#peace in troubled times

[taikanyohou]

“I’ll sleep here today ...” OH NO! HERE COMES TROUBLE (2023). Episode 7.

#oh no! here comes trouble #oh no here comes trouble #asiandramasource #asiandramanet #dailyasiandramas #twdramaedit #* #faiza gifs #the way guangyan just ................. tucks yiyong in before he settles himself ..................... HEAD IN HANDS like. #yiyong spends all his time on others and showing kindness and a way back home for them to rest in peace #and so it just feels ... SO RIGHT and SO GOOD for SOMEONE! GUANGYAN! TO SHOW YIYONG HOW NICE KINDNESS AND BEING LOOKED AFTER FEELS #LIKE !!!!!!!!!!!!!! #GOD THEYRE JUST. SO GOOD.

[isfjmel-phleg]

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*it cut off my last tags which were: I don't know what I can do about this but in the meantime it's a struggle

#random personal stuff #back on my soapbox feel free to ignore #okay so I have been struggling a bit in the Sunday school class that I am being taken to #which is not surprising because I have been struggling socially in this church for the past year #it's a women's class taught by the pastor's wife but not all the women in the church are in it #most of them are middle-aged/elderly #what we're learning is perfectly fine #I appreciate that they're going through an epistle and not lecturing us on How To Be Good Wives and Mothers #but the other women will chime in with their thoughts in between discussions of doctrine #and it will be things like empty little slogans #(such as 'Choose joy!' or 'GodisgoodallthetimeandallthetimeGodisgood') #(not that there isn't any truth in those but they're used tritely) #or What The Lord Did For Me (or: My Life Is Perfectly Peachy) #or things that suggest their faith is all about never being upset by anything ever because you Have Peace #and I kind of wonder if this is a generational thing #because sometimes I'll call my mom with something that's troubling me #and she'll tell me things to the effect of 'just don't feel that way' #or 'ask the Lord to take it away' #which is kindly meant but ultimately ineffective in my experience #but anyway I'm sure these women mean what they say yet at the same time it just...feels insincere to me #as if as Christians we're just supposed to paste smiles on our faces and never have negative feelings #I'm not saying we should all come to class and dispense our personal dramas #but it feels like we're showing up and performing Niceness #and not allowing room for anything that isn't Easy Answers Positivity #and I sit there feeling like there's a huge invisible brick wall around me #and I'm sure that's a me problem #but...I don't know what I'm trying to articulate here sorry #I guess I don't know how to interact with these people because nothing seems real #and we can progress no further than the smallest of small talk because heaven forbid we let our real honest selves slosh over in public #and it's draining!

[wioletwitch]

Michael Gambon 1940–2023

"To the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure."

#where your treasure is there your heart will be also #you think the dead we loved truly ever leave us? you think we don't recall them more clearly in times of great trouble? #michael gambon #harry potter #people #rest in peace

[thebirdandhersong]

well mark that down as situation 2938489 that I don't know how to handle

#i would love advice on this if y'all have any thoughts to share because i know what my parents think and im having trouble sorting it out #i love these three friends of mine but it is really draining to be around them now because all they will talk about is church drama #(re: our old church) and rehashing it all and being Outraged about the horrors etc etc #either that or being downright condescending about protestants/non denominations and acting like it's funny to talk like that all the time #i end up being more angry or resentful or exasperated at the end of our conversations than glad and at peace like i did before #(before all THIS ish happened and the three of them were like okay this is all we're going to talk about now) #i've tried to say in gentle ways (i am simply not capable of this kind of blunt confrontation) that maybe we should not be talking #so uncharitably towards other people especially behind their backs. like. yes bad things happened. we have to acknowledge that. #but continually making jokes and jibes at a priest's expense really rubs me the wrong way especially since i KNOW that he loves us #and in many ways was trying his best in the circumstances. and are we not supposed to be loving our neighbour #and is this not downright slander to keep going on this way esp since it goes on for HOURS at a time #anyway i don't know what to DO because if i keep chatting with them/meeting up with them conversation will be 90% this thing and i Hate It #but on the other hand i feel responsibility towards them because my godson's one of them and another is a friend who is a fairly recent #convert and if i leave them to stew in their own echo chamber i doubt it'll do them good #am i supposed to keep some distance? am i supposed to keep arguing whenever one of them says something unkind or inflammatory? #am i supposed to keep speaking up so that they hear a different perspective? am i supposed to run in the other direction for my own peace o #mind? anyway i am still thinking this over and it stresses me OUT #it used to be fun and life giving to be around these people and now it is so exhausting and seriously alarming in many ways

