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stillwithkoo · 4 years

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This is how it ends | 1

a jk drabble series

Summary— Jungkook's thinking of ending things, and you're thinking of ending it with him too.

Inspired by bts universe story JK, bec i rly felt for him when he was drawing the car that would hit him 😭

Tags: angst, fluff, dun worry im a fluffer for happy endings so dun lose hope 😉

TW: talks of suicide, smut etc. Might be triggering to depressed/suicidal ppl like me 🤡 but yk, don't do it hoe it's not worth it i promise. Let's not do it, let's not give up. Even tho life sucks, maybe it won't always- let's stay alive just inc it gets better. And hopefully it will get better someday.

The following story contains scenes that some readers might find disturbing and/or inappropriate, including depictions and conversations related to self-harm, suicidal thoughts and actions. If you or anyone you know are suffering from depression and suicidal thoughts, there are resources available to you such as the National Mental Health Crisis Hotline 09178998727 / 989-8727) and Hopeline Philippines (0917-558-4673/ 09188734673 / 02-88044673/2919) Your suffering is not permanent and you can get help.

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Jungkook's pov

It didn't look like it, but Jungkook was bored and tired, so very tired with everything. Though he greeted his classmates enthusiastically, like everything was okay, like he was okay. He's always been a professional actor, he'd often wonder why he hasn't won a grammy yet. He'd been pretending forever now that everything was fine, that he was happy- when in actuality he wasn't. He was far from happy.

He'd been thinking about ending things for quite a while now, he was still in college but it was whatever. It's not like anyone would care if he ended things, if he ended it? His hyungs… His brothers were his only friends, but were they still his friends? Would they care if he was gone? They don't even talk anymore. He had no one anymore.

He decided to take out his frustrations by sketching on his notepad, or more like drawing and planning his imminent death. He was leaning by the windows of the classroom, it was break time and there were only a few students inside the room- most students went out to eat anyway. He was highlighting his drawing of a car running him over and leaving him dying.

After that he was bored again. He decided he'll just have to finish the drawing anyway, since he had nothing to do. He didn't even notice you popping up by his side, suddenly intruding and invading his privacy.

"You want to get run over by a car? That's a messy way to die. Might hurt a lot too." you started. He was taken aback by what you said. "Excuse me but who the hell are you? And why are you judging me?" was the only thing he could think of to say.

Actually mayhaps he did kind of know you, you shared a few classes but you were kind of noticeable, in a way at least. You were shy and silent like him, you were kinda weird too but there was something about you that was kinda cool too. Anyway, he just wanted to taunt you that's why he pretended to not know who you are.

"It doesn't matter who I am you know. What matters is that your chosen way of death is quite disturbing- well wanting to die is already disturbing, but you get what I mean. Can I suggest something?" You inquired. "I don't really care about what you'll say, but sure what do you suggest?" Jungkook answered.

"Wouldn't you like to die another way? Less painfully? A little peacefully even? I could help you, ya know?" you suggested.

"I don't need your help or anyone else's. I can do it myself, so no thanks." he bit. "I meant that I could help you think of a less painful way to die. There's so many ways to die ya know? And I kinda wanted to suggest maybe doing it together?" you awkwardly said, seemingly shy.

"Wait, you want to die at the same time as me? Like do it together?" he stated the obvious. "Duh." was your only reply.

"Why? Do you like me or something?" the audacity of this boytoy. "Ew no. Maybe I just don't wanna feel alone…" you confessed.

"Oh." he was kind of embarrassed for implying you had feelings for him.

"We could just drink cyanide you know? Or suffocate ourselves, or… Wait- I wrote it in my notebook." you said, looking for the said notebook in your bag.

Jungkook never thought there was something really wrong about you, he thought you were just weird. It turned out he was wrong.

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Thanks for reading! Pls reblog & comment if u liked this drabble n if u want more! 🥺 My praise kink would be satisfiedd~ also im opening commissions again so if y'all wanna 👀 just message me here!

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