#quite lichrally

[levinbolts]

#lex.txt #quite lichrally #me daydreaming abt valen rn before bed

[cherryphobe]

They are all so special & important. To ME!!!

#no pics of clover because quite frankly i didnt take many screenshots of my first run #i need to go back & lichrally replay that entire build im not even gonna lie

[kaviiinsky]

fucking help I need to schmooze for a work event but everyone here is a sexist transphobic 60 year old white man

#I am quite lichrally the only non man at this conference #spoonspeak

[calibabii21]

You want candles and a massage to go with that bath?

AJ🥰✨

I would absolutely love candles and a massage.

#my thighs are quite lichrally aching #z's struggles❤️‍🩹 #z's thoughts #I love fresh scents btw🤧 #z's moots <3 #aj🎞️ #another beautiful black ally🤎🤞🏾

[akkivee]

i was watching the hypmic festival playlist or whatever this thing is called and HYPED UP 02 IS COMING??????? OH BOY??????

#this is vee speaking #the screen literally flashed for a second lol #so i couldn’t see what the dates were did they announce it and i missed that tweet lol????? #the merch advertised showed tdd merch and i wish i could be excited for that in particular but lol if it doesn’t include nagosaka #then i quite lichrally do not want it #i can’t wait for whatever final confrontation we get in a canon to show sasara and kuukou staying back to throw off pursuers #while tdd goes ahead to do said final confrontation i will be THE saltiest btch if that happens anywhere lmao #ANYWAY YAY HYPED UP 02!!!!!!!!! PRAYER CIRCLE WE GET THEM IN NEW OUTFITS FOR SOME SONGS LOL

[saltedcaramelbastard]

aside from the obvious about keeping myself & others safe, i <3 having an obnoxious superiority complex about still wearing a mask in public

#kn95 or bust! #and n95 on the airplane #i am quite lichrally the last teacher in my school to wear a mask. there are over 100 classroom teachers

[brittle-bold]

[screaminf] I WANNA DROP OUT !!!! [hits vape as a single tear rolls down my cheek]

#i quite Lichrally don’t think i can do this anymore #And Yet #i continue #bark

[lobotomistapologist]

anybody else get cramps so bad it makes them want to commit mass murder

#the pain is quite lichrally unbareable #shut up syd!

[76l0]

fucked up how you can expel somebody from your mind for like seven years or whatever and then it the thoughts can just come back <3 like im not doing as bad as i was summer 2021 but it's basically every day it's... fun???? but that's not enough and it can't be healthy anyway but i can't get help for this it's so stupid. i dont kno anything about this kinda thing but im sure a therapist would just b like "grow up n find a man" a conservative leaning one would be like find one man a lib leaning one would be like find 50 men except they wouldnt use the word men *eyeroll*

i love them so much. the fact they're a bit stupid and a casualty of conservatism and religion and every other sexist thing. that's not their fault. believing things that aren't at all true like that everyone who thinks genderism is stupid is some jesus freak trad-ass... you're stupid but it's not your fault. anyway stupidity is lovable . i really still feel this deep love maybe more than ever bcuz i know nothing can come from this feeling but i still feel this love. this love could be used to provide electricity to a town of about 60k ppl at least

from the first fricking interaction where we both in line to watch the costume contest at animaritime 2011 and i asked some question about the manga they bought but they didnt hear me but my friend did LOL and they weren't even cute then they were just a plain and greasy 15 year old but like teenage girls should be allowed to be plain and kinda gross looking (uhh same b4 i turned like 17) i bet they never remembered being in that line with me or that was me LOL well it doesn't matter.

im willing to admit somewhat that i love an idea. which is fine bcuz other ppl can fit that idea. Potentially. i fit this idea somewhat too. it's not even that specific and complicated i don't think. anyway aaaah i'll stop now. stop writing that is. hmm but i love the love i felt reading those deviantart journals i have a bunch of them saved cuz im problematic like that. love to know about someone's cringiest cringe. i suppose a lot of it is (current and past) me loving (past) me. so many of my life choices are me trying to be like an anime character, whether consciously or unconsciously. it's funny that i didn't watch or read death note when i was a teenager bcuz i really was like misa about them. i really am like misa about them. i think sooooo much of my personality is just copied off anime characters (nagato yuki being the big one) but not this but it couldve been copied off misa if i had actually watched death note then LOL but it's not cuz i didn't but like aaaaah i was so cute and so in love but it didn't help!!!!!! but whatever will stop writing for real now

