#real trash hours

[imaginedmelody]

Listen, we all know from 2016 that I fell hard and fast for the beloved tumblr obsession that is the Foxhole Court books. But the author surprised-announced not long ago (late last year I think?) that there was a new book coming out in the series when she never gave any hint that this was a possibility, and it released yesterday night, and well...

I'm right back on my bullshit y'all. 15% in and I can feel myself being re-consumed by this fandom as completely as the meteor that killed the fucking dinosaurs.

#the sunshine court #tsc #the foxhole court #tfc #aftg #all for the game #the funniest thing about these books is that i love them with all my heart and i would recommend them to exactly zero people #unless i get the sense that theyre a very specific type of fandom trash panda like me #they are not...how you say...accessible to the palate of the general public i think #but they are fucked up and full of found family and healing and actual torture and i could read them for hours #but no one i know in real life should ever touch them probably lolllll

[rillette]

Pretty boy! Everyone you draw is so pretty lmao

TYSM!!! That's very sweet of you to say! T^T <3 <3 <3

#jason todd #basketball #asks <3 #ty for the ask!! #and the kind words <3 #he's fucking eepy!! #if anyone is wondering im still blasting chromatica #real chromatica hours #i love the idea of capes taking public transit (spidey ps4 game this is for u specifically my love) #does new jersey have a metro system or is it like extra shit there #they cant not have a metro right theyre like a fart away from new york #considering gotham is like. two islands. how does their train system work like is it all above ground or what #also i looked it up nj does have some subway lines #WAIT. they had metro in the batman movie. all is well #batman movie my beloved i love the worldbuilding so much. the trash on the ground blowing in the wind <3 #no they def have to have an underground rail system bc bruce's cave is in the abandonded station right. its there #i love you worldbuilding. anyways i love capes taking public transit very muchly its such a mundane concept but like since its superheros #its automatically like woahhh this guy could FLY and hes taking the TRAIN like a LOSER. sick em boys!!!! such a silly idea to play around w #i should go to bed i think ill stop rambling in the tags of this very nice ask now lol

[piopon]

Yo this canvas aint big enough for the two of em

#real scout hours #just a pair of little dudes trash talking across the map! #‘​hey bird brain you aint gonna win’ #hummingbird and blue jay hours #gonna have to revisit the designs soon blehhhh #mlp crossover #mlp #my little pony #ieo draws #pony tf2 #tf2 #tf2 scout #0 wit in this post LMFAO sorry

[hishoukoku]

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#I feel like I'm bothering ppl with my bullshit and i can't shake the feeling that everyone is fed up with me #I wish i could go live in a cave by myself sometimes #.....(let it be the 10k gods cave at least T.T)...... #no but for every hour of intense serotonin i get from things i love...I feel like a worthless trash the next few hours #Almost like i don't deserve it because even saying HELLO sometimes makes me feel like a bother #and that's to ppl /I/ consider friends #ive lost the ability to even realize who considers me a 'friend back' #not that i have anything to offer #plus i have to do some shit at work that i dont like #and it's taking a bigger toll on my brain than i thoguht it would #but its fineeeee cause I have the ability to bury myself in the things I adore to stop even the slighest real world thought from occuring #hyperfixations ftw #'cept SOMEtimes like now when im overwhelmed that i feel like i dont do them justice #I'll delete this later I'm just.. Tired.. #Ishidarambles #Personal shit #ranting in the tags like an OG tumblr user

[sodafrog13]

thinkin abt jacket calling beard lieutenant, bc everyone around him does. but when jacket says it it's just... different. when anyone else says it, it's just a title, a show of beard's authority. even with the rest of the ghost wolves, even if barnes and daniels say it more in teasing affection than genuine subordination, it still makes him feel a little... othered. like he's being set apart from everyone else, just because he Happens to be the ghost wolves' stand in commanding officer.

when jacket says it, it's out of some sort of reverence. the way he says it makes beard feel like this man would do anything he asked him to, anything at all, and the thing is that he's right. jacket would move heaven and earth just because beard asked him politely, would run over shards of glass and burning coals and not say a word if it would make beard happy (not that it would; beard's so tired of unnecessary violence that seeing anyone he loves get hurt would be incredibly grating).

not because he sees himself as his inferior, not really, at least. but because he sees himself as belonging to him. beard is his lieutenant, the only one he'll take orders from and the only one he'll follow blindly into the abyss. he has to make himself useful, has to keep him safe because if he doesn't then what good is he as a soldier? as a friend? as a lover?

for lack of better words, it makes beard feel... comforted, in a weird little way. like maybe he has to make sure the both of them survive this war no matter what. like maybe there still is hope in this awful world that had forsaken them both, forsaken them all. like maybe there is light at the end of this corridor while warning sirens blare and air doesn't quite make it to his lungs.

because he's jacket's lieutenant. he has to make sure they both make it out alive because if he doesn't, then what good was that title in the first place?

