#runs into the bathroom and throws up

[1-8oo-wtfbro]

give me more fics where Eddie runs into Steve and Robin, running around after being drugged (and tortured) by the Russians at Starcourt. Steve, dopy and sweet and acting like dumbest puppy- and did i mention his face was beat in? Robin, flailing all over steve and giggling with him as they sway, more intertwined than humanly possible, eyes unfocused. and Eddie, faking calm as he tries to herd them to a bathroom and planning to kill whoever drugged his these loopy sailors that he’s been annoying all summer.

#steve ‘your hair is sooooooo pretty eds. uuurrrr sooo pretty eddie’ #robin ‘Steve steve steve steve steve it’s called BACK to the future because his mom wants to fu-‘ #*proceeds to stumble over steve and then trip and make them both go flying* #eddie trying not to unleash hell on whoever drugged them- at least not while they need calm (spoiler: he is not calm) #suprising steve manages to look like the prettiest princess even after lying on a dirty bathroom floor after throwing up #dustin comes and gets them (he saw eddie- who he saw take them- pacing outside the bathroom while the two had their canon heart to heart) #and steve- still a bit out of it- just promptly kisses eddie on the lips in thanks before running after dustin #and steve didn’t regret it #(steve didn’t know what to do with that information as starcourt burned behind him) #also robin gave steve the *u like crabby pattie’s don’t you squidward.* SpongeBob face. cannon #steve harrington #starcourt mall #eddie munson #robin buckley #platonic soulmates #steve and robin #eddie munson has a crush on steve harrington #kiss #gay kiss #bi kiss #drugged by russians #the russians #sweet steve harrington #steddie #steve x eddie

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some (late) holiday photos of the boye~!

#cats #holiday #OUGHH....... barely could even get these edited and posted... my mysterious sickness flare up has been sooo bad the past few #days.. I didn't even go to the usual obligatory family christmas I was supposed to attend (!!! health issue/medical mention in tags below) #My stomach issues basically put me in a constant state of uncontrollable shivering/body shaking + nausea + sometimes rapid heart #rate. and when it happens at night that makes it like.. nearly impossible to sleep when you're violently shaking + you can feel your heart #so strong + you keep having to run to the bathroom every 5 minute to cough and gag #and throw up and so on and so forth. etc. So I went like 40 hours without any sleep almost for christmas eve and all of christmas day #last night I finally got maybe 2 hours of sleep in between the nausea and shaking and stuff. and then today I was able to get a few #hours of sleep in the afternoon. Today I tried taking an anxiety mediciation a doctor gave me in case it was anxiety related (it's apparent #ly used to relax people and works in the moment. rather than like Anxiety Mediciation that you have to take for weeks to see any effect #because I think this isn't actually acting on your brain chemistry it's judt like..a mild sedative or something.) but all that did was make #me dizzy and sweaty lol. I;m glad I slept a little but I'm just still frustrated that I don't feel normal. I started having these #'episodes' (with the stomach issues + shaking + heartrate + nausea etc.) like at the end of october. And usually it will happen for like a #few hours at a time. or i'll lose sleep one day and then be fine the next. but this has been like nearly 3 days of feeling weird. so is #getting kind of annoying... It's funny too because I was so so productive like.. literally the few days before. I was feeling much better #and I was working on my game and blah blah. But then.. random issue flare up out of nowhere of course.. yaayy.... happy holidays to meee lo #I did at least see two random ducks outside of my window in the yard area for christmas. and havent seen them since. So it's like.. hrmm.. #pacing around my room nauseous and shakings and etc. but at least... hello.. two little ducks placed there just for me :3c #Now I get anxiety every night which I'm sure doesn't help/could exacerbate whatever underlying genuinely physical issues exist. But after #like 2 nights of 'I spend the night sleepless and incredibly uncomfortable just sitting in the dark sick' then bedtime is like.. dread... #I even was trying slapping myself in the face in desperation to see if somehow that could shock my body out of whatever the hell it was #doing lol.. up at 3am holding ice cubes in my hand and hitting myself in the head and crying from exhaustion and thowing up.. literally #ridiculous cartoon character feeling... AAANYWAY!!! At least I have baby boy pictures. and I have lots of doctors appointments so hopefully #whatever the issue is can be sorted out at some point. I don't know much about ibs but hopefully maybe something like that that I could pos #ibly take medication for and not something more seirous or anything. Maybe there's a food I'm secretly intolerant to or whatever. #And I did at least post a sims holday video actually timed for the holidays so that's something. I havent been productive really latrely #though obviously.. I can't even play games or small tasks when in that state since I'm just SO physically uncomfortable. Nausea and heart #stuff are THE hardest physical sensations to ignore.. BUT yeah... hoping I shall sleep at all tonight. hopeing to get like 3 productive #things done.. at some point... at least SOMETHING... lol..... *** *** ***

[seventh-district]

it’s finally getting cold enough that i can bring my cardigan collection back into rotation without feeling like i’m gonna melt into a puddle the second i step outside!!!