[stiltonbasket]

Lan-jiejie, drunk off a sip of wine and ranting to her friends at 2 am: my didi is a dumbass? He's had a crush on this girl for 15 years, and he keeps getting into fights with her? why can't he get his act together and confess? except he tried to and it got worse? ٩(//̀Д/́/)۶

Lan-jiejie, hearing that her didi finally got engaged to the girl of his dreams:

Lan-jiejie two seconds later, finding out that said engagement is the result of a perilous quest, a secret relationship, and will now be the precursor to a shotgun wedding:

#asks #she's that meme where the mom is screaming “why can't you be normal?” #and the kid (lan fang) is in the back seat wailing about how much he loves a-lan and how she is putting herself in DANGER all the time #or how much she must hate him after their latest misunderstanding #it's a toss-up really #they finally get engaged and lan-jiejie thinks her troubles are over but NO #now hanguang-jun is shooting her didi death glares while pointedly building an adorable crib #and angrily quizzing him on his daily habits and reprimanding him for not eating well #meanwhile a-lan had no idea about any of this while it was going on #she was (and is) living a very peaceful life

[mariemariemaria]

Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality

#i was gonna say done nothing to help but that seemed too harsh #like there definitely is more knowledge about it now. maybe more people feel comfortable speaking about it which is good #but personally i don't feel that. like idk. workplaces will post about mental health awareness and then do nothing to help employees #the same w universities. my uni cut back the already meager mental health support #and then the government is doing absolutely fuck all as well #like idk im just back in a place i thought id gotten out of long ago and i still don't feel comfortable talking about it with people #maybe that's a me problem or maybe it's cultural or something idk. but in the 10 years ive been depressed (🫠) i don't think it's gotten a #whole lot better. teenagers are still dealing with the same shit i did and they're still not being taken seriously #women's mental health is not even spoken about.....anxiety depression sh eds etc are still ignored or seen as hysterical behaviour in women #or just normal esp with disordered eating. society hasn't changed people still want women to be stick thin and weak #like i know 10 years is a short time and there has been massive improvements in mh awareness if we look back over the past 50+ years #but idk i just think that it hasn't gotten better for a lot of people #i think specifically of belfast and like god. the amount of trauma there is the amount of homelessness the amount of substance abuse #drug abuse in particular that has gotten visibly worse over the past decade or so* #and i connect the dots n see the 2008 recession + a tory gov defunding the nhs + dehumanisation of homeless people & addicts + the troubles #+ ptsd + generational trauma + a negative peace + classism + paramilitary drug dealers + parties linked to those paramilitaries #and its like hmmmm i think we live in a society. and a mental health approach based on individual actions like journaling and meditation #isn't the way to go. or at least is not the be all and end all which is what a lot of mental health awareness raising seems to promote #*visibly worse on the streets. it was always a problem ofc but even a decade ago my parents never imagined it would be as bad as it is now #and it's become so normalised. i do think there's less individualism here than there seems to be elsewhere which can be good and can be bad #but i think we are becoming more and more individualistic. slowly. there's still a sense of community here but i do think it's changing #and callousness towards homeless people is one of the most obvious examples of this. #love when i put a wee asterisk in the tags of a post. like i have A Lot To Say lol

[nailgunstigmata]

not to be a hater here but i think that if the charden kiss isnt allowed in edits then neither is the macden scene where they share a bed (a situation mac forced dennis into while explicitly knowing he cant refuse and doesnt want it) or the attempted kiss in recycles trash (does not need an explation)

#like i dont think its a romantic charden moment either but. its sunny #in times up dennis explicitly says that mac touches and attempts to kiss him without consent repeatedly like. thats a thing that happened #and dennis has ofc assaulted mac too so like. idk what to say here #like u can still have ur preferences and not like that moment uh. but its not uniquely bad by any means #sorry im just peeved because charden nation really cant have anything in these troubling times #macden can assault each other and its romantic but this is where we draw the line #anyways peace and love etc

