#oh god save me from myself

[reireichu]

me: lol i dont think im gonna write and post anymore bc everything that happened last time was an experience and the angry anons scared me

also me: i'm going to write armand and he's going to be the nastiest fugly slut you'll ever meet

#oh fuck im writing again #interview with the vampire amc #someone please stop me???? #the vampire armand #daniel molloy #i saved this screenshot as “bitterafarmand.jpg” and it is accurate #oh god save me from myself #rei fic

[riacte]

Got excited for my Superhero False + Civilian Ren AU and I had to draw something for it ^^

Ren, a civilian in charge of a pie shop, keeps on getting kidnapped by supervillains for some reason. Since Ren can’t flirt his way out of trouble, the superhero Symmetry makes it her personal mission to save him every time. Ren doesn’t know why she’s so insistent, but he’s flattered.

Meanwhile, Ren’s childhood and highschool frenemy False pops up after years of mysteriously disappearing. They awkwardly reconnect, but why does she look distant every time he gushes about Symmetry saving him?

(Or: nostalgia, a stubborn pretence that lasts twenty years, and the consequences of knowing someone a little too well.)

I’m just winging it tbh, these aren’t like canon designs or whatever. Symmetry’s suit is based on her HC9 base and it ended up looking like the bi flag but it’s okay, I’m bi <3

#uh. now the scary part. tags #the fic / au is shippy but this art isn’t so. not tagging the ship tag #falseren #eagledog #<- don’t mind me just trying out tags for myself #hermitcraft #ria.art #feel it still au #save me blond woman with wings. save me #oh god. im not beating the blue/red allegations. fuck. #(<- coming from red/green person) #also she usually has a helmet. he doesn’t know who she is (yet) #hermitfic

[junebugtwin]

WOE: ANCIENT UNFINISHED MS PAINT MADOKA MAGICA ANIMAITON BE UPON YEE!

#not worm #madoka magica #puella magi madoka magica #madoka kaname #pmmm #homura akemi #pmmm kyubey #animation #my art #theres no rhyme or reason behind me posting this btw #except for the fact that i am CONSTANTLY fighting myself in a battle to post all of my old weird animations on here on a daily basis #u guys have no IDEA the kind of eldritch horrors i am saving u from having to witness... #madoka magica spoilers #i guess???? it came out in 2011 sooo...oh god 2011.....

[rhysbarber]

Is this the first timelapse I've ever posted here???

I'm not sure why this specifically kicked my ass so hard, but here's a glimpse at the entire torturous process.

I can finally move on. 😂

#timelapse #tekken #kazuya mishima #oh god my process is a nightmare #someone save me from myself

[yume-fanfare]

the fine album sounds So good.

#oh my god wandering clown takes the cake for me it's excellent #crystal pleasure also sounds rly good it is indeed much closer to the sound i like in hikaru midorikawa #treasure memories sounds cute too <33 i think ill have fun with it #(its no little little prince star but it's good) #and yuzuru too omg i wasn't expecting it to be like that but i love the change in tone from zutto soba de #angelic grace is also great! enjoying it #all in all. hard to convince myself to save because i already have other purchases to make next week. #god but the solos rly sound fantastic and the album as a whole is excellent #the center songs sound fantastic back to back like this i absolutely love it #thank you fine #mar's midnight rambles

[frecklystars]

To the lovely anon who suggested I watch Centaurworld, thank you for the recommendation!!! The animation is absolutely stunning and I can’t take my eyes off of it. Also, the voice actor for Zulias is the same voice actor for Blades from Rescue Bots, which makes me miss him more, and it’s sooo nice to hear his voice again 🥺🥺🥺

#also the scene where Horse is singing about missing her rider!!! #and!!! singing about how she's worried she'll never find her!!!! #AND THE LIGHTS IN THE MEADOW? FORMING A GHOST OF THEM TOGETHER?? #THATS LITERALLY WHAT I'VE WRITTEN FOR MY SAVING STARLIGHT AU #SO YOU CAN IMAGINE MY FUCKING EXCITEMENT WHEN I SAW THAT #I WAS LIKE WHOWHWWOHOHOAH STARKERI SONG???? #ive always written/drawn rid2015 starscream to see ghosts of me in our meadow #and agh when horse is like 'what if you move on without me' AHGHGH #MAKES ME FEEL EMOTIONS #seeing that scene made me think... maybe ill be able to get back into my AU someday #like fully immerse myself and hyperfixate again #i think i can. :) #one day at a time #woof #its silly but when i saw that scene my first thought was #'oh starlight misses me and is reaching out to me' #sometimes i look for signs from the universe that im meant to heal #when i notice these little things #and seeing/hearing that song about them missing each other and wanting to find each other #god 🥺🥺 #i needed it so so so bad #anon thank you so much for thinking of me and recommending this show