#Seven.txt #my face #i have rematerialized back out of the void to once again make my once-in-a-blue-moon selfie & life update post #i’m running on 4 hours of restless sleep and the single banana i ate for lunch earlier today. let’s do this #hrrrrg i hate the lighting in my bathroom but i refuse to take pictures in the absolute Mental Illness Disaster Zone™️ that is my bedroom #anyways. got diagnosed with Mystery Pain Syndrome at the dentist today. so now i take ✨steroids✨ #the less funny explanation is that my tooth still hurts with pressure nearly a month post-root canal and That’s Not Good #so we’re trying some new medications to see if that fixes it. and if not then who knows. root canal pt.2 the sequel. or extraction. sigh #and so the Dental Saga continues. todays visit went quite well in spite of the unforeseen mystery pain delaying the tooth-shaving plans #we had some time to kill so he managed to fill some of my other tiny cavities while i was there today so that’s good #okay moving on. what else. uhh. OH they finally came out and ran the fiber to the house last week!!! now i’m just waiting on one more- #-guy to come and finish the interior install and the long awaited fast internet will finally be mine eheheheheeeee #now i can feel my hours upon hours of unedited gameplay footage breathing down my neck :) #man i’ve got so much stuff piled up right now. i’m drowning in Tasks and it’s a lil overwhelming but i’ll handle it all! eventually #uhhhhm my current writing project is coming along well! i’ve never put so much time and effort into a oneshot before in my life #its a labor of love though and i think i’m gonna be really proud of myself (and the fic) once it’s complete #even if no one reads it bc it’s so goddamn self indulgent and kinda lowkey throws canon out the window but like. fuck it! #if i want Astarion to write a song on piano and perform it for me while mentally taking me on a trip down memory lane. then so be it #fr though i’ve never written anything quite like this and i rlly want to do it justice. even if its unrealistic i still want it to be Good #in other news i received word that one of the chickens i sponsor at my local Gentle Barn has passed away so i had a lil cry abt that #i feel so bad for his little tiny chicken wife. they obviously loved each other and it’s like. so sad when one half of an old couple dies #like. she pulled him out of his depression after his 1st wife died. now who’s gonna be there to pull Her out… #anyways let’s not get all sad about that again. in happier news my cat who i presumed died/got killed has returned home uninjured!!! #after that huge stray dog chased her into the woods i thought we’d never find or see her again #but then the morning after i started grieving her she showed back up hungry as hell yet completely unharmed like the enigma that she is #so that’s one definite highlight from earlier this month. uhh what else. rapid fire summary of the past few weeks let’s go- #Jersey turned 10! Bullet turned 10! my 6 year Veganniversary happened! i’m approaching 700 days on DuoLingo! #i’ve written more than 20 thousand words! i’ve been facing some fears! fighting my OCD! taking care of myself! (kinda!) #anyways things are far from being all sunshine and roses around here but i’m trying to focus on the good stuff for the most part #for now tho i have a headache and have reached 30 tags so it’s time to go shovel some mashed potatoes into my mouth :)

[vampirebiter]

extremely fucked up how I had to finish my shift even though I started feeling so so bad :(

#i had to take 10 minutes while cleaning to literally run to the bathroom and desperately try to not throw up #and then i was back mopping and counting money #i feel a little better now but still not very good #ghost.txt

[dingostrash]

Had my yearly dentist check up. Still got perfect teeth.

