#made me a little insane though

[yyamssoup]

blegh

#trigun #98 #vash the stampede #millions knives #my art #had so much trouble with them and i STILL think theres something glaringly wrong . does not matter month old i do not care anymore #hi guysssssssss #i miss the little hold trigun had on me last month #made me a little insane though

[shortcakelils]

Rosie Redesign !!

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel rosie #hazbin rosie #my art #I adore Rosie so much #but the use of her colour palette drives me insane #so I wanted to do her justice #it was really hard to come up with something I liked though #also I wanted to add more things that hinted to her being a cannibal #but I couldn’t think of anything #well other than the teeth earrings and skull necklace thing #little disappointed in this one #but at least it doesn’t butcher the use of the palette #I have no idea what that thing on her hat is either #so I just made it a feather hat and removed the back part

[jamtartandsunshine]

Did the best/most dorkiest thing ever and dragged my friend an hour and a half out of our way to go to Richmond and see Ted lasso locations!

It’s a 20+ hour flight to london from Australia guys I wasn’t gonna miss my chance

#ted lasso #jamie tartt #roy kent #afc richmond #Richmond #London #what a dork #i love it though #aussies in London #tourist things #personal #that’s me in the photo! #i made my friend walk behind me a take a photo of me walking down the lane way 😂 #i might be a little insane

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

no but it's the way the cat slow-blinks at the player in the final cutscene

#THATS what made me cry #i was holding it together until she slow-blinked at the screen and i just AAAAAAA FUCK FUCK FUCK #im insane over this game i am mentally unwell #everything about it #the soul of humanity persevering the hope the beauty in darkness #how one determined little cat can open the world i just - #stray 2022 #stray spoilers #im chewing on couch cushions like a rabid dog rn #fuckfuckfuckfuck #and how the last human never got to see the outside #BUT HUMANS ARE STILL GOING TO SEE THE OUTSIDE BECAUSE THE COMPANIONS CARRY THEIR MEMORY AND THEY WILL SEE IT #though i do think it's an absolutely heinous crime that we didn't see the cat reunite with her friends like what the fuck was that #even if it was just like #she slow blinks at us and starts to walk off #then we hear distant meows and her head and tail go up and she bounds away #WE COULDN'T HAVE HAD THAT??? CRUMBS??? #i need to know that she finds them again and she brings them to meet her companion friends #i just. i just. sobbing violently

[puppyeared]

save me old flipnote studio MVs.......

#im going thru old flipnotes i used to watch years ago and ouggghhg so many good ones #is twenty one pilots still popular.... do people still remember the TRNDSTTER and marble soda meme......... #its like im unlocking some sort of primal part of my brain and everything is coming back to me. one of my biggest inspirations as a kid #i still remember thinking the final transmission lyrics were the coolest thing and watching =TopHat= Bee and Melissa over and over #theres a very specific feeling of longing and nostalgia looking back and watching these again years later #especially when there isnt anything genshin or mcyt and instead its either fnaf undertale eddsworld or another obscure #interest... and not even fnaf sister location its like fnaf 3 and 2. its THAT old. and a lot of oc MVs especially pokemon ocs and furries.. #god but they were so creative u know. i still find it amazing ppl took this little lightbox animation on the fucking NINTENDO DS and #cranked it all the way to 11.. like if u look at the transitions and movement its so fucking fluid its insane..!! HOW DO YOU MAKE THE #CHARACTERS SPIN??? AND CHANGING CAMERA ANGLES??? and keep in mind youre doing this all with a shitty stylus #on a THREE BY TWO INCH SCREEN. you only get two layers you can go up to 29FPS and you only have 999 slides to work with #and 24FPS eats up a lot of that. absolutely insane it literally boggles my mind every time i think about it. AND SOME ARE EVEN FULL COLOR #i forgot how popular EDM was back then too...they were really good for timing beats though so you get a lot of MVs with #strobe last and marble soda. porter robinsons goodbye to a world was also popular with undertale and oc MVs. also a lot of vocaloid #someone made a flipnote abt the warner bros fnaf movie being announced EIGHT FUCKING YEARS AGO. it even used the stay calm audio from #the office.... i wonder how theyre doing now... i love you shitty grainy MV audio.. but i have mixed feelings abt the flashing colors #ppl LOVED animating the sans vs frisk fight. aishite and primadonna were also big ones they were SICK AS FUCK #lots of these inspired my old oc designs.. a lot of my characters had side bangs with one eye covered. animal ears and simple eyes too #now i kinda wanna try my hand at the marble soda meme cause i loved it as a kid lol.. i wonder if i should compare my old and new art here #UGHHHH IM SO NORMAL ABOUT NOSTALGIA. IM SO NORMAL ABT MY SCHOOL BOOK DRAWINGS WITH SHIBA BROWS #yapping #nostalgia

