has to be a connection between the whole being asexual and into cnc thing i got going on #hi welcome to my val aplogisim club theres nothing here but the potential for online harassment and a select few good fics #the alastor saves angel from val fics are never not funny to me cuz like guys al is just as bad as val just in a different way #my main reason for liking val so much is that he looks cool and moths are cute and also he can't see or count well #hazbin hotel #hazbin valentino #proship

[ask-zerotrio]

Clavell and cyrano angstttttt. My mind has conjured some messy idea of Clavell's complicated personal relations with everyone. From unresolved pining/mourning/anger for the profs, to broken friendships with Cyrano.

#director clavell #zerotrioshipping #director cyrano #Haha the drama in that happens in my mind's eye is too complex for Pokemon #//ooc #i just think it's fun to make the compassionate old man face troubles #how much regret do you think clavell holds for the two profs #things like “i loved you and I failed you” #but also “Turo and Sada how could you do all this???????? why didn't you ask for my help” etc. #basically i love that clavell and arven have a lot of commonality re the profs #but since clavell knew them for work and such it's a lot of room to explore haha #and then in comes cyrano who left it all behind him #i doubt he's a villain #if nothing else maybe opportunistic businessman with different stances about education to clavell #anyway all this boils down to area zero research era lore being so intriguing and how using clavell's life to explore it is so much fun #anyway wow my essay in tags #i care them a lot #need to adopt them all as ocs

[greetingsfromhenrietta]

ok but which is the TRUTH

i know that the anniversary covers imply the first option but i'm conflicted

#i'm alive! #tbh #they honestly both feel like blue's 😭 #AND YOU KNOW WHAT #THAT'S FINE #ADAM GETS SO MUCH LOVE AND ATTENTION THROUGHOUT THE SERIES #wow i sound like a jealous sibling #i'm sorry blue is my babygirl #(second to gansey--number 1 babygirl) #i'm gonna regret saying this #no one dox me pls x #the raven boys #trb #blue lily #blue lily lily blue #bllb #trc #the raven cycle #adam parrish #blue sargent

[butterfirefly]

You miss an annual event ONE (1) time and suddenly it's so much better than all the ones you've attended.

#fr this is just like me missing my school's scoliosis checkup and going on for years not knowing I had it #very nice. much wow. thank you. [dies of regret] #no really are you KIDDING me. the ONE TIME I skip it suddenly someone whom I would've genuinely wanted to be acquainted with attends it. #food gets upgraded. flowers. there is a physical sensation in my chest and throat caused by regret I am dead serious #I'm aware that what could've beens shouldn't make you feel like nothing good can happen in the future #but currently I want to kick a soccer ball from one end of the field to another thanks #and I feel like such a brat because I was by no means left in the ditch or whatever like I was sinking into a comfy couch and drinking teas #and eating pastries and stuff so me being this upset is a one big ungrateful spoiled brat move and it sucks I suck I don't want to suck #please for the love of GOD let there be gratefulness in my heart #bff.txt

[skunkg1rll]

🥛👛💭🐈

#im so sad bc.. #last year i literally had a chance to have phone nd video calls w him.... #like omg??? OMFG?!?!?! #i couldve been lucky nd talked to him like that #but i was too scared. my appearance is so hard to live w lmsao it makes me so scared to just exist #nd i was just anxious abt it bc i mean i rlly fkn liked him #plus i hadnt talked on the phone or had video calls for 9 years #so i was too anxious so i lost my chance #thats smth i regret soooo much #bc i wouldve loved talking to him like that omg #i still think abt it every day nd wish i could go back nd redo it #just the thought of talking to him on the phone or video call is like..... wow #i think abt it everyyyyy day i wish i could talk to him that way #nd i actually had a chance to but i blew it #fmlllll

[tutuandscoot]

Scott:

Also Scott:

