#mutuals feel free to ask for my discord over a tumblr ask in case any of yall wanna talk while im Offline and Touching Grass For Once

[halorocks1214]

me deleting the tumblr bookmark on my computer and the app on my homescreen the night before bcuz i wanted to force myself into a break since i wasn’t feel great about Other Things getting back online One Time to check my notifs before i go to bed

#so. ive been pretty detatched from m/c/y/t as a whole recently. not to the point that ill abandon fics #but enough that i only engage with content directly on my dash (no going into the tags is what im saying) #for now im just gonna chill. maybe write those other fandom fics i mentioned on my writing blog since the hobbies taking up most of my time #have been wrung a little dry lol #mostly im just gonna wait and see how this plays out. i plan to start writing for m/c/y/t again eventually of course #as for d/s/m/p related stuff that could be Officially Done Finally. #any completed fic will stay up. the WIPS will at the very least be orphaned (if not outright deleted) #this is worse case scenario Everything Plays Out Badly tho (i guess if you can say it hasnt already) #i think im gonna fully uninstall/logout. i didnt want to logout bcuz resigning in is annoying but that looks like what its gonna take F #mutuals feel free to ask for my discord over a tumblr ask in case any of yall wanna talk while im Offline and Touching Grass For Once #regardless of mutual status if you wanna send in an ask i might pop in to answer it and then pop back out #mainly because i rarely get asks anyway LMAO i highly doubt ill get any now #i say use an ask bcuz i get emails for those. comments and/or dms dont reach me outside of tumblr #i think what will bring me back the soonest is if i actually sit down and watch cour 2 of season two for t/&/b YES I HAVENT WATCHED IT YET #cringefail moment i know #otherwise thats basically where ive been. i have a bunch of funny videos saved in my likes that ill queue for yall #as well as some fandom posts in my drafts ill sprinkle in there #drink water stay safe etc etc #i will see yall on the flipside <3 #oh also b4 i forget VOTE SNIFFER

[novafire-is-thinking]

How to say goodbye ‘see you around’ and mean it…

The time has come.

First thing’s first: this isn’t goodbye—just a heads up.

Due to changes I’m making in my personal life, I’m stepping back from the Transformers fandom for a partial hiatus. My ambition makes me restless, and it’s about time I put some of my plans into action.

Yes, a Chinese person becoming a doctor. How original.

Maybe I’ll turn out like Ratchet. Maybe I’ll suffer long enough to become Pharma.

Only time will tell…

In any case, I don’t plan on totally disappearing from the fandom any time soon. Eventually, I won’t be logged in on the app, but I’ll be accessing the site through a browser a few times a week, or when I have free time.

For the foreseeable future, you’ll see me around primarily on the weekends and Wednesdays—collecting posts for the queue, answering old asks, and maybe making a post once in a while.

What to expect:

The queue will publish a few times a day, and most original posts and extra reblogs will be scheduled.

I have 300+ post ideas saved in my notes and screenshots. My goal is to slowly release these into the wild.

I’ll try to keep writing meta, but when and how will depend entirely on how much free time I have, and what little energy I have to spare.

If I ever have extra time, I might open my ask box and play an ask game or two. Maybe…

Asks, tags, and other things:

If you sent an ask in the past, I probably have it saved either in my inbox or my drafts. Yes—even the asks that are almost a year old. I have not forgotten, and I still intend to answer, even if the sender doesn’t remember.

My inbox is closed for now, but I’ve set up a fancy little Google form as a replacement: ✨Nova’s Commlink✨

If at any time, you tagged me in something interesting, I saved it in my drafts. If I’ve deemed it worthy of a response, you will see it eventually.

Feel free to keep tagging me in things. I’ll give posts a ‘like’ to confirm I saw them, and if I really like a post, I’ll queue it for later or drop it in my drafts if I want to give a longer response.

If you tag me and I don’t confirm receipt within a few days, drop me a note in the Google form.

If I said I would do something else for you, I haven’t forgotten. It’s on my list, and I will get back to you about it when I’m able.

WIPs:

Fics for my Constellations of Cybertron AU are on hold. I’ll still plot and plan, but it will be a long time before I publish any of those longer stories.

I hope to keep working on my shorter WIPs. I don’t know how much free time or energy I’ll have in the coming days, but I’ll do my best to get them out eventually.

How to reach me:

Anyone (mutual or otherwise) who has my Discord should message me over there. This extends to those I’m in servers with.

Mutuals who don’t have my Discord and anyone I follow here can still DM me through Tumblr.

Everyone else can contact me using the Google form.

Don’t be afraid of bothering me. It may take me a while to respond, but I welcome it.

Last updated: 2/28/24 - (section updated: intro)

#I was SO tempted to use the “Remember me as I was” panel #but I refrained #be proud of me

[fluffytriceratops]

Important Update! Please Read!!

I’m yeeting myself into the abyss. And won’t be on here much because of it.

In all seriousness, this is a important update on why I’m not on here as much and when I will return.

For those of you who don’t know, I work seasonally at a summer camp. I mainly work in the kitchen as a assistant to the head chef, but I also do a lot of cleaning. I mainly clean up after guests when they’ve stayed at one of the camp’s cabins/motels. Now I don’t really like this job, in fact, I kinda hate it. But as a broke art student, whose family has been struggling a ton financially this past year, I don’t have many options. And it does pay decently well. Normally the employees come at the end of June - beginning of July, but I’ve offered to come in a month early to help set up the camp. This is a shit ton of work, and I absolutely hate it. I had to do it last year, and I wanted to throw myself off a cliff. It’s extremely stressful and draining. My anxiety spikes up a ton. I’m constantly suffering both physically (I suffer greatly from pains, mainly in my back, hands, head, and wrists), mentally, and emotionally. My hands shake a lot, and it just gets to bad when I’m working and pushing myself so much. So to say I’m miserable during this time of the year is a bit of an understatement haha. This will be my second year working here but my family and I have been going there for many generations.

Working at this camp is a literal nightmare for me. I never really liked going there for long periods of time when I wasn’t working, and now that I am it drains the fun out of the place completely. I’ve had nightmares about having to go back all year. I wish I was exaggerating, but I promise I’m not lol.

Because I’ll be working almost everyday for the next three months (I also work the beginning of September but it’s not the full month so I don’t really count it), I won’t have much time for myself let alone tumblr and any other sites I’m apart of. Unfortunately this means that I won’t be able to write, draw, or roleplay much at all. And honestly, anytime that I spend not working I’ll probably be sleeping because that’s how exhausted I am. You have no idea how many times I just took a nap on someone’s couch last year during breaks. I’ve never napped so much in my life haha.

Long story short, any and all works of mine will be delayed and coming out very slowly for the next while. This includes roleplay responses. I’m very sorry to those of you who are/will be waiting on me to reply, not only to rps but to messages/reblogs and just about anything and everything really. Like I said, my posting schedule will be random and all over the place. I’ll write/draw/respond/rp when I have time and am in the mood. (Which is basically what I do now, it’s just I have far less time on my hands hehe)

This also means that I might come on occasionally to spam a few people now and again, because I’ll be missing a bunch of stuff lmao.

With all of that said; PLEASE CONTINUE TO TAG ME IN ALL OF YOUR STUFF SO THAT I CAN SEE IT WHEN I CAN! I’ll probably miss a couple posts here and there, and I apologize in advance if that’s the case, but I’ll try my hardest to respond/look at everything! Also- don’t be afraid to ask me if I’d like to be tagged in certain things (or to just tag me in general, I love hearing from you guys!) , it might take me a moment to get back to you, but honestly there are so many cool people on here, I feel so bad that I’m going to miss out on so much! And don’t be afraid to message me either! Again, it might take me a while to reply to you, but I’ll get around to it eventually! ^^

ALSO- to all of my mutuals/tumblr buddies— if you’re interested, I’d love just to chat with you guys! Whether that be on my dm’s here, or on Instagram or discord, whatever really. I’ve met so many amazing people and I’d love to keep in contact other than our posts! So, if you’re interested, feel free to message me on here or comment or reblog, whatever you feel most comfortable doing, and let me know! I can send you my insta or discord or whatever and we can keep in touch much easier! Don’t be afraid to ask to chat! I’d love to have more online friends! <3

I’ll probably post little life updates and stuff when I can, so look out for those if that’s something you’d be interested in seeing!

