#oh no i was wrong it was 2015

[piknim]

Carbon dating a really old tumblr post that someone randomly liked is fun

#somewhere when i was still living with my dad and hated my stepmom #and when undertale was still popular. maybe new? #also i used to organize my posts i kinda miss that #oh wow i found when we got the guinea pig my stepmom used to care for #and my stepmom being a bitch baby bc i told her not to put a solid lid with a few holes drilled into it on #the aquarium she lived in at the time #and complaining to my dad bc he was taking my side and i make her feel stupid lmak #i always want to go back and delete all the posts i made complaining about her then i read them and feel justified again #✌️ #also found when i broke my laptops hinge like a yr after i got it so that means the post was made in 2016 #sometime in November maybe even dec #bc we got the gp at Thanksgiving that yr and i was still into undertale which came out in September #oh no i was wrong it was 2015 #i forgot i got the laptop when i was in school for Christmas #so it was the year i graduated #djsbsnsnsnsn #pretty good carbon dating 😎

[skeletoninthemelonland]

i'm sick and coughing so much my soul leaves my body multiple times but here's the first ever Springtrap drawing I made. This is from 2015

#help he got strands of hair on top of his head thats shaped like an ass #i dont even know what to say #this is from 2015 and im pretty sure its the first drawing because back then i didnt like him at all #it wasnt a 'oh i HATE this character SO MUCH' but a 'ew ugly and idc' #this means i didnt draw him that often #now i lay in bed to watch springtrap edits #now i draw him so often i almost completely memorized his design #and when im having trouble sleeping i imagine hes sitting on the side of my bed with his hand gently placed over my head #'whats wrong?' he asks #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #springtrap #i should redraw this later

[illiana-mystery]

🙂😁

#so cute #what a cutie #oh i just want to hug him #he looks so huggable #i think this was around 2015 #when these pictures were taken #i could be wrong though #my sweet alfredo #my heart #❤️❤️❤️❤️ #alfred molina

[oysters-aint-for-me]

i had a pretty strong panic attack last night, seemingly out of nowhere. since then i’ve been racking my brain trying to figure out the trigger, and i think i just realized what it was: an episode of 90s sitcom frasier. which is honestly pretty funny to me after the fact

#look there’s an episode where niles has a toothache but no dental issue #and it turns out it’s referred pain from some kind of heart problem #and the whole episode before he figures it out he’s like well what are the chances of that happening to me #but then a bunch of equally unlikely things happens #anyways i’ve had a toothache for the past 3.5 years but there’s nothing wrong with the tooth #also my family has a history of heart/blood problems #also my learned reaction to feeling sick is to say ‘well the chances of it being seriously are extremely low’ #also i haven’t been to the doctor in any real way since oh idk… 2016? 2015? #sure i’ve gone for specific illnesses and symptoms but no physicals or anything #so i stopped the episode when it came up (i’ve seen it already) and kind of forgot about it #but then 15 minutes later i was facedown on the floor hyperventilating #¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[stars-and-blackholes]

Tumblr is the only bandom space I like at this point every other app has a stick up their ass. The fact that being a Petekey stan in 2023 is widely mocked, made fun of, and is controversial to like…

#petekey #like legit wtf is wrong with the bandom in general #why do we (not me) care so much about who tf people ship #rpf band discourse in 2023 literally put me out of my fucking misery #can we go back to 2015 I’m begging #Petekey ran the rpf game back in the day fr take me back #rpf #it’s crazy bc the same ppl r fine with other rpf shit #they just really hate Petekey #I do not think they understand the concept of fandom #instead of letting people be they specifically find Petekey posts and post them and make fun of the people who made the post #and share to their followers to do the same #literally what the fuck is wrong with you #if you don’t like a ship maybe oh idk #DONT FUCKING INTERACT???? #it goes both ways #why do I have to tell fellow adults how dni works and to mind their own business #shit is fucking embarrassing #they make me embarrassed to be in bandom #why does modern bandom moralize everyone and everything Jesus Christ #bandom #I’ve seen two rounds of Petekey hate within the past week on Twitter I’m so tired #I can’t even talk abt it on there bc I will get bullied #remember when I tried to call them out for how they talked about it and I got mass bullied and ppl mocked my age n (newly changed) pronouns #cuz I sure do! #petekey stans stay off Twitter and tiktok atp it sucks

