#maybe im sad??? i cant really tell

[wildstar25]

G'raha looked so serious while he pleaded his case to venture into the World of Darkness with the Warrior of Light. The sudden conviction in his tone had Arsay at a loss for words. Still, she did not hesitate to meet his request with an accepting nod. He was an important friend and in the passing moons that they'd come to know each other, a strong fondness for him had taken hold of her. The prospect of helping G'raha find the truth behind his mysterious inheritance made Arsay's heart pound. It was the perfect venture for them to embark on. The first of many, she hoped. The two turned towards the impossibly tall spire that dared to pierce the heavens above. Arsay's resolve strengthened in its presence. When they next find themselves gazing at the tower -with their quest completed and the world no longer under threat of total destruction- she'll properly ask G'raha to be a companion in her travels. A grin crept its way onto her face as her gaze shifted to him. If Arsay could find it within herself to bare her heart to others so readily just as he does… perhaps their future adventures will find them together, hand in hand.

#ffxiv #wolgraha #WOL posting #G'raha tia #Arsay Nun #graharsay #idk just a random passage in my head that I needed to get out #im not a writer and im not pretending to be one but it was in my brain so sorry if its not as readable as I think it is #anyways imagine you are the loneliest catgirl in the world #and you meet a guy who is so swagless and cringe but in a charming way and he connects with you on a fundamental level #and you become really good friends and every time you show up he smiles in a way that makes your heart do somersaults #and you start thinking that maybe people actually like having you around not just when they need you to kill and destroy things #you let yourself open up a little and you're met with kindness and you realize you are very in love actually #but because you're still figuring out how to talk about your feelings you wait a little too long #and that guy seals himself up in a tower and tells you he'll think about your heroism in the future #and you are very sad and angry about this but thats not allowed so instead you put that energy to being the hero of all time #and every day you go to work you see the structure that reminds you of him and you cant let go of those what if feelings n ur cursed 5ever #would that be fucked up or what

[moeblob]

Deacon loves two things: Ymber and digging himself a grave.

Fulj hates one thing: Deacon.

#my characters #waiting on some info on the next commission so i indulged in ocs today bc i doubt i will have as much time for lil comics for a bit #deacon is so devoted hes like yeah i would kill for a deity that could easily kill anything himself but yknow teehee #and fulj just did you tell him you needed therapy also does he even know youd murder in his name #deacon caught red handed haha no of course i havent told him it should be obvious enough haha.... and its in his defense not his name :c #man really does have some issues but i love him so much and hes so devoted but like. unhealthily after a while #he does in fact need a chill pill and therapy but to be fair #ymber has needed therapy for centuries and yet he just bottles it all up and suffers so #its pretty unhealthy until they yell at each other one (1) time bc they are so insecure about things and get mad over very valid reasons #but then theyre like you know what that was necessary and i still want to stay by your side if you let me #and then fulj is like dude hey sorry you seem really happy did you fu- and ymber is like no please stop there we have not #fulj just squinting cause have not is very different than will not but whatever she doesnt wanna think about that with deacon involved ew #and eventually fulj is like hey ymber im sorry to say but i really do hate deacon and i dont even know why but he makes me uncomfortable #while deacon is just. in the room. hearing this and thinking how he knows she thinks hes weird but wow that wording hurts #and ymber doesnt wanna fill in memories better forgotten by fulj which she had forcefully removed #so he just says oh well his hair and clothing are black and you had someone in the past that you might see in him and its not a pleasant en #so you know maybe its that idk #and fulj is then WHATST i was rude to him for someone i cant even remember? lame im gonna try SO HARD to be nice to him now #and deacon just still sitting there with some food like this is v awkward and i wish i could not be here for it #and later he asks ymber about who he resembled and as ymber is descibing her it clicks in deacons head and he gets really sad #that he might somehow remind fulj of the woman she loved before she was punished for loving a mortal #and he feels kinda bad pestering her so much with his curiosities about deities and he kinda gets it #the fact hes close to ymber might remind her at the core that she was once that close with a mortal if not closer #anyway story time in the tags again #im so obsessed with these peeps and i have made them suffer so much but they do all end on a happy note #its still funny and nice to me that while fulj is creeped out by deacon and doesnt like talking to him #he still expresses the most emotions to her - he tries hard to remain serious around ymber and collected and obedient at all times #and when out and about with ymber he has to be intimidating and refuses smiling but fulj?? all sunshine and smiles and emotions easy to rea #and she is just that is so weird go away i hate you