#hotline miami #beardjacket #the trash speaks #it's real archie is delirious thinking abt hlm characters hours again #trashcan's analysis

[fruitpunchjollyrancher]

caught myself thinking today that BOTH harrier dubois and kim kitsuragi are just like me fr and i think i have hit a new level of mental illness. my horrific floral button up is going to start talking to me any minute now. if i buy 5 more notebooks in the coming weeks then the situation has become dire

#disco elysium #i need to force my friends to play this game #so i can talk at them about it for hours #because lets be real this will not be a 2 way conversation it will be a trash fire of me going on tangents about it

[byronicbi]

oh man, happy 2 years of being on that sweet sweet juice. ✨️

#celebrating by being trashed out on the couch watching john's UCN livestream. #might record a lets play later on to do more vid editing practice stuff. #but for now it's real headache hours so I'm just gonna chill. #texts.

[dilfsisko]

I think if you have inflammatory pain you should be barred from ever having to deal with nerve pain and vice versa

#els.txt #I want to remove my nervous system and throw it in the fucking trash #even brushing my skin against my sheets is unbelievably painful #I can barely lie down and moving causing excruciating pain #and this is WITH a Vicodin #I think if I held off on taking that I’d be in tears #idk I tried going to the ER for this once and they just made me sit there for three hours till I just fucking left #I couldn’t stand sitting in that chair it was my skin was actually on fire #I think they thought I was drug seeking bc i went alone bc no none would come with me #either way it made me real fucking mad but at the time I was in too much pain to care

[toffins]

you belong in a trash can / you're just like your father

aka an angsty poppy doodle while i was listening to grungy slavic underground rock (i hope i wrote the cyrillic right lmao sorry if it looks wonky!)

#artschmarts #mtl oc #mtl fankid #metalocalypse fankid #metalocalypse oc #poppy mcdannis #support ukraine now or else #just cuz i wrote it in russian doesnt mean i condone or accept what russia is doing #that being said. #yea i real talk LOVE cyrillic i think its so pretty and beautiful and aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #which i hope doesnt come off as weird or racist or sumn like that #and tbh i wanna state that changing poppy so shes from belarus is a good excuse to use it #and ik that belarus isnt a great fuckin place but i do my research and tbh i just like slavic culture esp that grunge underground #plus eastern european dialects and shit like that i adore #anyways i used like three different translators for the text just to be TRIPLE accurate #in the red it says ''you belong in a trash can'' and yellow is ''you're just like your father" OWCH #also listening to parties are for losers on repeat for god knows how many hours doesnt help but stream PAFL by ferry now #but i dont fuckin stand by russia at fuckin all i just think its such a beautiful language

[kittlyns]

Category 5 tummy hurty event when I'm fully booked and have no downtime 🚨🚨🚨

#trying not to double over in pain in front of clients but god it is a little hard ngl #I feel bad cuz I keep abandoning this client I've been with for a couple hours now #and I don't wanna be like my tummy hurts so I'm gonna step outside and scream real quick #I just keep making up shit. 'oh I'm gonna go check my laundry real quick. hey I'm gonna take this trash bag out real quick.' #instead I'm just hunched over doing breathing techniques and hoping she doesn't notice it's taking me 8 minutes to 'check laundry'

[arthur-r]

as usual i am up late into the night planning my future when i should be: getting a good nights sleep so that i even have a future!!

#i have work in seven and a half hours. so i should really be getting to bed #BUT i officially made my final definitive degree plan!!!! i mean not the actual classes but all the requirements i have to meet and how!! #(in order to earn: history and information science double major. with certificates in material culture and classics) #and i’m genuinely excited for every single class i have to take except for human-computer interaction #just cause i know it’s gonna get overly technical in ways that won’t quite apply to my future #anyway every single other thing i’m gonna do is very cool and exciting. so everything is good really #but i should be sleeping. and i’m not. as usual 🤧 #idk wish me luck!!!! i’m so hyped about my degree plan though #i’ll go into more detail another time. i’m very excited #ANYWAY goodnight!!!! can’t be so busy planning my future in library science that i DONT GO TO MY SHELVING JOB #kind of important to actually go to work for the library that employs me…. #and then i might go see a first-printing roget’s thesaurus!!!! or i’ll sleep. we’ll see #followed by lunch with GUY WHO IS THE WORST KILL HIM WITH HAMMERS #(there is nothing really wrong with me he just keeps kind of being mean to me and also expecting me to fall in love with him. but like #extremely passively and not manipulatively it’s just like. hey buddy you’re doing this friendship wrong….) #anyway then i have a class and after that i have an hour to rest. and then a phone call and then a lot of homework #(ten page paper draft due in a week and a half!! so it’s time to start writing the actual body of it) #and then i sleep for a LONG time and then work again on saturday. and then sleepover with somebody i have a crush on?? #and then be normal all day on sunday and do a little more paper writing. and programming homework. and whatever else #and then keep up with the slog for three weeks!!!! and all of a sudden it’s summer!!!! #projects left this year: material culture paper (entirely unstarted. but may research the thesaurus and just win!!!!) #history project (draft due the monday after next and real paper due a week after classes end) #one more programming assignment where i adapt my recipe doubler project (probably. it’s getting stupid at this point but it’s what i got!!) #and a programming test in two weeks and then the final a week after that. then no more programming #and then i just have my weekly latin tests and a latin final on may 5th. and then EVERYTHING IS DONE #ok i got this. sorry for walking through my schedule in the tags it’s how i remember what’s real #can’t believe my fucking partner just kind of walked out on me there hello???? like. we should be powering through finals together #but i’m genuinely better off without him so i guess it’s just whatever. trash took itself out or something?? #anyway. i’m so regular. and i have work in the morning. and i’m going to sleep #thank you world. goodnight