And let me know if you want to be tagged in any of my stuff, I post a lot of multifandom things, so if you see something you like, lemme know and I’ll tag you so you don’t miss out! I’ll probably be posting some older stuff/things I just haven’t uploaded to tumblr yet, so there’s that hehe.

Again- I’m really sorry that I won’t be very active on here. I’ll try to come on as much as I can! In the meantime, message me, tag me, and take good care of yourselves! Drink lots of water, take power naps when needed, get some sunshine and fresh air every once and a while, and make sure you remember to eat! Sometimes I forget, so it’s nice to have a lil reminder! ^v^

I love you all so so much, and I can’t wait till the summer is over lmfao.

IM SENDING ALL OF THE VIRTUAL HUGS TO YOU!!! ^3^

— LF / Fluffy / Fluffie. <3

Xox

Ps. Wish me luck. TvT

#update #important #i hate my life #working sucks #adulting sucks #kill me now #ughhh

[suiyuun-archive]

#𝑺𝑼𝑰𝒀𝑼𝑼𝑵  —   private   and   selective   mutuals   only   rp   blog   for   𝐊𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐀𝐓𝐎 𝐀𝐘𝐀𝐓𝐎   /   the   Pillar  of  Fortitude   of   𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐍 𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐀𝐂𝐓   —   NSFW   themes   heavily  present.   minors   please   𝐃𝐎 𝐍𝐎𝐓   interact.   multiverse  /  multiship  /  OC   /   duplicate   /   crossover   friendly.                  wished   by   𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐒𝐄  ( 29  /  she  +  her  /  CST  -  5 )

                        ‒‒‒‒‒‒  carrd.   ‒‒‒‒‒‒   ask prompts.   ‒‒‒‒‒‒   headcanons.   ‒‒‒‒‒‒ 

𝐈. This blog is PRIVATE, SELECTIVE, and MUTUALS ONLY. I follow people I would like to interact with, as well as to make a point to keep my dash clean. If I follow you - please know it means I want to write!

This blog is also MULTIVERSE, MULTISHIP, CROSSOVER, OC, AU, and DUPLICATE friendly. I rarely do EXCLUSIVES or MAINS - unless my partner requests it. If that is the case, all relations will be listed here!

  𝐈𝐈. My activity can be sporadic at times, as this is a HOBBY and I refuse to force myself to write. Additionally, I run a number of other blogs on top of this one. However, given tumblr's penchant for not NOTIFYING me of things, please feel free to send me a poke of it seems like I have lost track of our thread.

I am a WORDY writer. I have a hard time doing short threads seriously, though I can make an attempt. I don't expect my partner's to match me word for word, and QUALITY over QUANTITY is always appreciated.

I DO format my posts and use icons, but do not expect the same. At this time I am able to use LTE - but if I notice my partner is using BTE I will switch to that as well!

  𝐈𝐈𝐈. None of the ART on this blog is mine unless stated otherwise. Any and all graphic resources will be credited here or on my pinned post.

A few other standard pieces of business: I hate DRAMA, do not drag me into it. I won't unfollow you for reblogging CALL OUT POSTS lest they be in excess. DNI if you, as a mun, condone or write pedophilia, incest, rape, etc. Racism, homophobia/biphobia, transphobia, ableism, etc by MUNS will not be tolerated here as well.

  𝐈𝐕. I absolutely love SHIPPING. Not only is it an excellent character development tool, but it s a great way to familiarize yourself with certain aspects of your muse. I am a HUGE shipper at heart and will ship about anything - from TOXIC, ROMANTIC, to PLATONIC. Obviously this does not apply to minor muses/minor muns or incest ships. No thanks.

I prefer to develop a bit of a repertoire with a mun before diving HEAD LONG into a ship so please feel free to slide into my DMs with any ideas or shipping suggestions you may have! Or even just to say hello. Seriously, I probably can find away to ship it.

  𝐕. AN IMPORTANT NOTE: My portrayal of Ayato is DARK. He is not wholesome, nor is he particularly gentle. Much of what he puts on is a facade, and I will not be dulling down my interpretation of the character for the sake of ships, etc. Additionally, this particular portrayal and any and all universes associated with it mean that this blog can be prone to DARKER THEMES and NSFW content. If you do not like this, I suggest you do not follow.

I cannot reiterate this enough: NSFW may be highly present on this blog. If you are a minor or if your muse is a minor PLEASE DO NOT FOLLOW OR INTERACT. NSFW includes, but is not limited to: smut, violence, gore, drug use - etc. I will always make an attempt to tag triggers and place sexual content under a read more.

  𝐋𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐋𝐘 - my discord/UID is always available to mutuals on request. Please never be afraid to approach me!

#PINNED POST.

[thatbiiih]

Info 🦎

finally getting around to making a pinned post!

I'm thatbiiih, you can call me purell. I'm a hobbyist artist who got back into drawing after graduating uni 😌 I'm still figuring out how best to use tumblr but I'm trying my best to post and be active and discover other artists. Mutuals feel free to ask for my discord! I'd love to make art/fandom friends :)

Other platforms:

Twitter: thatbiiih

Instagram: thatbiiih_

Repost / Reupload Rules 👇

✅ Icon/Header is OK with credit back to me (direct link preferred over plain text) in your bio

✅ Device background/wallpaper is OK

💬 Repost to other sites always requires permission! Please dm first to ask.

💬 Use in videos requires permission! Please dm first to ask.

🚫 Please do not edit my art for any reason

Please NO commercial use:

🚫 Selling my art in any capacity (physical, digital, etc.)

🚫 Making merch/buttons/prints/book covers

🚫 Youtube Thumbnails

🚫 Twitch emotes/banner/etc.

If your use case is not listed here or you aren't sure what category it falls under please dm to ask!

Misc.

Currently Xenoblade Chronicles has a tight grip on me and influences everything I draw but I'm into lots of different games and media such as:

Fire Emblem

Ace Attorney

Evangelion

'Tales Of' Series

Tags:

Art Tag: #my art

Art Reblogs: #not my art

Feel free to mute reblogs if you're only here for my art!

#faq #thatbiiih

[southern-belle-outcasts]

PLEASE REPOST, DO NOT REBLOG!  Feel free to add to any of your answers! The purpose is to tell your partners about the way you write!  For the multiple choice ones, BOLD all that apply and, if you want, italicize if it’s a conditional answer!

