#oswin series

[whimperwoods]

Oswin - Fog and Vertigo

Part 9! Oswin Greystone is a wizard, a con man, and, now, a warlock’s pet. He needs to find a way out of it.

tw: pet whump, tw: non-sexual nudity (he’s technically in his underwear), tw: abuse, tw: abuse by a representative of the law, tw: fantasy cops, tw: threats, tw: mental fog, tw: panic attacks, tw: dizziness, tw: vertigo, tw: vomit mention, kind of nothing happens, but kind of something does

There’s a masterpost now!

Taglist:  @just-a-whumping-racoon-with-wifi,  @starnight-whump

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Oswin could barely believe his luck as his master’s booted feet retreated down the stairs. His jaw still ached faintly from the captain’s tight grip on it and he could hear that voice telling him, low and growling, exactly what would happen to him if he made a noise this time. He’d started shaking and he knew he’d never stop if he couldn’t get the images his master had painted back out of his head.

He waited, keeping his ears open and focusing on what he could hear in the hope that it might drive the thoughts away and settle his racing heart.

The sounds were the same as yesterday, the low hum of men talking and laughing downstairs with no idea he was here. It was hard to imagine why his master thought they would care, given how little they’d seemed to care about him when he was in their dungeon instead of their attic, but that was another thought that didn’t help.

He focused on breathing. He’d been left collared, but with his mouth uncovered. That, at least, he could live with. For now, he could live with that, and for now he needed not to think about what it meant to be able to live with it. He could calm down. He would calm down.

When he felt confident that the man wouldn’t return any time soon, he rose hesitantly to his feet, biting back a curse as straightening his battered knees sent pain shooting through him.

He felt weak and wobbly, but standing at all had been beyond him not so long ago, so he let himself stand still and breathe and wait for the uncertainty to pass, holding his arms out for balance like a toddler. Gods, what was he? How had he been one thing three days ago and become another so fast?

Stumbling over to his master’s desk was more instinct than strategy. It was solid, heavy, and the right height to help him keep upright. Once he was there, though, there was plenty to catch his eye. He moved some papers off of a map of the city, labeled with a set of symbols he couldn’t make heads or tails out of.

Swaying on his feet, he started rifling through the papers instead, and then the drawers, hoping for anything that jumped out as useful. He could tell he wasn’t thinking straight, that the fear and pain were clouding over his mind, but he forced himself to focus. If nothing else, he would focus his eyes on the pages. If nothing else, he would read the words enough times to know what they were about, generally. If nothing else, he would decide if the things were useful.

It was all slow, too slow, painfully slow, and he couldn’t stand for that long, sinking into his master’s chair almost without noticing.

He barely heard his master’s feet on the steps before the man arrived, and even with the spike of terror that hit him, his mind was too slow to react, and he had time to fling himself from the chair and onto the floor, but not the time to fix the papers that scattered with him.

“Wizard,” his master barked, the anger in his voice making Oswin curl up into himself on the ground. “Were you going through my things?”

Oswin’s mouth went dry, and the fog in his brain rose up to silence him, his mind too muffled to answer.

As his master’s booted feet came closer, it was all he could do to stammer out the truth - “Yes!”

The feet stopped, and Oswin didn’t have the courage to look up.

“What did you say?” the man asked, an edge of danger in his voice.

“Yes, master,” Oswin said, his voice so soft it almost gave out.

“And did I give you permission to go through my things?”

“No, master.”

Blank. Empty. Howling. Why wasn’t his brain more useful? Why couldn’t he think? Oswin realized he was breathing fast, too fast, fast enough to make his empty, foggy head start spinning on its axis. He pressed his forehead to the floor, hard, in the hope that it might stop the spinning.

His master’s feet were moving again, but even if he’d been fast enough to think of running, he couldn’t have known which way was away. He gasped for air, losing himself to the way the world reeled around him.

The quiet thud of his master’s knees landing on the floor beside him made Oswin flinch away, even as he struggled to make sense of it. A huge hand wrapped around the back of his neck, squeezing in a vague threat he felt more than he understood.

He looked up into his master’s eyes, unable to keep his own locked into the cold brown ones that seemed to spin along with the rest of the world, dizzying and impossible.

All of a sudden, his master released the back of his neck and felt his forehead instead.