#ok but it’s it not the most wholesome thing it the world that Scott came up with MR #like not that I would actual believe he would want to skate to AC/DC #But MOULIN ROUGE #Like WOW boy #and that he had the artistic intuition to know how to do it new and different and make it their story #that he knew the kind of movement he wanted to do #he had the vision and all that was missing was Tessa’s love for it #and he had it #imagine the inner pressure he would’ve had if it didn��t get them gold #like I know he says they wouldn’t regret it but like if it hadn’t been the right choice #and they had to start all over #her would never forgive himself if he let Tessa down #but it was perfect for them #it was what they never got to with Carmen #and he loves Carmen so much because of what it did for Tessa #what she got to show #prove to everyone the athlete and artist he knows and loves #that he wanted to give her this character and storyline #he is one very special little cinnamon roll #virtuemoir #tessa and scott #pyeongchang olympics #fd: moulin rouge

[whomturgled]

i have so many feelings and i hate it

#and regrets of any time ive acted up or feel like in hindsight it wasnt cherishing the time i have w them as i shld be and #and things i want to do with them still and ways to love them and be loved and understand their way of loving and #i think we can be so good together and. i miss them. and i hope they miss me. #i really hope theyll miss me soon and want me again and . ik its maybe a little messed up but i want to believe and trust and #its hard and it hurts but. i really feel theres a great connection and if i need to chill out a bit and remember myself more thats fine #and on me for getting so like. moody recently. altho i kinda feel like part of that is med changes but u__u still i need to be able to like #be better and i think they make me better and so happy and. im so comfortable with them and i love them and i wld want to make it work #even if it had to be distance but i dont think i want to just be their friend like maybe but it would hurt a lot bc i love them so much #and i hope they wanna be with me too still and will allow me to romance them yknow flowers and adventures and love and take care and... yea #and maybe some of this was just them going thru a lot rn and im sorry for adding pressure to it and i want to be the comfortable respite an #auurgrgghfhdhdhhfhfdhh i miss them #i just keep thinking abt them like ill have periods of not but then i do again and. idk. #theres also a lot of complicated feelings and thoughts and its like i want to like. idk. know some of their friends n stuff n. :^( idk #i dont feel well from the stress and emotions and ow of it all #i really hope it isnt just a way for them to let me down i really hope they come back eventually like i wanna believe they will but #ourgsghthfhdhfhghghdhdhwkelftk4bfbhwiwjtjejAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #i love them a lot. and need to listen more abt more alone time stuff bc it is good for both of us but not like this u_u #ok sorry for rambling i needed somewhere to write feelings so here we are #i guess part of me is hoping theyre thinking abt me at least a bit and maybe will check this and see it and be like wow i do miss them too #but ik thats silly and eitth3u2ieigjtb4jirifjwji24jgntn aahhhhhhhhhhh. i say a lot of things wrong esp when scared or overly emotional and. #urgevshehrhtjrjeitjtnjeeitjtjwjeiigvjiw9384847rhfbwjoe4j4n4j289djrnrnf #i just really really hope they come back soonish and like want me and are like yes i do want you sorry for that but not a huge sorry bc #like i understand where theyre coming from and. and. yeah. idk. soon doesnt have to be today or tomorrow but maybe a week or 2 idk #i just realy miss them and it hurts and i really dont want them with someone else or to just throw it all away andni want to prove i can #like. idk. love them and be better and more positive i guess we've both been dealing w a lot of stuff and i do need to learn to accept and #more patient w how we communicate differently and we do have to face that but its a difficult topic to confront ig and aurh4hwhshhrlffff #i think they love me i want to trust and i really hope they dont try to make any decisions for me or like based on what they think best 4 m #bc i get to decide that :^( #when i said let down i meant like. leave my life and never talk to me again and stuff.. ;^(. idk how to feel abt some things but. idk. idk. #theres so many feelings and that all is just a pretty vague tip of the iceberg ugh

[inseparableduo]