– b a s i c s –

NAME : Taggerung/Tagg

ARE YOU OVER 18?: Yes / No

IS YOUR MUSE? : Yes/ No

ARE YOU SELECTIVE ABOUT WHO YOU WRITE WITH ON THIS BLOG?: No (anyone) / Semi (most people) / Yes / Highly / Private (mutuals only)  

ARE YOU SELECTIVE ABOUT WHO YOU FOLLOW ON THIS BLOG?: No (anyone) / Semi /Yes / Highly

IF YOUR MUSE IS CANON, HOW MUCH TO YOU ADHERE TO CANON?: Not at all / A little / Some / Mostly / Strictly / (OC) I write my own canon. (canon is very dependent on the media and how dirty certain runs/seasons did them)

WHAT POST LENGTHS DO YOU WRITE?: One Liners / Single-Para / Multi-Para / Novella / It kind of depends on my mood

DO YOU USE ICONS AND/OR GIFS?: No / Gifs / Icons / Gif icons / Depends (mostly for asks and starters) 

DO YOU WRITE ON OTHER PLATFORMS? No / Yes (discord this is mostly for people no longer on tumblr)

WHAT LEVEL OF PLOTS DO YOU WRITE? Unplotted / Open Ended Plots / Semi-Plotted / Fully Plotted Epics / Depends  

HOW QUICKLY DO YOU USUALLY RESPOND TO THREADS? Very Slow (more than a month) / Slow (3-4 Weeks) / Average (1-2 Weeks) / Fast (Less Than One Week) / Very Fast (Less Than Three Days) / Depends 

WHAT TYPES OF THEMES DO YOU LIKE? (feel free to add!) Fluff / Angst / Smut / Action / Tragedy / Domestic / Family / Conversational / Hurt-Comfort / All + more 

WHAT GENRES DO YOU LIKE? (feel free to add!) High Fantasy / Supernatural / Science Fiction / Historical / Horror / Comedy / Romantic / Drama / Action / Adventure / Espionage / Everything

ARE THERE ANY THEMES YOU’RE UNCOMFORTABLE WRITING ON YOUR BLOG? No / Yes ( i don't do a.b.o. or much with cheating storylines)

DO YOU HAVE ANY TRIGGERS?: No / Yes  

– s h i p p i n g –

WHAT TYPES OF RELATIONSHIPS ARE YOU OPEN TO?: Romantic / Platonic / Familial  /  Physical  / Sexual / All kinds

WHAT TYPES OF PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIPS ARE YOU OPEN TO?: Romantic / Platonic / Familial / Physical / Sexual / All of them (i really need to know the mun before i can pre-establlish any relationships and that's case by case even then)

DO YOU HAVE OTPS? No / Chemistry only / Yes (tho there’s no single otp for me with any character/muse, otp is a level not a label)   

DO YOU HAVE NOTPS? No / YES /I don’t know

ARE YOU COMFORTABLE WRITING SMUT?: No /Selectively   / Yes

HOW EARLY IN A RELATIONSHIP DO YOU SHIP ROMANTICALLY?: Autoship / During Plotting / After A Couple IC Interactions / Several IC Interactions / Slow Burn /Depends (on partner & muse)

ARE YOU OPEN TO TOXIC SHIPS?: No / Selectively/ Yes / Never Tried It

ARE YOU OPEN TO PROBLEMATIC SHIPS?: (canon history, age difference, complicated, etc.) No / Selectively  / Yes

ARE YOU OPEN TO POLYSHIPPING?: No  / Selectively / Yes (COULD NEVER HAVE TOO MANY)

ARE YOU AN EXCLUSIVE SHIPPER?: No / Sometimes  / Yes 

DOES CRACK SHIPPING EVER HAPPEN?: No / Sometimes / Yes 

DOES CROSSOVER SHIPPING EVER HAPPEN?: No / YES (90% of my ships are crossover or OC/canon)

Tagged by: @untamedtempest

Tagging: Everyone

#;out of the south #;munday

[deathmcth-archived]

This isn't a callout and i don't want it to be treated that way. i dont want this reblogged and i'm going to be turning off replies for this post. the intentions behind this post are to strictly make people aware of what's going on and why i'm leaving this blog for good. i do have a backup blog currently in the works, and i've already deleted the majority of the info i've made on ayalon and saved it elsewhere, just in case that gets copied too.

If any of you wanna talk about this privately with me, my discord is cloves#2852

i'm gonna be blunt and say i really don't know if i'm even gonna bother coming back. and i'm sorry it took just one person to ruin this experience for me. If you feel that this isn't something you need to take seriously or invest much care into, that's fine; this post isn't meant to ask people to be reactionary and you are free to do with this information what you will. but this is something that has impacted my time here and I wanted to speak up on it. again, this is just me explaining why i'm leaving this blog, and creating a whole new one that's going to be extremely private (if i do decide to come back).

i do want to thank the people that came to be privately about the situation and let me know what was up, and thank you for validating my feelings and telling me that i'm not crazy for seeing the similarities. i'm not gonna namedrop you guys because i dont want you dragged into anything, but i still really wanna thank you.

this is going to sound really harsh and im sorry for that, but i'm not going to be interacting with people that RP with falseamore. i thought about how i wanted to proceed with this, and at first i thought 'ok, just quietly softblock the people that interact with them and that'll be that.' but they're a very popular RPer, and i realized that if i were to go that route, i would be softblocking every single one of my mutuals. so i figured i might as well just make a whole new blog, and if i end up having only one whole RP partner there, i'm ok with that. because again, i dont want anyone to feel obligated to do anything, so i'm making the decision to leave things as they are here and start somewhere else. if you wanna know where i'm at, we can talk about it, but i'm standing my ground with this decision. seeing falseamore all over my dash after what they did has made me incredibly uncomfortable.

i want to apologize again for putting this on people's dash. i know everyone has a strict 'no drama' policy and if you dont want to interact after this, i understand. but being here has stopped being fun for me, and i feel like i can't post anything anymore without worrying about my stuff being taken. i've had a character stolen from me before on tumblr, and it's really not a good feeling. i'm also not about to turn the other cheek like i did the first time it happened. i know this is just a hobby, but please try to understand why i'm upset. especially because they didnt need to do this. i used to be mutuals with falseamore until i quietly softblocked them ( there's no drama or "tea" there, i just wasn't vibing with them anymore. that's it. no bad blood ), and soon after that they made a character that is eerily similar to ayalon. i know they made a post and casually mentioned that they had this character for 8 years, but why did they bring him back now, after i softblocked them, and why is he a near copy of ayalon? i'm not the only person who noticed, and it's because multiple people have come to me with their concerns that i had the courage to even post this in the first place.

i don't own death/life and im certainly not saying here that absolutely no one else can make characters that represent one or both aspects. i want everyone to have creative freedom and i love other characters that are centered around death as a whole. make death gods, make death incarnations; i understand that some characters are going to be similar to each other and that's ok! but what i'm getting at here is how falseamore created a character that is, and i'm quoting this from an RP mutual who came to me first about the similarities, "ayalon but in a different font" right after i had softblocked them. i really want to make it clear here that i'm not trying to seem controlling or like i'm trying to say that only i can make a character that is an incarnation of death. and i'll repeat that as many times as i need to to get my point across.

under the readmore is going to be most of the stuff i'm talking about.

i'm going to start from the beginning here, and sorry if this doesn't all make sense! i've never had to do something like this before. AGAIN THOUGH. this aint a callout, i really know it seems like one, i'm aware of that. it's just an explanation as to where im coming from.

here's proof we were mutuals and have interacted. i want to get that out of the way first. at the time their url was unfathomablebeings

in november of 2022 i reblogged a commission i got of ayalon that shows exactly what he looks like, minus a few details (namely his piercings). here's the post, and a snippet of falseamore interacting with the post. so they knew what he looked like while making their current death oc, as well what ayalon's personality is like.

below is their death character that they created (or brought back, whichever one) shortly after i softblocked them. below that is ayalon's own description on his bio page as well as some of his personality traits. some characters are just going to be similar, yes, but things are just.. too similar, you know? especially because they knew about ayalon. we've interacted. sure, this could be the case where an oc doesn't look exactly like the fc, but it still doesnt erase the fact that this faceclaim looks like ayalon's canon appearance. the fringe, long and unkempt hair, the ashe blond, the kind of piercings and their placements, and the tattoos.

i wouldn't have cared too much about appearances if it just ended at that. lots of OCs have tattoos and piercings in the same places. there's only so much room on a single body. but even their personalities are similar. Vulgar, crude, no filter. That's a big part of who ayalon is and it's gonna show in more screenshots coming up.