[skitskatdacat63]

thank you for the historical au seb

this is for you

005 DO YOU WANT TO KILL ME!?!?!?! DO YOU WANT ME TO DIE!?!?!?!?(positive) I AM GOING TO CRY YOU ARE GONNA KILL ME WITH THIS 🥹 I'M GONNA SOBBBBB!!! I'M GONNA STARE AT THIS FOR 5 HOURS THANK YOU THANK YOU THANKNYOU!!!!

OH MY GODDDD!!!!!!!! 💕💕💕💕💕🥹🥹🥹🥹🤧🤧🥹🥺🥹🥹🤧🥹🥺🥹🫡🥹💕😭💕💕

HE'S SO CUTEEEEEEEE 🥺🥺🥺🥺 I LOVE THE WAY YOU DREW HIM!!!!!!!!! You drew him perfectly 🥺🥺 grumpy little boy king Sebby 🥺🥺 and his fluffy hair and huge clothes 🥺🥺 all curled up 🥺 Omg the robe!!!! Hehe im glad the little hearts I put didn't go unnoticed!!

#YOU'RE TOO SWEET!!!! seriously this is gonna make me cry 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #i was just talking about how i feel very inspired bcs its my au so im the only one feeding myself #BUT THEN YOU COME AND FEED ME 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹 #DANKE DANKE DANKE DANKE!!!!! #drawings that make me say “JUNGEEEEEEE” #i absolutely love thw way you drew his clothes!!!!! so perfect!!!!!!!! #actually the way you drew this really reminds me of engravings from back in this era #like literally looks exactly like some of the references i have saved!! #so thank you for that particular brainrot!!! bcs im like OH MY GOD NOW I HAVE ART OF HIM THAT LOOKS VERY SPECIFICALLY ACCURATE #but seriously the robe i am absolutely obsessed oh my god.....your understanding of fabric folds oh my god!!!!!!!!!!!! #kissing him kissing him kissing him 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #im so glad you like the au btw!!!! its a lot of fun!!!!! #i mean i was very glad to have people join the narrative but gifted art oh my god??????? thann you!!!!! #i wish i could be more concise but you have murdered me with this and im also sick as hell 😭 #catie.asks. #sebastian vettel #boy king au

[sleepy-stitches]

cleaning my room is so much effort but oh well its not like anything could have been done to reduce that <- FOOL WHO HASNT CLEANED IN OVER A YEAR

#this is not a moral judgement on myself or any others. for the record #i had other stuff going on and even if i didnt that is between me and god #that said. jesus fucking christ man. i didnt really register how bad it had gotten #i am slowly finding things that i thought had been lost to time which is good but also hahaaaaaaaa oops #its fine. every day is an adventure for me. tomorrow i have to finish cleaning around my shelves and then start on the desk #because if i have those two done then everything else can be sorted away nicely. it only gets easier #fuuuuuuuuck oh i have to work out moving my dice shelf dont i. it didnt even register but like i do have to take that. it was custom made #thats the only furniture i have actual emotional attachment to everything else in here kind of sucks #i will miss my bookshelf a little bit i did save her from doom but she will serve better here than she could where im going #sorry we have got to that point of comfortable on tumblr where i just start fucking saying anything #original post placeholder tag

[sabitiziing]

Art Block is beating my ass, but I do have some sketches that have made it out of the trenches 🙏

#sabi draws #haurchefant's side profile is going to be what saves me from my inability to draw that angle i can feel it #i love his fucking face so god damn much oh its baaaad y'all #anyway im not tagging these bc theyre messy af i just wanted to upload them for myself

