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cannibalismyuri · 8 months

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all's fair (war and peace)

kisses on cheeks and necks and collarbones and fingers / hands on necks pushing me to my best and on my arm pulling me away from the battle and on my face shielding me from my true self / your mouth bruised and bit and divided and conquered while your hands granted me temporary hope and a fucked up nostalgic dissonance from the real world / practice what you preach, i used to tell you / the difference between your preaching and practice never really existed as a discernable distance, but rather a manifestation of fatal hubris staining the cracks of your mantras / love is war and fair, and peace is unrequited and unattainable / the caverns of your love were too enormous for me too even begin to explore the subtleties of it / the vines of my preconceived notions must have wrapped around your throat as you choked out your repeated stories about gratefulness and being sated with the minimum i was given so that i'd never dare hope for more / when you vanished into the humid mist of the mystery that was so inherently you that i never learned to question it, the gasoline left by your presence burned. and it burned bright in the dark and harsh on my skin / your love wasn't fair or unrequited or unattainable. your love wasn't war or peace. your love was elemental / earth, air, fire, wind, water / your love was all-encompassing and destructive, and i drowned in it.

#hi i wrote this when my biological dad who left us when i was eight whom i never heard from again contacted me.#for the first time in more than a decade. today. um. its. its okay to rb. its fine to perceive this in any other way! just thought id...#idk like set things straight about why i wrote this. wrote it in ten minutes tho lol......haha #life is a. bit stressful rn. im not the Biggest Fan of my bio dad if u can tell #my stepdad Isn't the worst person but im not sold on him either. he's always been good to my adopted sisters tho #ok. enough rambling. um. enjoy <3 #original poem #poetry #poets on tumblr #sara's poetry #im so fuckginf nervous um. sorry to put this Here but yk. yk . idfk i need an outlet i think

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smallblueandloud · 1 month

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sometimes friendship is yelling into each others' dms about Bullshit

#sara is hearing my 'god the leverage fandom is racist' rant again #i am sure i'll hear her version of the same rant at some point soon #we are shaking hands #sb and l rambles

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dmdoll · 4 months

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My, my, my!! How times have changed. Used to be going to bed at this hour once upon a time and now I’m up to start the day.

#saras rambles #which means I should have all the time to answer asks!#if I don’t forget #again

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wispisstillverybored67 · 6 months

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Tengu masks are actually shed facial skin from their transition from adolescence all the way to adulthood. Normally, it all peels off in one go usually at age 63 (13 to them), maybe lower to early bloomers. But for the unlucky ones, it'll peel off in slow layers. Regardless, it'll be formed into a mask in about a few weeks, and is the sign of a Tengu becoming an adult. An adult usually has a red gradient to their limbs that taper off into a regular skin tone further to the body, and children's faces are also red. To be "red-faced" is to thusly mean "to be or act more youthful then one is or seems, especially when one is an adult".

The mask itself is also a symbol of wisdom and pride, and not much things can soundly wound a Tengu's pride then to have it stolen. The mask is treasured, and wearing it properly will provide a strength boost.

#wisp rambles #tengu #half a my universe post half general HCs #kujoh sara's mask is how she looked when she was younger #but it was just the face. again #you know. like when a girl begins menstruating. or when a boy's voice cracks 50 times over #headcanons #< kinda?#puberty

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urdearestmom · 2 years

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I hate that everyone ignores that Mike needs some serious therapy. This poor boy is not doing okay :’(

yeah i truly don't know why anybody hates on characters that haven't done anything horrible? like yeah Mike has made mistakes and he's a little annoying sometimes but bro. have you ever met a 14 year old boy?? why's everyone acting like he's the worst person in the world

this happens all the time too! Lucas was hated by so many people after season 1 purely because he didn't trust El right away 💀 why should he have? we as viewers obviously could tell that she was not a threat to the boys but Lucas didn't know that! his reaction was perfectly normal lol they found a strange girl in the WOODS and Mike took her back to his HOUSE? i wouldn't trust her right off the bat either if that was me

Max got lots of shit for a while too because of the whole breakup thing in s3 (although not as much as Mike did) and it's like man. she's a child who was trying her best with the information she has. leave her alone she's not evil

and idk it's not really a big deal but it's behaviour like this that makes me concerned for this generation and the next. if this is how we treat fictional characters who do something we don't like what does that say about how we treat the real people around us when they screw up?

#some thoughts #sara rambles off topic again #stranger things #mike wheeler #lucas sinclair #max mayfield #anon #ask #answered

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opportunity-strikes · 1 year

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Just wanted you to know I appreciate the tags on your boy. I see them every time you reblog him and it makes me smile every time <3 so glad you like him so much

I love him with my whole heart! I'm always so impressed when I look at him, can't believe you felted all of his little spines. I could gush for a while about all the little details tbh. The thing that impresses me the most is pose and proportion and all of the shapes which are all just so natural (which feels weird to say, but I've done a few felting projects and getting shapes to look and flow right while also being distinct is something I struggled with, so I admire how you did it!!).

