#not lack of caring to remember!!

[stiffyck]

Okay what if the winners got to meet previous versions of themselves through the life games.

Like grian meets no one. He didn't have any previous "versions".

Scott meets 3rd life Scott.

Pearl meets 3rd life and last life pearl.

Martyn meets 3rd life, last life and double life Martyn.

Scar meets 3rd life, last life, double life and lim life him-

This whole thing was an idea that I got just because I was thinking about ll and sl scar because they were both so lonely like wtf and I just though about a scene that would be so. Grips chair.

Ll: "We won?"

Sl: "Yeah"

Ll: "Did we have allies? Friends?"

Ll scar probably thinks sl scar won only because he had allies to support him. He knows what its like being lonely and he hopes no one has to go through that loneliness. And he wants to be optimistic for once that sl scar, future him, gets allies, gets friends.

He tries to hope and then he sees the look on sl scars face. Or maybe sl scar tries to lie- maybe he tries to say they had allies.

Ll scar sees right through him. He's him after all. Maybe he's always gonna he lonely anyway

#im being insane give me a momebt #also i forgot pearl wasnt jn 3rd life but its okay. she was in 3rd life to me <3 #ALSO? THE POTENTIAL OF 3RDLIFE SCAR? AND DOUBLE LIKE AND LIM LIFE SCAR? #3rd life scar is optimistic. he thinks its okay! grian is his ally in the fjture too right? he wins with grian? #no other scar wants to look him in the eye becayse they all remember the allyship they had with grian thay crumbled in ll #and that got completely destroyed in double life. #double life scar doesnt want to tell 3rd life scar and tell him grian doesnt care. he cant do that to himself. #tell his younger and more optimistic self that grian doesnt want them as his soulmates... that he would rather sneak off with skmeone else.. #and lim life scar. he was excited for the future because he did have friends! he had allies jn lim life- but seeing sl scar? #seeing how they just go back to being alone again? #its soul crushing. #(inserting my aroace angst here: is he really that unlovable? is his lack of romantic love so unappealing? #does no one want him? does no one but himself love him? #does he himself even love him? can he? seeing how miserable they all are it feels hard and lonely #lim life scar probably wants to comfort them all- but isnt it sad that the only person to comfort him would be himself? #) okay im done being insane goodbye- #stiff talk #gtws

[rosenbergamot]

mister laios dungeon meshi…. as an autistic person, i dont think ive ever related more to a character before.

like laios being so disinterested by the human world around him, unable to understand it and growing bitter towards humans because of how much and how easily they hurt. with monsters theres a Reason for what they do — its all survival, and that makes sense. humans, however, hurt just to hurt. all the suffering that he and falin went through have been because of humans. why would he like them? why would he ever be interested in them? he and falin have Never been afforded being seen as humans.

i feel like, with laios, he likes who he likes, and he doesnt really think about people he doesnt like. sure they exist, and he knows and acknowledges this, but theyre not his. the only humans that really matter to him are the ones that hes grown attached to. hes very compassionate but thats because its in his nature. if he wasnt a kind person at heart, i dont think he’d bother with people at all. that kindness is such a core part of him.

if he were in the modern world i just KNOW that guy wouldnt care about a career or school or even all these supposedly human aspirations that people have-- these long term goals, these big lofty ideals. he would just care about the day to day. working to ensure theres a roof over his head and food on the table. reading about monsters. having dinner with his friends. making sure his loved ones are all doing okay. and i can just imagine people being like "but dont you want... more?" and laios being so confused. why WOULD you ever want more? why would he ever want to give himself to the rat race? be exhausted constantly? work towards a goal that only other people view as worthy? why, when what he has right here is exactly what he wanted!! laios doesnt have these "human" desires and thats a core part of why he feels so alienated from other people. so different. like a monster himself. and as someone who is autistic, let me just say.….. me too buddy.