[lemongogo]

mo bc thats so crazy to me . befriending people online. like its such a special connection to have.anyways thank u 4 giving me something to cherish . hearts love hamster pic

#i tbink i take it for granted too often . and i want to appreciate what i have more #like todofam dsc going .SHURTTT UPPPP ITS GOING TO BE FIVE YEARS OLD THIS YEAR #NO WAYYYYthats like unfathomable to me . so much time #anyways . peace and love . u guys mean tha whole world 2 me .. #and to everyone i met thru art or f*ndom or literally whagever . its just cool that this is smth that happens #sounds so fake deep but i promise u im like.having trouble processing rn how sweet it js that ppl can connect regardless of where u are etc #anyways !

[arklay]

DIANA x ALBERT WESKER / template.

#mine. #pair: ewskers #oc: diana #click for better quality ♡ #posting this before i start changing more things lmao but yes i went nuts and made my own psd from scratch... don't look at me #changed ages to birth years cause of how much time passes in the story!! and also gives cheeky fc for you hehe runs away #the checkboxes make me scream like he almost had a clean sweep it's so funny. and he could've had one more i'm not even joking. cause their #first kiss was technically both of them... like idk how to explain this but they were already standing close then diana moved even closer #and was tracing his jaw and such and they were just lingering while holding eye contact but he was the one who actually closed the distance #so i mean... yeah. she was just about to and he beat her to it!! but diana made the move to get them into that position in the first place #is what i mean. i just couldn't give him more it was already too hilarious lmao #can't tell if i like the lil icons but i can't doodle so peace and love on planet earth but yes i'm happy with how this came out hehe #clueless levels are cause they are clowns <3 i have a lot of thoughts about all that but yes they both take hints in some aspects but i #think they both have trouble telling if they are genuine or not or if they are misreading the situation or whether something is romantic or #not (unless ofc it's over the top and ridiculous. ahem. excella. cough. explodes her with my mind) but yeah hit him with the tism so he's #learnt how to read people very well as he's gotten older but i think when it comes to actual just genuine like wanting to get to know #someone and not just someone wanting to get in his pants he seconds guesses it a lot. and diana's all stems from being rattled by her past #experiences oughguhh and i mean her not actually having experienced proper feelings for someone until him lmao but she's got trust issues #also there were so many tropes i could use (thank you to bestie elliot for helping me finds names of things) but i had to do i got you a #drawer specifically because that moment has such a special place in my heart!! like i need to finish the wip where i talk about that cause #it makes me so silly i'm not even joking #anyway omg i hope the mentions work because doing this on the legacy editor after copying the html for beta one because the image just #didn't want to work in the beta image for some reason rip

[xserpx]

‘Be charming. You can be charming, when you want to be. You charmed me.’

‘Really? The way I remember it, you seduced me, fell pregnant, then talked me into a match.’

A hint of an exasperated sigh, and Savine took her hand away. ‘Talk him into a match, then.’

That felt like a dangerous choice of words somehow.

— The Wisdom of Crowds by Joe Abercrombie

‘Come on.’ Jurand’s turn to give Leo a nudge. ‘You know you can be charm itself when you want to be. Just flash that smile of yours and King Jappo will be putty in your hands.’ Leo grinned in spite of himself and Jurand grinned back. ‘That’s the one.’

...

‘I just hope you know how much I love—’ That word felt oddly dangerous, of a sudden. But he couldn’t think of another that fitted.