“You’re not feverish,” he said, “Pull yourself together.”

The shove that sent Oswin sprawling was almost gentle, compared to most of what had come before it, and Oswin laid his head back down on the floor, trying to find words around his panting breaths. “Th-thank you, master.”

“The next time you touch something that isn’t yours without permission, I’ll crush your fingers under my boot.”

Oswin nodded, the motion making the vertigo worse. His chest hurt. Had his master done something to make his chest hurt? But no, that was him. His lungs. His heart. He felt like he’d messed up a lightning spell, like the energy running though him was too much, too fast, too dangerous.

The toe of his master’s boot pushed his chin away from his chest, and Oswin forced himself to look up at the man again, even as everything in front of his eyes continued to whirl.

“If you can look at things for yourself, you can look at them for me. Stand up.”

No. No, that wasn’t possible. For a moment Oswin didn’t move, but then his master’s face shifted, darkening, and Oswin fought his way through the spinning of the world and figured out how to move.

The floor was definitely down. The floor was down. He rolled onto his hands an knees, which meant his hands and knees were down and his head and back were up. He felt his stomach twist, but the good thing about not having eaten since yesterday was that there was nothing in there to rebel against the pain that still spiked with every twist of his back or the spinning of the world.

When he leaned back, onto just his knees, the spinning got worse, and he had to close his eyes.

His master grunted, displeased. “I said stand, pet.”

Oswin couldn’t nod. Couldn’t speak. He knew which way was which, as long as he didn’t think too hard about the spinning, as long as he didn’t try to look. He struggled to his feet, swaying as soon as he was upright.

His knees didn’t feel any better this time, but what was more pressing was that he could feel the world swinging around him, even with his eyes closed. He half-crouched, trying to give himself a wider base to keep from falling over.

Then his master’s hand was on his chin again, pulling Oswin’s face to tilt up towards his own. “Open your eyes.”

Oswin did, looking straight into those cold eyes, and even as he continued to feel everything whirl, whirl, whirl without stopping, his master’s eyes stayed perfectly steady.

Oswin reached up and grabbed his master’s forearm, moving on instinct before he could think about what he was doing.

“P-please Sir,” No. Wrong. Oswin took in a deep, shuddering breath and tried again, “Please, Master, make it stop!”

His voice sounded afraid, even more than he expected. Even more than he felt, because even the fear seemed blurry beneath the vertigo, like that too was wheeling around him at top speed.

His master sighed. His brow softened, the anger fading. The Captain’s eyes were still cold, still mean, but he was less dangerous now, had to be less dangerous when he wasn’t angry. Oswin started tearing up, his legs still shaking and his grip on his master’s arm still desperate.

His master’s other hand cupped his cheek, moving his face more gently this time.

“Make what stop, wizard? What have you done to yourself?”

“The spinning, master,” Oswin answered quietly. “Everything is spinning.”

The Captain scoffed, letting go of Oswin’s face with a little shove that, disoriented as he was, meant Oswin could only stay upright by closing his eyes again and clinging more tightly to the man’s arm.

“Lie down,” his master said, sounding vaguely disgusted. “You’ll look at things for me later. Get some rest.” He muttered something under his breath that Oswin only half-heard. Whatever it was, it wasn’t good.

It was a relief to let go of his master’s arm, as much as it made him feel unmoored in the time it took him to get carefully from his feet to the ground.

Everything still spun, but the pressure of the ground against his side was reassuring, more reassuring than being balanced on his feet.

“I’m going to leave some bread,” his master sad, “Don’t eat it until the spinning stops. If you vomit, I’ll make you lick it up.”

Oswin couldn’t bear to think of either the promise or the threat. Instead, he focused on the darkness inside his eyelids and tried, again, to get ahold of himself. His master’s footsteps sounded impossibly regular, descending the stairs, but when they were gone the world seemed even more impossible, somehow.

Everything was still spinning when he fell asleep, too exhausted for even the sense that he was about to fall to keep his frazzled nerves from giving out.

#fantasy whump #whump #pet whump #d&d wump #panic attacks tw #dizziness tw #threats tw #police brutality tw #fantasy police tw #oswin series #emeto mention #emeto tw #our boy is not doing great #give him some more days and he'll be able to make decisions again

[foolishlyzephyrus]

no one talks about how horrifying of a concept asylum of the daleks has. to be so convinced of your humanity that you cannot accept the fact that you have become a monster, to have lived in a dreamt up world inside your head despite its nonsensical rules because the reality is far too disturbing to bear.