#dungeon meshi spoilers #dungeon meshi #sorry this was in rhe drafts while reading andi just #as an autistic person i relate really hard to him #this is just how i view and read him btw which doesn’t need to be said but #im saying it anyways HEHE #i just. biting him #hes so compassionate like its in his nature but yet hes so disinterested #and its not out of a lack of caring bc like i said he cares very deeply in his core #its just. anything outside of his immediate bubble barely exists #he literally cant remember kabrus name bc kabru never made that deep impression on him #like what he did impart is very surface level and laios may not comprehend that on rhe surface but yet he still Knows it and Sees it #i want to talk more ab him. forever and ever #dunmeshi #dunmeshi spoilers #laois touden #tagging so more laios fans come to me. i need people to talk ab him with

[phoenixtherobot]

I just randomly remembered this wip I had started back when New Life had just started out that I never got around to finishing so! I decided to finish it today! (About several months too late but ehhh it's fine)

#mcyt #new life smp #pearlescentmoon #mythical sausage #copper golem pearl #ghast sausage #yes it was very rushed to finish it so its lacking cohesive shading but also. i simply do not care <3 #i remember having a blast doing the lining (or lack of) on the trio #my art #phoenix draws #i had more doodles of the new life folks but ehhhhhhh i dont think ill clean them up like i did this one #also. ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE IVE SEEN THE INSIDE OF SAUSAGE'S BASE DO NOT BLAST ME IF ITS NOT ACCURATE #teehee <3

[anxiously-sidequesting]

Not to keep beating dead horses like I so much love to do but I am still completely Flabbergasted and Astonished at how you (Merle Ambrose) could discover the most terrifying fact that a child that is essentially under your care has been indoctrinated into a cult (which, by the way, a process that has taken over the course of years) ((by an agent that has been stationed in a direct position to make it easier to access and manipulate children, that has easily escaped your notice for such a long time)) that worships a nihilistic entity whose ultimate goal is the absolute and total destruction of Everything and Everyone around you, and your one, single, simple-sentenced response to that is to say "Oh, that's a shame. He (Duncan) always was pretty terrible. Hope he gets better someday." And then to move on from those extremely worrying and dangerous bundle of issues permanently without taking any sort of action to protect the vulnerable and make sure nothing like this ever happens again

#i love ambrose as a character but the things he does makes me clench my fists so hard blood circulation gets cut off #the absolute.... lack of care ambrose has for certain things literally render me speechless #and like okay in his uh. in his uh “defense”. there was like. other stuff going on at the time. i get that #like the end of the world for the 7th time yeah there were other things on ambrose's plate #but i dont know how many different ways to put “your children are being manipulated and kidnapped into a cult that means them harm under- #-your nose and it can absolutely happen again“ and make that stick #you... i #that is a horrifying fact to learn and the response is dismissive at BEST #like im not saying ambrose should adopt all 800 children that go to his school or whatever #but like... DO SOMETHING #you have COMPLETE AND UTTER INFLUENCE OVER THE NATIONAL GUARD. DO YOU REMEMBER THAT? USE THAT #send out watch parties! hold stranger danger assemblies! have adults regularly check in with kids! install a curfew! ANY OF THOSE THINGS? #like even if ambrose couldnt single-handedly stop a powerful cult he could at least make an effort.... AN EFFORT #ONE ATTEMPT. TO MAKE SURE ****HIS**** SCHOOL AND STUDENTS ARE SAFE........ #and the fact that he says something along the lines of “well duncan was always fucked up” ☹️☹️☹️☹️ #this shouldt surprise me fir the man who for 1. some reason refuses to fix the death school #2. does not care about dworgyn or mortis in the least #3. keeps trying to pressure necromancers to change schools #4. kidnapped US from earth and used us. #it really shouldnt but........ but #im gonna say it and idc (/lh) if its unpopular. ambrose should not be in power #he is incompetent at best. he is harmful at worst. #he does NOTHING 99.9% of the time and the one Tuesday where he takes action it makes something worse. he should not be in power #this post is /lh but idk. im a little angry #NOT SERIOUSLY ANGRY BUT CMON MAN. CMON BRO #if the game utilized ambrose's potential more and pointed out how useless/paranoid/rash he can be i would ascend to heaven #i would like literally one person (who isnt a villain) in the game to look at ambrose and say “wow hes kinda fucked up” #THATS THE BARE MINIMUM BUT I WILL ACCEPT THAT I WILL. #kind of unrelated but im kinda mad that the only person to correctly point out how weird ambrose is is morganthe #the murderous tyrant. the person we're not supposed to listen to. because she's evil. she couldnt POSSIBLY be right about Good Guy Ambrose!

