#ok anyways yeah thats it . im done now

[jade-len]

luo binghe better than me fr i think i would've gone fucking apeshit if the person i loved with my entire soul pretty much said "fuck you" because of my race and pushed me down into literal hell for me to suffer for years

i've said it before and i'll say it again, i really don't think we give binghe enough credit. that man was on concerning levels of forgiving all the way from the start

#this would all be without xin mo eating at my brain btw #were the things he did wrong? of course. can you blame him? absolutely not. #like lets not act like at least half of us wouldnt go insane #i would be devastated #just.. place urself in his shoes ok #like he was able to still change for the better despite all the shit he went through #able to realize his wrongdoings and make up for them #thats fucking amazing and we should not discredit him ok #my ass would probably do the same thing as him tbh. or have a whole mental breakdown. or both #also same goes for bingge i wouldve done the same shit too probably. id fuck shen jiu up #again #not excusing his actions but i feel like people seem to focus on that part of him way too much when we literally see his character growth #and yeah hes still just a little unhinged but arent we all #hell some people are WAY more fucked up than binghe and they didnt even go through #i love him so much can you tell #so anyways yes if he were real i would date him hes so relatable #because then id now that he would actually change for the better and make things up and learn from his mistakes #yeah haha yes hes a red flag whatever all jokes and fun but are we just gonna ignore his development??? #im not a binghe apologist. maybe. #svsss #mxtx svsss #luo binghe #luo bingmei

[kohakhearts]

theres a really. special kind of despair in the uncertainty brought about by moments of success and achievement. the inevitable “what now” of reaching your goals. and i kind of wish someone had warned me how hollow graduating university would feel, tbh

#taylor.txt #im miserable primarily for other reasons right now but i dont think i appreciated how much this just…wouldnt feel like anything #i think especially in my case as someone who so desperately needed ‘going away to college’ to get out of my childhood situation #and now for the past 5 years everything ive done has been for the purpose of getting my degree and finishing school #like im fine i guess i just kind of wish i could feel proud of myself or happy its over instead of like dreading the ceremony and feeling #like everything i have to do for grad is just one more thing i have to check off a list. getting my grad photos done felt nice but idk #it kind of feels like no one really cares which. idk why i would expect it to NOT feel that way. but yeah #tl;dr im around Kinda…need to finish stuff up but im over the really busy part of this all. kinda just coasting to the end here tbh #when this is over i’m gonna get to my request fics. prommy. wanted to do them over the long weekend but i was sick :( #anyway like to be clear im fine. people have been pointing out today i seem down and i think embarrassingly a collection of my students #noticed me crying on the bus today but thats life i guess you make do. im sad and thats ok. tbh

[todayisafridaynight]

time a flat circle why the hell am i usin the same loafers i bought for one cosplay of my fave antagonist for another fave antagonist

#snap chats #can i even call it cosplay. why are police sirens going off in the bg oh my god shut UP #anyway yeah ill elaborate. Super Snap Stalkers will remember my p4 era and will remember the time i did in fact do an adachi cosplay #i deleted the og post like an hour later. plus that blog's gone. but im sure some freak can find it if they dig hard enough #ew i think i was 17/18 in that pic (not at all that long ago) ok anyway. #i use the same loafers for my aoki outfit. and yeah i do Regularly wear my rgg outfits i TOLD YOU its functional cosplay i QUIT #just funny that like.... damn everything always goes back to square one LOL #these busted ass old ass loafers still rockin with me years later #if im feeling cheeky i think i will post all my rgg outfits actually. for halloween #hang on gotta be depressed and cringe for a moment #cause ive always liked cosplay but whenever i did it it never felt. Good Looking #like i always just felt like my face never worked for the charas i wanted to portray and so thats why i say with a heavy heart #that aoki's round-ass square-ass head is perfect LOL it makes me wanna throw up looking in the mirror #i got the same weird lips. ok not that squished Similar but Its Awful that he makes me feel comfortable with my face now #at least my eyebags arent double deckered... i at least look like i get sleep.. some days. #breaking !!!! objectively one of the most vile bitches in this franchise makes you feel comfortable with your body and existence #NAW to continue from last post if i had a webcam i prob coulda done a cosplay y7 stream LOL thatd be funny #anyway since this tag ramble is just pure cringe let me round it off with a final bit of cringe #the Forbidden Mention of my trans masato hc cause one reason why i have a Teehee over the thought is how raspy his voice is #and i only really now realized how right i was tonight because my prof called on me to speak and when i tried speaking DAWG. #the forbidden acknowledgement of Myself GROSS #BUT DAWG MY THROAT WAS FUCKIN CRUSTY it felt like sandpaper EW?? WATER FOR YOU?? christ. i hope that was just a one-time thing #ok im leaving now BYE

