#nothing more needs to be added here

[elvyn]

Some sketches of Shinji and one lost Jugram xD

#Idk why I keep drawing Shinji over and over again #bro is one of the least frequently appearing characters in Bleach (in the anime they recently cut out his scenes #which made me laugh more than sad at this point xDD) #But there's something fun about drawing his err... rather specific design #Oh and Jugram... he's just pretty xD #nothing more needs to be added here #my art #bleach #jugram haschwalth #shinji hirako

[aurantia-ignis]

"Can I have this dance~"

Doodled this for animation practice. Also I miss them.

#portwell #they deserve it #and also because this is one of my favourite songs from the whole hsm series #I stared at the flower print dress and thought about animating that and said uh no put her in pink #drawing her braids without animating is already a pain but her braids are so cute.... #tbh I've never drawn Real People there was a part of me that went YOU NEED TO PAINT THEM TO MAKE THEM LOOK MORE LIKE THE ACTORS #but then I wouldn't be able to animate them without spending a whole month painting #and the point of this was animation LOL #anyway this turned out slightly better than I expected #I had a couple of extra hair movement frames but ultimately realised they muddied the flow and added nothing #that's today's takeaway from animation practice! #if anyone told me 5 years ago that my first human gif animation in years would be of a disney teen show with melodrama and a broken ship #I wouldn't believe them lol #but here we are #hsmtmts #my scribbles

[sheyshen]

if any of y'all could do me a solid and report this griefer that's been hanging out by the limsa aetheryte on malboro that would be lovely. I don't need to name names you'll know exactly who i'm talking about if you go there

#dude's been here for weeks adding more and more of his bots and doing his lala hate spam every so often. seems he's added a bard now too #i reported him almost week ago and nothing has been done yet as far as i can tell #never thought i'd see the day that i'd think someone could be more immature than griefers on wow but here we are #he's been up to 34 or so characters a couple days ago #luckily i'm working on an alt through msq on a different server so i don't have to deal with it as much #but i do need to go there now and then on my mains for stuff so can't completely avoid it short of not playing at all

[laniemae]

hey so uh I’m back

kinda

I don’t know how to word this. But my break is over I guess. I ended up leaving for longer as I didn’t know how to handle returning and I wanted to do it on a better day, and I’m sorry if I made you worried.

Although with all of this it feels nothing has changed yet again. It feels like forever since I’ve been here and my break consisted of highs and lows where I felt I could do nothing and desperately needed to go back to tumblr, or I feel relaxed and it was a good idea.

it’s very hard. I’m considering actually leaving for good because of how my break affected me. But I’m going to try to intergrate myself back here, but I think it’s going to be very hard.

I’m still scared staying here and I feel like I’m stuck in a narrow space with no exit no matter what I do, I just hate everything I hate myself I just want help but there’s no one to get help from I have no idea what to do I feel exhausted yet I haven’t done anything I just don’t know where this is all going and I’m scared for the future

#I really don’t know if I should leave or not #ive been saying this a lot but this might be the actual time I’m truly considering it as I had some experience of that #Whatever that means #i feel like it’ll be relief either that or I’ll be even more stressed #I can’t tell because i experienced both emotions simultaneously during the leave #There’s also so much I want to share with everyone #I ended up ripping apart the Milgramblr tree #I didn’t feel anything not happiness not sadness but nothing #I just don’t know if I can take it anymore but I don’t even know the true source of what’s bothering me #I probably won’t continue my archives for a while because of this #And I need to vent here #FOR WHATVER FUCKING REWSON AS SOON AS I CAME BACK ALL OF THE PHOTOS GOT SHUFFLED AGAIN #AGAINNNNNN #AND I SPENT SO MUCH TIME REOGANISING THEM EHEN IT HAPPENED LAST WEEK #AND I ADDED SO MUCH NEE STUFF #Hehhhh it’s just some annoying it issue #But I guess this has been a bad start to everything #I just wanna sleep forever and not wake up

[birdmenmanga]

OH PHEW the esim plan I bought like a month ago finally got activated!! I thought I fucked up the instructions somehow...

