#obviously i chose the good one

[sysig]

Ooo requestober eh? Something I've been curious to see a bit more of maybe is Jake interracting with Scriabin. Edgar wondering about what the two of them talk about together alone got me curious too 👀

(Resending to the main for you :3)

Day 3 - Definitely not kissing! If that's what you think!

Meanwhile, Jake:

#My art #Requestober #Vargas #Scriabin #Edgar #Jake #Since I already got my serious ''This is what I think they might get up to'' a couple Requestobers ago I opted for silliness this time lol #Plus last time I did Before so this time how about some After! #What situation would arise that Scriabin would have a one-on-one with Jake without Edgar? Maybe Edgar had work? Had to take Todd somewhere? #Either way he's painfully jealous on all sides haha poor lad #Jake's good to them I'm sure he'll get some affection later - Scriabin'll still hold it over his head for as long as he can tho lol #Can you tell I like lipstick stains haha ♪ They're legit some of my favourites to draw! :D #I think this is my first time - at least in a long long while - drawing them digitally tho :0 Fun! #They're just jkfdlsafd they're So cute haha ♥ Evidence of attention! Incriminating in their placement <3 #Shows where someone was most focused on making them feel loved hehehe it's just so cute to me 💕 #Like that they obviously went for each other's necks - of course - but also their foreheads and Jake kissed his nose #And also missed/got a bit too rowdy and got some lipstick on his glasses lol #Tell me that's not adorable! #And in classic fashion the lover returns home and sees lipstick stains and gets envious lol #Scriabin definitely used lipstick to make out with Jake specifically to make Edgar jealous lol - he could've avoided this and chose not to #Kiss him Edgar you'll feel better #Jake just having fun not thinking about the implications haha ♪ #I may or may not have spent an inordinate amount of time thinking about how Jake interacts with each of them around kisses >.> #I mean - other than mainfic every time he shows up he ends up kissing them in some capacity! It's hard not to recognize his patterns! Lol

[mymitochondriaforpresident]

Honestly it was less so about actually leaving the monarchy than the choice for Wille to leave the monarchy, that makes it all the more powerful.

#he chose himself #he can advocate for the mental health for young people (as simon suggested and obviously supports which AHHH MY HEART) #and in turn help himself #like he chose simon already in s2 finale #that was done already imo #he chose his own stability (which good!!! he should!!!) and in turn that will make wilmon stronger 🥹 #like simon deserves a stable partner!!! and wille realized that #he wants a partner that will choose to take care of himself!! #and i love love loveeee that simon wanted wille to leave that place because of HIMSELF like he’s the bestest boy #and wille knows this #like i’m not sure how long a*gust will truly be able to hang in there tbh….he did NOT look happy (good). #who knows what will happen (open ended!) #but it matters now because wille really needs to work on himself like i love him very much but that is not a stable boy and it hurts me #on a personal anxiety-likened level 🧠 #but there is hope. #but one day…one day. ❤️‍🩹 #prince wilhelm #wilmon #young royals #wille my beloved 💜

[dreampearls]

honestly I went into the sumeru archon quest ready to hate nahida or at the very least be very indifferent to her bc I was so like. Tired of how blatantly orientalist every aspect of sumeru seemed to be + nahidas design compounded w the fact that she's an archon using the chibi model reaaaalllly did not leave a good impression. .....However !! ! I actually ended up really liking her as a character despite my reservations. i think she might be my favorite archon if I'm going to be honest