[girlwithfish]

plss we had to write a evidence for and evidence against list for one of our core beliefs about ourselves and then hand it to the person next to us nd i wrote rly nice things for the person i got and tbe lady next to me barely wrote anything on mine nd just wrote bpd is really hard to understand and is often misdiagnosed. and that im at the program trying which is tru but i feel like other ppl put more effort as did i nd i wanted someone to write smth nice abt me >:(

#she was like sorry im bad at this #and also im like why is she telling me its misdiagnosed #my core belief was im a bad person and then evidence for is like stuff ive done nd then for evidence against i wrote like i didnt have a #good understanding of my bpd and didnt have thep roper help and im gettjng it now at least #whayever.. also the lady who didm ine also has bpd i thought shed write smth more helpful 🙇‍♀️ #Anyway #but whatever cuz the lady whose list i wrote on she said im very kind and that was she was grateful so thats ok. #it was a little sad reading someone elses ljst bc its like omg who cares u dont have a.job ur not a failure!!! be nice to urself #and then i feel the same thing abt.myself lol #But yeah #anywah we have to neutralize our core belief and find a.middle ground. i am a.Normal person w flaws just like every otjer person on earth 🙏

[robocops-a-christ-allegory]

Its a shame nobody talked about it like this but I am still convinced there was all kinds of meta shit going on with the Peacemaker show that was really interesting to ME at least. Like the decision to make two guys that hated each other best friends now, and Adrian specifically being Peacemaker's wacky unhinged sidekick whos obsessed with him when Peacemaker made his intro to DC as a wacky unhinged Vigilante villain who was obsessed with Vigilante. Also I still think everyday about how in the show Peacemaker shot his dad with the same kind of gun that his dad killed himself with in the comics. Like.

#I do still think the show was good but its tragic things cant just be good. #you know. like now Peacemaker's stuck with his show design and speaking style and possibly backstory #I am still really scared his shits gonna get rewritten with his show backstory #ok anyway. #My friend was convinced there was something meta with Adrian early on saying people think hes racist because of Peacemaker #because of the racist vigilante issues happening post-Peacemaker appearing and Im forever stuck between like #well thats reaching and well James Gunn is clearly the worlds luckiest weirdest fanboy. #I will say though I cannot objectively judge the show like I cant. #It was like decent and Im unhinged about Peacemaker so to me it was high art #I think adrian stans might have the opposite going on and might hate it on principle of what its done to #the perception of their guy which yeah #if Peacemaker was super OOC in his first big appearance I wouldnt be well. #literally im starting to dislike the show based on peoples reactions to Peacemaker because everybodys #GETTING HIM ALL WRONG ! now

[marigoldstereo]

beginning to think i might need to get reevaluated

#in general i dont believe in labels because for me they've done more harm than good #HOWEVER i think i need a professional to tell me 'oh yeah you've got like 8 personality disorders' #JUST so i know what im dealing with. i need a starting point. #anyway i'm beginning to think my narcissist phase wasn't actually a phase #i've gone through everything i can to be like 'ok whats triggering me whats making me feel like shit' #and it comes back to the same thing every time -- im not getting the hyperspecific kind of attention i want #and this alone wouldn't make me believe im a narcissist #but then i remember i have no empathy #and i view people as 98% below me and there's that holy 2% that're above me #and that i get angry when people close to me are upset over something i deem a non-issue #and then im like.... huh. i might be a narcissist. #i thought it was residual from being raised by a narcissist #but uhhh no i think thats just the way i am. #i'm trying to explore it more cause i don't believe in self-dx nor do i know anyone with actual npd #(the one person i do know and can talk to about it is fucking annoying so im not doing that) #anyway im going through it because i hate everything i do right now