[lesbiradshaw]

theo obviously makes the decision to leave town sometime between episodes 6.18 (genotype) and the beginning of 6.20 (wolves of war) which to me has the implication that his conversation with mason has something to do with his choice. not in a way where mason hurt his feelings so bad he was forced to go (because let’s be honest mason didn’t say anything that was wrong, especially from the perspective of someone who hasn’t spent much time around theo since he came back) but maybe because what mason told him made him think. “a pack is about trust. it doesn’t matter who forgets. i won’t.” i’ve talked before about how that definitely carries its own implication and how the who mason is so protective over that is forgetting not to trust theo is clearly liam. i’ve also talked about how trust is a HUGE theme for s6 thiam in more than just that scene— there’s also the scene where liam promises scott he doesnt trust theo, the scene where liam says ‘we need to trust you’ in reference to theo helping him and stilinski, the scene where liam throws the fact that scott will never trust theo back in his face. one of the most interesting things to me about this is that theo doesn’t really seem to want liam to trust him. he outright tells him in the sheriff’s station that trusting him isn’t important at the moment. it’s really the only time he’s the one to acknowledge it out loud, which kinda only cements my belief that theo chose to leave town after his conversation with mason because he picked up on the implied fact that liam trusts him— enough for his best friend, who knows him better than anyone, to be worried. liam trusts him, and i think that scares theo. being trusted is a responsibility, an expectation he’s not sure he can live up to. he realistically could have tried leaving town at any point after pressure test, but he chose to do it much later, and when you think about any significant moments that would have pushed him towards that… idk i think realizing that liam’s trust in him is real is a good candidate!

#i think theo wants to be forgiven but he also wants liam to remember he’s dangerous #hes frustrated in pressure test by liams lack of concern for his own safety and i think this ties into that #he does care about liam and he cares about his self preservation skills and trusting someone as dangerous as theo is… well! #anyways #hope this made sense #thiam #teen wolf

[kelpermoosee]

You’re telling me…out of all the animatronics in this franchise, my favorite character is the homeless child???

#krillerfiller #but seriously Gregory is my fave!!!! love that lil guy!!! #I’ve been trying to find some fanmerch of him but it’s surprisingly hard??? #and oh man don’t get me started on the lack of official gregory merch #dude I would pay BIG BUCKS for a stupid funko Gregory blind bag figure I don’t care how bad he looks #i was literally complaining about it earlier too #because if I’m remembering correctly the only official pieces of Gregory merch are #1) the funko statue 2) the Halloween mask 3) ONLY HIS HAND ON THE STEELBOOK #if there’s more please let me know 🙏 #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #fnaf fandom #fnaf fanart #fnaf sb #fnaf art #gregory fnaf #fnaf security breach #security breach fanart #gregory security breach

[piningprecussionist]

Thinking about her....

#literally cannot get her out of my mind. it's kind of ridiculous #someone send help #(this is an ooc post but i think jts funny if i dknt clarify that in the body of the post tbh) #(if it's read as being ic though: thus is drunk kim. bc i am drunk. if ny increasing lack of care avt the typos is not an indicator) #spto #scott pilgrim takes off #ramona flowers #spto ramona #scott pilgrim ramona #spto screenshots #i dont remember any fucking tags #fuck it. we ball. ill just. correct later if necessary #ooc

