#my nerve pain is so bad

[palms-upturned]

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#meg talks #abt to head back into work #the start of a long fucking week #last time i tried to go back to work i literally collapsed on the ground from how tired and sick i was #if anything it feels like im just getting worse now #my nerve pain is so bad #and my coughing fits make me see spots #at least i don’t have fever anymore and the congestion isn’t as bad #i can breathe okay #but god. im scared that this will be my new baseline #which will mean that i can’t work here anymore… #and it’s just too early to tell. it could take weeks to get my full strength back and i might be fine #but that’s weeks of wondering #and trying to muscle through #which could be making things worse. fuck if i know #i want to quit so bad but at the same time i don’t want to. i don’t want to be muscled out #it just sucks so bad. #and they let this happen to fucking ten out of fifteen of us all at the same time #they really don’t give a shit about our lives #they can always just replace us with cheaper labor.

[batz]

hi! my names frank and im a 2spirit butch tht draws cartoons!:)

im physically disabled (eds & iih) and bc of the chronic pain stemming from that i’m unable to work a Normal Job. so i rely on commissions to help support myself and get by through the month!

ko-fi: ko-fi.com/franki

more examples of my art!

more commission info/rules!

#frank art #ok to rb #commissions #sorry this is VERY thrown together LOL #but its easy enough to read and thats ALL that matters:) #ANYWAY im super sick rn just dealing w rlly bad joint pain so. doin commissions so i can get edibles or smthn #anything 2 make my nerves stop screamin !!! #these r all commission examples except for th dhmis stuf

[canisalbus]

i’ve been in a lot of undiagnosed pain recently and struggling with medical care for it, but your art and bits of lore have been giving me a wonderful distraction. you have my gratitude and appreciation!

I'm sorry to hear you've been in pain and not getting the proper treatment for it, that's awful. But I'm glad my art and ramblings have been able to take your mind away from it. I hope things work out for you soon!

#I can relate years ago I got spontaneous nerve pain on my right leg/hip it hurt so bad I could barely sit up/stand/walk for months #it lasted for over two years and no one seemed to be able to figure out what was causing it or treat it effectively #I messed up my stomach lining with painkillers as a side effect #hopefully whatever is ailing you gets resolved quicker and with less hassle #answered #crow-ho #it was pretty unbearable I remember starting to genuinely hope that they would amputate the whole thing (?) #if it meant it would stop it from aching every second #sorry I don't mean to make this about myself I just suddenly remembered that time really vividly and how much it sucked

[lastoneout]

So I've noticed recently an issue I tend to have with a lot of pain clinics and doctors in general is that I tend to have appointments early in the day when my pain isn't as bad as it usually is by the end of the day, and so I'll be like "yeah I have pain in my back and knees" and so they'll have me move around my back and knees to see what hurts, but since my pain isn't bad yet those movements don't hurt, so then they think I don't have pain or at least they don't believe my pain is as bad as I say it is. (Which extra sucks bcs typically those movements do hurt...AFTER the appointment. Which isn't helpful.)

So I've decided for my next intake I am going to schedule it as late in the day as I can and then spend the time before it doing anything I can think of to purposefully make my pain as bad as possible so I'm like, actually in believable ammounts of pain when I go in.

Should I have to do that? No! Is that bad bcs EDS is a degenerative disease and so doing things that hurt on purpose is really bad for me? Yep! Am I going to have to do it just to get these clowns to take me seriously? Absolutely 🙃

#like my last doctor sucked for a lot of reasons but he was SO convinced my pain was muscular #because I went there at like 9am and was feeling okay so when he asked me to move my back #the only thing that hurt was the muscles stretching #and so he just didnt believe my pain was coming from my nerves and my bones #despite the fact that I have imaging and diagnosises proving it's my nerves and bones #and then the muscle relaxers he prescribed didnt help at all and he was like *shrug* idk #fucking clown show #so yeah #just gonna have to Make Sure my pain is bad when I go in so they believe me

[gaminegay]

As if I'm gonna let the skull noodles tell me what to feel

#alda drawing #alda rambling #One of the things that has tripped me up when trying to explain stuff is being So aware that something is a brain problem #It's not that I CANT taste the food. My tongue is fine and I am technically aware that its tasting SOMEthing right now. #It's just my brain refusing to interpret the signal right. There is nothing wrong with my nerves my brain just isnt serving the pain signal #If I was prone to thinking something was physically wrong this would be very helpful but I'm not so it's just slightly annoying #Like bad wifi. Connection issues. Helloooooo it says im connected I have bars but its not loading anything. Knock knock lets go

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

really channeled my inner yassified!howdy today via being practically comatose all day due to Migraine, then as soon as i woke up i demolished so many tacos in one sitting. he's just like me fr