#unrelated fun fact i haven't drank in four weeks #i was planning on quitting as soon as i came home but there were a handful of times i had a beer at my parents house #and the work xmas dinner and i had some emergency shots (cramps/angry/emergency alert made me LICHRALLY shaking and crying) #and on the 17th i was listening to pamyu pamyu revolution and felt i needed to drink and got drunk (on rum mixed with NA cider >_>) #that sounds like kind of a lot for three months but it's not. i haven't been in nslc since uhh june?? #im so thankful we don't have alcohol in grocery stores it's so smexy of us

[eunseo]

i want someone i can talk to about sunwoo knowing full well the stuff i say would make any normal person block me and report me to animal control so they can give me horse tranquilizers to calm down

#i quite lichrally gave myself a headache bc of his tattoo i wish i was joking my head hurts. #i can feel my diary giving me a side eye as i write this shit down like...

[sankt-jesper]

@fordoweek - UNCONVENTIONAL WEAPON: ALPHA-17 (literally)

ID + bonus under the cut

This came to me in a vision and fomo made me quite lichrally draw it at the last minute so please excuse any inaccuracy 🙇🏽

[ID 1: Fanart of Fordo and Alpha-17 from the Star Wars franchise. They are both in armor; Seventeen is upside down, his left leg held by Fordo who seems ready to throw him with all his strength like one would a spear, except the spear happens to be Seventeen. /END ID]

[ID 2: Close up of Seventeen; a thought bubble has been added with the text: "Not this shit again…" /END ID]

#whenever sb mentions fordo could train cadets 17 gets his top 10 worst officer decisions powerpoint #and its just fordo doing stuff like this #fordoweek2023 #star wars #fordo #captain fordo #alpha 17 #sw fanart #mine #my art #artists on tumblr

[mecachrome]

very selfishly would love more of ur thoughts on oscar accommodating and mirroring lando.... as an insane landoheadTM ive been watching lando slowly match oscar's energy in the past year and its been driving me insane and ur SO right that oscars done the same thing!! kind of crazy kind of losing my mind would love to get more thoughts out of u

!!!!!!!!! hi kira i would LOVE 2 talk about this. also this answer may or may not be 2k words long

god there are so many Angles and Frameworks and Contexts through which it is possible to examine 814's dynamic that i constantly feel unhinged about it. and probably sound unhinged as well…… pls note that all of this is pure insanity from my insaneperson brain ⚠️ ;__; ok where to begin.

to me the thing about 814 mirroring each other is that in reality it's actually a metaphor for many different things ❗️ on one hand you can interpret it Literally as in a strictly physical sense—the idea of mirroring someone as running parallel and positioning yourself firmly opposite each other, as constructing intricate rituals in order to NOT touch the skin of other men, being so specifically magnetically repulsed that any contact is accidental and fleeting and causes you to spring away as quickly as you'd met. but then there is also the other sense of mirroring that is….. more amorphous and conceptual, e.g. how oscar has in many ways indirectly orbited lando his entire career and how although they've only been teammates for a year now lando has technically been a primary reference point of his throughout a majority of his teens. AND what i think is so interesting about that too is that if you look back at oscar's Evolution As A Person, you could argue that he's been purely Himself As He Is Now for a very long time... yes there've been minute fluctuations in maturity and just general cringeness and muscle growth and cheek fat etc. etc. but at least outwardly in how he communicates with other people and displays his mentality / innate habits / mannerisms he's basically been his fully realized adult self since he was like 17??? which obviously cannot be said of lando norris who has grown massively in appearance and perspective and assuredness and so on from the ages of 17 to 21 to 24. yet this constantly evolving & changing your_choice_of_lorde_album Growing Pains lando has always been a sort of distant static fixed point in the future of oscar's mind… hmmm. that's just part of it tho

basically 814 as they are now are sooo fascinating to me because again They Do Not (Consciously) Touch but they've still very gradually managed to build off the foundations of oscar's subconscious teenage mirroring by turning it into something… well perhaps not quite fully intentional (and isn't that almost better in the end!!!) but certainly more self-aware and generally conscious. basically: the Negative Space of landoscar's demonstrated "affection" is where their reciprocity lies! if that makes sense.

and i guess what i'm trying to get at is that… on surface level, it's easy to say that 1) Oscar has always only ever been himself (generally true) and that 2) As the guy who came into f1 at 19 and was continuously expected to meet his more extroverted teammates' energies lando is the one who's habituated to experiencing marked change (also fairly true), but this still obfuscates equally important facets of their personalities: i.e. that oscar may be the more ~intellectually~ inclined of the two (which also who Cares. completely totally off-topic LOL but personal pet peeve of mine is people acting like there is a discernible difference between a-level maths and whatever private tutoring lando did after dropping out when their job title is lichrally F1 Driver…?! both are negligible fractions of fractions of whatever postgrad coursework the team's Actual engineers have done!!! but anyway), my personal argument is that really oscar is so consistently himself BY having zero concept of himself. whereas lando….. actually does possess a very strong inner character and intense, at times destabilizing self-awareness but also boasts a higher eq that enables a very high capability for social camouflage.