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

#ramblez #little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao #this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it #hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD #hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you #batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions #it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting #But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent #dw Im not going anywhere <3 #also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently #old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD #also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns #he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs #and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get #and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they #dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves #to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent #mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did #so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!

[mspainttaz]

official rip to my drawing tablet, goodbye my old friend you never really worked in the first place but illl miss u anyway lol

#i mean its almost a decade old and the port has been loose/partially unresponsive for half of that so i knew this day would come #i didnt have the drive to draw anyway but now i REALLY cant tell myself im gonna post stuff jlksdjflka #maybe if i go back and clip old wips idk #sad day but what can you do! ill try to look on reddit for hacks but its probably past that #m #edit yeah the repairs arent worth the cost since they would be the same/more than the price of a new one which i already cannae afford oop

[pacifymebby]

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#went to a houseparty this evening and one of my pals started talking about being pro palestine but in a genocide the jews way #and its just made me really sad because what happened to just valuing human lives #what happened to being pro not genociding people at all #why have i got to listen to friends say they think my bfs family should be killed just bc they fall on the wrong side of the tiktok argumwnt #like im not pro killing anyone on either side i think its a really complicated issue #just sucks to have friends look you in the eye and tell you ur family should be murdered when at the end of the day #everyone that isnt the israeli government specifically is just a person looking for a home in a world that doesnt believe they deserve one #and thats true of Israelis and Palestinians respectively bc theres people on both sides of that argument #since when did saying i dont think murdering the jews is the answer become wrong? why cant i be anti israels government #and anti palestinian genocide #and anti jewish genocide #maybe im just a fucking hippie but i just dont believe in any genocide sorry???

[baeshijima]

its 2:40 am, im sobbing and very much not okay and its all bc of them

throws up high-cloud quintet the beloved tragedy that u are ;w;

#may the stars guide you <3 #i have just. done lynx & march & jinglius quests back-to-back-to-back and pls tell me why they were all sad #LIKE LYNX AND PELA ESPECIALLY IN LYNXS COMPANION MISSION #AND THEN MARCH KIND OF LORE WAS ALSO BITTERSWEET #AND THE FUCKING HIGH-CLOUD QUINTET MADE ME SOB SO MUCH #CRYING EVERYTHING WITH BAIHENG MADE ME SO SICK I CANT DO THIS #ohhh the cutscene of jingliu and blade fight.... that was when the waterworks really flowed... esp with the direction of the cn voices.... #when will jing yuan catch a break gdi... let my pookie rest..... he needs to eep........ #throwing up i cant do this but at least im not tired and can pull the all-nighter to reset my body clock ;w; #maybe ill make cup noodles and question life

[altruistic-meme]

genuinely so upset about not being able to scream to my mom about my cardigan :')

#genuinely. not happy. #it sucks guys!!!! it sucks sooo much you don't get it!!!!!!!! #this is the first time I've ever been making something and not been able to go to my mom about it and thats so #its just #im sad #especially bc like. i could be asking her help. for an idea. for a stitch. when i mess up. and i cant. #man. #and i can't share my joy either!!!! #I'm almost done!!!!! and i can't send her photos!!!!!! i won't be able to send her finished photos either!!!!!!!!! #I'm gonna cry about this while i work on the border some more i just wanted to yell for a moment <3 #but bc its trans colored and she KNOWS the tran flag and im not out to her and she'll understand what it means and im!!!!!!! #maybe i do it anyway and thats how i come out LMAO im kidding thats terrifying. its all terrifying tho so yolo amirite #tell her im making it for my friend abram :'))) #which very possibly ALSO would be seen right thriving bc i HAVE talked to get about aftg fjsjfjsjjsjf #but that situation gives huge 'elephant in the room' by confetti vibes #anyway #back to crocheting i just got really hit with the sad #shh ac

