#positive yet sad

[earlgodwin]

"He's spent the entire time being picked upon and bullied by the family. I think personally from where Juan stands he sees the hypocrisy in the family, how they can do one thing and say another. As far as Juan is concerned he's always had the best interests of the family at heart, however misguided that might be and doesn't quite comprehend why nobody understands that. Nobody seems to understand that what he does, he does for the betterment of the Borgia clan and never waivers from that. He does that in ways that perhaps aren't sanctioned by the church or sanctioned by family law."

#oh spill the tea!! he truly believed he was doing something right. an impulsive sad lonely dude who doesn't think through #he was bestowed a position he never gave a fuck about in the first place because being a soldier is NOT what he wanted #he just wanted his family's love and affection. a simple i love you would've gone a long way #the way he teases cesare about being a cardinal because that's the only way to get his attention it's just a little brother thingie #and yet cesare took it way too personal lol crazy to me how cesare was the one who slowly destroyed juan before killing him #like how he forced his hand to murder djem and then slowly sabotaging him by mocking him constantly then setting him up to die at forli #by not informing him that ludovico's army was coming for his neck like even from a military stand point cesare ruined the forli mission fr #because he decided to prioritize his own jealousy of juan; humiliating him and hoping him to die so he can take his position as a soldier #the hypocrisy part is sooo tea because cesare killed juan in cold blood telling him that they're borgias and they never forgive #5 mins later he's begging rodrigo to forgive him for killing juan like bro was just saying that to dying juan to destroy him mentally first #i'm screaming he singlehandedly caused juan's spiraling into darkness. how are you gonna fuck up your brother that hard helpppp ?!!?!?! #fucked up dysfunctional family that i love #david oakes #juan borgia #the borgias #theborgiasedit #perioddramaedit #televisiongifs #tvedit #by jen

[knifearo]

i say it all the time but being aromantic fucking rocks actually. loneliness is one thing but being aro + romance averse had me confront the amatonormative expectation of romantic partnering and you know what i'm NOT worried about now? having a partner. sharing a bed with someone. kissing someone. being held by someone. cause all those physical + emotional needs can be fulfilled by all the people i hold dear in my life and it is no loss of mine to not have a partner. and it's so radical and empowering to say that i don't care and i don't fucking want one! i like being by myself! I HOPE I DIE ALONE ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

#WILL SAY IT FOREVER AND EVER! FUCK PARTNERING! I HOPE I DIE ALONE!!! #literally the power of it. my fucking life. it's for me. and i hope i die alone #aromantic #aromanticism #arospec #aro positivity #loneliness as an expression of total detachment from other people is a separate issue from the romantic loneliness that i see. #which is so fucking lame tbh. no shame to people feeling sad that they don't have a partner specifically #not their fault that they haven't broken out of that amatonormativity yet and obvi ppl are allowed to want what they want #but like. lmao. could NOT be me at this point in my life <3 #i am enjoying who i am and the prospect of a future as myself so much... #and being totally free from that manufactured structured loneliness in the absence of a romantic partner is fucking awesome. #it's me and myself babe but i am NOT framing myself as my own partner. #i am one person and ultimately my life is about me. and i love and fucking treasure myself. and i'm so excited to die alone #talking

[rainymoodlet]

Kiss Me in Komorebi+ 🌸

[Episode Five] One Last Push!

Poor Maxie has been popping up Sad moodlets left and right, and Daniel's taken notice! He was Sad for the majority of the party, and when Dan finally had a chance to take him aside, he tried to comfort him to the best of his ability! When I tell you this dialogue came so naturally it just about wounded me - Maxwell is an absolute sweetheart, and Dan's right - he deserves all the happiness in the world!