Also he has his little front feet crossed in the same way our cat crosses her paws when she sits in her hammock, which is just a silly little detail that I love so much.

#frowningfox #asks #sara speaks #im glad you enjoy the tags #i like when artists send their art around again #especially when it's a comm i got #and i get to just point and shout and say I STILL ENJOY THIS!#i think its nice to be able to say it again.#it feels like the internet can just swallow up craft in favor of new new new onto the next thing #which has its benefits but also... i still enjoy what's been made yknow?#i am still enjoying it. i will continue to enjoy it.#oh its a bit late and i have rambled a bit #anyway my husband got me a felted sculpture of the dragon my dnd character raised and its one of my favorite possessions #and you all ought to maybe see about getting yourself a beloved little dragon too!

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royalhouseofcarrington · 4 months

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My Brain: Ooh, Canva! Let's make Christmas cards from everyone through the years!

Me: Everyone?

My Brain: EVERYONE

#I'm sucked in #And I have the layouts for the cards picked out #I just need to take the pictures that go in them #sara's rambling again

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saviourkingslut · 1 year

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finally finished s2 of the alienist... uhmm why was this season abt everyone BUT the alienist. hello. daniel brühl turn on your location i just want to talk

#WHERE was laszlo #literally they only gave him a bunch of scenes with lara pulver so they could?? send him off to europe at the end???? huh #he barely did anything at all the entire series. even for the case he was barely there to offer assistance #i get wanting to do a little more for sara's character but now it was HER show more than his #and no offence. but im watching the alienist. for the alienist.#my sister and i were SO disappointed by the last ep too #john marrying a woman he doesn't truly love just so he can? have a child?#laszlo fucking off to europe and leaving his whole ass institute behind?? WITH THE PATIENTS HE CARES ABT???#sara ending up in that classic 'strong independent women don't need a man they can be successful without them' hashtags feminism #as if wanting to be in a relationship with someone. makes you anti feminist or something.#society has progressed past the need for the independent strong women trope #where are the women in loving relationships with men who agree with them and their views and who wholly support them #women don't need to be alone/unhappy in their love life to be feminist characters. please.#i can't believe i dropped s2 ages ago and then finished it bc of daniel brühl and he's actually barely in it at all. incredible #if he's not in a possible follow up season i am not watching it. again it's called the alienist and that's what i am here for #curry rambles #ALSO WHY DID THEY KILL MARCUS?? that was totally unnecessary esp in a last ep like that.#cheap effort to get the audience emotionally involved #AND SPLITTING UP THE MAIN THREE CHARACTERS?? if you want your series to succeed. NEVER split up the #found fam at the end #is2g nothing kills my goodwill for a piece of media faster #the alienist

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nerdferatum · 9 months

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I've been struggling with artist block for a while now, so I thought it might be a good idea to do some quick drawings!

Reply to this post with the OC you would want me to draw and I'll tag you when all of them are ready.

#I only ask for a little patience #since I'll be working on commissions as well #but!!! I'm excited to draw again #sara draws #sara rambles

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userlaylivia · 21 days

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this year is flying by omg!!! exactly one month from tomorrow (may 9 lol) it'll be my birthday and that's just incredible to me because it feels like I just had it lmaooooo every year flies by faster than the year before istg lol

#sara rambles #I'll probably make a post a day or two before my bday again jsyk lmao

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tired-needs-sleep · 1 year

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what's your favorite thing abt one (or some) of your oc's personalities? do they have any certain behaviour patterns/mannerisms that you love? choose whoever u wanna talk abt, I'd love to hear :]

drops everything runs over to you. some? how about all the main gals.

oh. ih god oh my sweet trauamtized ocs.

i talk so much here. like a lot more than normal. sillies,,

for rhea i think one of my favorite things is actually how i imagine a novelization of their save file. since i think it would be so cool if taka dies, (but technically speaking either taka route can work for them. the choices are both in character for her so it's basically a 50/50 chance she'll lean one way or the other) i want to show just how absolutely fed up and tired of team meteor rhea is, so instead of the usual tone of narrative showing the reader how rhea feels on the inside at the moment, rhea stands up while holding taka's scarf, and the tone changes. from something like, say:

rhea blinked at cain through the window they made in the blanket cocoon they were in. of course he was right. there were more important things than feeling sad over something in the past. that could wait until later.

it would become this if it took place after taka dies:

they blinked at him. “right. there's more urgent things than this. what's the plan?”