…

#wow brain go brrr tonight #but if I am too annoying rn unfollow me tbh #anyway #kinda wanna write more abt Amy #as she is a normal human who respects twins so much #she damn near idolizes then tbh #when her family had treated her like shit her whole life and had planed to sell her off #into potential sex slavery at 14 it was twins who saved her #who told her what was going on and gave her the choice to get revenge #she did. she doesn’t regret it and is glad she had the chance #what’s more she was given that choice and twins have never judged her #never pushed her to open up or join their gang #she decided on her own to do that because she was so grateful and happy someone 2 people even #we’re respecting her. giving her freedom and choices #showed her how to be strong #mentored her protected her shelter her #all at their own expense she knows they were punished for never collecting a debt from her family #she was never pushed to pay off that debt but hopes following them could #but that’s also an excuse because she loves them and doesn’t want to not help them #because of twins she got a found family and can protect others #but little did she know it’s because of her they decided to try harder and save others #;dl

[coconut530]

SEASON 1, DONE.

MY SOUL, SHATTERED.

SEASON 2, LET’S GO.

HOTEL, TRIVAGO.

#Malevolent #Malevolent Podcast #ohhhhh wow #Arthur telling him to remember his name broke me #And then he was just the KING IN YELLOW I GUESS #LIKE SINCE WHEN #WHO ASKED JOHN #WE WERE FIGHTING AGAINST YOU THIS WHOLE TIME #AND LIKE THAT TAPE WITH KELLIN WAS WEIRD #AND FAROE #HE PROBABLY CAN’T LET GO BC HE HAS SO MUCH REGRET OVER WHATEVER HAPPENED #SO MUCH REGRET #AND THESE DREAMLANDS #WHAT COULD POSSIBLY BE THERE #I KNOW THIS DUDE NAMED KAYNE IS SOMEWHERE THERE BUT WHO KNOWS WHERE #HARLAN GUTHRIE YOU GENIUS #I LOVE YOUR PODCAST OKAY #I’m so normal about it #Also total coincidence Måneskin’s new song yesterday was La Fine #And the title for the S1 finale is The End #Crazy #all of this is crazy dude #Let’s start S2

[noxtivagus]

theme for my class's christmas party on friday is most listened to artist.. bro how do i dress as masayoshi soken

#🌙.rambles #joked abt wearing yk a suit but i could actually do that #i'd be shy tho 😭😭 but it'll be v cool omg #nobuo uematsu is top all time but soken is for 2022 & 2021 #yoko shimomura's 3rd all-time.. oh man i really love vg osts fr #uemtasu's my second for 2022 tho n #txt is 4th all-time n 3rd for 2022 #random but i rlly like my hair now i didn't like it when it was blowdried but now i do ehe #it matches me i think >< i rlly prefer this length i don't like long hair unless i put it in a ponytail or braid of smth #square enix music is oh wow top 5 all time n top 4 for this year #aghh sorry i don't rlly have anything to do anymore for my deadlines due today it's just my grpmates' parts now but #i'm worried bcs i don't think the output in general for one of them is creative enough? we lacked time #n it's the course i hate the most n it rlly just ruins me but #i'll just take my mind off it 😭 i hate my regrets so much i can't comfort myself n it rlly just leaves this emptiness in me but i'll #distract myself n just write creatively or just imagine n dream n i'll be alright #despite how much grades n acads may seem so big rn it wldn't matter when i'm actually working n all #but every single mistake every single shortcoming just hurts so much bcs i used to do better or maybe i just think too high of myself #i'll work on my article critique n then when my grpmates for our research stuff finish the results n discussion #i'll work on the conclusion n then i'll do some other small assignments n then i'm done #maybe i just don't want others to think less of me to see me as inferior. i'll still get at least high honors for sure but not having #just one semestral awardee or some bs feels like a failure to me despite. my family telling me i'm not a disappointment #my friends don't know but wnvr apollo n i don't do SUPER well in acads they get suprised so. yh.. #who the fuck cares about what others think oh my god i hate my mind i need to stop this i was doing well earlier today