[oatbugs]

idk how to live so im going to talk to myself out loud until i do

#listen. take a deep breath. i know your bpm is high but you need to think with me for a second. #remember that you are paper thin. all your facets are sheets of paper and what you gave her is just another one. #make a new one. you dont need it. you dont need her to see you. i know you think you need her but you will be okay. i know its hard. #you wish you could have shown her how you loved her. listen to yourself. you are made of paper. #she might be concrete or maybe wood or maybe gold. you need to start laying your roots elsewhere. shut that thought down #and blink and listen. the parts you keep thinking of arent lost. they still happened and they are yours to keep. #there is beauty in this loss. tell me about the beauty in this loss. its okay to think about it. you got to see it all and nothing more #and this is great because it would have been bad. you know it would be violent in a way you dont need. you know this to be true. #you are going to look at that empty space in her shape and youre going to fill it with everything that happened when you knew her. #the memories with her but then also the the way your friends talked you through it. the game with the clovers. #your first allergic reaction you almost died and you couldnt stop laughing and you were held so close to their hearts. #learning the names for all the floursecent gene tracking dyes that everyone else knows already. about the exam - listen again. #i know you think if you fail your life is over but you need to try your best. youre not going to get a good grade in a uni test for the fir #youre going to make up for it. youre going to make sure you make up for it. do you understand? i love you. you have to do this. #right now you need to sit up. breathe. i know your heart hurts. go to the living room. grab something to eat. i dont care if you feel full. #youre going to clean your mattress heater. youre going to study a bit longer and then youre going to sleep. youre going to tell your mother #im sorry and i might genuinely fail a test. shes going to tell you its okay. if you do badly in this course you can just become a neurosurg #just agree. dont argue right now. its okay. youre okay. you are paper thin. i know any puncture hurts. #breathe. think of your friends. think of their hands in yours. it isnt eternal.youve lived through worse. the empty sky is still beautiful. #the lack of her is still beautiful

[hiveswap]

Well thats a dream i'll be trying my best to forget. Man

#im hysterical dude #it was a gay sex dream i was a trans dude (specific one not me as a trans dude) #someone wanted 'me' to fuck him but we didnt have a strap on and i was like dude HOW THEN #(i'm a virgin and a cis woman if you even care 😭) #....i just kinda remembered halfway through preparing that wait i dont have a dick i cant fuck him #the issue ISNT that i had a gay sex (well almost. lack of dick cockblocked me) dream #the issue is the specific characters involved in this plot. like hoooly shit i need to wonder off the earth #*wander

[futureforged]

January in general seems to be a very glum, tough month for everyone. It seems everyone is going through something in one way or another & stress is piling high enough there comes the guilt of not being active enough or able to produce the quality of replies wanted. Take things slow, remember that this is not a job, that you aren’t required to be consistently active or here 24/7. Please take a deep breath & remember to take care of yourself in these stressful times. I promise no one will forget about you, that you have made an impact on other’s lives through the stories you have built up with your writing partners. You’ll be welcomed back when you can return to write again. I cannot stress it enough but please take care of yourselves as much as you’re able to. You do matter & hold value in the lives of those you write with.

#I… yeah have nothing for this #Talked with a few friends and it just seems to be a common feeling everyone is experiencing right now more or less #A constant pressure and guilt #Depression growing because there’s a lack of motivation or energy to pour into this hobby or really anything. #I stand by it though #Take things at your own pace #Do what you can with what energy you feel you can safely offer and please remember to care for yourself when possible #🫂💕 #Try not to feel guilt for indulging in things that do make you happy on this platform. #➤ ꜰɪʟᴇᴅ ᴀꜱ . . . // ooc rambles. | to be deleted. #➤ ꜰɪʟᴇᴅ ᴀꜱ . . . // psa.

[friendofthecrows]

Even if you're only going through the motions, you're still doing the thing. Going through the motions produces results.