#doctor who #dw #dr who #eleventh doctor #11th doctor #oswin oswald #clara oswald #doctor who series 7 #asylum of the daleks #this is genuinely one of the reasons I don’t like rewatching this episode #that shit is heartbreaking

[ethan-nestor-owns-my-heart]

I love a nerd with curtain bangs and big sad eyes

#fallout #ella purnell #lucy maclean #fallout on prime #fallout series #Clara Oswald #Clara oswin Oswald #Jenna Coleman #Jenna Louise Coleman #doctor who

[thefiresofpompeii]

you know what. i left this as tags on somebody else’s post that was talking about her social skills are just as awful as twelve’s, but now i think i should make it rebloggable because this is earnestly what i believe. every 2 weeks i like to drop a surprise clara take that probably gets me blocked by people

messy bitch rights. clara’s got some serious internalised ableism that she should have probably worked through when she was de facto alive but now she’s got more pressing issues to deal with such as making out with ashildr over the diner console and joining faction paradox

#jamie catches up #dw #clara oswald #doctor who #twelveclara #whouffaldi #whouffle #jenna coleman #clara oswin #doctor who series 8 #doctor who series 9 #doctorclara #doctorification #jamie.txt #clara oswin oswald #autism #autistic headcanon

[nortism]

doctor who liveblog pt 40

s8 ep1 deep breath

- 12 is that doctor i predicted would be my favourite before i watched the show so no pressure but i have high expectations

- this is partially bc of my belief that only scottish people should be allowed to play the doctor

- yay a dinosaur great start

- a dinosaur in london?! even better

- MADAME VASTRA EVEN BETTER

- ofc it ate the tardis

- i quite like the new intro

- bro got the scrooge bedtime fit

- men are monkeys

- oh jenny and vastra, i love you jenny and vastra

- be kind vastra, clara is trying her best

- WHO SET THE DINOSAUR ON FIRE

- oh yes victorian fit clara

- oh is he remembering pompeii

- he’s scottish

- uh oh restaurant trap

- oh he’s frankensteining him

- HE IS NOT LEAVING HER WTFF

- noo clara

- YES THE DOCTOR

- YES JENNY AND VASTRA

- omg skin balloon

- oh he straight up killed that guy

- ooo he redecorated

- yeah i’m also not sure i like it

- oh shit officially not your boyfriend zoned

- i like the new fit

- nooo clara

- oh hello eleven

- aww hug

- bro ur always a hugging person be serious

- oh the parallels to nine and rose

- MISSYYYYYYY IVE BEEN SO EXCITED FOR HER !!!!!!!!!

s8 ep2 into the dalek

- accidentally deleted all my liveblogging but my main take away is that the dalek pov shots make me laugh

s8 ep3 robot of sherwood

- very excited for this nottingham representation, i was born there

- karl marx looks a little different in this

- another amazing fit from clara, im glad they’ve decided to go back to dressing the companions up for the past, i thought they’d given up on that after s1 ep3

- this is silly as hell

- this is a good point, nottingham is quite miserable

- the doctor is a real hater

- don’t be magic-ing things on fire in medieval times, you’re going to get burnt at the stake

- uh oh medieval robots

- clara oswald i love you

- they are loving the marx references in this episode

- oh shit drowning in the pot of boiling gold

- that was so much fun

#nortism liveblogs doctor who #doctor who #dw #doctor who liveblog #new who #doctor who s8 #doctor who series 8 #12th doctor #twelfth doctor #clara oswald #clara oswin oswald #dalek #deep breath #into the dalek #robot of sherwood

[seaweedstarshine]

“That’s a bold choice, Dalek Supreme, coming to a wedding planet dressed in white! Unless you’re here to get hitched… should I be flattered?”

“We are here to exterminate you.”

“Oh, that’s probably for the best. Not sure River would be up for a marriage à trois… not with a Dalek, at any rate.”