[chika-nyan]

Just two more months (plus 3 days in April that I left after vacation for saying goodbye forever to coworkers plus maybe hustling for some “hey we’ve been friendly, can I use you as a reference for a future job”s) to go!!! And honestly not a moment too soon as things continue to get worse :)

#like lolol heard that corporate has decided to add fake tasks to the to-do list #Like oh are you listening really????? Dump the garbage on the ground :) #Like I have no time for these dumb games I may know not to do it but you know what????? #If you put it on the list it shall be done :) *dumps trash on the ground* #It’s stuff like wow put the garbage bin on the other side of the store ;) #In addition we also take daily quizzes and they are adding more real tasks as well :) #All while there’s no hours to give and no manpower :) #I got so pissed off the other day I almost moved my quitting deadline up u_u #Don’t get me wrong would love to but gotta get all the bread I can before I go #I think there’s some holiday hours in between and that would be fantastic to have #Plus I have a doctor’s appointment and need the insurance for that #Lies down. I’m so excited to be free soon!!!!!!

[stourhead]

i think we should all start caring at least a little about our hook ups' feelings

#it's good to acknowledge that other people are just as complex and real as you are. and the sex will be better #whatever.... there's just one person in one discord i'm in that talks about their hook ups very rudely and it's just mean spirited and ugly #please get better soon (get better self-esteem so you stop trashing the people that sleep with you bc you view yourself so poorly) #anyway i ended up being at this guy's for 9 hours this weekend. el oh el.

[xerospaced]

Dermatologist confirmed that I've been treating my skin right but gave me a prescription for suttin I can use daily for my face anyway

Used it last night and woke up looking a lot better (tbh I usually do anyway) - I did notice a difference

And my skin has been in a pretty decent state of repair. I've been going without makeup without feeling self conscious

Today, other discomforts had me picking at my dang face again and, whilst I haven't fucked it up completely, I've def done more damage 🙃

So now it really is just a battle between me and my damn obsessive compulsions

Trying to actually curb it completely so that I can get this damn facial in a few weeks and enter 30 with clear skin and glowing

By will or by force ima make it happen

Even if it means keeping my nails cut as short as possible and avoiding looking in mirrors

I'm trying not to fuck it up so that when I'm 30 I can fuck it uppppp

Yagetme

#mine #skin #dermatillomania #i dont really see people talk about it but its real #and horrible #esp like... #my face looks like trash so often and i know its my fault #and i WISH it was as easy as deciding not to do it COZ LET ME TELL YOU #ya gurl has bawled her eyes out begging herself to stop and still been their destroying her face #but i am managing it way way better #no more two hour sessions in front of the mirror and walking away with my entire face wrecked #more often than not i can be proud of my efforts these days #just gotta keep going #and keep reminding myself that it is a form of self harm coz that makes it a lot easier for me to talk myself out of getting carried away #i will be fresh faced soon #i put thay on everything #i used to be like porcelain #this aint how im doing adulthood

[fauvester]

well this has been the sickest i've been in years

#my life #was so worried about getting a respiratory virus from the kids. #and here i am poisoning myself with fucking unrefrigerated leftover pasta #ive been throwing up nonstop since 4 am :') #its just gatorade now... theres nothing to evacuate i promise.... #anyways im feeling like 70% ok but theres a very real threat of shitting myself. tee em eye but this is MY blog #it was great i made it to an hour before signout before throwing up in the nurses bathroom trash can #coming out like wibbly eye emoji Im so soggy. and they didnt even look up. theyve seen worse. #i had to pull over on the road to hurl. grabbed some puke bags from the nursing room on my way out though so i was PREPARED #throw rav4 into park at a red. puke guts out. wipe off face. keep mfing driving

[torchiiko]

ouhvgggg i love pathetic men i love men who live in the literal trash i love men who look like theyd cry if you agreed to go on a date with them

#big fan of fictional men. as you can tell #if i had a nickel for every time a fictional man i liked lived in the trash id have 3 nickels #which isnt a lot but it probably says smth abt me considering it happened 3 separate times #torch chatter #real simping hours