#self reminder #motivation #having one of those 'can't care about or be interested in this thing. can't warp 9 intense effort 'try my best'' days #and my mom told me to meditate #so I did but I was just going through the motions. I wasn't putting proper effort in to do it right. #and I noticed it was still having an effect. AND that I was shifting into a meditative state despite my complete lack of effort #and this thought popped into my head like a video game tip banner #to remember #because this will get me through days like today lol

[prismatic-starstuff]

i have such an annoyingly complex relationship with bg3; there are many things i love about it but as time has gone on i have seen how many things i hate about it, and since the shine has been pretty much fully removed from the game for me by bad things i've seen both in the fandom and from the staff, i can see 'em all Extremely clearly

#idk if i even want the game anymore aldnakxnalxnsm #it's hard to enjoy a*tarion when i look at him and remember the b*udelaire w*lch situation and how aggressive some of his fans are #it's hard to enjoy the other characters because the lack of time and care put into their stories is extremely noticeable to me now #honestly? #by this point i think the one saving grace for me is the emperor #and even then— the whole story with the netherbrain was poorly handled and that impacts the emperor's story too alsmakxnakxnsn #bg3 critical #(censorship is for tag and search reasons)

[asteria-argo]

i can feel myself getting preemptively annoyed with some of the comments I might get on the next chapter of to all the better places and let me tell you it's making it really hard to write this chapter in peace

#i just know I'm going to get so so many people hating on Ted again #and I appreciate the comments I really do #but the total lack of nuance astounds me #I think people forget just how much of a dickhead Jamie actually was in season one #and also that Ted thinking slightly ill thoughts about Jamie when he remembers him as being a very hostile and combative person #doesn't make him a bad guy #because fun amazing fact about to all the better places #is that Ted and Jamie haven't actually had a SINGLE conversation yet #because when Ted tried to have a civil conversation with Jamie in chapter three Jamie ran away #they are currently still dancing around each other #and I love that people are invested in the story and care about Jamie #but getting comments that are literally just character hate towards a character that isn't actually supposed to be hated? #not that fun #makes me feel like I'm trying to write around a bunch of landmines to avoid getting comments that are pure character bashing #you can be mad at Ted in this fic he's being frustrating and I'm writing him like that on purpose #but he's not the villain #he's barely even an antagonist #he's just bias and not sure what he's doing because he's in a confusing ass situation. he's trying his best under the circumstances #because he is as much of a fully fleshed out character as Jamie is

[1nvad3rz1m]

I think the Ang issue is not even fandom drama, at it’s core. It’s more an indictment of the failure of the American medical system. A disabled, mentally ill person should have access to medical care and mental health support, even if they’re drawing dubious art, even if they’re unemployed, even if they’re hurtful/dangerous people, as people involved in this are alleged to be.

They shouldn’t be left to just fester online, become more ill/erratic and just hurt each other over and over and over, on discord, in fandom, in all these spaces that we just see as petty or trivial.

We need something better. Fandom isn’t the issue. Lack of support and care irl for vulnerable people is the core of it.

I dunno man. I’m just sad about everyone in this situation. Nobody happy and healthy would do any of this.

oh i agree completely! i think people even saying fandom is a big part of it are missing the point a little, all this happened because of personal issues between friends who couldnt leave it. but that alone wouldnt have caused what happened to happen if there was better medical care and easier access to affordable treatment without a source of income/health insurance.

ultimately the issue is far bigger than any one part of it, it was a bunch of moving parts. but fandom was just a weapon, nothing more than that. the core is a shit health care system that leaves disabled and chronically ill patients to suffer and die.

#i think ignoring the hand angs friends had in this isnt totally fair #because angs lack of access to health care was because of them chasing them down and spreading 'callouts' #and fandom morality was their weapon of choice to get everyone to turn on ang and effectively shut them out of the community #i think this also is telling to what call outs are now #previously they were used when people were actual dangers #i remember grave robber call outs even #now its just a vehicle for people that are already mentally unwell and terminally online #to ruin the reputations and get back at people that they had petty conflicts with #it snowballed is what im saying but if there was better healthcare #we probably wouldnt be talking about this right now #recap kid

[starlooove]

What they don’t tell you about doing shit ur bad at for fun is that ur still worried about ppl seeing it 💀💀💀