#also might i say that its fucking evil that i got two bad migraines in the span of three days #like what the fuck was that? who authorized it! #usually i get at Least a month between them! #but nooooooo this week in particular said Fuck Ya Life #and on Update Eve too smh.... #i was ready to like... perhaps share excitement with people.... answer some asks with silly scribbles... nope! #for reference the migraine hit a little before 11 am #and the pain stopped around.... 6-7 pm #it took my whole day! the absolute nerve!!! #and now my brain's gonna be fucky tomorrow... On The Day..... #nightmare nightmare nightmare- #absolutely unprompted #no but seriously i was so fucking hungry. i INHALED those tacos like idk if i breathed #i had a very small teensy breakfast and then Pain Pain Pain and then a quick snooze to recover some energy #and then it was after 9!!! and i hadnt eaten Anything!!! #man i fuckin hate migraines... #it always takes a full day after to recover. steals two every time smh smfh #looking at butterfly!howdy: you're just like me... im just like you.... #at least i finished a celebratory Art for tomorrow b4 the Graine! tis queued! idk if i like it but im posting it anyway! #now if yall will excuse me im gonna fuck around for a bit and then go back to sleep #i need my strength & energy for tomorrow

[sickgraymeat]

I love how two of the best lines in all of AT (“Finn this is literally serious” and “see this is a good example of why I want to kill you”) are in the same episode

#adventure time #dentist #is that what the episode is called I can’t remember #princess bubblegum #Tiffany oiler #Finn the human #finn mertens #bonnibel bubblegum #jus talkin #I’m at work and I have to pee so fucking bad but this baby never stays asleep when. I put her down 😭😭😭😭 #also my body is so mad at me rn so just like. sitting. nerve pain :( I can’t sit right in this chair when I’m holding her #I need to go back to PT but I don’t want ppl to touch me ://///// #love you baby please wake up #but like in an ok enough mood that I can put you down once you adjust to being conscious #that tag before that one reads like my wife is in a coma lol #I hope I quoted those right #this was in my drafts #(I’m a nanny) #I have a terrible cavity rn I can’t stop thinking ‘this is literally serious’ at myself

[thedisablednaturalist]

New doctor says that my degenerative disc disease is very minimal and it's great news because I don't have a tumor or anything really bad! And he's all happy and looking at me expectantly while I sit in my chair shaking from pain

#wrenfea.exe #i am getting stabbed again at least #yea thats great news so what the fuck is causing my pain #he believes that my fibromyalgia is making me more sensitive to the minimal nerve pain from the ddd #which is causing everything to feel worse than it is #i felt like i was finally getting somewhere with my last doc #but now they wanna send me back to a rheumatologist which ive had bad experiences with

[shima-draws]

I finally figured out why I’ve been in near constant pain for the past month lmao apparently I’ve got a pinched nerve in my hip so like. Sciatica. Idk HOW it happened or why but I’m seeing a chiro to hopefully do something about it :”)

#Shima speaks #It's like. Aching pain in my right hip and leg. #My leg especially it hurts SO bad sometimes #Both of my parents were like 'You shouldn't have hip issues at your age' WELL MAYBE I'M JUST UNLUCKY 😔 #I really hope this is an easy fix and not smth I'll have to live with forever. Bc I can't do it. I've barely survived a month #People who deal with chronic pain you're the real champs. No cap idk how you deal with this all the time #How did I even pinch a nerve in my hip. Who knows!! #I'd be fine if it were just mildly uncomfortable but no this is deadass just. Excruciating sometimes #Anyway chiro tomorrow 🙏 I actually already went on Tuesday so #I've already been adjusted once #And THAT was wild. I've never been to the chiro before so this was a new thing for me lol

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

my hands are so fucked up i cant type correctly for my tech class and i think thats kinda mean :(

#camera talks #in a like. this society has ways we are supposed to conform and if you cant do that you Fail #well. sorry i jammed my pinky fingers so bad i can no longer use them to type :// #(true story i actually dont have the nerve ability to do much with my pinkies and i can't reliably press keys with them) #and my general joint pain makes it hard to type the way they want us to type (homerow keys and stuff </3) #(also yes i learned this in elementary school but we have to relearn it in a mandatory class rip </33) #ALSO. i lied 1 more post #Now i can go to bed probably

[normal-with-adhd-is-a-joke]

woke up with like the worst pain I've ever had in my elbow, which has previously been a non-problematic joint for me. Body???