[ Part 14/?? ] 🌹

@yikessims

#ts4 #ts4 edit #ts4 screenshots #ts4 gameplay #ts4 challenge #ts4 bachelor challenge #;kmik #sim: daniel #maxwell santiago by yikessims #|| #me crawling up and down the WALLS because i didn't expect so much muse out of this convo and YET... posing it and writing it was so much fu #i don't know if dan comes off pretentious here but he's just tryin to help max out ;o; #bit bold of him to speak abt the guy's kid but thaaaat's our danno #straight to the point #maxwell has been popping up sad moodlets often and while they don't affect his ability to flirt #it has had a bit of an affect on his ability to enjoy jokes and talk with positive friendship gain #so when dan popped up with the option to comfort him i smacked that bitch like no tomorrow #the vibe here is not meant to be that maxwell wants to leave or can't handle the competition #he's just not had much experiences out in the world since the loss of his child #and it's been hard for him to adjust to having such a good time with other people while knowing that his son isn't watching him on the tv a #home :((( but he knows he's rootin for his old man!! #even in death we are still loved~ #and the ring reference is bc maxie used to be a champion boxer!!! he is a whole package we adore this man we love him #we scoop him up and swaddle him and keep him saaaafe #i hope his dialogue and the length with which he talks is alright here :'))) he's one of my favorite lil bubbos to write! #tw child death /

[always-a-joyful-note]

This might be a controversial opinion, but I don't blame Hanamaki Sumire at all for her actions. That's not to say that I don't hold her responsible or that I don't think what she did was horrible (poor Ryu), just that she was a vulnerable woman manipulated by people who didn't care about her (namely, Torao and Ryo). And it's always....interesting to see how in so many industries - but especially the entertainment industry - it's women who bear the brunt of the blame or hate when their wrongs are either the result of others manipulating her choices or "equally" (so to speak) as bad as the male entertainer who did something similar. Do I like Sumire? Not really. But do I think she was the bad guy here? Also no.

#for the record i do think i7 shows us that sumire was also a victim #i just....kind of get a bit sad since i dont see her arc being resolved #maybe pt 4 or 5 or 6 will show some sort of restitution for her? #because it really is a shame that torao gets to succeed and find a redemption arc when sumire doesnt #i know this is a male idol focused media but it does make me a bit sad since she was doing so well #like let her sing again! #or someone tell me that at least torao apologises to her? #mostly cause i get confused when i see him be called kind in the wikia when well...... #idk his actions just rub me more in a bad way than the actions of the other zool members do (and theyre all kidnappers) #idolish7 #fandoms spamdom #note's notes #anyway any time i say something slightly not positive about a media piece i feel so bad #AND YET

[camgoloud]

been seeing a lot of speculation about the place in the line of “i wonder exactly how long colin and michael have been dating for!” but actually i think we have a pretty good idea of how long colin and michael have been dating for. it’s for about as long as colin has been making an effort to dress like a sensible and respectable adult man i.e. since shortly before he showed up to episode 3.1 wearing an outfit that actually looked nice on him

#i’ve simply noticed a change and decided to put it down to michael’s positive influence #although i actually don’t 100% like where this train of thought is taking me because we’ve yet to see the episode that that one terrible #shot in the trailer of colin’s shorts/construction boots combo came from indicating that he will likely be regressing at some point #and if he and michael break up i will be so sad about it 😞 #ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers #colin hughes

[kuzuhina1brainrot]

lallalaallala my favorite boys

I feel like Hajime would be able to acknowledge his feelings at some point while fuyuhiko wouldn’t really try to come to terms with it until someone else says something about it

man, I love this ship so much actually. I can’t tell if I could call it a rare pair or a decently popular yet heavily overshadowed ship??? it has a decent amount of supports hiding in the corners of tumblr, ao3, and a very deep corner of tiktok but not many people know that it even exists, and to me this type of ship doesn’t sound that rare or anything.