i get that these are all very broad traits for an oc to have. but it continues to strike me as odd that falseamore has given their Death OC the very same characteristics as ayalon. if these features were given to any other OC, there would have been absolutely no problem. so why did they decide to "bring back" this character, and give him nearly the same appearance and personality traits as ayalon? is it because i softblocked that they decided to take inspiration from ayalon to continue RPing with a similar character? either way, it's made me uncomfortable.

the whole point of this blog is to RP a fallen God who's now a tattoo artist and a piercer. i have ayalon's occupation in his bio and in my pinned post, as well as most of his interactions have been ayalon being someone's go-to guy for body modifications. so him being a tattooo artist and a piecer is nothing new, that is what this blog is based on. everyone who's interacted with him or at the very least, seen ayalon knows that's the theme here. here's a quick thing of my bio again where it plainly states that ayalon does tattoos and piercings.

this is falseamore's Death's first interaction with other people. he's offering to be their piercer. again, why is it that this character has another thing in common with ayalon? something that this blog is heavily based around- ayalon giving people body modifications. ayalon is death/life incarnate, with a vulgar personality and an knack for trying to convince people to get a piercing.

they have also created a character that is death incarnate, has a vulgar personality, and a knack for trying to convince people to get piercings. these also show how similar their death's appearance is to ayalon.

here's some screenshots i took of ayalon also doing something similar when first interacting with people. (suggestive content tw;)

everyone's free to hold their own opinions on this and how important it actually is. but to me it's hurtful. even if they didn't mean to copy what i have for ayalon, they still obviously took inspiration from what i've worked on and i'm still entitled to feel how i feel about it. it makes me feel crappy that they're being praised for a character that they.. blatantly ripped off from me. i know this is something so very, very minor, but after going through this once before, i've learned that i need to stick up for myself when i see something that i don't like.

i'm reiterating here that if i lose all of my mutuals over this, that's ok. that's fair. i'm going to archive this blog and you won't hear from me again. i'm not going to stick by people who interact with falseamore strictly for my own comfort, nor am i going to tell people to "choose a side" here. this was only just so people know what im talking about. this really does suck, i'm sorry. being here isn't fun anymore when i know this is happening. if i do come back, it's not going to be on this blog.

my discord will be open if people want it.

#long post tw; #negative tw; #adios ✌️

[mad-twience]

Hey there! This is my rules/about page, please consider reading it before roleplaying with me! The stuff in bold is the most important if you can only skim it at the moment, but if that’s the case then I’d appreciate it if you could come back and read it in full later!

About:

Hi! First, just a little bit about me. You can call me Pixel or Nick, my pronouns are he/they and I’m 23 years old. My main/non-RP account is @fruitypieq and I also have a blog for OOC RP stuff over at @fruitypie-ooc.

I don’t really do much outside of Tumblr but I do run multiple blogs and life is super stressful at the moment, so I get burnt out a lot unfortunately. My replies may take a while but I will always do my best to reply as soon as possible!

I also have very bad memory issues due to a concussion a few years ago, so I might struggle to remember things! Please be patient with me, I am trying <3

Also I’m usually down for OOC chat in DMs whether it’s plotting or just general MLP talk, so feel free to shoot me a message if you wanna!

I do try to cut my RP posts down but I’m on mobile and formatting is a nightmare 💖

Rules/Guidelines:

- Please don’t constantly remind me of an RP - if you’ve replied then I’ve probably seen it and I’m working on getting to it. I get overwhelmed easily and being reminded of RPs constantly only adds to that and makes me less likely to be able to reply to our RP at all. Please give me at least 2 to 3 days before tagging me or giving me a reminder!

- If you don’t want to interact with me, please just hard block me. I will never remember who’s soft blocked me even if you tell me, so it’s better to just outright block me so I don’t accidentally make the mistake of following you again.

- I don’t do smut RP! Not even in PMs! That being said I will do gore type RPs and the like, as my Twilight is a mad scientist who does pretty cruel experiments.

- No godmodding. This means no taking control of my characters and saying what they’re doing/how they’re feeling/etc.

- I also do not RP in PMs unless you’re a personal friend that I know very well. Otherwise, I’ll only RP on the blog itself.

- Please don’t ask for my Discord unless we’ve been RPing on here for a while, I prefer to RP on Tumblr in general rather than Discord so I’d rather not give it out to just anyone.

- I will try to remember to trigger tag anything I see fit, but if you have a specific trigger you need me to tag please let me know! I’ll always tag them as tw followed by the trigger (example: #tw gore)

- I’m not mutuals only! If you’re following me I probably meant to follow you back and just forgot, or there may be some other reason why I’m not. But I’m completely fine with RPing with non-mutuals! That being said I do have anxiety about messaging someone first so it may take me a bit of courage to finally message you, mutual or not, so if you’re feeling braver than me feel free to inbox me any time!

- I’m not very selective, but please try to have at least one to two sentences in your reply! Preferably at least one paragraph. It’s really hard to reply to something or progress the plot when you’re only giving me one word or a super short sentence as a reply every time.

- Sending me random starters is ALWAYS welcome! Even if I haven’t reblogged or posted anything about starters, it’s always okay to just send me one or ask me if I could make us one. Random non-starter asks are also always fine and loved.

- I love crossovers! And OCs! Pretty much whoever your character is, I’m almost definitely willing to RP with them.

- I multi-ship and I’m also okay with polyam shipping as well, but Twilight isn’t really looking for a date and romance isn’t my favorite, so it might be difficult to get her to develop a crush on your muse unless it’s something we’ve already discussed. She does have a slight crush on Sunset Shimmer, however.

- Please remember muse ≠ mun, Twilight does some really messed up stuff that I do not agree with in the slightest. Me and Twilight do not share the same beliefs and it is really important to remember that.

I think that’s it! If I think of anything else I’ll make sure to update this. I’d rather not block anyone but I will if I have to, but I really just want us to have fun! I hope to RP with you soon!

(I’d appreciate if you could like this post if you’ve read the rules, but it’s not necessary!)

#rules #about #ooc

[phosfeur]

𝅄 𓂃 𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 FOLLOWS YOU ; YOU CAN'T HELP BUT BECOME 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐔𝐍 .

˗ˏˋ⧣💫― TRIGGER WARNING : frequent but non - graphic depictions of abandonment , violence , sacrilegious & sexual content .

ᴇsᴛ. ᴍᴀʀᴄʜ ₂₀₂₄ # PHOSFEUR   ―   (n.) light bringer  the following is a character study on the mythology of lucifer , unaffiliated with any source of media and heavily removed from modern biblical depictions or associations to the devil ⁽ selective  &  private   .   beta - editor . minors dni ⁾  .      halo ,  twenty1+ ,   they  /  them  pronouns .

₀₀₁. temp info under cut ₀₀₂. pinterest

✩࿐ ⋆ ˒˒ BEFORE YOU FOLLOW ｡

001. this is my personal interpretation of the story of lucifer. it's important to note that HE IS NOT THE DEVIL / SATAN ; rather , a personification of the planet venus and shares some similarities to angels ( hence where the confusion comes from ). he is also not to be confused with the goddess venus / aphrodite , nor the goddess aurora / eos. those are all different being as well. that being said , it is okay if your muse mixes them up as it's part of the story and they do share parallels. out of character though , i ask that you understand and acknowledge that they all are separate entities.

i am perfectly okay with interacting with other interpretations of lucifer that may depict him as the devil! however, i will probably not follow blogs that depict him as the personification of a celestial body as i have. i am not claiming ownership of this concept ( it's literally on the wikipedia page lol ), but i personally haven't seen anyone do it this way so for my own sanity, i'd like to keep it that way. hope this is understandable!