#not art #it's amazing genuinely considering I woke up by having to run to the bathroom to throw up #it was b a d lol

[lovecrazedpup]

just had one of the worst cries of my life i think

#going out soon but idk im just so full of anxiety n everything sucks #ive been throwing up since like 3am too bc im so anxious #like i fucked up last night and it hasnt left my mind #n then i have to join a discord and get interviewed and play a game that i find terrifying bc itll make him happy (first world problems ik) #and now i have to go out to lunch today #which would be great but !! #my jeans are a tiny bit tighter than they usually are which means i gained weight !!!! i havent eaten today so its not bloating !!! #and then i went into the bathroom to look at myself and i saw how bad my eyebags are so i went to put on makeup #but i looked fucking stupid so i took it off and now im just sitting here kinda bawling over how ugly i am #i fucking hate it !! im so disgusting #im so tired i just want to kms and cut #how am i meant to talk to him when i cant stop crying and how am i meant to go outside like this #like im never gonna post my face here but u guys rlly dont know how gross i look #god im gonna meet him in like 4 months dude i fucking cant hes gonna find me so repulsive im going to cry #wtf do i do im so fucked nothing is going to save me #hes just gonna spend like 3 days with me probably fuck me and then just leave me i fucking know it #its so over man its so fucking over someone just run me over with a car #jamie.txt

[thesparrow1996]

feel like the vibe of the library transition is a bit too optimistic for me. i don’t want to push myself and i don’t want to run programs and i don’t want to be in charge of anyone i just want a few hours on the desk and time to do little upkeep projects on the books and the marc records and my lists is that too much to ask.

#i have the energy for uh. maintenance. and not much else lately. #if they make me run a program i will throw up in the library bathroom that’s just what’s gonna happen and no one wants that.

[soldier-poet-king]

Literally would just like be. Congrats youre your own doctor now BC 99% of my issues are MYSTERIOUS HYSTERICAL WOMAN DISEASE but also I cannot prescribe myself SSRIs and I need those to yknow. Not die.

#franposting #can i go cry in the bathroom at work and also maybe throw up bc lunch is hurting me #actively. actively hating everything rn #and i cant even just ignore it or else i will run out of meds and i WILL die #fuck a chronic condition. fuck all my homies hate chronic medical conditions

[macroglossus]

so furious and enraged over a horse game that im trembling. genuinely. stole my fucking unicorn right from under me. punching holes through drywall and screaming so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so fucking loud

#:) typing those so's. in a rhythm. sounded like horses hooves. :) #i dont even like horses to be quite honest. i play this game 100 percent because of nostalgia i really dont like them #theyre way way way too big for my personal tastes and their fucking teeth scare the shit out of me #i try to be full of whimsy and feed my grandpa's horse an apple? it comes at me with its fucking tombstone teeth #jesus #i have ended up just tossing the apple in its paddock 100 percent of the time. way too scary #and even if it didnt bite me what then? then it slobbers horse slobber on me? it gets me with its weirdly structureless lips?? #it's just too much. im nauseous just thinking about it #im sorry this is so cruel to horses. im sorry horses. but please don't come near me #plus the last time i rode a horse i (TMI SORRY) pissed blood in a mcdonalds bathroom and cried #why am i saying any of this. sorry. it's literally 1 pm and i haven't been able to sleep yet somehow #even though ive been trying since 6 am :( #if youve read this far i am giving you an apple and getting so so so scared of your teeth and throwing the apple at your feet and #running away

[icewindandboringhorror]

Literally cannot comprehend that some people just... go places.. I know someone who just got back from a 2 week vacation and then the day they came home they went out to eat at a restaurant (at a busy time mind you, like 7pm on a saturday night!!) and then went to a mall to shop and then woke up early for brunch the next day and were at a bar in the afternoon and so on and so on and it’s like... god don’t you get tired of being places? If I go grocery shopping for 20 minutes on monday and then have a doctor appointment on tuesday, I am SO tired of leaving the house that I want to do nothing for the next two weeks lol...  Doing multiple major tasks/trips in one day and ENJOYING it and SEEEKING IT OUT is utterly inconceivable to me..  we are different creatures entirely lol