[neuropteran]

my friend today said something kind of weird about how he thought a couple of a mutual friends dating in hs was “obviously going to happen” and it makes me feel weird abt all the stuff I’ve said to him abt that person, bc like he’s always telling me i’m not special for knowing things or like, quietly asking me to tone myself down when talking abt them and i know i’m a lot & yeah, i need someone who tells me to not read into things but like. I straight up told someone else that multiple ppl have said they think that person is into me and i expressed my feelings like “okay and what can i do about that?” and it felt good to say but like. maybe i’m being ridiculous and thinking i’m special when i’m clearly not. i don’t know. i need to stop talking about that person, i need to stop thinking about them, and i can’t fucking help myself we were talking about something else and i made the conversation abt that person and i just!!!!!! idk i almost want to say something to my friend like “do you think everyone’s crazy for thinking there’s something there” just so i can have my heart ripped out like. it would be easier if like he could tell me i was reading too much into anything.

#ugh i just. It’s worse when other ppl see something #And everyone I talk to is like. Wow he’s into you and it’s like!!!!!!!!!! At least if it was me being crazy it was just me #idk #It makes me feel kind of unlovable too like maybe the only reason is bc im something new or different #Also my friend said that actually that perosn is a silly funny goofy person and I ….. #i wonder if I’m actually not enough #maybe I’m not enough. And sometimes I see like. Idk ppl making fun of girls being jealous abt their boyfriends interest in other girls #And i feel like. Bad in a way. Like I’m not doing anything I’m just existing and being myself and I’m not trying to do anything #but It must feel like shit if ur find out your boyfriend is emotionally cheating on u #idk Idk im struggling with feeling like. A bad person even tho I haven’t done anything wrong #like im not enough as myself and that person is also bad and too much idk #I feel so. unlovable. no one cares about me #it’s all ‘someone will see you for you and love you’ but what if they don’t. What if no one ever rlly does? What if it’s a dude with a #relationship long enough to be in middle school who’s a bit of a coward. #what If it’s literally bc he’s bored and his relationship is stagnant and you’re only interesting bc he hasn’t worked out you’re boring yet #what if the only thing that attracts ppl is that ur new #:| #I’m so tired of being alone. Sometimes it gets so much I almost regret having boundaries

[polarpanda73]

cuphead is so cool so im gonna probably start reblogging more stuff about it ive been consuming the content rapidly

#me and a friend were watching the second season its great #calas song is amazing #i only got into the fandom this year because of the DLC and i very much regret not getting into it back in 2017 #the undertale brainrot was too strong i think #but i mean its still great i love the fandom and interacting with stuff #havent really drawn the characters yet #i Need to draw cagney so BAD hes my favorite #oh wow what a shocker the flowey enthusiast likes the other game with the evil flower #i have not rambled in notes ever actually wow uhhhhhhh hi guys whats up if you like cuphead and follow me please talk to me i think we could #be friends :]

[jytan2018]

I read the comic in one sitting less than an hour after finishing the movie, and wow I have many Thoughts™.

- It's very obvious the two versions were meant to cater to different audiences AND tell different messages. I don't get why people are going "But the comic was better! It had more nuance!" just because Nimona was easier to root for in the movie.

- The comic was written back when ND Stevenson was still trying to process a lot of stuff, so all the characters are morally grey/straight up evil and the climactic battle is between a Ballister who regrets turning against Nimona, even if it was to save others vs. a Nimona who's too hurt to care if her lashing out was going to hurt innocent people.

- By the time Nimona got a movie adaptation, ND was a lot more secure in his sexuality, so the climactic battle was Nimona vs. the Director, the symbol of religious oppression and bigotry. It's not just about your friends turning on you because you're "too much" for them anymore, it's also about a society that would rather bring itself to the brink of ruin than coexist with you.

- (I totally get why people were upset about Ballister's surname change, though. Like come on, the media dubbing him Blackheart just to be mean was RIGHT THERE).

- Nimona's metaphor for not shifting is such a neurodivergent thing. Even in the comic, Nimona's parents insisting she's a monster who replaced their daughter is reminiscent of the changeling myth, which is what many parents thought their neurodivergent kids were—changelings who replaced their "real" children.