002. basic rp etiquette applies , i'm not going to list them all out because you should know better by now. this isn't going to be my main blog so expect sporadic activity. i likely won't follow first in case anyone is uncomfortable but that doesn't mean i'm not welcoming new mutuals! i'm super excited to write with you so please feel free to follow if you're interested ♡

003.  hi, thanks for reading this far! sorry if some parts sounded a bit harsh, i swear i’m very nice! my name is HALO, i’m 27 years old, black and east asian and currently residing in central / gmt-5 timezone but usually my sleep schedule is fucked so you can barely tell. you can usually find me on my dhampir oc or my discord (bratz.com) is available for mutuals if you’re wanting to reach me outside of tumblr. i look forward to writing with you all!

✩࿐ ⋆ ˒˒ INFORMATION ｡

name. dawn fullight ( alias for modern times. unless plotted otherwise, this is the only name your muse should refer to him by ) other name/s. lucifer, light-bringer, dawn-bringer, morning star, venus, etc. age. old, been around since the creation of the universe dob. celebrated december 21 as it is the longest night of the year and means venus is at its brightest species. human? ( sub-species: incarnation of a celestial entity ) gender/pronouns. nonbinary / they, he sexuality. bisexual, no preference occupation. jack - of - all - trades but officially considered a socialite

★ though proud of his true name and identity, because of the negative connotations that have been associated with both over the past centuries, he opted to change his name to dawn. those who are close to him will call him lucifer or luci.

★ unrelated to the devil and the fall from heaven, dawn shares a similar origin story where their pride became their undoing. because they believed they could compete with the sun and moon, dawn was cast down to earth and the light of venus has become dim ever since.

★ dawn has a form that is also similar to the modern depiction of an angel; wings and all. this was a conscious choice because humans depict them as creatures of beauty and divinity ― something that dawn craves more than anything else. he does have a true form which is can be described to quite literally be just a ball of light.

★ learning about the tradition of "wishing on a star" ( usually done with the brightest 'star' in the sky which was of course actually venus ), dawn went into the business of granting people wishes. because they were simply banished from the sky, they still retained their abilities as a celestial entity which aids them in giving people what they ask for... all for the right price, of course. dawn has been doing this ever since they came to earth and accumulated an enormous amount of wealth.

★ in modern day, dawn fullight is a socialite known for his lavish lifestyle. no one really knows what he does career wise but he does have a company, FULLIGHT LLC., that seems to have a foot in many different industries ( including but not limited to tech, real estate, medical, etc. ). dawn is the type to have been listed in f.orbes' 30 under 30.

★ make no mistake: though dawn is not the devil, this doesn't mean they're a good person. at best, they are prideful and self - centered. worst, they're manipulative and arrogant to the point that others may end up getting hurt.

#temp pinned 03 / 22 / 2024 . dni

[route214]

mun &&. rules.

‖⠀𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄𝐑.

⠀⠀hello!⠀call me nova.⠀I’m over 21, an artist and a roleplayer, and use he / she / they.⠀I have been writing on platforms like twitter or discord for many years now, and have been on tumblr for a few months as of writing this!⠀as such — and I must stress this — I am not familiar with everything still, so if you ever have any tips or find I’m doing something incorrectly, please let me know!

⠀⠀I’m more than willing to chat out of character at any time, but find I can be pretty shy speaking to new people, so please offer a little patience.⠀I have a discord, if you would ever want to add me to roleplay there or just chat!⠀feel free to ask if we’re mutuals.

⠀⠀the account follows from bioodtipped.

⠀

‖⠀𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐄𝐒.

⠀⠀THIS ACCOUNT IS MARKED AS 18+.

⠀⠀ⅰ.  this account may potentially include dark topics, and considering my age I am not comfortable with minor followers.  sexual themes won't be a concern here;⠀both mun and muse are over 18, but the muse has no interest.

⠀⠀ⅱ.  account may feature a mix of my own art, fanart ( always sourced ), or official works.  I’ll happily take any down at any point if requested.

⠀⠀ⅲ.  I can go from one - liners to multi - paragraph RPs!  I won’t ask you to match my detail or length at all, but putting in a similar level of effort is definitely appreciated.

⠀⠀ⅳ.  this account is open to multifandom.⠀I’m willing to write even if I may not know your source material, just give me some slack.

⠀⠀ⅴ.  although this account might feature occasional dark themes, my absolute limits of what I'm willing to see are anything involving obvious, commonly triggering topics.⠀I’m prone to blocking if I see that sort of thing, especially untagged.

⠀⠀ⅵ.  please hardblock me if you’d like to break the mutual!⠀I have a shabby memory and can’t always tell if you softblocked me, thus may refollow without realizing.⠀I’d like to avoid putting you on the spot, and you’d likely want to avoid softblocking me multiple times before I catch up to what’s going on.

⠀⠀ⅶ.  personals are welcome to interact, but please do not reblog anything without my explicit permission.⠀I am also open to non - mutuals writing with me, but it's a case - by - case thing.⠀if I don't want to interact, I'll likely block.

⠀⠀ⅷ.  putting it up front — my muse has secrets.⠀you're free to theorize out of character, but infomodding is not going to fly here.⠀if you think it might be relevant to your character in some way, message me and we can plot!⠀:p

[vanillahub]

HOW I RUN MY BLOG

REPOST DON’T REBLOG

SPEED: I'm NOT a particularly fast replier, regardless if it is here or on Discord. I want our RPs to be extremely chill, so I'll NEVER pressure or bug my partners for replies. I'll always prioritize quality over quantity. I try my best to put out at least 1 reply per week, but that's not set in stone because IRL or other things I've committed to (such as an art event) will always be my priority. I may get to replies fast, but I try to pace them out as to try prevent any burn outs between me and my RP partners. This is easily done thanks to Tumblr's queue system, not so much on Discord. I can't do back and forth RPing, I can't do instant RPing.

REPLIES: I use threads trackers, for all of my RPs on Tumblr! Each blog has its own tracker. I tend to get to most of my replies rather quickly, but in order to not overwhelm myself or my partners. I toss almost everything into my queue. I try to randomize/mess with the queue’s order from time to time so that can help in dishing out my replies. I mainly write multi-para and lengthier threads, that’s why I need to pace things out ever so often.

STARTERS: I’ve never had much luck in the way of starters calls. Either my starters would go unanswered, or no one showed any interest on them. As a result, I prefer using writing memes and making a thread out of the responses to them. With that said, I’ll gladly write a starter for someone if they ask for it and we’ve done a bit of discussion!

INBOX: I’m all about sending memes (whenever possible)! I feel like inbox memes, help breaking the ice between mutuals. I really appreciate them tons!

SELECTIVITY: See my rules to have a good idea about what I look for in blogs. “I’ll only follow, if I see our muses interacting.” This has been my motto for a few years now, and it has improved my RPing experience A LOT. I’m always looking for people who more or less fits with my style of writing and muse style. Not following sb back =/= Sb is a bad rper. I just don’t think it is fair to follow someone, just for the sake of following without any real intention of writing with that person. I’ve been through this in the past many times, and that’s amongst my biggest peeves when it comes to RPing. I’m simply catering to my own needs, because unfortunately I no longer have the time nor the energy to RP with everyone that stops by. So I HAVE to do what’s best for me.

WISHLIST: LMAO I haven’t done a generic wishlist in a LONG time, it just isn't my thing. Rather, I much rather prefer making a wishlist of threads will come, as we are plotting and discussing our muses interactions. The more I get know a muse, the more thread ideas will show up!

HONEST NOTE: Don’t be intimidated by my rules. I’m well aware that I’ve worded out my rules in a not so friendly manner, and it’s because that’s the way I’ve found to express myself best in english (in case you missed out on this, I’m not a native english speaker). I just really need to get straight to the point, so we are all clear in regards to where we stand. Because unfortunately, I’ve had various awful experiences, where people were twisting and coming up with the wildest interpretations of what I said just to put me down.

Feel free to steal it!