#just thinking thoughts... #I told vege guy I was worried I messed up and he was like 'You? With your perfectionism? I don't think so' #which I really needed to hear. and he was right!!! #I'm so good at following instructions. so so good. #umm they used 1.1 GB out of 3 GB in like 2 or 3 days... the sim is only good for 28 more days... I should buy more data huh... #huh. I dind't think this far. I bought it cause I had the extra monies from print sales. #hmm the average person in 2020 used 4.5 GB of data... but that means like nothing. #the average person's wifi infrastucture isn't bombed to pieces in 2020. #hmm... okay I think I will keep checking the data usage and when it passes 1.5 GB used I'll add 5 GB more #the thing is that buying more GBs at one time is cheaper... #umm... I'm not really confident that this phone/person will last through 10 more GB (<- pessimist) #so I'm not adding 10 GB... but I think adding 5 GB is a comfortable place to be. #I feel like youcould like. I don't know. videochat family with that. #I suspect the usage is going to slow down a lot from here because I imagine they'd use it a lot at first #especially if they'd been waiting for one #but then they'd start rationing it really carefully... which might look the same as not using it. maybe? #huh... so should I just top it off right away?? #hmm... #I will leave that decision til tomorrow

[wild-at-mind]

No offence, but ffs the general strike for Palestine thing being circulated for action this week is literally coming with caveats saying 'if you can't do anything else just don't post on social media about anything but Palestine'.....????????

#at some point it's not a strike any more when people are presenting it to you as not a strike. #look- i think a general strike supporting a ceasefire could make an impact but any kind of strike requires centralised support #e.g. if a community organiser in london who has been planning the large marches put out very clear instructions well in advance #contacted unions etc- maybe are large number of people in the country would actually do it- people here clearly care about Palestine #but literally all of this just ends up being about social media AGAIN. #did we not learn from the BLM black square saga???? social media and especially tumblr is not very useful! #btw the reason why strikes work best through workplaces if because you NEED close social support in order to do them effectively #internet support just isn't the same and it's no wonder so many people are openly saying 'I can't' #i wouldn't either! there would be no point! Sorry to be so blunt #i will 100000% take part in a strike that i am fully prepared for though but i think people should consider how last minute this has been #it's worth noting that there is a lot of guilt here: people feel they cannot do nothing but they cannot afford to strike #(might they have been able to if this was planned in advance? possibly more would have...) #so someone in the west who is not the Palestinian activist who called for the strike added the weird 'just do social media' caveats #they are literally watering down what should have been a very powerful gesture #but they HAVE to do that because they know 99% of people reading will not be equipped to actually strike meaningfully! #and it's the only way to avoid everyone guilt spiralling

[fionnaskyborn]

one day when i am not busy dying on the inside and out i will write an honest-to-god essay about how people are, for the lack of a better descriptor but simultaneously for the lack of a more perfect one, too edgy about five.

#like yeah five is an edgy game and the darkest in the series and gloomier than all of its predecessors but. i lack the words for it now but #there are important little moments in five where light shines through the carpet haphazardly thrown over a pile of garbage that oft get #ignored in favor of pushing the agenda that everyone in five is filth down to the core and that's just not true #i just- deeeeeeep sigh. people are so shallow sometimes man #this is how we get those characters that do not resemble the original in the slightest that either take one trait of the given character an #then bloat and exagerrate it until the character is a caricature of themselves OR projections of what the people would like these character #to BE in order to... be able to wrap their heads around them and their motivations more easily‚ i guess?? #i don't know it feels to me like people just don't want to bother with the intricacies of complex characters and that's how the wood plank #versions of characters get created and then passed around ad infinitum #sweet grouchy baby boy who never did anything wrong ever. man who is either an innocent little big guy or satan himself. guy who is #objectively one of the most flawed individuals in the series being worshipped as a hero (griffith syndrome). guy who is either depicted as #an obnoxious playboy who only cares about getting laid and having as much skin exposed as possible at all times or the most vile man on #planet earth while being neither. the fucking. masochist cyborg thing. i'm gonna explode #oh and if you point out that there needs to be depth to any analysis of these characters if you are to do them justice you end up with a #gaggle of people saying oh yeah of course everyone in here is awful and they all have pig hearts #and i'm just wondering why this is the default conclusion most come to and not‚ you know‚ the thought that complexity does not inherently #imply rottenness but rather that even in the most horrible of situations you can find something good #i'm not the happiest or the most fortunate of individuals but i still refuse to believe in the idea of inherent evil that's being sold for #cheaper than a copy paper pack these days #but that has nothing to do with this my point is if you're trying to do media analysis you've got to look beyond... i don't have a word for #this... i guess you could call them fanmade stereotypes? no that's not it‚ my point is that people need to open their eyes to how complex #motivations and circumstances and human connection are and face that complexity head on instead of rubbing the story with sandpaper until #it's satisfiable to them #logs

[toastsnaffler]

my flatmate asking me the day before "do u want to hang out w me and [old friend] everyone else cancelled so I can invite u now" is not the heartfelt offer she thinks it is :^/