[szczylpierdolony]

life is falling through my fingers more that usually

#i’ve been in a pretty much constant state of panic since january #and it’s gotten worse recently bc of 1. thesis writing (or lack thereof) #2. administrative problems at uni that i caused due to the constant state of anxiety and depression #like whyyyy do things like going to the uni office send me spiraling like nothing else #and i’ve been feeling weird and disconnected for a while now and nothing seems to interest me anymore #like i’m light headed in the worst way and i think if one thing goes badly i’ll genuinely fall down crying #and i can’t seem to do anything productive bc of the anxiety either #ok i checked usos. the administrative problem got more or less solved #oh thank god #i love depression loveee it love causing problems for myself that i later have to bother other people about bc i can’t solve them by myself #esp when you have to admit to them that mental illness is what caused them bc even when they’re sympathetic and nice about it i still feel #like such a pathetic idiot my god #also i’ve been thinking a lot abt how a pattern that repeats in my life is the lack of closure #from silly things to more serious ones #like how i didn’t attend my elementary school graduation nor the hs one #the first one bc of travelling and the second bc of covid #so i just closed my laptop and then went to pick up my diploma after matura results and that was it i never saw any of my teachers or #thanked them etc #and how all my friendships that died out were this kind of sudden drop like nothing happened but we just stopped talking one day and that #was it and idk where we stand #and how i seem to leave loose threads everywhere i go and i can’t tell if it’s just a coincidence or if i do that on purpose but #unconciously so as to not have to deal with things ending bc that scares me #i’ve never felt grounded in any moment and it’s so strange #also yeah yeah weird behaviour meant to save me from abandonment whatever #📓 #niedziela wieczór i humor popsuty co mogę powiedzieć

[fulane-de-tal]

maybe it will get better. maybe i’ll fucking make it get better ?

#je parle #no but fr i think i’m struggling but i’ve had worse so i have basically nothing to compare it to #either way it’s my shit to struggle with and i can’t give this to other people and i can’t trust anyone else to be what i need from #a friend so i will have to do it all for myself. #oh god someone save me #if you know me irl dont fucking read this post #ily but no

[musings-of-miss-j]

how do i have three fics. and all of them are in the Stuck in Goop Stage and Refusing to Progress

#like please god i just want to write. where are the words. #'oh if i have a wide scope of storylines i'll never run out of ideas' #<-- a fucking clown #someone save me from myself #and this cursed word document #miss j's musings #'musings' she says as if it's not just straight up complaining

[problemcore]

i miss this game already

#took me. over 220 hours to finally get through the ending of the game #i kept quitting right before the end and starting a new playthrough #something about act 3 as a whole. #the start of the game is just. so damn fun...... #i love creating my character and meeting the companions for the first time. getting to the grove and saving the tieflings #over and over again #im not sure how i feel about the ending. i think my brain is just soup so maybe I'll have thoughts on it later #it was. confusing? fun. unsatisfying? cathartic #i have to stop myself from. going back and trying to change the ending i got. #for the last 3 hours i was just agonising over all these small choices that really. just robbed me from the whole experience #its um. almost 6 am. lol #one thing i can say for sure. #completely unforgettable game. through all its flaws i can definitely name after 220 hours. i still thoroughly enjoyed it #forever altered my brain chemistry #i should. sigh. probably take a break from this game. #at least move on to a different game good lord. bg3 has completely consumed the last month and a half for me #i wont stay away for too long probably. i want to start my dark urge run finally #oh god its 6 am i have not slept at all #ok. goodnight dear followers. so so so tired. #chris noises #bg3

[seventh-district]

screaming shaking crying trembling wailing sobbing throwing up punching the wall in anguish and agony and angst etc etc etc

#Seven.txt #Seven’s Public Diary #cw vent post #kinda?? i guess?? #cw dentist #anyways yeah. i have to go to the dentist soon and i wanna throw up just thinking abt it #someone just fucking hit me with a tranq gun and get it over with already oh my god i don’t wanna do thisssssss #but don’t actually do that cause i would deadass revoke someone’s breathing privileges if they ever sedated me without my consent #that’s part of what i’m so afraid of. i don’t know what i’m gonna do if they say i have to be put under general anesthesia for this. #i will literally cry and run out of the building #so here’s hoping that they can just numb it and keep me awake #i need to stay awake for this man it’s the only way i can handle it. i don’t wanna be vulnerable like that. #hhhhhhh last time i was in a dentist chair i was shaking uncontrollably and it’s so embarrassing when my body does that shit #i’m so afraid it’s gonna be like that again cause my fear has gotten so much worse as i’ve put off going #but my father will be there with me so maybe my need to appear strong in front of him will override my body’s need to shake in fear lmao #so i’ve got someone to take me and i’ve thankfully got the money saved to afford it so realistically i shouldn’t be upset #but i am so so afraid and no amount of logic is gonna help me out here. i already know that #i just have to go do it like i have to force myself to do all the other things i’m afraid of #ugh. i can’t tell if i’m nauseous cause of the pain radiating from my jaw bone to my brow bone or if it’s anxiety #or if it’s cause i couldn’t eat last night. or all three. probably all three #i’ve never had any cavities or serious issues with my teeth before in my life so this is so so so new and scary and i hate it #but i want the pain to stop so i gotta get this fixed. and never eat anything with sugar or acid or anything ever again #and brush my teeth one million times a day so this doesn’t happen again #sighs and collapses on the floor. i guess i couldn’t run from the consequences of my mentally ill actions forever #also no for once i didn’t actually punch anything. that was just a figure of speech. and i’m in enough pain as it is rn lmao