— The Trouble With Peace by Joe Abercrombie

The way the TWOC chapter is called "Different This Time" and yet it repeats certain sentences from (TTWP) "Grown Up". I'm not crying. 🥲

#joe abercrombie #the first law #leo dan brock #jurand #leo/jurand #leo/savine #savine dan glokta #the age of madness #the wisdom of crowds #the trouble with peace #i love how leo is flailing in different this time #i know everyone canonically ships it (except leo) but savine is the ultimate leo/jurand shipper #leo's lucky his wife is a good wingman

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

OH GOD THE SET IT OFF CONCERT IS IN LIKE 5 DAYS. OH MY GOD

#LOOKING AT POTENTIAL SETLISTS RN IM SO FUCKING EXCITED #WOLF IN SHEEPS CLOTHING LIVE IS GOING TO SEND ME TO MY GRAVE IM SO EXCITED. #15 YR OLD MAC THAT LIVES IN MY BRAIN IS EXPLODING RN . DUDEEEEE #AAAUGAHGRHRHHHHRHR #AND THEYRE PROBABLY GONNA DO PARASITE AND PUNCHING BAG AND FAKE ASS FRIENDS. WHICH ARE THE NEWER ONES #AND THEN THEYRE GONNA HIT ME WITH A . HAUNTED. HORRIBLE KIDS. KILL THE LIGHTS. NME #if they fucking play nme live im . ill be so insufferable #that song in particular was like #fuck me dude. when my hashtag Bad Friend was in the stage with her boyfriend where they were being so obnoxious and mean together #that song was like. everything to me. it was my go to angry blow off steam song. #if anyone should object to this marriage please speak now or forever hold your peace AHAHA. AHEM. WELL IVE GOT SOMETHING TO SAY- #okay! we get it! youre both a happy couple! why else go through the trouble! of posting it ten times a day #FUCK DUDE THATS A GOOD SONG #AND KILL THE LIGHTS. KILL THE LIGHTS WAS MY FIRST EVER SET IT OFF SONG. BEFORE WOLF IN SHEEPS CLOTHING EVEN #GODDDDDDDD IM SO EXCITED #IM SOOOO EXCITSD #blahblahblah

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya once gave up drinking for a whole month in penance because he'd accidentally embarrassed Diona in setting off her instincts to pounce by idly reflecting lights from an ice crystal.

#hc; kaeya #hc; diona #//To be fair; he wasn't actually aiming to distract HER #//But a cat he'd been playing with #//She just happened to be walking by with a tray of drinks and IMMEDIATELY lunged for it #//Not only did he promise to give up drinks that long in apology; but also volunteered to clean up the mess AND paid for the drinks spilled #//Mind you; it was absolute HELL for him; abruptly going cold turkey that long #//His migraines got so bad; it wasn't even funny #//But he kept to his promise anyways. Bc he is a Gentleman and a Knight #//He NEVER let her know just how bad it got for him that month. every time she tried to pry or taunt; he would swiftly take her focus away #//His knights tho weren't so lucky lmao. It was known as Hell Month; with the training and patrols he put them through #//On the bright side tho; their skills improved Greatly AND troubles in Mond decreased Immensely; too #//He offered everyone staggered paid vacation times in the following months in apology; if not offered to pay for drinks that month too #//Most took up his drinks offer; luckily enough #//Diona claims that month was the most peaceful she'd every worked #//The fact that Kaeya was suddenly a Lot quicker to Intimidate/kick nuisances out of the Cats Tail for her MAY have had smth to do with it #//She still argues since he could do a whole month without alcohol; he could easily give it up altogether #//She still doesn't get why he keeps laughing hysterically every time she brings it up #//It annoys her to no end

[this-is-a-username124]

Oh GODDAMMIT I just realized while rewatching a few Rise episodes. Mikey totally got Dr. Delicate Touch from Meatsweats, didn't he???

He looked up to the dude who starred in a show literally called Condescending Kitchen where he shouted at people for their cooking skills and was REALLY harsh. Dr. Delicate touch shouts at people when the time is needed and he's ALSO very harsh. Do we see the vision everybody

#im probably the last person to figure this out but thats ok🙏🏾🙏🏾 #rottmnt #rottmnt mikey #mikey #michelangelo #rise mikey #rise michelangelo #i didnt explain it that well lmao but #mikey is usually very peaceful and stuff #so imagine tiny mikey having trouble expressing his more.... #Intense Feelings to his brothers #and then he watches THAT SHOW #and he's like HOLY SHIT #so the next time his bros get on his nerves a lil too much #he does his best rupert swaggart impression

[dandyshucks]

i keep thinking about it and i really think the way Junebug finds out Guz likes them (because I'm an overthinking goober) is a drunk confession from him 😭

he probably gets really wasted one evening celebrating some sort of win for team skull and I'm sitting in another room where it's quiet and I'm doing something like reading or drawing, and he comes stumbling in because he misses me even though it's only been like less than an hour since he last saw me, and WAIT this is turning into an actual writing thing okay um uh - (1k words on the dot comin atcha)

Junebug looks up from their berry studies, grinning when they see what a mess Guzma is. "How're you doing there? You look a little rough around the edges," they tease, setting their book aside.