#what am i sloppy seconds. fuck off man #i like them both but im not in the place to socialise rn + also it just feels kinda mean. theyve had these plans for weeks #and i wasnt invited bc some of their other friends (who ive never met) didnt want me there which is fair enough ig #even tho their friends complained abt someone else bringing her bf but they both blocked the veto for that. pretty sure ik them- #better than some guy but whatever. i dont rly like their friends anyway bc they only ever have bad things to say abt them #like damn they sound like they have the emotional range of toddlers plus theyre all into shit like genshin. so i wasnt fazed abt it #hope they have a nice time etc but wow sure now theyve cancelled the day before u can invite me as a replacement. yeah thatll do wonders #for the social and self esteem issues i have around being single use and disposable and always on the outside etc yippee #the thing is if i go theyll just talk to each other anyway and leave me to be the fly on the wall like they always do. they dont want #me there they just want an audience i literally have nothing else to contribute i dont think they even like me that much so! #anyway complaint over. genuinely i hope they have a nice time im just annoyed at being treated like that + probably projecting a bit too #its not like i could go if i wanted to anyway bc i have shit to sort out + mail to wait for. maybe next time invite me from the start huh #we had another old friend visit last weekend but those plans were really made without me too and i was just added bc i Live Here so its #kind of unavoidable. but oh well whatever it was nice to see them either way #im too depressed rn to fix my social life or even rely on existing coping strategies in social situations so im having to temporarily #cut it back bc i get too trigger sensitive + dont want to hurt myself or others bc of an arbitrary emotional overreaction #its usually one of the first things to go when im Going Thru It not in a self isolating way but more bc its one of the hardest things #for me to maintain + im pretty self sufficient so its not absolutely crucial. like of course i love my friends but socialising is a #want not a need yknow. eating/sleeping/exercising/hygiene are all more fundamental parts of the engine so i gotta prioritise them #and it sucks but ill survive. anyway sorry for venting on everyones dash so early in the morning i woke up grumpy 👎 #i need to get breakfast and then go out. ughhhhhhh okay. #.vent

[claire-starsword]

increasingly convinced that yeah Cain could always teleport they just forgot to explain it in the game. He literally fades away after the battle

#angst break #valid for his situation #shining force #sf cain #also MAN. this part flows so much better in the jp version we were robbed #also better than the gba version tbh #while i`m not against max's talking #it does brings some nice dialogue with the force members #it added absolutely nothing to the amnesia plot #and kinda detracted from cain's angst here which is a lot more impactful #i legit need to make a collage one day of how many times max says the exact sentence of 'how did you know my name' #because it's a lot #legit the only thing he knew #it got old fast

[heniareth]

I wish the marketing industry a very please die

#reviewing a document on how to market to kids and i just want to burn the whole thing to the ground #it talks about community and the need for companionship and mental health and everything. EVERYTHING goes back to how can we use that #*to promote our brand #leave the kids alone for fuck's sake #what are you gonna prey on kids' loneliness to have them buy more product? you gonna foment the already present addiction to social #media for a few clicks and some cash? fuck you. fuck you fuck you fuck you to the sun and back #advertising to kids should be forbidden #let's tell a heartwarming story about friendship and cameraderie to advertise pur products IS NOTHING SACRED ANYMORE #they talk about the fucking dopamine loop that happens on social media and i don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing in their eyes #''being where they escape'' written over a photo of a skateboard park with a huge ad hanging over the ramps IT'S NOT AN ESCAPE ANYMORE NOW #image of 3D avatars with speech bubbles over them with stuff like ''let's play'' or ''what's up?'' and the figures are all just. looking #*into the distance. is there a more poignant depiction of loneliness in an online hyperconected world?? and i think it's unironically meant #to be a positive depiction of people having fun in a virtual world and yet ALL OF THEM ARE STANDING AROUND AND SYARING INTO NOTHING #antithesis of fun. they talk about overload of information in the context of how to cut through the noise and basically scream louder than #*anyone else. for God's sake if kids are overloaded don't expose them to more????? wtf??? if ''constant exposure to global issues and #*social media are resulting in their need for mental health support'' maybe don't try to build places for them on FUCKING social media?? #like are we dumb? do we build playgrounds on highways now?? you talk about the fine line between escapism and avoidance and then about the #dopamine loop?? this industry is predatory to the most extreme degree and i hate it to death. if i ever have kids i'll buy myself a brick #*nokia and relinquish all social media. fuck all of this. the worst part is i WORK here and i should be able to do something to make it #*better but fuck if i know how. can the ship bee saved or do we have to burn it to the ground. i am so angry #swearing #vent post

