#ok to rb btw

[11thsense]

It's the first time I've sketched Bucky in at least 5 years, and it will likely be the last. But in honor of 10 yrs of CA:TWS, here is the last 11thsense Bucky.... ever🚬

#ok to rb btw #i hate marvel like crazy now and tbh also bucky. just everyone lowkey. but that movie is still my movie srry #captain america #bucky barnes #the winter soldier #CATWS #well last Bucky unless I get paid to draw him lol #and well my Bucky is sexy. sorry to that man on the screen….🤢 #my art

[alazyparallelworld]

okay guys lets be honest with ourselves here though. like, for a moment,

to viewed & treated as an adult with "moderate/severe intellectual/developmental disabilities" you have to walk across a very thin line.

if you're too eloquent, your means of operation (ADLs, walking, talking, transportation, self-care) are assumed to be good. there is no true Passing, as an ablebodied/ableminded person online. IRL there are tics; there are deformations in the face, hands, that cue people into. "oh, you are not cognitively All There. got it."

if you are comprehensible, then it isn't that bad. you're basically an ableminded (read: normal) person. you're held to impossible standards of behavior, intellect, and motor skills - when you eventually fail their expectations, they react to it as a failure of you, as a person. that you did it on purpose. worse-case scenario, it'll spread that you're faking. your story of difficulty is just a ploy.

and this is if you're perceived and treated as an adult.

if there's visible, evident in text, that There Is Something Wrong with you on a neuron level? you become a kid. people are fascinated that you're online at all (and doubtful of your independence at this, another bell ring of are you faking?)

people mind their words around you. "fragile, like glass," is an understatement. i've had experiences IRL where strangers worriedly stood beside me, wondering where my parents/caregiver was. one woman got into my face, ignored my jolting away and stuttering, and moved my bangs out of my eyes. because it was Bad for me. (don't you know that?)

and that's, in person, when i have an adult's stature and appearance. where my drivers license has my 90s birthdate.

if your speech is broken - either in grammar or illogical - or you use assistive tools like an AAC board, speech to text, people assume that talking is hard for you. you need to be monitored by someone who knows better - you need to do as little as possible. you need to be away from everyone else; it's disturbing to see someone out of the SPED classroom, outside of the assisted living facilities.

and most of the time - even around the most sensitive, kind people and friends - i still fall into one or other binary of functional/nonfunctional. independent/dependent.

#i ramble ★ #ableism - #ok to RB btw #long post -

[bromantically]

im being so serious rn why are people so obsessed with cannibalism and eating as a sexual act but terrified of taking vore seriously as more than just a joke fetish. im not even vorepilled but it just strikes me as incredibly hypocritical

#kitty purrs #ok to rb btw

[willgrahamscock]

me when I try to communicate my feelings but I do not know how to connect feelings with words so I have to rely on emojis

#alex says things #ok to rb btw #all my posts are

[sasukemexican]

testament cosplay i made for anime frontier :3 got recognized by three whole people !

#testament guilty gear #guilty gear #prestrive testament #ok to rb btw #teehee...if you want

[soundtestmenu]

hey guys what's going on over here

(he/she)

#self portrait #ado's art #suggestive #<- lmao. #OK to rb btw

[dsaf1gnarlyending]

gonna say something controversial: davesport is overrated and i think its weird actually that people focus on davesport more than they do the actual story of the dsaf games. and also how dave has become just one half of davesport when in reality theyre genuinely the most tragic character i have ever seen and needs more attention that isnt just making them horny for jack

#ok to rb btw #if so desired

[nanjokei]

circle icons are a hideous perversion of online graphic design the human mind does not visualize cropped images as circles naturally its abhorrent and demonic and whenever social media websites realize this i will be at peace

#rambles #youre welcome to crop your icons in a circle frame yourself #but if a website forces circle icons on me its frankly disgusting #ok to rb btw