#like i reallt really despise the 500 year old entity who looks like a 5 year old trope #but i get why they chose to make nahida a child/resemble a child. & tbh the more that i think abt it #the more i end up understainding it as a creative decision #since a lot of the archon quest involved subverting what wisdom traditionally looks by sumerus cultural standards (the thing w dreams + the #hamfisted ''the arts are Useless and Suck'' storyline lol) #what better way to subvert the traditional model of intelligence than to epitomize it w the visage of a child? #ie someone who is typically regarded as one of the lowest in society precisely because of the knowledge they lack & frequently treated as #subhuman for it #despite the fact that they are constantly accumulating knowledge at a rapid fire pace & are more open to the world around them as a result #you can only gain knowledge if you realize & respect that you only ever know so much etc. #intelligence not being a show of what you already know but rather a willingness to continue pursuing & understanding others with compassion #its Nice i Really Like that #i think the decision to represent the goddess of wisdom w childlike curiosity as opposed to an older wisened type was a good one #i just hate that its Genshin Impact doing this #so obviously their primary reasoning behind making her a child is the far more blatantly insidious one

[astriiformes]

Brain is once again consumed with thoughts about aro/ace Lilith Clawthorne

#i still? can't believe? that she's really one of us?? #also like i wish it could have made it into the show proper so badly but #the fact that the letter still dove into the idea of an older aro/ace woman only just coming to understand her identity at like 40-something #is SO good and so important to me #because obviously that is a very real narrative for a lot of aces and aros #who only figured out their identities once they had access to information on the internet or etc at older ages #but also our identities are so often considered a like. dumb kid thing that people will grow out of as they get older #as opposed to something you might realize in middle age #so like the specific character and narrative they chose there is actually extremely meaningful and i have feelings about it #folks i love her so much #f: us weirdos have to stick together

[wings-of-angels]

trying to plan out what pokèmon bruce wayne would have... much to think about

#i am envisioning batman to have: noivern (obviously he must have one bat pokèmon). lucario. and greninja #i chose the last 2 partly because i like those pokèmon but theyre also powerful and stealthy pokèmon #so fitting for batman #and noiverns more of a less-stealthy heavy hitter i guess for when hes gotten civillians out the way #batman would have to have some sort of earplugs or padding in his cowl to deal with the sound noivern creates though.. hmmmmm #im also thinking he should have some sort of electric or tech pokèmon but i cant decide which one.. #i gotta balance strategy vs his asthetic #it would be good if he had a fire and/or grass type pokèmon too but none really fit his vibe #also it would make sense he have a fighting type (aside from lucario) but i dislike all the fighting types 😔😔 #sorry pretty privellage is REAL and it is stopping me from giving him other fighting types #idk.. much to think about #i think lucario makes a lot of sense tbh like they both have the drive to do good and help people #i can envision bruce finding a riolu during his time training and instantly having that connection #ORRR bruce is so strung up on his anger and bitterness. it takes meeting riolu (who rejects him for not being as virtuous as b would think) #for bruce to kinda enforce his own principles #of becoming batman to HELP amd do GOOD and not just for vengence #meanwhile i chose greninja cos its one of my favs #brucie wayne would also need different pokèmon to batman. otherwise his secret identity is WAYY too obvious #it would depend on what kind of bruce wayne i want tho #the more ditsy playboy brucie would have different pokèmon to... e.g. ben afflecks batman whos more sleazy businessman #so many different options #SORRY FOR THE RAMBLE i am... thinking

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i'm bad at watching shows but i'm interested in their characters/plots so i've decided to try and guess canon based off of reading a bunch of fanfics. so far i don't think i'm very close because it's something my sister has watched and the characters i keep reading about are like. the sidest of all side characters. but i will find canon somewhere

#i cannot sit down and watch something i can cook and listen to something i can draw and listen but i cannot sit and watch #so i am bad at the tv shows #but words i can get into #they should like. convert shows into words so i can read them instead #which is why i have chosen fanfiction #you may wonder why i chose fanfiction of all things? surely there's a summary? #well u see i believe it is much more entertaining to uncover canon through different interpretations of characters and how they're explored #and tbh i care more about characters in these cases than the plot. though i love plot i'm just more interested in characterization #bc plot is good and all but if you're characters suck then no-one cares #and in fanfiction people often play with characterization and explore them in ways that can go beyond canon #i'm trying to find the heart of these characters based on the way people write them #and even when characters are heavily changed for an au there will have to have been something to inspire that change #and i must decide if it's projection from the author or coincidental or there is a deep-seated reason that that character was altered #and i besides reading fanfic where you have no idea what's going on is pretty fun ngl #obviously i will need to read a lot of fanfic for sample size or whatever but i will get there and then i will double-check w my sister #to see how correct i can get it #she's more of a casual enjoyer of things so idk if my characterization focus will resonate or not but eh idc