#not even regarding how irresponsible it is to be constantly doing stuff during the pandemic and etc. etc. like EVEN before the pandemic #I felt this way exactly the same. I just do not understand the human compulsion to be Doing Things (tm). And it's not that I don't enjoy #SOME things #like very hyperspecific things in controlled environments scheduled 10 days ahead of time and intricately planned lmao #but like there is some stuff I enjoy so it's not like I just hate everything but it's just... ghghhhhhhhhhh #like what are you running away from something? is it unberable for you to be alone with yourself so you have to be like #constanly up and out and finding new sensory shit to throw yourself into or like??? #I am legitimately not exaggerating comepltely 100% fine not leaving my house for months at a time (aside from going on walks to get excercis #e just around the block/still within the neightbohood and occasional necessary grocery trips to stock up on food obviiously) #I simply do not posess the impulse to go out to restaurants or bars or go to clubs and dance or go to parties or concerts #OR even travel like...?? idk I guess it's not terrible but in the past when I have traveled I've found that the only things #I could name that I enjoyed about the experience were like.. I like being on hotels because you get free breakfast sometimes and they have #TV and air conditioning and better beds than I do at home. I like people watching from my room windows. I like being in airports because #of the way they;re designed and I like to pearch somewhere and watch people and watch clouds and planes taking off. #I enjoy being on airplanes because the windows feel cold and you can look at clouds and sometimes have gingerale. #but I dont enjoy the traveling or going places itself. I'd rather be at home working on my hyper-specific interest hobbies lol #legit not joking at al if I won tickets to like an all expenses paid super luxury tropical getaway I would sell them and use the money to #buy craft supplies. I would get 10000x more personal fulfilment and joy being able to work on a new project or having the money to pay off #bills or buy better groceries or get an apartment with a better bathroom or something like that than I would having the one time #experience of like wow I looked at a cool beach and some sunsets and ate at restaurants a lot #And maybe the thing is like. I don't value experiences? I value resource security and pratical progress at things #and not in a like workaholic capitalist way but just in a like.. I value more what's going to make me happy in the LONG run than temporary #expeirences that are somehow supposed to mean something to me in the moment (yet I usually derive no pleasure or meaning from at all) #Like I would rather use money to invest in my niche hobbies or crafts or personal improvement or getting a more comfortable #bed or better shoes for my foot pain or etc. etc. than I would spending the money to go out to a resuarant or travel or etc. #ALSO again like.. in addition to it simply not seeming worth it because my brain rarely is able to conceptualize the value of those sorts of #experiences.. it's also just SO tiring to do things! Even a grocery store trip can be overwhelming with sensory stuff and social things #and etc. etc. and I just realize like.. all the things people have told me are Fun are not Fun for me. I grew up and realized you actually #have no obligation to do things. I found out you can spend your birthday at home alone eating a waffle and playing your favorite video game #and I have never went anywhere or done an activity on my bday since lmao.. 'Doing Things' is just hard for me to grasp still really lol

[alketaire]

How the fuck does the icky tummy crowd deal with this all the time. There oughta be a law.

#it's like I'm the parent trying to bathe their stinky toddler and my guts are the toddler throwing a tantrum #only 'taking a bath' here means 'sitting up and getting off the couch without immediately running for the bathroom'

[disownedbytiime]

Either this “cold” is getting worse or this is something else

#I’ve been dizzy the whole week but yesterday and today has been worse #I have to run to the bathroom to throw up every hour or so #aidé.txt

[arthur-kingsmen]

stressing and agonizing and pulling my hair out and screaming

#so i did go into work yesterday #and i kept having to run to the bathroom to b sick #and eventually i stopped being ‘hey i gotta go to the bathroom’ and being straight up ‘hey im going vomit’ #and i asked if i could leave early and they said they were super understaffed so i was like ok bet #anyways i was crying at my spot and my supervisor saw and she was like ‘ok lemme see what i can do’ and went and played on her phone #so i decided to fuckin. stop going to the bathroom and i went and had to throw up behind the regesters #and she FINALLY let me go home #(i had to uber home and hop the fence and sit outside in the rain for an hour bc i didnt have my keys) #but it was my first day off leave so im like. they shouldnt judge me for not being 100% yet #but also. going to feel stupid and embarassed going back in #for WHAT tho. idk why im feeling shameful i cant control feeling sick #but i always hate myself and feel so embarassed abt it #im just. its also the stress on if i even can work and if i cant how can i do anything w my life #and also does my bf hate me and also am i a failure and also am i just meant to die #ofc this is all bc i need to take my FUCKIN brain meds but i havent been able to. jn ages. so my depression is. and my anxiety?? #anyways i want to light myself on fire i think #personal

[divinemanicstate]

//shit in tags

#if ppl wonder how insane i am i had a friend over last night nd i started laughing so had i had to run to the bathroom to throw up #literally ji woon incarnate minus the murder

[madeofbees]

i’m sorry

did you say

excess bruising

is a symptom

of my condition

like a motherfucking peach

#eds #ehlers danlos syndrome #tw bruising #i didn’t even feel it happen #i was running to the bathroom to throw up #don’t even know what I hit it on #i noticed at first because of the lump in my leggings #i thought there was cat fur from laundry or something #but no it was me #physical health #yes it does hurt now #this is five days out I think #selfies #photos #i guess