[geoffrard]

like im not really engaging with this discourse and dont rly know who all is involved etc etc. but this kind of thing happens every so often and ppl often seem so surprised that others would see fatphobia in the things they say, as if they are surprised to learn that it's something ppl earnestly care about. ESPECIALLY in bandom/emo subculture where fatphobia is not only ingrained into the culture but has at times been VALUED, why wouldnt fat ppl like me read ppl saying things about ppl who have been fat/are currently fat & recognize fatphobia. the reality is that we haven't even started to have the conversation about how pervasive antifat bias is in this space, and moments like this remind me of that

#ok to rb btw

[nanitecitys]

imo it will always be a million times more cringe and insufferable to be an adult who actively makes fun of people who have harmless interests than it is to be an adult who is just really into cartoons or something idk

#like at what point does someone realize theyre a miserable person #and like i get that some people can be annoying but you don't have to be a dick to ppl just trying to have fun or enjoy something yknow? #and i've seen this dip its toes into 'we Should be bullying autistic people actually' territory and i gotta say im not a fan ! #anyways point is be fucking nice to people im so sick of negativity surrounding adults who happen to like kids shows or games or movies #like i promise there are more important things to worry about #okay end rant lol #nanite.txt #ok to rb btw

[kikunai]

[...] but I do worry about there are people out there who will never get the chance to become who they are, because they're too busy trying to be like someone else who at best has it figured out themselves just a lil bit. [...] no one knows how to live your life, and you might not either, but the only person who's gonna figure it out is you, and you won't find it by trying to be the next that person. [ x ]

this made me emotional as a young adult who have spent the majority adolescence being my sibling (or how cool they were), failed miserably and started trying to find his actual sense of purpose on this world

#hbomberguy #kiku_text #i havent cried because of a yt video for quite some time now #ok to rb btw

[oniongarlic]

i know its like, a sort of widely accepted funny thing or whatever, but i would urge people to try and be sensitive about the language they use when congratulating trans men/mascs on their top surgeries. just because some people are ok with gendered language for their chests doesnt mean everyone is, and for someone with really strong chest dysphoria who just underwent major surgery to alleviate it, it can feel like a real slap in the face to have random people leaving comments like congrats on the tiddy removal/teet yeet/breast banishment or whatever the fuck else insufferable joker shit people come up with.

#like imagine being tortured by dysphoria for over 2 decades to the point where you can barely stand to leave the house in summer and #actively practice genuine stealth while outside in order to avoid being seen by anyone #and the moment ur released from ur curse a bunch of self identified 'silly little guys' come up and start talking about that body part #that has made your life a living hell since the age of 9 #show some fucking decorum #ok to rb btw

[sanitizarium]

i love you 3ds game notes

#splatoon #agent 3 #inkling #octoling #inktoling #3ds #3ds game notes #jay #ray #splatsona #oc #my oc #art #art.png #ok to rb btw

[sunflawyer]

if jimmy were a beanie baby, which one would he be?

YOU !!!!! YOU HAVE ASKED THE GOLDEN QUESTION OF ALL TIME

JIMMY BEANIE BABY PLUSHIE IS MUDDLES

brown fur, blue eyes, sweet smile = JIMMY !!

AND YOU KNOW WHAT'S FUNNY... HE COMES IN A PACKAGE WITH ANOTHER BEANIE BABY NAMED NOODLES

AND THEY'RE DATING

SO MY CONCLUSION IS;

SUNFLAWYER CANON 😭🤎🧡

#sunflawyer #⚖️🌻 #BIGGEST DISCOVERY OF ALL TIME #IS THIS COINCIDENCE? I THINK NOT #THIS MAKES ME SO GIDDY LMAOSKDODJODF #sunflower puppy! #oc x canon #jimmy mcgill #OK TO RB BTW #share the love this is a really good discovery #ty beanie baby is now obligated to send me 500 muddles and noodles plushie #can you believe it . a blue eyed puppy and a golden eyed puppy . in love...