[itwoodbeprefect]

scene that is forever stuck in my head. how'd you go about separating yours from mine? it was easy. i used a crowbar. ghhgrrh

#i had FORGOTTEN about the music cue and it made me laugh so hard in the middle of being totally swept up in the drama. oh my god #also the more often i watch this movie the more it's like. they should not have cast jack lemmon for this that's silly #but also the more it's like. oh i'm glad they did cast jack lemmon for this because i like that it's silly. weird choice i love it #no complaints about glenn ford obviously. glenn ford is always a tough cowboy and always steals the show in everything i've seen him in #< thoughts that make me want to rewatch 3:10 to yuma #and 3:10 would make a good double feature with this one anyway! deeply queer cowboy movies from the 50s starring glenn ford #that are both a quick 90 minutes and have themes about Toughening Up or Being A Man. and that make me go a little insane #* #video #cowboy #cowboy 1958 #it IS still an awful terrible movie title in the time of search engines and social media though. that's true

[lonely--seeker]

I think I'm going insane. Lately my dreams have been so mundane, it wouldn't be weird if I wasn't just a person that has nightmares 80% of the time, so I now my dreams are so hard to distinguish from reality.

I wouldn't be able tell what was real from what not if it wasn't because last night I went to my doctor's appointment and I was handed new glasses by Harvey just to go back home and find out Laois was cooking something in my backyard.

#to be fair. in my dream i was back at my old house. so the horrors where there still #also i've been dreaming about my dog. but sometimes it's not him. it's other dog trying to replace him. but it's not him. i miss him dearly #but it's... weird. i never actually dream with characters either. something strange is going on #I've been telling my brother i wake up and i have to remember who i am #for the totally normal dreams. it's like my soul is divided and it's living somewhere else for the night #who is the person i am when i dream. because it's not me. it's a whole different live. whole different people around me. I'm going insane #there's such a strange feeling about it. it's familiar? it's comfortable? #which only makes it even more weird. why is a life so different to mine feel so comfortable... #to the point i wake up and i don't remember who i am for at least ten minutes #but then i forget what i had dreamt about. and then i go around my day randomly reminding things. then that's when i realize those memories #were actual dreams #i should write a fanfic about this lmao #it was a nice dream though. i remember vividly i was sitting in one of those chairs thingies that hang in the air? #and i was swinging happily. i think Laios was talking about where he got whatever the fuck he was cooking. i couldn't understand him really. #he wasn't speaking in spanish but it wasn't english either. i think it was a made up gibberish... I'm still baffled by how comfortable i was #i think there were friends around too. maybe a hangout was going on? everything was nice. it reminds me of the times #i would go eat at a friend's house. but things felt a lot nicer. it was like if time had stopped and nothing wrong could ever happen. #and even then. i was still there. which i think that's why i started to feel dizzy in my little swing. i ended up waking up from that. #i still get dizzy remembering it. #welp. I hope i don't lose myself tonight... #I don't actually know what's worse. the nightmares are common. they are familiar. there's comfort in knowing what to expect. #but “good” dreams like that... i end up thinking about them too much. the residual feeling is weirder #and i have to deal with the whole different layer that is.. there's was a fucking anime guy there. kill me. kill me. get him OUT of my brain #I'm not lying when I say I can physically feel Laios rearranging my brain in ways i will not share publicly #kill me.