[empyreanmirror]

i hope you know im selectively uploading things to protect you all from lies of p content

#(as in ive only uploaded the first and third one here and the other three are LOP) #not art #why? because i wasnt even the fucking one to play it i watched Asunder playing like. a few fucking scenes because he chewed #through that fucking game like he'd played it a million times (and enjoyed it). and like. i know nothing. of the game #im one of those ''if im making fanart i better know half the games lore minimum or have been playing for years (eg TES)'' #but this game? I know next to nothing about it #im saving you from ''haha interesting character concepts go brr but i have to put it in my style so i know nothing AND am playing #with the characters like dolls'' content. just kidding mostly im stopping myself personally but like #its funny af bc i generally upload everything i do (yeah. i really genuinely did stop drawing for ages bc i havent been awake in this #body more than like five mins a day since spring yaddah yaddah but yeah its not that im just not uploading lmfao) and then i open #my recents and its like. I Do Not See It. its very clear that the only things i havent uploaded(or am avoiding working on BECAUSE #i dont want to upload them) are lies of p LMFAO #.... oh when i say ''if im making fanart'' i mean continuously. i do bits and pieces here and there but can you tell lies of p may become #a theme for a hot minute #god wtf has this game done to me. i really cant stand fairytale-based games nor do i ever really like soulsborne-likes lmfao #i also dont like character design when all the characters are really conventionally pretty or lean towards it #...... i fully expected to never even slightly connect w lies of p lmfao

[keeps-ache]

i've realized recently that much of the expressiveness of my eyes was just me trying to see other people's expressions. so now when i make faces my eyes stay Wide Open loll

#just me hi #that's so interesting but now i'm concerned about how i'm coming across bfhbah #like when i smile and laugh my eyes are like ◎v◎ #//anyway if another person compliments my looks this year i'm going nuclear #stop. doign that fvshbfhs #i'm going to bury myself in the back and wait for the moss to take me. somebody save me sos sos sos #'anyway you ever see someone so stunning you kind of take a mental screenshot?' 'yea when i see you' 'you could at least blink when you lie #to me' leave me ALGEONE #and then it's always like the prettiest/handsomest people i know and they LOOK ME IN THE EYEEEEEEEEEEE and say 'oh no im not' i'm taking us #BOTH to the moss pit. take my hand mothertrucker. you're not getting away with this. you funkin. Idioit #absolutely disgusting behavior. you are lookin but you are Not thinkin <3 #//anyway aside from the utter nonsense >:3 #[leans towards the mic] i hav Prignles. Preyengles. thaz right. Prungles #[sits back] i am also sick again Hfvbshvs #idk i keep catching stuff man. maybe i was destined to be a collector but i didn't meet the quota and god is trying to catch me up idkkkk #i got sick SIX times last year!! is that ridiculous or What ? i think it's What. What Happened Man hfbshfsvh #and you know when you get sick sometimes and it's not the Physically worst thing you've ever gone through but it does something wrong to #your brain chemicals? yea.. yea #also- this is just my opinion (i'm right)- i don't think i need mucous membranes #just take them out man. i will Give Them Away. anybody want them? they're free :33 #i am giving away not Only my membranes but Also just my entire head!! i'm thinking of replacing it with one of those fake plastic fish-tank #yea the really cheap ones. very gender to me. also my head would be Great for a frankenstein project!! i can't say it has experience Doing #that but ay. everybody gets a start somewhere! :D #and if anybody wants some legs (they are short- fair warning) i am also giving those away too. i was thinking of replacing them with bed #springs :>> #//anyway i am going to try to focus on my thingy now #i wanna draw. i wanna write. and i'm Going to use a taser on my brain :3 #gl with your expeditions. no matter the matter !! :D