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#how am i feeling? i am not feeling good #ok i feel better than i did 5min ago. itll b fine but Jesus #so basically what happened is its supposrd to snow tomorrow night so i have to get some sampling done tomorrow morning #and i do not like big short notice changes. there's like a 30% i will flip out #and the sampling i have to do is at 3 sites that i would love to never step into ever again. i have so much bitterness and hate toward that #study. it was the start of the end. and by the end i mean the epic downward spiral that was my 2022 experience #so ngl i wish they would catch on fire. but not really bc theyre long term study sites that have been going since like the 80s #anyway. i have to do that tomorrow. also also in sampling these sites im adding 80 samples to my list #which means ill be taking measurements for an extra 5 days 🤪 thats gonna be at least 39 days of measurements 🤪🤪🤪 #and last time i did this i starting losing my god damn mind. and i cant do that now bc i have to pretend ive got everything together #so yeah im just at the stage of anticipating pain for the start of all that and ive gotta get up early tomorrow and its already late #and i spend like an hour crying into an excel spreadsheet so my eyes r tired #so ya kno its good. its all good. good good good. great. im soooo happy #and i do not at all feel the urge to throw myself to the ground screaming like a toddler #im just standing here in this grave ive dug myself over the past year and now its time for the universe to start burying me #hhhh... i should sleep. so my brain works at least a little tomorrow 🙃 #itll b fine. ill get to talk to a lab mate i dont usually see and itll be fine #unrelated

[bitchfitch]

Idk, working on this sidlink fic again is making me really happy. Primarily because i forgot how insanely funny the concept of an abo fic where one of the people involved knows absolutely nothing about abo while Very much being someone subject to that ruleset is.

but also because i haven't written for them since totk was announced and I forgot how much I love them.

#hes concussed. He doesn't remember jack shit #also im putting this here. this tag was written apr 30th and if Ganon does turn out to be a protagonist or demi hero in the new game #i just want to say i fucking Called It. Alone togethers entire plot was going to be about Ganon zelda and link learning to deal #with eachother. and that ganon was going to have been sealed away intentionally by the hero and princess of the past. to save Him as well #as everyone else. they were Friends. #Anyways Yes that is stolen from that one comic. #ok im done now #but yeah thats what killed my motivation to work on aline together. if the new game Is as similar to my plans as I think it might be #i want to play it before going too much further #and if its not then im carrying on as though it was never made. and then writing a bunch more involving whatever happens in it

[hacksawboy]

yk when i , tumblr user ironicblu3 made my username , i made it because im the token funny guy and my name was blue . i wish someone told me its the name of A FUCKING IZUMI SOLO

#tbf i wasnt an enstars fan at the time #it was like a month or two before the enstarining #i was still in the pjsekai rui kamishiro arc #BUT HOW DID I EVEN MANAGE TO DO THAT?? BRO I #did i just get reccomended a tag i used last in july 2021 tf #hows that crack youre snorting tumblr #anyways yeah stan several ships i cant name them cuz i dont wanna show up in their tags #if thay stupid ficking kxmahina tag pops up one mlre fucking time I FUCKING HATE KXMAHINA #dangan phase worst phase #that would b 100% /srs if i wasnt a sonic fan . in 2018. before sonic was popular again #ok anyways yeah thats it . im done now #enstars #ensemble stars #izumi sena

[dyketubbo]

also heres the full picture the cartoony t'surots is from feel free to ask about any of them because im going a little insane in this school