#hajime hinata #kuzuhina #fuyuhiko kuzuryu #goodbye despair #art #hajime x fuyuhiko #it’s just a random ass doodle #I was gonna draw their arms linking closely in some sort of way #yet.. #I’d have to make Fuyuhiko get on a stool for half of the positions in my mind for them #it’s sad how they both need so much fucking therapy and help #it sucks when someone says their least fav is Hajime cause ‘he’s boring’ and hate on him with no real reason #like….ohh the way I’d rant #also the way my blood boils when someone makes content of a ship and a person goes ‘so *insert character* doesn’t exist????’ #like if you don’t ship that thing it’s completely okay!! but don’t bring another character into that lmao?? #an art #kouzay’s art

[selkiecoded]

okay thats interesting! in the SF try-outs during the song "legally blonde" she sings about how she cant be legally blonde, while in the official version AND THE DEMO she sings about letting her be legally blonde. which means that at some point they changed the lyrics around, and then changed them back! laurence o'keefe.... nell benjamin.... what occurs in your twisted minds

#covers mouth sorry so sorry guys #im a huge fan of beacon of positivity + good boy (elle puts a leash on emmett confirmed) + love and war (not in the demo but part of SF) #+ i liked some of the lyrics in the demo version of so much better (it called back to beacon of positivity!!! (i am insane)) such as: #I dream of your name next to my own but mine's looking fine up there alone #but i greatly prefer all the official songs we got. well. maybe good boy over ireland wouldve been fun (i think ireland is boring) #but itd play into the 'all men are dogs hurr hurr' joke that im glad they avoided. anyways. what was i saying. #right i havent listened to every version of everything yet (for example theres a SF version of chip on my shoulder i need to watch) #(and just the SF vers in general. shes hidden from me... why was emmett there before the remix... let me see their conversation) #but from what i have heard they made a lot of changes that were sorely needed. in take it like a man demo shes so much meaner?? #it made me sad. it wasnt a duet + they wrung out the romantic tension (no subtext by calvin klein... sigh) + shes meaner!!!! #in the bway vers hes baffled but enjoys going along w it + she genuinely likes him even when hes wearing his regular clothes #but in the demo vers she keeps calling him stuff like ugly duckling and talking about how the geek is gone :( but she likes that geek.. #the lines 'how much do you think i earn??' and 'kindly shut up :)' are funny but speak to a dynamic between the two that makes me sad... #follow me for more beautiful opinions on a fifteen year old musical #(heaves. do you know weird it is to see comments from 15yrs ago when this was actually showing. my brother is fifteen.) #god im so sorry i should be put down like a dog #lgb bootleggers are intense. i swear they got a bootleg every night or smth bc we got her shoe flying off + SF + kyle as understudy etc #go watch a so much better compilation sometime how did they take so many bootlegs?? how did you find them?? #and its awesome cause these were filmed on 2007/2008 tech which means they have 15 pixels maximum #SORRRRYYYYYYYYYY

[reinabeestudio]

everyday is pain and hell and suffering on earth (<- being dramatic)

#this is just me throwin a tantrum dw feel free to ignore ÑSKLFDLS #yomiel speaks #just a bit frustrated i guess. with my current focus. situation?? #bc i do enjoy what ive been makin so far mind you ☝ #. but theres also.... a lot i havent shared (self-insert related) #like the little ive shown here is only the tip of the iceberg. i got more ideas (mostly in text im lazy to illustrate lol) #and i dont share bc im just. #. idk im just so scared #like usually i dont mind it (or i ignore it). im a small account anyway. but in this case its just intimidating #even with the new sideblog its just too scary #got some hcs and concepts that might not be what. most fans agree with. idk and hrmm #like yes its ooc and dumb but im havin fun. and yet #so i keep it to just a few friends. and even then i dont share much bc its not their current focus so i dont wanna bother #and i feel so weird thinkin about sharing with new ppl ive met bc. idk how to feel about self-insert in this case. #(plus a lot happened this month that has made me kinda paranoid as hell and unsure of who to trust) #you have no idea how freaked out i get at the possibility of making others uncomfy with my s/i content (on private) #like i draw a lot of positive emotions from doing self-insert and sharing so. you can kinda imagine how it feels when im limited like this #its scary im scared and i feel kinda lonely lately #so theres a lot im just keepin to myself and idk. guess im just sad i feel like i cant share. scratches head #maybe i should start focusin on other past f/os i can be more vocal about idk. lays down and sighs