[dilfsuzanneyk]

the thing about ace and her band is that they are gay for each other in so many different ways

#like yeag ace and nikki are married. everyone assumed they liked each other romantically #they dont know what it is they just know they feel strongly for each other and chose to spend their lives together #plus nikki is on the aroace spectrum. btw. if you even care. #ace and jack though? they say they're friends. like best friends. at some point roommates. #have they made out sloppy style? yeah obviously. didnt you hear me i said they were best friends. #have they fooled around a bit more? yeah and they joke about it constantly but no one believes them #never officially announced that they were dating so everyone assumed they werent meanwhile the two of them just assumed that the other knew #what they meant to each other #jack and nikki? girl best friends. they talk shit about ace together (affectionately) and do each other's nails #also wanted to spend the rest of their lives together but jack wanted his own space at the same time #solution? neighbours <3 #jun is just down bad head over heels for all three of them. #like down BAD. would do anything they asked #lives with jack too. unofficially dating so everyone assumes they're just really good friends even though it's obvious #in conclusion your honour these bitches GAY. #vex rambles #ace o'spades #jack-off hearts #nikolaus haas #han junjie

[gatheryepens]

March 20th and 21st, 2023

48/50 and 49/50 days of productivity

Happy happy Tuesday all!!! I hope everyone is having a good evening/afternoon/morning today. These past two days have been fairly productive, yesterday in biology we did a trial run for our pag and it went really well we only need to make a few minor adjustments. I also had my driving lesson yesterday which went really well! Today I did a lot of maths revision mainly practising integration because it is quite difficult and I started and completed a past paper. I also had chemistry today and the stuff we are doing is really confusing me…

Tasks achieved:

Chemistry past paper

A2 integration

🎧 Young Blood - 5SOS

QOTD - favourite animal

#studyblr #studyspo #chemblr #stemblr #a level chemistry #50 dop #50 days of productivity #gatherstudies #gatherbeingstudious #g/alevels #in case anyone is interested in the biology pag #we are basically investigating respiration rates and what affects it #so my friend and I are doing glucose #and just varying the concentration by doing serial solutions #like we chose the easiest one to do lmao 😭😭 #but the write up will be easy and if something goes askew then it would be good #as we can talk about what we expected to happen #and what happened in the actual practical #because obviously the one with the higher glucose concentration will have a great rate of respiration #and produce more gas

[lotus-pear]

in lieu of recent art, have these drawings i did for my english ii class for our julius caesar final project

#the duality of my art style sometimes is appalling even to me #the prompt was to draw your favorite character so i did my take on cassius🥲 #and the second was illustrate a scene #so like i obviously chose the one where cassius was like ''brutus dearest wouldest thou like to murder caesar perchance'' #the teacher thought it was so good she printed it out and framed it but i got a 98 bc i forgot to put my citations in alphabetical order #also she said bro literally none of the romans were blonde #like the only inhabitants of the republic at that time that were blonde were the slaves from gaul which is present day france #also like everyone in julius caesar is like 40+ so she asked me why he looked like a college freshman about to commit murder🤡🤡 #i did not have an answer #the only art i've done recently is for school hgsajhdkfjfvfk i need to get a life #I'M LITERALLY STILL SO MAD I GOT A 98 ON THIS BC I DIDN'T PUT MY STUPID CITATIONS IN ORDER #MLA FORMAT CAN GET STABBED 23 TIMES IDC #julius caesar #lotus draws

[unproduciblesmackdown]

fr if taylor and philip don't kiss then what's this all been about. (the entire series of billions) what is it all for