—Eleventh Doctor Chronicles: Victory of the Doctor

#hearts-wrenching audio… methinks it's time for my ''SERIAL CHEATERS OR OPEN MARRIAGE?'' poll I've been wanting to do #river song #eleventh doctor #yowzah #bein real the ending of this audio series was gorgeous - the wedding - Valarie talking about all the therapy she's gonna get #and the implication Doctor goes meditating as a monk in Bells of Saint John for a similar reason- very similar to the prequel miniepisode #ngl this audio series set up The Day of the Doctor better than all of Season 7B #what with it being about the Doctor being terrified of becoming a Warrior again and losing himself to that #if the daleks are around then he killed his people for nothing! now he/oswin made the daleks forget the only thing they fear! noooo #also this part ‘I hate you!!!’ ‘...I hate me too’ #BTW i DO enjoy season 7b but it had obvious behind-the-scenes setbacks i.e. half the stories being wrote for Victorian Clara #and I appreciate the Eleventh Doctor Chronicles for filling in with that time war existential dread #and I love valarie/roanna. and I love the paradigm daleks and I love this boxset for making them so threatening #words by seaweed

[justletmeramble1701]

Are you guys ever watching something and you get so distracted because the actor is so pretty?

This is such an intense and dramatic moment. The Doctor is about to be shot out of the sky by someone disguised as his companion while on the phone with the imposter. The music is blaring, the tension is rising, and my dumbass audibly exclaims "She’s so pretty!" when it cuts to this shot EVERY TIME I WATCH IT! It is pathetic!

It's like watching a car crash and getting distracted because the tree that the car is about to hit is really pretty.

#jenna coleman #jenna louise coleman #clara oswald #clara oswin oswald #oswin oswald #doctor who #pretty actress #I'm ace #what the fuck is wrong with me #this only happens with Jenna Coleman #like is Johanna Constantine supposed to be an asshole because her face is too distracting #johanna constantine #horney jail? #idk #i was 12 when this aired so maybe that's it? #series 12 #dr who #why am i making this post #this feels out of character but I really want to know if this is normal

[clairedelune-13]

You know what, people say Rose getting trapped in the AU or Donna losing her memories is saddest. But I think Oswin realizing she’s a Dalek is the ultimate horror, and truly sad.

#poor oswin #asylum of the daleks #series 7 #jenna coleman #doctor who

[silly-witch]

Also, say in the tags why you like/dislike her and whether you prefer her with 11 or 12 !

#doctor who #polls #doctor who poll #new doctor who #new who #matt smith #jenna coleman #clara oswald #clara oswin oswald #clara oswin #oswin oswald #eleventh doctor #series 7 #twelfth doctor #peter capaldi #doctor who posting #nuwho #asylum of the daleks #just curious :) #doctor who fandom

[koscheisfemme]

they’re just sleeping guys. terribly long naps. carrying the season does that to you.

#gomez!master #clara oswald #clara oswin oswald #the master #doctor who #dw #doctor who series 8 #michelle gomez #jenna coleman #my wives my gfs my loves #wlw meets wlw

[laura-dns]

Love them so much 💙

#doctor who #eleventh doctor #eleven #clara oswald #clara oswin #clara oswin oswald #french girl #tinygirl #series 7 #british tv shows #cursed love #tardis #time and relative dimension in space

[theincredimazingbablesquatch]

I finally started trying to catch up on Doctor Who. Fell off due to time-issues (LOL) after Capaldi's first season and just... never got back to it but I needed more Missy and Jodie seems cool and I loooove Ncuti and had to be ready to watch his episodes... So anyway I started S9 yesterday and just have to say I love that one of the first things they do is (Spoilers, sweetie)

put Clara in a Dalek again. Souffle anyone?

#Doctor Who #clara oswin oswald #twelfth doctor #doctor who series 9

[oswincoleman]

10 years since Asylum of the Daleks!

10 years since we first saw Jenna Coleman in Doctor Who, playing Oswin Oswald, her first of many roles in the show!

Our Carmen / Soufflé girl / junior entertainment manager will always live on in our hearts! Her story was sad, and it was beautiful!