#[ rambles ]

[gentlemanthiief]

MOBILE RULES

NAME.  Moe Loogham AGE.  24 BIRTHDAY.  September 25 PRONOUNS.  She/Her  FACECLAIMS.  Rose Quartz, Death, Deadpool RP EXPERIENCE.  10+ Years (8+ on Tumblr) DISCORD.  available to mutuals on request

Hello!  Thank you for taking the time to look over my rules. I know it’s a lot, but I’ve done my best to condense them and break them up into sections for ease of reference. If you have any questions about any of my rules, please feel free to reach out to me.

Full disclosure, I do not expect my followers to remember all of my rules at all times. The most important points will be bolded and/or italicized, and REPEATED offenses will result in unfollowing/soft blocking.

THIS BLOG USES THE BETA EDITOR

SECTION 1. Blog Etiquette & Activity

This blog is PRIVATE, SELECTIVE, AND MUTUAL'S ONLY AND 21+ (with VERY FEW EXCEPTIONS) which means I do not follow unless I am interested in writing with you. If I follow your blog, it means I have read your rules and muse bio(s) at the very least! I do not send in passwords, but if you have a post that you would like to direct followers to when they've read your rules, I will like it.

I RESERVE THE RIGHT TO DELETE/IGNORE ASKS FROM MUTUALS AND NON-MUTUALS ALIKE! This is mostly out of precaution, and would primarily be done in cases that violate privacy or cause discomfort.

I will only thread with other Roleplay/Ask blogs. Sideblogs are fine, but if your main blog is a personal, please let me know and tell me your sideblog url! If you RP off of your personal, I will not follow/thread with you.

THIS BLOG IS LOW - MEDIUM ACTIVITY. I do try my very best to be active at least once a week, but due to my depression and a lot of irl stress I have a very limited amount of energy to spend on writing. Longer replies can take up to a few weeks for me to get to sometimes. Please be patient with me, and I promise the same courtesy is already extended to you.

SECTION 2. Shipping & Exclusivity

THIS ENTIRE SECTION IS VERY IMPORTANT. PLEASE READ IT CAREFULLY, AND FEEL FREE TO ASK ME IF YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND SOMETHING.

I am perfectly open to shipping both sfw and nsfw situations. However, shipping is not the sole purpose of this blog. Regardless of canon, fanon, personal preference or otherwise, unless we have spoken previously about it, AKIRA WILL NEVER BE AUTOMATICALLY SHIPPED WITH YOUR MUSE.

For ANY case, I ship chemistry. If your muse doesn't click with mine, that's totally fine. I am also open to one-sided or unrequited ships, but please don't try to force a ship on me, and DO NOT FOLLOW ME IF SHIPPING IS THE ONLY THING YOU'RE LOOKING FOR OUT OF OUR THREADS.

This blog is absolutely OCxCanon friendly. I love hearing about OCs and seeing the depth and complexity that has been put into them. However: if your OC has little to no information/development, or if their sole priority is getting to flirt with my muse, please do not interact. I've been through 10+ years on tumblr and had too many experiences in the past with blogs whose existence is purely based around wanting to bang my muse. This rule especially applies to Canon characters as well. It really grates on me. It's nothing personal, and writing only gets better with practice. But I have to really put my foot down on this one.

I will only ship with your muse after discussing it out of character. IC flirting is the only exception to this, but do not get angry if Akira does not respond the way you want him to.

I don't want to have to put that here, but it's happened to me too many times before and it's an uncomfortable situation for everyone involved. Please don't do it.

On this blog I DO NOT PRACTICE EXCLUSIVITY. In certain circumstances however, my muse may reference yours in a thread that may not involve them. This is HIGHLY situational and verse dependent.

Lastly, I value the mun behind the muse for all my RP partners, and I am ultimately here to make friends as well as create wonderful stories. MUNS THAT I SPEAK WITH REGULARLY OOC WILL HAVE TOP PRIORITY FOR THREADS. That isn’t to say I expect my mutuals to talk to me frequently, but I know myself well enough to know that I tend to develop higher muse for threads with people who are mutually invested in the story and who interact and plot with me. 

SECTION 3. Triggers & NSFW

I am over 21 years old, and NSFW can and will happen on this blog, however I will always keep anything that contains NSFW under a "read more" cut for the sake of any followers who are not comfortable with seeing NSFW content.

I am comfortable with most NSFW topics. I absolutely WILL NOT write about pedophilia or incest, and definitely WILL NOT RP SEXUAL SITUATIONS WITH MINORS OR PEOPLE WHO I HAVE NOT SHARED CONSENT WITH. This is for my safety as well as those who I interact with. I'm trying to get into grad school, not jail.

I will try to tag triggers accordingly as they appear, under the tw;; tag. Triggering content that MAY appear on this blog include:

Abuse

Child/Character Death

Disease

Drugs/Drug Use

Alcohol

Execution/Murder

Gore

Nudity

Self-Harm

Suicide/Mental Health Issues

Verbal/Physical Violence

Torture

IMPORTANT: mun and muse are mutually exclusive. I am not Akira. Akira is not me. actions performed in threads may not reflect me or my personal beliefs, and vice versa.

If you've made it this far, I would really appreciate if you would like this post to let me know you've read and understood all my rules. If you are not comfortable doing so, that's fine! It's really just to help me know people cared enough to go through the whole list. :) It's not at all an obligation, but it would be really awesome.

Despite the fact I am comfortable with NSFW, I prefer to be comfortable with the other mun as a person before agreeing to write these topics with you. I am not obligated to write NSFW with anyone.

#{ mobile info ; rules }

[star-puff]

announcement !

i've been drafting this post in my head for months tbh but i'm just gonna start it off & get straight to the point: i'm leaving tumblr!

well, i (meg, of tumblr user star-puff acclaim) am leaving tumblr, more specifically, haikyuu fic tumblr. this probably does not come as a surprise to a lot of you considering my past activity over the past few months (or lack thereof), but like i said before i'd been thinking about leaving tumblr ever since june of last year. the original plan was to leave at the end of summer 2021 because i'd Assumed i would have finished at least One of my series by then but . but well :") turns out it was more difficult than i thought to meet that deadline :"")

(skip the end of the post to get the important @s and links to where i'll be next :) )

why i'm leaving:

there were a lot of reasons why i wanted to leave back then, and i won't really get into it in This post; i feel like what i felt back then was a common sentiment in the community and digging into that can of worms unwarranted is a bit . yknow, lmao. but if someone is still curious i'll still answer, because to a certain degree what i felt back then is a reason of why i'm leaving Now. the real reason i'm actually leaving though is because i've just lost all motivation for writing haikyuu fic. call it the loss of hyperfixation or me just becoming too busy to write and be online like i used to, or just me being tired of it all, but at some point writing for this blog started to feel less of an outlet and more like an obligation or a chore. it didn't really help that a good chunk of my friends & mutuals on this corner of hqblr had already left and my interaction as a whole was just looking a little ... 🤕, and it didn't really show signs of getting any better with all my time offline either. i'm saying this as objectively as possible, but i feel like there just isn't really a place for me here anymore, at least a place that anyone would really care to visit or stay at anymore, so i'm just going to cut my losses and not overstay my welcome more than i already have :) /gen

what about strawberry marmalade?

i really am sorry for those who were looking forward to seeing me finish strawmarm, but the way things are looking ... </3 i'll probably be uploading all of my long fics over to my ao3 and see if i ever come back to writing and finishing strawmarm, because i really Did have it all planned out,,, but well . you know where we are now :") long story short, strawmarm is discontinued unless i miraculously get hyperfixated on haikyuu and that embarrassingly stupid strawberry man again

okay? what now 🤨🤨:

i'll be leaving this blog up as an archive! i honestly thought about deleting it but after thinking it over i think i'd end up missing and regretting it if i did, so i'm leaving it up for the memories (i'm sentimental and sappy like that ... cringe ik :/). i'll probably leave another post before i leave giving the same links in an easier to read format without all this ... [gestures above] LMAO but you can find my new tumblr @togeqii and my ao3 @/togeqi :) if any mutuals want my discord feel free to ask too!