#and it's so damn plausible.... #billions Does go ''this character's doing better :)'' by having them dating someone which = they kissed (& possibly also then fucked) #and taylor has over & over chosen other priorities over what's good just for Business or Power. why wouldn't they now #starting tmc was for themself & was an obviously super risky business move Not guaranteed more lucrative than staying w/axe #but they had to do it b/c they personally couldn't bear to keep operating that way as axe's begrudgingly more compensated tool #to use whenever however he wanted....end of s4 obviously made the pivot away from not only profits but hypothetical Personal Revenge.... #end of s5 again they gotta Not be axe's tool. arguably dumping lauren was a redirect of what they could've done re their personal #relationship with wendy; the more longstanding one there & the one most poised to fuck more shit up for them even now.... #s6 they're still just awaiting their chance to break out; they've handed themself the memo of ''don't date someone based on being trapped i #the inescapable escape room together b/c you both decide not to pursue more of a life outside the escape room than that'' #(which; like wendy not going to superhell being like ''lol. ok Sure she prudently wouldn't'': rian shouldn't be dying to date taylor b/c #neither of them have ever been shown enjoying each other's company very much or for more than 5 seconds; but if for some reason that's not #enough and if she's fired off zero thoughts abt why it's a shit idea to slap the zillionaire politician boss man twice your age's bald head #then i don't believe she'd sagely & so much respect warrantingly turn taylor down. but it's pretty clear that rian's motivations are Only #gonna ever be whatever the [other character's plotlines] in any given scene would be conveniently helped along by. amazing) #meanwhile philip has chosen to be here but he's very much Not just like ''ok guess i'll go in the escape room'' with it #doesn't work for taylor or vice versa; Chose to work With taylor And vice versa #they Do both choose to interact and Do both find it enriching; already unlike taylor interacting with rian #& already p much outdoing the development of taylaur or the mistake that was [not just banging oscar once if you're gonna bother at all] #(or at least making it a ''we'll hook up if you're on my coast'' maximizing Convenience cwb situation) (colleagues) #it's so Enriched overall already like. this has to be Important #and we'll take ''it is important'' and please In A Good Way #and billions is perfectly liable to make it a matter of kissing into dating into your personal stonks being up #winston billions #taylip #just looking at those images like....c'mon

[doctorbrown]

DOCTOBER '23 ⸺ 「 30 / 31 * SUNSET 」

July 31, 1992

❝God, Doc, I'm so nervous. Am I supposed to be this nervous?❞ Marty has been pacing back and forth for the last ten minutes, his anxiety spiking, and none of Emmett's previous attempts thusfar have managed to still his feet or calm the storm brewing over his head.

He understands the nerves, having felt them when he had decided to propose to Clara, fearing he may have been too forward and misreading the entire situation or she would, when presented with the opportunity, turn him down for his age or his appearance or the fact that the life he currently had was nothing glamorous, certainly not for a brilliant woman who had her entire life ahead of her.

Clara had quashed every single one of his own worries the moment they arose.

❝Marty. Marty!❞ Emmett stops him in his tracks with both hands on his shoulders and when Marty finally looks up, clarity returning the sharpness to the blue of his eyes, he looks exactly like his seventeen-year-old self again, far younger than his years. ❝Of course it's natural to be nervous, but try and relax. Take a few deep breaths. I can assure you that everything is on schedule, Jennifer is not going to stand you up, and things will go just fine.❞

Marty throws a look at him that says how can you be so sure? when he's feeling so uncertain about everything, and Emmett is certain he's running through possibilities in his head that are so highly improbable they could never happen in this timeline.

He squeezes his shoulders and when Marty follows his advice and takes a few long, slow breaths, Emmett switches to straightening the tie his worry has knocked askew.

