#or maybe… i should go to the beach

[134340am]

about to fuckign lose it because i’ve taken too many Ls this week

#i m busy listening to white woman’s instagram and when will my life begin #i want to eat my feelings but i know i shouldn’t also my tummy hurts :-/ #wahhhhh when does it end #at least i had some good ramen today tho 🫶🏻 it was delish #and i exercised #and i talked to a fren i haven’t seen in a long time and she gave me a big hug #doing my best to count my blessings here hahahahahahhahagwhdjbedbjx #it is ok. tomorrow i will wake up and eat a good breakfast and try again even if it is hard n sucky n stupid #maybe i’ll head out to the nearby mall and just walk around for a bit #or maybe… i should go to the beach #who knows #i’m going to wash up n sleep i’ll catch up with dms and notifs tomorrow >o< #goob night frens i m wishing all of you an easy day and lots of laughs #the kind that makes ur tummy hurt a little #see y’all in a bit 🫶🏻 #tmi tuna #tw vent

[katabay]

JACK THE GIANT KILLER

originally this was a kind of personal visual vibe test: I'm still turning some thoughts around about jack in my head (altho I have finished assembling the skeleton of a story and I'm looking forward to seeing what happens when I start to press at it) but I really liked how it turned out so I'm posting it as it's own illustration :)

the first post about this idea is over here, but I've fine tuned it down a bit so that the story begins with jack finding the body of a giant while he's out in the woods one day, and the story spirals out of hand before he can stop it.

it's been interesting to read up on jack tales from a literary analysis point of view while I figure this story out!! and through the power of more coffee, I think. I'm close to pinning down an underlying theme I'd really like to bite into. I just need to condense it down to a couple of sentences instead of several paragraphs.

and to close this post out, here's another excerpt from the j.g. ballard's the drowned giant that haunts me!

bsky ⭐ pixiv ⭐ pillowfort ⭐ cohost ⭐ cara ⭐ ko-fi

#i had a whole thing about why i dont link to my ko-fi on art posts but a friend said i should at least do it on original art #also cara seems to be promising as an art porfolio site? if you're looking to jump off of dA because it sucks ass. cara looks good so far! #OKAY moving on from that. in my head there is also a weird fucked up story about the drowned giant I would love #to turn into a short comic. maybe early next year? I think I need to go to a beach and do some studies because in my mind #it has a very specific visual and tone. hmmmmmm. #I had a very vivid dream abt it and I want to attempt to capture it down onto paper #and moving on from THAT. to the man himself. jack. ohhhhhh can you imagine if someone would’ve done a fucked up grim dark #Jack novel in 2013 or something. I would’ve eaten that like a cake. this isn’t an intentionally grim dark retelling although it is. grim. #original tag #generic medieval tag

[m00ngbin]

I always thought it was so odd that in Steven Universe they have a whole episode where Steven like projected himself into Lars' body and then him being able to do that was never mentioned again

#ok well thats not ENTIRELY true bc he did project himself into the watermelon Stevens but im pretty sure that was explained as them just #having a connection bc he magic spitted them to life and not because hes just able to astral project himself into other peoples' bodies #also thats just like a ridiculously overpowered ability to have. none of the other gems can do that its just Steven #except white diamond but i dont think that's the same #because she can control herself and other people at the same time #but they have to do everything shes doing and she cant really make them act individually #and Steven can only control one person and he has to fully leave his body #but his body isnt doing the same thing as him #anyways but why wasnt he able to use it to possess humans again? like maybe it was against his morals but like #wouldnt it have been so much easier to just possess someone in Beach City to tell his dad and the gems what was going on instead of #going through the stress of possessing a million watermelon Stevens? #if he cant control possessing people thats fine but i still think they should have mentioned it again #sorry for SU posting i just thought about it for the first time in a while and i remembered that that had always confused me

[frecklystars]

i relate to f/os inspiring me to do things!! sometimes when i am rotting in bed / can't do a task / etc i think "what would my f/o do" and im so inspired by how cool they are and how much i love them that it motivates me to make them proud <3 so i think i understand how you feel!