#dragon's end [ocs] #dyke doodlez #idk if yall rb this or not itd be nice but honestly #i am a little tired of asking for people to at least try and keep an even ratio #bc this site has gotten worse and worse at supporting artists in the way they want to be supported #and i feel 'bigger' artists have definitely fucked it over for smaller ones by like. insisting that reblogs dont matter etc etc #like yeah ok easy for you to say people actually pay attention to your art and engage with you about it . #bla bla make art for yourself yeah i AM but i would also like for people to be nice to me about it ykwim #it feels nice when people support my art and leave little tags and it stings when people like it and do nothing else. is that so bad #like it sucks to work on something just for people to just like. give a nod of acknowledgement and move on #itd suck in real life and it sucks with the online equivalent too #but anyways idk im tired so many of yall suck at doing like a basic feature of this site and its exhausting to keep asking #and with something thats just was just a destreseor doodle to get their designs down idc that much anyways #id still like some engagement though #theres nearly 1000 of yall following me no way only like 5 of you know know how to interact with ppl who arent your friends yeah #anyways im done ranting now. support artists if you reblog art i hope you have the best day of your life every single day #t'surots and i'llfrekilf are siblings from the end cities; smokebomb was born in the overworld; sunny in the nether; n eerie is a farlander

[nickelodeonheritageposts]

I think from now on I will leave ALL spongebob posts in drafts/queue purgatory until Sundays

#theres just too many spongebob posts in general #and i dont really want to take away from spongebobheritage #so yeah #not-heritage #also i am displeased with the tumblr theme i created for the blog so if any suggestions feel free to shoot some #still lookin around but its been hard #anyways thats enough tags for this post #some exceptions to the new spongebob rule #such as queued posts that are grandfathered #holidays #and fan art fridays #but yeah most of the time it will only be sunday now #ok now im done #i promise

[throwawayhymn]

realised my dads just stereotypical with a side of nerd. not good, not bad, just stereotypical, focused on his shiniest newest toy. im resentful, only towards him, he couldnt even keep focused on me during my 18th, he was more entertained with texting. i dont blame his granddaughter, or even my sister, simply him. hell, ill feel bad for them if my dad ever ignores his granddaughter for a different shiny new toy, like he has with me

#it just hurts. itll hurt for a while. but then a new wound will open up and ill forget about it #or ill otherwise get distracted with something else interesting #i love him but fuck him. geniunely. not literally though. #he isnt... the type of person id normally associate with anyways so i want to be done with looking for his approval #i feel done looking for his approval. but i want to be 100% done with it. #i want to give him a second chance and get him to come visit again. except this time take him to cool places. but. #i know ill be absolutely fucking done with him irl after that future trip. like talk to him on the phone like hows the weather but thats it #vent #fuck. my grandma started tearing up for me cause of how he was and shes a piece of stone when it comes to crying #idk just the fucming audacity is what boils me i guess. it feels selfish but yeah! im allowed to be a bit selfish on my 18th! #my sister can wait a few hours! it wont kill her or him! he didnt even pretend to be interested when showing him stuff either. #tiktok really ruined a generations attention span :pensive: #joking but no like he actually just started playing tiktok out loud when i was trying to show him puss in boots last wish #kinda funny when i put it that way. its absurd to me. ok i made myself laugh im good for now

[todayisafridaynight]

so. uhh. any rgg meetups at animenext this weekend or 🥴

#snap chats #GOOD MORNING IM CRYING #years ago i got tickets for animenext but due to covid the event was cancelled and i couldnt go #WELL I JUST. I JUST GOT LET KNOWN I HAVE TICKETS? FOR THREE DAYS AND ITS LEGIT? #LIKE I CHECKED EVERY WAY POSSIBLE AND YEAH NO. THESE ARE VALID TICKETS. WHATLKVJLEKJ #go to an event four damn years later OK..... idk if ill stay all three days since i dont have a hotel obvi but i could sleep in my car ig #i done did it before its fine 🥴 #anyway idk who to cosplay or if i even will cosplay #on the one hand i could do y2 daigo again like i did for animenyc #doing masato however would mean i wouldnt have to do as much makeup...... he also does not have any cheekbones like me 😔 #unlike daigo's gorjus face #my mine cosplay aint supposed to be ready til july so.... thats out of the window LMAO #eh. prob would be best to just do daigo actually now that im thinkin of it esp when no one even remembers masato ☠️ #idk thats something for me to figure out im still just laughing at this whole thing like jvlkvlkj