[bipirate]

I love being in my fullmetal alchemist era.... again

#floor's fma era.... 2! #listen rewatching it w my friends who are watching for the first time has made me slightly insane #not as insane as ogi and me were back in 2018-2020 though. #anyway i cant stop thinking about my Boys. my little guys.

[plulp]

guys i'm so sorry i write so much i promise i'm trying to get better at it 😣 i just have so much to say all the time but i promise i'll try to tone it down since i don't want to clutter your dashes

#germaphone #i feel so bad i write 15 page essays every time i sit down to talk about something #it's insane #sorry my tags are just whole blocks of text too #i'm sorry if you ever open them and it's just an entire wall you have to scroll past #i have nothing interesting to say and sorting tags are always at the top #sorry 😰😰😰😰 #editing tags so i can talk MORE LMAO: #i also feel a little silly celebrating 50 followers (now it's way more than that 😰) #because i know it's not a lot but it makes me happy anyways #thanks for everyone who's followed me after #even though i really didn't plan for this to draw any more followers (since i had rbs turned off initially) #it really wasn't my intention to get more people 😰😰 #i'll be honest i just wanted everyone who's followed me so far to submit their pcs just so i could thank them personally #since i'm not able to a lot of the time!!!! :( because of my side bloggish nature #but i enjoy seeing more people too :) it makes me happy #OH ALSO the EVERY SQUAD GOT THE post having people see it is driving me CRAZY insane #it's so fucking funny to me genuinely i didn't expect anyone to see it at all since i didn't tag it #i literally just made it because i couldn't get smosh fan out of my mind #smosh fan is the highest tier i could ever give any character

[grantwilsonenjoyer]

jesse try to leave an ao3 comment that isn't 4 paragraphs challenge (failed)

#i feel so annoying when i do it #idek why #like i fucking LOVE getting long comments #but i also do feel a little awkward #which is devastating though bc i NEED these people to know the emotional damage theyve caused me #like ah yes hello #did you know this thing you wrote made me CRY #did u know youre actually responsible for my mental illness now .. yeah sorry to break it to u here's the therapy bill #did u know it made me have an insane amount of thoughts and read into things that u probably didn't intend for me to read into #why did we make it cringe to enjoy things. why am i not able to leave paragraphs-long comments in peace.

[yohankang]

besties i gotta be real one of you has to visit me or i'll go insane

#i can't keep having convos about weather and housework any longer #i'm going a little bit insane bc i feel so lonely here. like i do have friends in this city and my colleagues are v nice but. #coming home and talking to my aunt made me realize just how much i have to pretend every day #my coworkers know shit about me even though we get along well #my friends living here know me better and i feel comfortable around them but still. they are not my /best/ friends #and i feel like i haven't been myself since i moved #god. i feel stuck already and it's been only 2 months #maybe it'll pass.... #soon i'm going to meet a lot of people so there's a chance i will meet someone i naturally click with #i don't think i mentioned this but i'm joining a political party agjsfjsjd #so i'll be around people who care abt the same stuff as me and who are actually tolerant etc. #i just miss the times when i had a lot of close friends around me #k.txt

[undermostcorgi]

the media which consumes your entire soul at age 12 will forever be a part of you. this is an unavoidable consequence of living and you have to accept this fact. no matter how old you get, no matter how long it has been since you last saw its smug face peeking out from the bushes as it follows you, no matter if you think you have outrun it for good and that you're finally finally safe and you hardly even remember it exists anymore and your brain knows a few brief moments of true peace, it WILL catch up to you in your moment of weakness. and listen you don't want to hear this but sometimes this is necessary for your mental health. you will on instinct want to reject it and run away again but sometimes. sometimes you just need to watch that old show or listen to that silly song or read that weird book again as an adult and it will hurt you a little bit in various little ways but it will also heal you a little bit. you can call it nostalgia you can call it connecting with your inner child or whatever you want but just listen to me it WILL HAPPEN TO YOU TOO AT SOME POINT AND YOU HAVE TO BE PREPARED FOR THIS (i am forcibly dragged off the stage by security)