Ohhh!!!! I’m so glad I’m not the only one. My fellow comrade in arms 🤝

#anonymous #asks #that is interesting how we are motivated by F/Os even in different ways #yours are proud of you!!! always!!! 🥰🥰🥰 #with my F/Os I don’t feel motivated unless if I picture them saying ‘ok let’s go. i am doing this with you’ #like I have to imagine them being present whether it’s a voice in my head or pretending they’re standing next to me just for a minute #while doing The Tasks #but huh! I’ve never thought ‘if I do this then Ken will be proud of me’ #maybe I can try that too #normally I have to picture Ken actively telling me to get up. and I’d think WELL I should get up then. cannot disappoint the beach BF

[focsle]

Ugh I need 2 go back to New England for a spell…..I need to look at a Proper Ocean. I don’t like the ocean near me. There’s No Rocks, only beach. I hate a beach. Especially when there are other people there.

#however………WE GOT A LOTTA WHALES LATELY #so maybe I should just go to the beach here….maybe I will See One

[pebblezone]

🦭

#hellsing #hellsing ultimate #seras victoria #integra hellsing #sertegra #a #yay guns!!!!!!! murder.!!!! intimidation tactics!!!!!!!! #happy Saturday!! ‼️‼️🧍‍♂️🫶‼️‼️❤️‼️‼️ #so sorry for the sertegra shortage I spent all week trying to lip sync things then remembered I had actual work to do #but I finally finished it!!! albeit I got a bit lazy but I did it! yay yippee!!!!!!!!!!! #beach boys hellsing power point going bonkers ‘every sentence has been said at some point in time’ #I can prove that shit false using the power of horrible horrible connections that no one else would ever feel the need to make #anyway you guys should listen to Sunflower she’s warm and fluffy and has a lot of whole band collaboration #like you have Dennis And Bruce contributing songs that’s crazy you have two Bruce songs that never happens! also cool cool water is fun #yay scrapped smile tracks! and unlike the other smile scrapped ones that they put on studio albums she’s like a unique lil lad #like the whole first part isn’t at all on the like 2011 recreation unlike say vegetables which gets remashed or our prayer which is iden #okay well actually maybe it is more like vegetables in that sense it’s more it’s cutting something instead of adding #which a lot of the 2011 versions were adding things back that were cut like the cantina part of heroes and villains #actually okay now that I’m thinking about it shit would require a lot of explaining I can’t just drop the Charles Manson lore #or some shit like that and just move on… sorry beach boys 💔

[ironhusband]

Thinking about Erik snapping at Charles with “well maybe you should have fought harder for them” and the pain in his eyes when Charles told him they didn’t want the same things.

#cherik #going insane Erik sitting in that awful cell thinking that Charles will never rescue him but he’ll still know Erik didn’t do this #and him learning Charles thinks he’s a murderer a monster - the one person who had never thought that of him besides his parents - and that #Charles thinks he did do it and he hates everything so much because if Charles gave up hope on him if even Charles is unwilling to fight for #him anymore maybe he truly is a monster and killing raven for the future is just a who he is #thinking of how much it would break Erik of Charles called him a monster to his face #‘you abandoned us all’ but what he means is you abandoned me! you sent me away and you let me rot in prison and you gave up on me #anyways!!! the way Erik wanted Charles to fight for one thing and that was him and he didn’t!! he just gave up and sent him away #listen ok I know Erik left him bleeding on a beach with no way of getting out of there but man I will always be side Erik in the divorce #look at the day the man had!!! he’s paralyzed by fear when confronting his abuser and then Charles tells him to not kill him even tho Erik- #needed it to feel safe like watch the scene watch it!!! and then he’s facing genocide again and this time he can lift the coin and save his #people. then Charles gets shot and he blames ERIK and then he breaks up with Erik like ok I know he’s wounded and all but the fact the #fandom is like ‘oh Charles didn’t mean for them to go he was shot and mad Erik should know better’ #but we’re not like ‘oh Erik faced his childhood abuser and then relived something very similar to his trauma #got blamed for his lover’s injury (and like he doesn’t blame himself for him mom too) and then broken up with. he went through so much #lasting emotional trauma in the span of less than one hour how can he know better’ #and there’s like a good explanation for why Charles would still blame him like Erik was wearing the helmet he couldn’t have picked up on all #that depth without one of the senses he relies on. but the fandom being like Erik is the bad person in this instance #it seems unfair. also it screams I’m a gentile honestly. #also you can’t tell me part of Erik wasn’t like ‘maybe he’d be better off without me’ when he left the beach #x men #Charles Xavier #erik lehnsherr #ramble rumble #now just don’t think of ‘let him come’ being Erik hoping Charles will finally fight for him and say they should have been together #and instead Charles throws more unfair (well about raven) blame in his face