❝You two love each other. There's nothing that's going to change that. Everybody is nervous on their wedding day and before other pivotal moments in their lives. The sun is setting on this chapter of your life as you take the next step forward. But I promise you that once you step out there and you see Jennifer walking down the aisle, you won't feel nervous anymore.❞

❝You're right, Doc, I know you are. It's just; it's really happening. I'm about to marry Jennifer. She's going to be Jennifer McFly. We're gonna spend the rest of our lives together.❞

❝So then what's the problem?❞

Marty shakes his head and fumbles for the words to explain the frenzy stirring in his chest. Emmett is unflappable even in the wake of the torrent of Marty's emotions and Marty doesn't know where he'd be right now without him. ❝I—the rings?❞

❝Safely in the possession of the ring-bearers.❞

❝The music?❞

❝The band is all present and accounted for.❞

❝My family?❞

❝Seated beside Detective Parker.❞

❝The photographers? Jen wanted to make sure we got lots of pictures.❞

❝Marty, you already spoke to them, remember? They had taken photos of us not long ago.❞

He shakes his head. ❝That's right; it feels like it happened yesterday or in a dream or something.❞

Emmett gently guides him over toward the long mirror and places him directly in the centre of it. Marty takes a moment to look them both over, dressed sharply in their well-pressed black suits. His hair is freshly cut and styled and Marty smiles at the way his best friend had gone through the trouble of wrangling his hair into something neat and well-kept rather than the wild mane it often was.

Clara almost certainly had a hand in that, he thinks, and somewhere in the back of his mind, he hopes she can hear his thank you.

❝Doc? Can I, uh, ask you something?❞

Emmett nods, using the mirror to now fuss over his own appearance while he still has the chance. As best man, it was important everything be in place, and the setup and smooth operation of the wedding was far more important than his own personal appearance. Clara reminded him time-and-time again of his tendency to get too-caught up in whatever endeavour has his attention, and she had reminded him before they left to make sure his appearance didn't suffer as he ran about aiding in the day's proceedings.

Now that they have a moment and less than an hour until it all begins, the last thing he wants is to add even the slightest bit more to Marty's plate for him to worry over.

His black suit is still wrinkle-free, his hair has yet to adopt a life of its own and begin to fly every which way, and no matter how hard he looks, he can't find any part of his appearance that needs fixing.

❝I think maybe I'm also afraid that once we get married, everything's gonna change, you know? That things are going to have to be different now that we're husband and wife. I guess what I'm wondering is after you and Clara got married, did things feel all that different between you? Did things change a lot when she became your wife?❞

Emmett hums. ❝There was an adjustment period after the fact when it came to calling her my wife. As you know, I never imagined such a thing for myself. As a scientist, I was already married to science, as it was, and the idea of falling in love, let alone at first sight, was simply nonsense. The stuff of romance novels.❞

Marty actually finds himself able to manage a grin as he thinks back to the memory of seeing the doc wide-eyed and tongue-tied in a way he never imagined possible. ❝No kidding. I've never seen you look the way you looked at Clara before. You had it bad, Doc, right at the start.❞

❝Not unlike the way I've seen you look at Jennifer over the years. In fact, I think I still recall the way you looked when you mentioned her in 1955.❞ Marty's cheeks tinge pink.

❝But even after being officially married, our relationship didn't change. It became a little more proper for us to be together the way we were—as you may or may not know, perceptions were very different back in the nineteenth century, and as Clara was Hill Valley's only schoolteacher, it was necessary for her to maintain a very good image, as she was a role model for the children—but we didn't treat each other any differently.❞

They had already been married in all but name by the time their wedding day came around. All that was left was to make it official, sign the documents, and appease everyone else's old-fashioned sensibilities.

❝By that time, we were already practically living together. I wasn't rich by any means, but we had Clara's home and the stable which I had converted into living quarters, we were both working, and I occasionally assisted with some of the school lessons. She was my confidante, the one person with whom I could share the truth of my existence with, and she had embraced the idea of time-travel and life in the twentieth century so quickly that even I was astounded.❞

Emmett turns away from the mirror to properly look at his friend.