#heed my warning boy #it seems i am not well today #recently made the reluctant decision to revisit what was probably my VERY FIRST real hyperfixation #something that i don't necessarily want to mention by name right now because. well #its pretty objectively bad LOL like i dont think i know of ANYONE still posting about it or really proud of having liked it back in the day #i dont think it is as well known to the general public so it wont get me hunted down for sport even if i did name it probably hopefully #but for those who know its. probably not the best thing to be revisiting lmao (even though i think it might still be being made?? wtf) #but i felt i had to because i was about to start my period and was going crazy insane like you do you know how it is #and i randomly remembered a fanfic i loved and then remembered my fav character and how much i loved him #my actual first ever blorbo oh my GOD he was everything to me #so i reluctantly decided to rewatch “just the first few episodes” just to see how much i remembered and also to prove to myself it sucks #but surprise surprise: nostalgia and hormones are making me actually kind of enjoy it #and now i am suffering from fucking Catholic-like Guilt for not hating it which i think is pretty silly lmao #so im kind of posting this in an attempt to convince myself that its like. FINE and cringe is dead and all that #and that sometimes i gotta be nice to my little mentally ill brain and give it the junk food (bad media) it craves #ESPECIALLY when im on my period LMAO #anyway completely unrelated: why the FUCK do i still remember almost every single fucking word to the delicious tomato song SDHJFKSAJF #i hope no one actually reads this far in the tags bc i know that reveal will probably deal psychological damage to some of you LMAO SORRYYY #ok yeah posting this and then immediately going to bed so that the Haters cant reach me LOL SEE YA

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Okay okay so. Thinking.

I've mapped out how I want to pay off my credit cards, which means I'll only be getting new stuff pretty sporadically, which means I need to appreciate the zero cost things in my life, like:

- the 2.5 foot tall stack of unread books I have

- the violin I might finally actually pick up again

- the 500+ drawing prompts I've been hoarding

- the list of anime I still need to watch

- the 3000+ songs in my watch later playlist

- the stickers I've been neglecting to cut

- yarn??? I have a lot of yarn

- all the pink fabric leftover from moth cosplay

- the candles and incense I also already have

In short, time to actually use the stuff that I have 😭

#though. i do want one more candle. they're putting minty smells in the winter ones and it smells cold #i need a cold smelling candle that is warm and on fire i just need that very strange contrast #but yeah!! will spend a little testing out acrylic charms but for the most part #we're gonna hang out at home for a while and express gratitude or whatever lmao #okay but i think it will actually be nice to start getting through all those books skjfkdkd #and to watch the bigger name anime to actually see them lmao; saw a lot at the con i recognized but hadn't actually watched #and also my music!! all my music bc i am clinically insane about music; miku playlist advancement... #this isn't even touching on the games i have now ksjfkf if either of you are reading this 👀 i still wanna get yall something #and I'm planning the exact day i wanna do it 😤 #but yeah I'm thinking it over and am like. oh boy time for self improvement skjdkfkf #also finances will get easier bc im not ubering all over and I'm not seeing docs for my stomach now that the ulcer has been resolved #i made back half of what i spent getting the car in only 4 months and that feels good to see #it's still gonna be some hard work but we're gonna make it; I'm also highballing one of the cards #the hotel put a damages hold on my card and my math factors that in; they said that money would go back to me in 5 or so #business days so that'll be a little less to be concerned with; I'll still try to pay what numbers i found though #do it faster and do it better and idk what the fuck I'll do with the cards bc. 30% apr........... #idk i could get groceries with them and then pay them off? take that credit score you'll just eat that shit up won't you.. #surprisingly my credit score hasn't taken any super ugly hits from this and i aim to keep it that way lmao #anyways. that's a lot of words to say that i want to actually use my stuff lmao #shai speaks

[defiant-firefly]

Okay so I’ve been back from Pride for a few hours now and. I’m calling it now, my voice is not gonna work tomorrow lmao I was talking to so many people for so long it was great

Like, the show was great, the acts were a bit hit and miss but honestly I feel kinda bad for some of them given how awful the wind has been but you know, they did great all things considered. It really was fuckin’ wimdy like maaaan. Loads of such nice people to talk to, and the companies that sponsored it literally did not pull punches like I know we talk about companies being performative or whatever but like. They did not half ass this holy shit?? They even made the fuckin’ lawnmowers gay whadda hell?? Oh and some of these people had the best rainbow hats like they had felt rainbow cowboy hats and fedoras, and then dresses of mixed flags, and flag capes and shit it was so fuckin’ cool.