[tabby-shieldmaiden]

Watch me morph into a 'this children's show is insufficiently communist' adult in real time.

#tabby says something #maybe i should go to the beach tomorrow

[aropride]

FUCK MY STUPID BAKA LIFE

#text #IT IS THEM . FAWK #I HOPED THEY WERE SERIOUSLY DROPPING OUT THAT WOULDVE BEEN SO FUNNY . FUCKKKKKK #okay. well. that's fine. i dont even care #i see ellen tomorrow i'll ask her what i should do . #and for now. i guess i'll write out my schedule for the week on my handy dandy epic whiteboard #and i'll listen to some music #and grab a snack bc i didn't finish my dinner #and tomorrow #tomorrow i will go to the campus center. see ellen #then i'll get water at the campus center #then i'll go back to my dorm UNLESS it's already lunchtime. inwhich case ill get lunch THEN go back to my dorm #then ill take a binding break and lie down #then class #then lie down again. maybe write. then dinner then.. beach probably yeah #and it'll all be okay

[rewordthis]

So no one wants to read gonana, huh… or could it just be I’m not good at writing these two?

#gonana #五七 #maybe it’s the tag… #should I had tagged it #nanago #? #ughhh 🫠 #but I’m particular on who’s seme so… 😗 #a writer’s inner monologue 🤺 #maybe I should stop with the angst… #or maybe it’s just that there’s higher demand on other ‘kinds’ of stories… 👀 #*sighs* #there’s a fire in the area and the sun is fucking red and the glow on walls trees whatever is red too #the smoke has veiled the blue sky and the heat is getting worse #and why can’t I write like that all the time? #why is my brain being so stupid these days? #it’s because it’s summer and I just want to eat 🍦and 🍉 and go to the beach isn’t it #*sighs dramatically* #idk why I’m sharing this info 😑 #it’s hot #i’m tired #and i’m bored #ask is open if there’s anyone that wants to talk about the fic btw #I don’t mind even negative criticism as long as it’s not offending. #sorry for ranting in the tags #it’s just #*sighs again* #I’m in that kind of headspace rn. hahaha

[awesomehoggirl]

Noy cause I’ll never peak like I did summer 2022 when I was in france I was UNBOTHERED I was HAULING THE GREATEST VINTAGE I MAY EVER FIND I was serving cunt on the beach every day and eating moules every NIGHT I was writing some of my best poetry and drawing some of my best shit I looked so good like I’ll never be the same best 3 weeks of my life

#Maybe I should move there. Like brexit fucked that up for me but my grandparents live there Surely theres so #mething I can do #Like maybe france is just for me. think about it whag are my favoruite things in the world #Rare as fuck bleeding steak. patisserie. vintage clothes. going to the beach. I wouldn’t talk to anyone and that would be good for me #Like to self improve

[placesyoucallhome]

Thigh day from bunny bartender.

It’s not a matter of ‘am I making him’ it’s a matter of ‘who is he going on?’ right now. Toon with a house (infuriatingly in shirogane where I don’t want it) or toon with an apt in the Mist. I’m leaning towards the toon with the apt as that would require no name change either, but he’s only just at end of arr *wheeze* I might consider trying to save up and buying a msq boost at the anniversary sale. On the other hand, house toon was Tristan which I’m shelving for now, and would require a name change but he’s at the end of Shb and has crafting mostly leveled. I think I may just continue to try and move house and leave it open for a character that would better utilize it, but I don’t know. Maybe I change it back to Ruhka at some point even to put him in a fc. Unless I win the lotto in the next week, then fuck it he’ll go in the house toon.