……????????? this is like a 10-paragraph intro. What am i getting at.

so basically. Yes. mutual accommodation……. i think my main point is that despite lando's strong baseline character and idiosyncrasies and particularities and fussiness and general weirdness, He Can, when necessitated, (as long as it doesn't completely contradict his moral impulse etc. etc.) soften that edge and adapt to another person's expectations—Even if just to maintain bearable social rapport & conversation. whereas on the other hand oscar can sometimes actually be a lot more malleable because he doesn't really hold strong conviction in much outside the few non-negotiables in his life ??? (read: racing...) like yes he's still competitive in challenges and is pedantic as shit but also he kind of just Doesn't care……. so basically he's the perfect fit for lando. because he DOESN'T expect anything from lando and lando DOESN'T need to camouflage himself for oscar and because oscar interprets things straight-forwardly and at face value and reads lando's intentions in good faith and honestly probably like 30% of lando's overthinking is a result of people constantly assuming the worst of him so i think on some level it's like 👉 👈 when you're both a little weird and also weird in these little different ways but in the end those minute shifts are what make you compatible and fit you back together again ?!?!?!? as i said it's the negative space of it all.

so really landoscar are not totally "opposites attract" but they're also not identical "mctwins" or whatever because Nuance and Secret Third Thing and what's truly critical about their mirroring is basically that 1) they don't EXPECT the other person to do it 2) they don't INTENTIONALLY do it and 3) it only happens because they're intensely aware of the other person's personality and mannerisms and appearances... bref IT'S ABOUT THE CATALOGUING!! like lando saw oscar in 2023 for the first time and immediately went oh you've gotten taller? oh you have big arms now? and they can't help pointing out each other's hair and ALSO >portrait painting (gets ko'd) "do you like purple?" "...uhhhh i can do now" like WHO SAYS THAT? ANDDDDD this was after oscar had picked purple to begin with but lando was like Nooo you can't do that :/ so oscar changed even though he'd argued that he'd "already committed to it" literal moments prior. Many such cases (i'm not finding a chair anyone?). they make me feel insane.

right let me just finish up with a few more moments (if you're still reading i'm sorry) but Vocabgifset is kind of a rough overview of how, at the very beginning, i think oscar did come in with a very undefined approach to How To Be A Teammate ? and was ready to treat lando as he'd treated rob and logan and fred and whomever and maybe even reflecting the atmosphere as reserve at alpine a little bit idk—essentially more visibly abrasive and pedantic and generally annoying. Also (ahem) perhaps how he'd seen lando act around carlos and daniel before... Guy who has carlando tweets in his twitter likes. 😔

but of course lando REALLYYY doesn't like being unnecessarily corrected over ultimately inconsequential things and again his demeanor is far from bombastic when it hasn't been demanded of him, so i think oscar quickly recognized that in his character and learned to just play along with what lando liked and wanted—not because he was preoccupied with lando getting annoyed at him or thought that lando was sensitive or whatever and not because he himself is a pushover because of course there is a healthy & endearing amount of push/pull to their dynamic but just because he sincerely respects lando and with that respect understood that he didn't need to "force" their dynamic when it would prosper by just being himself and more importantly letting lando be himself……….. Or something.

which imo is basically the basis of their current communication style: a lot of wordless meaningful looks & expressions (because they're both entirely honest people in different ways) (SEE: VIRGIN RADIO UK) (the thing Is that lando has no verbal filter but oscar is the one with 0 control of his expressions and deeply revealing permablush), oscar always folding to whatever lando says in an interview, jumping into frame and following along lando's message in the british f4 anniversary video, listening to lando's music through the walls of their driver rooms, and of course any instance of their Soft Talking Voices such as → "yeahhh you're up there" "aww (genuinely a little pleased and flustered)" and CAT 5 behind the scenes smoothie convo and oscar patiently waiting for lando to finish speaking and not wanting to enforce his presence but always being there and ready to help him….. like the worst part 2 me of the "well-represented" video is that andrea turns to lando first and tries to help him but lando is Still processing and Not listening so THEN he looks at oscar to be like um i don't know the word and that's when andrea looks back at oscar expectantly 🥲😭😩!!!!!!!! what if i dyed. honestly. the category is truly just oscar being susceptible to Lando Norris…………… i could go on.