[muffinrag]

you know what. speaking of people pleasing. It's starting to get exhausting hearing "oh I used to be one but then I stopped giving a fuck about what other people thought" when I tell people I'm a people pleaser. like man. that's great for you I'm happy for you. I have a deeply embedded guilt complex combined with codependent tendencies and a literal phobia of anger both in other people and myself

so it's gonna take a little more than "not giving a fuck"

#thats the only advice people have lmfao #turns out what i actually need is therapy #but seriously like... #theres more that goes into this #i have to learn how to stop guilt spirals #i have to learn how to appropriately manage my own anger #i have to learn how to want things???? #i have to break multiple heavily ingrained people pleasing habits #'stop giving a fuck' ok lemme know when hell freezes over ok? #lemme know when pigs start fucking flying ok? #god im so. #what is wrong with me. what is wrong with me #i shut off my computer for the night and my first thought was 'god i got nothing done today' #bitch what? i did onboarding for the JOB I JUST FUCKING GOT. i made a fucking phone call today! #and yeah i spent 6 hours on valheim while watching house on the other screen! i needed that r&r! #besides its not like theres anything else to fucking do #anyway. im just ranting now. basically i have problems and its exhausting #muffinrag blabs #text

[heartsforvin]

kissing the bridge of vinnie’s nose and he’s like ??? at first but then he enjoys it and thinks you’re so sweet (I love his cute lil nose ok🥺🥺)

SWEET

“it’s so sweet, knowing that you love me..”

sweet - cigarettes after sex

pairing: vinnie hacker x fem!reader

warnings: FLUFFFFFF <333, mentions of insecurities, one lil sexual joke (i gotta, im sorry 😭)

summary: you loved everything about vinnie, especially his nose and you love to make it known to him

you loved everything about vinnie. from his pretty brown eyes, curly blonde hair, to his cute nose. there was absolutely nothing you loved more than his cute little button nose, though.

you knew vinnie had struggled with insecurity of his own, having said it to you before. you loved to make it known just how much you love each of his features, even if he thinks of them as flaws.

there’ll be days where you spring out a compliment out of nowhere, catching the boy completely off guard.

“your eyes look so pretty, baby.” you’ll say, subtly glancing at him, making vinnie turn his gaze on you.

he gets flustered, almost embarrassed but not in the sense of he was doing anything that was embarrassing.

the compliments you gave the most were about the subtle things about him, ones that most don’t see.

youre standing in front of your boyfriend on your tip toes as you kiss him sweetly. once you pull away, your eyes linger on his, smiling as his lips tug into a smile of his own.

you reach up and put your hand on his cheek, stroking his cheekbone softly as you give him the sweetest of smiles.

he doesn’t know where the sudden affection is coming from, but he’s definitely not complaining.

he smiles as you kiss his cheek, wondering how lucky he got to have you in his life. he watches your fingers dance along his skin until they reach one of the freckles that adorn his pretty face.

it’s nothing, really, just apart of him. thats what makes you love it so much — love him so much.

“baby!” you exclaim as you run into his room, catching the blondes attention as you jump into his arms.

vinnie laughs as he catches you with no hesitation. you wrap your legs around his waist while his hand holds you just under your thighs to keep you steady.

your arms wrap around his neck as you pepper kisses all over him, making vinnie laugh as you do so.

he’ll never get tired of the way you love him, the way you constantly show just how much you love him.

the kisses, the compliments, the random surprises of gifts, it all just stuns him to think how lucky he got to find someone like you.

once you decided you’re done, you stop for a minute and look at him.

vinnie can’t tell the look that’s in your eyes. he doesn’t know if something bothered you just now, or what.

that’s when he sees you lean in and feels you plant a kiss on the bridge of his nose. it confuses him for a minute, seeing as that’s a new place for the affection.

“what’s that for?” he asks, not wanting to break the comfortable silence, but doing so anyway.

you smile and tighten your legs around him as if you’re hugging him tighter.