❝So I suppose that was a very long way to say no, nothing changed after the fact. Other than the entire town openly wondering when we would finally start a family of our own.❞

That prompts a groan out of Marty. ❝Guess I'll have to be ready for my parents to start asking when we'll be giving them grandkids. Got another question for you, Doc.❞

Emmett checks one of his wristwatches. ❝Sure; we still have a little time before the ceremony is scheduled to begin and we have to get into position.❞

❝What was your wedding day like? Since I didn't get to see it, I'd really like to know.❞

#doctober 2023 #GOD THIS IS THE SECOND TO LAST PROMPT THIS IS *WILD* #i almost didn't think i'd be able to get this challenge done but y'know #fuck yeah; i made it #and i'm very proud of myself and i had a lot of fun doing it #all these prompts were such a good time and definitely pushed me to think/be creative which i loved doing #i imagine marty proposed probably some time in '89 and they had a somewhat long engagement before the wedding to deal with life and #careers and getting themselves set up and all that #doc is obviously the best man and marty and jen would've had it no other way #if this was still tp timeline he might've proposed earlier but he needed that adjustment period as well to start figuring out this new #reality he (and doc ig) created #but anyway i chose to interpret sunset as the sun setting on a chapter of one's life to rise on another #rather than an actual sunset (though i had ideas for that too) #the idea of marty being all nervous for the wedding just gets me though #jen is also def stressed because she wants everything to be perfect but what can you do #i just really wanted to write some of this and as the last established prompt i thought it was too good to pass up #&; a great idea can change the world 「 hc 」

[knghtlock]

SAVATHUN SWEEEEEEEEEEEEP!

#ooc.exe #destiny spoilers / #CAN'T WAIT TO GRAB IMMARU AND SEE MOTHER MOTH AGAIN #i really wanna write a meta on hotarus feelings towards savathun #tldr: its complicated ( obviously ) but as a card carrying Weird Ass Guardian whose acceptance into the city is uh. #conditional at best? i think she'd be willing to give savathun a chance. i mean the traveler chose her #just like the rest of us. this doesnt mean she isnt still absolutely pissed about the osiris incident but like... #hotaru Wants to believe that she can work with savathun because its so fucking tiring to keep making enemies #one of her core beliefs is “i want to beljeve everyone has the potential to be good but if you fuck me over you have to work for my trust” #IDK! IDK! I THINK HOTARU WOULD OFFER HER A CUP OF TEA TO HASH OUT OLD GRIEVANCES!!!! #mobile.exe

[transdavyjones]

Trying to draw Micky for basically the first time

#work in progress obviously but I just wanted to share smthng bc. I’m having. a rough day #doesn’t look exactly like him yet but i think I’ll figure it out #can’t believe I drew mickys fursona before I drew micky #I’ll have 2 work on that one too lol #it’s still in the ugly design phase but I think I chose a good animal for him #but no yeah Micky is really fun to draw #pretty smile #he’s goth here bc. I have my reasonings. #idk why I haven’t really drawn him before now #I guess I’m like. the least micky girl. I like him a lot but I haven’t had like. a true micky phase. like I have for the other 3 #YET. #but I do turn into a Micky girl for 3 minutes every time I hear his voice #ok sorry bye just wanted 2 talk for a bit #need 2 sleep. working the election tomorrow. 16-18 hours straight!!! that’s like a human rights violation #chose the worst day to be unwell lol

[butwhatifidothis]

“ Byleth saying she’d literally rather die than be mixed raced, because her being mixed with Nabatean and human meant she “didn’t belong anywhere” Jesus H Christ thats fucked up.