[stupid-dyke]

stayed up til 3 when I have an 8am again. I do this because I hate myself so sos sososososososososo much. It's really funny because I don;t fall asleep in class thanks to my meds but I've noticed every time I go to class after 4 hrs sleep people act weird around me which is how I know im acting really weird. And I am so extremely angry at myself. I spent 4 hours. well 8 hours. Well all day. Pretending I'm going to do homework and distracting myself with various other things on my laptop or crying on the phone to my parents. Got zerooooo work done at all i stayed up most of the nihght for literally no gain whatsoever this is pure self harm. Which I do becauase again I hate myself. Because I didn't do my work. Which i won't do tomorrow either because i'll be so tired I wont be able to string a sentence together even though I'm supposed to give a presentation haha. My favorite activity is staring at the clock on my laptop getting later and later and later. new high score etc. Who's a hypersomniac now. Imagine how much easier this semester would have been if I'd gone to bed before 2am ever. I'm so fucking angry at myself I'm not sure I'll be able to sleep now even. If I fail my classes again my parents are gonna make me live at home forever and say im too crazy to live on my own. I know I was supposed to get a therapist but I hate them all so, so, so much. I think people get that job bc they feel powerful telling some pathetic person what to do knowing I literally cannot do it and will come back week after week admittingn failure and paying

I know I was supposed to take the new experimental FDA approved drug for IH but the list of side effects is fucking terrifying and I live and sleep alone so i really don't want to take a super powerful sedative that can make you stop breathing. So I'm gonna keep taking stimualnts and lying to myself that today is the last day I stay up extremely late for no reason.

#it's really sad I'll skip the meds sometimes to try to sleep and it doesn't even help. I just feel worse while awake. #The real reason i can't sleep is because im screwing myself over by doing no work and im terrified im going to fail my fucking classes #and theyre all going to say im crazy if I fail my classes. theyre going to say im crazy and I self sabotaged on purpose #bc i dont want to succeed. Dad says that every day #Dad loves telling me everytjhing wrong with me multiple times a day every day so i never ever forget #hes so helpful. He's trying so hard to help. If i dont answer the phone he starts worrying ive committed suicide #again i was suicidal one week in 2019. Get the fuck over it. You've literally threatened to kill yourself multiple times. Fucking hypocrite #a bunch of my friends are going to graduate this semester and best case scenario i graudate next semester and then I'll lose touch with eve #ybody #and then the good times are over and life is boring and hell forever and ill get more disabled every year until I can't work and then I'll #run out of money and die #you know when I talked to my genetics professor about the alzheimer's results he said somethign will kill you eventually and it #wont be that unless you live to old age which will be good! #so true bestie. so ture #Guys lets be real here. Why the fuck. Do we live. why. It is so goddamn hard. Maybe it;s easy when u get sleep . But that hasn't happened t #me for a while #all my classes end next week and i havent done most assignments since spring break #also over spring break my parents met w a lawyer to revise their will adn afterwards dad told me im executor and explained to me what will #happen after each person in my family dies. #the assumption is that I will outlive everyone. they don't think my sister will live to old age adn they are already old #the lawyer apparently has clients with the same disability as me and all of them had the same thing happen. Once they get another disabilit #and get older it becomes impossible to manage IH and they cant work til retirement age #i just spent an hour typing this shit instead of sleeping. 4am-730am sleep lets go. I should kill myself #i hate my parents fucking advicce bc they;; be like well when i was ur age I was married it sure must suck to be single!!!! fuck you guys f

[bangcakes]