“i love your nose,” you say as if it were obvious. “it’s definitely one of my favorite things about you.”

vinnie smiles. “oh yeah? what else is your favorite?“ he asks.

you smile widely, blushing at the thought of all your favorite things about the boy whose arm’s you’re in.

“hmm,” you hum as if it were to take a minute or two to think. in reality, you could list about five things right now with no problem.

“your eyes, your smile, your hugs, your arms, your tattoos — you talkin’ ‘bout the one on my weiner, right?” vinnie cuts you off with a joke, making you slap his chest.

“you do not have one there!” you exclaim, giggling as you do.

vinnie smirks as he starts to drop you to the ground. “you wanna see?” he asks, but you just shake your head.

“v i’m serious! i’m being all cute and you’re talkin’ about your dick. for once let me be cute and sweet on you without you making a dirty joke.”

the tone you say it in his a playful one, so vinnie knows you’re not actually mad. in all honesty, you love the little jokes he pulls out here and there.

“okay,” he says as he adjusts his hold on you, making sure you don’t fall out from under him. “keep going, i’m loving the ego boost.”

you roll your eyes playfully at your boyfriend. “i love your nose the most.” you say quietly as you kiss the bridge of his nose again.

vinnie smiles and cups your cheek, kissing it softly. “i love you the most.” he says.

you blush and hide your face in his chest. “look at me,” vinnie pulls your attention. you slowly look up at him and he’s smiling down at you. “i love you so much, my girl.”

your smile only widens as he now peppers kisses all over you. you loved him more than you could ever tell him.

“it’s true!” he chuckles. “thank you for loving me the way you do. i don’t know what i’d do if you weren’t here with me. being with you has made me the happiest i could ever be, and i’m so glad i get to do everything with you.”

tears start to well in your eyes at the words he’s saying. “don’t cry, my love.” vinnie says as he wipes your tears away.

he kisses right below your eye and you kiss the bridge of his nose once more.

“my favorite.” you say softly.

vinnie smiles as he carefully sets you down on his bed. he leans down to give you a proper kiss, smiling once he pulls away.

“forever.”

THIS IS SO CUTE SHUT UPPPPP

also if you got the ‘i have a tattoo on my weiner’ reference, i love you 🫦

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[nextstopparis]

ok i know that the line “i don’t want you to change, i want you to always be you” is widely beloved and appreciated As It Should Be, but i also just think like. that is quite literally the best thing anyone but especially arthur could’ve said to merlin. like i just think it was so special and important because its such a reassurance. im pretty sure under any other circumstance it would’ve even been euphoric to hear.

bc like. it comes after Years of merlin genuinely believing, and telling gaius “arthur will never really know me because he won’t ever know about my magic.” living with the lonely belief that his best friend would never actually know him. arthur says it right after days of “i would know” and “i thought i knew you” and “im still the same person.” right after “you’ve been lying to me all this time” and “so that was another lie.” it comes even though arthur isn’t even Close to understanding Just How Much merlin has done for him and sacrificed and just how much he’s capable of.

but he says it anyway!! hes like i may not even know half the shit thats been going on in your life but i Have known You. i wasnt wrong. i Do know you. you Are the same person with or without the knowledge of your magic. you have been known by me even if your magic hasn’t. and THATS. LIKE. i mean it makes sense when you think about it because all the trust and admiration that arthur had for merlin (“you’re the only friend i have and i couldn’t bear to lose you” and “i think you, merlin, are the only person i can trust” and ESPECIALLY “i always thought you were the bravest person id ever met”) was for a merlin who arthur didnt know had magic. so yeah it makes sense to arthur but like. IT COULDVE BEEN LIFE ALTERING for merlin.

all those years believing one of the most important people in his life wouldn’t understand him or know him because of this One Thing he couldn’t tell him about. all that worth and identity he put into people Knowing about his magic meaning they Know him and the isolation that mustve caused because No One Could Know. and now someones finally looking him in the eye like!!! look!!! you always been one of the best people ive ever known!!!! and thats not because i know about your magic!!!

idk. i just think it was like. the best thing arthur couldve said to him bye

#does this make sense LOL #i saw a gifset and blacked out #merthur #5.13 #ignore me