The man's face twists into a sloppy grin and he chuckles. "Nah, nah, nah, m'fine, m'fine. Jus' missed you, wanted to see ya...." He makes his (slightly stumbling) way over to the desk Juno's sitting at, before slumping down to the floor and leaning back against one of the trainer's legs. "Missed ya soooo much, missed seein' your face."

The face in question is now bright red, and Juno twists their head around to shield it from Guzma's gaze. "Sorry if I left too early, I just-"

"Nah, nah, not'n issue. Jus' like seein' your face. Havin' ya around." He leans back and sighs happily. "Makes me feel warm inside."

Face aflame, Juno sits for a moment, lost for words. "Oh, uh, I'm... glad I can... do that for you." He's not implying anything extra. You're just friends. This isn't anything other than a good friendship. Juno repeats this over and over in their head as Guzma settles even more heavily against them, leaning his whole weight against their leg now. Juno pulls themself together, the weight grounding them. "Guz, you're gonna knock us both over if you keep leaning on me like this. Here, let's adjust if you're going to hang out for a bit, okay? If you want to talk that's fine, but otherwise I'm just going to keep working on my studies here."

Guzma groans as he sits up, and Juno moves onto the floor over to the wall behind the desk.

Patting the floor beside them, they say, "Come over here, okay? Just don't crush the leaves in this bag; I'm sketching them out right now."

With another groan, he shuffles himself over to sit against the wall, before grabbing the bag Juno had held up from their lap. "S'bunch'a leaves?" he slurs out.

"Berry plant leaves," clarifies Juno. "I'm drawing them for some notes I have." They point to one of them, brushing against Guzma's hand as they do so, and say, "These one's are from the Oran plant; I brought them from home to compare with any I find here."

With a smile, Guzma grasps Juno's hand with his, carefully setting the bag down so he can bring that hand to trace the outlines of their fingers. Juno feels their face grow hot again, and they look away to the right. "Your hands are so small..." he muses, sounding almost awed.

Juno stays quiet, but turns their head back to look over at him again.

"I like your hands," he says decidedly. "Like 'em a lot." He looks up at them suddenly, a shy grin stretched across his face. "I like you a lot, too, the whole you. Every piece of ya. Nothin' I don't like." He raises a hand to place against their face. "Y'so pretty... 'n' small... like one'a my bugs..."

They can't help but laugh at that, and he laughs too, feeling them shake with mirth under his hand. "Your bugs are pretty?" Juno asks with a disbelieving smile.

"Not prettier than you. You're the prettiest bug around."

Juno laughs again, shaking their head and pulling away from him. "Guz, you're so drunk right now."

Guzma shakes his head, placing a firm but gentle hand on their face to turn it back to his. "Nahhh, I'm - ... well yeah, I'm pretty fuckin' wasted right now, I know that, I know." He laughs before continuing, "But I also know I like ya a lot an' I'm happy I'm finally tellin' ya. You really are the prettiest goddamn bug I ever saw, a little Junebug, and I'm so fuckin' glad I caught ya out in the forest that day or else the best goddamn thing in my life woulda passed me right on by!" He stares at their eyes earnestly, trying to convey just how real this all is for him.

As he talks, Juno's face softens, their eyebrows creasing up. "I'm glad I'm here, yeah," they say, pausing. They look down, opening their mouth to say more, glancing back up at Guzma's face, and then look back down as they shut their mouth again.

"Junebuuug," he says pleadingly. "You're holdin' out on me here, what're y'thinkin'?"

They shake their head, biting at their lip nervously.

He sighs. "Aight, aight, m'not gonna push ya. Lemme just sit here for a bit an' then I'll get outta your hair." He lets go of their face and leans back against the wall with another sigh. "Meant what I said though."