[peachiyyy]

i havent seen my closest friends in a few weeks and it’s mostly my fault…idk im just really not in a good mental state rn im unfortunately falling back into a depressive/suicidal state again. My most loved and cherished friends are very successful (rightfully so) and though they are extremely supportive, loving, caring, and genuine towards me, i can’t help but think that i bring nothing to the table as of rn. I know that friendship isn’t transactional and that they’d never treat me as someone disposable just because of my shortcomings and will always support me as best as they could, but my insecurities are literally taking over LOL. I just feel really embarrassed bc we all started at the same time and they’re exactly where they should be while I’m still behind, waiting for things to start looking up for me. I don’t have anything new to say like they usually do and I know that I can’t really relate to their experiences. I’m just not on the same page as them. None of them make me feel alienated or isolated by any means, they believe in me more than I believe in myself actually, I just feel like I’m stuck in a rut. I want to be at the same place as they are but I’m not right now and I just feel really embarrassed about it. Forcing myself to stay home on days off is how I’m coping rn.

#personal #lol sorry emotional post #2023 is just starting off rough…i still have hope but now i know what they meant when they said hope is a dangerous thing to have lol #[they- the unknown deity] #my best friend sends me any and every position she comes across (that aligns w my field) for post grad and is very supportive #but i just feel so sad bc my brain literally keeps telling me that i dont deserve to have these beautiful friendships bc im not on their #level and it’s literally eating away @ my brain #i know im still in college and should just solely focus on finishing up this semester #but this is my last semester iA so i have no choice but to worry about employment post grad #my internship managers are looking thru my resume and said theyd connect me to some ppl but havent heard back from them yet :( #i think i feel this way bc my family treats me very differently now #like i can feel their disappointment and they make sure to mention it too #but im not a bum LOL the only thing i want and need from this world is success! aka a corporate job that pays me six figures

[crimeronan]

finally swallowing my dread and rereading my 59k owl house wip to remember what's happening n reconnect with it so i can write the next chapter and...... y'all it's. so fucking good. what the fuck. it's SO fucking good it's so good it's so good what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck. i mean obviously there's bias in that it's targeted toward my exact interests and exact preferred character dynamics because i wrote it (summer kitkat is a stranger to me. and yet they knew me so well. almost like we're the same person. soulmates). and like on the one hand it BETTER fucking be good because i've sunk an average of like 12 hours Per Chapter into obsessing over the linguistic flow of every individual goddamn fucking sentence, because for some reason i decided i'm pouring the Entirety of my 26 years of study n craft into one ambitious project, but. on the Other hand. IT'S. SO GOOD. SO GOODDDDD I'M LOSING MY MIND. I LAST UPDATED FOUR MONTHS AGO AND HAVE BRAIN HOLES SO I'M GETTING A MOSTLY-READER-FACING EXPERIENCE AND IT'S SOOOO GOOOOD I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW MUCH I'M ENJOYING MYSELF i was not expecting this. my expectation was that i wouldn't connect with the story much and that i'd just experience even more mounting dread over my inability to complete it but instead i'm kicking my feet and wiggling around like oh i know EXACTLY what needs to happen and how these arcs need to resolve and what conflicts need to be hashed out and i'm so so so excited all over again about writing it. hunter needs to shout at darius so bad it's Fucking Unreal. and i get to imagine it with my BRAIN. and then put it on PAPER. and make people SUFFER. i am ALIVE

#i haven't finished the reread yet but hunter hasnt yelled at darius yet has he?? iirc he's mostly been sad and confused #past kitkat singlehandedly rekindling the toh hyperfixation and also the hyperfixation on darius. thanks girl u always got my back #toh #toh fambly #god i need more memory holes more often so i can experience my own writing as a reader again. having a transcendent experience #unexpected delight of the day. this is incoherent but positive so i am hitting the post button #long post ig

[mistressemmedi]

I'm actually quite sad that I will not be attending the Canadian GP this year. Like... Properly heartbroken.

#and i know that this is extremely shitty of me to say #because i was in a privileged position to be able to attend #i have been going since 2016 and all #and there are people who would love to attend a gp and can't for one reason or the other #and yet... I'm really fucking sad 😭 #sorry for the vent y'all

[rafasbiscuits]

no, no, it's NOT passing the torch guys.