[burymeinwillow]

Everytime I draw Joe Cartwright I get overwhelmed with the desire to only ever draw Joe

#you dont understand #my hyperfixation with Bonanza started around 2014-2015 but I didn't start to draw fanart of Joe or Bonanza until like... 2018. #It's hard to explain but back then I was TERRIFIED of drawing Joe cause I was afraid I would draw him wrong and get discouraged by- #not being a talented enough artist #and OH I wanted to draw fanart so badly - But I didn't dare to do it. I was afraid to be self-indulgent #Going YEARS and wanting so badly to draw my favorite character but being scared to do it... compared to know #I'm way more self-indulgent than I was- and now I'm drawing Bonanza Fanart and being indulgent in it and it makes me beyond happy #It makes me so happy I'm actually crying #I draw Joe Cartwright and it just makes me so unbelieveably happy... happy that I CAN do it. Happy that I am talented enough. #Being talented doesn't even really matter - Happy that I learned to be self-indulgent and HAVE FUN. and most of that is thanks to Juni. #I could write a whole damn essay on how much it means to me #so yes drawing Joe makes me so very happy #im not crying - not at all

[soldier-poet-king]

I am hungry and restless, dreaming of exits

Climbing the gates of my mind

And I am thinking of futures, reaching for sutures

Trying to reclaim my time

And now I'm dropping the weight of the earth

Just long enough to give me a rebirth

Cause I deserve to be well, yeah I deserve to be well

And maybe I do not have enough strength

For more than a couple of steps in a day

But I deserve to be well, yeah I deserve to be well

I'm climbing up out of this hell

#medication #the collection #I DESERVE TO BE WELL #apologies if some of the lyrics are wrong theyre not posted yet #so im going by ear. and my auditory processing is notoriously bad #this hole is not your grave!!!!!!!!!! #ive only heard this song as played live earlier this year that else sent to me when she saw it #the full version is like #im a wreck #I DESERVE TO BE WELL. I DESERVE TO BE WELL #anyway it's weird having grown and done a lot of the same aches and pain as david wimbish #like i first heard the collection 2015 at an oh hellos concert with ars moriendi #which is a very explicitly religious album even if its full of doubt #and then listen to the river and entropy are so much more broken #and then rose coloured glasses. #and now this #Spotify

[thecubes]

it potentially doesnt look like it. but i do feel like (and especially since 2010ish..) that my art does get better like every couple of years. or even per year but less noticeably. i feel like i can interpret a real thing i see and make it cartoony. in a way that i never could when i was younger. and also evem just last year

#BUT. but. sometimes. i draw. and feel astronomically let down by my stupid hands. not doing the right thing. visualizing it all wrong???? #bbut overall. this was inspired by me just now being like oh ewan and kwiato bike gif hehe funnyy. what if it was schleck bros. AND THEN #JUST DOING IT??? #13 yr old me is quaking in their boots #granted its nothing spectacular but at least they dont look totally derpy like every person i drew between 2010 and like idk 2015 #2016 it started to get a Bit Better. but only a little #rambling now but anyway im cleaning it up. making franky look more like frank. and andy more andyish

[birdkittenn]

just remembered an extremely old oc. girl i have great plans for you

#rambles #she was my mary sue kid icarus uprising oc protagonist girl angel when i first made her #and then i just left her there and never did anything with her #but honestly? honestly. i can remake her. i can make her better #im plopping her down in my oc world #current initial idea i have is that everyones an anthro so i get to be funkier with designs #im not great at designing clothes so having all the characters be humans is like making 'guy with the shittiest closet number 69' #with that in mind. angel will be the only character with a human face and shes going to be all ~angelic~ or whatever #that was her initial idea anyways back in 2015 where she looks a lot like some pretty woman with wings #anyways shes like an anglerfish where she will lead you to your death #go girl lure people away and feast on their flesh #i think she'll have an alternate form thats more grotesque #not her true form. i dont think she has one. but its not the angelic illusion she often wears #but yeah i like the idea of repurposing this 'girl who can do no wrong' oc into something that you dont want to encounter #also she has a twin but im not sure what to do with that twin. might scrap her. woops #oh what if i repurpose her twin into being some sort of Creature Hunter #wait wasnt that one of fen & rey's scrapped dynamics #well they dont have that anymore since i've made rey less of a monster creature and more of a human who fucked up badly #but the monster rey ideas were cool... i could reuse that on a different character