After a couple minutes of silence, interspersed by pencil scratches against paper, Juno finally asks quietly, "Which part?"

Guzma rolls his head around to look at them. "Huh?"

"Which part did you mean?"

He scratches the side of his nose. "Which part did I - oh, oh, wait, I gotcha. Am I really that drunk or did it just take ya forever for you to say anything?" He chuckles, slinging a hand over to shake their knee.

"Sorry, I was jus-"

"Don't worry about it, I'm just fuckin' with ya. You make it too easy!" He turns his body to face them properly and plants a heavy hand on their arm, still obviously drunk. "M'gonna say it again for you, really spell it out, aight?"

Juno bites at the inside of their cheek, looking up at him to meet his eyes, hands fidgeting.

He glances down to see that, and smiles, taking their hands in his. "I like you, Juno. An' I think you're a real goddamn catch. And I want you to stay here as long as you can, maybe forever, but I like ya and I like having you around." He pauses, searching for the right words in his alcohol-addled brain. "An' I'd give up a shit ton if it meant you'd be mine, y'know? I like ya a whole fuckin' lot."

#there was this person in highschool who I liked A Lot and . they liked me too it turned out #and we were both trying to do subtle flirting for OVER A YEAR AND A HALF. and neither of us made a proper move 😭😭 #we found out we both liked each other just after they'd gotten a boyfriend so REST IN PEACE I GUESS #so i think.... i definitely would not get the hint fjdmls its gotta be a Solid Brick Thrown At My Head sort of deal for me to know LMAO #otherwise I'll just think I'm projecting fbfjdl #CANNOT BELIEVE I JUST WROTE 1K WORDS ALL OF A SUDDEN DHFJDLDL WTF #its now 12:30 midnight so its time to sleep omfg HELP. how did i just bang out one thousand goddamn words out of nowhere 😭😭 #POSTING THIS BEFORE I GET TOO IN MY HEAD ABOUT IT. i did ONE quick read over to make sure it flowed decently and im NOT fixing anything mor #dandy.cmd #💜so good at being in trouble #junebug 🪲 #💜a boy and his bug🪲 #I'll figure out a tag for writings tomorrow fjfkfl for now GOOD NIGHT FAREWELL djdkdl #dandy.doc

[godsg111rl]

gossiping does not align with who i am trying to become.

#idk any other way to explain it #waste of time #i really just want peace #idc about other people’s troubles

[deus-ex-mona]

mfw someone i’m mutually blocked with seems to frequent this blog anyway (you know who you are)

#i’m not gonna name names but if the text in the tags managed to bring someone to mind then… that’s just how it is ig #though don’t send this to the person you think of ok? we may be thinking of different people after all soooooo yeah #let’s all stay clear out of trouble together… maybe~? i’m just gonna vent my confused frustrations in the tags in case the person sees this #seriously. haven’t i gone over this before? don’t we block each other for a reason? #you blocked me first (prolly) bc i ship lxl with each other. i blocked you in return (and bc i hate your ship just like you don’t like mine) #so… let’s just agree to stay off each other’s blogs. capisce? #i don’t like you and i know you don’t like me either. so seriously can we just coexist in separate circles or sth? stay away!!!!!!!!!!! #and like real question: if you are somehow here… why? just why? you made it clear that you don’t trust my tls so… why are you even here?? #it’s getting kinda irritating to be told that you may/may not be making indirect posts @ me on main. seriously!!!!!! #i’m trying to give you the benefit of the doubt (that it may be just a small coincidence) but it’s getting real hard to do so these days #so if you’re somehow reading these tags (and idk how bc we’re mutually blocked remember) please just… stay away????????? #in all seriousness i sincerely hope that this was just a few mere coincidences #bc lbr who would willingly check the blogs of people they’ve blocked without being prompted to? it makes no sense whatsoever #i hope that this will be the last post i make about this. bc seriouslyyyyyyy i don’t have the time for this nonsense </3 #and before you accuse me of wanting to start discourse i’m not!!! i just!!!! want to be left alone!!!!!!!!!!!! #let me shitpost and occasionally tl in peace pls my bones are too aged for this