#jenna coleman #jenna louise coleman #doctor who #clara oswald #oswin oswald #asylum of the daleks #doctor who series 7 #11th doctor #10 years

[ethan-nestor-owns-my-heart]

Accurate representation of Doctor Who series 9:

#doctor who 2005 #doctor who 9 #doctor who series 9 #doctor who #12th doctor #twelth doctor #peter capaldi #clara oswald #Clara oswin oswald #impossible girl #jenna coleman #jenna louise coleman #bbc doctor who #the doctor #Clara #the sex lives of college girls #renee rapp #doctor who memes

[proxy-alpha]

10 years ago…

Whouffle was born.

10 years to Asylum of the Daleks, Jenna Coleman’s role in Doctor Who and S7.

#doctor who #whouffle #clara oswald #eleventh doctor #11th doctor #souffez #jenna coleman #matt smith #eleven x clara #Oswin Oswald #asylum of the daleks #and #series 7 #is ten years old

[nortism]

doctor who liveblog pt 39

s7 ep13 nightmare in silver

- classic heads poking out the door one by one

- i’ve not seen classic who but that guy looks the amalgamation of all their doctors

- always the fucking cybermen

- hello warwick davis

- obviously they’re gonna wander off

- uh oh cyberman

- uh oh cyberbugs

- uh oh the cyberman got the little kid

- no blowing up this planet is good advice tbh

- uh oh half cybermen.

- uh oh he got cybered

- they really need a new companion handbook so clara can get how serious cybermen are

- oh that is quite a few cybermen

- oh no the most thing didn’t work

- porridge is the emperor?!

- i think i would have taken him on up on the marriage proposal

s7 ep14 the name of the doctor

- ayyy gallifrey

- oh the first doctor hello

- omg all the classic doctors

- impossible girl lets go

- MADAME VASTRA!!

- RIVER!! i’ve been wondering where she got to

- trenzalore sounds like an anti depressant

- JENNY?!!?!::)/£ NOOOOOO

- oh i don’t like these guys

- what do u mean an ex, u guys just got married??

- uh oh he’s crying, this is unsettling

- oh shit we’re going to the doctor’s grave

- the tardis always the most sensible person around

- oh giant tardis

- hello river

- RIVER’S GRAVE?!

- yay jenny

- oh this fucking guy again

- this is not good

- JENNY NOOOO

- strax omg

- omg clara no

- oh she said the line

- goodbye river

- ohhh the leaf

- this whole name business feels very much like a trans allegory

- hello john hurt as the doctor

mini episode - the night of the doctor

- i’ve been told there’s other mini episodes but this is the one that’s on iplayer

- not sure i got that but crazy stuff

the day of the doctor

- ooh the old intro

- she’s a teacher now??

- WITH BILLIE PIPER???

- also hello david tennant or whatever

- hello billie piper??

- is this meant to be rose?!

- wait she’s the conscience??

- ohhhhhh

- i forgot he married elizabeth i

- oh hello painted david tennant

- david what has happen to your hair?!?

- this is so silly

- uh oh zygons

- jack harkness mention!!

- NO CLARA!!

- yes then clara !!

- that’s a lot of dead children

- ofc the door was unlocked

- ALLLL THIRTEENNNNNN

- oh this is hype as hell

- ohhh the war doctor turning into nine

- i think i supposed to know who the curator is but i don’t

- that was a crazy crossover, i loved it. i just wish eccelston didn’t hate being the doctor bc i would have liked it if all three of them showed up

the time of the doctor

- oh yes fake dating subplot

- ohhh gallifrey

- oh great the silence

- the tardis should work by remote

- oh great the wall crack

- shitttt trenzalore

- oh he pulled a the parting of ways on clara

- how has he aged??

- oh he’s only got a finite number of lives, like a cat

- not again, poor clara

- oh he’s old old

- oh bonus regeneration power

- that’s not peter capaldi??

- oh he’s still cooking

- aww amelia

- AMY 😭😭

- oh the bow tie

- PETER CAPALDI!! i hope he treats clara better bc my girl has been through the wars

- tragic we didn’t get to see him looking awkward in the bow tie, that’s always my favourite part of each regeneration

#nortism liveblogs doctor who #doctor who #doctor who liveblog #dw #new who #doctor who series 7 #doctor who s7 #11th doctor #eleventh doctor #clara oswin oswald #clara oswald #river song #jenny doctor who #madame vastra #commander strax #10th doctor #tenth doctor #war doctor #nightmare in silver #the name of the doctor #the night of the doctor #the day of the doctor #the time of the doctor