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#im sorry but if he really was waiting for me yesterday im gonna have a whole meltdown like oh my GOD?????? #like THATS??????????????? #n like... ugh that fuckin asshole that said something to him OHHHHHHH !!!!! UGH. #like....... god. ...... .. theres no other explanation. like usually he leaves right away ok. well until he started waiting for me NDNNDMDM #but to do that after an exam... when he like.... just wants to get out of there n study for the next one.... #o bro i cant handle this. thats so sweet wtf..... like....... HHHHHHHHHHH GOD. #this Has to be going somewhere like i cant be imagining this. i cant be #n not only would he have wanted to get outta there bc of having to study.... he also literally doesnt like talking to anyone except me n #one of my other friends JDNDMDMDMMDMDMSM #and like he would have been waiting awhile bc like over 20 mins went by between him leaving n my other friend leaving... and then after tha #god im so sad...... i wish that JERK hadnt said anything to him. i bet he would have stayed 😭😭😭😭😭 #hhhhhhhhhhh........ #n e way NDNNDNDNDMDMMD. im gonna see this until the end.... like lmao theres Something here i can tell...... #and like okay even if we just end up friends... like ok maybe i'll be crushed but JDJJDJDJDJDJFJ hes so cute. i wanna keep him forever..... #n like god. hes even cute in a grumpy way which... god thats my weakness forever im just 🥺🥺🥺 #its just !!!! hes so honest !!! like always says what hes feeling n then once he says it hes over it. like idk hes perfect to me JZJJZJZJZJ #GOD. im so obsessed. help #and like GOD. i really keep coming back to this post and adding more im JUST..... #his eyes are so kind. like i cant even explain this. i just ... god hes so cute..... #personal

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#tfw ur life has been so busy that u forgot that with a new school u have a new email to keep track of #and u forgot to hook it up to ur outlook so now u open it up and see emails from abt a month ago #telling u to do TA orientation stuff. uuuuuh oops #so i guess i have some bullshit to figure out tomorrow. also i should finalize my class sign up staff #stuff* bc when i was doing yhat my brain was on fire. also i should email my new boss. oh god. why didnt i check that email???? #i dont even kno if im supposed to b a TA this semester??? i should just email the guy but also i dont wanna roll up like yo #im already damaged goods bc ive suffered a whole year in a state of burnout. also i fucked up my sign up process by not paying attention #but uh hi hello nice to meed u again for the 2nd time in my life. this is definitely not a bad omen for things to come #ugh. why have i done this to myself? i cant even call to try to fix anything until Monday. fuck. #but i mean. i cant b thr only one who's ever done this. so maybe itll b fine? hopefully? #but i wouldn't have this problem if id just fucking looked at my fucking email in the 1st place #i can already feel it. this is where the overlap starts. the overlap between my old lab and my new lab #will it tear me into pieces? perhaps. i have to shift into go mode. i cant b a sad sack anymore #ugh. im usually really good at being on top of stuff like this bc im such an anxious freak but here we r... #unrelated

[puppyeared]

child of divorce moment

#just finished the shadow play episode. you alrready know where im going with this #i like how macaque was like yeah i was gonna torment you emotionally but youre already doing that lmao #its like when i was on call with my brother and cousin and our cousin was like 'im gonna steal your diamonds >:)' #andthen theres a pause and hes like 'wait wheres youre diamonds' 'dude we dont have any' and he was like 'damn thats sad. do you want some #DUDE LITERALLY BREAKSINTO OUR HOUSE FOR DIAMONDS AND HES LIKE DAMN BITCH YOU LIVE LIKE THIS? HERE #i really like how this ep makes it clear that macaque doesnt actually have a beef with MK and its really a beef by extension bc hes with #wukong lol. literally tells him hes a good kid and doesnt pretend to have a beef with him just because #doesnt stop him from using mk like he did in the first ep he appeared in which i cant remember the name of. but its there #maybe im reading into this too much but idk. does this say something about his morals like how he didnt go further with tormenting mk when #mk basically spilled everything to him? like he absolutely could have done it so?? this fucking show man #ALSO he might be right about mk just having a terrible teacher because he knows firsthand as a former friend of swk. so there are some part #that mk might not know of based on stories or what swk has shown to him. especially since hes supposed to be someone mk looks up to #this feels very obvious now that i said all that and something the show is probably trying to show me anyway i know #yapping #lmk