i think i can explain a lot better with demonstration than describing it but i'm completely obsessed with this style choice. basically it shuts out about 90% of their inner monologue that is usually in what i write. most feelings and thoughts would be shown through actions and words, but i have not had too much luck with writing that style quickly since i'm so used to adding a “they sighed, irritation ..yadayadayada” to some part of an interaction. i still love it, just takes longer since i would need to go back and filter things out. also i get rid of things like the 'felt' in “she felt the wind on her face” to become “wind blew on her face.” makes it seem less casual and more tense. past me may be a little silly but that was one of the better ideas for them.

also after taka dies they go apeshit because they grew as close friends whole they got lost traveled through the desert. like team meteor killed kiki, someone i imagined rhea would be close to, kidnapped the kids, tried to kill them multiple times, and probably more i can't think off off the top of my head, but then taka? a good friend? nah i think i would be done too lol

that's just the narrative as well. rhea as a character i adore so much. like how they blush at the smallest complement or gravitates towards citrus fruit. or how koa (espeon) evolves to save them again, since they did that on the train too, so rhea returns the favor and ends up with a cool lightning scar as a result. and how they just squeeze their heirloom as a stress response. sometimes she bleeds. sometimes she does not notice. thank you twitter mutual that was an amazing idea

ALSO ALSO ALSO their relationship with amaria. i have a whole draft talking about this. what really sold me on the don't fight taka route was amaria attempting to drown the player. i don't know how the scene goes exactly but i was not about to let that opportunity go. rhea finds themselves looking up to amy and is like "wow. strong trainer. i wanna be like that sometime maybe." and i imagine they got along too. which makes it hurt more when they're both underwater and rhea can't get air. (i like to hc that the dive tm just enhances the trainer's ability to hold their breath underwater depending on how strong the pokemon using it is and at that point it's been a hot minute since resurfacing) so rhea, afterwards, goes from enjoying being underwater and surfing to being anxious when there's other people around. they're okay when alone but is usually on high alert anyway.

nia?!?! nia. so rotten over her. i love how she's just playing pretend basically. she's very hurt on the inside even before nancy dies but she just acts very extroverted and hyper to distract herself. she is still generally a friendly and generous person but it's like, she's pretending it isn't affecting her, when it is. little things like how she flinches when people begin to argue around her or how she has less faith and trust in authority figures, even being a little less obligated to do what they say. (see the time where i think it was crescent told her and ren not to go after melia and nia straight up told them, "nah we just didn't care what you said to us") i haven't thought of too many more but they will be there!!

the biggest thing i've been obsessed over with her is how she deals with the "death" of herself. at first her favorite color is red, since pink is a shade of red and nia and nancy were super close. but that shifts from red to orange and yellow after she comes back. ironically the same color as lava. hm. but it's not just the colors!! she likes wind. and rain to an extent, but not too much rain. her hair type and rain is not a good combination when she just got her hair done. but mostly wind. she can feel the wind. it reminds her she's still there. and that breaks me because she's learning to notice smaller things she didn't before. go girl go enjoy life as much as you can within the circumstance. the relationships with other characters too. it really made rejuvenation for me. playing fetch with aelita. i was dying of fun. nia smiled for the first time after mom died there. playing with her bestie and a cute doggo. goodest boy ever. hanging out with melia. nia found hapi and her meeting very sweet.

also erin saying that nia fidgets a lot in her sleep. makes sense, since nia has bad nightmares. twisted endings to things scare her to the point she dreads going to bed. i like to think melia catches her awake and they talk a little before nia thanks her for what she told tesla at terajuma.

nia may not have an "oh my god. i'm not straight" moment but she will have multiple instances of "wow. i am really gay. shameless even" just like me. should've seen my reaction to medalis' art smh

oh boy. emo girl. kisaragi. she's not nearly as developed as nia and rhea but i still adore her and her seriousness and parental issues

do you know how excited i was when valkyrie gave me the go ahead to make them. went feral. absol aura wielder beloved. i never figured out their hair color since red eyes go well with both white and black hair. they developed some trust issues a lot earlier than the other two ocs because they already experienced fake friends so many times. i was like, it would be cool if sara was from aevium, where most of that au is, and went on the desolation boat with the help of their friends because they were so done with their parents.

so sara tends to come off as sort of mean at first, because she defaults to “this person might just want something from me and leave afterwards, so why get attached in the first place anyway” so it takes a while for them to fully trust anyone, really. they're super soft on the inside though. mega soft. see when they interact with their absol, hasumi. i'm such a heckin sucker for mean/rough exterior but soft characters. they are so shaped. hug shaped. i like how they'd just melt if you say something like how you think they're so cool. they have some self worth issues thanks to their parents comparing them to their siblings often and disregarding what they might want to study at school for whatever they think is better. which is never better for sara.

i also really like what i have for their current dark type behavior (since soul bonded with absol, they can display characteristics similar to the type):

gets a headache that can turn to a migraine with too much exposure to artificial lights.

