Okay but I'm still crying for SJ's life. Like
He was born and throw away. Taken by slavers and forced to beg on the streets for money. Sold to an abusive household where he was mistreated and beaten, where he had to hide his pain to the only person who treated him well.
He was left by the only person in his life with the promise of coming back, and he waited, waited until he couldn't bear with it anymore.
His hell didn't stop. A demonic, wretched cultivator took him as disciple. We don't know much about what he was made to do, but we know it wasn't nice.
One day, he mets his Qi-Ge: alive and well, as the promising disciple of a strong sect. How abandoned must he have felt.
Still, he murdered his master, and followed Yue Qinyuan to Cang Qiong.
We also don't know much about his time here but we know nobody liked him. Liu QingGe specially went out of his was to scorn him.
He hates the guy, but we know he didn't actually kill him. Nobody believed him wheb he said s(, though.
His cultivation was utterly ruined by the cultivation his demonic master had taught him but still he was able to form a golden core, archieve inmortality and rise to the position of Peak Lord.
He was seen as a lecherous, pedophile man, when in reality he was an abuse victim who seeked confort in the hug of a prostitute when he couldn't sleep. He loved Ning YingYing (how could he not, when he took her in when she wasn't that powerful, took Luo Binghe in just for her, never one punished her for her mistakes?).
And yes, he abused Binghe. I don't think we can except him from that. But Binghe's revenge was way, way worse.
And Shen Jiu never stopped being that slave child in an abusive household, he never felt truly calm in Qing Jing peak (how could he be with that overly sharp and cold attitute, keeping everyone at arm's lenght. That obssesive need to appear as an elegant, unfazable inmortal and not the street rat that used to beg for food. Hiw he hated tough abd truly despised everyone, only soft in presence of women bc only then he didn't feel fear).
At the end he probably died the way he had feared the most in his life. Taken down once again, strippwd of everything, the tortured kid once again, reliving his own personal hell.
Qi-Ge dead bc of scum like him. Cang Qiong burnt to ashes bc of him.
And in the canon story, the alternative version of his life, Shen Yuan appears. With none of his scars and none of his pain. And everyone loves him as if nothing had changed. Everyone ui happier. Not even Qi-Ge realizes that this is not his Xiao-Jiu. Like the only posibility of a happy ending, a happy world can only exist if there's no Shen Jiu in it.
Honestly Shen Jiu's life is so sad. He really, truly, utterly deserved better.
nothing's funnier than liu qingge trying to comfort shen qingqiu and he's like "i mean...yes...you've lost one disciple...but you'll have other disciples". peak jiang cheng activity. *tries his best* *says something awful but also hilarious*
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