And you know what? Everything was so fuckin’ cheap???? In a world where everything is so stupid expensive I got ten sugar donuts for £3 which is honestly ridiculous. Burgers and shit were the same and they were huge??? I only had the donuts there were too many there for me so I went around some of the cool stall holders I’d spoke to and got them to take a few from me they were so good. Speaking of stall holders, my old PE teacher from school was one???? For one of the charities there???? She was a fun teacher but I swear it was like Perry the fucking Platypus. She took her sunglasses off and suddenly I knew exactly who she was as if we hadn’t been talking for a few minutes already and then she immediately clocked onto who I was and it was just crazy that is the last place I expected to see her and the last person I expected to see at Pride of all things. She gave me free flowers because I kept losing on the tombola lmao

But yeah for reals everything was so cheap and often straight up free like I feel like I robbed some of these people what. And you know what? Two of the stalls sold phone charms despite modern phones not having a thing for those anymore. Not a problem for me though, I use an MP3 Player still and let me tell you... the audible gasp I got when I pulled it out of my pocket like ‘oh will it work on this?’. Guys people love the MP3 player apparently. Old tech for the win.

I’d say babys first Pride Event was a success that was great. Happy Pride Season and happy first day of Disability Pride month!

#there was so much shit #talking for days and the fuckin' WIMD #there was a hedgehog charity there selling knitted hedgehogs and they were so cute I now have a new little guy to love #it's insane how affordable everything was though like. I don't think I'll be over that for a LONG time #pride goers know the priders got no money I guess #anyway had a laugh had a wonder got a shit ton of freebies saw a gay lawnmower #the fire engine had the 'fire doesnt discriminate and neither do we' thing written on it with a cool as fuck image #it was spread across the entire engine it was GREAT #it was a fireman putting out fires with water that was made up of different flags #was so good #the whole thing was good #a small set up but that's all they needed really it was fun #my voice is definitely gonna be gone by tomorrow thoug #it is NOT surviving that long lmao #i do be tired now though that was six hours straight of wandering and talking #when I haven't gone further than up and down the stairs and talked for more than like ten minutes out loud a day maybe for ages #i dont get out much but hey my PE teacher invited me to come do some volunteering with her so maybe that's gonna change who knows #we shall see

[charmcoin]

starting to slowly but surely undo some of the damage that rotting in my room for the past few days has done to me. woke up a little later than i would have liked but i stayed up late last night so it's okay. made a delicious breakfast (eggs + toast + yogurt, protein carbs fat!) before spur of the moment deciding to clean my bathroom. washed my face and am now about to do the homework i neglected to do yesterday!

i need to do laundry as well but apparently all of my roommates have decided to do laundry at the same time so that will probably have to wait until the evening. sad!

#pers #a little silly though because i made coffee when i had breakfast but forgot about it while i was cleaning and now it's kind of cold #it's okay though. still yummy #also drinking more water because i am so dehydrated. i think that's also part of why coffee has been making me more insane than usual latel

[mer-se]

Solstice and falling stars

#solstice #mount auburn #prettiest place #add lights and visible shooting stars and it’s the most perfect place #caught a few unknowingly that made me smile #the sky was so clear I’ve never seen that many stars in cambridge especially with so many lights #some parts weren’t lit up and had little lanterns to walk with #the light show on bigelow chapel was insane #everyone was so quiet was actually beautiful beyond words #I imagine that’s what it feels like to see the castle at disney at night but better sry #love that chapel and cemetery so much #I’ll never forget how it felt seeing it the first time #anyways lol #gotta see her in the snow too #I have a long video of the lightshow maybe I’ll post it here too #was so meaningful and special though #the whole night actually #even sitting in my car for hours eating tb and freezing out my sunroof #saw some deer and possible skinwalkers too #always eventful #and definitely needed #mine #eclipse