low sugar tolerance

feels connected to night/darkness as a whole, but in sara's case specifically the moon or a dark forest

can see better in the dark

unusual stealthiness. literally walks silently most of the time

hates bugs, would never admit to being scared of certain ones

practically nocturnal, does better at night but can handle the day fine.

i still don't know how the fighting type weakness can manifest? there's also the general effects an aura wielder has. like being resistant to illness, which i find funny because i hardly ever get sick. i woke up sick one day and was better in 2 hours. why is my immune system made of steel? i've been joked about because of it kashahhasja

also she likes ghosts since like absol, they think they're generally misunderstood. sort of like them. maybe people think they're stuck up or rude or something when that's not who they really are, like how people can think all ghost types are malicious when most aren't. also finds them fascinating how there's no scientific explanation for some of the cool things they can do!! and that's even cooler. how do you phase through the wall haunter do it again. again. again!

tldr i'm soo normal about them all.

#sleepy shut up you talk about them so much /j #sleepy rambles #oc: rhea🪐#oc: nia <3 #oc: kisaragi🌙#this ask made my day thank you gon #i was gonna ask you something but the words didn't wanna articulate AAAGHHH #i love my ocs a healthy amount #this is one of the longer rambles #i just adore them all and think they deserve happiness...#.....#*hurts them again*#new desolation episode tomorrow so very excited to play with sara again #also i got this ask about 2 hours ago and i'm just now finishing it #very fun one though #when the ask makes me think and talk a lot>>>

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themagical1sa · 2 years

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Its totally okay that you replied okay :) sometimes we just aren't in the mood to reply (I had this ask and I was like I'll answer it tmr and to this I have not answered it XDD)

Also living hell of a country resonates with me. There is a part of me that is constantly afraid while living in this country. My family and I are a minority and well,,,it feels like I hear violent acts done everyday so there seems to be this deep seated fear in me now.

(it wasn't so bad before but I guess the country follows its government. if the government heads are violent the country follows)

Toxicity is something I am more or less familiar with I think. But i dont wanna talk about it in case my parents are toxic. I dont want to think about that XDD

BUT OMG YOUR ART IS SO PRETTY!! I LOVE THEm SO MUCH!! THE COLOURS!! THE SKETCHES!! THE MODELS!! SO PRETTY!!

up to something huh 👀 👀 I cant help but wonder

I'm doing okay :))) School has told is submit all our copies on the 2nd so I am just praying for my shoulders on that day. (I haven't completed 4 copies yet ;-;) AND my midterms are gonna start on the 17th. woooo *cries*

BUT ANYHOO! everything is else is going more or less good, teachers day is coming up so I'm thinking I'm gonna make cookies but hey lets see if I go through with it :)

Good to hear you're doing okay! 😌

How was Teachers' Day? Did you get to make cookies or did you end up doing something else entirely? o(>▽<)o

Thank you for your comments on my art! I'm super glad to hear that — I haven't drawn as properly as I did for a loooong while. January to early June has been such a blur... I guess mourning and processing the death of a loved one does that, huh? Not to mention the stress of the national elections–

–BUT either way, I've been able to grow out of it somehow. At this point I just want to make my lola proud of me, even if from heaven. 🥹

[pretty rambly about my late lola; you can skip!] Speaking of my late lola, I had a haircut last July a couple weeks before my birthday — I decided on a wolf cut. It promoted my natural wavy hair which was a lot like her natural wavy-curly hair (I used to have my hair straightened via rebonding). A few days later, my dad had a dream where lola (aka his mom) told him about how she liked my hair. On the morning of my birthday, my grandmother came to me in a dream, gently patting my head and telling me how pretty I was. I even quote, "Ang ganda ng apo ko." (Tagalog: My granddaughter is so pretty.) 🥹🥹🥹 💗💗💗

You 🤝 Me living in a hell of a country and government

We sure do live in scary times, Anza... so here's to our survival against the odds! 🍹🍹

#[ 🗣️ | the magical girl replies ]#[ 🦋 | anzanxious ]#keeping up with Capi #highkey rambled abt my lola oops #i'm kind of over it i guess? at the very least i can say she watched me grow up from infant to literal teenage young adult :'D #altho ngl during nat'l elections i was. grieving for her even MORE because she remembered growing up in the Marcosian ML era and it was #scary for her. and now they're back in Malacañang 💀#same tyrant family different generation of Capi . . .#I swore to her I'd never let her memory die. nor any Marcosian victim under martial law era #the vice president sara duterte is secretary of the educ dept. and there's an underlying agenda of historical erasure OR distortion and #i fear for current and future youth tbh #we're gonna see a gen of Filipino kids raised with mis- AND disinformation 🧍#tl;dr to lola i'm so sorry we failed but rn we're doing what we can #BIG BIG TY ABT MY ART AGAIN BTW any and all feedback r very much appreciated

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