- Ambrosius being trained to cut off HIS BOYFRIEND'S WHOLE FUCKING ARM instead of merely disarming him is a very cop thing to do. As much as cops claim they're trained to de-escalate situations, their training still teaches them to treat everyone as a potential threat, and that level of constant vigilance can turn anyone into a trigger-happy/arm-choppy bastard. Even the Director, who can use a sword but probably hasn't actually fought someone in ages, STILL can't see Ballister reaching for the squire's phone without assuming he has a weapon.

- And on that note, the Queen getting killed simply because she was trying to reform the Institution and allow commoners to become knights? That's the best "no such thing as a good cop" metaphor I've seen. Because even if there ARE good cops and they ARE in leadership positions, the system will crush them before they make any meaningful change. It's not a good institution that turned rotten, it's an institution that only exists to spread its rot and refuses to be good.

- That's why Ballister's characterisation is so different in the movie vs. the comic. Comic Ballister had 15 years to come to terms with his trauma and the Institution's evildoing, while Movie Ballister is still freshly traumatised and hasn't found a way to define himself beyond the role he was assigned by the Institution.

- Not to mention Comic Ambrosius was not very noble to begin with and genuinely believed Ballister was better suited to villainy than heroism, while Movie Ambrosius never wanted the glory that came with his lineage in the first place and only antagonised Ballister because of indoctrination he needed to unlearn (which he did, all by himself, after witnessing the lengths the Director will go to just to kill Nimona).

- It really shows how important it is to surround yourself with loved ones who are open to change. Comic Ambrosius can love Ballister all he wants, but he'll still blast his arm off because he thinks Ballister deserved it anyway. Movie Ambrosius will stop to question what "the right thing" even means, even if he didn't love Ballister enough to defend him unconditionally.

I have so many more thoughts bubbling beneath the surface, but I'll probably address them some other day. In conclusion:

[ID: A pink-haired Nimona grinning evilly while holding up a knife.]

Watch Nimona. This is not a request.

Edit: Added more thoughts!

#nimona #nimona meta #nimona comic #ballister blackheart #ballister boldheart #ambrosius goldenloin

[colorofchroma]

having a hyperfixation on CHROMA is so EMBARRASSING. like they are a small local group in DALLAS a city that is 15 hours away. i try to get my friends to listen to them and they do sometimes even and have added some of their songs to their personal playlist but i have NO ONE to actually talk about them with

#like the only person i have talked about them with and not at was my ex boyfriend (you know... the one who made me realize i was a lesbian) #i miss him in a weird way but only when we were friends like he was a really really good friend it was getting into the relationship that #ruined everything but i miss talking about CHROMA #with someone #like they released tote bags that came with photo cards and i started crying because like they are so cute and have photo cards like #come on!!! #i love them so much i really do #they have been my hyperfixation for the past three years and i just wow #i don't know #i'm glad that i have this like empty space here to just talk about them to a void but quisiera tener alguien que le gustaban tanto como yo #was literally on my knees begging them to send all of the photo cards to me but we will see #CHROMA #shut up sofia #coming back to this months later i miss my ex in a weird way but in a real way i think i want to be with him again i regret breaking up wit #he could fix all of my familial problems that are rooted in me being gay #like qué tal si era el amor de mi vida y terminé con el porque no era niña lo extraño mucho #quiero regresar con el

[augustinewrites]

does gojo ever freak out or worry ab reader when she’s alone on missions? obviously she can handle herself & knows what she’s doing, but he gives the vibes that he’d be internally panicking 😭

“hey, welcome back!” gojo grins, quickly shoving a half melted spatula to the bottom of the trash can. 

“hi,” you murmur, tipping the bill of your cap down as you close the door behind you. odd. he doesn’t think he’s seen you wear a hat before. 

“how was it?” he asks, flicking off the stove and closing in to welcome you properly with a kiss. well, he attempts to. you immediately take a step back, avoiding his embrace. he definitely doesn’t remember a time you’ve ever done that.