in any case, this was star-puff's meg!

i'll stay until next week to say my goodbyes and answering any asks that get sent in (if they get sent in 🤕🤕) before i log out of this account for good but yeah! thank you for indulging in my brainrot and word vomit for a year and a half, thank you for those who stuck with me since the beginning and thank you to those who joined along the way. you all really did make me smile through the toughest times <3 thank you to all of my mutuals, those who were stayed Friends On Dash and those who became more than that :) and this is sappy but yuren if you end up reading this, thank you for writing fic that inspired me to make this blog in the first place :) you're a real one for that <3

lots of love, always, even till the end <3

#pls reblog this if you see it! #anyway ummm #meg's goodbye party

[possiblytracker]

important notice (commissions)

got hit very hard very recently with the realisation that i have been very irresponsible about some things this past... year! it has been around a year since i have consistently worked on my owed things. i have been feeling increasingly burnt out and guilty for a very very long time and need to actually address it like an adult since it's only fair. anyway if you've commissioned me in the past year or so and haven't heard anything since this post is for you

first off cutting straight to the point: this is basically me admitting defeat. i'm over halfway through a 3 year STEM degree that's currently sucking the life out of me and my ability to cope with the lengthy assignments I keep getting set has been steadily dropping. i have not been medicated for my ADHD properly for the past nearly two years due to circumstances outside of my control and I am failing or nearly failing 2, almost 3, out of six classes this year. on top of this, I have been drifting away pretty consistently from larger communities i used to be a part of- one of which i took a lot of commissions and trades from in 2021, then got a repetitive strain injury in my hand, dropped the ball, and never managed to pick it back up. this is in addition to comms taken from others outside of it in the meantime, either for semi-emergency reasons or just because

i can't stress enough that I do want to give people what is owed, i have never had the intention of sweeping it under the rug or just taking the goods and running, it's been at the back of my mind this entire time- but at the current time i do not think I am able to do serious art, it's eating me up inside that I can't, and i need to take accountability for it and recompense people somehow so i can stop stewing in guilt near-constantly

therefore I am more than happy to:

give back any designs that I never completed my side of the trade for, for you to resell or retrade or whatever you like, even if partial payment was made

refund you - my financial situation is tight right now but by late april I will have received a student finance payment that will allow me to give out refunds

financially compensate you even if you didn't pay me in money, e.g. design trades, within reason

keep you on the list of owed art anyway, and you will get your stuff eventually, but it may be a good while longer until I am situated and non-stressed enough to deliver - midsummer at the earliest

as above, but since it's been an entire year for some of this, if you want to change what you wanted me to draw (within the same price bracket ofc) because of shifting interests you can ask about that as well

reply to this post, message me here on tumblr, or on discord possiblytracker#0479, and we can work something out. I'm a little busy this week with end of term assignments but i promise i'll get back to you as soon as i am able to, i won't be ignoring anything. i'll look into setting up some sort of public and viewable record of what gets worked out from this for the sake of transparency as well. if anyone doesn't get in contact i'll automatically keep their art payment on the list anyway, i don't intend on dropping anything just bc this post got missed or something

in related news, I will be closing all public channels for commissioning me for artwork until further notice - probably until after I'm done with university as a whole in 2023. i may still take commissions from friends or mutuals on a case by case basis when my backlog is empty, so feel free to ask me about it in private, but I won't be formally opening anything at this time, as from experience I just can't handle it like I used to when i first started out and it's very irresponsible of me to keep taking up people's money and time without delivering. I'm barely drawing at all beyond silly sketches these days let alone churning out commissions-grade pieces I'm happy with, so I'm going to try and remove the stressor and the big source of guilt to focus on myself and hopefully some day soon make art enjoyable for me again. my ko-fi will remain open for donations but the commissions tab will be removed soon.

thanks for understanding. i really hope my actions in continually putting stuff aside this past year haven't left a sour taste in anybody's mouth, though I'd understand if they did. I sincerely apologise for this and hopefully i get to make up for it to as many people as possible

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lastly, tagging some people i know i owe things to-

@thatsamolez @fayooweh @butterbeanchu @angeloshadows

I know there are some others but can't remember @s off the very top of my head, so if anyone else reading this does feel free to share this post around, i'd really appreciate it- same if i owe you stuff and forgot you. i'd be really grateful if as many people as possible got in touch. may reblog and tag more people later when i get back home to my notes

EDIT: i now have a record of what's being done here

#no this is NOT april fools i only realised the date after writing this gdhvjdf #yes i am Crawling in intense anxiety posting this but its either this or stay anxious forever. i will do my best #will be leaving this pinned for a little while until the majority of things get sorted out #this doesnt really apply to comms personally requested from close friends in the past month or 2 though its not like ive done those either; #though im still willing to compensate for those too if necessary just hmu #would like to extend a thank you to maple for the awke up call. ik it wasnt the purpose of your message but it made me think abt this #and to waka for poking me about this every so often i really did appreciate it and i'm sorry i never managed to properly follow through #god knows attempts were made and i shouldve done this several months ago #once it first became apparent it wasnt working #hope this is a good enough solution that people will be ok with

[a-lil-perspective]

I have been silent for some time now. I have refrained from exhibiting any plaguing thoughts that might warrant me the label of “that person”, but I’m at the point where I’ve had my fill.

Ramble under the cut so as to not... offend or inconvenience anyone. There’s absolutely no obligation to read this. It’s Tumblr. You can block/ignore me. The option to do so is readily accessible.

I’ve been a Bad Batch fan since day one. While I didn’t start creating that very same day, it was relatively close. Point being, I’m a long-time dedicated fan. As the premiere to their series draws closer, I feel like there is going to be a great shift, rift here. That being said, I figured now is as good a time as any to make this post.

I love those boys beyond words. They’ve been the one constant in my life amidst a rapid and debilitating change. I love getting to give them life, even if my interpretations aren’t the most accurate.

Yes, I am a new Writer and yes, I am new to Tumblr, as I am sure both of those things are painfully apparent.

I get that it is impossible to please everyone. It’s something I’m learning more and more with each passing day. It’s something that gets harder to swallow, even more so.

I’d like to say that being here has been a largely positive experience, with all of these great connections and opportunities. But honestly? It’s been more isolating than anything. I’ve actually never felt more isolated than since I joined a year ago.

As a content creator or even just a general blogger, I don’t ask for much. I don’t ask for anything, in fact. I consider myself very low maintenance. I don’t demand/harass/play the martyr for reblogs. I have never mentioned it once, and never will. Some people on here are so damn passive-aggressive about it, and quite frankly, it’s embarrassing. It’s very stigmatizing. While I completely understand the frustration surrounding the like-to-reblog ratio, I think it’s neither tasteful nor reputable to threaten to call people out for not reblogging your fics. I wish I could say I was joking on that one. But I’ve seen it profoundly. Not cool.

And yet, no one says anything or raises any concern there.

Yet I make metas, harmless rambles, and I get shot down? Seriously?

—I need to “chill”, it’s “overkill”, I’m “overthinking”. I and my content are apparently just so damn arduous to interact with.

If you don’t like me, please just move on. There are plenty of other Bad Batch creators for you to enjoy. You know that. My work is absolutely not the final say, and I’ve never claimed it to be.

What is so wrong, with sharing one’s thoughts? Why do people inherently have a problem with other’s creative efforts? I see it time over again. Why do I feel like if I was making a bunch of smutty posts it wouldn’t be as much of a problem, that it in fact would be infinitely more welcome? (Absolutely NO shade to people who create smut, okay? I’ve made my own share. I admire those bold enough to do so regularly. I absolutely love them. Please teach me your ways).