STOP I DONT WANT TO HEAR IT. RAFA IS NOT PASSING THE TORCH TO ANYBODY, RAFAS AMAZING THE WAY HE IS!! IDC I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IN ALL THIS. Rafael Nadal is not passing the torch. I'm a bitch. I know. I'm being so pissy about it. I know!!!

But how will I ever move on from Novak/Rafa/Roger's era?? Idk, maybe it's just me, but idk how people move on from the big 3 era so fast now that the new era is starting?? Like?? TEACH ME. I feel like such a bitch about it.

I'm happy for Carlitos, I really, genuinely am. I cried for him, I cheered for him and I really like him and i am so so proud of him. But I'm not ready for his era to start yet. In fact, in all of my honesty and truth revealed, I don't want it to start so fast.

I wish the Big 3 era will stay forever and never end. So why and how, are people moving on so fast? Do they want to see it end before they even end it?? all these videos of passing the torch and all this new era shit. Can't we appreciate Novak and Rafa right now while they are still here and still playing? Soon enough, in a blink of an eye, they'll be gone.

They'll be retired and I thought that people would appreciate them more in their last moments. I know they won't retire this time around, though Rafa will next year and I'm still so upset, and Novak will probably retire in like..5 years. Tops. And Andy too.

And soon all the new gen will take over, I'll be fricking 20+ then, and I won't see that familiar face I always see in my childhood anymore. I won't hear about Rafa's latest injuries, and his grunts, and his little quirks that the media love to point out, I won't hear about another Novak drama of breaking rackets, I won't hear about Novak winning everything anymore and pissing everybody off.

I won't hear the Novak fans and Rafa fans fighting anymore, about the goat debates etc. I'm going to miss the fedal posts that are still around despite the fact that there is only one left still playing.

I don't want it to end.

So how are the people I see on Instagram and everything, how are they so excited for this new era to take over and how are they so excited for Rafa and Novak's (and Roger's) reign to end?

IM- UGH.

(I'm just ranting but that's what Tumblr is for okay, apologies)

#ANYWAYS THIS IS NOT. LIKE. A HATE OR ANYTHING!! #im just in my feels rn i feel okay when theres rafa and carlos in a same frame. just not when its a comparison post. #if its appreciation for the both of them im really. its totally okay #wdym passing the torch? #im petty and im such a what do u call that...THAT WORD IDK ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE. ANYWAYS #rafa is not passing the torch and it'll never happen. okay maybe it will but not NOW. #not when rafa is out because he is INJURED and not because of his own choice. #im trying my best to be positive about everything. but im so DONE. #stop. comparing. rafa. and. carlitos. #seriously i get why. theyre both spanish. alright and they have a lot of..similarities. with the age and the thing okay i get it #but carlitos is carlitos. rafa is rafa. rafas not retired yet. AND IM- JUST?? STOP I- UGDBSGDM😭 #im going to cry now goodbye #someone tell me im not the only one feeling like this #yes im overthinking it but like..still‼️ #im just sad guys and im known to be very dramatic so just..yes. #tennis #rafael nadal #roger federer #novak djokovic #carlos alcaraz #big 3 #fedal

[direful]

i'm so fucking tired

#job hunting juggling various interviews & dreading committing to anything bc i'm not passionate about any of these positions #and yet i really really really need money so if a part time gig hires me i will Have to quit if i hear from a full time afterwards #& i WILL feel guilty abt it even though i have no respect for any of the part time jobs i applied to bc theyre all seasonal retail #AND. to make matters worse & me more stressed. #due to Life Things i got shunted onto a new insurance so i have to change everything over to the new system & figure all that out #& i can't keep seeing my amazing doc & i'm sad bc i wanted to get a referral from her for a top surgeon after i got the job thing sorted ou #so now i have to set up a new doc & transfer my records & hope the new one will fill my scrips bc she cant see me irl till february #& i was supposed to start meds for my newly diagnosed adhd last week but that's stuck somewhere in insurance limbo & idk when i'll get it #and if i get a job with benefits i have to do all this insurance shit AGAIN and i'm so stressed about the possibility of that #idk. manifest a good easy job with good benefits that i can tolerate if not enjoy for me or whatever. #hurgle hurgle