#my Duke week shit sitting in my sketchbook 💔 #sorry babe let him stay there! #I think for rebellion I’m gonna do Duke joins red hood au #remember when Jason asked Tim to be his Robin? #well idk Batman did smth Duke wasn’t fw and he decided to dip and Jason picked him up #not to rant like I like Jason and all but idk how I feel about y’all saying #‘he just kills drug dealers and thugs’ #like IK in our minds Hes about community action and shit but canonically #he really just kills ppl and leaves it for the community to deal with #OVERSIMPLIFICATION IK DONT GET MAD ITS JUST NOT ABOUT HIM #anyways the point is I think Duke would give him a more nuanced look on ppl who commit these crimes in the first place #like Jason is very victim focus but Duke is very much about personal responsibility but part of that IS giving ppl the opportunity to grow #part of that IS the reformation of drug dealers and run of the mill thugs and sometimes a warning is all it takes #I think they could be a great contrast to Bruce and tim #in my mind they both obviously care a lot but they also lack so much knowledge on the average citizen #And tim specifically even tho he’s highly compassionate I like the idea of him having low empathy #and in my mind Duke is extremely empathetic but he’s a hardass and when it comes to his expectations #so like let’s look at Harley reformation right? tim wouldn’t FEEL for her like that but he’d be able to provid a lot of room for her to grow #like hed tolerate regression more if that makes sense #Duke would understand her plight and feel for her but he also says that it’s because he understands it that he can’t let shit slide #lowk like bruce…. #so when it comes to the red hood thing Duke is like ‘don’t shoot first 🙄’ but also all bets are off when u step outta line bc the fact that #u had the chance to grow and chose not to? he doesn’t like it and it twists later on where Jason’s the one telling Duke that its ok for ppl #to regress and that self improvement isn’t linear for anybody (including him bc the crux of the issue is that Duke is holding ppl to the #standards he holds himself to) I feel like I’m overexplaining badly but like. I will clarify if asked #anyways it doesn’t matter this is staying in the drafts

[sysig]

Someone’s looking out for you ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Wally West this time! :D #Their flirting is the cutest <3 <3 #But first! ZEX's uniform!!!!! JKFLdhsafjdf <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 #I've always liked his uniform - he looks beautiful in it it's quite fun to draw it's pretty it's flowy - very good piece of clothing do like #How something as simple as missing it for a week makes such a huge impact <3 Hhghh gods the way he describes getting it back ♥♪♫ #I've never appreciated the Feeling of his uniform on his body before now and hhh what a difference it makes! #Genuinely like a tactile understanding to complement the emotional <3 Feeling and feelings! It's so lovely! Ahh <3 #It goes back to being a question mark over everything once he starts to really think through the implications but for A Moment #And he gets to snuggle a human the same night :D Everything going so well! #Wally's so funny lol he's got ZEX making The most obvious come ons he possibly can flirting his little alien heart out #And he's just like ''But do you actually want to? Do you /really/ want to??'' Haha ♪ #It's very sweet honestly! Very attentive and careful <3 I'm always appreciative of anyone who treats ZEX well ♥ #But no he definitely Does Not mean pretty much anything platonically lol #What was it how did I describe him in my notes and haven't been able to stop laughing about lol - #Ah yes - Wally doesn't need to worry because ZEX is a ''hedonistic pleasurebeast'' lol #I also like how Wally is the first(? if I remember correctly) of ZEX's Type starting to develop haha ♪ #Sure he likes all humans but if he happens to lean one way more than another hehehe ♫ #I'm doubly fascinated by his self-awareness (and lack thereof) around submissiveness - he's very sensitive as a human! #He's still quite aggressive but also easily overwhelmed ♪ It's a very interesting combo to me :3c #And any further insight into his proclivities delights me hehe <3 #Heart eyes ZEX >>>>>> ♥♪♫ #And a few silly little doodles as well :D The first one's just a random chibi lol he's cute! ♪ #The second is of him trying a Starburst hehe he's so cute <3 I was so curious as to how he'd react to candy/sugar so lovely to see! #And thus far he hasn't had any alcohol - good Max has had enough - but I got my favourite Catawba so tipsy doodle it is lol #All the cutests <3 <3