also >RANDOM MOMENT TOTALLY NOT IMPORTANT but the yes/no challenge is so devastating on every conceivable level and yet One thing that i do not think is discussed enough! is the way oscar physically leans into lando's space on the table every time it's his turn to answer the questions and Specifically how in round 1 the media people were trying to get his attention to tell him to put the mic pack into his pocket but he was soooooooooo focused and fixated on lando's face right up until lando turned to speak to the camera that he didn't notice for like 3 minutes. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH. argh. the problem with oscar is that he's SINCERE. truly. "are you ready oscar piastri?" [zero hesitation whatsoever] "i am ready lando norris 🥰"

of course it's not like oscar doesn't introspect whatsoever because obviously he is very capable of self-assessing when something is important by an objective measure of success (aka recognizing deficits over a lap), but relative to lando's specific brand of overthinking & online lurking habits then oscar very much does.... basically underthink??? yes he overcomplicates simple ideas by being too literal but really as a person & conscious being he's great at living in the Present and filtering out excess noise. er... i won't delve too much into the ojp Learned Behaviors of it all and why he's so charming to older people specifically but basically Wwyd if an F1 driver microdosed autisticswag? joking. mostly. but i def agree re: your tags that oscar is never actually consciously trying to be a WELL AKSHUALLY guy because it's just fundamental expressive compulsion alkdsfhaldfh.

also specifically one of my favorite tiny little 814 things OAT is when lando says something unexpected or ridiculous and oscar parrots it back all high-pitched and breathily and disbelievingly like? Girl. this is super jank but perhaps you understand....... 😔

in the end it's getting asked >what have you picked up from lando and oscar saying Well everyone hmmms but not in the Special Multifaceted Uniquely Expressive way that Lando does ! whom I not only know well enough to intimately recognize this mannerism from but have also elected to mention multiple times in this interview. and at the end of the day...? maybe that's romanze

is this anything… idk. also i offer you the jankiest gif ever because i had to remove zbrown to fit them together (Which perhaps is also a metaphor for reaching each other Across The Distance NO PHYSICALITY REQUIRED!! ok i can't just keep saying see: [another random ass example] so i'll stop now but also see: eyebrow raise knowing smile at the end of the sim city video.) anyway why's this such another crasyinsane little moment of how they communicate with each other?! is it just me ?????????

alskfhsfd ok i'm so sorry. thank u for letting me ramble incessantly 🧡

#ask

[leatherbookmark]

this is like super cringe or whatever but it always kinda hurts when People Who Make Posts Online seem to think self-hatred, feeling misunderstood and unloved and other such pleasures of life are something that only happens to overdramatic teenagers who then grow up to realize they're, duh! obviously! how could i be so silly! loved by the people around them. it's like once you hit a certain age you naturally become a proper member of the society who's above such immature things as "feeling like an outsider". when like. i'm only realizing now how enormous the gap between me and my peers/people much younger than me is, how i have zero skills or experience with literally any "adult person thing" you can think of, how i'm not just "an introvert" or "just like that as a person" but rather a result of what happens when you just stop caring about your child having friends, hobbies, etc and simply leave them to do their thing in their room, and how i quite lichrally do not know what love is because no one in my life has loved me in a way i could understand nor did they care to teach me. and it doesn't really matter anyway but yknow, it's not like i can filter those posts! so it's always like Aough an unscheduled reminder to Feel Bad Strongly

#shrimp thoughts #my new card came (it's very pretty) and i tried to activate it but the terminal said Wrong! Fuck You! and i got worried but then it #turned out the bank is experiencing things and events and in result Stuff might be impacted so it's not my fault. phew! as they say

[grandekofi]

i get that the bar was quite lichrally on the floor when it came out but the fact people still recommend addicted as a good bl……….. hmm

#addicted heroine #chinese bl #personal #bl series

[calibabii21]

tmi of the day: battle of my '02 biases

tell me why I was flicking my bean rq while my parents are out of the house

and I usually try not to force an imagine of someone in my brain- idk I just like being surprised by who just pops up when I get there

so when I did arrive, fricking Jisung and Jake were there too.

one behind each eyelid.

it was quite lichrally like they were competing.

Jisung hitting it from the back, and Jake in my mouth.

I was like 😃??

but then I was like 🤔 fic idea??

should I do it?

yay or nay?

#z rambles #z's dirty thoughts🤐 #z's odd girl tingz :p #z's struggles❤️‍🩹 #jisung vs jake? #bean flicking tales #z's tmi🤫 #nct dream #park jisung #nct dream jisung #jisung's noona❤️‍🔥💋 #enhypen #jake sim #enhypen jake #jake's silly girl🤭💘