[wongcarwhy]

do u guys kno. just how much i screwed myself over

#BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE NORMAL????? #listen. listen. i could have just. asked to take two weeks off when i first got the job. but i was scared they wouldn't give me the job #if i told them right off the bat #and so i waited a decent amount of time to tell them. and then i was going to tell them. but i got scared thinking that they might fire me #or it would reflect badly on me and i haven't had the job for even 3 months yet and i have a performance review at the end of the 3 months #and the thing i am scared of most in the world is when people who are in positions of authority over me express disapproval #so i was just like. ok i guess i'm not going on this trip that's been planned for over a year and for my grandmas 80th #i will just be so sad and miserable about it and make it everyone else's problem #and then. and then. finally. 2 weeks left until everyone leaves for the trip and i finally bring it up to my coworkers being like #oh yea my whole entire family is going on a big trip without me and i'm rlly sad that i can't go #and they looked at me like. why cant u go? and i was like. what do u mean? cuz i'm new i don't have rights #and they were like. what is wrong with u #and i looked at them and said literally everything #listennnn there is a corporate heirarchy and i am at the bottom of the ladder #i know my place and i'm so used to groveling and begging oh my god i need to get a grip pls #am i normal #please tell me cuz i can't tell is. it normal to be this scared and frightened all the time #like. am i the only one who thinks this way.

[meatriarch]

i may be getting hit by the eepy but, maria-coded 🫠

#dont mind me just lowkey crying yet again abt how important she takes promises made to her and even if someone breaks it she!! tries to be #forgiving and understanding and not hold it against them!! but god does it fucking break her heart!!! esp if theyre close to her!!!!! #theres just always a trace of sadness in her eyes & smile when someone makes a promise!!! cause never know if it can be or will be kept!!!! #her father was the biggest hurt so far and she still tries to keep a positive view on him for the longest time. im curling up in my blankets #she feels too much too big too strong my girl

[tragedykery]

trying to figure out character voices for my ocs and I think the one I have the clearest picture of rn is taituk. they speak…not quite stiffly maybe but definitely a tad formal. more connective words & full sentences than most people use when speaking. they’ve got the admirable habit of just letting silence fall until they’ve thought of the right thing to say, very little uhming or use of other filler words. they tend to be overly specific rather than vague—e.g., instead of saying something is rare or common, they might try to give a numeric indication of how rare or common it is. they talk quite slowly and quietly, but can make themself heard if so desired. absolutely hate shouting. they prefer to speak calmly, and if they’re in an emotional situation they will wait to compose themself until they know their voice will be level. because of this they can seem emotionless to the untrained eye, but they’re just good at hiding/repressing them lol

#oc rambles #oc tag #taituk #to a certain degree it’s their desire to be taken seriously #bc of the leadership position & big responsibility since a pretty young age (being the captain of a pirate crew & the main provider for #their family since what was it twenty?) #but also just. naturally speaking like that bc autism lol #elli rambles #the birates #wind in the sails #the ‘hates shouting’ part is what makes them absolutely Terrifying when they’re mad #sb idk says something horrible and they just. fall silent. lowly but encunciated very clearly ‘what did you say?’ #first person promptly shits their pants #they speak even slower when they’re emotional I think. whichever way around #angry sad happy whatever #I’ve got one scene (which you guessed it I haven’t written yet lol) in which hira & taituk get drunk together and hira—never having seen #taituk drunk before bc they. rarely drink lmao—just spends half the scene marvelling at how laid-back taituk gets #they talk less formally ofc. they’re just content and lazy & open with their thoughts and emotions #syrupy is the best way I can describe it #love that scene actually. hira & taituk just lying on the floor next to each other spilling their hearts. having philosophical discussions. #braiding each others hair & lying in each other’s laps. kissing for the first time. etc #anyway #was gone rb this with a bit about sita’s character voice but I uh. probably need to go to sleep lol