[bombshellsandbluebells]

the Nate Shelley s3 arc reminds me of the s5 Murphy arc in terms of how much I actually loved it despite it not being widely liked by the fandom and was actually disappointed because it wasn't ugly enough lol

and it's basically the same arc. character with deep-seated wounds and a lack of true self-love has realistic, damaging coping methods and crashes and burns spectacularly by hurting other people around them and isolating themselves because it doesn't matter how good things get for you, deep-seated wounds that don't get addressed will eventually come out one way or another. and it will be ugly when they do.

the Murphy arc was disappointing because it got wrapped up way too easily with Memori getting back together which didn't actually address ANY of Murphy's issues and Nate's was disappointing because it just didn't commit fully to being ugly and didn't let him be enough of an asshole

#with murphy it's like. do the writers even reallly REALIZE what they had written on a character level and how much it made sense and added #to murphy's character or did they just develop a reason for Memori to break up for drama and then didn't care to actually go through the #work of character growth and just got them together at the end of the season no issues #and with nate it's like. yes I DO think the majority of audiences and the fandom would have absolutely villianized nate if he had been even #meaner in s3 and probably wouldn't have celebrated him getting back with the team. I just KNOW people would have been talking about how he #didn't deserve it or hadn't made up for it enough if he had been worse in s3 #which is so unfair when a) this show tries to show how hurt can make people ugly and b) other characters get the benefit of the doubt wa #more than nate. (jamie's a little different bc it's easier to accept asshole > redeemed arcs a little more than likeable > downfall to #asshole > redeemed again bc we see the transition to being an asshole #BUT also. still. jamie did some nasty stuff that people just forget or completely forgive. and he ends up fandom favorite #and it's not that nate needed to become the fan fave or anything #I just wish people would give characters who are realistically ugly and human and complicated more grace #especially when they're not the conventionally attractive fan fave pretty boy you know #or like with murphy it's like all his actual harsh edges got sanded down by fandom. same as with Jamie #so even when he had an arc where he was acting terribly in a self destructive unhealthy kind of way that hurt others #people made it ALL about his hurt uwu other people hurt him!! it was Emori's fault!! he did nothing wrong bc he has trauma!! instead of lik #accepting that hurt people hurt people is more than a simple phrase it is true and human and UGLY when it happens #anyways #why do i always ramble more in the tags and write like a full epilogue in here

[cryptidafter]

I really love JGY's voice actor in the AD.

#cryptid’s thoughts #yes I'm finally starting season 3 months later shhh #wwx is such a little shit during the phoenix mountain hunt lol #and okay JZX's awkward confession to JYL got me so much more here - his voice actor SOLD IT lol #I go back and forth on which version of the story is my favorite and - tbh - the audio drama does it for me like nothing else lol #yeah I know funny considering it's taken me this long to finish it but it's not my fault - Yi City hurt me so much that I needed a break #all the voice work is phenomenal - that's what really drives the story and characters home for me #I think I've said this before but my ringing endorsement is that the Yi City Arc of the AD made me cry A LOT and that's not typical for me

[dinitride-art]

Accidentally clicked to hide a layer group instead of my single handwritten text layer (I’m adding actual text stuff rn for this page) and this looks… fascinating. Anyways I’m working on this comic (the miwi one- “Best Friends” aka the one with like 25 pages) again. I think I’m going to end up posting five pages next instead of ten because there is a point where I can split it up that’s mostly okay. So I’ve got like 1/5 pages done right now. These five pages are specifically the pages I’ve been avoiding because… they’re the ones I sketched out with the intention of “figuring it out later” and well. It’s later now. And they’re gonna get weird because that’s what I do when I get stuck and don’t want to do something. I make it weird and fun for me to make. That’s why the tiny wills are scattered over this page. Anyways, this page just looks really different without the panels and text boxes and I thought it was neat !