[silverislander]

have discovered a new enemy while doing research for the honours essay. why are you pretending to understand psychology and BLATANTLY misinterpreting actual terms and concepts in order to tear down a movie aimed at teenage girls, my good bitch. i'm going to start biting

#you got the WRONG BITCH bc you just hit on two of my biggest interests (zombie movies and psychology) at once #FIRST of all. you dont have the credentials to be talking abt this and it shows bc why dont you know what psychotic means!! #simple shit!! you want to pretend you know psychology dont fuck up psychopathology psychopathy and psychosis! all different things! #you can BARELY conceive of narcissism. a one off joke about how a character recognizes his flaws and wishes he was respected more #is NOT proof to label someone as a fucking narcissist oh my god. id actually argue the complete opposite #you are accusing A Zombie of being abusive based on (checks notes) being scary looking eating brains and /protecting a girl/ #bc uhhhhhhh smth smth dark triad smth smth twi/ight #last time i checked thats literally just fucking normal ass zombie shit + him being NICE!! #its not male gaze 'ocular aggression' bestie he cant blink. hes dead. #talking about how the zombie is unrepentantly creepy when he Literally worries about coming off as creepy In The Movie out loud #SECONDLY to circle back why are you so stressed about twilight. thats not even the subject of the chapter #(there are good critiques of those movies but this is not that) #your book came out in 2015 why were you still shitting your pants and crying that girls were having fun 3yrs ago at the EARLIEST #reaching so fucking hard to 'um ackshewally [thing that teenage girls like] bad' im shocked you didnt throw your fuckin back out #your arguments are nonsensical your positions reveal an alarming level of sexism and you should be ashamed #levi.txt #believe it or not im having fun rn. im funny complaining not angry complaining #w@rm b0dies isnt a Good movie but i will go to bat for it actually. let teenage girls have fun garbage #god knows adult men have enough of their own to choose from ESP in this genre #and its a movie that has a lot of interesting shit someone could analyze!! im focusing on it as a representation of changing feminism #but id love to see a reading of its portrayal of zombiehood as disability + its cure narrative #or critiquing how it writes its female characters bc admittedly theyre bad ngl #or on how survival is represented in comparison to films like zomb!e/and (which i also love) where you 'earn' survival with competence! #genuinely there is even smth to be said for the problematic nature of the brain eating element. id be intrigued by that paper #i dont think its much worse than the play the movie is based on? but its not nothing #it Is ultimately a little bit fucked up and i dont think the movie explores it enough #but noooooo we gotta talk about how the zombie is a narcissistic abuser bc of the brain eating. ok

[mutualhl]

some more thoughts and i’ll go away

#i read 3-4 blogs that morning and i totally agree with everything said i just don’t want to reblog shit mentioning anymore #idfk what louis is doing and 3 months ago i really could believe he has some plan to end it #but man #he really doesn’t #he’s just “it is what it is” #i love him so much and i know he didn’t ask for being a fake father but man you’re a billionaire #are you ok living a fake life with fans hating on you because you’re lying to them #is it really worth it #all those signs warning selfies dead face etc in 2015-2017 #when you screamed to your fans it’s fake #and now in 2023 you’re like oh my little lad at my concert <3 #wtf is wrong with you #it’s not that louis that i knew and fell in love with #i got so mad while texting that just because #it’s all so unnecessary man #:(

[dashiellqvverty]

i keep thinking about how like if i were 10ish years younger and figuring out my gender shit in this current climate i genuinely might not have allowed myself to come to the same conclusions i did as a teenager. like so much of my transness is about choosing to be this way because it feels right and makes me happy, and i had a community both online and to some degree in person that affirmed that, and its not that that community isnt still around but i just dont know if it wouldve felt worth it. like i want to be an obviously and visibly queer gnc transfag i LOVE that about myself but its a journey i started when i was 15 and if i had to start that journey NOW i think it would be a lot fucking scarier. and of course thats the whole point, to scare people away from every coming out or even fully considering the possibility of being trans