[synf3ll]

i know the trope of someone kissing your self harm scars is cringe, generally unpopular, etc but i think if my F/O did that to me i'd lay down and cry

#WAAAHHh #og #ok to rb btw #self ship #selfship #cw sh #cw self harm

[sodapackyuri]

OK SO. TO KEEP THINGS SEMI - COHERENT. i'll be listing the dsm 5 criteria [and their listed descriptions] that paper meets and explaining how so. WELCOME GIRLIES, TO THE PAPER II BPD ESSAY

fun fact, people with did very commonly also have bpd !! a lot of symptoms tend to overlap with eachother, and both disorders stem off of similar causes. i myself am someone with both bpd and did :3 paper is a character i can see a lot of my experiences with both disorders in. also im gonna color code sorry guys. DISCLAIMER i am not good at wording things i may not say things how i want them to come out

there is also not really much to in depth go off of due to paper not being on screen very much throughout season 1 and when he is, his arc moreso centers around him and ep, not giving much room to gather things about him as a character. also the season one writing just kind of Sucks in terms of like. its ability to take super deep looks into the characters. as such, some things may be a bit of a reach, and others may not have as much information to back up the symptom as others do

THAT ALL OUT OF THE WAY, we now begin.

ABANDONMENT REACTION: Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment. throughout season one after he rejoins, paper does everything he can to keep oj happy with him [ this will be mentioned recurringly, as his relationship with oj is a big part of his character and thus a big part of his bpd coding as well ], going as far to throw bomb at a cactus to save him from it, and tells oj to go on without him after he himself gets stuck, though gets upset when oj does actually leave without him.

PARANOIA AND DISSOCIATION: Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms. this part may be a bit of a reach, but is still worth talking about. people with bpd often dissociate in times of stress, which paper is shown to do, especially visible when apple taunts him with the phrase ' idiotic island ' repeatedly. this one is also one of earlier mentioned overlaps between paper's did and bpd symptoms.

EMOTIONAL INSTABILITY: Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and rarely more than a few days). especially so shown after his elimination [ both in terms of idiotic island AND rejoin ] paper is shown to have frequent moments of emotional instability. most of these moments are regarding anger, which is shown at multiple points, for example when he lashes out at knife. he's also shown to have moments of intense sadness, often being self deprecation and feeling like a bad person, most usually being after an instance of evil paper coming out.

INTENSE/INAPPROPRIATE ANGER: Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights). it's easy to see that paper has anger issues, as explained in the last segment. he often lashes out at his fellow contestants, and mephone as well. another point regarding this is how angry and violent ep is. this part is shorter, due to his anger issues being previously mentioned, and also generally just very obvious and frequent. i'd rather not go through and write about every single instance of him getting angry.

UNSTABLE RELATIONS/IDEALIZATION AND DEVALUATION: A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation. first, let's take a look at knife and paper's relationship. paper and knife are shown to be friends at first, with paper even ditching a challenge to hang out with him. after knife drops items on him, causing his elimination, paper is shown to resent him for the betrayal. this anger remains for the entirety of his time until he sees knife again, to which he then gets his revenge on him. knife is annoyed by this, and scolds paper for still being upset about that after 20 months from the incident.

now, back to oj and paper. paper quickly latches onto oj after rejoining, taking almost every chance he can to do something to make oj happy with him, such as when listed before when he killed bomb to help oj in the desert, and of course when he carries him through the competition. the few conflicts the two had, he either quickly patched things up or insisted that what caused said conflict was to help oj out.

people with bpd tend to have something called a favorite person, often shortened to fp. a fp is held at high standards, often being seen as the person with bpd's most important person in their life. people with bpd tend to desire to spend most of their time with their fp, and end up being very clingy. it is safe to assume oj is paper's fp.

UNSTABLE SELF IMAGE: Identity disturbance, markedly and persistently unstable self-image or sense of self. paper is shown to have a very unstable sense of self. he focuses on what other people want from him, acting in ways he feels will make them the happiest. paper also frequently changes his opinions on people, sometimes of which is caused by previously mentioned focusing on what others want from him.

UNLESS I ADD MORE OR CHANGE THINGS LATER, this concludes my ramble. be normal about this please

#ok to rb btw