#gpose #rambling thinking out loud so it's put under a cut #He'll be on balmung either way #I also can't decide on hair but hey that's easily changeable #I was apparently just trying to force hair that I thought I should like #when the ones I thought I didn't like really worked well on him. #like s 1 3 and 4 actually look good on him #anyways low effort today because actually everyone's going on vacation around me BUT me #and I just got really sad about it #Was literally going to go to the beach but 'oh maybe next year' yeah bullshit

[olways-lichrichure]

Me: "wow why am I so tired all the time"

Also me: doesn't sleep even though I'm literally doing nothing because I'm so tired my brain can't hold any thoughts other than static electricity and somehow going to sleep doesn't occur to me as a solution because my brain cannot think

Me: "wow maybe I should go see the sunrise"

#shut up sam #there is half an hour until sunrise #maybe i should #or maybe i should actually fucking sleep #scrampled brain #i need to either knock the fuck out or go grab my bike so i can go to the beach #either way i should decide soon #eh you know what sleepytime fuck my 10AM class

[pebblezone]

Idk how welcome home has overrun literally all of my social media but I guess I welcome it

#talkingcore #I love puppets it’s all on me I’m engaging this actually isn’t a complaint more like a I Didn’t Know This Existed 24 hours ago #and now it’s literally all I’m seeing like 80% of the videos I’ve seen today have been welcome home which like honestly is super impressive #hell yeah to those creators they’ve got some insane drive #album adventure update: finally rolled good ol honorary Beach boy Glen Campbell maybe I’ll give you guys ram ranch #pip would’ve loved ram ranch 💔 rip king fly high 🕊️🧍‍♂️ 18 naked cowboys 😭 at the ram ranch 😰 #I’ve been fucking around with lip syncing shit and it’s tedious as hell but heeehee it’s fun woooah the mouth moves wooooahaaahhhhhh #also this dude keeps leaving his Apple Watch in the practice room in my dorm and like thankfully I’m such an amazing and perfect person #that I didn’t take it the first time but the second time (like 2 weeks later) I said fuck it and just used it while it was still in there #(I’d checked at 2. saw it was there. didn’t use it. came back at 5 it was still there so like a reasonable amount of time to get it) #so I fucked around as normal but like I started getting freaked by the possibility of it listening (it probs wasn’t) #so I left but like bro how do you forget it twice why are you taking it off #I gave it to the help desk people which I think was the right thing to do but also Dude think how easily I could’ve stolen it please keep it #no longer dying of the plague but I need to hang onto my t boy swag pleasepleaseplease let me keep at least some lower notes #I will accept not hitting a G2 again but like. a C3? even just a D3 like regularly? please? please? please? hello? you’re nothing #anyway I’m avoiding my work you guys should look up The Beach Boys and Charles Manson have a gander at that for fun #thanks to my lovely institution having a strike going on by mid Thursday I’m done for the week which means I get to indulge and boy shall I #love you 🫶 go slay 🫶 have great vagina 🫶 byeeee

[autistickaitovocaloid]

Thinking about how the same words can have different connotations. Like yeah sand box sounds fine but sand pit? Sounds way cooler, almost kind of ominous.

#art talks about stuff #like maybe i'm biased because i've always known it as a sand pit #i miss playing in sand pits i wish there was a way for me to play in one now #''just go to the beach" it's not the same #like i get why high schools don't have sand pits the way primary schools do but #they should #imo

[deartouya]

incredibly excited for summer and spring weather to actually get here >:3 and also for mermay !!

#i plan on posting 2 fics this year !! at the beginning + end maybe a shorter + longer one #but it's finally warming up where i live and everything's green and i can't wait to go to the beach more often !! #aaah ok off to read some fics + q some stuff smooch smooch #i should have a fic for you by the middle of the week ^3^ #✶ venus stfu !!