#like i didnt Figure Out I Was A Man at 15 i have been on a journey of figuring out gender shit for years #but its always been based around imagining the version of myself that feels Good and Right #like i dont think i ever would have considered transness for myself had i not been introduced to it in the way i was #(safe and affirming and cool thing on tumblr) #like thats not the way my dysphoria is idk. i just like being a guy and i DO feel a deep wrongness that i didnt grow up as a boy #but idk i couldve never clocked that if i'd never thought 'do i want to be a boy' #and fuck man to ask myself that question for the first time NOW??? #to consider the options of telling or hiding from my conservative parents NOW?? #i told them a couple years ago now but i never kept it a Full Secret lmao like they Knew it was coming #and obv i knew i would be safe etc but like if it wasnt for me being out already (as multiple things) #what would they be on board with now?? #they've never been qanon marjorie taylor green type conservatives they are more libertarian types #they suck very much to be clear its just like #i dont KNOW and i things are unfathomably scarier than they were 7 years ago #every time i hear something new i feel so sick and then i just sit here bc i dont know what to do #and the idea of not even getting the chance to know im trans bc the climate is so hostile and terrifying is HEARTBREAKING #oh 2015 oh advocating visibility and representation well this is what fucking happens when ppl know trans ppl exist huh #(obviously these things are still good but u know what i mean. like ppl were talking about hypervisibility AT THAT TIME) #r.xt

[grandpa-cephalopods]

#ooc #'Oh?? You lightly tap chargette??? JAIL. JAIL FOR MOTHER.' #tbf this is a direct result of me not wanting to save shit bc my splatoon files #were SO HARD to organize into their own folder there's still some 2015 stragglers in the wrong folder #why can't all art programs have innate file recovery like any time this happens it makes me wish I was doing lineart on cs6 //hit

[hellyeahydkj]

Electronic Media  1996-05-20: Vol 15 Iss 21 and in a old stream, harry gottlieb talks about the pilot for the original ydkj tv show (not 2001)

#image #ydkj #(and that's another stream that takes about nate shapiro being in a wrong answer in either 2011 or 2015 :P) #(as far as i'm aware the pilot hasn't been posted anywhere it's just known that it exists) #(was trying to find stuff on tfj and ydkj on archive.org and i saw this and went ' oh huh a mention of the pilot ')

[bonnysis]

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#aotv #aotv spoilers #I just saw the doc and if one thing really came through is that Louis is an amazing person (to sit and admire what he’s like? yes) #who loves and cares deeply for people around him like his family and his friends #and here I am reading anons and blogs being all like ‘why is he portraying a stunt and using the passing of him to sell it’ #and I am just shocked that some people would rather believe he would do that #than to admit that they were wrong #anyways #if you still believe this is a stunt #then Louis should get an Oscar or something #because he was crying and he was really overwhelmed by emotion when his kid was to see him perform #so there’s that #*the passing of his mum #P.S. adding just to clarify #yes I was here in 2015 & 2016 etc etc and yes it was sketchy af #but it is clear now years after that we misunderstood what that was #I am putting myself among those people who at some point had to say ‘oh well I guess I was wrong’ #and don’t give me the if you believe Larry is/was together then Louis can’t be a dad #because that’s not the real world works #in my humble opinion #the 2 things can coexist #and probably did at some point

[jellyloveru]

nothing makes me love voice acting more like some god awful but passionate and emotional examples

#балаболим #like. quality of sound and transportation and whatnot. i like all that. butbif the voice is flat? no emotion? no special curve? #i don't need that. #watched a couple of fan dubs of a turbulence (2015) tf2 short with my brother. there was one from 6 years ago and one from 6 months #and like. sure i remember the 6yo one. it's rather on point and the translation is really good #BUT THE FUCKED UP 6 MONTH OLD ONE. FUCK #I THOUGHT WE WERE ABOUTBTO DIE THE WAY WE LAUGHED OUR ASSES BECAUSE OF THIS DUB #like. it was bad on purpose. don't think i'm dunking of first try dubs please m #the russian attempt at french accent... the wrong translation... the curses (WHICH WEREN'T THERE IN THE OG)... #fucj. oh... #i wish i could voice act like that. bad but passionate. i'm gonna go rewatch it now.