“i’m all sweaty,” you tell him, toeing your boots off and heading straight toward the bedroom. you say hello to the kids before shutting the door, the lock clicking into place. 

“are you mad at me?” he asks as soon as he warps into the room.

“satoru!” you startle, staggering back into the door. “get out!”

“nope,” he hums, closing in on you. “we sleep in the same room and you know that i don’t respect boundaries.” 

with that, he reaches over and pulls the baseball cap off your head. 

“satoru, please don’t freak out—”

he freaks out. 

he grabs your chin so you can’t turn away, inspecting the sutures lining your temple. “this is deep! are you okay? why were you hiding it from me?”

you swat his hand away, frowning. “i’m fine, and i wasn’t hiding it. i just didn’t want the kids to see. speaking of, did you guys eat dinner yet?”

“what grade curse was it?”

“special. i thought i smelled something burning—”

“you’re only grade one. why would they—”

“only grade one?” you repeat with a scoff. “don’t say it like that. you know the only reason i’m not special grade is because the zenin’s—”

“because the zenin’s are holding you back until you join them. they’re dicks, babe. that’s old news,” he finishes, tapping his foot impatiently. 

“listen,” you tell him, pinching the bridge of your nose. “i just didn’t get out of the way fast enough. it’s just a cut. i’ve had worse.” 

“well, next time they call you up for assignment, i’m coming with you,” he decides. “we’ll get a sitter for the kids and make it like a date night.”

“whoa,” you interrupt. “you’re inviting yourself on my assignments now? “do you think i’m not good enough?”

“well when you come home hurt, yeah!” 

he regrets it as soon as he says it. 

and he hates the way you’re looking at him. you’re hurt, and it shows. “wow. thanks for the vote of confidence.” 

“hey…”

he says your name, reaching for your hand, but you pull away, shaking your head.

_____

freshly showered and changed, you pull your robe on, exiting the bathroom. gojo’s sitting on the bed, waiting with his head in his hands.

“you know i think you’re more than capable,” he says quietly. “i wasn’t making a dig at your skill. you’re incredible.” 

“i know,” you hum, dumping your uniform into the basket. 

he looks up at you, apologetic. “but if anything happened to you, and you were really hurt…it would be my fault.”

“that’s not true,” you say quickly, sitting beside him. 

“it is,” he insists. “and i could never forgive myself, because i’m supposed to be the strongest.” 

(and what’s the point of being the strongest if he couldn’t protect the people he loved most?)

“satoru,” you murmur, smoothing a hand across his back. “you have such a big heart. i’m dating you because of your heart— well, mostly your abs but also your heart. ou already take on so much for everyone. and i need you to trust that i can’t take care of myself. i don’t want to be another burden to you.”

wordlessly, he takes your hand and presses it to his chest, so you can feel his heartbeat. 

“you are my whole heart. if i lost you and i could have stopped it, like i could’ve stopped—” he purses his lips, squeezing his eyes shut for a moment. “i just can’t lose you.” 

“and you won’t,” you promise, pressing a kiss to his cheek. “now let’s go have dinner.”

“ah. about that….”

_____

“alright, dinner’s served!”

you the kids exchange a look.

megumi leans close to you, whispering, “can we get sick from this?”

“go on,” satoru encourages, picking up his own sandwich. “it’s a spam sandwich! i used to eat these all the time before i met—”

“you’re really lucky you met her,” the twelve year old grumbles, peeling the bread back to look at the burnt piece of spam.

tsumiki, ever the people pleaser, takes a bite and chews very thoroughly before swallowing with great effort.

“um…the smoke added a nice hickory flavour to the spam.”

“okay, we’re getting pizza,” you decide, shooting your boyfriend an apologetic look.

#gojo x reader #gojo satoru x reader #jjk x reader #jjk drabbles #jjk angst #keeping up with the fushigojos #keeping up with the fushigojos: extended cut!