#miwi comic: 'best friends' #my art #the pages after this are fine #there’s only a few at the end that I’m like ‘oh it’ll be fine! I’ll figure it out when I get there!’ #but that’s in like. at least 15 pages so. #it’s fine #I think I honestly just got better as planning as I drew more pages/thumbnails/sketches #the early ones are the ones that are killing me #a lot of the middle ones are at the point where they just need colouring and text added #so basically- they’re almost done. #but these five in this group… I just need to get past them #I swear I haven’t abandoned this comic !!! #I’ve just been avoiding it because I couldn’t figure out what to do with these five pages #but I think I’m doing something now #also the text here… I don’t think it spoils anything major #like mikes pov next!! so that’s fun but. there’s not really anything plot wise- and there’s a plot. it’s a weird plot but it’s there #nothing plot wise is being said here #most of its visual stuff anyways at the moment

[todayisafridaynight]

the worst part in being able to write sentences is that nothings stopping me from writing fics yk

#snap chats #i get inflicted with images and i MUST share them through art lest i die i know it's awful #like i keep being inflicted with images but my arm hurts too much to draw any more today #bitch ass arm why are you hurting. WHY are you hurting its not even my wrist it's my bicep?????? #anyway the problem with writing lies in writing up to the scene in question #not even 'scene' just like. A Visual that lasts Max five seconds but i need to project into people's brains #ive sketched a lot of things to finish on other days today. im still too intimidated to leave the house lest i run into Mother #so im just thinking of how to kill time now that i have nothing left to do today #ough id work on my june-sale comm sheet ad thing but my arm hurt.. as i said before.. #maybe tomorrow ill do it- or ill have it ready by monday #anyways. im gonna sit here and hallucinate and see if i come up with anything 5k words worthy #'snap you know you can just write the scene you want right. you know you can even just tell us what it is right' #1.) we know how i feel about saying things i wanna write/draw !!!!! i SUCK !!!!!!! #2.) i like build up... i like us getting there.. i hate me too its ok #ok hallucinating time. or i-grow-up-and-leave-the-house time idk we'll see in like an hour ig

[unproduciblesmackdown]

the way that randos seem to have learned a tiny bit more about autistic people and are using this newfound power to give their ableism more range, like [inspiring: this gender-respecting bully will only give victims swirlies in bathroom that aligns with their identity] and [guy who researches your identity so that his microaggressions are more accurate] like oh radical that now you're throwing around the word "autistic" more comfortably as meaning shit like someone's "clueless" or "has an interest or perhaps talent" or what nonsense will follow when someone's breaking out the term "social skills" like oh nice, people accessing all the abilities of Autism Parents without having to be a parent

#nothing inherently brand new and just kind of a side effect of ppl learning Anything more abt autistic ppl like being Real & Out Here #which doesn't make that exposure Bad; b/c of course [exposure; proximity] or even Learning Anything At All doesn't make ppl like #have to do anything but just fit that into their preexisting framework; i.e. ableism #just like the examples of ''oh don't worry you can recognize trans identities while Keeping The Bullying'' #keep the ableist perspective and just update your idea of what autistic ppl are like At All #also it's ofc just like. wild lol like; it keeps being disparaging / Othering #and i'm sure ppl think they're being just neutral or w/e but even if they out & out Mean Well....like good for you personally idc??? what?? #if i was watching some shit and someone was like Would They Be That Autistic [as to do that]? like excuse you....? #like i'm not Baffled like. it's just ppl keeping the depths of ableism & adding some surface level knowledge that autistic ppl are real #and just adding ''autistic'' to their lexicon in a supposedly more technical sense....keeping the spirit of things though; ultimately #and of course the matter of like you don't fix marginalization by making ''exceptions'' to the systems/approaches/perspectives.... #like oh well i'd so heroically exercise restraint about considering people Existing Wrong lesser if i knew they were Autistic(tm) #like you don't need to Know to ''make exceptions'' and you need to change the entire approach/situation already thanks #like ppl being nonbinary & others figuring out ways to just try to tack this onto cisnormativity &; indeed; the gender binary #we didn't need an ''equivalent'' to gendered nouns; why is a blog in 2023 opening some random post w/''ladies & gentlemen & others''.... #someone's tweet the other day abt cis acquaintances being ''considerate'' emailing like ''should we call it a sex reveal party?'' like. #i'm going to need you to realize the fundamental heart of the issues here. incl ableism. and i realize you think that's Too Much.

[rooolt]

I may be in one of the worst mental states of my life, but don’t think for a second my grades are suffering

#It’s almost like the easiness of my classes is adding to my general malaise and apathetic misery and feelings of pointlessness #Literally it’s like I may be crying in class but also I’m apparently the only one who remembers the reading #And it all just adds to the “why do I have to be here suffering” of it all #It’s almost like I enjoy academics and learning but the environment I’m in sucks utter ass #“Waah waah high school sucks” I know it’s nothing new but at least some people have like friends #And can sit in a room with more than like 12 people in it and not feel sick #And I reiterate #Everything is so easy I don’t need to be here #Personal