[lesbiangiratina]

… there are 2 testament centric chapters id love to scan even just for my own enjoyment but the thought of taking these books apart makes me sad. Maybe if i just. Squish it down hard enough itll look okay. I just want to have new testament images

#as far as i can tell theyre both really sweet ;-; #1 is genuinely just. testament epic depression. dizzy is trying to get them to take better care of themself (they arent eating?) #+ stop isolating themself but they dont think they deserve it. saying its punishment for their sins #and well eventually johnny is like actually i think making dizzy sad is a worse sin than killing people #and testament is like. oh god oh fuck. youre right. #so they say theyll come and visit more :) #the other is more lighthearted KIND OF #testament keeps popping up in weird placs on the ship to watch over dizzy #and johnny is like. hey you can leave she doesnt need you anymore its okay #and they fuck off. and johnny is like hm maybe i shouldnt have said that i feel kinda bad. i cant stop thinking about them #and then no exaggeration hes like oh jeez its been a while since testament showed up. what if they killed themself. DONT SAY THAT? #but its okay cuz then testament shows up and they have a puppy dog. theyve taken up rescuing animals (i think) . theyre happy about it #and the last panel is them surrounded by animals. i think they filled the ship with animals. #acknowledgement that they like animals… kliff says that about them in missing link. its not in the english version tho. #or maybe he says they like nature? i dont remember exactly. but close enough animals are in nature. its okay #I DIDNT MEAN TO TYPE THAT MUCH SORRY. to the small percentage of my followers who care about testament enough to read this. hope u enjoyed #MORE STUFF HAPPENS in these chapters im summarizing. poorly. also my understanding is based on google translate lol but i get the gist #the kat goes meow

[thursdayg1rl]

hate this DAMN household i will never excape

#on god i will kms if tomorrow goes bad bc i dontcare anymore actually #like idk i think maybe im a person who just isnt cut out for living sorry i just cant do it #everything makes me tired everything hurts i hate everyone everyone hates me lets just cut our losses. #will i really kms over the worst person in the world calling me 'very selfish and intentionally numb and cruel human being'. to be seen #of course i am intentionally fucking numb bc feeling anything here is a death sentence.. #yeah genuine posibility. like i know 'life gets better' or whatever but i dont think for me actually 👍🏼 #i think i will go from being sad and alone here to sad and alone somewhere else and i cannot actually live like this #ok need to stop crying so i can tell her im not going to school tomorrow

[lilacponds]

the wanting your friends to not worry about you while you clutch your chest and cry at random intervals while knowing you've been through this before and you will again and it's always been and always will be worth it while being unable to eat or sleep much while reassuring your friends youre fine while

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i want to be able to be in pain and grieve and be sad. but i dont want my friends to be sad for me. i dont want to be asked how im doing

im in pain but i mean it when i say it will pass and i know it, not in the 'im keeping hope and positivity' kind of way but in the 'its an unescapable cycle of my life that im happy to go through'

of course im not happy about what happened, or that im in pain, but i would do it again in a heartbeat if i could go back in time. love is worth it

its like...

this is a personal type of pain. i hold it precious in my palms. its not for sharing, its my treasure and mine alone.

this is not just about pain. its about the happiness it follows. its about the love overflowing. its about the wonder hidden in the corners. its about realization and sacrifice and all the little things that no one can really get because they havent lived through my specific experiences.

its precious, to me. to keep near my now-aching-soon-nostalgic heart. to hang on the walls inside of it.

spending time with loved ones helps soothe, of course. i'm not shying away from that. but my stinging and my healing are mine to cherish.