as someone of mixed-race that was particularly hellish to read ngl

as was reading this

#ask #anon #exqueuese me princess #o captain my captain #okay but like the way Byleth's mixed-race is consistently portrayed as a bad thing #even though it's never portrayed as such in the game except by the open racists The Gard and Hubert #and the way Claude *obviously* ''chose''' his Almyran heritage and rejected his Fodlandi one as unimportant to him on a personal level #even though that's not what he does in the game #very interesting way to portray the literal only two mixed-race characters in the entire game #*sigh* again. I don't know the guy personally. I doubt he meant it like that. But damn does it not look good is all I'm sayin' #also that scene in the screeshot in its entirety is actually godawful. genuinely some of the worst shit I've ever read. yes even for the fic

[blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk]

requested by @honey-milkypeach, a crystal kit for Maurice!

along with a disclaimer that CRYSTALS ARE NOT A REPLACEMENT FOR MEDICAL TREATMENT AND ADVICE, physically or mentally speaking!

with that said, I’ve chosen the following gemstones for Maurice!

ALEXANDRITE for rebirth, to balance emotions, and to accept oneself as well as the rest of the world exactly as it is.

CAVANSITE for self-reflection, assistance in breaking destructive patterns of thought and behavior, to promote an appreciation of beauty, and a reminder to think before acting.

EPIDOTE for encouraging prosperity and generosity, gaining awareness, clearing stagnant energy and releasing emotions, and to be good for the skin when taken as an elixir.

LAPIS LAZULI for bringing honesty and compassion, helping to dissipate cruelty and suffering, facilitating bonding in romance and friendships, and for easing migraines.

this was so much fun omg... I need to make more haha <3

#Black Butler #Kuroshitsuji #Maurice #Maurice Cole #crystal kit edit #not me being stunned by how many cOOL AND AMAZING CRYSTALS THERE ARE #whilst shopping on a new site I won a free book about crystals with my purchase and downloaded it as a PDF #THERE'S 277 PAGES OF IT AND SOME OF THEM ARE CRYSTALS I'VE NEVER HEARD OF/DON'T KNOW MUCH ABOUT #so obviously I consulted that while picking these~ #my favorite one of the crystals I chose for him is probably the alexandrite it's just SO PRETTY #but also the epidote is neat because you KNOW he'd make an elixir with it and chug that shit for the sake of good skin............ #s i g h my vain boy XD

[yappacadaver]

heavy stuff under the cut

dude i can’t go 6 months without my Mom telling me she’s sick of me, cant stand me, wants me gone, is kicking me out of the house like god damn. Why even pretend that you want a relationship with me? you hate my ass! I can’t say an opinion, be upset, have an attitude, without literally risking homelessness. I literally have no family to fall back on. She knows this, and makes the threats anyway! Like she’s almost doing it on purpose or something! Literally all I did was say “I thought I told you the date and time already” when she freaked the fuck out cause she didn’t know when the appointment was. And now I get a lovely little reminder that she hates my ass, wants me gone even if I’m homeless and even if it screws up my education plan. Because I’m not well enough put together. Cause the main thing that helps someone get it together is homelessness and being told your effort is worthless.

I have clawed my way back from failure, I am back in school as an honors student, I get grants and scholarships for my work. I am doing everything I fucking can and it will never be enough and I’ll never have a parent who loves me. Woopie. 

#There is nothing I could have possibly done to this woman to deserve this shit I have been a good kid my whole life despite her neglect #she used to fall asleep for days and little 5 year old me learned how to boil hotdogs to survive #she physically assaulted me for leaving my sock on the couch #she tried to kill herself after I ran away from her bullshit #AND THATS JUST THE ONE PARENT #talking like i am entitled like bitch??? I am entitled to the love of my parents tf you on??? #obviously im a huge dummy for EXPECTING love but fuck yea I am entitled to it #your stupid ass chose to get pregnant at 23 in college for a music degree #your stupid ass decided to keep the baby #and your stupid ass decided to take responsibility for raising that baby #I was a damned honors student while you were assaulting me and trying to kys to prove a point #I'm still trying to make shit work even after you've argued that you have a right to see my naked body and touch me without consent #and you want to talk about entitlement #genuinely kys #tw everything