#it's like nerve pain so I probably slept weird and pinched a nerve #but it was so bad that I couldn't fall back asleep even tho I was super tired and I actually started to get nauseous #heat helped some and ibuprofen helped some but it still hurts like a motherfucker #and I still wouldn't be able to sleep even tho I'm incredibly tired #I swear after I developed CFS I turned into the fragilest bitch alive #everything I do causes some kind of minor injury #I might talk to my doctor about early arthritis prevention steps today since I'm seeing her anyway #and I feel like the random back thumb and hip pain I've been getting is maybe the start of something

[plinkcat-gif]

bro what the fuck kind of pain is this oh my god

#it hurts to move my head so fucking bad oh my god #like nerve pain or something this fucking sucks i'm going to cry

[batz]

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#oaghhh diamox has me feeling really sick its the worst #i cant get outta bed i cant eat i cant do Anything ! just in pain and laying n bed #still have no idea why they have me back on these meds bc its making things So much worse :( #but unfortunately doctors even neurlogists only focus on weightloss and diamox already made me lose almost 100 pounds i feel SICK #felt healthier when i didnt lose that weight i am being 100% honest here. i hate diamox so fuckig much #frank.txt #also makes my body pain so much worse idk i just hate this brain thing #im thinking of just . stopping the meds even tho my neurologist says not to bc like even he says theyr not making a difference!!! #but he wants me on them so he can compliment my body shrinking every god damn appointment and remind me of how sick i am and feel #eugh #again . diamox doesnt impact my veins and im having an issue w veins in my neck and brain #bc of that im dealing w some pain. they fix that by putting in a stent but instead they just rlly want to like #see How Much Frankie Can Shrink #and ignore the fact that alll they can do is sleep bc theyr shrinking too much #fatphobia m #at least i gain back the weight and feel a million times better when im off tbe meds but still i hate it so bad #they even notice that i feel better after regaining the weight i lost and my optic nerves r no longer Damaged but like #idk . #its just Frustrating ! chronic illness moment

[the-acid-pear]

I never tried the option myself bc it'd probably mean skipping the Reason You Suck speech at the end (fire for speedrunners though) but I Love that you can frame your Phoneys in 3, especially so if you've already killed the previous two. Like yeah couldn't send you off to die so i'll let the goverment do it for me 🧸 like its just Peak evil imo.

#luly talks #i do relinquish in the pain and the agony but dont get me wrong the thought of any of them 3 getting jailed makes me SO sad #rog esp since he's the one im writing about and the biggest nerve wreck #gingi voice they'll be the last one to pick the board game for prison-game-night.......... #actually yknow i wonder if rog would end up almost believing it after all when you try to gaslight him for the shits and giggles #(as in: telling HE was victim of the bite of 87 and the like) he tells you to not do that bc his brain is already scrambled or something #so there's a chance perhaps he'd believe it if he had everyone constantly accussing him of it? #not like it'd matter much i have no hopes for the dsaf justice system i know its been 35 years since jack got framed but still #i just remembered when the option popped up i said ''god im really becoming steven 😭'' #first time i made the joke too was when i said ''imagine your boss sucks so bad you turn suicidal'' no clue what the context was #OH YEAH JAKE SAYING HE'D RATHER FUCKING DIE THAN KEEP WORKING HERE yeah. poor guy. #anyway im derailing my own post again uhhh. yeah. yeah i dont trust any phoney is avoiding the death sentence #dsaf #roger jones #dsaf roger #btw just for the sake of yapping longer i truly cant decide whether harry or jake would survive better in the enviroment #probably jake to be honest. I mean Harry has a lot of experience inside freddy's but he didnt really live outside it muhc #jake is so confrontational though #hey did you guys watch the hit movie felon? sure that guy wasn't framed but. i feel like jake would end up w that attitude #except for. you know. everything else that happens in the hit movie felon. #hey actually forget about this game go watch the 10/10 movie Felon from 2008 starring Val Kilmer and Stephen Dorff #because its one of my all time fave movies and probably the saddest i've seen #not bc there arent movies that are more tragic but bc no movie was able to break thru my walls of idgaf and make me cry anyway #yeah you thought i couldnt bring up my movie fixations on my different fandom posts well you were WRONG in fact #im gonna go tag my other post i left untagged yesterday bc my ass was Cooking

[spacedace]

Had to reschedule a call with a coworker because my pain was so bad I couldn't stop crying long enough to get through a ten minute call.

The chronic pain is really chronic paining this week, all those fun rapid temperature changes coming to beat the shit out of me apparently lol

#truly have not been in this much pain in years #if i stand up i will die #if i lay down i will die #if i continue to sit on a chair i will die #my legs are both numb and doing that burning broken fiber crackling nerve thing at the same time #my hip is informing me that it has been dipped in acid #and my back has decided to both go rigid and spasm and turn to jello in a way that feels like it can’t support my weight #i hurt so bad i'm nauseous and dizzy #and i still have most of the work day to get through #oh yeah time to party (ugly cry into my keyboard)

[galaxyostars]

I was talking to a receptionist about documents I needed to be sent about an upcoming surgery on my spine. I asked, just out of vague curiosity, if she had an idea of when surgery might happen. She didn't know, which is fair enough, but she then proceeded to accent her answer with "Why? Do you expect to be going on a holiday or out of town or something?"

I point blank responded with, "No, I'd just like to know when I can walk again."

Cue the awkward silence.

#chronic pain #nerve pain #disc protrusion so bad it's now causing nerve damage #I'm losing feeling in my right leg!