#im in pain because i care and i love and why would i want to bury that? #heartbreak is so personal to me. i cant talk about it too much with the people i love because its something for me only. #not in a 'bottle it up and pretend its not there' kind of way! in a 'its special and its mine' kind of way. #idk im tired and a little sleep deprived #point is #maybe im not really okay. and thats okay. #i dont want my loved ones to be sad about it. #how do you tell someone 'im not fine and im okay with that' without them pitying you or feeling bad for you after all? #so i just say oh you know. im doing! im chugging along! im girlbossing! or i focus on other things like. im tired or im hungry yknow. #anyways if you read this and worried about me nd youre still reading these tags... dont worry about me. #im not saying this in a dismissive way. im begging you. dont worry about me. shrug it off as me living another experience of life #and ill stop crying when i stop crying. and thats okay. #anyways i ramble #i cant describe the relationship i have with heartbreak. its an old friend and i cherish it. ups and downs #Charlie chatters

[wickershells]

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#i just dont really know what to do. my friends never express concern for me and they never tell me they love me without overt irony or some #watering down of the sentence. they never reach out when i need them and everything they say is so detached and distant and cold #and maybe im just in my head again maybe its getting to the time of year when my life routinely falls apart moreso than all the other month #but i feel so abandoned all the time. and stupid. and unloveable. my friend once told me that her love for me would erode #whenever i vanished for mental health reasons so i stopped vanishing and started instead pushing through the illness and opening up more to #her but it was too much for her to handle and all my baggage almost ended our friendship so here i am vanishing again except this time with #the debilitating knowledge that every day she loves me less and less and less. if i am not there she stops loving me and if i am she stops #loving me. what do i do. my illness takes everything from me every damn thing. she wont call me but she bought a ticket to see me in januar #and i cant reconcile it. shes visiting her girlfriend and its the same price to come over here too so i guess why not. its not really #for me. we dont have plans to do anything for my birthday and i doubt she will offer and i dont want to be the one to do so like last year #i want someone to love me without me asking them to. i want to be able to trust people without having it broken. i want to feel like an #equal and not so inferior all the time. i'm not her best friend anymore. she doesnt tell me personal things she doesnt share everything #she used to with me. i try and try to start doing the things we used to but she doesnt do them. i shared my location again but she didnt #share hers. so i stopped again and she didnt even ask me why. she has not asked if im okay in weeks. if i vanished forever i dont think #she would even notice. i cant see her mourning the loss of me. i dont think i matter that much to her. and it is so painful #with both of my best friends i watch them gladly do things with other people and never do things with me unless i beg. i am constantly #excluded from their lives i am the outsider friend. and it is so damn lonely. and every time i'm presented w the opportunity to make new #friends i'm paralysed w fear because how many times have i lost people. i'm either too little or too much or both at once. constantly absen #or constantly sad and it's poisonous i feel poisonous. i'm not fit for community despite how desperate i am for it i just feel perpetually #undeserving. and so stupid and unsuccessful in comparison to them. i'm too much effort to be around and i get why i really do #even this it's just so much heaviness all the time i am such a burden. they just don't love me as much anymore. love lost #added to my family baggage and my dead childhood dog and the nothingness of my future i just can't see myself continuing i don't know what #to do. my parents don't support me my friends are never there the nhs is a joke i am actually genuinely alone lol #what if i can't recover. some people are destined not to. what if that's me. what if i am never happy. i'm never going to accomplish #anything i'm stuck here. stagnant and unmoving. the most disposable and useless person alive #sorry. will delete later as usual. but for reasons stated above i have nowhere else to put these thoughts #and i am drowning in them #vent

[fawnarchive]

fawn neg. a little bit

me when. i spend ages trying to revamp an oc and the only reaction i get is eh and that the og version was better

#IMMM BEING DRAMATIC ITS NOT THAT SERIOUS. but im a little butthurt #i jusy feel #a little. itty bity bit sad abt it #BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS. just needed to get it out there we’re good #i asked anyhow #you cant really be upset when u go #hey tell me how u feel abt ___ #I just gotta try harder i think.. #but its a tad bit difficult to #because i dunno. it feels like maybe people are not very interested #BUT THAT ALSO MEANS I GOTTA TRY HARDER. SO #sidhah. ill cook. im gonna. trust m #e!!!!