This ramble really has nothing to do with the most recent event regarding my contributions. Rather, it’s a culmination of experiences over the past several months that have brewed and festered to the point where I can no longer keep downplaying it.

Social media, at its core, is one big popularity contest. It always has been, it always will be. But I’m not here to win. That’s never been my objective. That’s not what I’m about. Surprise (or not), I am not a popular blog. Not by a long shot. I’ll never claim otherwise.

I don’t ask people to view/interact with my content, I’m not an activist, I can’t even fathom exuding that kind of confidence. Even though I, admittedly, crave it. I suspect I crave interaction as much as the next creator. It’s a nice feeling. Yet there’s never been any obligation for it, especially with me, so I don’t understand what the problem is. As I’ve said, there are ample ways for you to block/avoid me. It’s the internet. In this day and age, there’s no excuse for viewing anything you don’t want to.

I came here in the hopes of finding like-minded individuals, uplifting and interacting, and exercising some otherwise stunted creativity.

All Tumblr as taught me is that creating and contributing is largely a thankless, empty endeavor. You can give and give and give and be reduced to nothing. There’s a profound imbalance between “giving” and “receiving”, and in regards to both ends of the scale, it’s became apparent to me that if you don’t cater heavily and in unreasonable degrees or get “noticed” by a popular blog, you get nothing, and your efforts are null and void.

Truthfully? I constantly feel like I walk on eggshells here, and it’s all I can do to not crack under the pressure, even though it’s my blog and my headspace. I should feel comfortable and free to express myself here, and I don’t, and I’m unsure of how to achieve that sense of stability. To be completely honestly I feel like a constant bother and a nuisance. When I post, I literally feel like there is a collective eye-roll that comes with people receiving a notification from my blog. Even though I know, rationally, that can’t be true, that’s an absurd level of thinking. I can’t say I can pinpoint exactly where it stems from.

But regardless: I hardly ever talk about/create the things I actually want. I only recently just got ballsy enough to share some metas, and we all know how well that’s going. I try not to have smut out of respect for my asexual/minor mutuals, even though the tag to blacklist is very much an option. I try not to bring up conflicting topics, Tumblr, political, or otherwise, even though with proper tagging I could. But I try not to even bring that into existence. Even though it’s my right to, I don’t.

I don’t actually feel like I fit into any narrative here, especially in the Bad Batch fandom; even though we are all basically the same steadfast group of bloggers. We all know who we are. We all coexist in the same space. It’s nearly impossible to be unaware of each other, at this point.

And yet, I’m not in a bunch of Discord servers or backed by a team of beta readers and all that jazz. It’s basically just me talking to myself out here. It’s very isolating.

Part of that—most of it—is my own crippling social anxiety, and the genuine belief that I don’t deserve to be in the same space/servers as all of these brilliant creators. Because I’m just me, and there’s not a whole lot of value there. With that mindset, it’s hard to actually feel like I belong anywhere. I know that is a mindset I have to conquer alone.

My excitement over my creations has largely dwindled into nothing. I seldom ever bounce my ideas off of others—another issue that stems from the fear of presenting as a burden—and even though I try to write for myself, even that fire has pretty much died out. I’m not even sure how or if I could even reignite it, at this point. It’s really quite sad. It makes me very sad, actually. All I wanted was to safely ramble, project all my thoughts and creativity that has otherwise been repressed through prolonged detrimental circumstances.

More than anything, I wanted to find and hold onto something that makes me feel useful, meaningful, happy. More and more I wonder if that’s even possible. I don’t think it is, not here. I often wonder if joining and sharing on Tumblr was a horrible mistake. I miss the innocent joy of when I first started creating. It was so simple. I’m trying to find that simplicity again.

But I’m burned out. I’m running on fumes. I have been for some time.

At this point it goes beyond just “taking a break” from Tumblr. It’s the fact that it all feels like this meaningless, monotonous cycle. I wonder every day if I am an isolated case in experiencing these emotions.

And yet, come tomorrow I will still be here, business as usual.

I’m not asking for sympathy or playing the victim or attacking anyone or trying to guilt-trip into more interaction. I am very aware of my shortcomings and incorrect mindsets. I’m just trying to make sense of it all. I feel very disconnected from everyone here and it’s lonely. This took a lot for me to share. I will most likely delete this because anxiety will eat me up, as it does with everything I post. Yes, everything.

#personal #lil rambles

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hello i thought it was probably time for a state of the blog update so,,, if you wanna know where ive been and whats happening read below (tw for mental health / s.uicide mentions)

if you do read, please like this post just for my own knowledge

okay so first of all i rly hate to be making this post because i absolutely hate being that person in the rpc who just constantly whines and guilt trips people over their own mental health without taking steps irl to work on it. im not gonna go into a lot of detail bc frankly its a lot and i dont super feel like it. (also i feel like its only kinda acceptable when the Big Blogs post a lot of ooc which i am definitely not, like my value is only tied to how much content i output but thats something im working on in my own time and not anyones fault persay)

basically i had a lot of shit happen at the end of 2019 that cause me to go into a very low period and while i was working on improving from that time, obviously the world had different plans plus last year was my final year of uni. i moved out in february this year in the hopes that it would continue to help me heal but along with the fallout of some other events, it’s left me incredibly alone and with a fraction of the support network i once had. june was extremely rough for me where i attempted twice and nearly didnt make it to my 21st birthday.

pretty much with working in customer service and australia being in and out of lockdown constantly (which makes my work much busier because people contact us when they cant go into stores), ive barely had any room to breathe or to try and work through things? and because writing is tied to my goal career of film and thats been difficult as well, you can probably guess why ive been struggling lately to be on tumblr and to write.

now dont get me wrong i adore my muses and being able to write. bucky has been an extremely fun and interesting character for me to explore. i literally never thought i’d end up writing a marvel muse and its caused a lot of hesitation due to how i approach him and feeling insecure. which is fine! thats natural! and ive been doing my best not to project those insecurities onto the dash and my partners but because of how poor my mental health is lately, that means ive just been very inactive. tumblr has always felt like a place where if you’re not constantly active then you lose people and while i know that’s not necessarily the case, it’s still a struggle. when i am here, it just feels like yelling into a void which is not a great motivator.

so what does this actually mean? tbh i’m still trying to figure that out. i made this blog initially with the intent of it being quite small and focused on character exploration n the like and i do still want to keep that goal. there’s a lot to bucky i still very much want to write and explore which i havent because of various reasons. i dont necessarily want to leave but i feel increasingly unsure about my presence which sucks because i have made some very good friends in the last year and a bit stint ive had on tumblr since leaving my old main rpc. i dont really want to give up this passion. 

for the time being, i’m probably still going to be low activity and my presence on the dash will be minimal. if that turns you off, feel free to soft block or unfollow. you can tailor your own experience the way you want. replies are probably going to be more queued and i wanna put a stronger emphasis on longer threads and character/dynamic development as i originally intended. again thats not everyone’s cup of tea so if you wanna leave then feel free. but atm i dont really feel connected to my partners and mutuals which sucks and i wanna improve on that. btw if you are reading this and youre down with this, message me and say hi!! i know that tumblr rp has developed this culture of not approaching people (and i struggle w this too) but the easiest way to plot with me is just to ask.

so yeah! tldr; brain extremely sucks, been feeling very disconnected and uncertain about my muse/writing capabilities/general self esteem, trying to work on that by taking things at my own pace and having bigger threads/metas more infrequently. i’ll still be more active on discord of course but hopefully these steps will help me feel a bit better about being here. 

thanks for reading all of this if you did, i really appreciate it :)

#ooc. #negative // #suicide mention / #i'll probably rb a few times for when people are active on different timezones #also idk if this makes any sense but. yeah